#it's your number host

[fledglingmaster]

Clairaudience

Bonjour! This might read a tad janky, but this feels like the place to post this as it concerns my host and his demon. This is Bleu by the way. Hi!

I'm going, "how does he do that?" As if a demon/vampire (not sure how he'd identify these days, given how my host is I'm leaning towards demon) that is in spirit form (for lack of better words) couldn't drop a few signs here and there.

My host, more so than I, tends to notice things in songs. Or meaningful songs come on at the exact right moment and play in the background. He's into that psychic stuff. Not that I don't believe in it myself, I mean I've witnessed things...it's just not my cup of tea. I didn't inherit that gift from my mother. But my host will hear a song and a certain line might stand out as if it's louder when it's not. Or he'll hyperfocus on a song because something is urging him to listen. It's like someone tapping him on the shoulder insistently and going, "hey pay attention right now!" I believe it, I know how it is for him, but I don't usually experience such things.

As I say this, when Sebastian has a message, even I feel like I'm being beamed in the face with it. The first time it happened was when I was co-fronting and my host was drawing. I asked him then, "is this what it's like for you?" I don't think it was coincidence that when he was working on a piece that dealt with his past, we both heard, "I'll be there as soon as I can. But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before." My host was so casually, "yeah that's Sebastian." Umm...I'm sorry this is fucking weird. It was like someone screamed those words in my ear. I mean the presence I felt, the line, I think I had my first ghost experience while (co)fronting.

I don't know how to interpret that message. Does that mean he's still stuck in the time loop? Does that mean he will manifest at some point in this life? If he manifests...I'm assuming he will come into someone's system. It would be really cruel for him to be human born and what? When he finally gets to be my host's current age my host would be in his 60's? No, we had two tragic lives, third time's a charm, right? I would think ideally, he'd manifest in our system. But I'm not sure if there would be issues with that. I know my host already has stated he'd rather not bind Sebastian to a human vessel and this one...it's not in the best shape. But enough on that...

I've been fronting since the whole dog thing yesterday more or less. I have random music on, kind of letting it do its own roulette sort of thing. We've been listening to Sleep Token since the beginning of the month. They were a band that happened to play, and we liked them. One of those 'suggested for you' type of things. My host really felt 'The Apparition' fit his situation well. Had a good cry about it and everything. So, this band neither of us knew existed until around a week ago, this song has my host an absolute mess. That is his new song. He loves it, it feels like his heart is being ripped out, lovely. (Oh my god...I can't some days with him...at least he's letting himself cry.)

There are probably many songs we haven't heard from the band but a new one, for us, came up today. 'Are You Really Okay?' This time I'm fronting but I felt how my host was feeling before that, and I know his mental state is poor. This was one of those stand out songs in a personal way. I did a look around the room and asked if it was Sebastian. Right after that song 'The Apparition' played and that felt like Sebastian confirming it. Now, me being the healthy skeptic I am, I had to look up albums and that is the order of the songs on the album. One could say logically that's why it played in that order. Though I find it interesting that we've listen to this band as well as other bands mixed for hours, probably a few solid days' worth and the first song never was played. As I'm attempting to be hopeful but I'm still doubting Motionless in White's 'Eternally Yours' plays next. Okay, I get it, it really is you. This is so freaky.

Anyway, host, Sebastian says you can't harm yourself. So, listen! You'll get over this rough patch. By the way, our likes are at 555, I know you like those angel numbers.

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Outdrawn

f/f contemporary romance

two cartoonist who’ve been rivals since uni, and now have competing webcomics online, have to work together on the relaunch of a cult classic at the comic press they both work at

they both struggle with art-related physical and mental health issues, and complicated families

[gossip-girl-co]

so.... tua season four.

[sadaveniren]

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[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

Psst...

IT'S WES BORLAND WEDNESDAY

[aurosoulart]

the GREAT PATREON SMUSH

I was going to make an advertisement for this with bright colors and maybe animated sparkles but 1) I hate making ads and 2) we are all so exhausted by bright ads vying for our brain chemicals that I just don’t want to do that to you anymore!!!! I’m TIRED of things grabbing for my attention in an unending assault on my senses and I’m sure you are too!!!!!!!

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because capitalism sucks, we’re in a recession, and I’m lucky enough to have a full-time job that allows me to make art without being reliant on Patreon income. anyone who has sat in on one of my livestreams knows that I try to be a calming force in an often-chaotic world, and that I’m always looking for ways to make art more accessible to everyone. I want my Patreon to be a place where I can give back to those who are supporting me in this mission!

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[turbotrout]

i had a dream i divorced from gmail.... my dreamself has so much ambition

[opalai-pixel-witch]

Just me and the Jackbox men who live in my mind rent-free ♡

I felt like drawing something weird and doing something different with the eyes for whatever reason

[jortoise]

I will never understand ppl who are casual library haters. I’ve talked to people about how my siblings and I would always go to the libraries for their activities and programs, how we would rent dvds when we didn’t have cable or streaming, and they’re just like “oh yeah I never went to libraries I don’t like reading/ I just buy books” like girl you are devoid of whimsy I have my library card MEMORIZED we are not the same…

[jattendschaton]

Genuinely, where are ML people congregating these days. None of the Discord servers I'm in are super active anymore and I barely see people in them posting about new episodes/specials and definitely not as they're airing. Where is the new episode camaraderie

There used to be so many active Discord servers and groups on Tumblr/Instagram who talked about where to find links for whatever was coming out and livestreamed episodes themselves and went crazy while watching them all together and I can't tell if this is something that has gone by the wayside fandom-wide or if I am a loser who just isn't invited to be part of these things

[colorisbyshe]

i think if i got an invite to someones place and they told me to supply my own beverage i would just not go

because what do you mean you don't have any liquids on hand to offer me....

[knighteclipsed]

valter mun being silly and changing things :larachel_teehee::sparkles:

which is my silly little way of saying i'm updating valter's age haha. (and by consequence also selena's but by significantly less). deets under the readmore.

tl;dr is that i've thinking about it recently and as i grew more acquainted with "yeah he's 28 now innit" (he was 26 on arrival) my brain went "but what if older tho.?"

so after enough wobbling about, here's the updated numbers (reflected on his muse page):

birth year: 778 -> 773 (Magvel calendar) year of enlistment: 796 -> 791 (i.e. no change in age of enlistment, 18) moonstone status attained: 20 -> 23 years old cursed lance moment: 22 -> 26 years old (net increase of 1 year) exiled: 23 -> 27 years old (exile +1 year in length; returned at 30) death(?)/joining TOA: 26 -> 31 years old current age: 28 -> 33 years old

as you can tell, he was low-key fucked before. (he still is just slightly less now.)

33 just felt like a good number idk don't ask why i picked it (i modified the years after the fact X9c)

also, selena's updated numbers (also on her muse page):

birth year: 781 -> 780 (Magvel calendar) enlistment: 800 -> 799 (i.e. no change; to overlap a year with valter's tenure in the Imperial Three) death/joining TOA: 23 -> 24 years old current age: 24 -> 25 years old

it's literally just a year, but yeah. anyways. would put that extra year into the time spent before she became the Fluorspar as well.

oh yeah, i don't intend to change how i've been rp'ing either of them as a result of this change! however, if adding some sums to those numbers changes anything for you dearest muns of the toa community, feel no shame in reaching out and letting me know--i'm more than happy to accommodate!

ok kano eepy eepy out:sungals::sparkles:

[fromthedeskof-darkiplier]

No call needed, Zaza, everythings good, I just got. Heavily lost. I dunno how to drive after all, but I made it work. If anyone screams its them seeing me show up :) -Quill

Oh, Quill, thank God...

...Wait.

With all due respect, dear, why are you driving? Was nobody available to bring you here?

-D

[ask-serendipity-sky]

All this anon happy that jimin dad put an event for tae solo and joon bday but he didn't do those for rm or yoongi solos this winter/spring

I mean maybe those genius should think that the events maybe were organized because everyone noticed that he was doing them only for jk&jm and he thought that he shouldn't put to much attention on them and decide to organize events for other members too ._. Im not saying that he don't like other members he was just probably biased

Hello,

There are so many possibilities. For all we know, he placed the names of the members in a hat and picked out 3 and those got events lol

It's funny how this has become a thing now. I don't remember ever noticing this in the past.

For me, it doesn't matter. But for solos, every thing that is not a jikook exclusive matters...a lot!

Thanks for sharing.

[cocajimmycola]

DISTRAUGHT

[justhereforwritingthings]

the part of being an exchange student that no one tells you about is when another exchange student arrives late and then their host parents just Decide that you are the person they should be asking questions to such as why their exchange student is sick and i just....