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Sorry if Iāve been slow about threads. From time to time I just feel a bit overwhelmed. Not by anything in particular, hell nothing is even really going on atm but idk....that gifted kid feeling when you have high expectations placed on you and a keen feeling of letting everyone down/disappointing them.
Also, youāre AFAB which exacerbates the problem because you were raised to defer and people-please so telling them all to fuck off isnāt as easy as youād like it to be ( āthemā is also your family lmao). šš
Things have been good in my physical environment, but my head is up and down. Sometimes things are fine, then i start ruminating on the future and the anxiety. I just wanna pack up all my shit in the van and fucking vamoose. Not a new feeling; Iāve been dealing with escapist fantasies every few years or so since mom died almost a decade ago and every responsibility that ever existed was dropped in my barely-an-adult lap lmao. Itās been stronger lately though...
But it goes against who I am as a person. I donāt just pack the fuck up and run. Itās not the responsible thing to do, not to mention the shitstorm thatād be waiting for me whenever I got back lol. Iām pretty sure my aunt and dad would blame one another and savage each other, since im the only real flesh and blood link heir have to my mom.
Sometimes I wonder if Iām just fragile and complaining for nothing or if life HAS been throwing me more curve balls than normal š¤
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Manufactured SEEDs
Basically, the concept is that SEEDs once served as a āpositiveā force meant to permanently remove or separate negative emotions that were deemed unnecessary.
(I wish I could elaborate but I donāt really know how) (I wanted the idea that āSEEDsā have always existed or something unique to Fragaria Memories without being inspired to anything if that makes sense?)
Assuming that SEEDs existed during the time of Legendary Red, what if āLegendary Redā made the SEEDs but backfired and twisted the story that they saved the world of Fragaria from the SEEDs.
Maybe the SEEDs couldnāt be completely destroyed for whatever arbitrary reason, and the Strawberry King took responsibility to guard the last remnant of existing SEEDs left from this world of Fragaria?
Eldrittās purpose is to keep the origin of SEEDs and the truth of Legendary Red a secret.Ā
<- But at the same time, what good is keeping the truth hidden(?)) āTo keep the world idyllicā(?) (How would revealing the truth about Legendary Red and the SEEDs affect the world?Ā
(Maybe we can connect this to time loop theory(?)) (Do you think Halritt wants to keep the world happy by all means necessary) (and time loop is his only answer)
Do you think their existence evolved during their entrapment by the Strawberry King? Theyāre indiscriminately trying to feed from negative emotions because of this insatiable hunger they had for who knows how long?
How did they escape? Why did the Strawberry King disappear?
Lovers to the same liesā Protectors to sanctity, memories to sanity Red-splattered puddles dye into black I, the shadow to which you belong ā¦ strangers to the flesh. Fumbled darkness, the pitch-black mold. A stiff neck ā¦ Unable to turn. (Clocks unfortunately twist ā¦ A head rolls down.)
Edlritt - āWhat only needs to be known is thatā¦ā Eldritt - āWe both want the SEEDs eliminated.ā āSo, Merold, as long as the motivation existsāwe will both be quiet.ā Eldritt - āIs this clear enough for you?"
#fragmem#time to ramble in the tags again haha...#holostarsEN lore is crazy but basically the world āelysiumā exists as a solution/digital world in the pursuit of peace and perfection#abandoned humanity and ārecord corruptionā is basically a terrible disease that leads to death if i remember correctly(?)#and ācorruption beastsā are similar to SEEDs but donāt remove memory#if i remember correctly the people are either āplayersā or āNPCsā#we live in a digital world digimon digimon#honestly i kinda forgot mid-thought about what i wanted to elaborate on but i think it was the theory that knights earn their forms and nam#i think i wanted to connect it to the possibility of what could be the lore of fragaria memoriesās world#like maybe it is a digital world?#i like the idea that world was dying but was saved by the strawberry king and the lords#what if magic was only made as a countermeasure against SEEDs?#Merold - āTo destroy the sin within you I will thoroughly humiliate and reveal the truth one by one.ā#Merold - āSo Iāll keep playing Halritt.ā āA smile just like this! Where nothing seems out of place.ā#āSEEDs are the original sinā will always be stuck in my head#to eliminate negativity is to embrace death#maybe that is the purpose of a SEED?#to become pitch black or free from color because nothing exists within a void(?)#i wrote to myself once that i wanted merold to have his the holy grail of eris moment#merold - ākirikikirikukuā (eldritt awakens)#its such a good storyā¦ im too much of a sucker to villainess storiesā¦#my dark timeline is that halritt tries to create a peaceful world to prevent the SEEDs but this backfires and halritt becomes a tyrant#i want him to die by meroldās hand like a sick joke instead of a SEED#the people you tried to protect now fear or hate you#Merold - āYouāre a small man who is bounded by his appearance.ā#Eldritt - āOh but MeroldāArenāt you also the same if we apply it you?ā#Merold - āAnd whoās to say Iām spared from my own words?ā#Merold - āAn executioner is not exempt to his own blade.ā āI intend to do worse to you and the same to myself.ā
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thoughts on shifting + manifesting with ease. (as someone who's shifted many times, alongside manifesting)
coming back to this side of tumblr after spending years away from it has made me realized how many of you are truly the problem, it might sound kinda harsh but really. so many of you ask the same questions over and over again.. "but HOW do i do it?" "how do i shift" "how do i manifest" JUST DO IT. stop looking for signs, stop looking for methods or "cheat codes". just do it man.
your mind is so powerful and it actually kinda irritates me how many of you doubt it, just because it "seems to easy". you don't understand how you've been manipulated by society to not see your power. how have you been on loa social media, shifting social media, for soooo long ā yet still don't see it?? let me tell you..
the moment i got off social media, the moment i took time to erase everything in my head and stop overthinking everything, was the moment everything came to me. i already had it, i just needed to stop telling myself i didn't.
it took me barely any time to get used to convincing myself i had everything i wanted, i shifted to my desired realities, and everything worked out in my favour. AFFIRMING IS ALL YOU NEED. I AM YELLING AT YOU. JUST AFFIRM.
really, please, affirm. the routine is so simple.
1. any bad thought is instantly turned positive.
ex: "i really want her waist"
to
"am i stupid ... i have her waist.. tbh mine even looks a little better.. am i crazy?? like actually? this must be a glitch or something cause my waist is practically identical to hers.. i literally love my waist"
exaggerate, say what you need to say to erase the negativity.
2. it's yours, so act like it..
ex: talk about ur DR normally. it's your reality, not a fantasy land you made up in a dream. ITS REAL. it's a reality. for example, i'd watch videos of my s/o in this reality, and speak about our lives in my dr. "i can't wait to see __ tonight... god i love __, it's so nice hanging out with them everyday.. wow they look so pretty in this video ā i'm so lucky their mine". it's natural, they're yours aren't they? exactly, so act like it.. this is used the exact same way when manifesting..
you see someone with something you want? thinking of something you wanna do? something you wanna be? ... it's urs... so can you act like it?? like whyre u feeling sad someone else got a job promotion š¹š¹ you literally got a better one ...
3. that's literally it
you don't need a fancy method (although it can give u some peace of mind.. let's be real, a lot of methods set y'all back and make you overwhelmed, blocking ur beliefs and making everything seem harder). you literally just need to live. tell yourself it's done, over and over again. nothing matters. it's done, it's yours, you have it, you're happy and fulfilled. other peoples sucess should really mean nothing to you negatively. it shouldn't make you stressed, shouldn't make you feel behind.. why would it when you have everything, you can do everything, go anywhere, and you can be anything.
it'll seem like manifesting blogs and shifting blogs just repeat the same things.. which is true, they do, because i'm telling you there's nothing more to it than what you've already read. it is that easy. all it takes is your mind. decide, and tell yourself.
as i said before, it took me barely anytime to switch my mindset once i actually started focusing on myself, my journey and not every body else's results. repeating stuff to yourself WORKS. repeating is literally ALL i did. choose what i want, told myself it's mine in any way i could describe it. and there, it's mine. ive shifted to many different realities, along side gaining a better life in this one after years of convincing myself there was nothing for me. if i can break out of the cycle, trust me you can too. i cannot describe how desperate i was at the beginning, how long i took in false info and wasted time on methods all while doubting every single thing.
so why don't you believe it? you'll sit there and tell yourself over and over again that you're ugly, or broke, or friendless... but you won't tell urself that you've shifted? that you have your dream body...? girl okay i guess....
once you realize nothing besides your mind truly matters, is when you'll be free with yourself. circumstances don't matter, past feelings don't matter, doubts don't matter, your mind is all you need.
yes this is just loa explained longer, that's the point of the post because some of u still can't get it in ur heads
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Astro Observations/Opinions (Vedic Editionš)
Hello guys! This is my first astro observation so I hope yāall like it, if not thenš
These are based on my perspective of placements and signs, so take what resonates and leave what doesnātš«¶š¾ Iād love to hear yāallās take as well!
ANTYWAYSSS (spelled it like i say it) letās get startedššš
1. Solar women are so mentally strong (as are Saturnian Women) like they wonāt bend backwards for anyone ESP a man. Always giving boss bitch energy and super independent. Some of the ones I met can be egotistical as well lol
2. I know people might think mercurial people talk the most shit because itās mercury but out of all the shit talkers i know BABES ITS THE SATURN MFSSS. like they are the ones that will be telling and spilling the tea to their friends and talking the MOST shitttt likeeeeeereeeeeee thatās crazy. They are often like ābitch i gotta tell u abt xyzā like BABYYY and donāt let me get started if itās paired with like rahu or even ketu like even ketu people talk the most shit too like and theyāre the ones that are called ādetachedā but lord and behold LMAO crazy
3. Mercurial people really are all or nothing. U either meet them when they are at their highest and at their lowest like thereās no in between. When they are at their highest they thrive so well and they can radiate their happiness onto others as itās kinda hard for them to get there. Deals with a lot of insecurity and abuse and they take it out on the ones who doesnāt deserve it more than the ones who do like it genuinely believe that if they told the people who hurt them whatās up then itāll take a BIGGGGGG boulder off their shoulders and then they can begin to heal (even if itās through letter that they burn or whatever like BITCH GET IT OUT). Yāall donāt have to take it out on others WERE BETTER THAN THISššš as a mercurial myself i get it like itās hard asf esp when abuse and pain is all u know itās so easy to get wrapped into that. tbh iām dealing with handling my emotions better and im trying to use my poison as medicine as one would say (its hard but with having jupiter in the 1st house i canāt linger in negative thoughts or emotional all the time like at max an hour or three but forgetting abt it which holds on to it rather than expressing because when i hold onto i start to isolate myself and then i burst when itās too much, yeah š working on it tho)
4. Rahu people are like maritans mixed with jupiterians like very bold and EXPRESSIVE but like to have a good time like jupiterians. Super duper expressive.
5. Magha placements be feeling like royalty at all times and AS U SHOULD BOO LIKE DO U. LMAO i say bc i have a magha moon friend who calls me a peasant when he wants to be sassy like LMAO okayyyy
6. Jupiter men are the ones with the big body counts LoL everyone I met be fucking like they wont live tmr like calm down sirš
7. Moon women are conservative lol. they are def the ones judging other women for being out there when in reality they wish they could to bc lunar women are often people pleasers unfortunately š©. Ngl i deadass think that MANY moon women are closeted like baby itās okay U DONT HAVE TO HIDE. But one thing about lunar women THEY LOOK GOOD IN ANYTHING OMFG
8. Dhanistia omg man or woman bitch yāall have a certain magnetism to yāall and DAMNNNNN like iām obsessed esp with the girlies. Like yāall are so confident and have such a strong aura like yāall make me wanna get out of my SHELL š„¹
Anyways thatās ittttt hope yāall liked it.
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Slashers with y/n that just gets along with everything
Like slasher could litteraly kill somone near y/n and she would be like alr alr whats really important is that you are happyš¤ š. Im sorry that first 2character had super long headcanons while last ones have way less :( I had no ideas Request open!
Billy Lenz
He always expects some sort of negative response when he calls people and when he heard new voice on the Phone he got even more exited cuz new person new reaction! He totally didnt expect her to just go "yeah yeah sure buddy, anyways... how is your day man? Cuz im so so tired...*starts normal converstation*
He probably tries to stay in character but he is so caught of Guard he doesnt know how to react really (hehe the table has turn)
Now he kinda hopes that she will pick up cuz shes very intrestingš billy likey
"Ew its this creep again! He is asking for you y/n? Of please dont tell me you befriended him??" "So what? He said hes favourite fruit is strawberry he cant be that bad!" *billy saying slurs on the phone*
You need to constantly tell him that, no Billy no harrasing women isnt sexy, you arent quirky, you are mentally ill
"Y/n i killed that bitch that was gossiping about you š§ " "šgood for you billy im glad you found healthy way to cope with that negative emotionš" "on god"
His whole moral compass is created around the simple question 'does it hurt y/n?' .1:no it doesnt so feel free to do it .2 do not do it, she will ban Billy from sweets (bad ending)
The man from hush
This guy. This dude. This Little gremlin. He is upset that he gets no reaction! Like please oh please act all angy when he 'acidently' shot tire in her car! But oh no ofc no, she had to be like "oh its okay honey i have backup in garageš„°" hes like HHUH SINCE WHEN WE HAVE GARAGE
Like tbh thats how i imagine how they met: he saw her, he wanted to hunt her, she was so chill that she didnt even leave her household while the power was off and he went inside and just saw her having lil nap on couch. š§š¤Øerm exuse me gurl im trying to roleplay epic hunter here tf
He probably kidnaped her cuz she was too weird to just kill her but he didnt want to risk her calling police. He probably tied her up and yeeted her on backseats. And then she begun judging music on the radio"yo big guy can i get some good music taste?" "What? Whats wrong with Taylor Swift?"
He will overshare everything to kinda check where is her limit if it comes to being chill "yeah so i killed this old lady.." "im sure you had good reasonš„°" "š¤Ø... anyways... yeah so i was drinking some redbull when some guy said i look ugly so i shoot his head off and-" "HEY HEY hold up geez you CANT drink Energy drinks?? Bestie you know it is unhealthy?? Also you like hunt for sport it will ruin your condition!? How you gonna shoot people with shakey hands?? You crazy or something?" "Damnš"
Micheal myers
I tried to put him here but i realised he will be as chill as her.
Like he can give her gifts covered in blood and she' just going to clean it and wear it like nothing happened or completley ignore it
He cares about this stuff as much as y/n so like not at all. I mean tbh theres is a bit of difrence: shes at least positive about it! Like "yeah micheal go for it, loveš„°š i know its hard to cope with trauma take it all out alr?" Shes trying to be a good supporting gf not her fault she never had serial killer bf!
Brahms Heelshire
He lives for attention! What do you mean the war crime he commited this lunch break is okay!?!? Baby pleasee
But this negativity disapears the moment he realised he can get a lot of positive attention when he will do some nice stuff! "Oh honey I didnt kill any rats today" "oh that's amazing brahms I'm sure you and the rats inside walls will get along well soonš„°" (rats in walls bully brahms)
Please complement him or he will get a tantrum and destroy something
Brahms and rats have very hard past i might do seperate hc about that
Ghostface
"Look babe! My newest victim *shows photo*" "ugh baby...š° you NEED to buy new camera or watch some youtube tutorials about how to take good photos" "aw man whats wrong with my pictures š"
Otherwise y/n supports his hobbies! People need to growš (and he needs to grow up)
If theres 2ghostfaces(like in most movies) they will bet money on how long you gonna keep this 'do whatever as long as youre happy' act. Well they didnt know that this wasnt an act but her personality
Also they will probably try to use this chillnes aginst her like "oooh y/n something terrible happened! I crushed my car oh what will i do!" "Alr bestie i will drive you over thereš" "šomg you are so nice i totally didnt expect that(heheh i dont need to pay for gas today (hes very evil))
#slasher x reader#slasher headcanons#billy lenz#billy lenz x reader#brahms heelsire#brahms x reader#micheal myers#micheal myers x reader#ghostface x reader#ghostface#hush headcanon#hush 2016#hush x reader#the man x reader
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Pretty please hcs of sniper and his girly girl extroverted gf/love interest šš»šš» your writing is so cool and fun
Pinkieā š
Sniper x reader
A/n: Hey guys Iām back, did you miss me? Pls tell me you did š this fic was so fun, I spent a lot of time editing it so I hope you guys enjoy it cuz itās prob one of my favs <33
Warnings: Scout tryna flirt, kinda freaky but nothing too crazy
Yāall are so fucking cute, itās too much. He loves how youāre just there for him, like literally just there for him.
To emphasize on that, Sniper never really talks back to anyone even when theyāre clearly in the wrong. Heās not shy or anything but heād rather just not start drama.
You on the other hand? The hands are flying if anyone talks shit about your boyfriend. Youāre so ready to start pulling hair off of roots for him.
āMaybe if aussie over here stopped wearing sun glasses in the dark heād see where heās goinā!!ā
āUH UH, WHO DO YOU THINK YOUāRE TALKING TO LIKE THAT? CUZ I KNOW ITS NOT HIM ā¼ļøā
Sometimes heāll say something to himself and you defend him
āCrikey, I need a bloody shavingā
āWhat? You look sexy! Who said that to you? Iāll beat their ass rnā
Scout tried to get complements too
āā¦man, I need a haircutā
āYouād still look ugly.ā
Loves seeing your tummy, this bitch will bark like a dog for you to wear a top even slightly showing some stomach. Heāll lay his palm against your lower back to show his love for it.
If youāre into any animal print-like any-heāll personally go hunt it down, skin it, then make something out of it for you
āStopp this is gorgeous! Wait whereād you get this?ā
āItās homemadeā
āOh!!ā
Grand entrances arenāt his thing but you make it his thing now that you two are dating
āHEY GUYS āØāØāØāØšš ITS ME Y/Nš©·š©·šøšøšøšøā¼ļøā¼ļøREMEMBER?šŖ©šŖ©šŖ©šŖ© and Mundy šā
āGādayā
Heās the only merc to cut you time for you to get ready
āWeāre about to leave y/n!ā
āGuys I need like 20 minutes please!! š„ā
āNEGATIVE. WE WILL LEAVE WITHOUT YOU, CUPCAKE!ā
āTake all the time you need love, Iāll drive yaā
Heās such a shopping boyfriend. By that I mean heāll carry your stuff and sit in the waiting room while you try on dresses cuz heās patient
Learns a lot about girl shopping etiquette, like the āthis is cute!ā thing
āWait this is cute!ā puts back immediately
ā..hell was that?ā
āWhat? Itās pretty but I wouldnāt wear it, plus 35$ for this is crazyā
If you take him to Victoria secret/PINK heāll get so flustered. He feels guilty for staring at the mannequins
āShould I get a push up or should I get this mesh one?ā
āWouldnāt the mesh one there show off ya norks?ā
āDo you not like looking at them? šā
āHang on luv thatās not what I meant-ā
When visiting the hello kitty store he learns a lot about Sanrio characters, heās a fast learner but here heās just confused.
āOkay so these are the twin starsā
āMm, and this is?ā
āOo thatās Kuromiā
āWhy they all got cake holes but Ms kitty donāt?ā
āI dunno, I heard sheās not even a catā
āFuckinā hell..ā
You got him some hello kitty sunglasses, proudly keeps them hanging on his car window
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Pspspsp could I request self-aware Kaeya and Rook (separately) finding out it's the players birthday?
(I think my type in men is a peacock, but a sneaky one)
. . . . . . . ā°āāā®HAPPY BIRTHDAYāāāāÆ . . . . . . .
ROOK AND KAEYA FINDING OUT ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY - SAGAU
Rook x Reader Kaeya x Reader
A/n: I also love myself a cute pot haircut guy ā” I didn't know if you wanted the player in the game or not, but I put our MC in the game :) I can do it out of the game too no biggie just ask ā”
ROOK - Let the hunt begin
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· Rook Hunt is the kinda person who knows everything, he's a hunter after all. He watches his prey and that is currently you
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· nothing goes by him without him noticing. So, when he found out that today is your birthday, he was more than thrilled
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· he's so ready to give you the best presents of them all. Not even Vil could compare with the designer skin care set. Rook had a watchful eye all year over you and memorized everything you enjoy and take a liking too
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· you will, no, you must notice him now. He isn't hiding, heis on full display for the day, ready to sweep you off your feet and have the attention of the MC on him for the day. Only on him, he is begging for it with what he does.
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· Rook made so sure you will notice he ADORES you more than anyone else. Because the truth is, nobody adores you more than him. You are the MC, the player and the main character of the story, if you ask him to warship you, he will. Without any questions he would kneel in front of you and warship you the rest of his days, because you are true beauty and perfection.
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· and your birthday is giving him the best opportunity for this. You're thirsty? Have this water. Hungry? Take his lunch. Your legs are tired even while sitting down? Use him as a foot rest
KAEYA - Life's greatest illusions are the ones we believe in ourselves
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· oh~? So it's your birthday huh? What a pleasant surprise!
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· he does care a lot about you, but at the same time showing it makes it difficult. Just letting anyone near him is difficult. He loves you, adores you, is obsessed with you. And he for sure is smooth about them feelings for ya.
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· he refuses to let you play with his feelings for much longer. How dare you milk him dry with that smile of yours, your kind words and generous actions towards him that he just wants to return especially on your birthday, ugh f you.
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· those negative feelings are long gone because of you. He is still this closed off Worshipper of you, but accepted the feelings he has for his creator.
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· and since it's your birthday he will have an opportunity to ket those feelings slip out without being to weird about them. Yes, all the others are also giving you the best absolut presents but somehow his felt special to you
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· there was a thought behind the present, something you truly needed, not wanted, but needed. You can tell he spend his sweet time and money getting that and although for others it might not be special, it truly is. No diamond ring or ancient parfume could ever compare to what he gave you
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· he literally said, "Fuck ya'll, I'm their fav now" cause yes, he is. Oh btw, he just found out on your birthday, that it's your birthday---
ĖĖĀ°ā¢*āā· because you never told anyone really so everything was kinda chaotic and people were going crazy over the fact. So did Kaeya-he usually always keeps his cool but you make him lose his shit
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland x reader#genshin impact#genshin x reader#genshin impact x reader#twst headcanons#rook headcanons#rook hunt#kaeya#genshin impact kaeya#kaeya x reader#genshin impact sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#Sagau twisted wonderland#Twisted wonderland sagau
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how to make a golden retriever happy.
SLIGHTLY proofread | f!reader | poly relationship with nick & charlie though reader isnāt dating charlie | pretty damn long i got ahead of myself, sorry :,) | theyāre so cute but im so bad at details fr | lunch date, walks, stargazing w fireflies & movie night! (you got headbands to wearā¦ guess what movie charlie is having yāall watch rn) | what is stargazing | author questioning what color sonicās eyes are | theres some crying at the end and a mention of breaking up but its just those negative thoughts actin up, theyre all okay :) | angst/comfort? | not many kisses unfortunately but THERE ARE SOME, like three scenesā¦ two? | there is cussing, not much | nick & reader flashbacks
#%a/n%#;; first request done! thanks for it, they mean so much to me. i didnāt wanna make it too long but here we are lolol, hope itās enjoyable though š„¹š also ntm on your family details but your mom does appear and she has a āsetā personality! no one else appears though so you can imagine the readerās family how you want, though it is mentioned your mom is married. also note, since reader is a lady she goes to the same school as like, elle darcy tara (and probably imogen too, right?). meant to post this yesterday but i wanted to add some stuff at the end haha, sorry sorry this is a whole ass wattpad book fr, feel like i wrote so much and nothing at the same time. hope you enjoy if you give it a read thought fhdhdj
OH YEAH last thing, the emotions in this story is kind of a whiplash š one minute theyāre happy the next theyre kinda sad or bittersweet so- hopefully the pacing doesnt seem badā¦ BE WARNED. shouldnāt be too crazy. okay thats it this time do enjoy
character(s):
nick & charlie (heartstopper)
elle & tao cameo
readerās mom omg sheās a sweetheart, charlieās parents are mentioned/super small cameo, nickās mom also has a small cameo/is mentioned
darcy, imogen and sahar are very briefly mentioned!
The sweet sound of the school bell rings throughout and the school and every single student sighs in relief of the noise. You glance up at the clock on the wall before looking around the classroom where students are packing up their bags while talking noisily to one another.
You allow yourself to recline in your chair, left arm reaching back to where your backpack dangles off the seat and slide your hands into the side pocket, grabbing your phone.
Nicky Ricky Dicky: Iām alive!
Char: you live! i live too :) wanna walk together today or are you both busy? (gonna pick you up bestie)
Y/N: iāll meet you outside (ty loveliest)
Char: awesome!!! nick?
Nicky Ricky Dicky: Sorry aha, I need to go home quickly today but Iāll be sure to join tomorrow!
This makes you pout and you can imagine your bestfriend having the same expression because the sad emoji he wrote in the group-chat even makes you sadder.
Char: ā¹ļø
Y/N: donāf worry charlie
Y/N: Donāt*
Nicky Ricky Dicky: Sorry :,)
Char: Itās fine! Do what you have to doā¦ we gonna facetime tonight though?
Char hearts your message ādonāf worry charlieā.
Nicky Ricky Dicky: No promises but Iāll do my best. š ā¤ļø
Nicky Ricky Dicky: i gtg now, love you both <3
Y/N: lym! ā¤ļø
Char: love you! ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
Y/N: three hearts š„¹
Char: y/n. STOP. come outside before i die
Y/N: omgā¦ such a drama king like okay
You write and yet, youāre quick to jump from your chair and snatch your bag before sliding it on your shoulder. You push in your chair and skip out into the hallways where you see Elle. āHeya, Elle!ā
She smiles warmly and waves goodbye to her friends before stepping in sync with you. āHey there, Miss, didnāt catch your name.ā You bump her shoulder and she bumps you back. āWhatāre you up to?ā
āCharlieās gonna come pick me up, hopefully via bikeā¦ mines broke the other day.ā You sigh and she gives you a look of pity while trying to bite back a grin. Then she perks up.
āNot Nick?ā
You shake your head, rubbing a hand against your temple. āMm-mm, you ever just get a feeling something is off?ā
Elle nods, turning her face away from you and her hands grip onto the handle of her bag that bounces against her legs. āYeah, just putting it out thereā¦ graduation may be on his mind, I know its on mine and itās been kicking my ass to be honest,ā You wrap an arm around her in comfort and she hums in appreciation. āJust all that weird stuff, weird thoughts and anxietyā¦ā Then she pauses, raising a hand and flicking her wrist. āOkay- not weird, but you know.ā
That makes you snort, āYeah, I getāchaā¦ maybe, but weāve always been open about that kind of stuff, I just donāt understand why itād be a issueā¦ I mean, weāve talked about it many times before so itās kind of odd, I guess?ā You and Elle share a look of confusion before shrugging.
āMaybe itās been having more of an impact yāknow? You can speak easily about something when youāre not there yet butā¦ graduation is coming up and everyone is worried about the future. You know how things donāt hit you till itās happening literally next week or something? Maybe its hitting harder.ā
Your heart clenches in pain at those words. Sheās not wrong, there is a high chance itās staring to affect him moreā¦ hitting harder than youād know. You nibble on your bottom lip in concern and furrow your eyebrows,
āWell. If heās being an idiot and isnāt gonna come to us about it then Iāll beat him up.ā You place your hands on your hips, lightly joking to disperse the tense air between the two of you. Of course he isnāt being an idiot but you refuse to let him stress on his own. Elle chokes out a laugh in surprise.
āOh god, he better run, sheās scary when sheās angry.ā One of her hands let go of her bag and she hold her stomach while laughing a bit more. āWouldnāt that be a sight?ā
You scoff, āLike we havenāt argued before.ā
āYou argue about literal video games.ā
āStop.ā You laugh and push at her shoulder. āOh, and Elle, you know Iām your friend and if you ever need an ear to lend about college talk or need help to get your mind off of it to just relax, you got me.ā She stares at you for a few beats before cracking into a grin.
āThank you, Y/N. You know you got me too.ā
Outside the school building youāre quick to spot two familiar figures by the gate. āYes, heās here!ā Your arms raise in celebration then instantly flop down, āThereās no bikeā¦!ā
Elle calls out which makes the two boys stiff in seconds.
āGet your butts over here, Mr. Xu and Mr. Spring!ā They awkwardly crane their necks to your direction and simultaneously sigh in relief ā probably thinking you were teachers.
āYou nearly gave me a heart attack!ā Tao exclaims as you and Elle once youāre right infront of the two, gesturing to his heart. Elle is quick to place a hand over his chest ā Taoās cheeks lowkey reddening but you decide not to point it out for his sake ā and her eyes widen a bit.
āTao, your chest is gonna shoot out your chest.ā
āSee?ā
āThat is the goal, sire.ā You finger gun at him and he smacks your hand away lightly with an exasperated look. It makes you giggle. āElle is just feeling a little silly today.ā
āItās my agenda.ā She grins before engulfing Charlie into a hug and he squeaks in surprise before squeezing her back. āHello, Charlie!ā
āAre you sure your heart isnāt pounding because youāve gotten your daily dose of Elle?ā You whisper while stepping in line next to Tao, facing your head to your other friends but you can see him tense at the corner of your eye.
He pinches his nose bridge, mumbling and you catch some of the words, suspiciously sounding like him saying heās gonna fight you. His cheeks bloom a rosy rose so you take the win either way and smugly smirk at him.
āHi, Elle!ā His muffled laugh catches your attention, making you and Tao smile at the interaction before you wrap an arm around the latter, making him eyeroll, of course he does, but he wraps an arm around your shoulder and gives you a light squeeze in response.
āWe best be off on our merry way,ā You speak up, checking the time as the two friends let go of eachother. āI wanna stop by that new shop that opened a few weeks agoā¦ Is that fine, Char?ā
He gives you a thumbs up and Elle speaks, āLet me know how their desserts taste, Iāve been wondering but honestly they donāt look that good soā¦ā She stares at you with a grimace before shrugging.
āNoted~ā You say in a singsong voice before wrapping your arms around Charlie. āIāll call you later, enjoy your afternoon date.ā You and Charlie give the couple teasing grins and they take the bait, looking away in shyness but Tao takes the initiative and connects their hands together. It makes you melt.
āShut up.ā He groans, snapping but tone very much unthreatening adding on the fact heās trying to cover his flustered face with his free hand.
āYes, yes grumpy old man, weāll see you later.ā You and Charlie waist no time to start down the road with waves.
āBye!ā He shouts.
āIām not a grumpy old man!ā Tao stomps his foot, comedically. Right. How could you make that mistake?
āBye, Y/N and Charlie!ā Elle laughs with a wave and tugs her totally-not-grumpy boyfriend off in the other direction. You watch their hands tighten around eachother, squinting in amusement when Taoās scowl instantly softens into a lovestruck gaze.
āAhhh, young love.ā
āYouāre starting to sound like the old one here.ā Charlie snickers, hands coming up to hold onto your forearms that are still bounded around him.
āYou wound me, Char.ā You squeeze him and he huffs. āI literally think the same when you and Nick are interacting, itās so,ā You make weird noises, fingers wiggling. āYāknow? Very sweet. Very cute, I even have some photos of you latching onto eachother while sleeping. Wanna see-?ā
His brain feels like itās shutting down, lightly smacking your arm when you lift it as to grab your phone. āStop it.ā You could practically see those animated stars swirling around his head and laugh.
You relent and unwrap your arms with a cheeky smile. He glances at you before hiding his face in his hands. āUghh, whatever. You act like you donāt jump Nick the minute you see him.ā Yeah, thatās crazy. You feel your own cheeks flaring up.
āYou must be blind.ā
āNo, no, no. Donāt do that.ā
āDo what?ā
āLie!ā He exclaims in a joking tone, uncovering his face and poking you in accusation. You lean away, losing your balance and forcing yourself to lean on your tippy toe. Your other foot comes down onto pavement with a stomp and you twirl like youāre dancing. Charlie definitely notices this misstep, doesnāt say anything but you see his shoulders shaking in silence. Heās laughing.
āI never lie?ā You pick off the conversation.
āWas that a question?ā He tilts his head back at you.
āNo?ā
He stares at you, eyebrow twitching and you puff out your cheeks like a frog, looking anywhere but in his direction. āYouāre awfully cheeky today.ā
āHow am I being cheeky?ā He gives you a look like youāre being ridiculous.
āCharlie Spring is a little cheeky today, my oh my, what have I done to deserve this.ā Then you raise your voice in a slight yell, āAhhh! Who is this?! This isnāt my Charlieeeeā¦!ā Your arms reach for the sky.
āYouāre an idiot.ā He takes the chance and poke you again which makes you yelp. You narrow your eyes. He runs off, you chase.
That was last week. You havenāt seen your boyfriend in a couple of days and itās concerning. He responds hours late to your messages, doesnāt even respond in your group chat with Charlie, his calls barely last ten minutes and you literally havenāt seen this man in person. Charlie tells you he still shows up at school but his eye-bags are pretty bad.
āIs he avoiding me? Iām confused.ā You frown, balled up on Charlieās bed and feeling very mixed. A little annoyed, a little sad, and alot of worried. Charlie sets down two mugs on his bedside table and sits next to you on the bed. His rests a hand atop of your head and lightly taps it.
āNoā¦ I donāt think so. I see him at school and he tries to act normal but even he doesnāt respond to me like that outside of school.ā The scowl his face makes has deepened and youāre quick to wrap an arm around his leg in comfort. He lets out a weak smile but itās quick to fall off his face. āIām confused tooā¦ā
You both stay silent, itās nearly deafening. āI donāt wanna force him to tell us anything ā I mean, he knows he can come to us if he needs it but if heās really stressed about school maybe we can help give him some space to not think about it. Even if its only for a bit, you know?ā Charlie listens to you mumble while tugging at a loose thread on his sweater and nods slowly, eyes lost in thought.
āShould we go somewhere?ā He tilts his head back to look at the ceiling before his gaze travels around his roomās walls, hoping to find an inkling of inspection.
āThat sounds fine.ā The somber feeling in the room lifts a bit when you start to grin. You shift onto your back, raising your right arm in the air and sprawl out your fingers. āWe could go out, do something and eatā¦ I kinda wanna stargaze, is that weird?ā
He lets out a chuckle, glancing down at you with a teasing glint in his eyes, āWow, youāre such a romantic, Y/N. Iām shocked.ā To which you scoff.
āWell, duh. Who makes all the date plans?ā
āOkay, no, thatās because you say weāre bad at planning dates ā you refuse us to even be involved.ā
āCharlie, Nick brought you to a dog park as a date.ā
āWhatās wrong with that?ā
āYou both stayed there till nine.ā
He full on laughs now, bumping you with his knee and you smack it back in retort. āNo judgement though, I would do the same but that was for the whole day! Who stays at a dog park from Eleven to Nine?ā He continues to laugh until they turn into giggles.
āMaybeā¦ weāre unique.ā
āTrue that. You didnāt even bring baby Nells, shaking my head.ā To put emphasis, you shake your head and your friend has to gasp out for air. āDonāt die, now.ā
āWhatever whatever.ā He brings his hands to his face and rubs his cheeks in circular motion to calm himself. His face is flushed and he exhales slowly before reaching for his phone. āDo you want your drink?ā
You remove your arm from his leg and sit up properly, holding on your hands and he complies, placing the mug between them. āThank you~ā You lean on the wall, flopping your legs onto Charlieās before crossing them at the ankles ā to which he sighs in annoyance and it makes you grin. āWhatāre you doing?ā
āIām gonna search for places to go that is nearby but not too closeā¦ you have a place in mind for stargazing?ā He grabs his own mug that is black and littered with yellow stars, how ironic. You nod sleepily, slowly sipping your preferred drink and tap at the cup absentmindedly.
āYeah, itās near my house.ā
He flicks his eyes towards you for a second.
Then goes back to typing on his phone.
āYou mean it is your home.ā
āMaybe.ā
You smirk, he sighs and you both go back to planning. Nick honestly better be willing to get his ass dragged out of the house by his lovely girlfriend and boyfriend because money is involved and you both would be damned if he just wallows in self despair, alone.
So, thatās what happens, you fill Charlieās parents in on needing to steal your bestfriend during the weekend and some of the plans involved like a movie night. They agreed to let him stay over for the night but he must call every few hours or atleast text.
Your parents love the boys and were completely down with the idea. Of course you also secretly called Nickās mum and she had filled you in on a couple things that made you a tad bit more nervous to see your boyfriend.
Seems like your assumption was correct (more like Elleās). āLately heās been talking about colleges, rightā¦ heās planning to go on a trip sometime this month to check them out but he seems stressed, itās been worrying me. You know though, kids probably donāt want their parents all in their business, haha,ā She laughs softly and you can hear running water cut off on her end ā probably washing something ā āHe knows he can come to me so Iām just letting him have his space. Itās lovely you and Charlie want to ease his mind! Glad heās with and friends with two sweethearts,ā This makes your face flare up in embarrassment but your chest puffs with pride.
āOf course, and I know he appreciates you being patient and understanding with him. The thing we donāt wanna do is pressure himā¦ I just hope this can help take his mind off of the stress and you knowā¦ relax?ā You grimace a bit, tugging at the end of your sleeve as the phone sits between your ear and shoulder.
āI get it, mhm. Thank you, Y/N.ā Her voice is still soft but gets even more sincere with a hint of emotion. Had you feeling emotional too.
Saturday is quick to arrive and you stare at your reflection with determination. Brushing down your outfit, you admire your date look a bit more before turning around slowly and snatch your bag off the bed which is filled with random necessities that you may or may not need along with your wallet.
āAlright, Nick Nelson, prepare yourself for the best date youāll ever be on.ā You puff out your cheeks, grab you phone of the charger and exit your room. āIāll be off, Mother~ā You hum once you reach the end of the staircase and spot your Mom on the couch with a paper in hand.
āWhat is with the formal address?ā She chuckles behind her hand, standing up and following you towards the front door. āIāll see you later tonight with Nick and Charlie, right? Enjoy yourselves.ā She smiles, wrapping her arms around your head and you hug her back with a gentle squeeze.
āOh! Wait.ā
She quickly unravels herself from you and speeds down the hall to the kitchen. Your eyes stare down the direction she went for a few seconds before deciding to slip on your shoes.
āOkay, here you go.ā Youāre standing with the door open by the time she comes back and she gives you a picnic basket. Itās not super big but you have to grab it with two hands. Less from the size, more from the weight.
āMom. What did you pack in here?ā You huff out a laugh, going to open the lid but she stops you.
āNo, do not open it. Itās likeā¦ a wedding. You canāt see your spouse or itāll be bad luck!ā She speaks with a finger raised and you cock an eyebrow up. Whatever you say, Mom is basically your expression and she seems to notice because she places her hands on her hips with an exasperated look. āJust trust me, Iāve done it before and it was bad luck all day.ā
āMhm, mhm, right.ā You nod, half listening and backing up on your porch. She follows, hand on the doorknob with a soft smile and she pinches your cheek with her other hand. āThanks, I love you.ā
āLove you too, honey.ā She full on grins now and waves. After your āsee you laterā promises, youāre quick to dart down the street and across the roads to a nearby park where Charlie said heād meet you after picking up Nick. It gives you enough time to unload the nice lunch packed for the three of you and hopefully buy some refreshing popsicles or ice creams before they arrive.
Seems like luck is on your side though ā maybe your Mom was right ā because the minute you finish laying out the huge blanket in a nice shaded area you hear the sound of someone ringing a familiar bell sound. You turn your head so quick it nearly gave you whiplash and your eyes widen at the person walking along the parkās path, pushing a white squared cart decorated with photos of different types of cold treats.
You take your bag and phone, dialing Charlieās number while speedwalking across the grassy field. It takes two rings before you hear his voice.
āYes, partner in crime?ā His voice comes off as staticky for a moment.
āWhat the hell are you doinā, your mic is scuffed as hellā¦ā
āIām walking!ā You could imagine the eyeroll Charlie would do and bite your cheek to not laugh.
āAre you with Nick?ā You continue to talk but smile in greeting when the ice cream seller stops at you coming over. He says hello and you wave before looking over all the choices on the cart.
āYes. Weāre grabbing drinks right now, you okay?ā
āYeah! Iām at the park, set up the picnic ā though the food is still in the basket,ā You glance back at your spot and after making sure nothing seems out of the ordinary you look back at the cart. āYou remember those ice cream cart things? You want something?ā
Itās silent between the two of you as Charlie ponders, in the meantime you point to your desired choice and the guy nods with a smile, opening the ice cream cart before digging around in the pile of cold desserts until he finds the one you want.
āDo they-ā He cuts himself off with a chuckle and you perk up at his voice, āDo they um,ā He snorts this time then sighs to calm himself, āThe ones with the bubblegum eyes. I wanna try one.ā
You laugh a little, thanking the ice cream man as he sets the packaged treat in your hand. āDo you want the sonic one or something?ā
āWhatever you spot first or whichever is given. Oh wait- Nick-ā You zone out a bit as he speaks to the blond and point to the blue hedgehog. The ice cream man continues his search. āHe said he wants the crybaby ice cream.ā
āOh god.ā You sigh in adoration, tilting your head back to the clear blue sky. āWerenāt they, like, terrible the last time we tried them?ā
This time you hear Nickās cheerful voice and he scoffs, āOkay, no. That was because for some weird reason you and Darcy wanted to put warheads into the mix.ā
āThank you,ā You say to the nice man, grabbing a ten and a five dollar bill as a tip out of your wallet with a smile. You then put all the treats into your bag along with the wallet, waving the man bye which he returns and goes on his merry way. Your focus goes back to the two boys. āAh yes, I remember the part where your face went sooo red. Hilarious, I have videos I think.ā
He groans in prospect and you hear muffled giggles erupt from Charlie. āWhy do you do this to me?ā
āWhat are you talking about?ā You tease and he groans again.
Charlie then speaks up, sounding way closer to the phone. āAlright! Weāll see you in two-point-five seconds.ā You hum in response and say your goodbyes before hanging up the phone.
You reach the blanket again, flopping on your tush and take the ice creams out, aligning them with precision on top of the picnic basket. Charlie doesnāt disappoint because not two minutes later you see two familiar figures walking down the park path, one of them pointing towards your general direction and ditching the path to the grass.
You could feel your heart pound fromā¦ nervousness or excitement? Maybe both and it makes you grin, waving at the two. They get closer and Charlie waves awkwardly with a hand that has a drink in it, to which you notice his other hand also had a drinkā¦ and one of Nickās. The blondās other hand is carrying headbands of some sort and a bag is hanging off his arm.
āChar told me to get these while we were in the grocery store.ā Nick speaks first when they get to you, he lifts the hand with headbands. āI decided not to question it.ā You raise your hands and he carefully sets the accessories in them. Ah. Barbie headbands.
āCharlieā¦ā Your brows pinch in amusement but also bewilderment. āWhat have you decided?ā
He chuckles mysteriously, lifting a foot off the ground to point at your hand. āPut those down and take your drink, please. My hands are freezing.ā
āOops.ā You comply and take the cup. The two eventual settle down with Nick in the middle and you quietly take a nice sip of the beverages. āThank you.ā
The boys nod and you glance at Nick, noticing the shadows of bags under his eyes. It makes you frown for a second, āSo, what am I doing here on this lovely day.ā Before you could inquire, Nick speaks up first, eyes shutting in contentment and a pretty smile adoring his face.
You lean back on the palm of your hand, eyeing Charlie and he meets your gaze. āCan we not want to hang out with the one and only, Mr. Nick Nelson?ā You speak with a teasing tone, leaning into his side. His smile goes wider and he opens his eyes to meet yours.
āYou make me sound like some big shot.ā
Your eyes narrow.
āWell it was hard to reach youā¦ soā¦ā His gaze falters along with his smile, nervously tapping the top of his cup. āNot to pressure you, you know that but Charlie and I will always be there to listen if you need it.ā You poke his arm gently and you spot Charlieās hand sliding into Nickās.
āYeah.ā Charlie nods, squeezing their hands, āBut if not, thatās fine too. Y/N and I wanted to just, relax with you. Spend some time together.ā
That makes Nick let out a shaky laugh and a wobbly smile. āThanks.ā He pauses. āReally. Itās just been, crazy?ā He nibbles at his bottom lip before sighing and flops on his back, leaving his cup between his crossed legs and dragging the two of you down with him ā which makes you all share a laugh.
Charlie rests against his boyfriendās chest ā facing his direction and you flip onto your stomach to play with both of their soft locks. āWhat has?ā You ask softly.
Heās silent for a bit, tapping his fingers on your back with his free hand. āIām not sure, school? Life? ā¦Me? Thereās no exact reason, everything just seems to be crashing down in my brain and itās annoying to say the least.ā He sighs heavily, āIām probably just having that kind of month where everything is just feels like alot.ā He frowns and you move the hand in his hair down under his chin, gently squeezing his cheeks and he chuckles.
āThatās perfectly fine, it happens.ā You move the hand to trail up the left side of his face and place your palm over his forehead like youāre checking his temperature and it makes Charlie join in, prodding at Nickās neck gently.
āThereās a lot going through your life right now, perfectly understandable why it feels overwhelming and such. Thank you for talking to us about it.ā Charlie speaks softly.
āOf course. I donāt,ā Nick pauses, opening his eyes with a flash of worry, āI donāt want it to feel like Iām shutting you both out or anything, or if it feels like youāve done something wrong. I feel less weird thinking Iām overreacting, hahaā¦ā The laugh comes off flat but from the reassuring smiles from his lovers, he feels at ease.
āYouāre not.ā
āNuh-uh.ā You and Charlie speak simultaneously, denying such thoughts. It makes Nick laugh which sounds less forceful.
āI donāt think Iāll be able to talk about everything right now since I donāt even think Iām doneā¦ accessing everything but really, thank you. You both are my anchors.ā If you didnāt tear up from that, your heart definitely did. Charlie gets up off Nick, letting go of the blondās hand and tilts his head back with his hands over his face.
āSame, Charlie.ā You cover your own face and lay flat against the blanket.
āIā¦ā Nick trails off with another laugh and he sits back up which catches both of your attention. āCan we eat though, Iām getting a little hungry.ā He gives a shy smile and you also sit up.
āOh shit, what if the ice cream melted?!ā This realization has the three of you shooting towards the basket, grabbing the packaged delights and simultaneously sigh in relief. Theyāre not meltedā¦ yet.
āShould we just eat these first and then eat the actual lunch next?ā Charlie bites back a laugh, already opening up the plastic and pulling out the bubblegum eye Sonic, wasting no time to put it in his mouth with wide adorning eyes.
You and Nick watch him in amusement before opening your own. āI wanted this lime popsicle they usually sell but there were none.ā You sigh before eyeing Nickās container of airhead ice cream. He opens the top and it reveals the swirls ofā¦ red? Or pink and green.
āThatās funny, we saw those while we were at the store. There were these coconut flavors too.ā Nick reminisces, plucking the taped but wrapped in itās own plastic wooden spoon off the side of the ice cream container.
Charlie hums before looking down at the bitten into Sonic, āWhy does Sonic have green eyes? Are they actually green?ā
You all stay silent.
āI thought they were black or brown?ā You speak in confusion.
āRight? Even blueā¦.ā Charlie tilts his head.
āTechnically all of those are correct though they turn red as wellā¦ Itās the different franchises, I guess?ā Nick furrows his brows in thought, scooping into his sour treat after freeing the wooden stick and eats away, wincing here and there. You watch with amusement.
The lunch date you can say with absolute certainty was very successful. You all catch up on things that have been going on and different shows youāve been watching. Sharing ice cream, stuffing yourselves full with your Momās cooking ā there was even a drink war? All you knew was one minute you were nearly done with your beverage and the next itās being tossed in Nickās direction as you try and run away from Charlieās retort from you getting him seconds before. Ah, canāt forget the classic kisses shared under one of the many trees at the park and the newest photos stored in your āNick & Char ā¤ļøā album, like the picture of Charlie āpaintingā Nickās face with whip cream. Where the fuck did you get whip cream from? Ask your mother.
Around the time you were all packing up, a teenager around your age ran up with their four other friends and inform you there is a nice walking trail ā pointing towards the area where the park path splits, one continuing into a circle around the whole field and the other going into an area with rows of trees.
āYāthink weāll get jumpscared? Like a haunted path or something.ā You joked.
āThey said thereās a nice stream down the path.ā Nick smirks at your joking, placing a hand on your head and you puff out your cheeks, feeling them heat up a bit.
āAh yes, you can take a nice swim in it when I push you in there, Y/N.ā Charlie hums, quick to dart his eyes away when you flip your head in his direction.
āYouāre so evil to me?ā You watch him with wild eyes, mouth agape and he laughs.
āDo you think weāll actually able to get in?ā Nick ponders and you flip the wild gaze to him now.
āWith us three, Iām sure we can pull it off.ā Charlie responds with a menacing grin, mischief all up in his eyes and youāre playing ping pong with your eyes, flitting back and forth between them.
āIām gonna be arrested today, huhā¦ā Your boyfriend and bestfriend just giggle like evil people.
In the end, you three didnāt get in the streamās water but there were some fishes so you decided to feel them the crust that Charlie didnāt eat from his sandwich and take some more photos. Nick had picked Charlie up bridal-style, getting dangerously close to the water and you record it all.
āDonāt drop me!ā Charlie tightens his hold around Nick, fear and excitement in his tone.
āThis takes me back to the beachā¦ā Nick ignores his boyfriendās pleas and spins around carefully.
āDo not reminisce while Iām in your arms, please and thank you?!ā He exclaims and it makes you full on laugh, an arm over your stomach while watching the whole exchange happen.
Itās not long before it turns from afternoon to evening, you three return back from the area with Nick and Charlie debating on if they saw a deer or not. Charlie saying it was definitely there and Nick saying it wasnāt there.
āCarl Grimes flashbacksā¦ā You hum and Charlie puts you in a headlock.
āDo not. I will cry right here.ā He pouts and pulls at your cheeks, ignoring your protests. Nick watches with a soft gleam in his eyes, rocking the picnic basket back and forth with a hand.
You all walk down the sidewalk side by side once Charlie lets you go, talking about random things before Nick realizes the direction youāre going.
āAre we dropping Y/N off?ā He frowns.
It catches you and Charlie off guard. āWhat? What makes you think that?ā You raise an eyebrow. Nick points ahead and your house in slowly coming up in view. Ah.
āAh.ā Charlie speaks your thought and you both share a laugh. āNo, weāre not dropping her off.ā Charlie stretches his arms with a grunt before eyeing the bag strapped around Nick. āYou brought pajamas and clothes for tomorrow, right?ā
Nick nods, pursing his lips. āStill confused about that.ā
You scoff in amusement and place a hand on your forehead with an endearing smile. āNickā¦ā
āDonāt worry, youāll understand soon.ā Charlie gives him a thumbs up, paired with a wink before darting ahead of the two of you. Nick flicks his gaze to you in question but you put on an act and shrug.
āWhat he said,ā You pause for a moment, eyes burning into Nickās, āDo you like stargazing?ā
He moves closer to you, closing the gap and tugs your hand in his. The question makes him look up at the sky for a moment. āMmm. Never tried it before? What counts as stargazing? Iāveā¦ been in the car on trips and looked out the windowā¦?ā You give him a perplexed look which he returns.
āAlright, well-ā You chuckle, āThat canā¦ technically count? I guess? Justā¦ Yeah.ā You give up midway, tugging Nick along when you get closer to the front of your house where Charlie awaits. āYouāre on your phone while youāre on a date? Tsk tsk.ā You tut your lips in disapproval and Charlie startles.
He rolls his eyes, flipping his phone to the two of you bounding up the steps. āI was texting Saha- oops, hold on-ā He cuts himself off, flipping the phone back around with a nervous smile.
You glance at Nick before moving your hand to cover his eyes with your other hand. He gasps in surprise but doesnāt question it any further, grinning a bit. Facing back to Charlie you mouth the word, āBarbie?ā and tilt your head in confusion. He nods.
āYouāre silly.ā You remove your hand from Nickās face and flatten your hand, tapping Charlieās forehead in a chopping motion. He rubs the area with a laugh and you knock on your front door.
āDid you forget your keys?ā Nick giggles when you give him a look of shame.
āMaybe.ā
Your Mom is quick to open the door, grinning widely. āWelcome back. Hello, Charlie and Nick.ā They wave in shyness and she scoots back to let the three of you in. āWhatās the plan next, soldier?ā She bumps the door closed with her hip and loosely crosses her arms, raising an eyebrow at you specifically.
āGonna go in the back for about an hourā¦ā You trail off, taking your shoes off in the most complicated way. With your feet, or the heels per-say. When you finish you take the basket from Nick and walk to the kitchen with your mom as the boys finish taking off their own shoes. āTo stargaze.ā You finally finish when Nickās ears are out of reach.
She pats you on the back with approval, āAttagirl. How was lunch?ā
āIt was fun! We spoke a bit, ate and went down a trail.ā You bounce your head to the side while listening the activities before pausing. āHe seems moreā¦ energized?ā Your lips purse.
āWas that a question?ā She leans against the counter, one arm coming out of the self-hug and she combs her hand through your hair. You give her an awkward look and she breathes out a laugh. Tapping the crown of your forehead, she moves away to the fridge with a soft smile. āWell, if he seems to be uplifted,ā She eyes you before taking out three water bottles. āThatās great news, no?ā Then sets them infront of you on counter.
āYouāre right butā¦ I donāt know. I just feel like I can do more,ā You huff. āBut thatās dumb because of course I canāt, this has to be something Nick figures out and all I can do is support him.ā
āHoney, that is doing more for him. Supporting him is the biggest help you can five someone, along with what youāre already doing. Taking him out, letting him have space to clear his mind and being a safe net. Same thing with Charlie, no?ā Her hands latch onto your shoulders and give the muscles a gentle squeeze. āI know it feels like you want to do so much more but, thereās only so much.ā You tilt your head back and look up at her with a half-smile before relenting.
āYouāre right.ā
āA mother is always right.ā She lets go and moves towards the stove, giving you a smug side eyeā¦ which you return with an unamused eyeroll.
āYes, yes. My mother is always right. Sometimes.ā
āAbout ninety-nine percent.ā
āNinety-fiveā¦ā You lift an eyebrow and give her pointed look. She has a spoon in her hand when she looks over you and points it to her chin in thought, itās just a bit though.
āNinety-seven. Take it or leave it.ā
You scoff in amusement before scooping up the bottles, āWhatever you say, maāam. Weāll be outside.ā She hums in understanding and you exit out the kitchen, walking into the dining room before reaching the living room where the duo waits.
āPleasure for you to join us.ā Charlie smirks and takes two of the bottles from your arms with a nod of thanks.
āBe welcomed.ā Nick muses with a grin and cracks open the bottle, taking a quick refreshing sip.
āWhat is this speech? I hate it.ā Your face scrunches up in disgust before gesturing to the sliding glass door. āShall we?ā
āLook whoās doing it nowā¦ā Charlie stares at you cheekily. You give him the finger, he returns it.
There are slides in a shoe rack near the door and you three take a pair before stepping out. Nickās eyes widen in wonder. Your backyard has a big blanket ā similar to the one from the picnic ā sitting in the middle of the area that has a plot of grass and lanterns that hang off metal rods sit nicely around in the grass that have curves at the end, doing nicely as handles. What surprises you are the little bugs that fly and flicker with a yellow-green gleam in the air.
āSince when do we get fireflies?ā You speak first.
āSince forever, Y/N.ā Charlie poked your back and you jump, flipping around to get him back but heās already slipped behind Nick.
āYou littleā¦ā
āAh, ah ah, you have to be nice to me.ā
āSays who?ā Heās being ridiculous.
āSays me. Your bestfriend.ā He peaks around Nickās side ā who, mind you, is still focusing on the backyardās look ā with a teasing grin.
āIāmma beat you up.ā
āNo!ā He lets out a laugh when you lunge towards him, twirling out of your reach and running around with you flailing behind.
It felt special to Nick. The orange-red sky turning into itās pitch dark blue color, stars twinkling down on you three with a full moon bright. His eyes are stuck on his two partners, the fireflies swirling around them out of disturbance but still they still decorate the backyard with green-yellow hues, not ready to leave. He remembers this conversation you had in this backyard a year agoā¦
āDo you think fireflies come around this area?ā You were sitting on a bean bag, legs tucked beneath yourself and were practically sunken into the āseat.ā Charlie had insisted you to put it on the concrete side of the backyard so you did and now your face is hidden behind Nickās switch in your hands.
Speaking of who, Nick is currently soaked wet, wringing out the ends of his shirt and Charlie wraps himself up in a towel. Itās late night, pitch dark but they wanted to play with water balloons and your Mom happened to be out of the house to pick up dinner.
āMaybeā¦ā He leans back to look at the sky. āWhy? Do you like fireflies or something?ā He looks back down at you. The question has you silent for a couple of beats before you set down the console. He watches you with an amused twinkle in his gaze, puffing out his chest in pride at seeing you in his sweater. Charlie had been wearing it earlier and you both traded before they brought out the balloons.
āI mean, I have never seen any so, maybe, maybe not.ā You shrug, unfolding your legs and stretching them out with a groan. Your socked feet slap down against the concrete and you sit up a bit. āDonāt you think theyāre kinda special though? My Mom said itās like theyāre glowing up your night, dancing around you and stuff.ā You eye the floor. āAppearing on specials occasions like they know,ā You lean back into the seat with a sigh, āSaid thatās how she got married. Isnāt that crazy?ā
Charlie purses his lips, tilting his head to the side before smiling, āSounds magical. Theyāre the ātrue loveā bugs.ā His smile widens into a grin.
āExactly!ā You snap your fingers with a nod, bumping your heel against the stone pavement.
āIām sure they do appear out here though, donāt they come out at Midnight?ā Charlie shivers while speaking, hugging the towel around himself tighter. You sympathize with a playful grin.
āMaybe. But well, you boys should get inside and warm up. Weāll try next time.ā
āNick! Are you gonna come and lay down?ā He snaps out of his head, eyes darting to you and Charlie lying on the blanket though Charlie is trying to tap out from a leg lock you have him in.
He snorts in surprise, not missing a beat and closing the distance. āHow the hell did this happen?ā
āNick! Help me~ā Charlie wails before pinching your thigh, making you yelp and quickly let go.
āThat is cheating!ā You exclaim, rubbing your leg with a wince.
āAllās fair in war.ā He snickers, reaching a hand out to Nick who takes it and sits down between you two.
Itās a nice silence between the three of you, youāre not sure who laid down first but you eventually followed. Nick has his arms wrapped around the two of you and youāve glanced up at his face which shows contentment. You even met his gaze while peeking and it caught you off guard with how much his brown orbs were filled with much love and affection.
You reach a hand out towards Charlie and tussle at curls, making him whine in protest but lets you continue anyway. āIām not good with constellations so youāre not gonna be getting that during this stargaze adventure.ā You mumble against Nick with a laugh and it makes the other two chuckle.
āNah, thatās alrightā¦ Iām happy with thisā¦ā You and Charlie freeze at how soft Nickās voice sounds. Serene. Content. More than happy but not quite ecstatic. Filled with much love directed towards the two of you and it has your heart pounding.
You sit up on your elbow, making Nickās arm slip off of you and he eyes you with suspicion. āActuallyā¦ā This would be way more comfortable on your knees so you sit up, tuck your calves beneath you and cuff Charlieās face into your hands. Itās nearly laugh worthy of how quick his face turns a deep red and how you felt it happen under your touch.
You lean forward, careful not to face-plant into him ā that would be awkwardā¦ and painful ā pressing your lips against him. You both move into a soft but passionate rhythm. Your thumb brushes against his dusted cheeks, pressing hard against his lips one final time before moving back with a dazed grin.
He returns it, chuckling shyly before meeting Charlieās intense gaze. You choke back a laugh with the swiftness of your friend sliding up a bit, hand softly cupping the side of Nickās face and sharing their own kiss. Also very slow, and passionate. Your tilt your head up towards your house, eyeing the sliding door and sigh in relief to not see your Mom near it. By the time your gaze returns youāre meeting with the two boys staring at you with flushed faces.
āOh my god, youāre so red.ā You laugh.
āShut up?ā Charlie hands an arm over his face, probably burning up a bit more from the teasing.
The fireflies have died down, some still hanging around but you notice most are gone and a smile tugs at your lips. āWanna go inside now?ā
Charlie removes his arm with a sharp inhale and the two nod. āDo you need to bring the blanket in?ā He points to the cloth when you all stand and youāre quick to shake your head.
āNah. Iāll grab and wash it tomorrow,ā You stretch your limbs, hearing some pop. āI need new bonesā¦ā
Nick sticks his tongue out in playful disgust, āThat sounds horrific.ā
āWouldnāt that be crazy though? If we needed to trade in new bones when weāre old and seniors.ā
āY/N.ā Charlieās eyebrows bend and he grimaces, āWhy do you come up with the most freaky scenarios.ā Itās not a question.
āYeah, like the apocalypse one from before.ā Nick pitches in with a frown that falters into a smile.
You all step into the living room after youāre done turning off the lanterns and have grabbed your bottles, āBecause my brain is so amazing that I just think of things you would never think of.ā You make a gesture to your brain before wiggling your fingers like youāve done a magic trick.
āOr so you sayā¦ā Charlie glances somewhere else before meeting your eyes, āLess would never think of more, shouldnāt think of.ā He flicks his hand towards you, thumb and index finger out in a finger gun.
āHey, these could be real life events soon to happen.ā
āYeah the bones theory would happen when we all become immortal.ā He chuckles and you roll your eyes.
Then boom, jumpscare. Your Mom appears just as youāre settling on the couch. A screech leaves all of your mouths and she stares in shock with mild confusion and amusement.
āHello to you three, too.ā She giggles, walking over to the glass door, tugging the lock between the handle down and pulls the thick curtains down. āEnjoy stargazing?ā She turns back around with a soft smile.
You three shift your gazes away. Apparently it wasnāt just you that still had the intimate moment in the back of your brain, huh? āYeah, thanks Mom.ā
If she noticed the slight awkwardness building up, she doesnāt mention it nor show it and instead clasps her hands together, āThatās wonderful! Dinner is finished so feel free to grab whatever you want. Iāll be upstairs if you need me.ā She fills you in on her own plan for the night which is pretty much staying in her room so you all have your own time. She then tilts her head, eyes spacing out until she perks up, āAnd then thereās brownies that are baking, should be finished soon. I set a timer so when you hear it please take it our for me, Y/N.ā
You nod before frowning, āWhy does it have to be me?ā Apparently she didnāt understand from the confusion crossing her face. You then point to Charlie and Nick.
Charlie looks offended, āWe are a guest?ā but his tone is light.
āYou practically live here? Your clothes are in my closet, mind you.ā Nick and your Mom choke out a laugh while Charlie flares up, flustered.
āNickās are too?!ā
āWhich is why I included him in my pointing?!ā
Two people are bickering, two people laughing at the scene. It doesnāt take long for you Mom to calm you both down, āIt doesnāt matter who, it doesnāt matter if itās all three of you. Please just donāt let them burn.ā She chuckles a bit more before rubbing her hand against her collarbone to calm herself, āHave a great time. Iāll be in my room.ā You all wave her āgoodnightā and she retreats upstairs.
You three share a silence. Then Nick speaks,
āā¦So what exactly are we doing? It seems you both are full of surprises today,ā He wears a teasing look which makes you and Charlie look away.
āDonāt worry about it, mister. You enjoy the ride.ā You talk first before nudging Charlie with your leg. āYou put the movie on, Iāll go make our plates and...ā You eye Nick for a moment not knowing what he should do.
āNick, I put the backpack in Y/Nās room, could you go get it while we set up? Oh! The headbands too.ā Charlie pitches in and grins at the mention of the headbands. You and Nick blink at him before standing up to dart down your own paths.
While youāre making the plates the oven timer does go off. You take a toothpick from one of the drawers, flick on the oven light, open the oven ā making you flinch back from the heat ā then poke the dark chocolate fudge goodness. It has baked all the way so you grab oven mitts and drag the pan of brownies out of itās cooker, sets it on the stove and flick turn the oven off.
After making sure everything was set in the kitchen you grab two plates and exit the kitchen, back into the living room where the movie is paused on the TV right before it begins. Charlie stands up and helps grab the two plates, letting you dart back into the kitchen again for the last one just in time for Nick to return.
āDo you want drinks? We got juices, sodas, water, you name it.ā You peak your head out behind the dining room wall and the two boys pause midway in putting on the barbie headbands. You bite your lip to hold back a laugh.
āDo you have that tropical mix?ā Nick speaks and you nod, he points at you in affirmation of the drink then finishes adjusting the plastic accessory around his hair.
āRoot beer, please.ā Charlie speaks next before his eyes shine open and wide, āDo you think we can have floatsā¦ā
Your eyebrows perk up, āI think we have vanilla? But youāre not getting that till the brownies cool down.ā
āOh, theyāre out? Thank Barbie.ā He holds his hands up in a prayer.
You stare at him, very much unamused and he gives you a cheeky grin.
āIāll have tropical juice for now then.ā
With a thumbs up you return to the kitchen once more, grabbing three tall glass cups from the cabinet and grab the carton juice out the fridge. You fill up two cups before staring at your own. After deciding your choice of drink, you put everything away and startle while turning around and seeing Nick in the doorway.
āSorry,ā He smiles apologetically, walking up to you and grabbing the cups filled with juice that is his and Charlieās. He catches you off guard once again, planting a soft kiss on your cheek before bounding off to the living room again.
āWhat the fuck.ā You stand in oblivion, feeling your face heat up. You decide you wonāt unpack that tonight, flicking off the kitchen light and rejoining your movie mates.
Nick and Charlie had switched spots to where the blond was in the middle like he had been all day and your boyfriend pats the free spot next to him. You comply, setting your cup on the table while sitting and you lean into Nick with a soft smile.
āYou forgot this, kind maāam.ā Charlie grabs the plastic pink band and you lean forward. He puts it on carefully and leans back with a self-satisfied expression, grabbing the remote with a quite cheer. āAre we ready for the best movie night ever?ā
You and Nick watch him with amusement, āYes, Charles, we are.ā
āNot Charles, I will fight you.ā He shivers at the name.
āYou call me Nicholas?ā Nick speaks. It makes you laugh.
āItās your real name.ā He grins.
āIs Charles not your real name, Char?ā You lift an eyebrow and he rolls his eyes, still wearing the grin.
āNo, it is āCharlie āCharā Springā.ā
You let out an insufferable sigh.
āYāknow, Y/N has called me āLukeā before.ā Nick leans his head back with a scoff. This makes you have a full on belly laugh which makes Charlie react the same way. āYes, yes laugh it away.ā He sighs like heās in pain.
It takes five minutes to calm down. You wipe a precious tear away, āIt was on call too and he hung up. Would not answer for like, an hour.ā You inhale deeply at the memory before laughing again.
āShould we start calling him Luke as a nickname?ā
āPlease, please donāt.ā Nick squeezes the arm wrapped around Charlieās waist with a pleading look.
āAwwe you canāt do that.ā He pouts, reaching up to pinch Nickās face.
āDho wha?ā He sounds funny with Charlie tugging at his face.
āThe puppy eyed look. The doe eyes.ā You bat your eyelashes at Nick when he eyes you from the corner of his eyes before rolling them.
āWeāve gone all dahy withosut this, nowh yuu wanna shtart?ā Now heās the one doing the insufferable sighing.
āItās a daily mission.ā Charlie nods, a serious expression crossing his looks ā putting on an act. He then lets go and grabs the remote again, āMovie time!ā
āMovie time!ā You cheer afterwards.
You three are silent for a bit as the movie plays, you and Charlie cuddling into Nick. He plants soft kisses down your face and you flush a bit. Then he moves to Charlie, repeating the action, who giggles quietly and eyes Nick with a shy look. It makes you laugh under your breath and Charlie doesnāt miss it, pointing to you with a brow raised and expression saying, āDonāt laugh at me when youāre acting the same.ā You look away.
āHey,ā Nick suddenly speaks up and the two of you look over. āThanks for today. It really helped calm me downā¦ā He continues to train his eyes on the TV but his ears burn from you and Charlie giving him your undivided attention. āAnd reassured me about a few thingsā¦ā He purses his lips.
āReassured?ā Charlie asks quietly, as if afraid to make Nick snap his mouth shut and not speak again.
Nick sucks in a breath and you shiver from his fingers crawling up your arm. You watch Charlie lift his own hand and hold the arm wrapped around him.
āYeah. Since everything felt like it was crashing down, I donāt know. It kinda made me feelā¦ negative? About certain stuff. Between us. Not that Iām not happy, Iām more than thankful to be with you two but just like, how you both felt towards meā¦ā His pursed lips flatten and your brows bend at the way his eyes dim.
āBreaking up with me for example because maybe you felt neglected or such. It made me so scared to think about I stopped responding to both of your messages most of the time and barely wanted to call because you know, what if one day you just went, āYeah I donāt think we should be together,ā such and such.ā You both stay quiet to let him speak his mind and you hate that he ever thought such things.
When Nick stays silent you take a sharp inhale, meeting eyes with Charlieās glossed ones. The sight breaks your heart. āNickā¦ā You start off carefully and he looks over to you with so much exhaust. Slowly, you cuff his face ā the same way you did outside ā brushing your thumbs against him cheeks. Your right hand moves down, playfully you press your thumb against his bottom lip and smile gently.
āIām sorry that you ever felt that way. Itās far from the truth, sweetheart.ā He lets out an airy chuckle and you watch with adoration. āYāknow brains come up with the craziest scenarios when youāre stressed and itās annoying, and stupid.ā You huff, left hand moving against his cheek and he leans into the touch. Your thumb and index finger latch onto his ear and you pinch it lightly. āDo you know that, that would never happen unless you came to me asking for such a thing?ā You pucker out your lips.
He watches you in a daze before laughing. āDo you know that would never happen?ā Then he turns to Charlie with a soft look. āAnd you, Char?ā
Charlie rubs at his reddening eyes and inhales. He then nods, opening his mouth before faltering. You both give him and moment and he closes his eyes in frustration before heaving out a sigh. Concern is evident in both of your expressions but Charlie opens his eyes with a new look of determination, straight at Nick.
He smacks his hands against Nickās shoulders which makes the latterās mouth hang open in surprise. āNick. I love you. A lot. It hurts to know that you were dealing with these emotions, but know Iām not blaming you. How could I? Itās not your fault. Never feel bad for needing to take your time to sort out your own feelings and whatās going on with yourself. Weād never blame you for that because in the end, you know we have you, right?ā
Nick nods and you can see his own eyes get glossy as well. Charlie then looks at you, āI love you too, Y/N, donāt tell Tao but youāre my bestfriend.ā He chuckles, wiping at his eye again and you wipe at your owns.
āHey, he can be your guy bestfriend and we wouldnāt have to fight over titles.ā You wink, before leaning to Nick and kissing him softly. āI love you both, very much so. Iām glad you were able to talk to us, Nick.ā
āWas that your goal today?ā He grins in a joking manner, tilting his head in the crook of Charlieās neck while entangling his fingers with yours.
āDid it work?ā Charlie sniffles a bit before laughing. You laugh as well, āThis is ridiculous weāre supposed to be watching Barbie and now weāre sobbing.ā
āI give up.ā You throw your head back, side eyeing the TV.
āNooo, donāt give up.ā Nicks chuckles before sitting upright. āWe can still watchā¦ we should probably eat too.ā He points to the lonely plates on the table.
āTrue.ā You and Charlie agree. You three take a moment to collect yourselves with a few embarrassed laughs here and there before settling back down.
āWhatās in the bag, by the way?ā You gesture to the backpack under the coffee table as Charlie rewinds the movie back to the beginning. He glances down.
āSnacks.ā
āItās good.ā You hum in approval, taking a bite of your food. The three of you enjoy the movie and dinner, later on making those root beer floats paired with the brownies. Charlie had explained to Nick that he was texting Sahar about the Barbie Movie and she told him she went with Imogen. Apparently, Imogen gives the movie a 2/10 because she messed up her outfit at the theaters.
āThatās terrible.ā Nick stares at Charlie in shock but it doesnāt last long with the way his lips curve into a smirk, āThatās not her real rating though, is it?ā
āOf course not, she loved it.ā Charlie laughs.
Youāve been quiet this whole time but suddenly loll your head to face them. Nick already giving you an exasperated look when you got their attention. āNick. Your new name in my phone is Ken Nelson.ā
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So I know there's been a lot of posts and videos and even a study into the way social media algorithms like those on tiktok and youtube push people towards bigoted, especially transphobic, content even from innocuous watch habits that theoretically have nothing to do with said bigotry.
But, like, something different has been happening recently.
I've recently been seeing an uptick of transphobic content being pushed my way on youtube, especially in shorts. Not even just regular conservative videos, but specifically transphobic ones. I kinda brushed it off because I'm trans and I watch trans creators and trans ally content pretty frequently (my follow list is a see of green), so I just assumed it was the algorithm seeing that I like videos having to do with trans people and just giving me any video relating to trans people, positive or negative since maybe it can't tell the difference.
Then my girlfriend started getting transphobic videos that things kinda piqued interest. It made at least some sense, not just from the fact that we're dating, but that my girlfriend is also nonbinary and also frequently (though slightly less than me) watches trans content. Maybe it's the same thing.
Then my boyfriend mentioned to me the same thing. Now he's a cishet man, so the being trans part of things is out, but he lives with two trans and nonbinary people who he's in a relationship with, so maybe either it's proximity (as the youtube/google algorithm is actually affected by what people nearby you are interested in iirc) or he also watches some trans content as well.
BUT THEN apropos of nothing my girlfriend's mom tells her that she's getting a lot of transphobic content on youtube! She is also cishet and unlike my boyfriend she doesn't live with us or all that close (about a 10-15 minute drive), so neither of those explications make sense. It was enough transphobic content for her to notice and mention it to somebody.
I think youtube is just blanket pushing transphobic content en masse on a more frequent basis. I'm starting to think this isn't an algorithm thing, but an effort to boost content that turns people against trans people just as transphobic legislation ramps up to its highest levels and a presidential primary election where trans people and transphobia will be a central topic (and wedge issue).
Maybe it's intentional conditioning. Or maybe it's all a coincidence and I'm just crazy who knows ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ
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i am equally as happy for and sympathetic towards whoever gets casted as abby for tlou hbo because people donāt know how to separate the character from the actor/actress
this goes for any tv show, movie, etc. but some of yāall are way too comfortable sending and/or posting nasty comments or even death threats to actors just because of the character they play
like when bella got casted as ellie, they got so much hate, its crazy. its kinda scary how comfortable some people, some ADULTS, were with sending a then 19 year old death threats just because they were casted in a show
its honestly props to the actor/actress because they are playing the part so well that yāall somehow lose the fact that they really arenāt the character.
posting or sending threats or nasty comments to the actor or about them literally solves nothing and only creates a negative space. all youāre doing is showing cowardice by hiding behind a screen and insolence for writing it in the first place. digital footprint, people. it exists.
society is so screwy sometimes.
please just be nice yāall. it isnāt that hard.
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High and Low
Pt.1 arranged marriage
Norihisa Hyuga x f.reader
(My first time writing on tumblr, and 1st time doing such trope so bear w me pls as this is kinda like a pilotš«¶)
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It was thundering by the time I finally had landed in Japan, luckily the flight wasnāt delayed and neither there were any issues of sort. After collecting by suitcases, which didnāt contain much as i plan on buying more here, i got a cab and showed the driver the address.
As i sat back to relax, or at least attempt to, i try to recall the trouble i got myself into. Hadnāt I tried to purposefully irritate the elders, they wouldnāt have convinced my parents into this marriage; a marriage with a crazy guy who sought revenge and had recently got out of jail. Apparently he also isnāt keen to this idea. Many arenāt, sure having someone in the family who runs a gang its beneficial, considering the elders want to expend their business here in japan, but, my parents are against this, strangely enough most of my relatives are too, and probably is so this main of a ex-convict.
But am i against it? I asked myself this multiple times and everytine i cant decide. If i was really against it then i wouldāve ran away, frankly speaking its very easy, but i guess i have nothing to lose. No matter what, had i brought another guy stating he was the love of my live, these elders wouldāve still complained unless the poor boy wouldāve brought them anything useful for status and power and more nonsense.
I just hope heās decent. No, he has to at least have a nice personality. Bad looks? I can manage, i can simply not wear glasses around the house, having a negative 5 eyesight can be handy. But he cant have a shit personality, i cant risk my blood pressure.
I look outside the window as it rains, while the car drives at a reasonable speed, and before i knew it, i was here. Outside the main meet up place of his gang, I shouldāve at least be given the actual address, no? As i thank the driver i notice a look of unease in his eyes, and shit i dont blame him, one might even thing weāre in a middle of the forest from how it looked.
After taking my suitcase i start to head in the old styled house, i mean the door was open.. as i entered i could feel weird looks from men, most of the wearing red jackets and chains, until i asked one of them if they could bring me to hyuga, and without saying much, he led the way, as if he was waiting for me.
I was brought to another room, much quieter, there sat a man who looked like had been smoking, wearing a red jacket over his shoulder and golden chained hanging from his neck. He looked me up and down before i spoke, āso? You are, i believe my fiancĆ©??ā
He just stared at me before replying āyeahā in a obvious rude tone before getting up and walking towards me. Maybe because i was tired from the flight, perhaps even jet-lagged but i was already trying to study his looks.
āLets get something clear from the beginning, im not interested in you or in such things. You got problems? Dont bother me with them. Do not get involved in any of my business and dont irritate me at allā he says, coldly? Nah, more like in a commanding tone.
I take a deep breath, before forcing a smile āsure, i shall not bother his highness with any trivial mattersā a hint of sarcasm in my tone, before adding in āso where will i be staying?ā I ask.
āAt my house, guest roomā he replies, āhere?ā As i glance around the place, now im no spoiled daughter but- ādo you think i live here?ā He raises an eyebrow, irritated as i shrugs my shoulders after looking him from head to toe. He scoffs āI have main house, my men will drive you thereā he replies before leaving the room as ic somewhere to be, while one of his men tells me to follow him.
(If anyone has any suggestions you think i can improve on lmk)
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Ranking Ninjago Seasons Pt 1 (F and D Tier)
Part 2ā¦
Yeah, Iām doing this.
Why? Iām bored as shit and also I just reread a post that was ranking Ninjago seasons, so why not?
And the title of āWorst Ninjago Season in my Opinionā goes toā¦.
Rebooted!
I hate this season.
Itās. So. Fucking. Boring.
Barely anything happens at all! In the 8 episode runtime, which makes this the second shortest Ninjago season from the Wilfilm era.
Ok first, positives.
Pixane is cute and Zaneās sacrifice was done excellently. His character is also made a bit better, which I appreciate.
Uh- we get 3 minutes of Lava interactions.
Welp time for my negatives!
This season takes forever to go anywhere, like I said. Then once they deal with the Overlord in the Digiverse, erm actually that did jack shit and heās still alive by the way! Pythor just ate him!
(Now that Iām typing this out I sound crazy)
Lloyd and Garmadonās story is done decently, sure, but Lloyd is a complete egotistical moron throughout the whole thing.
āOh Iām the Golden Ninja I can do anything! Iām God himself!ā
Sure he had the powers of God and he ādestroyedā the Overlord in season 2, which kinda justifies his behavior, but heās so annoying and unbearable to watch.
Sensei Garmadon is good. Nothing else to say about that plot line.
Time for the worse plot line, aka the stuff the main ninja are doing.
Honestly I barely remember what they were trying to do because of how forgettable this season is. Iām pretty sure that theyāre just screwing around trying to get the Overlord out of the computers and keeping Lloyd away from him, but thatās all I remember besidesā¦
THE LOVE TRIANGLE.
OH MY JOHN SPINJITZU.
I DESPISE THIS PLOTLINE WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING.
THIS. THIS IS THE MAIN REASON I HATE REBOOTED.
It ruins Nyaās character, makes Jay unlikeable for this season, season 4 and the beginning of season 6, and Cole- I mean Coleās not all that innocent but heās just kinda standing in the middle of all this. His character doesnāt go through the meatgrinder of character assassination.
Nyaās whole character in the past 2 seasons was being an independent girlboss who did whatever the fuck she wanted.
But the second that a computer AI tells her āyou should like Cole instead of Jay!ā, she decides that āIām gonna listen to a computer despite the fact Iāve been dating Jay for 2 seasons now!ā
She and Cole have no chemistry whatsoever. In season 1, Cole said he wished he had a sister like her, clearly only seeing her as a friend.
Luckily in canon he was just confused by all the attention and didnāt actually like her. But still, the whole ādonāt tell Jayā thing makes me mad, and Cole rarely makes me mad.
Jay, oh my gosh.
Heās not as bad as Nya but heās still thrown into the meatgrinder of character assassination.
The second that Pixal says that Nyaās perfect match is Cole, he immediately pins the blame on him and tackles him to the ground for no reason. Cole was only fighting back for self defense.
As Tom Critic put it:
āWHY IS THIS COLEāS FAULT?!!ā
He and Coleās beef is so dumb. And Nya aināt making it any better.
āThis macho stuff is making you both look like fools!ā
EVEN THOUGH ITS YOUR FAULT THEYāRE FIGHTING IN THE FIRST PLACE BECAUSE YOU LISTENED TO A FUCKING COMPUTER YOU BITCH-
*ahem ahem*
What else is there to hate about this plot line?
How about the fact that it goes absolutely nowhere? There was no point for adding this. Absolutely no reason besides the fact that Jay, Cole, and Nya donāt get anything to do this season.
EVEN THOUGH KAI DOESNT GET ANYTHING EITHER!
Heās shown to hate futuristic technology and thatās literally the only thing he gets this season! So whatās the point of the love triangle to get them to do something?
Oh yeah! There is no point!
Back to Kai. All he gets to do is flirt with a random girl at a gas station and get tied to a rocket.
Oh yeah he got tied to a rocket ship. That doesn't sound traumatizing whatsoever/sarc.
Waking up after being knocked out for who knows how long and finding out you're tied up underneath a rocket ship that could set off at any time, burning you to a crisp in one big firey explosion.
That totally wouldn't scar you for life.
Ok back to a positive, aka Zane's sacrifice.
Some people say the saddest part of Zane's death was the fact that Nya gave Cole a hug afterwards and Jay looks sad, but that's not the saddest part to me.
The saddest part was right before he died, when everyone is crying out at him to stop.
More specifically, when Kai cries out:
"LET GO OF HIM ZANE! WHAT IS HE DOING?!"
The way that Vincent Tong voiced that scene literally brings tears to my eyes and shivers down my spine every time. He poured so much energy into that oh my gosh.
Alright, no more complaining about this season before this becomes a 27 page essay. Next!
Crystallizedā¦
WAIT WRONG POSTER-
Ok, there we go!
Yeah, Crystallized sucks in my opinion. Bite me.
Iām not like Crusty783 where I hate this season with every fiber of my being, but I still donāt like it that much.
First part was decent, ig. The Skybound callback with the whole fugitive storyline was a nice idea, and the ninja actually committing a crime instead of being framed was cool.
Nya couldāve come back a little later than 6 episodes after turning into water, but oh well. At least sheāll add something to the plot later, right?
ā¦right?
(Weāll get back to thatā¦)
Fugidove is the bane of my existence. Heās. So. Annoying. Just. Shut. The. Fuck. Up.
I mean heās supposed to be annoying and I get that but still. Heās a worse character than Dareth and I hate Dareth with all of my being so that shows how bad of a character Fugi-Dick is.
Dareth is fine this season ig. Heās actually not an idiot during the court case and doesnāt try to bust the ninja out of jail using a cake.
What else is there in part 1?
Mr. Kabuki Mask was a neat idea. If he wasnāt Harumi then Iād actually like him. But unfortunately, it was Harumi.
I didnāt like her before she died, what makes you think Iāll like her now, ninjago writers?
Alright, since barely anything happens in part 1, time for part 2.
Oh my gosh this is the main reason I donāt like Crystallized.
This season is the embodiment of the meatgrinder of character assassination I talked about. Everyone gets butchered.
Ok not everyone. Kai, Jay, and Cole mostly stay the same. To be fair they donāt really do anything though-
Lloyd is no longer Lloyd. He is La-Lloyd, as Knightly called him after s8 (I donāt see what his problem is with Lloyd in season 8). He has the āHarumi you donāt have to do thisā-itus, meanwhile when it comes to Garmadon who is TRYING TO BE A BETTER PERSON AND BECAME A GOOD GUY, he shuts him down because āyouāre an Oni, and Oni are incapable of caringā.
(Even though MystakƩ existed and she fucking died to save your life but ok La-Lloyd, sure.)
Like he thinks that Harumi, the girl that gave him PTSD for 4 seasons in a row before this, has a better chance of becoming a better person than his father, someone who is clearly becoming a better person and is actually trying to be nice to you now? Puh-lease.
Oh yeah, Harumi!
She got shoved into the character assassination blender before being put into the meat grinder. Her character is 100% ruined because of the Overlord saying she has feelings for La-Lloyd.
*inhale*
NO SHE FUCKING DOESNāT!
THAT WAS THE PART OF HER CHARACTER THAT MADE HER SO GOOD IN SEASONS 8-9! SHE DIDNT GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT LLOYD SHE WAS JUST USING HIM GAHHHHHHHH-
Alright, who else is there?
Oh yeah, Nya! Whatās she up to after being water for a full year?
Absolutely nothing. Like she does jackshit besides be a Samurai X themed taxi.
Yes I stole that line from Crusty783.
Her and Kai, her BROTHER, have one single interaction this whole season after she was gone for a year. The show only focuses on Jaya angst because we need more of that shoved down our throats! Seasons 6, 9, and 14 (Seabound, donāt @ me) werenāt enough, we need MORE!
Zane.
Return of the Ice Emperor makes me want to shove my head into a meatgrinder.
I fucking loathe this episode.
With a title like that, youād think theyād give him some trauma/PTSD when it comes to the fact that he, yāknow, COMMITTED GENOCIDE FOR 60 YEARS??
But no. Zane gets taken apart for the 10485792742874387492749273947482773747374387447th time and he acts like the Ice Emperor because this show treats trauma like a joke most of the time.
The whole āemotionless arcā from part 1 was decent ig. He was pretty funny when he was talking like a toaster, and the moment when he starts screeching when he turns on his emotions for 2 seconds was funny.
The Benefit of Grief was a good episode. Sally was a bit annoying but eh whatever. Dareth didnāt get on my nerves for once and Hot Dog McFiddlesticks or whatever his name was was really entertaining.
Ok, one more point to make about Crystallized, thatās the villain.
Say hello to the Crystal King!
Oh? Whatās that? Heās not a new villain? What do you mean-
Itās the fucking Overlord. Again. This is the 3rd time heās reappeared, just let him die already!
I hate the Overlord. Heās such a nothing burger of a villain. His entire motivation is just āIām evil and dark so I make everyone else evil and dark.ā
I get heās the embodiment of evil but give him some personality, oh my gosh.
Make it so he likes seeing people in pain. Have him laugh whenever someone got turned into a crystal zombie or something, idk!
Thatās how he is in my Golden Hope au. Sure thatās not canon, obviously, but I wanted to give him *some* personality besides āme evil.ā
Ok, is there anything about this season that I like besides Benefit of Grief?
Actually, yes!
SAFE HAVEN IS THE BEST EPISODE OF THE ENTIRE SEASON.
LAVA NATION UNITE!!
The whole thing is just Kai being a bisexual disaster. I love it so much.
It gives us this screenshot, which gives enough context tbh:
Itās just āGAH I LOVE THEM SO MUCHā for 11 minutes, and thatās basically it.
The episode gives Skylor some character, hallelujah. Last couple of seasons sheās been in did not do her any justice.
Pythor was funny. And he gave us the scene of:
āNinja~ where are you?ā
āWeāre over here!ā
So yeah, Safe Haven is the best episode ever. Ok, not the best episode of all time, but itās definitely a personal favorite of mine, solely for all the Lava brainrot I get to indulge in.
(Fun fact: Cole was originally going to say that Kai was handsome when he was acting all loopy. I hate homophobes.)
What else is there in this season-?
Roninās return was nice. Glad he went back to his previous personality rather than being a full time criminal like he was in The Island. I get that heās like āI do whatever the fuck I wantā most of the time, but he doesnāt give off the vibes of using the criminals heās hired to catch just to swindle a bunch of islanders.
Alright, thatās it for Crystallized.
Next!
Secrets of Forbidden Spinjitzu: Fire Chapter
Yeah Iām considering this a separate season for this tier list. Bite me.
This is the main reason why (mostly) everyone hates season 11, you cannot convince me otherwise.
Nothing. Happens.
The main reasons for why I hate certain Ninjago seasons is because theyāre boring/assassinate characters.
The latter doesnāt happen, thank the FSM, but the first point still stands.
Assphera is a dumb villain. Only redeeming quality about her is the joke where she screams āREVENGEā every two seconds in the most ear-splitting voice ever.
Props to her voice actress, RIP.
Anyways, back to the actual season.
Like I said, nothing happens in the beginning. Just 4 or 5 episodes of the ninja dicking around looking for something to do, then they free Assphera from her pyramid and then finally, they start doing shit.
Ok but this line from Lloyd made me laugh:
āWho opens a possibly cursed tomb without checking it out first?ā
ā¦you-?
The paperboy episode was- pointless. But it was still dumb fun ig š¤·š¼āāļø
Snaketastrophe was a really funny episode. I actually like that one.
But that doesnāt mean I like the first couple of episodes.
Too many burp and fart jokes in the first episode, the second episode is just boring, same with all the other episodes about being stuck on a rock with Barney the Dinosaur Beetle.
Kaiās powerless arc was just a repeat of Lloydās powerless arc from season 9, but done worse imo.
(I mean Firemaker is one of the best ninjago episodes ever created besides Safe Haven but thatās not important rn)
Overall this half of the season is boring as shit and I just want to get to the ice chapter when ever I watch it.
Alright, thatās it for today!
Hereās the tier list so far:
Next part will be C and B tiers.
See you in 10 years when I make that/j
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The discourse on Saltburn is so interesting to me because you either choose to take the movie as a fun romp or a movie "that had nothing [new] to say." Or that things happened just for shock value.
While there's definitely an argument to be made that this film had nothing/little to say, (as I am struggling with some themes they seemed to drop halfway through as well,) I just took this movie as a fun romp haha. You have to sit back and remember... they drew curtains back after a major character death and the entire room was RED! They isolate their black family member. They put a deer costume on Oliver during his bday party. A DEER. This movie was never trying to be subtle.
I've seen some crazy takes like "rich people good?" lmao Felix is arguably the 'nicest' family member right? Jacob Elordi and the script honestly do a really good job showing he's just as shitty as his family. After telling Oliver about his life, he asks Oliver, what about you? Cmon, what else? Siblings? ANYTHING interesting about you? Oliver should not have lied... if he didn't though, do you actually believe Felix would have kept talking to him? Felix gathered his family around and told them exactly "what happened" to Olivers mom and dad. No one would DO THAT! Especially if you've invited this person to your home!!
This internet age refuses to accept multiple things can be true at the same time haha when Felix learned from Farleigh that Ollie and Venetia hooked up, Felix STOMPED to the breakfast table. Folded his arms, ignored Ollie, made no eye contact. Then admitted he didn't want Ollie to be with Venetia, he had a problem with THE LAST GUY he brought to their home being with Venetia. They bring a new "poor" person their home every damn Summer. Multiple truths: 1. Felix shouldn't have been friggin killed. 2. Felix was a shitty person. Jesus
I understand the shock value critique. None of the three big scenes came across like shock value to me personally. I think it's because 1. It was all coming from Oliver. Oliver slurped the tub water, he fucked the grave, he put the period blood back in Venetias mouth. I think if everyone in the family was also doing weird fucked up shit, I'd be like, oookay. Now how is everyone here a weirdo? lol but it was just Oliver. 2. I thought this was a cannibalism movie lmao so I was actually expecting worse!
Obviously people can have different opinions but this movie and its discourse have been super interesting to me. I really enjoyed this movie but my main negative is that it does present itself in the beginning of the movie as though it has something to say but it doesn't have much to say? You're also not made aware that Olivers main objective was the house. Or if it wasn't the house at the start, at what point did it become about getting everything from the family?
Remember the friend Ollie had at the school that he later dropped? That friends last words to Ollie were, "he'll [felix] will get bored of you." Or something like that. That was so dumb lmao Venetia says this exact thing later in the movie. Why not make that friends last words to Ollie about status? Tie that into what Farleigh begins to tell Ollie and make Ollies goal clear to the audience even before the "plot twist."
That scene in school with the tutor. Oliver read the whole summer reading list. He came to college ready to go by the rules and succeed. There's no clear turning point imo. When Farleigh gets there late, doesn't care, definitely didn't read the reading list, and the tutor is like, "I knew your hot mom. We weren't friends, I just admired her from afar." I wish there was more focus on Oliver realizing following the rules would get him nowhere he wanted to be.
I ended up enjoying this movie because I'm satisfied with how fun it was, how GORGEOUS it looks, and how great the performances are. Not good, great performances truly. It's so sad that this could have been a 'no plot, just vibes' kinda movie. But instead there is some semblance of a plot lol it's just not fully fleshed out. I still think people are taking it way too seriously and the genuine distain for it is odd but there's a tug and pull here for sure.
#saltburn#saltburn 2023#like i don't think the movie boyhood 2014 has a plot#and i did not like boyhood lmao but so many people identified with it#so it's like damn were the vibes in saltburn just not enough for people#did the hint at an actual plot that was never fully realized kill the vibes for others completely?#long post#idk it's 2am this isn't super well written but i was compelled#films
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Digimon Frontier (Manhua)Ā - Volume 2
I wonder if anyone on tumblr has read this manhua in its physical form since it was only released in Australia. Also, how many manhua/manga are the Aussies hiding from us?? lol
Ch. 8
Oh okay, so in this version of the story digicode is called a "digital password" (for some...reason)
I do like how this artist draws Junpei. He looked cute with his hair all tousled in this chapter.
Ch. 9
Huh. They completely cut out all of the comedy from this "episode." Nothing about Calmaramon being ugly and her fanboys abandoning her and nothing about her spinning out of control and defeating herself...womp womp.
I'm attempting to read this on my Boox ereader to enhance my experience. Maybe it will motivate me to read quicker lol. I'd be curious to hear my mutuals' preferred format/app for reading emanga. I use a big mix of stuff but in this case it's Tachiyomi + eink
Ch. 10
Yikes, that was so disjointed and weird! They went from the fight with Duskmon back to the Calmaramon fight. I thought that the scans were uploaded in the wrong order or something, but nope!
The transition to the real world was so clunky and confusing.
I did like Duskmon's chapter art, that was pretty badass. His mask looks a little funky though (the fangs are more gnarly)
Ch. 11
More cut scenes messing things up: Takuya expresses his guilt for Koji's predicament, but they never bothered to go over Takuya's reckless plan to fight Duskmon, so it's totally unclear why he's guilty in the first place. Also, we see Takuya go to the real world, but we never see his epiphany for why he should go back to the digital world, he just kinda appears in the next fight scene. -sigh- Who needs character motivations or emotions amirite?
At least they cut out the tickle torture scene. Grateful for that decision...
I think this is the most expressive I've ever seen Mercuremon lol. I hope we see more of him in the franchise, his design is so original.
Ch. 12
I'm still not over how unimpressive the Frontier digivolutions are in some cases. Wolfmon and BeoWolfmon are basically the same thing. I think they straight up got Koji's digivolution name wrong here (called BeoWolfmon Garummon), so that made things extra confusing and anti-climactic lol.
A lot of things were so unclear in this chapter: it wasn't clear that Seraphimon was lending his strength, it wasn't clear how Koji realized that Koichi was a human, and the flashbacks were poorly integrated as well. Also, how did the kids end up inside Sephirothmon and not Bokomon and Neemon? Unclear.
I do appreciate how easy it is to tell Koichi and Koji apart. I feel like they did a good job making them very distinct yet still keeping it clear that they're twins.
Ch. 13
Damn, just terrible translation. They kept calling Seraphimon Ophanimon over and over again. At one point they had the wrong name right next to the correct name on the same page!! How is it possible to be THAT careless!? (I noticed that the scanner acknowledged this in their between chapters' note lol).
It was good to get another look at BlackSeraphimon's design. I already said this in my anime commentary, but it would have been way cooler if we got more of these combo designs from villains using heroes powers...
Ch. 14
I don't have many complaints for this chapter, it was done relatively well. I feel like Koichi's grandma was more explicitly negative when explaining what Koichi's father did to him ("abandoned").
The scene where Takuya is like "are you crazy? You should fight him because he's your brother" also felt weird to me. Like, what if they hurt him badly by mistake? Maybe humans can only be killed if you scan their digicode so there's no risk?
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GOODMORNING ITS TRIVA TIIIIME
EPISODE 29 TRIVIA:
- they actually rerecorded this episode. bizly wanted dakotas lesson to be strategy so ORIGINALLY they were fucking. playing chess. for two hours. according to charlie "they had chess dot com open. I don't know where condi was but I was physically prone on the other side of my room like hiding behind something" SO THEY HATED IT. AND THEN RERECORDED IT AND ENDED UP WITH THIS.
- DAKOTA IS OFFICIALLY 18. HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY. really funny that this happens in the hyperbolic time chamber where time in the real world doesn't actually move.
- THERES ART FOR THE BOULDER THING !!!! ITS AWESOME I LOVE THEM
- grizzly: "in the beginning were you guys told to tell me that you were quitting the Prime defenders?"
condi: "no, not at all. that just came out naturally I think"
charlie: "I was so sad to see how heartbroken dakota got at that"
EXPLANATIONS:
condi: "I mean vyncent doesn't really... get it. a lot of hardship has come from being the prime defenders I don't think he sees it as worth all that. dont worry i dont think this is a permanent state of mind for vyncent, hes a malleable little boy, but its where hes at right now. itll change with time but right now hes a little jaded"
charlie: "williams whole plan was, now that he's basically wisp-free and given a new lease on life (< side note. phrase that causes me harm specifically) his plan was to find a way to return this smoke soul and help save ashe and then after that.. who knows"
- dakota ended that scene with "I never wanted to do it alone" and that's what gave him the idea to have them help him with the boulder. he didn't want to do it alone
- the only reason william is still here at all is because of dakota and vyncent. if they weren't here he would've been gone ages ago
- YIPPEE. YOU GET TO SEE JASON ORIGAMI FINALLY. 3/3 OF THE PRIME FORCE COLLECTED. HI JASON <3
- THEY KEEP QUOTING ANGEL WITH A SHOTGUN IN REFERRNCE TO WILLIAM. DO THEY WANT ME DEAD.
- chaos beano :]
- cue anime talk for like 10 minutes. prime defenders the weeb podcast ever <3
- OK AWESOME. BIZLY TALKING ABOUT THE CHAOS DEMON: "the way it kinda works is like... the chaos demon lost all sense of personality. yknow it was a soul at one point, but the longer you're in a place like where he was, you just lose what makes you you. imagine you're in a place where people are screaming all the time and you don't even know if the screams are coming out of your own mouth and it's just eternal nothing and everything (< horrifying!). and then when he latched onto you, dakota, it became like feeding off of your negative emotions"
- "What is dakotas worst fear personified? Who is dakota afraid of the most?"
grizzly DOES NOT ANSWER THIS >:| however he does say "it was a really good choice to show him the fall right away. had he not turned into le frog I think I would've played dakota a lot more serious. but because it went from the fall to doug to le frog *then* to ashe, I think it just pissed him off more than it scared him"
- "people try to scare us by looking like ashe a lot"
"okay, no, its only been TWO people and one of them IS ASHE."
- charlie: "yeah I was nervous about that encounter considering I looked at my sheet and all I have is a chainsaw and a shotgun in the middle of an active volcano"
- charlie slime has put together a william playlist it's it's my life mission to find it now. I found the ashe playlist I can do this. I need to judge his music taste.
- theyre talking about jason dying in one of the big darkstar battles and everything and grizzly goes "wow it's crazy how dakota was there and saw all of that"
HELP THAT'S SO FUNNY. frankly i would love to see the two hour chess hell session that's so funny to me oh my god. ALSO DAKOTA 18 WHOOOO he can get shot now!!! great!!
literally took so much psychic damage over the quitting the prime defenders talk. head in hands. im so ill over them... oh boy can't wait to see william stay wisp free and enjoy his new lease on life and be a normal uneventful teenager again !! im sure thats what the next few episodes are about!! ^__^;;
but mac he's literally an angel with a shotgun fighting til the wars done!! he wants to live not just survive!!!
prime defenders weeb podcast of all time... were they talking about one piece. thats my guess. one piece & dragon ball. also the more they talk about chaos demons the worse it is!!! fucked up!!! especially with the new knowledge from the oneshot etc! can't wait for someone to get tossed in there!!
all he has is a chainsaw and a shotgun in the middle of an active volcano.... i love u william wisp. god. also PLAYLIST... good luck finding it....
#MAN. wild episode the oneshot was also wild the fifteen minutes that i got into 30 so far are also fucking wild !!#i feel like i just got like five lore & worldbuilding sandbags dropped on me...#anyway HI gm!! ^__^#pd lb#mac tag!
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@jemamore HI JEMA? JEMA I LOVE YOU. I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY SO BAD RIGHT NOW HELLO JEMA HI JEMA. SMILING AT YOU. I NEED TO PLAY IN THIS SPACE FOR A BIT.
i think there are a lot of ways to go about this esp with deciding to take a more kr or sentai route. i think the group aspect of paradox live is so important that it would make sense to take a more ranger team formation, and with like them all sharing like such a specific way of fighting that is unified but allows for a lot of flair still. and there would still be a way for those suits to still have such an extreme amount of swag while being ranger like and all. its also a lot easier for me to picture that many people in sentai uniforms than having to manifest so many rider suits and shit. extremely daunting of a thing, and well i do just think it fits better. trust me on this<3 however originally i was thinking that it would be more interesting for them to be more like metal/rider-esque suits for like trap reactions and the corrosion but i think actually if their suits are like the gobuster's it would be awesome.
Like this being reflective of the corrosion worsening is awesome, and it would still like be something that exists physically on them. can see a really dramatic moment of bae transforming after hajun has been hiding it so well and after he's suited up he just starts like sparking out of control and his suit gets fucked before they even start the battle. Also i think allen would just look sick as FUCK with a broken helmet. everyone always does but i want my best friend allen to have a crazy moment like that.
they would be using like music as their main weapon and the illusions which i fear does put it in some hypmic territory but they obvi will have the craziest swag with it, and i dont think i would be full songs all the time. maybe its like flinging their illusions at enemies, creating weapons and one of them raps to make its power greater, to shield them, etcetc. im not fully sure how that would work. they transform by holding onto their phantometal really tight and then they get swallowed up by their own illusion or something. i think their phantometal would kinda just like manifest outside of them after they overcome the initial trap reaction/corrosion and they have a special affinity for it. it doesnt mean that they are like immune, they are just a bit stronger to it and have better control than a normal person would. dont worry about it too much lolol.
def Really big arc where an enemy makes it so allen loses his voice and he runs away like he can't be useful and is just a liability to the others because he can only do like normal guy kicks and stuff since he cant interaction properly with their illusions and he cant create his own bc his emotions are so out of wack nothing holds and they have to keep protecting him and he just gets his ass beat. power of love brings his voice back. of course it does. he can still write them lyrics he can still plan and they follow his lead so well. he's not a born leader but he's their special guy and they believe in him even when he doesnt believe in himself. yknow the drill.
i think in overall plot, it would be a little like how haruto is saving people from despair by like literally jumping into their minds to save them in wizard, but it would be saving people who are victims of the phantometal and also like ryusoulger with the negative emotions are creating the monsters. the monsters are created from the illusions and once they feed off the person enough the person starts having a like full trap reaction to fully take their life away. like they are having more mild versions of it, thats kinda just written off as more of a nightmare but that misery and corrosion stick with them and the monster is just like yummy! usually bae can stop it before it gets too fucking bad but sometimes they DO have to go inside a person to save them.
They are still like bae. they still are a music group (i dont think the phantometal would be used for performances in this universe. they are all just doing normal hiphop) they still slay but they also have to. fucking save people. they have to save all the others in paralive at some point. First being anne. i think it starts with hajun and allen being the only two really involved and they dont tell anne bc they both know they will be like Fuck idc if i cant transform im helping in some way but then anne falls victim and they are the first person they have to actually go inside to save and when anne comes out of that they are suddenly able to transform too. maybe that happens with all the performers but they dont work with bae as like a unified team or anything usually. they have their own shit to handle, but ofc they will lend a hand when necessary. iori is fully aware of all this shit even before bae gets started doing their thing. ofc he is. obviously. as is expected of him.
its such a strange place for them to be because it IS the phantometal that is being used to hurt all these people, but they use it to transform and to fight still. they have to! (very deep into this plot when 1nm8 come in they are portrayed as so antagonistic bc they come in so hot trying to take away the thing that is allowing them to save people and its soo frustrating)
also obviously they will. be effected by trap reactions and the corrosion, which i mentioned the latter in reference to suit degradation and stuff but i think if they are transformed for too long or use too many/too strong of illusions they get sent immediately into one even if they are still suited up, and it would like be on a scale of they are having a panic attack or they are uncontrollably lashing out. everyone would know bc it would kinda be like this
and then they would just be kinda like. yknow got that evil glow or whatever. i dont think much would really have to change about what everyone is seeing when they have their trap reactions, but i do think to some extent that when they are like losing control and attacking people they are like aware but they cant do anything about it. allen lashing out and going after anne and hajun and hes screaming for it to stop but he cant make his body stop and then his vision starts to get kinda engulfed by flames type of shit.
i guess that stupid ugly ass guy with the tongue from the anime is like whos behind it. i hate him so fucking much i dont even want to think about it but he's kinda the perfect guy to just be inserted into this without much changed. he's still got chisei's metal. he's still got those illusions of buraikan. who would also be like. transformed in more monstrous of a way and be there antagonizing them and the "heads" of what they are going against. Absolutely fucking devastating when they detransform later on and its just them, legendary buraikan, who allen and everyone loves and it rocks their world and makes everything so much worse. its so demoralizing because fuck how are they supposed to create hiphop better than them in battle? they are always getting their asses kicked when those two show up and now they understand WHY they are never able to stand a chance. beautiful greying at 36 haruomi is doing shit on the down low. he can transform more in the fashion of bae. bc well. he's really him. Lol.
Anyways. these are my first thoughts about it...smiling! i think i'll end up revisiting this and adding more (: kicking my feet and giggling having sooo much fun thank you thank you!!!
also allen is obviously their red, anne is pink, hajun can be blue. or yellow. whos to say. They are obviously all so in love and so awesome transgender. bae throuple forever and ever baby!!! and of course, buraikan is having crazy gay sex, as they would in every universe always. Heart emoji.
#this is going to be on my mind for days and days thank you so much i needed paradox live toku i need to have this beautiful world to play in#isaac paralive posting hours#i started typing this at work in like such a crazy trance that i didnt realize that it was time for us to close lol
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