#nims speaks!

[twitchmattentusiast]

CAN YOU PLEASEEE write a chris angst where he forgets about a date he planned with his gf and he’s seen out with like influencers and stuff and the reader gets sad cause she’s like “he forgot about our date but can go to a party?” and then she’s like it seems this has been happening for ages now like he’s putting them before her so maybe they break up and then he grovels to get her back

꩜ .ᐟ SECOND CHOICE, - christopher sturniolo.

the rain tapped softly against the window, filling the quiet apartment. you sat on the couch, staring at the candle flickering on the table. the dinner you made hours ago sat untouched, your phone in your lap showing chris’s last message:

“can’t wait for tonight, baby. love you.”

that was hours ago. no texts. no calls. nothing.

sighing, you scrolled through Instagram, only to feel your heart drop when you saw chris at a party, smiling with influencers, drink in hand. he’d forgotten.

tears pricked at your eyes as the realization sank in. he forgot about our date but made it to a party.

this wasn’t the first time. lately, it felt like he was always choosing them over you. every plan you made was overshadowed by another event or someone else’s demands.

the door creaked open. “baby?” chris’s voice was light, like nothing was wrong. “i’m sorry i’m late, there was this thing—”

“you forgot,” you interrupted, your voice flat. you didn’t turn around.

chris’s smile faltered. “what?”

“our date,” you said quietly, still not looking at him. “the one we planned. you didn’t even text.”

guilt washed over his face. “shit, i didn’t mean to. i got caught up, and—”

“you didn’t even think about it,” you cut him off, finally turning to face him. “you never think about me anymore. it’s always about parties, events, everyone else.”

“that’s not fair,” he said defensively. “i’ve been busy—this is my job.”

“i know,” you said bitterly. “but it feels like they’re more important than i am. i just wanted one night, chris. one night where I didn’t have to wonder if i still mattered.”

chris stepped closer, his voice softening. “you do matter. you know you do.”

“do I?” you asked, your voice cracking. “because it doesn’t feel like it. not anymore.”

he reached out, desperation in his eyes. “please, don’t do this. we can fix it—”

“i-i dont think we can,” you whispered, backing away. “i don’t want to keep coming second.”

chris’s face fell. “wait—please. i’ll make it right. i promise.”

but you shook your head, walking past him, the door closing softly behind you as his voice, full of regret, echoed in the silence.

everyone buckle up bc im going to introduce grieving bf chris !

[cyanide-latte]

I'm living for all these Caturday blazed posts! Hope Tumblr does this again next year so I can participate with my void floofs. (Need to prioritize some bills right now but maybe in the future if it happens again!) I'm going to vamoose for the night, but have Nim

and her baby brother Chaos!

[squanderedpotentials]

Goin' crazy...

Outta my head...

[cloudymistedskies]

remember when i said i have plans for you?

😈❤️🥰

IS THAT A THREAT OR???

IM A LITTLE THREATENED

[aetherose]

Early on in her adventure, Nimue would gravitate more towards taking the more 'good-aligned' companions with her (Gale, Karlach, and Wyll) because she secretly craved their approval a bit. They were what she didn't think she could be, and she admired them and took them with her quite a bit as such.

However, her fear of their disapproval and her own moral compass (barely existent as it was) wouldn't fully mesh well, and it would lead to some conflicts between her and them. She would slowly feel more awful taking them with her, in the sense of 'They're so good and I'm so not, I don't know if I can be the person they see in me'. The pressure to be something she wasn't with them would suffocate her.

It's not that she wanted to go be an evil bastard, but as time goes on even with influences from her companions helping her form a moral compass and understanding right from wrong better, she still ends up with a quite utilitarian mindset. She ends up being fairly kind and generally does the right thing, but she can at times do some very questionable actions to achieve the greater goal that could lead to conflicts, even when she'd force herself to do certain things to make as many companions happy as she could.

She would find herself in actuality gravitating towards Astarion, Lae'zel, and Shadowheart because of her feeling like she could be more herself with them. She wouldn't feel as pressured with them in spite of how any of them could be just because their mindsets aligned more so with her own and their expectations felt less difficult to reach, and their disapproval just doesn't hit as hard for her. She still cares whether they approve, but it f eels less like a punch in the gut since she also didn't crave their approval nearly as much.

She equally (platonically by default) loves all of her companions very much regardless but some are just easier to be with than others, though late Act 2 after her urges are finally openly known to everyone it becomes easier to be with the more good-aligned companions knowing they accept her as she is more.

It's a her problem overall of thinking quite lowly of herself and admiring the good-aligned companions to a degree that leads her to fear they'll reject her even more so than the others. Even though they don't expect her to be a shining paragon of goodness and ultimately would accept her, she still fears failing to be the sort of person they'd want to be with.

So, overall, it ties back to her fear of being abandoned in the end.

[emeraldbabygirl]

The fuckin manager and the end of Tokyo Noodle Factory:

[libraryleopard]

watching dungeons and dragons: honor among thieves when i play a red-headed druid concerned with deforestation and urban sprawl in my current campaign

[milkbreadtoast]

OH BTW for ppl who like milkyam (if ur there)... i translated my fav milkyam fancomic...just sharing bc I want u guys to read it too 🥺🥹 its my fav i could write an essay abt what i love abt it KFJDJFVF...

[potatomountain]

FUN FACT!

the average book length is between 90k-110k words!

another fun fact! I am only half way done (not even) with Inherited Demons! It is just over 85k words!!

yall- xD

[teamxdark]

Saw the tag and…..Nimue’s part in your series? I’m curious what you mean.

In my SatBK & Arthurian inspired series! Just something I've been writing for a while and planning for even longer.

It's called the Avalon Series and it's right up top on my pinned post if you'd like to take a look!

[twitchmattentusiast]

꩜ .ᐟ WORKS IN PROGRESS !

smuts:

mesmerised - matthew sturniolo

parings: shy bsf!matt x shy bsf!reader

summary: in which your innocent weekly movie night at your best friends house ends up turning not innocent when the topic of sex comes up and you both decide to lose your virginity to each other.

make it up to me - christopher sturniolo

parings: hockey!jealous bf chris x shy gf!reader

summary: when chris finds out you missed most of his game because your too busy talking to this guy he hates he makes you make it up to him in the locker room.

officer friendly - matthew sturniolo

parings: officer!matt x innocent!reader

summary: in which when at a halloween party thrown by your best friend you bump into the police officer who knocked on your front door three years ago for your 21st which you thought was a stripper.

think i’m too sweet? - matthew sturniolo

pairings: shy/sweet!boyfriend matt x dom!reader

summary: in which your boyfriend overhears you on the phone to your best friend talking about how sex with matt is a vanilla. he decides to change that.

212 - christopher sturniolo

parings: popular toxic!chris x shy!reader

summary: in which somehow you’ve ended up in a friends with benefits situation with christopher sturniolo the most popular guy in school who’s begging you to meet him at the janitors closet near room 212.

again & again? - matthew sturniolo

parings: badboy!matt x good girl!reader

summary: in which your parents have always disapproved of matt and have told you to stay away from the troubled boy since you were kids but they have no idea that every night when you say your volunteering after school you’re in matt’s car getting fucked.

you don’t own me - matt sturniolo

pairings: asshole college!matt x “sweet!” reader

summary: in which when your back in your hometown and matt your enemies with benefits is giving you shit for hooking up with another guy in college you decide to show him that he’s not in control and doesn’t own own you like he thinks he does.

guilty as sin - matthew & christopher sturniolo

pairings: childhood best friends! chris & matt x extremely inexperienced shy!reader

summary: in which you used to be best friends with chris and matt until your parents sent you to a religious boarding school. it’s been three years now, you escaped but it’s still deep wired into you that sex and all things similar are wrong. your tired of hearing about your friends one night stands and not having anything so when you find out that your two old childhood best friends run this “finding yourself” programme you take full advantage of it and they help you get over your trauma

NOTE: this is a religious smut. it includes role playing lowkey matt and chris acting like pastors and stuff. shaming, degrading all that but it’s consensual! kinda nervous to post this one but yeah.

so these are all works in progress but some are fics that i’ve written but im scared to post like the guilty as sin one HELP but uhh lmk if you fw these and ill post em x

[cyanide-latte]

For the one thing to know about you, how many pets do you have :)?

I've got two void fur puddles! Forgive me for using a pic from a couple of years ago, it's rare that I get both of them in the same picture (and I'm still currently at work, so it's the best I can do.) Meet Nim and Chaos!

Chaos is towards the top left, further away from the camera, and Nim is bottom right, closer to the camera!

[squanderedpotentials]

At times when it feels like no one hears you, feel your voice. Remember where it sits in your chest. Remember that you're real.

[scoups4lyfe]

O thank goHT 

Ngl tho —I think it woud be fkin HILARIOUS if Ikki was like “who are you again? :DD”

because fr why would he be interacting normally with them then LOL

👀🎤.

Vice a real one for asking this 

The fact that he’s quizzing Ikki rn on his memories v_v 

😶

This

Is

fvcking

hEART BREAKING 

(-̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥᷄_-̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥᷅ )

—٨ـﮩ.( ཀ‸ ཀ) ٨ـ💔ﮩﮩـ

[enfinizatics]

juz prawie go mamy, juz prawie ojciec lewak. class consciousness.

[aetherose]

Listening to End of All by Aimer made my brain go 'Nimue is the sort of hero who has literally every flag for self-sacrifice / death imaginable and the flags are almost proven right but even in spite of her believing she doesn't deserve it she's saved anyways'.

Anyway that song is her and somewhat her @ her companions before they slap her to believe she has a future too just like they do (or in a verse where she sacrifices herself in some way).