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howellsboyf · 10 months ago

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from washing machine hog to forever roommate

#dan and phil #dan howell #phil lester #phan #phandom #youtube #dnp #dan and phil games #dnpgames #d&p #dapg #dap #d&p games #its almost like they want me to sob

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skunkes · 4 months ago

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#a doodley #i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash #anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago #im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up #and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad #like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to #quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen #and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be #and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die #and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago #and your brothers that passed away #recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7 #the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad #said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then #i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was #like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry #im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible #i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad

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kokoasci · 8 months ago

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finished tpn

#no words none absolutely no words go read it right now #maybe because its like almost 2 am right now and im so sleep deprived but i wanted to just finish it i sobbed real tears #i dont cry while reading manga or watching anime like. ever #ending got me man. was not expecting that #tpn #the promised neverland

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doggolol · 7 months ago

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HE ALMOST SURRENDERS TO THE KISS

HE WAS SUPPOSED TO SURRENDER TO THE KISS

IM SOBBING

#did I post abt this yet #I've had this in my mind for over a year now but ig I forgot to mention it here lol #no but I'm actually sobbing the way he did want to give in and kiss alice but decided against it to save her ☹️☹️#its not that obvious in the vid bc it all happens so quickly but u could see him soften up a bit after alice's line like :(#also semi side note I read a fic once years ago where alfred wasnt able to stop alice from kissing him in time and so they just wait the #sickness out together and it absolutely BROKE ME #give them their happy ending PLEASE #also for some reason a bunch of my abh libretto posts are getting traction again after almost a year #and out of all of em the stoned post is the most popular lmao #I love that there's still active members in this fandom #hi guys this is for yall <3 #I should post abt abh more #alice spencer #alfred hallam #abh #alice by heart #doggo rambles

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secondchoice-ragdoll · 6 months ago

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#T's “what did u call me? do u think whatever that is is hot? okay then good”#i love the tour pic above K!#and i love how they r still plucked abt not being in Dune2 #K the avid winker...#its so cute how T is featured on this album of K's too😭😭😭#T wants to be left alone (on the phone) on her bday and K wants attention... well... ((once again relating to K))#T looked at Ks belly in a suprisingly like? soft way? idk i might have hallucinated that but who knows.#fuck whoever didnt visit K when she would have wanted them to.#its sweet how T visited her! (srsly cant u just communicate who wants what in this situation so its no suprise? ik its hard for them but😭)#T describing Ks party attending habits!!! they know each other soooo well🤭#aaagh how they have to act like they cant easily spend 2 hrs together having fun when they literally cant wipe the smiles off of their faces #(lesbians..... lovesick idiots.......)#oh they r always facetiming! so adorable :(#T was so excited that they r linked! like girl u do not need more confirmation for that research do u?😭#K watching the pod...... my heart......#why dont they just sit closer if they will reach across a whole fucking room to touch eachother?? like it sounds easier for me but u do u!#i really get a kick out of K mentioning TRHPS anytime she does it bc ik it was such a big thing in Ts life and ugh😭#constantly praising each other😭😭😭😭😭 what if i start sobbing huh #well maybe T is trying to get K to learn how to flirt so that she can practice on her? just an idea?😁#K putting her leg up on T?????? hi what? jist sit in the other's lap u creatures... its okay we can all look away for a sec if u need it...#their art! i fucking love it! both of it! its art at its finest🛐 and id kill to see a collection of their drawings bc cmon they r amazing!#its cute how they r talking abt smth and then they go “oh wait we were there together!”#its almost as if they actually spend time hanging out😱 (dont let the police know!!4!4)#“if we were on DR now-” okay but why r u still dreaming of that miss T?🤭🤭🤭 (who could blame her)#them watching the movies the other one recommends is the closest we can get to them watching an actual thing together (outside of NF)#also im so happy T spent time w K on her bday :(((#trixie mattel #katya zamo #tbatb #the brians

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kirishwima · 3 months ago

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why am i so weak to praise

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lovingaeth · 3 months ago

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god bless and protect queer elders

#i got fired from one of my jobs today and i was so tired and done with everything #then on the bus this lovely old man sat next to me and told me he loved my style and asked how my day was #i told him its been a long one and he said his was too and apparently he was wearing fem clothes earlier in dt and got harassed earlier #for it which made me so so sad and so he had to throw on some track pants to cover up his leggings (which is insane in this heat)#and i told him i was sorry he had to go through that but that i hope he stays safe in his self expression and then he asked me what made my #day long and i told him #n he said 'its okay. this is going to be an opportunity for something better to come along. you're just making some space for it right now'#and i literally almost criedbmdhsnsbdhd #he kept telling me not to stress too much because stress is bad for the body and to take care of myself and ohhh my god i very nearly sobbed #i was holding on by a thread i was sooo so fragile #sweetest man alive i sincerely hope he is okay and happy and stays safe #i was like so tired and overwhelmed and i feel like i didnt talk or say nearly as much as i wanted to because my stop was also coming up #so i had to cut the convo short #but god. i hope he is happy and safe #vent cw #vent tw

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago

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sat down to think about the Light's Out au and actually. yk. plan it out since i have Affection for it and Interest in it. and then my brain went "what about the aftermath though. why don't we meticulously plan that out" I'VE BEEN TYPING IN THIS DOCUMENT FOR FIVE HOURS straight GAY

#brain: what would they do. where are they. what changes. who changes. why. how. where. etc etc etc #BRAIN PLEASE ITS ALMOST 6 AM I WANT SLEEP #but i want answers more. im never leaving this desk am i #writhing on the ground and sobbing #i mean. im exploring new ways to hurt everyone. but also heal them. and other shit too im multitasking #putting specifically barnaby Through It #at least he has his boyfriend can i get an amen to that #watch me ignore the main part of the au in favor of the aftermath. which wasnt supposed to exist #like of course i had to give em all a happy ending but my GOD id like my Brain to Chill TF Out #absolutely unprompted #to be clear the document is purely notes / bullet points #where i go 'this happened and then this happened and that also happened heres a thought'#i need to destroy an entire rotisserie chicken with my bare hands and teeth. on the floor. no restraint.#that is the current mood!#but the mood is also being incredibly soft over these puppets. i wish to hug them... but theyre not real unfortunately...#SO I'LL MAKE THEM HUG EACH OTHER. WITH MUCH EMOTION. in my mind!!!!

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bunnyboy-juice · 5 months ago

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😭💞 my best friend finally has an apartment which means, after almost a decade of being friends, we are FINALLY able to plan visiting each other for the first time

#personal #it may seem weird we havent met for this long to others but we have both been through a LOT #we became friends as teens online then i went to college and they went to tech school #then we both ended up unhoused #and i got housing and she found somewhere she wanted to live and we've been working towards her housing for ..... 2 years now?#(me involved bc ive been chatting and detailing and helping how i can)#so its never really been like. feasible.#but now i have home and income ans she is gonna have home and will be able to have steady income soon again #meaning we can plan it and see each other and OUAAAAAAAAAH #it hasn't fully set in yet but ik when it does im gonna collapse and sob #we've been through Literally our entire adult lives together #also when i say almost a decade i mean we celebrated 9 years last month #she is everything to me btw i adore her and frankly if i used the language she'd be a QPP for sure #but i like the undefined for us (: she's my bestie and my world is forever better with her in it

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digirainebow · 1 year ago

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i didn't think jacob would be arguing with olivia, wanting it almost as much as her. what the hell. i expected the self defeated, taking one for the team attitude but actively needing it like her? when he had been trying to stop her all night? i feel like i've been blasted by a buckshot

#digi discusses #the world needs more jacobs and i just took him out of it #did he go back to being a kid again? to see the lights of possibility again?#to feel like he's doing something exciting and worthwhile again not by making art but by being “freed” by maggie's knowledge once more?#or did he. choose another timeline entirely? augh i'm gonna have to watch the ending back again...where did he go...#maggie would be turning in her graaaaaave to know he chose this. she would hate that for him she would h a t e it #the anna parallels. stuck between time only able to hear him on radios if you are lucky. fuck off #becoming an urban legend...i think he would have liked that. immortalized just like he wanted. ugh wait did riley do that for him #but the details getting lost his name becoming warped over time? i think riley (and i) would feel it was almost disrespectful to his memory #the fact he puts meeting riley on the same pedestal as saving camena. god god god god. even when they aren't friends they are.#riley talking to athena like a person like he did. i am MISERABLE #its the dys exocolonist thing all over again. he's happy and that's...good. but he could have been just as happy if he'd stayed too #every single time i think about the hug i'm going to cry #every single ending has done this to me there is literally no winning #being kinda mean to him was bad enough but this ending just feels! it feels like riley. like i. drove him to.#girl i need to log off bye #oxenfree II spoilers #yeah there's the essay. just took a minute #i will make another one about hurt healed olivia in a bit too because that. made me sob. that one hit really...close to home #he says when he was a teenager he would have fallen for it if someone told him he could open a portal in the sky and make things better #what a liar he would still do it now #EDIT: NO i knew it he says almost exactly what nona says after you hug her when you hug him. the orange-associated characters strike again

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microwaving-tesilid-argente · 8 months ago

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creating a spreadsheet of the trio's lines in the webnovel vs webcomic (as one does), and. i am on the FLOOR their characterisation differs so much from the webnovel and webcomic?!?!??? 😭😭 they took away all of hestio's flavour!!! and Ephael is a lot more stereotypical sunshine too i am losing my mind

Gone:

In the toy mansion, Ephael said that Tesilid was not just his friend, but his "best friend", so Ailette gave him more food. Hestio got very visibly sad and angry.

Whenever they're in battle, Hestio kind of talks to Ephael like he's a P*kemon ("Ephael, go and bite them!" / "Uh... okay.")

Ephael is pretty quiet and subdued throughout the toy mansion, while in the comic he's very artificially cheery.

ALMOST THE ENTIRETY OF HESTIO'S LINES WHEN THEY SNUCK TESILID FOOD IN PRISON IS GONE?!?!?!?? 😭😭😭😭😭😭 THE VIBES ARE SO DIFFERENT

Webnovel has BOTH Hestio and Ephael handing over food (in the webcomic only Ephael brought food. I dunno what Hestio was doing there.)

ONLY the webnovel has Hestio's extremely cute "What? Are you going to refuse the food because the rules are important? (annoyed but also genuinely scared)" / ".....I thought I'd have to shove the food down your mouth if you refused. Well, eat up."

The webcomic has Hestio suddenly ruin the entire mood by saying "🙄😒 did you know 🤓 the vatican is taking things out on you bc you refuse to kill heretics. also idc if the heretics are actually evil or not, what matters is that the vatican wants to know if youre on their side." like stfu please 😭 In the webnovel Hestio only brings this up because Ephael went "cheer up! if it werent for the city making a fuss, the vatican wouldn't have done this" and Hestio corrected him bc he wanted Tesilid not to misunderstand his situation with the Vatican.

What did they make comic!Hestio so callous for !!!!! 😭😭😭 Hestio is a SOFTIE with a mean streak and sharp tongue!!!

#a transmigrator's privilege #the perks of being an s class heroine #vatican trio #hestio ligenel #ephael chaletino #CRYING MY EYES OUT #THEIR NOVEL CHARACTERISATION IS SO CUTE THO?!?!??????#spoilers in next tags #on god if they take away hestio shutting up and ephael taking over the convo in the reunion scene i am going to CRY #that scene is so precious to me?!??#novel dynamic of hestio being the one taking the lead and ephael backing him up is so precious to me #anyway if anyone wants access to the spreadsheet lmk.... sobbing #anw i started this mini project bc ora you said that you couldnt tell who was talking in mirror dungeon (so valid)#and i was like oh the more casual one is eph-- ....is it actually? where did i get this impression #im done w the tutorial arc but its alr making me MISERABLE wym their characterisation changes so much 😭😭😭😭#anw in their childhood they both talk in v similar ways #as adults one of them is casual and the other uses more formal speech patterns #also if any one is cussing either ephael or tesilid out its almost definitely hestio. lol.#by the process of elimination (no one else in the party would be so rude to ephael)#and ephael is generally more chill about tesilid #u cant really tell while reading but ephael very rarely says bad things about tesilid #its usually hestio that's mean about it and hes so loud + ephael doesnt disagree with him so its v easy to attribute it to him too #i mean ephael prob also shares the same thoughts. but its usually hestio voicing it and w that much negativity #ephaels just like lol our boy tesilid is up to his usual hijinks again. haha #while hestio is like UGH this ASSHOLE can you fucking BELIEVE HIM. just LOOK at him what does he think he's doing #ephael (neutral): oh tesilid not again #hestio (screaming and full of hate): tesilid not again!!

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mephilver · 1 year ago

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#im very very against crying because it just makes my head hurt and my face ugly #but because im so against crying i havent been able to sleep in months because #i keep having dreams of myself violently sobbing but i have to be super chill about everything #im not allowed to cry im the only one who doesnt cry thats the value i offer to my dying brother #is that im the only person not visibly mourning him yet #i almost cried at the doctor because they asked me how many siblings i had #its so fucking stupid i know #and i feel so bad like i abandoned him but he was slipping farther and farther every day it was horrible having to arrange hospice for him #then he agreed to the third surgery he never wanted to have but insurance didnt cover it #but 3 days later the surgeon did it out of pocket and now hes on new chemo but im still not with him #i ran away and gave my room to his mother so she could be with her dying son and i could catch a break #but it doesnt feel like a break im still constantly on the verge of tears and even though he chose to spend his last months with me #i chose to high tail it to another state because i couldnt stand the sight of him #he wouldnt let me take care of him anyways because im his baby sister 19 years younger than him and its a pride/shame thing i get it #whatever im done now i will always have video games

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jvzebel-x · 2 years ago

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#!!!#I HAVE A LAPTOP!!!#its pink!!! it works!!! it has microsoft word!!! its new!!! im going to sob!!!#i am. so happy lol. &sooooo incredibly terrified of breaking it like im posting this on my phone #bc i dont want to tempt the tech gods. maybe i can just. slide under their notice.#i am. so happy. this is the first time i havent had to wrestle w microsoft word in literally years. i keep all my saved drafts in #gmail drafts for easy access&orginization.#i have had two seperate laptops that just. wouldnt register my ms office code to download it or stopped allowing me access AFTER i used it #to copy over&edit my drafts.#i am almost terrified to think that this is something that wont randomly disappear lmao i keep having crazy #intrusive thoughts about breaking it in a million different ways lmao im fucking insane.#but i can write long form w/o scrolling thru a cracked phone screen again lmaoooo!!!#... god i am so terrified im going to fucking break it lmao.

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afterthedreamer · 1 year ago

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It's actually so funny to me that my step dad is out here playing the fucking Boohoo Poor Me card over no one spending time with him the last two days. My guy will insult you and speak to you as if you are a fucking piece of trash on the ground and then turn around five seconds later and :( why don't my children love me :(

I don't know why not traumatizing your already traumatized children is such a fucking WILD concept but Man. He can keep on slamming his door like a toddler, it won't make anyone want to spend time with him any more.

#oh BROTHER cry me a fucking RIVER DUDE #god #i literally spent all of yesterday SOBBING until i was physically sick because of his abusive fucking ass #and every single time he slams the door i want to cry even more but im more angry now #like its actually mind blowing that he acts this way #at almost 60 yrs old #father figures in my life just love being abusive lol #ANYWAY #im gonna have a good night and be full of bitterness

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cealesti · 1 year ago

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i wish i was at a point of my life where my anger could be productive, where i could use it as fuel and shield alike. but im not. im tired, im at the end of my rope, im exhausted. i want this done, i want this over, i want OUT.

i hate feeling hatred. i always try to center myself in love and care, even when i'm pissed off or scared, but it's been too fucking long and im so fucking angry and i hate them for still existing near me.

i hate them for fucking me over like this. i hate them for lingering after they've done it. i hate them beyond words at this point. and i HATE that no one gives me the fucking space to be this angry

#eve.txt #'oh i dont want you to become bitter' 'oh just stop thinking abt it its almost over'#i WONT become bitter I KNOW how things work ive been hurt before i know how to try again #but LET ME BE ANGRY GODDAMN IT #negative tag #if anyones reading this yeah chapter six comes from somewhere innit #people never like you when you're angry after being hurt #people prefer you sobbing daintly in a corner being soft and demure and fucking harmless #people dont like you when youre angry. they dont like it when it makes you meaner. harsher. impatient. defensive #like the manifestations of pain they can safely categorize as pretty and inoffensive as martyrs as saintly as something to coo over #but when your response is not do be sad but to be pissed off? to be ugly? ha #good fucking luck with that

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adhdvane · 2 years ago

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when clock turned midnight last night (er this morning) a vaporeon outbreak showed up... 16 defeated and THIS BABY BOY SPAWNED IM ABOUT TO EV TRAIN A THIRD GODDAMN VAPOREON IN THIS GAME LOOK AT HIM GO

#pokemon scarlet and violet #pkmn sv #sammy liveblogs about violet #i tried the 60+ battle then sandwhich and picknic refresh but had no luck for 20 minutes to see if i could get another #but was having no luck after 20 minute so i fcked around in the ocean for the last 10 #and then with 3 minutes left found a shiny magikarp so i had to save it sdkjfhs #i almost have a full box of shinies in this game #i have 29 shinies sob #one shiny is not mine BUT i gave my friend a shiny so it's like equal exchange #she CAUGHT 4 SHINY WOOPERS WITH A SANDWICH #and she gave me one which was perfect BC I WANTED TO GIVE HER MY DUPLICATE SHINY FEMALE LITLEO #sammy be quiet #sammy no #im just glad people found out you DONT need salty herba mystica for sparkling power #and can use whatever two you want #so i like to do a sandwhich and fuck around (obv only saving if i get a shiny)#and then go raid until i make the two herbs back up #i still have a surplus but its nice to get them back #ITS SO MUCH EASIER TO DO WITH THIS A FRIEND THO AND DISCONNECT SO WE'RE IN OUR OWN WORLDS #i have more herba mystica then jelly so i dont mind using and then only saving after if i get a shiny #BUT MOSTLY JUST MULTIPLAYER SANDWHICHES GIVE YOU MORE FUCKING BUN SPACE #we did a rock one together yesterday....... and that requires two servings of bacon....#i... i dont want to do that by myself how the fuck do i fit it all on the tiny single player sandwich #anyways SHINY VAPOREON LOOKS SO GOOD IN THIS GAME #i feel like its a little lighter than in arceus and i like that

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