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i need the kind of fingering that resets your brain. a (les)bottoming if you will.
#its 2 am dont judge me#good mrng pineapple - looking v gud looking v nice#i havent slept in tew daze - send halp#tbh#lobotomy
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Here I present my very literate, very unprofessional 1 a. m. translation of "Rusalochki" by Go_A, because this song makes me feral for no apparent reason
Let's start with the title and a few notes
I could, without hesitation, translate "rusalochki" as mermaids, simply because women + water - it all makes sense in my head. But if I do a little thinking regarding world mythologies, I gonna find myself missing a fishtail at the very least. Not to mention undead, often suicidal origins. And tickles.
We sure love the mischievous and ambiguous spirits of dead people in our mythology. Anyway, instead of finding an English analogy let's just learn another mythical creature known as rusalka, k?
I also need to express that Ukrainian folk songs are full of diminutive forms. See these things at the end of a word?
Then we're dealing with "little and probably cute" silent descriptions
Ukrainian line, then immediately English one, погнали:
[Intro]
Та зельоная добровонька
Green oak forest
Холодна криниця
Cold well
Та скажи мені всю правдоньку
Tell me the whole truth
Ой чого мені сниться
Oh, why am I dreaming
Та куди гляну, подивлюся
Anywhere I gaze, anywhere I look
Не моя сторононька
This is not my side
Ой та хто тепер проводжає
Oh, who is accompanying me now
То мої русалоньки
It's my rusalochki
[Chorus]
Рано-рано засвітило сонечко
Early, early the sun shined
Рано-рано прилетіла пташечка
Early, early the bird flew in
Рано-рано заспівала голосно
Early, early [bird] sang loudly
Рано-рано
Early, early
Рано-рано я засію стежечку
Early, early I will sow a path
Рано-рано до твого віконечка
Early, early to your window
Рано-рано буде любо, зелено
Early, early it will be nice and green
Рано-рано
Early, early
[Verse]
Та візьміть собі, русалочки
Take for yourself, rusalochki
Та рути і мяти
Rue and mint
Та не приходьте темной ночки
And don't come during a dark night
До нової хати
to a new house
Та ходіть, мої русалочки
Walk, my rusalochki
До самого двору
to the yard
Та не топчіть мені рутоньку
But don't trample my rue
Біля мого двору
near my yard
[Verse]
Проведу я, русалочки, до бору, до бору
I will lead you, rusalochki, to the pine forest, to the pine forest
Сама вернусь молодая додому, додому
And I, the young one, will return home, home
Проведу я, русалочки, в темний бор, в темний бор
I will lead you, rusalochki, to the dark pine forest, to the dark pine forest
Сама вернусь молодая
And I, the young one, will return
Проведу я, русалочки, до бору, до бору
I will lead you, rusalochki, to the pine forest, to the pine forest
Сама вернусь молодая додому, додому
And I, the young one, will return home, home
Проведу я, русалочки, в темний бор, в темний бор
I will lead you, rusalochki, to the dark pine forest, to the dark pine forest
Сама вернусь молодая
And I, the young one, will return
[Same chorus]
We won't be talking about "та" translation, because I'm lacking a few degrees, thanks for understanding ❤
usually English translation just straight-up skips this word, which is fair, cause its absence won't affect any meaning, but, oh, what a word
So, it's seems like an evil spirit infestation, or a rather unlucky Rusalna Week experience
Go read Katrina's Instagram for more information, and don't forget about official music video
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Has Soundwave ever.... you know, got his valve broken due to too much interfacing with Shockwave (+ his huge spike)?
WIZARD CAT CENSOR GO!!
listen i dont think hes that big, i mean c'mon they are the same size but i do think he makes him feel y'know,,, full, either way soundwave is pleased and content 😌 and sticky
full on twitter as always :)
and bluesky, FOLLOW ME ON BLUESKY!!!!1!
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bart hair kinda acts like horse blinders 4 him
#i had rhis thiught @ like 2 am then spent way 2 long drawing#im going 2 eat now &&&& hopefully get things done 2day idk#i kinda dont like the way i drew bart here @ all my arts been ROGUH recently ok DONT JUDGE ME#i dont wanna yap 2 much its so food time rn#good mronign every1 tho <333#bart allen#puppee art#man i rlly dont like how indrew bsrt here man goddmanitjtf AAAA
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Just had my first psychiatrist appointment in like two years! Not to brag, but I improved on mental illness so much that I was upgraded from Bipolar 2 to Bipolar 1! 😎
#when she asked me questions and said 'that seems more like bipolar 1 than 2' i immediately got so excited#to make this fucking joke on tumblr#when my mom asks how my appointment went im going to make it to her too and shes going to hate it#im trying to collect all of the diagnosises and meds#ive tried so many meds in the past im excited to add a new one to my repertoire#i dont even know what this one is for. i think its cuz my bipolar leans heavily towards the depression#and so far that depression has been untreatable. so i think thats what this is for#my caffeine intake was heavily judged whivh i did not appreciate. but its a judgement worthy amount of caffeine tbh#also i had onboarding for my new job at mcdonalds literally immediately after my psyh appointment#and it was strange. i did the normal things. paperwork etc#but at the end i asked if colored hair was okay and she said she encourages self expression#but then she whispered and said some people are furries and thsts okay but if i am i cant wear the claws or tail at work#just for food safety reasons. and she brought me out to a separate building thats their dry storage#and she said sometimes theres pine snakes in there so just be loud as you go in#and she said she doesnt mind if you smoke weed on the clock. just do it in your car or dry storage and use body spray to cover the smell#ive missed working fast food. im going to change my mind after like two shifts but its fine#anyway i hope you appreciated my mental health joke :) i made myself laugh hysterically with that one
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sometimes i forget that i live in a world where most people see ads everywhere and im the weird one in this little island of using 10000 adblocks and i get really sad for all those people
#i literally couldnt go back if i wanted to#you dont understand i have So Many adblockers its crazy#off the top of my head i could tell you like 4 that i have on my computer but im sure there are more#on my phone i think i only have 2 or 3??#idk lol its crazy that everyone just lives with ads all the time and im here chilling not having seen a single ad on my computer for 2 year#and on my phone its been a few months i think#and people are like oh its not that bad why would i want an adblock?#and im like ???? why wouldnt you want one#many many sites make you pay for ad free suggesting that this is something most peoplewant#i am offering to tell you how to do it for free forever and youre telling me you dont want to?#a lot of people are just so scared to do anything to their computers they dont even know that there are options#a while ago i finally convinced my uni friends to get ublock origin and they were like here u have my computer and i was like ??#you just need to add an extension to chrome ?? and they didnt know how to do that😭😭😭#*judges from my 239742 addons*#like yeah i get it maybe having so many is unnecessary or whatever but having at least 1 adblock to get some control back is necessary#but whatever lol#mine#random
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Been wanting to draw this for a long time now tbh
Have an Azelf and my Volo Au cosplay in PLA
And some pics i took few weeks ago
My finger is in eternal pain after this
#pla volo#pokemon volo#volo#wielder volo#pokemon wielder volo#pla akari#pokemon akari#azelf#pikachu#togekiss#pokemon#pokemon au#i would add that outfit to my au and never use it again#pokemon trainer#drawing#art#bro looks like he was about to commit murder#akari pls run away that guy will kill you#rei was the first victim of assassination i am very sorry /j#its all fun and games until a blonde guy pulls a giratina from his twin towers#praise the lord yall#pokemon legends volo#pokemon legends arceus#i would kms if i drew that outfit again i struggled so hard my legs were cut off#they gave me a heart attack after this#yes this is what i wear in pla dont judge me#its my biggest drip and i am all in for it#if volo ever showed up like this then i would question if he was either in antarctica or did arceus do smth to him to look like that#bro will fist fight god round 2 when#i would take him down (in bed /hj)
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the divided stance on gaim is fascinating. a good chunk of my mutuals (opinions of whom i respect) despise it. and then i have a scant handful of OTHER mutuals (opinions of whom i also respect) who adore it. hmm
#granted the ones who do like it also like drive and i am never watching that shit#gentos actor being so impossibly sexy in it is not enough to tempt me#i dont judge my friends for liking those 2 shows at all mind u#like can you really judge them if you (other mutuals) like kabuto#well. “like” is a relative term but you know#anyways i am not watching gaim cuz i despise the suits but its just interesting#it seems its a series you either love or hate with no middle ground#skeletal chatter
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why can't i just do things when i say i will do them?
#to make paying the monthly gym subscription worth it i need to go at least 7 times. its been 2 weeks and ive been twice so i need to go#at least 5 more times in the next 2.5 weeks#i can go tomorrow directly after uni and then maybe ill be able to force myself to go on friday again#then I'll just have to go one time next week and 2 the week after that#and i mean i still have time to go today but i dont have the energy and im also getting hungry sooo thats not happening#but since im not goimg to the gym i have to stufy. which is easier bc i can do it from my bed without getting dressed and leaving the house#and if i start crying while doing that there will be no one there to judge me#okay im glad we agree#I'll just get up and go bring my stuff now#i can do that#why am i like this#okay im going#bye see you later#jo says stuff#personal ramblings
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I just want an excuse to post my picture lol I think we make the worst couple 🥰🥰🥰 i am going to take the house and the kids 🥰🥰🥰
Also optional couple picture undercut lmao
Asukatonium real okay goodnight mimimimimi
#oh look its our yearly 'i want to post my face so everyone knows i am actually not a sentient horse behind the screen' post#also a reminder that I am actually broke dont be fooled by the bags they are not mine i stole them all i am living in kylie's wall rn#lmk if any of yous wanted me to steal a birkin but i will judge you cuz its kinda ugly#anyway yes good to reblog but be nice i just cried over a fries last night#honestly if you ask me both of me and utonium doesnt look like a couple its more like i am his sidechick#like yes we fuck in the lab and violate every laws in the OSHA book and then i leave through the windows#but also i still want to date this man he is so square so silly so cute i want to drive him crazy everyday#like im so obsessed with him even after 2 years omg i love him so much akajdjwlaiapa#asuka speaks#selfship#selfshipping community#selfshipping#selfship talk
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one thing i just do not fucking get is the difference between "regulating emotions" and "suppressing emotions" i cannot get my head around how those are different. like if im sad and then i go "well im not going to be sad anymore" that's "dissociating" and "suppressing healthy emotions" but if im sad and im like "well im going to cry until i actually pass out" that's "not healthy" and it's BAD to suppress emotions but it's ALSO BAD to get super upset so WHAT IS THE SECRET THIRD THING cuz i do not fucking get it. "feel your feelings But not that way that's not healthy feel your feelings but less than that" ???????
#text#IT'S DRIVING ME UP A WALL IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT FOR MOTNHS#LIKE????? is it like. like is this a me problem is this just me having feelings that are too big#like do other people just.. like for other people does 'feel your feelings' just mean like. feel sad for a while and then stop. cuz i cant#do that i dont get normal sad i get chest pain and think about killing my self for hours on end .is that the problem#like okay if i trip down the stairs and break my leg. im going to cry and go to the hospital. suppressing that would be just using my#broken leg anyway and ignoring it. would regulating it not also be Crying and going to the hospital. would regulating it be like.. putting#a bandaid on it or something is it like.. a middle ground . i do not fucking get it#like okay if i trip down the stairs and i scrape my knee and then i call an ambulance i see how thats not the right response . and i guess#regulating there would be like. calming down thinking things thru and choosing a less drastic solution like a bandaid. i get it#in that situation. but if ive ACTUALLY BROKEN MY LEG. then that would just be the first thing again essentially#but when i put that back into. real world not metaphor world. like. i dont get it again#because if theres not like. an obvious reason for however i feel how am i supposed to judge if im calling an ambulance for a scraped knee#ALSO I THOUGHT THERE 'ARENT ANY WRONG EMOTIONS' WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THAT -_-#okay no okay it's like. if i trip down the stairs and i skin my knee i dont have to call an ambulance. but if several times a day i fall d#down the stairs and skin my knee in that exact spot and now i can see bone. SHOULD I NOT CALL AN AMBULANCE?#cuz its not just one thing thats upsetting me most of the time it's a combination of a bunch of things and then like one extra upsetting#thing added on top of that. which would necessitate an ambulance. does this make sense#THIS IS GETTING ME NOWHERE IM STILL JUST AS CONFUSED AS I WAS BEFORE I STARTED TYPING. i need 2 remember 2 ask my therapist#what the fuck ''feel your feelings'' means and how it can coexist with ''regulating feelings'' or whatever cuz i feel like im missing smth#NIK OUT ! PEACE ! ✌️
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fuck i might be on the au/dhd spectrum
rant in tags ok!!!!!!!!
#crazy revelation!!!!!#undiagnosed but its all there my god#what do j do.#i cant fkn say it irl bc 1. parents... scary will judge me and 2. friends.... idiots will judge me#magbe they wont. but the fact that i am seen as the academically gifted#'better than average' student does Not help#but i coild be wrong yk#i just dont want to go into a space i dont deserve to be in#i feel like an impostor the hell#there was a girl in my class last year that everyone said definitely had adhd (she also agreed) bc she was just. stereotypical adhd yk?#struggled in school#hyper#terrible at focusing#rambled so much#etc etc which all makes sense#but when i tried to say that 'oh i have adhd too!' i got shut down SO quick#my friends all went like 'lmfao no way youre the smartest kid in class without even trying#n youre not even hyper and energetic??? u also hate talking too like??? no way u have adhd'#so i was justlike oh........okay 🙁#and GGGGGGOODDDDDDD#fuxking hell#whatever#i hate this shit#text#rant#vent#delete later
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did i make a mistake?
#sigh dawnie crush issues in the tags#so yeah fair warning#...........................................................................................................................................#idk man I just. i feel like instead of getting closer weve grown more distant ever since he asked me out and its killing me man#i dont wanna be hurt. im so fragile rn and just starting to heal from the years of trauma i faced in my family. when i try to talk#about any issue i have to him he just. ignores the text#or gives me a very dry response which hey. im not trying to say u should listen to my issues all the time. i get that some people dont want#to. but i would just much rather have someone tell me that directly yk? just a hey i dont do well with rants. but the thing is he said hes#fine with them. but then when i get nothing to address it i just. i feel hurt. like... ive started to wonder if hes just keeping the#relation for namesake at this point but ik that isnt true. weve only been dating 2 weeks or so i shouldnt judge so soon. but man its hard#to not overthink ive always been conditioned to do that. ive always been super excited when he plans a date (which he doesnt even call#a date) but when i try to plan smth its always that he has some other plan to attend to which again i get it im not the jealous date who#asks her s/o to be for her every waking moment but yk it does hurt and i feel instead of just letting it bottle up its better to admit it.#i tried to ask him to get cotton candy once and he said wed go the next day and then he forgot. never asked me a time or anything. i didnt#think of it much cuz hed gone to meet a friend outside the city and he mustve been tired. yesterday i asked him again and he said he was#again going outside the city to meet his 12th grader friend. man am i jealous of that girl who gets to spend more time with the guy#who asked me out than ive collectively spent with him#and no i dont mean this in a toxic way like “oh hes meeting other girls he shouldnt do that” i just. man i pictured so much out of my first#relationship. and i got nothing. not one thing out of it. i guess it makes sense cuz my love language is mostly physical touch and u cant#really do that in a campus in India. and its also wrong of me to hold him to such high standards of a perfect relationship when the guy#himself has been in one for the first time (i assume?) but like i said id rather not try to hide my emotions and express them out openly.#theres still so much more about this that i feel wrong but the thing is its confusing cuz i feel like the two years of torture in my house#has made it so that the trauma from never hearing i love you wnd words of affirmation from my parents has been reflecting off this place.#its wrong of me to do this but i expected everything that i couldnt recieve to be fulfilled in a relationship and i now realise how stupid#i was yk? cuz its wrong of me to put such harsh expectations on him like that. i feel like such a shallow person for getting depressed over#a relationship that has just been going for 1 week#theres also the thing where he generally seemed more excited to talk to me before? and now i just get the dryest responses ever out of#which no conversation can be built. and again im not expecting him to be online and respond immediately but a thoughtful response goes a#long way. again ik im being so harsh on him cuz its his first time too and he must be facing the same awkwardness im facing but jesus. i#ok my tags are over im continuing in a reblog
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Tiktok realized I was feeling off with my friend before I did
#pov: you slowly start hating your bsf *song on the back sick of your voice sick of your face sick of~*#and i was like whaattt noooo i dont hate *him* and thought of that one while at the time we supposedly were a trio#i saw two tiktoks like that#and then he send me one like 'haha why is tiktok showing me that?' or something#haha lmao dude same!! i also saw 2 of those i dont understanddd#and its been months#and just the other day i was talking with my mom and i told her how I felt and how hes been annoying me for no reason or done/said stuff#that bothered me#sbsjjsjs#and also. the last months im speaking daily with someone else and maybe not even exchange a word with my 'bsf' even though we sit together#in the bus and like- when sometimes i compare the 2 of them or how their reactions to stuff i say are-#idk i feel like hes constantly judging me or doesn't care about what I have to say so sometimes i dont even bother#like at this point im looking forward to the days hes not taking the bus back home so i can listen to music instead of sitting in silence#its an unspoken rule to always sit on the same place and i dont want to break it. even though the other day he was like 'sit on the front#cause im studying'#ahhshs ugh the other day I was like 30 minutes anxious he would judge me about something I did wrong but he never did#like am i just making shit up?? idk sometimes he just annoys me and i feel like an asshole cause we've been friends for so many years but#i do feel a better treatment by the new people im hanging out with most of the time like;#i never pay attention when you talk/oh yeah i remember that random thing you mentioned last year#and like i get he doesn't care about what we were talking about but literally saying 'i never pay attention to you 2' like ok. why even#talk to each other then? ... Also im sick of everyone who says shit like 'once we graduate we'll never see each other again' like yeah#if you have an attitude like that. like half of us are neighbors. i literally heard someone say 'can we be friends until july to go to the#concert?' and the other person was like why are you talking like that why wouldn't we be? and my bsf is one of those people who cant wait#to graduate and never return here#...oof ok im gonna go take a bath Goodbye#sugarenia talks#sugarenia diary#sugarenia has friends#sugarenia doesn't have friends
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esteemed tag readers, this is what i was alluding to last post. making a full-on original character again after however many years and personally i think ive made some major artistic strides these past few months, including while i was drawing him, that helped these feel fulfilling to work on (though also the fact that i was struggling with sleep at the time probably was a factor). havent really settled on a name yet, but his concept is "cursed werewolf except the curse is something else". i decided the "something else" was fire and his goal is, by some means or another, to rid himself of it
oh by the way the one looking up probably isn't him ultimately but it was the drawing that kicked off the session where i drew most of these so i thought it should also be here
#my art#original#my ocs#samsung notes#sketch dump#... i dont really know the proper procedure for warning tags. in any case i hope this will do#cw smoking#smoking cw#marked this as mature bc i will be frank i was feeling a bit 😳 drawing him but there are no bits or anything#hes shirtless on account of the whole fire werewolf thing but he always has pants or he simply isnt drawn far enough down for it to matter#im trying to be a bit cautious since i dont normally post things that might be suggestive is what im trying to say#and i dont think im exactly the best judge of whether or not it may be given that i am considerably biased in my perspective#werewolf oc#werewolf#sorry there isnt any like full werewolf form art here. still learning and the drawing i had felt too goofy to bring out. he deserves better#also the last ones were done with a pen bc ive been trying to be a bit more decisive with my sketches#also 2: please pardon the wacky formatting bc im gonna be real i dont think theres any way id like to set this up that isnt also obnoxious#i drew these a week ago as of when this goes out and ill be real theres a lot thats worn off about the sketches themselves to me#but in terms of the skills and techniques i got more comfortable with through them? very satisfied#trying to stop leading with the head when i draw and instead start with the body or a hand and its helped a lot with posing#edit: after some deliberation... yeah im taking off the mature label i think i overthought this. as always though like. ask box is open#need a tag? send in an ask or something. ill consider it and see if we can sort it out
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#time isnt feeling real btw.#my birthdays in like 3 days . its on sunday someone do the math 4 me thanks#n like . i have othing fucking planned. my mental health is in Shambles. my finances are i Shambles#and Yet . i am living like noyhing is Wrong .#centre of a hurricane and im making daisy chains essentially.#im 22 soon n thst doesnt even feel real#i get older n every year my birthday feels Less and Les and i dont actuslly likenthar um hello?????#no?????#anyway i soent like . 4hrs cleanjng today. its looking prrsentable. i plan to attack my bathroom n lounge room Properlu tmr#So Atleast . if sll plans fail i can have ppl over and not worry abt . being judged fkr the state of my house :/#bedroom will be locked fromcthe inside (aj#aka smth heavy jus pushed against the dkkr so no one can get in#bc it reeks n its messy.#i did 4 loads of laundry + 2 more to go in the maxhines.#and i still have 3 baskets worth of clothes to wash 🥴🥴#if my bedroom isnt like . clean by tmr night i am judt sgifting my clothing hanger to . behind the coucb#so at least thrn i can keep moving w what i want / need to do#naso . if i have ppl over ill feel less weird w them looking at my clothes if theyre . whrre i plan ro move them to?#bc then i can just throw a blanket ove rit and literally . were good as gold .#side note i jus realised that if . i shut my bedroom door inside . ill have to possibly climb through the window to get in /out#fuck .#alrighto.#ill have to climb out anyway. but ill make jt light enough that i can open it with s rlly hard shovw yknow?#if not . window !
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