#its causing me agony
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Also I will draw the mcyt sexyman winner and/or the finale two.
I'm manifesting a Scar win but I also want Joe vs Oli
#its causing me agony#i want joe to win#but i also want scar to win#but also oli is such energy#but also i want to Vote Cub for mojos sake#but also--#mcyt sexyman
1 note
·
View note
Note
To be completely and utterly painful, my assumption was that Erik had either already died before Logan and Charles went on the run, or Erik was one of the people Charles killed during that seizure.
its actually wild how youve both decided to kill me today it's not even 8AM
#snap chats#GOOD???? MORNING??#you. you know who ELSE decided to kill people before 8AM-- //shot//#he aint even decide that i know im just emo ...#if it were a good morning i wouldnt be in AGONY <- this makes it an excellent morning#you know what else makes it excellent ../ i think its fuckin snowin ....#i mean if it is its definitely not gonna stick but my god ....... i get to see A snowflake this year ..#BUT NO BYYYEEE with the idea of charles accidentally killing erik im forced to imagine like#eriks visiting one day when It Starting and he has maybe a sec or two to fret over charles and try to help before. 🧍♂️#if i imagine erik trying not to panic and trying to help charles before his efforts are proven null ill die#so you guys have to do it for me ok !!!!!!!!!#oh my god no erik Also being an anchor for charles' is evil work too#because having a sort of Way Back point is Of Course Helpful so erik being that and being gone ... chat i should die#ESPECIALLY IF ITS CAUSE CHARLES KILLS HIM BY ACCIDENT AND DOESNT EVEN REALIZE Chat I Should Die
59 notes
·
View notes
Text
One thing I think many gloss over when it comes to Godzilla is the motivation and personality of each iteration, and how their design reflects that.
Shin is a being of pure agony, a living cancer that kills and destroys as much as it can out of pure rage and hatred at its own existence and those who made it be so. Over the film, it goes from what looks like a dead shark to a monster with razors for teeth and eyes of pure suffering and hate.
Minus One is basically hate personified, a monster that somehow manages to hold a deep personal rage against each and every individual member of humanity. It's hatred runs so deep that it commits actions just to terrify and kill. And it's design forces a terrifying glare, one so viscous you'd believe it really hates you personally.
Monsterverse is more of a disgruntled hero. He kinda gives the vibe of a dude who stands in the corner at a party acting like he doesn't want to be there. He has specific motivations in taking down particular kaiju, motivations that are often confused for attacks. He does what he needs to do and retreats back to the ocean when he's done. And he looks consistently miffed. A face that does lean into a menacing rage when necessary.
Classic goji is, like most iterations, an already existing being from the sea, enraged at the destruction of its home and mutation of itself. It has come to simply destroy, destroy all that has allowed this to occur. It causes hurt and suffering, agony and destruction all in its shared pain and rage. Its design is literally shaped like a mushroom cloud since, yknow, nuke mutation.
#and i can go on and on#showa goji is just a silly funky guy#godzilla#ugh and i love how shin and MO adapt the story of the original#shin focuses on the suffering of the creature. the nuclear mutation caused an immoral suffering. an existence of disgusting agony#MO focuses more on the rageful revenge#and monsterverse has its own little thing going on#i love it#goji is so versatile he can be literally anything and i think that's so fucking cool#gojira#kaiju#toho kaiju#king of the monsters#monster island#anyways hey with the monsterverse headed into silly territory i only ask one thing#PLEASE let me see my boys anguirus and gigan i beg of you. and maybe jet while we're at it#godzilla minus one#godzilla minus 1#monsterverse#monsterverse godzilla#legendary godzilla#shin godzilla#anyways I'm super late but CONGRATS GOJI LET'S GO#and congrats to the team who put that amazing film together#that Oscar was well deserved#godzilla king of the monsters#ooh and minilla too maybe please 🥺. i bet he'd look real cute with his dumbass face in modern effects#oscars#godzilla oscars
89 notes
·
View notes
Text
You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)
#moe talks a lot#i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry#and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds#LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO#shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds#BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER#i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up#i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong#after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before#YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain#oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older#and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds#holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang#sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat#but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like#welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant#anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain#im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake#but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry#anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering
51 notes
·
View notes
Text
thinkign about how alone and unloved morty was for all his life and rick was the first time anyobdy ever put such an amount of intense attention and dependency onto him . and rick had a whole new family and losing them made him stop seeing the value in other people as a whole and morty was the one and first thing that woke him up
#really long Tag rant down there#one of the most Things Ever about them to me is how morty barely even understands just how much rick loves him. more than anything#and its something ricks done on purpose hes made sure of it#because hes so weak he cant handle it#them being together is agony in avsolutely every way and sense but also theyre the best part of eachothers lives#morty because nobodys payed attention to him quite like rick has and all the exciting space adventures and rick just cause. he literally#just likes him thats it. and he never knew it#also i was thinking of this earlier. one of the reasons season 1 is soooo good to me is cuz you get to see morty grow on rick in real time#stuff like that moment where morty walks through the door and rick is instantly at the sight of him SUPER excited and he goes hey!!! but#then he clears his throat and goes Hey trying to pretend like this dumb scaredy kid isnt becoming his favourite thing hes ever known day af#er day#and goddamn night shaym aliens. in that moment where he realised morty had been fake the whole time i rlly wonder what he was thinking and#how he felt. like. oh man this is messing with me way too much this is Bad#and then he got drunk over it and yknow. that . is it post credits. i think. that scene#n literally At the Very beginning he was tired n drunk n stupid thinking like man fuck this im gonna blow this place up and do what prime#did to me. But he brought morty with him Even just at that point it flashed in his mind and he absolutely could not bear to let morty die#Breathes in#im rewatching in October bc anniversary month. i literally can’t wait im so actually impatient i considered just doing it today So hard#odiespeak
36 notes
·
View notes
Text
rolling on the floor. what if in animated nein, we see Lucien as a young child, and his dear sister Aldreda, and his poor unfortunate older brother, and everything their parents did to them--
#I really do think. Lucien just straight up had one of the most tragic backstories#and I certainly think he has just. the most unforgivable#awful parents it makes me so sad--#the abuse. the manipulation. handing one of their kids over to a hag and bargaining the other in the worst imaginable way--#what were they even doing that got them so deep in debt to the jaganetoths in the first place--#the agony that both elric and molly are killed by people working for the jagentoth family. both buried in the snow in shadycreek#lucien spared molly/king lots of pain in setting that fire i think cause god. at least molly/kingsley never ever has to#meet their parents--#and molly still gets to tell silly little made up stories about a mom who gave him advice and a dad who taught to swim and just. fake#little made up backstories of a family who loved him--#its so much kinder than what happened to lucien
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ghouls in mass probably crave a tenderness and kindness they can no longer feel or give out. They are repulsive just in the sense of what they are, dead people who didn't quit die, corpses allowed to walk and think past their atomic burial. They reek. They are falling apart. They have no skin to caress, no lips to purse in disgust or lay upon a partner or friend. They are not allotted the kindness of community we see in the settlements. They band together to share their pain, marked by what they once were and never asked who they could continue to be.
#everytime i think of ghouls i get sad cause despite not being in agony its implied its still a bit painful for ghouls to exist#as they are constantly slowly deteriorating and we know becoming feral is a certainty just the when is different for every ghoul#like id be miserable to knowing I can show affection in ways I once did and even if I make new ways its the difference#that i have to be different and thats not inherently bad but I am forced by higher powers that didn't care for me before hand to be further#pushed into being disregarded and even hated#pour one out for my ghoulfriends#i need to work on my girls#perhaps tomorrow rot girls i love you#fallout#fallout new vegas#fallout 1#fallout 2#fallou 3#fallout 4
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
cranberry juice save me. save me cranberry juice.
#im prone to utis (ive been told its a genetic thing? apparently everyone on my moms side of the family is) and i forgot i hate winter#i didnt drink enough water yesterday and let my feet get too cold so now i have a Feeling#i'll be either normal or dying in agony tomorrow only time will tell#by feeling i mean ive had an uti so many times i feel the warning signs in my body of possibly getting one#and if i get warm and drink enough liquids it might pass#''leevi cranberry juice doesnt cure utis and getting your feet cold doesnt cause them''#yea i dont have one yet. the juice is there to prevent it#and i know cold doesnt Cause utis but it puts you at a higher risk of getting one#also having menopause makes you even more prone to them. which means taking t does that too.#but i havent started grtting more of them after starting t which?? i guess it's bc im so incredibly prepared against them at all times gdvf#anyways everyone wish for me not getting one#leevi talks
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
mark grayson come back to me
#in the throes of hiatus agony fellas#thank god they have a blatant cash grab mobile game cause its the only thing keeping me pacified enough to hold back the unhinged posting#my mark is almost level 600 :] i hope they add the evil variants when s3 comes out#willow whispers#invincible
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
maybe i do need to go to therapy bc its probably not good that ive been living on autopilot and the last 7 years went by so fast but also bc i was deliberatly Wanting the time to go by to put as much space between me and the events of 2017-2020 as possible all while somewhat knowing my young adulthood was slipping me by and now both my teenage years and my early 20s are gone and i still feel like my 19th birthday was yesterday yeesh!!
#i do feel like im out of time completely and its kind of.making me insane bc its not fair lol#life could be worse! but it couldve been a lot better too#like on one hand i think i had a normal reaction to exceptionally traumatic shit happening to me with no support system.#and everything that happened was caused by shit out of my control and i Know that bc i spent my teen years specifically working hard to Be#in control#like i did make the choice to give up sure. but that was when absolutely every effort had been exhausted#and theres only so much a human being can take especially when i was so young#but on the other hand!! even when i found a support system and things are better now than they were#i still feel like im trapped perpetually in this Waiting period#waiting for life to begin Waiting for an OPPORTUNITY to make my life begin already#and no effort on my part yields anything so i have no choice but to WAIT#but im TIRED. of waiting#im sick of seeing videos of people way younger than me making art ive always dreamed id have made by now#theres also this invisable wall i have always had built around me that is Impenetrable and i keep hitting it#and its gotta be me but it really feels like the universe has some unseeable chains on me which aounds so stupid#but im not allowed to get passed it#im way past the point of even being capable of showing the agony it causes me now like its just a dull joke#ANYWAY the fact ive typed all this makes me think ok. yeah maybe it is time to talk to someone LOL#carry on im fine this happens to me all the time. helps to get it written out at least
8 notes
·
View notes
Note
If you had to choose between dealing with a pissed off Erik or an Onslaught Era Charles, which are you taking?
i could take a pissed off erik
#snap chats#‘in a fight ri-‘#OK BUT NO FR HEAR ME OUT cause like. if the implication here is that charles’ has onsalught at the helm#then he can just shut my brain off right. probably.#at least with erik i can feel my bones crumble in real time so like TECHNICALLY id probably live a lil longer#In Agony im sure but. 😔#Like true and honest id never want to get in a tussle with a telepath they could do whatever they want with your brajn#at least i can see whats coming if its something physical like erik
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
[full of turkey and deviled eggs, half asleep] I don't think this story is sad enough actually I think I have to make it worse
#my mom complained abt the ql ending again so i went off on a tangent on how good a reunion hug between al and sam would be#so now im “hm i touched on it a little in chapter 2 that his presence was comforting even if he couldnt touch but. make it Worse#just keep making these boys upset actually“#cause when ur brain is filled with mourning for someone you want to hug your bestie but. what if the one person you most want to hug#cant. they can be there#they can be there and talk to you and hold your gaze and tell you a joke but they cant touch you#not even long distance the normal way. long distance in a way that a plane ticket cant fix#of course there are the homosexual undertones yes yes but the core denial of closeness is what im getting at#imo from how we see boy interact#sam is a physical person. he likes just gently touching his friends#he may not be like a giant hugger specifically but in the gentle baps on the head to just shoulder brushes and close talking#hes a physical person so the denial of that with his closest bud must be agony over time#anyway yeah im gonna make it sadder!!! its my mental illness i get to pick the sadness!!! whos gonna stop me!!!#and i will be writing him happy at the 4077th. as recompense.#and writing big bj and hawk and trapper and co holiday family happy time. it is good.#.yappin
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
MY EAR DOESNT HURT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
help I just remembered Taliesin asked if Mollymauk would have set off Caduceus' Detect Undead--that he always thought Molly would, and was genuinely surprised when Matt told him no....
Taliesin Axelrod Jaffe were you ever going to share that you thought Mollymauk Tealeaf had been undead this whole time--
#agoNY!!#the pain this causes me#thank you matthew for not letting molly be undead. i dont know why but. its somehow a comfort to me#especially since lucien was trained as a ghostslayer--a bloodhunter built to fight undead specifically--#after everything that was done to his brother. I feel like that would have just torn Lucien up inside#and maybe Molly wouldn't have cared as much#but it hurts my heart to think he might--
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
it appears i may have tmj disorder
#this has been an original post#personal spewage#im for sure experiencing excrutiating tmj pain rn#idk that its ever been this bad before#looking up tmjd symptoms it sure sounds like that could be the cause of some of the issues ive been having#and it seems like its often comorbid w eds/other connective tissue disorders which i believe i have#anyway. i want to die#this pain is unbearable#just as bad as my migraine#took some ibuprofen but if its anything like my migraine it wont do a thing#oh my god#i want to rip my jaw off#it feels like my skull is going to collapse#please god just let me die#please dont make me have to live in agony anymore#im so tired of being in pain#im so tired
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
so. so like am i incapable of doing work unless its due in the next two hours now or what
#no more academic weapon i guess......#its not even a blorbo problem anymore its just. a problem#the agonies i cause upon myself 😭😭😭😭😭#and everyone who usually keeps me awake w doing work together also hasnt done her work and is ASLEEEP AAUUH#ok ok ik i shouldnt do work based on adrenaline and panic and axiety and the sense of doom but ?????????#like im doing work NOW but only bc its 2 am im blasting music and chewing on pencils (not good for u) and mild thoughts of dread bc its#due tmrw. whatever#kinda vent#not even vent just my horrible decisions 😭😭😭#hae talks nonsense#del later
7 notes
·
View notes