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ferrets-4-eret · 2 years
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Something i find so funny that happens to me is when im like crying or something or having a mental breakdown and im listening to music and then songs like poker face by eric cartman plays and then im just staring at my phone with tears rolling down my face my hairs messy and im like
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astrxealis · 2 years
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my dad just played a bit of Nothing Else Matters just now on guitar he's so cool
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#heyy i am shy with music with my dad ngl. he's the guy who really got me into music after all#on our trip like a couple of weeks ago tho? he now knows my top 3 favs are the 1975 and hozier and mcr ^___^#today apparently his coworker was like hey anyone wna come with to mcr concert! and i got rlly excited and like damn but it was in aus so..#and then mom asked if that was a kdrama LMFAOOO and then dad said no theyre emo band..... hes not wrong but i tried to say theyre punk rock#he said No They're Emo LMFAOOOOO i suppose he's not wrong. anyway#idk i really want to learn guitar uh it's good i have my dad who can possibly help out but id rather he not tbh!#+ also uhh we were walking around the other day talking about courses and he was like maybe music (for non-quota course but idk anymore lol#it's complicated) but he was like. music nah bcs you guys arent really musically inclined/talented (?) i forgor anyway a bit taken aback but#hes right unfortunately...? used to play piano as kids. doesnt feel like long ago but it was ages ago#and then i wanted a guitar and we got one but since then i've learned only like 2 chords and it's been over a year now i think. or almost.#idk anymore tbh! time crazy but anyway i will do my best fr. with everything. gah#i'll be honest i kinda really do want to pursue music actually but i'm terrified and confused? uhh complicated complicated complicated frfr#its an acoustic guitar btw. might have been easier if it were electric bcs damn its hard for me to place my fingers right#+ i think theyre cooler but not the point! if i do learn the guitar dad said we cld maybe buy an electric one or a bass so... ^___^#anyway i think mom is warming up to cats and we might convince her more soon to. yk. allow us to adopt#not buy! i want to adopt. i love cats they deserve everything but i also really love dogs sobbing but moms scared so its fine#i forgot my other thought oh my god goodbye#oh. right! violin! lune likes the violin and considering we now know its our moms fav instrument we may convince her to let lune learn ?!
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81folklore · 1 year
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dress - SV5 - part 2
pairings: sebastian vettel x famous!reader (fc: taylor swift)
summary: its known that seb has been married for a few years now despite the public never seeing is wife, its also known that yn is in a committed relationship and has been since she disappeared from public eye. maybe they are more connected than people realise
authors note: part two because i didnt realise how long it had gotten but im allergic to actually writing.. also i apologize for the first part literally just being build-up.. i honestly didnt know about the 30 pic limit so...
authors note 2: i used google translate for the german so i hope its correct, also i dont know if petnames like darling or sunshine are used in germany but i had to use them
authors note 3: i actually hate how this turned out :/ but it was very hard to actually get my thoughts onto the page so this will do! this is part 2 so go read part 1 first!!
part 1 part 3 masterlist
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YN IN THE F1 PADDOCK TODAY, I REPEAT YN IN THE PADDOCK
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user77: sorry i dont follow f1, i thought the races were on sundays?
user5: dont be sorry! today is qualifying and tomorrow is the race!
user5: SHES THERE I CANT STAY CALM
user91: does anyone know who she was with in those photos of her by the track?
user5: sebastian vettel and mick schumacher!
user6: SHE WAS WATCHING QUALIFYING WITH SEB AND MICK?? SEB VETTEL?? AND MICK SCHUMACHER?? OH LORDDD
user12: i thought i would survive.. i lied
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seems like yn is with redbull at todays race looking as gorgous as ever!
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user5: OH OH OH OH
user5: SHE IS STUNING HOLY
user20: her style recently has been AMAZING
user68: out of every team i think redbull would have been one of my last guesses
user6: THE WAY SHE IS WITH REDBULL AND SPENT QUALIFYING WITH REDBULLS GOLDEN BOY OH I FEEL SICK
user99: i love her so much
user42: at least her team will win
user591: IS SHE WEARING A WEDDING RING??
user618: i think so?? honestly i wouldnt be surprised shes very private and has been with her partner for almost 8 years so no wonder he popped the question
user90: i need her to be at every gp
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yn on stage performing dress during the post-race concert at suzuka! as far as we know it was a complete surprise, she came on to sing dress then left. this is her second time performing it to a live audience!
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user81: WHEN IS IT MY TURN TO HEAR DRESS LIVE
user5: charles and seb were both spotted watching her from the side of the stage!
user81: charles taking seb to see his favorite artist..what if i cried
user55: i cant believe i lost dress twice without even knowing i could lose it😭
user8: i hope she had so much fun, ive missed her doing stuff like this :’)
user12: apparently she was laughing and looking off stage at someone throughout, possibly her partner?
user1: SHE AWLAYS LOOKS SO GOOD
user13: so much content this weekend..im going to have major withdrawls
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four years ago i was given the pleasure of marrying my best friend
i am unable to really put into words how much meeting you and getting to spend the rest of my life with you has changed my life seb, but i tell you i love you enough daily that i hope you understand
when we first met i had no idea how much you would impact me and the way i think, but you have helped me become the woman i am today and i am forever grateful for that
i often feel unworthy of the life you have given me, the life we have together. i wonder how i got to be the one you love and cherish and i know how lucky i am to be the one you spend your life with
you gave me your heart and i promise to look after it for as long as im here, i promise to keep it safe and i know you will look after mine
danke, dass du mich liebst, danke, dass du dich um mich kümmerst. (thank you for loving me, thank you for taking care of me) Ich verspreche, dich bis zu meinem letzten Atemzug zu lieben. (I promise to love you until my last breath) Ich werde nie aufhören, dich zu lieben, Mein Sonnenschein. (I will never stop loving you, my sunshine)
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sebastianvettel: Danke, dass du dein Herz geöffnet hast und mich dich lieben lässt, mein Schatz (Thank you for opening your heart and letting me love you, my darling)
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I won the most important race. It was the race into the heart of the love of my life, yn. I love you.
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yourusername: 🩵🩵🩵
user5: I CANT DO THIS STOP
user12: hes so sweet :(
user18: ive known about them for a total of 2 minutes but i love them already🫡
user6: dress was written about him…
user71: i feel ill wehn will i get posted like this
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the sunshine of my life
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yourusername: i love you so much
lewishamilton: very happy for you mate!
user13: THEY LOVE EACHOTHER SO MUCH OH MY GOD😭😭
landonorris: 🥹🥹
user82: DRESS WAS WRITTEN BY HER FOR HIM AND HE WAS PROUD OF IT OH LORD
user5: literally my favorite people in the entire universe🫶
user19: still in shock that theyve been married for four years
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MY ERAS TOUR CONCERTS - GELSENKIRCHEN N1 AND N2 (chaotic version)
Gelsenkirchen (or should I say Swiftkirchen) put so so much effort in those three days that Taylor was there, it was insane!! Renaming the city, creating "Taylor Town" and parties and fun stuff everywhere, it was really great. Since it is the most unknown city on the whole Eras Tour (and believe me, I live nearby, it's pretty ugly usually), it needed to shine a light on the city, especially given that everyone would want to come to Hamburg or Munich (or Berlin or Cologne if she had included those), but no one ever wants to come here. I was so amazed by all of it and I cannot fathom that all of my dreams just came true, it was all a fever dream, it felt like heaven and I didnt think I would ever be able to experience something like that.
N1: I was so so excited, all was perfect (almost)!! The atmosphere was really wonderful in front and inside the stadium, I traded my bracelets, people were there from all over the world. I went with a friend and a friend of a friend and I loved it. I cried when my tickets were scanned and they let me in and when I saw the Stadium from the inside (i didnt cry when I saw Taylor although I was convinced before I would, I think I had nothing left inside me anymore because of all the adrenaline before haha) Paramore was really really good!!! The seats were okay, I was a little irritated that there was a pole (idk what its called) that was a little bit blocking my view of the middle stage, you can see it in the video. It was so so good tho, I lvoed when Kam said "Kannste knicken" i died!! I also loved that Taylor acknowledged the paper hearts but I am so so mad bc i forgot them!!!! I had them all printed out and it feels so bad that I was not one of those people holding them up even tho I could have... It really still makes me so mad, I dont wanna think about it anymore.... anyway..... I was so happy being the first one to listen to Superstar on the Eras Tour, a few people around me definitely didnt know the song and it made me jump and scream even more, everything hurted that day, my feet hurt my lower back but I stood and jumped during the entire thing except for the transitions!!1 I was also dancing so dramatically and it must have looked so embarrassing but idc, it was all worth it!! I loved the face she made on Midnight rain btw
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N2: Boy N2 was so much more relaxed, I wasnt that scared that anything could go wrong anymore, I could sleep better, my feet and back didnt hurt nearly as much anymore (but they still did haha). I once again had the best time (although I didnt like the girl sitting next to me AT ALL but anyway), the seat was so much better this time yay, I LOVED THE 22 HAT GIRL, MAYBE MY FAVOURITE THING OVERALL, I cried for this little baby :'). I loved the face she made on midnight rain again so much, SHE SANG THIS IS ME TRYING!!!!! I COULDNT STAND ANYMORE WHEN SHE STARTED SINGING IT, I HAD TO BE ON MY KNEES FOR A QUICK MOMENT, I loved Hey Stephen sm as well, expecially because people once again were not happy about it around me and I was so so furious, i mean BUT WOULD THEY WRITE A SONG FOR YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I jumped, one time I almost jumped so high that I thought I would fall over the seat right in front of me and crash the girl before me, thankfully I didnt hahahha
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N3 in Taylor Town, Swiftkirchen: It was so so nice being there, I got merch, I ate Swiftcream, we danced to her songs (the dj even played Crazier!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), took pictures with all of her albums, and then I went to one of my friends houses and we watched the livestream and BOY I was devastated when she played Better Man and I WAS NOT THERE. I really got a little sad but I dont think I would have even survived another concert right the next day, idk if I am old but I was definitely feeling the toll those 2 days took on my body but it was so so worth it tho!!!
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Today I am just happy about the Gelsenkirchen post on her Insta and tomorrow I will pack my suitcase for Hamburg N1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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queen-in-the-shadows · 4 months
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Just a little drabble before I get up to go hangout with Ivry…
Taglist: @channieandhisgoonsquad @moonlightndaydreams @thightswideforhanin @2mins-world @noellllslut
Based on last nights dream. It felt so real I stg I was gonna cry because why couldnt i have finished it!!!??? Nothing spicy (yet? 👀 maybe ill come back with part 2)
You and your group of friends finally made it through the security and ticket line, heading to find the seats where you would watch the show. You had managed to snag tickets together to watch Stray Kids and a few other groups performing together, and the seats were *nice*. Not front row, but you could see the stage and that was all you wanted. You sat on the very end of your group, deciding to be the one to cap you off since you wouldn’t hold back saying something if it were needed.
By the time the lights in the arena are dimming and the sun is mainly set, you notice about 8 seats directly in-front of you that are just… empty. It was mind boggling, because it was hell on earth to get the tickets you got so how were there 8 seats here that were empty? That meant there was probably more in other sections and rows, and you refused to believe that truth. You inhale-exhale a deep sigh, letting go of the facts sitting in front of you to debate later with your friends when you go out for food after the concert and decide to focus on the beauty that is Stray Kids on stage, right before their set begins.
In no time Stray Kids have finished their performance set, and you’re positively gushing while gushing to your friends over it. “It was so good!! I don’t think I can go home. This is it, this is peak living, I will die here today.” You sigh with a hand placed over your forehead as you mock-swoon, before you notice that the seats that were empty in front of you… they’re now taken? You don’t get much of a good look, and almost reach to tap one of the apparent fanboys on the shoulder before you see his side profile. You drop your hand, your eyebrows shooting up into your hairline before you lean back into your own seat again. None of your friends seem to have noticed. How has nobody noticed?! That right there!!! That is THEE Banhg Christopher Chan and you would bet your left tit on it (yes only the left. it’s the one above your heart, where those 8 boys have declared their home, so it’s only fitting.) So how have none of your friends noticed? You turn to look at them and see that they’re all so engrossed in talking about the performance while waiting for the next group to come on stage, random songs of the groups playing through the speakers, that they aren’t even paying attention to you.
In the corner of your eye, you swear you Chan’s head and shoulders drop, in what can only be defeat, and you turn back to facing forward, head tilted just enough to be the reason your friends tease you for being so puppy-coded. (“you’re such a puppy!” “its not my fault my brain goes ‘huh?’ and decides yes to inform requires tilt!!”) You notice you’ve caught a very slight side-eyeing from the leader of the group directly in front of you, and try your best to give just a subtle wave, something that could be played off if one of your friends did catch it, and are shocked when you see his hand rise and wave back, a smile on his shrouded face.
this was all i managed to dream and i am so devastated. WHAT HAPPENS NEXT BRAIN?! HUH?!
also most definitely *not* my best work? this was literally written up in like 15 minutes because I couldnt get the dream out of my head. maybe ill continue it one day! maybe ill fix it up too. who knows.
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ateez-himari · 1 year
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Agust D Tour 230625 : Surprise Appearance
An emotional roller coaster brought about by an unexpected guest.
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June 26, 2023 (5:13PM)
Only a day after bringing solo artist PSY to the stage in order to perform their song 'That That', rapper Agust D announced another guest appearance. Many expected the artist to be a member of boy group BTS and were quite taken aback when ATEEZ vocalist Himari stepped on stage to perform their recently released single 'Pray'.
With the artist's group being in the midst of promoting their comeback album 'The World Ep.2 : Outlaw' her schedule seems to be quite busy yet she pushed herself to perform alongside her adoptive brother. Not only did the audience consist of the rapper's fans but it so happens that BTS members Jimin, Jungkook and V were present that day along with her eight group members who came in support of their maknae, placing a heavy spotlight on the young star.
While ATEEZ is well known for their powerful stage presence, it shocked many that the vocalist was able to put on such a strong rap performance throughout the setlist. Although it did serve as a reminder that despite her soft demeanor, she has well earned her place in the group's 'demon line'. The silky voice fans had grown enamored with showed impressive flexibility in its ability to endure switches in flows as well as Agust D's famous growling delivery.
Though their live vocals proved to be impressive it was their bond and pain that was shared to all those in the stadium that made this a truly unforgettable concert. The audience was almost silent during their set as if completely immersed in the story told through the verses, only to erupt in loud cheers barely a moment after the last note. Their duo performance's setlist included: Snooze, Confessions and Hikikomori (from their single) as well as Burn it, People Pt.2 and so far away.
During their title track 'Snooze' her hand would not leave the safety of her brother's and it was only whilst singing the lyrics "다 괜찮아질 거야" that the song's emotion finally got the better of her. Unable to keep going whilst sobbing she went to hide herself in his arms, making many attendees swoon at the unconditional love share between the two as well as the rapper's gummy smile breaking through whilst he gently held her. The several warm embraces from their set are sure to be stored away in many fans' camera rolls for a very long time.
After six performances packed in both emotions and energy, the two began walking around the stage to greet fans and as the younger idol played around, the rapper was caught looking at her with what looked to be tears in his eyes. It was explained in a live later that night as being pure pride in seeing that his sister was no longer the child he remembered, which also flooded him with sadness. It has become clear that these artists have a deep relationship we could fawn over without ever getting tired of it.
It seems as though we can have high hopes for the maknae's future endeavors as she is the first member of her group to have a solo project such as this. ATEEZ Captain, Hongjoong, sent out a twitter update containing a picture of the whole group together after Himari had joined them in the stands to finish watching the concert which contained a caption saying : "So proud of our little tiger ! You have faced so many obstacles since our debut yet found the strength to push through and ended up creating such a beautiful single ❤ Not to mention how mesmerizing your performance was. Forever our beautiful little star"
That same night a few hours after the concert the tiger in question sent a message to ATEEZ's b.stage platform saying : "I am very grateful to all of those who came to tonight's show and wanted to say a special thank you to my members. Without them I would not be where I am today as they are the ones who gave me the strength to continue, they were the ones who showered me with love, care and support throughout the years we have been together. They taught me how to better my dancing, to strengthen my vocals, to rap and most importantly they have shown me what it feels like when friends love you from the bottom of their hearts all the way to the ends of the Earth. They have made me unbelievably happy through the darkest of times and held my hand every step of the way. Please continue to hold my hand, and thank you again. I love you from the deepest parts of my soul ❤"
She also extended her thanks to rapper Agust D in a separate post that read : "To Yoongi-oppa : Tonight was truly wonderful because I got to perform alongside you for the first time, like you promised the day of your debut. From my very first audition you have supported me tirelessly, called me to make sure I was alright, kept up with our schedule just to send me encouraging texts before our stages and took me under your care when I had to move away. Thank you for giving me such a wonderful opportunity and for every single moment we shared together even with busy schedules. Please stay healthy and be safe during the rest of your tour. I hope we see each other very soon. I love you ❤"
Unbeknownst to the younger idol, Jeonbuk Hyundai Motors captain, Min Hanzo attended his little sister's first solo stage and flooded his fans with numerous photos as well as videos of her performance. He then shared a photo of the two backstage with the caption : "Words cannot describe how proud I am of you. It's crazy to me just how fast you grew up my little Hima. Well you're not so little now it seems. I truly am speechless and I regret not being able to tell you the extent of my pride but please know this. The universe blessed me by making you my sister, by giving me such a bright sun to light up my days in this life. Forever and I always I will love you ❤️🌞."
Stream 'PRAY' here !
Stream 'THE WORLD EP.2 : OUTLAW' here !
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antisocialgaycat · 1 year
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since none of y'all know how the music program at my skl works i can rant so bands for next year came out today right
like 5 minutes ago
and in that time i have screamed eight times, lied down on the floor twice and almost broken my clarinet three and a half times this is because:
1. how the fuck did j move up and i didnt i am like 20 times better than him and this isnt ego its literal facts (but hey at least he's gone)
2. jazz bands havent come out yet ???????? why
3. i just found 2 new keys that dont work on my clarinet and i realised that i broke the barrel even more
4. also we have no fhorns cos they all moved up or are still in the band below which is sad but also wtf why we deserve fhorns
5. mhgfgjhkgybj i thought the tree licker was gone but i forgot she also does percussion so i still have to deal with her unfortunately (she moved up for trumpet btw)
6. why did s move down a band he deserves better
7. my sister didnt move up to the top band but other worse people did and thats not ok she deserves better
8. why. are. there. no. jazz. bands. yet.
9. c should have moved up she was the best out of all of us but yet shes still in my band (shes first clari tho)
10. why did n move up a band. wait. did he replace s. he better have fucking not.
11. i broke a reed earlier and now im sad
12. l is still one of our percussionists. for the third year in a row. aaaaaaaaaaa why must we suffer this way
13. why are there only 9 clarinets. there were 19 of us last year 14. WHY ARE THERE SO MANY FLUTES
15. how dare jem move up now i have no one to subtly flip off from across the band
16. WE HAVE NO OBOES???????????????
17. we have 1 (one) bassoon
18. i think they made us have 3 different types of saxophone to make up for the fact that we have so little instruments (bad idea)
19. why did they combine treble voices and the boys choir that was a terrible idea
20. why are there so many concerts next term
21. why doesnt wb2 have a tuba ????? 22. why does wb4 only have alto saxophones ?????
23. how the actual fuck did y not move up at least to my band if not higher she deserves it
24. they spelt one of my friends names wrong
25. did n just die cos she definitely still plays flute but isnt in any band
26. one of my best friends will have to share a stand with b who doesnt understand the concept of deodorant i wish her the best of luck
27. unrelated but i think i lost my glasses (again)
28. also m just got completely forgotten too
29. i have to deal with ms e for another full year
30. i do not want to sing with the combined choir cos half of them dont want to be there and i also hate chris with a passion
i think 30 reasons is enough but i have more i am so pissed sdfsfgbgdfs
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TW: REFERENCE TO SH AND RELAPSE OF SH AND SUICIDE ATTEMPT
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Ok so ik ive been inactive for a *WHILE* and im srry for that but like i have a buncha things that happened these past 3 months that I NEED To share SOOOO....
First things first, the one im most excited abt: I DID MY FIRST PERFORMANCE!!! My school was doing little mermaid jr and I got Scuttle! I was really happy to get my first role and getting at least one solo, and Im just happy overall on how it went! I think I did really good on my first try! Only bad thing was that now im kinda going through my lil mermaid hyperfixation and have been looking up fics where Sebastian and Ariel kinda have a Father/Parental Figure-Daughter or Older Brother-Younger (stupid but ultimately well meaning) Sister dynamic and have started to write a fic on that bc no ones done it before apparently😒(im going cray cray, bonkers mayhaps)
Might've gotten my eye infected(I live in the east of the us, new york to be more specific and woke up the day after the "live vintage (BLAME CANADA/j) filter" with my right eyes nerves slightly more irritated and haven't gotten that checked out so thats fun)
FINALLY finished that one drawing ive been making for 3 MONTHS.(well, technically....)
Almost done writing my passion project, AKA the one I originally wanted to make into an animated series but have settled for a book just in case that can't happen! I still need to work out some kinks, design more outfits, get all their personalities in check, make sure the world and magic is fully fleshed out, ect.
I also do band, and while I originally thought that I would have a problem bc of both band and theatres close scheduling(i originally had dress rehearsal on june 2nd, AND my band concert on June 2nd) but it all worked out in the end! My band concert went great, and while the dress rehearsal was a mess, we at least got through it! :)
Unintentionally quit SH! I was originally only meant to stop until AFTER performances, but ive been bettering myself and learned that if I ever want to forgive myself or at least move on I gotta stop feeling sorry for myself and not forget nor forgive, but remember, i just can't let it haunt me. I know I'll relapse, I always do eventually, but I want to enjoy these few moments of mental "clarity" while I can. I've also learned that for some reason i tend to become a more terrible person and despicable person the more time I spend at home with my mother, so that's fun. God, I hate America's education system, its messed me up BAD. AND the foster care system. I just tried to kms 2 times today, and she didn't even notice, or care. How sad is that?
On a lighter note, yes, as the rest of yt and TikTok, I got a minor lil hyperfixation on the Lorax and really think ppl should make more [PLATONIC] Lorax and Onceler dynamics, mainly the type where they're like some really annoying pair of bickering siblings or a father whos sick of his adopted child's shit, like there is so much on the table for platonic fluff and angst and most of what I've seen is romantic smut and fluff like CHANGE IT UP A LIL
Also, Ive been going to karaoke centers on Tuesdays and have become a lot more confident to performing in front of ppl! So far, I've performed "All You Wanna Do", "The Ballad of Jane Doe", "Heart of Stone", and am gonna do "What the World Needs" the next upcoming Tuesday, where I'm gonna try interacting with the audience while singing!!
(Also, before I end this....I may have ADHD??? my teacher who has ADHD says some of my behavior is "similar to hers"(i feel like thats just her way of saying i reek of neurodivergency) and I also did some research and I display similar/exact behaviors listed, have taken online tests from doctorate confirmed sites and basically all of them said to go get a diagnosis. I also found I do a few behaviors similar to stimming! Also also, I kinda suspect a lil more bc my mom has Autism and apparently sometimes neurodivergency is biological (i forgor the word) but my mom is kinda in denial abt my Depression diagnosis and thinks I got anxiety "biologically", so if I tell her I wanna get tested for ADHD shes just kinda gonna gaslight me into not believing that and i already told the school therapist and basically she just told me that I'm probably just imagining things or copying behaviors from my mother and that "kids like to give themselves all these titles nowadays" so I just did what I always do which is to keep it shut and act until they think you fell in line)
So yeah, thats all! Thanks for reading, now that my schedule is clear again ima start posting more frequently again, so be aware :) <3333
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Man I have been through so much in the etheric realms in the last few days [/nights]. Wasn't sure whether to share or not; but with 18-Volt all-of-a-sudden seeming to come back, and some nasty energetic truths about Jak's situation, I thought these insights were worth being put up. This stems from Jak missing for days or even weeks, and the episodes getting increasingly worse. They are divided into 2 parts: Part 1 is the conversation that 18-Volt had with me, in which Terra monitored/supervised it at 18-Volt's request. Part 2 is where my teddy group (OCs) called a meeting, and Riku was kind enough to attend as well.
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PART 1: 18-VOLT'S CONVERSATION (+Terra)
18-Volt (ESFP): "Hey, so on my little scouting sesh, I found out a few things about Jak, and they're not good".
Me: "You're not undermining him, are you?"
18-Volt: "Naw; not at all. See I've become casual buddies with Terra and agreed to let him have me on a leash a bit; that's why he's watchin' me talk to you. How else am I supposed to come back and help if people don't trust me?".
Me: "So then you may have something valuable to offer me about Jak, especially since you were giving me a massive amount of downloads while I was washing stuff earlier today".
18-Volt: "Yeah... You see, Jak might actually be quite sick, and you chasing after him this time is unhealthy, because you're gonna get poisoned yourself".
Me: "I've actually felt that poisoning since yesterday. What's going on?".
18-Volt: "Choice point for timelines is almost up; and you're dead on about Jak taking the lower one".
Me: "Ah shoot".
18-Volt: "My advice? Tack on that 50k cash grab now and ONLY reverse it if he makes a strong comeback. Even a medium one ain't good enough. That ABTD needs to truly show that it's not gonna glitch ya again, otherwise what's the point?".
Me: "You have a point there. The ABTD only started taking me seriously after I tacked on the $45,000 one and gave it the option for reversals".
18-Volt: "Uh huh! But whatever you do, you can't descend in order to clean out messes anymore. Because you've got an energy that behaves like the Wario-bug, that's eating up all the lower timelines. And you don't wanna be in its way".
Me: "Dammit".
18-Volt: "Not all's lost yet, okay? You could have an 18-Volt 2.0 moment where Jak wakes up and rushes back to you. But you can't get your hands dirty anymore; he has to come to you. Just like I said, go slam dunk that cash grab [50k] and work with the fallout of that. But you need to stay on the upper rungs with Terra because that man really loves you to the moon and back".
Me: "Okay, so I've just now applied the $50,000 penalty, as well as an additional $15,000 due to the promise of lassoing the ABTD if two of Jak's friends weren't able to come with him. 50k for him, and 7.5k for them".
18-Volt: "See? You're a champ! You've got a lotta love for everyone you meet. But Jak's gotta see that AND put it into practice. Because at the moment, you're asking daddy [Jak] to go to your school concerts and visit your art fairs, but he couldn't give a shit and just stays home being all miserable, making his daughter cry because he doesn't want tah support her in anything".
Me: "You put it in a harsh, but clear and honest perspective".
18-Volt: "Because also think about it this way. Who's been doing most of your rescue aids? Every time Jak's in trouble, Kingdom Hearts always rushes to your side. But when it's been the opposite, Jak does the bare minimum, if anything. Don't 'cha see that he's the one not wanting to connect with other worlds? Don't let him short-change you anymore. You've gotta leave him be until he chooses to come back or gets the shock of his life. And I know what you're thinking. You were supposed to have three at a time protecting you. I don't wanna steal Jak's thunder, but I'll take up the third slot, and I'll gladly give it back to him if he shows up for it".
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PART 2: MEETING BETWEEN THE TEDDIES (+Riku)
The name 'The Mistress' is used quite a lot in this section, this is what the teddies always called me when I was little, and it's like saying The Princess.
Chloe-Nurse (?): "What's going on!? Why are we all meeting here?"
Selvian (INFJ): Sam saw something that no one has ever seen before".
Chloe-Nurse (?): "And?".
Selvian (INFJ): "She saw Jak crying in his room, which is something he hasn't even done since his father died. And... Uhh...".
Riku (DG - ISFP): "Looks like we're getting an energy interruption. Almost like someone doesn't want him on the higher timeline".
Nadia (ISTJ): "I question that 18-Volt guy ever since he's come back. Why does he have such an interest in Jak? I've heard not too good things about him [18V] in the past".
Riku (DG - ISFP): "With what Terra reported back, it seems like he just gets angry at anyone who tries to hurt Karla, and I've seen him do that before, with other people before, including myself actually. It seems the Warioware group already have knowledge on the situation as Jimmy T., Kat and Ana, and Ashley filled shortly the last time our abilities were compromised. So 18-Volt's just being a bit passionate in flipping his lid at Jak about the whole drama. But Dreamy WB [she] and myself are keeping a close eye on him".
Niki (ENFJ): "I actually think that if it wasn't for 18-Volt, Jak wouldn't even flinch at what's going on. Jak's crying because something must have hit a raw nerve, whether it's 18-Volt, or maybe he [Jak] saw the mistress striking down that $50,000 penalty today".
Mabo (INFP): "The ABTD's trying to stop her [me], but Jak is still seeking help in the background".
Riku (DG - ISFP): "Exactly".
Chloe-Fashion (?): "See? It's 18-Volt that's making Jak fight for his life [in a good way]. But how exactly is he [Jak] getting help?
Selvian (INFJ): "Jak has asked to see Josephine [INFJ] for regular counselling, and their first session I think was two days ago... Or was it yesterday?".
Chloe-Fashion (?): "She's [me] still poisoned though. How is it possible for the mistress to even get back to him, yet alone recover from this?".
Sabrina (ESTJ): "18-Volt actually said that it's still possible, but that it won't be easy".
Selvian (INFJ): "18-Volt's right. This is yet another battle, but this time with some bridges that must never be crossed; which is why the mistress must stay out of this. While Riku and Terra protect her, we need our strongest men and women in Haven City, which means Sabrina and I will be going for a few weeks obviously with Simona and Sam alone having no luck. Josephine takes over admin duties at home while Angela becomes the second tutor".
Samantha/Sam (INFP): "What about Kingdom Hearts?"
Selvian (INFJ): "Kingdom Hearts has shown that they can look after themselves, especially by Riku being here at this meeting. Sierra will stay behind with them, and work with Terra's girls, Nasha and Sibella. But Sabrina and I need to get to the bottom of this evil still lurking in Haven City, and we need to make sure Jak continues to see Joesphine on a regular basis until his problem is sorted out. It is likely that we won't be coming back without Jak".
Sam (INFP): "So you'll be stuck there forever?"
Nasha (ESFP): "What 'chu worrying about anyway, Samantha? You're one of Jak's original girls, so you can go there any time".
Riku (DG - ISFP): "I think she's more worried about Selv and Sabrina's safety and you guys getting to see each other again as a whole group".
Nasha (ESFP): "And why do you have to do this anyhow? Wasn't it over once the mistress shoved that 65 grand fine up the ABTD's ass?".
Selvian (INFJ): "She only did that as a last measure in-case the ABTD is stupid enough to never give him back. The $65,000 is a cap for if worldly events become too stressful and intense that she, or any of us, have no hope of getting him back. But until the very last day, we never ever give up. And until then, there is always a chance for the penalty to be reversed, whether partially or fully. Now no one tell her this, but we're gonna try as hard as we can to get him back for Christmas".
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I've never assigned or known the personality for any of the Chloe's.
For the nurse, I'm thinking ESTP. And for the fashion stylist, I'm thinking ENFP like Sierra.
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life update rq cus i havent done one since early summer
i have changed a whole bunch
i finally got over the guy i liked for 2 years, that was a relief because it was seriously negatively impacting my life and my view of myself.
i found interests and fandoms to join (most notably The Goldfinch, Stranger Things, the revival of The Dragon Prince, AtLA, Marauders and Dead End Paranormal Park) and overall, life is better in that regard, for a period of time i edited and amassed almost 2k followers which is insane.
in my mental regards its been rough but autumn and winter always are for me. im just over a month clean, however i did a bit too much soul searching today and did almost relapse. i have buried everything bad thats happened to me over these few months in a grave and will be holding a funeral shortly (aka, trying to tackle my ever worsening mental health). Also I've been doing some research and I think I have ADHD, which would explain quite a bit.
I have unfortunately realised my best friend is an utter dickhead and the reason I get anxious around him is because I feel like I'm always being judged around him, so I'm going to try to practise a bit of self confidence in the future. (he also misgenders his sibling often when basically half the school knows their pronouns) Yeah ngl, dk why I'm friends with him.
I've been sick for this past week and still am, but awhile ago i visited a Cavetown concert and it was one of the best experiences of my life. I won't get into the sappy shit but it meant a lot.
I'm still playing guitar and have actually improved at chords, I'm currently learning to play Take Me Out by Franz Ferdinand, my favourite song of theirs, followed closely by This fffire, the opening theme to Cyberpunk Edgerunners, which I still havent finished lmao
Anyways, see you next time
^SLik^
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How does Music show us who we are?
Music provides us a source of inspiration and an open space for creativity and thought-sharing in society. Since climate conditions and geographical position in this Planet Earth vary, it is logical to think that cultural background, food, and personality traits will do so. So does music. Every culture has unique taste for music related to its heritage. A common characteristic of music to every culture is, that we use it to regulate emotions no matter how extravert, agreeable or stable we are(1).
Customs and the way people develop and their lives change throughout time and across the planet. People choose sounds that match their personality. For instance, an extrovert person may choose pop or rock while a more introvert person may choose indie, new age or classical music. Punk music was born as a way to show discontent with societal norms. Hip-hop music treats directly inequality, racism and city issues. Not everyone vibrates with the same chords, since every individual has a different character. This is why each style has a group of humans that identifies with different melodies. Since every individual evolves, any group this individual belongs also improves, and so does their music. Every change that we live as a society it´s reflected on our music almost automatically, since music it´s a way of expression that can propagate faster and deeper than other arts. In our social history, the concept of freedom of expression has been in constant evolution, and music it’s a direct reflex of this.
Music events and concerts have the power to connect human beings while sharing an emotional journey or a moment of celebration, strengthening human bonds through their melodies. Singing and sharing moments improves everyone´s chemistry and bridges brotherhood among us, making us feel rewarded and more aware of the others. That´s the superpower of music and that is how music can gives its (or at least one) definition of group. Music helps us out on reinforcing our identity and how we want to be perceived(2). Music concerts, for instance brings us the opportunity to interact with each other, setting aside any differences and enjoying one same thing, feeling the uplifting melodies and anthemic choruses that makes us feel freedom of expression and movement. Music connect our emotions. It is all worth it. Your opinion and the type of music you hear is as valid as another person´s with a different opinion. Creativity (and Music) does not understand life on a better-worse scale, as long as it makes you feel good, it´s ok. This won´t break the sense of belonging to our group at all. Respecting differences unites us.
Trespassing frontiers, that is what music does. Even if you are stuck in a conflict, it still trespass boundaries and reminds you who you are in a joyful and sweet way, no matter what your social class, health state or economic stage is. It still reminds us that we are Human Beings, and that, well, it is not so bad to share a moment, laugh together or even embrace if our interests are not so much tuned up.  Music is like a warm blanket wrapping us when far from home, and we are feeling homesick. It has the power to help us recall emotions, thoughts and shared moments with others that can enhance our emotional state in a “valley moment” of our lives. Thus, music is there to reminds us once again, “I can overcome this”, “this is who I am”, “I can help you feel relief(3)”, or “hey, I´m here to help you go after your dreams”. Just pick up your song for each moment!
The connection between music and social intelligence is tight. Healthy and regular social relationships(4) are crucial for a nicer and better life, especially if music is involved. These actions will bear further on, acting like a cascade of good social habits and a better lifestyle for all of us. There are thousands of opportunities to share a moment, if you missed it today, remember, the sun will go up again tomorrow and will bring many opportunities within.
Thanks for smiling.  Enjoy the sunrise!
References:
(1) “Just the way you are”: Music Listening and Personality. https://research.atspotify.com/2020/12/just-the-way-you-are-music-listening-and-personality/
(2) The Psychology of Taste: The Intertwining of Music and Identity. Does your music preference reveal insights regarding your character? https://thesciencesurvey.com/arts-entertainment/2021/06/14/the-psychology-of-taste-the-intertwining-of-music-and-identity/
(3)  How Music Heals and Inspires Us in Challenging Times. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/stonewall-strong/202107/how-music-heals-and-inspires-us-in-challenging-times
(4) Daniel Goleman “Social Intelligence” https://www.danielgoleman.info/books/
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velvetporcelain · 1 year
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nine seventeen p.m.
hello its me. previously miss found in a bottle. i change my username all the time. but im not worried. i have no problem attracting.
today i felt the need to take 2 5g cannabis medicated chocolates and wow. im so glad i did. it allowed me to realize so much.
something feels off with my husband. he is thinking silently. i can see it. i keep asking what is wrong but he plays it off when the same "im fine" and trust me there is never anything wrong with him. somehow that convinces me that everything is wrong. what is he hiding behind that "i am fine?" there is something dark? or there is nothing? that is impossible, everyoine has a dark lake of pooled unanswered life questions that no one knows that you ask yourself.
i mean i could be wrong, but i just feel like im not. but then i again i dont know anything.
the internet is still fucking wild. we no longer live in the real world. the live stream concert i was watching to today on twitch proved me right. there was rain coming and the guy and his group found shelter under a big tent with just random rock playing, and it did not take them long to pull out their phones. i would have been so detacted. head back, arms limp. lettiing the demons dance in my body. i want more out of life than obsessive phone checking and doom scrolling. but it almost seems like the world has made that impossible. you cant do anything now a days. the media keeps you sacred. shootings and stabings and lies. making you want to buy guns to protect yourself, not because it is the easiest0 no, no, but because it is the quickest. people care about their lives. and the media knows that.
its hard to see them use certain words in the titles of their segments or articles. its captivating psychological warfare really. thats why when people dont buy into it, they are called artists. aka Ye.
outlandish concept i know. but maybe not, its terrifying.
i have to go--- engaging bedtime routine. will write later. i think i have more to say. remember, every thing, every thought has its time.
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indigo474 · 2 years
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3223-Hello March
Time is speeding up. Everyone says the older you get the faster time goes. My weeks fly by. so much happens- so much life happens in the span of a week and it's almost as if nothing happens. things change but stay the same.. a weird time in my life. time.. time is weird. Madison wants to make a big deal about my birthday. very sweet, but i do have to work. a month away.. anything could happen.
I saw Kika 2x this week. tuesday she got in trouble. she got a new toy, she was really excited to show me. i was playing with her, maybe a little too much and she just couldn't or wouldn't calm down. she got yelled at because she kept "getting in the way" today she ran down the driveway to greet me. she is so sweet. i look forward to seeing her every week. I managed to make it through my whole workout tonight without complaining. last week i heard myself complaining and i didnt like it- i told myself i wouldn't do it again. soo i didn't.. 90x5 and 80x5x2.. not bad. i can tell i am getting stronger.. it feels good. I squatted 160x5.. heavy heavy heavy.. i did it but GOD, it was hard.. my co worked never did call me to lift with her- she was tired after work. i NEED to start going to the gym in the morning.. i tell myself i am going to but but but.. excuses. i would really like to start going before work- this way its done and if i want to i can workout after work. WORK- 2 people said something about me being a manager.. Pam said when you become a manager... Drew introduced me as April, recently promoter customer service manager. Who knows right????? i've dared the Universe to show me how good my life can get.. Work is ok. i mean, its work. Am i supposed to love it? so much more to write.. i have off this weekend. yeah. i have things to do around here. I think i am going to join eharmony.. Marci says i have to get back out there. She might be right. there are a bunch of concerts coming up.. i have to decide what i'm doing. i haven't planned a vacation yet. i haven't heard anything in regards to my divorce settlement. I guess i'm just not getting it? venus and jupiter meet tomorrow. i got a glimpse of them tonight and saw them a few nights ago.. i think it's going to rain tomorrow so probably won't be able to see them. life is funny.. i do a lot of listening. i've come to realize about 90% of what is said doesn't need to be. probably more.. people LOVE to hear themselves talk. i catch myself talking just to talk- not really saying anything. sometimes i just want to tell myself to shut the fuck up. nobody cares . people listen only to respond.. i can see them thinking of a response before i'm even done talking. some people are worse than others. i get that way too- if im excited to share something- I'm tired.
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divergent-one-1984 · 2 years
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Organized Crime Ring in Astoria, NY, in a neighborhood under the jurisdiction of 114th PRECINCT and in apartment buildings managed by CENTRAL ASTORIA, LLC. I have been the victim of TARGETED COMMUNITY HARASSMENT SINCE SUMMER 2016 because of my race and gender, I am an African American woman (because of a rumor / gossip mill started by staff at NYC DEPARTMENT OF EDUCATION while I was employed there from 2014 to 2016 I was made the victim of targeted psychological harassment). Due to the illegal access and leaking of private, personal, confidential information by wiretapping / cloning / hacking of personal devices and illegal surveillance in my residence. This includes leaking of confidential medical information ((HPV, strains that can cause cervical cancer and an Abortion) - MUSLIM TENANT ABOVE ME DRAGGING HEAVY FURNITURE ACROSS FLOOR AT ABOUT 6:52AM AND AT LEAST ONE TIME PRIOR TO THIS INSTANCE THIS MORNING
This, in concert with NOISE HARASSMENT OUTSIDE MY WINDOW OF WHAT SOUNDED LIKE 2 MALES WITH ACCENTS INDICATING LATINO DESCENT. YELLING OUT "STD" AND "LISA LESLIE" (STD obviously refers to HPV, the Lisa Leslie comment refers to HPV as well, but indirectly, which I will get into details on another post. But the shorter version is Lisa Leslie refers to an ex-friend of mine, someone I have had to cut off because of harassment from her and some of her family members. This ex-friend also has HPV, something the instigators of this harassment most likely obtained from hacking of historical audio conversations on my personal cell phone with this person. During one of our many phone conversations over the years Lisa Leslie was mentioned, the ex-friend told me that a relative of hers made a comment that I looked like / favored Lisa Leslie but was prettier. Me and this ex friend had this specific conversation on my personal cell phone at least 15 years or so ago. Lisa Leslie is a name that the STALKERS / ABUSERS / HARASSERS are frequently yelling out either from surrounding apartments. For those that don't know, Lisa Leslie is a former basketball player.
The first abusers who yelled out "Lisa Leslie" or used her name in a conversation spoken in Spanish were the Latino tenants who were living in the apartment next door where my bedroom aligns with their kitchen, which is now occupied by Muslims.
Or people will yell "Lisa Leslie" out while standing or walking outside my windows, as they did just this morning and have frequently done in the past. "Lisa Leslie" will also be used in conversation, Latinos and Muslims involved in my daily harassment will be having conversation in their native tongue then "Lisa Leslie" will pop up once or multiple times throughout their conversation. This is a psychological tactic referred to as DIRECTED CONVERSATION.
"STD" is also randomly yelled out, the first time I recall this being done it was coming from the Muslim tenants who lived in the apartment on the other side where our living rooms are aligned and where Latino tenants now live. It was actually one of the Muslim families children yelling out into the apartment building common area / hallway "STD", repeatedly.
At this very moment the Muslim tenants above me, the male is talking and laughing so loud and is so clear almost sounds like he is in my apartment. I believe there is the use of sound equipment that can direct and amplify sounds through walls and windows to harass targets because I can often still hear these people clearly when I have the TV on or are listening to music, etc., that does not seem normal even with these thin walls.
In addition, today, my relative who I am caretaker for, has a mammogram appt, which obviously references HPV indirectly and cancer detection directly, because its all related to gynecology.
Since these people know I have to leave the house to today to attend appt with my relative and on top of that its a gynecological related appt, as usual they do alot of harassing to agitate me so that I might have a knee jerk reaction in public in hopes I will have to come on contact with law enforcement, since these people have been trying to fabricate an arrest since my employment at NYC DEPARTMENT OF EDUCATION, when I realized that after being harassed for months, that was my que to quit, with all their set up scenarios and STREET THEATER psychological tactics.
I would like to talk a bit about how HPV is the most common STD, yet noone knows about it because for someone to do all this to me because of HPV, which I stand by based on my experience and analysis of my experience and because I know the kind of life I have lived and I have never done anything to anyone for this to be a response unless the person is has stalking / psychotic tendencies because it does not take you doing anything to people like this for them to inflict violence on you.
For someone to do all of this to me because of HPV is kind of ridiculous to me because I am informed about it and know how common it is and that condoms will not protect you. You would pretty much need to never start having sex and abstain from sex your entire life to ensure you do not contract HPV.
To address the common occurence of HPV. Thinking about it in respect to my ex friend. If you are friends with someone for many years, what is the probability of the 2 of you, contracting the same STD. 2 people who have never been with each other sexually and as far as I know have not had sex partners in common. Also, as I have expressed in previous posts I have only had 6 partners in my entire life and my first sexual experience was after college, I was 21. This ex-friend shares a similar sexual history as far as first experience being much later than the average age and having a small number of partners. When I got diagnosed I had only had 3 sexual partners prior to, she even less. I think this is a good example to show how common HPV is and noone would be getting bent out shape about it if they are informed, mentally healthy, and emotionally mature.
In addition to the HATE CRIME element to the ongoing stalking and harassment there is a Religious Zealotry / Nuttery / Judgmental / Fundamentalism / Extremism element to my daily harassment as I am being harassed by mostly Muslim and Latino people. Based on facts / my observation, I would estimate that 9 out of 10 people harassing me on a daily basis are Muslim or Latino, with Muslims ranking number 1, Muslims who appear to be from Middle Eastern / Arab countries and countries on the Asian continent. All of the tenants in my apartment building are involved in my daily harassment, especially the 3 apartments surrounding my apartment. 2 of the apartments are occupied by Muslim tenants and the 3rd apartment is occupied by Latino tenants. Out of the 9 apartments in my apartment building. 2 of the tenants, including myself are African American, the remaining 7 apartments are occupied by Latino and Muslim tenants, with the Muslims being in the majority.
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deyzalee · 2 years
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Dear God,
Thankful and blessed today. I woke up late because its my day off. I ate my brunch which is granola with milk. I scrolled my social media accounts, chatted my family and friends. I slept again and woke up at 2PM plus. I ate again granola with milk. I drank my vitamins. I prepared myself for I am going to Westlife concert. I rode a bus going to Etihad arena. It took almost 2 hours for the ride. I arrived and walked 15 minutes going to the arena. I arrived safely. I am happy for my sit because its near to the stage. I was really on a bliss while watching the concert, took some photos and videos. The concert went well. I walked going to the bus stop. Right now, I am waiting for the bus. While waiting, I read few pages of the Bible. I will drink my medicines once I arrived home. Have mercy on us Oh God. Guide us always to the right path. Remove sickness, danger and negative things in our life. Answer our prayers in your perfect time. Thank you and I love you God.
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Rise Or Fall? The Complete Understanding Of Metaverse From The Philosophical, Cultural, Scientific And Social Perspectives             
There are many recent popular films on ‘Metaverse’: Everything Everywhere All at Once, Doctor Strange in the Multiverse of Madness and Free Guy.
Technology company WayRay promotes its new kind of 'human world' as this: humankind has long been fascinated with a different reality—a different plane of existence, a different identity and a new perspective. To interact with a different reality might have been a dream decades ago, but now it is as real as the phone you are holding today. The technology is now mature enough, and we can all reach into the ‘Metaverse’.
What exactly is a ‘Metaverse’? It was said, “The meta-verse ('Meta’ + ‘Universe') is a virtual ‘reality space’ on the internet where a user can create a ‘human identity’ to live, interact and play, as well as experience things that he could always do in the real world."  Metaverse will be another globe running parallel to and circumventing the existing world. The term came from a science fiction Snow Crash by Neal Stephenson in 1992 and the story depicted a virtual world on the internet that has buildings, roads, parks and shopping malls in which we could enjoy ‘a collateral life’.
It was pointed out Metaverse has 8 characteristics: (1) living under a virtual identity (2) getting along with new virtual ‘co-beings’ (3) instant and spontaneous movements by you commanding your extended identity in the virtual environment (4) an ‘as-if-real’ immersive experience in the virtual world (5) doing the great things which are humanly impossible for you to try in real life such as flying and roles transforming (6) the self-functioning economy of Metaverse by which you can become rich (7) vast supply of fascinating games and contents; and (8) co-building a ‘post-modern human civilization’.
Metaverse was made possible by scientific achievements. The advent of new technologies like 5G or 6G mobile network, Web 3.0, AI (Artificial Intelligence), VR (Virtual Reality), AR (Augmented Reality) and MR (Mixed Reality) solved many technical problems. The necessary equipment to operate Metaverse is expensive and includes special headset, personal computer, mobile phone, web, projection and kiosk. The ‘money’ transactions there involve innovative softwares like De-Fi (Decentralized Finance), IPFS (Inter-planetary File System) and NFT (Non-fungible Token). Mark Zuckerberg announced that ‘Meta’ (formerly known as Facebook) would soon file patent applications for a number of useful devices such as a pair of ultra-sensitive gloves to make 'Meta' bodily experience almost real. Can you afford all these?
Perhaps I am old, if not senile. The real world is already burdensome enough on a daily basis. My sure horror will come from the additional labour and toil associated with consuming a few hours per day on living in another artificial Metaverse. I get enough, if not more than enough, friends. Why should I meet more virtual people in the disguise of different identities and a lot of them may be crooks? I, nevertheless, envy the energetic ones who can handle two lives and two worlds.
I ask around to find out my friends’ interest on Metaverse. A said, “Communication technology simply makes people unnecessarily busy!” B said, “It’s cool! I want to be a powerful KOL or KOC in such a brave new world.” C said, “If I can make lots of money there, why not? I’m planning to buy some lands there.” D said, “I will be horrified when my 22-year-old girlfriend in Metaverse turns out to be an 80-years-old man!” E said, “Would it be lawful or immoral to attend a drug party in Metaverse?” F said, “How exciting it will be since I can hold a big concert there in the face of Michael Jackson?” G said, “I will transform myself into the most gorgeous girl there and attract loads of boyfriends!” H said, “I am afraid of sexual harassment. An English female beta tester was once groped by a stranger on Horizon Worlds!”
There is a famous philosophical story (莊周蝶夢)(Zhuang Zhou & Butterfly)of our ancient scholar Zhuangzi(莊子)(about 369 to 286 B.C.) that every Chinese knows. Zhuang dreamed that he was a butterfly.  He suddenly woke up and found he was still himself, solid and human. He was puzzled and left us with his great theory of Taoism. “Am I really a man that dreamed of being a butterfly or whether I am a butterfly dreaming as a man?” This great Chinese thinker tried to challenge what we took as real might be unreal and what was unreal might be real. Perhaps he was the first one who inspired us on virtual reality thousand years ago. The French philosopher R Descartes (1596-1650) said, “No certain indications by which we may clearly distinguish wakefulness from sleep.” The development of Metaverse as the popular ‘second reality’ will lead more people to pursue a hot debate: can young people in the 23rd century choose to live in a virtual world of butterflies and refuse to live in a human world?
The other amazing Chinese ancient fairy tale protagonist is ‘The Monkey King’. It is based on the ancient story Journey to the West(西遊記) about a famous monk Xuanzang (玄奘) (602-664) who travelled on foot from China to India for the authentic Buddhist scriptures, escorted by Monkey King(孫悟空). This monkey was clever and rebellious. He acquired an immortal life and could transform him into seventy-two different identities in different situations at the same time. Riding clouds in the sky as a vehicle (Monkey King today will probably use Internet as his vehicle), he was able to travel 108,000 miles by a single somersault to meet friends. Would the Metaverse users dream of being a butterfly or Monkey King which were all old prophecies of ‘virtual reality’.
Many predict that your digital existence will become more important than your physical life. In the Metaverse, your life is fascinating with all that you can enjoy. But on earth, you may be lonely and miserable. Virtual life may be joyful. A real life can be sad. Nevertheless, the more humans lose themselves in a non-existent world, the more Artificial Intelligence technology will control us in future. I do not want to live in the virtual world because it will not give me a nice haircut! Do you? Happiness boils down to simplicity.
MLee
Chinese Version 中文版: https://www.patreon.com/posts/shi-kai-shi-huan-67507595?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copy_to_clipboard&utm_campaign=postshare
Movie “Everything Everywhere All at  Once” Trailer HK  https://youtu.be/E7qroZ-IulA  Acknowledgement  – A Really Happy Film
Movie “Free Guy” Trailer  https://youtu.be/_vBOPZBPOjo  Acknowledgement-20th  Century Studios HK
What is Metaverse  https://youtu.be/ZhD0FtWSiRo  Acknowledgement-BBC  News
Metaverse  development in Korea  https://youtu.be/ov_SCy-cKJc  Acknowledgement-BBC News
Metaverse  – Virtual Teresa Teng  https://youtu.be/rN2PNMGtn2Q  Acknowledgement-TBV  News
Spent 100 days in Metaverse  https://youtu.be/mufeRQYgqZc  Acknowledgement-Ryan  Trahan
Metaverse Song  《元宇宙》歌   https://youtu.be/qwWL58XcIYA  Acknowledgement-Leslie Tsang
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