#it's not even about school work this time. gdi.
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i love it when i get possessed by the urge to do something and i feel like i must do it right away Or Else
#it's not even about school work this time. gdi.#i was talking to a friend at school about lost media in general and fanfiction in particular#and realized that i haven't backed up fics from my bookmarks in years#and now i feel the need to Immediately wade through a backlog of fic at 11:00 PM.#i am not going to do that.#but also i do have a small archive of my own but half of it isn't sorted#and that will cause problems bc my backups are all pdfs and i'd like to have epub versions as well.#so. now i gotta trawl through all that shit. and get epubs of any fics that are still online. (i don't Have to but brain demands-#-i be thorough. so. i guess that's on the list.)#so now i have a summer project i guess. i'll be backing up fics in general but sorting and making redundancies for fics is the goal.#granted it's only fic i enjoy and a personal archive on my own hard drive to preserve my own tastes.#but it still feels important.#i need to set up an extra gmail account too so i can store them on google drive for some additional external storage.#sorry this is really rambly i just am Possessed by the need to do this and uh. i have work at 8 tomorrow morning lol#but downloading and backing up fics i like is very important to me. the next goal is to track down ones i have on my other devices and ensu#e that i have them.#i have. a problem. it's fine
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TAG GAMES!
i’m so behind on all of them so i’m putting them all together
mention your ten favorite characters from any media - tagged by aki @tanchirou ♡
sugawara koushi (haikyuu)
nakahara chuuya (bungou stray dogs)
yor forger (spy x family)
kuroko tetsuya (kuroko no basket)
roy mustang (fullmetal alchemist)
kugisaki nobara (jujutsu kaisen)
hyakuya mikaela (owari no seraph)
chigiri hyouma (blue lock)
fushimi saruhiko (k)
nagisa shiota (ansatsu kyoushitsu)
choosing was hard gdi. i limited myself to one character from each series and even then i couldn't choose aaaaaa
15 questions for 15 mutuals - tagged by aki again ❣️
are you named after anyone? nope
when was the last time i cried? last week (i was very emotional about my uni ending even though i was cursing it's existence before)
do you have kids? noo thankfully
do you use sarcasm a lot? just a normal amount
what sports do you play/have you played? i have tried many sports but the one i played the most is basketball (before it ruined my life fsgsj)
what's the first thing you notice about other people? face expression
eye colour? brown
scary movies or happy endings? happy endings (i would never choose scary movies lmao)
any special talents? i'm good at remembering dance choreography
where were you born? india
what are your hobbies? watching/rewatching anime, listening to music, organizing stuff
do you have any pets? my catmom era hasn't happened yet
how tall are you? 5 feet only :(
fav subject in school? MATH!
dream job? no job XD but in seriousness, i always dream of working in a cute cafe
currents tagged by tobias @kokushibe ��
current time: 4:30 pm
current mood: in pain
current activity: listening to music
currently thinking about: upgrading my pc
current fav song: QUEENCARD by (G)I-DLE
currently reading: fullmetal alchemist
currently watching: just finished mdzs yesterday. im choosing what to pick up next
current fav character (if any): wei wuxian my beloved!
current wips (if any): there is a sarumi sketch i should colour
picrew tagged by emma @crimsonrosee , tobias @kokushibe and oroshi @silversoulsociety 🥰
i need people to know that i had to use a vpn to make this, why was it blocked for me have no idea. on the other hand, this is a cute picrew so it was worth the effort
tagging (no pressure): @mx-sinisters @ghostbkg @kimdokjas @yyh @princesskazuya @alphonseelriic @fangrui @natsutakashi @yooasobi @nobasmaki @apparently-artless @upperranktwo @kanbayashis @liliumdragomir @vivianvivvia plus anyone who wants to do any of these❤️
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Hils Watches Moonlight Chicken - Ep 2
Doesn't Wen have a job? Wasn't that why he was drunk the day he met Jim. Not sure how he can just sign on to be a waiter like that. Hopefully all will become clear. Or maybe it won't.
Pretty sure they just gave Fourth the same clothes he wore in My School President
So, he's offered to work for this rich family to pay back the money for an item their son broke. Shitty. But to say 'you have to clean the house and then hang out with my son if we're not home' is a bit much. Heart is just going to be annoyed that his parents have basically hired a friend for him, and Li Ming hates Heart for blaming the breakage on him, and is now being paid to hang out with him. It's all fucked.
I bet they end up falling in love :D
I love that because this is only 8 episodes long there's very little build. Fighting over a mop then OH NO OUR HANDS ARE TOUCHING
These two are so damn cute I don't even know what to do
Okay, yeah, there's definitely a story with Wen. Like I know he took the job because he wants to spend time with Jim but what about his other job?
I know how GMM dramas work. Gaipa is definitely going to end up with someone. Probably not Leng though since he appears to have a girlfriend
Ah, I think I see where this is going. Is Heart going to end up tutoring Li Ming in English? THEN they'll fall in love
Wow he got over the whole 'you framed me for something you did and now I have work as a housekeeper for free' thing very fast
I hope there is a cat treat product placement break in every episode
Okay, Wen still has his other job. I'm not entirely sure what that other job is but he has a clipboard so he must be important
I kind of assumed when they had a drunken hookup in the first episode that the plot would be drama based around that. But nope they're just all smiley and adorable around each other.
Congrats, Wen, your love interest's nephew is now also your nephew
GDI I was really annoyed with this whole situation but they're being so adorable I can't be mad. Everyone in this is so cute!
God, he's so earnest and sweet and is a dad to everyone. I love him and I'm definitely not crying
Oh, is the drama going to be around money rather than the hookup? I suppose that does tie in with the relationship between Heart and Li Ming too
Aww, dude, come on. Don't be jealous just because Wen is talking to someone else. Anyone can see that he's into you
ALMOST 40! Earth is 29 years old!
Wen is also a good boy. I look forward to Jim realising he's allowed to be happy
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Why is it that i cannot play a stupid lil app game without thinking of my idiots in it instead of character’s i don’t care about?
*sigh*
Anyways, Modern au where Kakashi wants to be a chef and is thinking about going to culinary school. In hopes of getting some recommendations for a school he’d like to go to he starts working at a small restaurant in his home town that’s run by his best friends dad. It’s nothing huge but it’s cozy.
Kakashi soends his day’s cooking some nice dishes for customers, mostly easy stuff like hot dogs and burgers
Because of the job he soends a lot of extra time with his best friend, Gai, and gets to see him in full work mode, and oh BOY does Kakashi find that hot. Which annoys him because that’s his best friend gdi.
Other fun options: rival for gai: Kisame who works across the street and comes in during his break just to flirt with Gai. Kinda a dick to Kakashi but a generally nice dude so Kakashi knows he can’t just hate him even though they do kinda hate each other.
Dating options: Gai: best friend to coworker to lover.
Yamato: The guy who works at the plant shop next door and always order’s food which Kakashi deliver’s to him with a side of light teasing
Obito: works at the same place as Kisame and is an old childhood friend of Kakashi. The two haven’t talked in years because life took them diffrent ways but being so close they reconnect. Side option of KisaObi for him.
Anko: the over excentric worker from the coffee shop who has rumors spreading about how she teasts poison’s in rude customer’s coffee’s. She doesn’t (that could get her into trouble) but damn she thinks it’s funny. Know’s Kakashi’s order off by heart and STILL screws it up once in a while just so he has to walk over and ask for the correct order because he’s one of the few in town ballsy enough to do it
Shizune: Doctor in training. Love’s the little shop that Kakashi works at because it’s close to the hospital and Kakashi and Gai are super sweet. Always ordering food for her auntie who over works herself and forgets to eat
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well i dont need to go to the doctor but my boss also asked if i couldnt come in later before changing his mind because i was actually bawling my eyes out as a result of even thinking about calling him (thanks brain) so i don’t need to go out tomorrow to my doc if i dont want to
but dear god this is exhausting i also feel like i should be taking notes just in case i do actually smarten up and go to therapy or smth just so I know how fucking bad i can get and not just do the thing teen me did and act like everything was fine so people believed me and nothing happened and i was mad about it bc i obviously still felt like shit but i was able to just act normal enough for me to be left alone i GUESS gdi teen me leading the way for adult me to hide that anything could be wrong right until there is some breaking point last time i left school don’t actually wanna cold quit work though-feels like having no income might not be a great idea <-<
#txts#i do have savings i can fall back on and i can p easily find a new job in my field#just most other places suck ass so....no thanks#option B is i just go start my own company and become independent doing art or smth#idfk i am sleep deprived and tired as i had to point out to myself so i would actually call in sick and not try and go through work#bc that made me less anxious than calling my boss#but i am clinging to the idea of 'hey healthy human intelligence dictates that g#oing over 24hours without ANY rest is a bad idea :D#so dont fucking do that :D'#gonna have to call my dentist when they open and see if i can reschedule my appointment bc ofc the nearest date of tooth removal#is on a day where we are max 4 ppl if i am around at work#and after having a tooth broken out of you which is basically tug of war w/ your tooth vs the dentist#yeah no i WILL go home and SLEEP#every other day we are like 6 to 8 ppl w/ or w/out me#but nope-that ONE day ofc#fine whatever#suits me better bc that means i have a full day off and not just a half day#just needs to happen in that week pls#this better be rant/venting posts over for now tho#bc i am tired and hungry but nauseous but i dont feel like eating anyway which wtf#but also urgh energy required to go obtain food#mind you i have bread at the foot of my bed atm-like its not filling like a good lunch would be#but it is here#i also made chicken&rice like now 5 days ago#i nibbled a bit of that yesterday but now its been out the fridge for a full day#i cant smell so i dont trust it so i can toss that out i GUESS#maybe not the rice tho...but thats dry af anyway...idk maybe i'll fry at least that#so i also feel shit about food waste#i should make a pizza later on#generally a food that sits well w/ me no matter what AND it just has a lot of foods around
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There are a ton of notes on this post but I'd like to speak up for those of us with "scary" mental conditions that cause doctors to try to speedrun through every interaction and ultimately leave us to die.
I personally have DID, or specifically, OSDD-1B (kinda makes me feel like an SCP). Basically, I have a system of alter personalities, but unlike "classical" DID, they're fully aware of each other and of me, and rarely interfere with my memory now that we've gotten good at switching. We work together as a team and my alters have literally saved my life on multiple occasions.
The sheer lack of ANY knowledge regarding even the bare-bones "DID" is among medical professionals - psychologists and psychiatrists included - is terrifying. I often wind up burning through appointment times with doctors who get caught up needing me to teach them what my condition even is or how it works.
I have to seriously explain no, I am not a serial killer, because most DOCTORS assume that DID patients are inherently violent and enjoy hurting people. They never understand that DID and its associated conditions are entirely borne of severe psychological trauma sustained during early childhood out of a desperate need for survival and comfort.
I also have to explain that, in fact, if Alex is the one talking to the doctor, they're actually 90% more likely to have a good, cooperative, successful appointment with me than if I were fronting. However, if they refuse that basic concession that's little different than "If an elder with dementia is having an episode, just go with it or else you'll only scare and traumatize them," with regards to elder-care, then they'll only get a quivering, panic-muted mess with me, or - even worse - they'll wind up meeting Cassandra.
Cassandra puts people in the hospital when she has to. She has taken down men twice my size trying to back me in a corner and physically harm me. In high school, she once beat a violent bully attacking me and my best friend so badly it took 4 17-year-old football jocks to pull her off the bully before she was done making her point about keeping your hands off me without asking permission to touch me first.
If I'm being threatened or harmed directly and intentionally, Cassandra will get aggressive, and if the threat isn't removed immediately or she isn't able to take me out of the situation, she will respond like a cornered animal and attack, and it's 100% the doctor's fault for not listening to my warnings and guidelines on how to handle and approach me. Cassandra's job and entire reason she exists is because doctors have hurt and traumatized me too many times and are officially on her shit list.
The thing is, now that I'm vocally out about my OSDD... doctors now shut the fuck up when I talk. I can never get away from the bigotry and the unwarranted fear from people who don't even really know us, but I can at least use it to force a self-important doctor into a reality check consisting of, "Hey, you're not the expert here, and if you don't listen exactly to what I say, you're putting yourself and everyone in this room in danger."
That's when I see misogynistic faces (and I'm fucking trans and agendered gdi) turn into frightened first-day-of-residency students again. I know they're thinking of shows like Criminal Minds and Law & Order and how scawy DID is on TV. They're thinking of all the psych rounds and classes they bullshitted through because "I'll never have one of them for a patient." I know they're judging me based on characters that weren't even written by writers that bothered to do any research into what DID can actually be like. And honestly, I've grown to anticipate it.
So I let them freeze and let the "Oh shit, it's one of them," wash over them. I'm more afraid of them than they are of me, but if their fear and apprehension forces them to sit down, shut up, and listen? Then that's where we are. I didn't make them neglect their studies, and I shouldn't have to scare them for them to treat and diagnose me humanely and gently, but since doctors on average only truly listen to their patients' complaints for an average of 11 seconds before they start interrupting the patient and stop listening to them, I will use every tool trauma and nature gave me to force my doctors to give me their fucking attention.
This ABSOLUTELY works.
I have used this for many years. Definitely b do it.
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Fourth Wing by Rebecca Yarros My rating: 2 of 5 stars !!!SPOILERS!!!
So this book starts right off the bat with Violet entering this weird death games style initiation to get into war college which is wild, because if you’re in the middle of a war WHY would you start culling your own people? Like surely your enemies are doing their best to cull your people already, why help them along? Like I understand only wanting the best, the strongest, the smartest candidates to ride your dragons, I get that, but surely all those kids that died could have just been reassigned? You can never have too many medics, or too many strategists, or too many literally anything else??? Why is this college so proud of its death count? Y’all are not gonna have citizens left to defend if you kill everyone. Also I find it very difficult to be invested in some of these characters, like I understand the formula of a love triangle and Dain is just so obviously NOT the guy, like he gives me Aspen from the selection vibes, I know he is not going to end up with Violet, so why should I care about their interactions. I know she’s going to end up with that weirdo Xaden, who for stupid reasons wants to kill her. Once again we are at War College, surely we have bigger things to worry about than targeted harassment to the first year whose mother you actually have an issue with. Grow up Xaden. AND THEN IT TURNS OUT HE IS JUST HORNY he doesn't want to kill her he just wants to sleep with her! and speaking of their little love story felt so forced I can't say I'm a fan. The dragons are dope though and literally appeared at the right time because I was about to DNF until Tairn showed up, I really liked him and the other dragons and honestly would have liked a book from his POV instead. The rest of the book was still hella boring but the dragons were cool af! Dain as predicted got old real fast, he was annoying and I mean I get not trusting Xaden but why would you distrust your childhood best friend man? My thoughts are sort of all over the place, Jack Barlowe was annoying as hell and I didn't feel at all back when Violet killed him. Which speaking of what was his problem with her anyway? like it really did feel like he was written just to hate the mc and the author didn't really care to establish why? SPEAKING OF WHICH is Fourth Wing just Acotar and Red Queen mashup fanfiction? I mean Xaden is basically Azreal, and their mind speak thing is very Rhys and Feyre, and then Violet has lightning powers and a dead brother who isn't actually dead? (LAUGHED OUT LOUD AT THAT, i knew they were mentioning dead bro too much for it to be nothing) ALSO how does Violet's chronic disability work exactly? coz it only ever seems to be a problem for plot conveniences and by the end of the book its never even mentioned, surely that isn't how actual chronic pain works? Back to the dragons, I thought it was kind of convenient of Violet to bond with 2 dragons, the first in history to do so okay Mary Sue calm down girlie! like what was the point of bonding with 2 dragons? was it just so they could deus ex TIME STOP their way out of shit? which also begs the question why save Liam's life if you were just gonna kill him in the end? The least annoying character in the entire series and he's dead??? you could have killed Xaden, or Dain? OR ANY OF THE COUNTLESS ANNOYING CHARACTERS in this book gdi! Now that I know Death School is aware of the BBEG it makes even less sense that they're fine with the culling of their people, i hope the bad guys win just because these people in charge have got to be the worst government in existence, and that's saying something, I live on earth! Anyway this gets 2 stars for Violet's 2 dragons the end. (am i going to read book 2? maybe…not anytime soon though) View all my reviews
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I'm not very good at being loved, or loving back, but I'm going to keep trying gdi
I've spent most of my life completely detached from other people; up until 2012 or so, I even fit the diagnostic criteria for schizoid personality disorder. I'm just now learning what it feels like to touch someone else's soul and let them touch mine. Even with the friendships I've had for a decade, I have only recently begun to truly understand what it is to be loved and to love someone else. It's terrifying and beautiful.
I read about schizoid personality disorder when I was maybe 14 years old, and even then I thought it was an eerily apt description of what was going on in my mind. To clarify, the criteria for SPD from the DSM-5 are as follows (American Psychiatric Association, 2013)
A persistent pattern of disinterest from social interactions and a limited variety of expression of emotions in a close personal settings, starting in early adulthood and there in an array of contexts, as shown by at least four (or more) of the subsequent:
neither wants nor likes close relationships, counting being part of a family
almost constantly picks introverted activities
has little if any, thought in engaging in any sexual experiences
seldom derives pleasure from any activities
has no close friends other than immediate relatives
appears apathetic to the admiration or disapproval of others
shows emotional coldness, detachment, or flattened affectivity
This described me to a T. I wouldn't seek out relationships of any kind, and I put no effort into deepening or even maintaining the ones that formed incidentally through school or work. My favorite activities were those that didn't require socializing--playing the piano (as a soloist), reading, and video games (before online playing was a thing). I didn't care about sex and sexual relationships (still true; different reason). My only close relationship was with my sister, and even she didn't know 75% of what was going on in my head. I didn't care about other people's opinions of me, because I thought other people were completely irrelevant. And even the activities I liked best rarely made me feel any kind of long term pleasure because I was just so... disconnected. Dissociated. I felt completely hopeless constantly and questioned if a life like mine was worth living.
Things started changing a little bit when I got into writing fanfic and participating in fandom. That was the first time I found myself enjoying being part of any kind of community. I started to make friends with people in the same fandom circles as me, but they weren't just incidental friendships based on proximity--they were based on shared interests. For the first time, I had friends that I would actively seek out instead of being totally indifferent to whether they were around or not.
I started weekly therapy when I started grad school in 2015, then added various kinds of group therapy as time went on. And after the first 2 years of this, it became very apparent that I did NOT have schizoid personality disorder. What I had was abandonment trauma, chronic depression, and severe PTSD from my frankly horrific childhood. I had built walls around myself that were so thick that no one could hurt me. I was in a state of near-constant dissociation, fueled by increasingly severe self harm, to escape the incredible amounts of pain I'd suffered and had never been able to take the time to process.
Schizoid personality disorder has no known causes and no concrete treatment. When I thought I had that, I felt like I could never change, so there was no point trying to. I felt like I was damned to this kind of half life forever. But PTSD, depression, and abandonment trauma were things that I could change, at least I'm theory. That gave me hope. Maybe there was more to life, and maybe I could have some of it.
Once I realized all this, I started working on the long, slow process of tearing down those walls and finally processing the old, festering pain.
Friends, it has been a Very long, Very slow process.
Dissociating from the pain didn't make it go away. Tuning back in means that now I'm feeling it. It's not great, in fact, it's been pretty fucking terrible. I cry a lot. I'm angry a lot. I scream into my pillow a lot. I've cut down on self harm dramatically, but there are still times where being in my mind hurts so much that I get desperate enough to do it. Or desperate enough to knock myself out with drugs or alcohol. Because god, I went through some Bad Shit. I went through it alone. I went through it silently. And then I carried it with me for a lifetime as it slowly rotted into something more toxic and dangerous than the original pain. A cut on the palm of your hand hurts. But if you don't take the time to clean it immediately, it gets infected, and then it hurts a lot more. Then it leads to sepsis, maybe even to amputation or death.
I have come so close to death from this infection. Cleaning the wounds is slow and painful, but at least I'm no longer getting sicker. Now at least I'm starting to recover.
The defensive walls have been a little easier to work through, but not much. I often feel like an abused dog that learned to see all humans as equally and inherently dangerous. Like that poor dog, when I meet someone new, I'm afraid to take the chance that maybe THIS person is actually ok and not dangerous. How can I tell the difference? What if I'm wrong and get hurt again? What if I get hurt so badly this time that I can't recover from it?
But sometimes, somehow, I DO get up the courage to take that chance. I used to think it's because I'm stupid, but maybe it's because I'm hopeful. Fine line between those two things. But I think I'm hopeful.
I am hopeful because sometimes when I take the chance and let down my guard, I am rewarded with joy and...love? I am rewarded with feelings I didn't know existed. I am rewarded with something that makes me think that this life is absolutely worth living. I am rewarded with the things that I only barely thought possible.
Sometimes I do get hurt, though. And in those moments, I flinch back behind my walls. I castigate myself for being foolish and trusting people when I know all people are dangerous. But then, eventually...I let down my guard for someone else.
You see, I have to remember that I have never been hurt so badly by anyone that I couldn't recover from it. Even as a small, helpless child I survived terrible things. I survived everything they threw at me, even when I was powerless and alone.
And now? I am no longer powerless. I am no longer alone. I am no longer small and helpless. If I survived those terrible things back then, I can certainly survive anything now.
So I am hopeful.
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on the one hand i really want to go to vet school because there’s so much more i want to learn and i’m not happy with where my education currently is - but on the other hand i am so fucking lucky to work in an environment where people actually prioritize your wellbeing over the job because every single person respects that we’re all human beings over whatever the clients need and i’m reluctant to let that go
like i’m not saying everyone at my job is my bff, absolutely fucking not, but there’s respect
when we thought my cat was dying back in june and i said i was going home to be with him i was told it was fine and given condolences rather than told ‘erm actually-’
when i’ve struggled getting things done and with time management i’ve been pulled aside to discuss ‘what can WE do to help YOU’ rather than just told ‘idk just do better’, working with my supervisor and section head to develop tools to help me be more successful; one of the biggest things i get nagged about is never asking for help when i need it and being behind as a result - because i struggle with time blindness as anyone with adhd understands. but i’m not told ‘just do better’, i’m told ‘ask for HELP - we’re a team, if you have too much to do then reach out to people who can help you’
when things don’t work out - like a few weeks ago i asked for help from someone above me because i didn’t have time to set all the tests i needed by 5, but she then had to leave early to pick up her kids and lost track of time herself - she was apologizing profusely both that day and the subsequent day, and i said it was totally fine because i genuinely didn’t mind! i don’t mind staying a bit late to finish everything, because i know my job is *actually important PLUS i like knowing i did everything i was supposed to myself, i just, like i said, get nagged about not doing that lol (but this time since i DID ask for help it just didn’t work out i wasn’t nagged lol)
and the whole reason i get nagged is because our supervisors get in trouble if we have to work overtime, the administration doesn’t want anyone staying late or putting in extra work, and i have never had anyone even suggest unpaid overtime; except, in fact - me. because i get frustrated when i have like 5-10 minutes of cleaning left to do at 5 and my supervisor demands i leave instead, because i don’t want to leave that stuff undone until the next day because i’m almost finished and i’m on a roll working and i get irritated knowing i have to leave it undone when gdi you don’t even have to pay me just let me finish for fuck’s sake 🤬
i’m given respect as a human being first and an employee second, i actually have a tendency to stick around and show up even when some other people would probably go home/stay home (because after dragging myself through college and working in a research lab with grad students helping with their projects where i thusly experienced Grad School Lite) because i’m used to working through not feeling so great because ‘things have to get done’ and i still get pestered with ‘are you sure you’re okay and don’t need to go home?? okay, just let me know if you do -looking at me like they don’t think i should be here given how i said i’m feeling but not going to push me-’
i’ve actually been forced into going home multiple times before because i was trying to stay and they put their feet down saying i was clearly unwell and weren’t going to let me hurt myself
and i do the same for my coworkers - when someone is unwell i check on them, when someone needs me to take something for them i do so happily (well, i often fake-groan then go ‘yeah np!’ bc i am funny, thank you 😌), and when something genuinely serious happens (like a year and a half ago someone’s son died in a car wreck) i’m right there with everyone else organizing how we’re going to handle things without them while they deal with irl stuff and no one complains about their absence (not truly, maybe lightly or jokingly but not genuinely upset with them for not being there)
i’m not a particularly ‘professional’ person because i am the way i am and don’t feel like putting on a mask every day of my life to ‘move ahead’ in life, i’ve thought on it and i’d be more miserable playing pretend every day but having more money than being genuine and having less financial security; but i respect people as people and respect people as authorities when they prove competent in what they claim to have authority in, and **for the most part everyone here does, so i give respect back
we’re not besties or friends for life and i would never think that - but my coworkers are decent human beings who recognize what really matters, and so is admin, and i’m reluctant to let go of that
*i work in veterinary diagnostics! you know how if you take your pet in with an issue and they say ‘we’ll take a sample and send it to the lab to test for xyz’? we’re the lab :) just last week i was asked if a test result was ready yet and asked to scan it in asap bc the patient was in urgent care and they needed to know the result before proceeding with treatment. so i have no problem staying half an hour late every now and then because i started running behind in order to make sure everything gets set, because these results are actually important! but admin gets onto me when i do that so lol
**no offense to my supervisor, but i’m more scientifically-minded and smarter than her in regards to this stuff lol, she’s better at the management stuff so i have no desire to take her job, but while i won’t get into specifics, just, i’m more scientifically-minded than she is and I Can Tell lol
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some b.illy d.unne thoughts that popped in my head when i started this rewatch
my billy definitely was a music listener before he was a music player . he did inherit his first guitar from hank for a reason , though : dad tried to teach him , but the substance abuse made him ill - tempered & impatient so billy eventually stopped asking him for lessons , & learned on his own .
he didn't even finish school , just outright left to help with money by working on the steel mill since g.raham was still very young .
his daddy issues definitely evolved into dad complex as he grew up . he's got a need to have things under control , be a provider & care for everyone without fail .
he craves family , in every human interaction . he was a family man even before ju.lia was born .
g.raham did say he was good at lying to himself . this is very personal , but it's also a result of being an artist : you need to convince yourself , every day , that what you're doing is worth it . that this fulfills you , even when it's painful to take the leap of faith and jump into exclusively making music . hope is an uphill climb .
the only time i see a little bit of freedom of movement in him is when he sings . it's funny , even with c.amila he feels like he needs to pretend which makes me feel so sad . i tell you , this man is a hippie , it's just hidden under all the daddy issues
i NEED stories of the pittsburgh - to - california roadtrip .
" all rockstars are like orphans , searching a connection with the music " .
i love that camila is the only one who can ground him , through gentle honesty . when he's trying to pick a song to show te.ddy , she's the one to stop him on his tracks when he's giving himself too many obstacles .
those eight to nine months they spent playing for free at mcnasty's were probably the most experimental the band ever got . i'm sure they played crazy shit every week and the crowd just ate it up . i need more stories from that time too
i think it's rude that he sleeps shirtless
i kinda need more of g.raham and b.illy being silly disaster brothers . gdi
i also need to know everything about the " seven , eight , nine " sessions .
the fact that his first reaction to cami's pregnancy is to get married - CAPRICORN MOVE !! he's a sucker for structure but also so , so messy . also who tf officiated this wedding
one of his greatest regrets is barely remembering the first tour .
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𝐌𝐔𝐍 𝐀𝐁𝐂𝐒 !
tagged by : 👁️👁️ tagging : 👁️👁️
a — age : 23
b — birthplace : California
c — current time : 9:30 PM
d — drink you had last : ...Water I’m boring
e — easiest person ( s ) to talk to : Is it a cop out to just say my friends generally. Especially a bunch of y’all
f — favourite song ( s ) : Oh gdi it’s so hard to pick especially in the wake of me discovering a bunch of new songs for muse playlists lately — uhhh I got rlly into Ranking of Kings so rn BOY is a bop, Teo - Omoi, also literally the whole Hadestown soundtrack
g — ghosts ; are they real ? : Yes imo! Not every floating speck of dust or creaky door is a ghost tho.
h — horror yes , or horror no ? : Psychological / existential horror ABSOLUTELY yes, I will watch analyses of whatever Local58 copycat is popular atm like nobody’s business. I fuckin hate being jumpscared though and intense gore makes me squeamish so y’know, fun! Literally the only reason I was able to get into ddlc enough to muse Sayori was by watching other people play it and laughing at their overdone reactions to jumpscares lmao
i — in love ? : Nope
j — jealous of people ? : Probably in passing but not actively jealous of any one specific person atm? If that even makes sense
k — killed someone ? : No?
l — love at first sight , or should i walk by again ? : In high school I used to have this rlly pretentious thing about how love at first sight is just infatuation and not actually love. I’m not that insufferable anymore but it’s still a no from me dawg
m — middle name ( s ) : JAYDE, yes my parents did the whole “put in a Y and it’s a unique new name now” thing
n — number of siblings : Two brothers, one older one younger
o — one wish : Anxiety begone please holy fuck
p — person you last called / texted : @fairymint hiiii
q — question you’re always asked : “how tall are you” :’)
r — reasons to smile : CUTE ANIMALS!!! And random acts of kindness!
s — song you listened to last : Looks at my spotify. Oh dear. Angel of Darkness. Really exposing myself and the dp playlist rn
t — top three to four fictional characters : Shinji Ikari, Lucas (Mother 3), and my two feathered scrimblos on here.
u — underwear colour : Black. Also, gross?
v — vacation : I guess my last vacation was for AX? Even though it was literally just me and my cousin crashed in my apartment since it was nearby. If that doesn’t count then I went to Chicago to visit her and work on cosplay stuff a few weeks prior
w — when’s your birthday ? : March 23rd
x — x - rays : I can’t even remember the last time I got an x-ray of like, a major body part, but I feel like I did at some point when I was really young. The last one I got was probably at the dentist but that’s not exciting info.
y — your favourite food : Salmon!
z — zodiac sign : Aries
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Evak Fics - Pining
I’m posting half of this list first because I started it a long time ago and it’s taking me a while to go through all the fics. So I will update with more later.
*** Mutual Pining *** Pining - I might put mutual pining under pining if we don't see much of the other person pining. *** Bonus - The pining is not between Evak
For the anon from this ask.
I will try my best to separate out the mutual pining fics but I think it will be tricky if it's not tagged as that. So bear with me and let me know of any mistakes or fics I missed out on.
. First Posting : 11 July 2021. Under 15k fics. .
******* Mutual Pining *******
Even the Illustrator by eavk (SERIES, 3 fics) - An AU where Even’s an illustrator who draws what kids describe to him for YouTube, and Isak is the smitten father of a six year old with a wild imagination.
Postcards by HedwigsTalons (1k words) - Isak's wall is covered in postcards. Isak is supportive of Even's career and he cherishes every postcard but the long distance relationship hurts.
Feelings Come and Go, But Not With You by ultimatelawrence (1.9k words) - It was meant to just be a holiday romance. A fling. Nothing like love. But now it was six months later and Even was still pining over the angel he had met in Paris.
let's pretend into forever by Bellakitse (2.3k words) - “Let me get this straight,” Even starts. “You lied to your boss about having a boyfriend, told her it was me, and now you need me to go with you to your science nerd dinner?”
i will love you until the very, very end (and you were my best friend) by traumatic (2.4k words) - Isak and Even share something in the cool waters of a spring fed pool that no one, not even their fiancées, could ever understand.
Breathe Me by photographer_of_thoughts (4.5k words) - A high school reunion brings Isak and Even together after ten years, and neither of them can forget what happened when they were both seventeen.
Everything comes back to you by MermaidsandMermen (4.8k words) - Light pining. A dribble oneshot for Halloween, full of fluff and Even and Isak and a tiny pinch of angst. Because we need some Halloween fluff. That's all.
Fuck Tha Police by MacksDramaticShenanigans (5.2k words) - “This,” Eskild said, spinning the photograph around so everyone could see it, “is a picture of the latest piece of vandalism from our favorite little street punk.” he finished with a heavy sigh. They are both cops.
i tried to be strong but i lost it (i knew it was wrong, i’m beyond it) (6.3k words) - Even has a thing for his intern, Isak has a thing for his boss, they're both a bit clueless and their friends just want them to get their shit together.
all I see is you by littlemovie (Lejla) (7.4k words) - “Aren’t you gonna ask me why I’m a bad person?” Isak somehow whined and demanded at the same time. Jonas blew out a breath in amusement, which made the dark curls on his forehead move with his breath. “I’m guessing it has something to do with that guy, Even, from the coffeeshop?”
Addicted by endlessandinfinite (8k words) - They’re both completely, overwhelmingly, and incredibly...addicted. Best friends to lovers.
Calleth You, Cometh I by Kollakolan (8.4k words) - “Isak!” Mikaels pipes up. “Didn´t you two have a thing?” he turns to Even. A thing, Even thinks to himself. Yes, Isak and him definitely had a thing. They actually had a low-key thing going for years, but it never really turned into something more. The timing was never right.
In Vino Veritas by Sabeley (9.9k words) - After seven years apart, Isak wakes up to find Even in his bed and a wedding ring on his finger.
Let Me by GayaIsANerd (10.6k words) - Summer brings a lot of things. The smell of sunscreen. The sound of children playing in the shallow part of the lake. The taste of cold beer. The sweet tang of weed. But most importantly, summer brings Isak.
Something Borrowed, Something Blue by BluebeardsWife (10.8k words) - Fake dating AU, you know the drill. Even hires Isak to pretend to be his boyfriend at his ex's wedding. This Means Nothing to Me by cuteandtwisted (10.8k words) - Isak and Even are friends and roommates who don't believe in love anymore (after they both get dumped by other people) until they do. Aka the Friends/Roommates-To-Lovers Don't you let me go by solarpower21 (12.2k words) - In this universe, Isak and Even are roomates and nothing more. Except that there is something more between them and they both know that but are too stubborn to admit it. Too bad it takes a very unfortunate event for them to face the truth. Burn Down The Disco by TheGirlNoOneKnows5 (12.2k words) - A 'Black Mirror: Hang The DJ' AU in which Isak and Even decide to rebel against a futuristic dating system that pairs users up with various people in order to find their perfect match.
La Petite Mort by EvenbechNeiheim (13.4k words) - Even Bech Næsheim is one of those cool and very hot media students at Uni who might just got the task to make a film project. Eskild is the best wingman and things like accidently falling in love with an asshole media student happen. Based on the FIRST KISS YouTube video that gave the internet an entire meltdown.
when your heart is bleeding, i'm coming to get you by orphan_account (13.5k words) - Isak doesn't exactly expect his hookup from last week to be the love advice columnist at the school newspaper he's working at. He also doesn't expect to fall even harder for him than he already has, which is a shame, really, since Even's crushing on someone else.
Heal My Heart for Christmas by iwritetropesnottragedies (recklesslee) (13.5k words) - It’s been ten years since Isak left his small town for the big city of Oslo with his father. He hardly even thought of his time there anymore. Until he received a letter from his mother asking him to come home for Christmas for the first time since he had left.
Love in the Time of COVID: Battlestar Edition by sweetasmaple (14k words) - Isak and Even find each other again during the COVID-19 lockdown, one Battlestar Galactica episode at a time.
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******* Pining *******
never seemed so alive by retts (1k words) - Nothing special, just four letters strung together to spell out E V E N but they made Isak's heart race and his face blush and his hands tremble.
Hopeless by waitineedaname (1k words) - Light pining. There was no way in hell Isak would be able to talk to Even. He was tall and cool and handsome, and Isak was pretty sure talking to him would make him spontaneously combust.
i could probably just curl up in you. by milominderbinder (1.3k words) - Isak is away at a cabin with the guys when he gets a text from Even. 'hey, babe, did you take my favourite hoodie?' He is, of course, outraged that Even would accuse him of such treachery. The fact that Isak is wearing the hoodie at that very moment has nothing to do with it.
stuck on you (what did i do?) by itjustkindahappened (1.8k words) - It’s not that Even doesn’t try to be friendly with him—Isak just makes it so hard. Whenever Even approaches, Isak either makes up a fumbling excuse to leave, or just becomes really stiff and refuses to acknowledge Even’s existence.
now and forever (i will be your man) by thekardemomme (2.2k words) -Warning for pain. 3 times isak kisses even +1
i be up in the gym just working on my fitness by orphan_account (2.3k words) - Even knows that he's quite literally going to die when he finds his crush sweating on an elliptical, reading a book with his glasses slipping down his nose.
You know where I stay by nofeartina (2.4k words) - Warning for pain. Isak is so beautiful first thing in the morning. When he still has creases in his face from the pillow, when his face is red and puffy from sleep, his hair all messed up and curly. Even prefers this Isak. This is his Isak, this is only for him.
won't you be my livewire by itjustkindahappened (3.2k words) - "i've been tryin to grab your attention in class for over half an hour by poking you and throwing things onto your desk and you're refusing to acknowledge me and gdi all i wanted to do was tell you that you look cute and now it's gone too far and i can't go back"
Cookies and Cream by GayaIsANerd (3.5k words) - Isak has a crush on the barista. He's too scared to do anything about it, but luckily there's a blizzard coming up.
i can feel the weather in my bones by EvenbechNeiheim (3.7k words) - Isak and Even are childhood friends. There’s a boyfriend sweater and Isak is just desperate to wear it.
On the silver screen by Lokkanel (4k words) - Isak was really not in the mood for this. He had a long week at work, and all he wanted was to relax with his friend, drink a few beers, maybe even smoke some weed and just chill. But no. When Jonas called him to say that he won tickets to the coolest indie film festival in Oslo, Isak knew he could forget his plans for a quiet and simple weekend.
I want to love you (in my own language) by fauu_stine (4k words) - “Okay. Maybe I’m not happy,” he admits in a resigned whisper. “Do you need a shrink discussion or a best friend discussion?” "I think- I think it’s more of a friend with benefits kind of talk."
Don't be an ass by Julieseven (4.1k words) - Even really tried to forget about him. It started out as a harmless little crush, really. He saw him at the karaoke bar SYNG one night, singing "I don't want to miss a thing" at the top of his lungs, clearly drunk out of his mind, but looking like an angel with his messy dark blond locks and crooked smile.
Little Black Book by Laika (4.3k words) - Isak Valtersen is studying his third year at the University of Oslo and having the time of his life. Enter Evy Bech Næsheim, straight out of Nissen, in his stockings, mini skirts and bubblegum scented lip gloss.
cracks in our foundation by towonderland72 (4.8k words) - “You know, like a thousand years ago, men used to wear makeup?” Even asks, as Isak gapes at himself.
Safest With You (Green Curtains) by eavk (5.3k words) - Isak keeps staying up too late studying at the library, but luckily there's an escort service that gives students a buddy to walk with to keep safe at night.
the one with the prom video by thekardemomme (5.5k words) - Even has been in love with Isak since they were younger, but he never intended for Isak to find out this way.
Senses by Lokkanel (5.5k words) - Sight, hearing, smell, touch, taste… Or Even falling in love with Isak, one sense at a time.
you're the one i wanna grey with (5.6k words) - They've only been dating a month, so Isak shouldn't be pathetic enough to miss Even this much when he's only gone for a weekend.
Orion's Nebula by thekardemomme (5.6k words) - Light pining I think. Even Bech Næsheim was enrolled in an astronomy class for one reason and one reason only: the cute ass boy he saw standing in the registration line.
with the taste of a poison paradise by chasingflower (6k words) - It’s routine by now. Isak hangs out with his friends during the day and at night he kisses the Dream-Even that lives on the other side of the door in his living room, and basks in the warm fuzzy feelings he gets as a result of the attention. Coraline Au.
How to Get Your Man - A Plan By Even Bech Naesheim by Evakkk (6.1k words) - When Magnus drops a big secret in front of Even... Even comes up with a brilliant plan to get Isak to reveal his true feelings. All it takes is one little lie, and one crazy family reunion.
To Burn With Desire by photographer_of_thoughts (6.1k words) - AU in which Isak and Even are neighbours and Isak's father has a secret job that unintentionally helps Isak realize he's in love with his best friend.
Watermelon Sugar by MermaidsandMermen (6.6k words) - A little tribute to fruit and touching. To sex, and friendships and finding what you were looking for all along. And of course inspired by Harry Styles latest video offering, just because.
The Fake Boyfriend App by Crazyheart (7.2k words) - AU where Isak is desperately pining for his flatmate Even, and downloads a fake boyfriend app to get over him. When he discovers that the Fake boyfriend is a human, and not a bot, he is sceptical.
That look you give that guy by Lokkanel (7.4k words) - Isak and Even love each other in secret. It is almost thrilling at first, but when hiding and lying to their friends begin to take a toll on Even, Isak decides to end it all. He thinks he has taken the right decision, until Even eventually moves on with someone else.
my longing drives me crazy for you (7.7k words) - Isak's mum worries, Isak makes bad life decisions and Even loves Isak. It's a fake dating au.
I'm Always Here by nofeartina (9.3k words) - “Did you know that Even is working this summer? At that pool at the Plaza?” Jonas says. Isak actually sits up in excitement at this. “Fuck yeah!” Oh, a pool. Actual water they could go swimming in and cool down. And also, Even.
a garden for your love by eggsntoast (9.3k words) - He’s learning to breathe with them, even if he ends up with a floor full of violets by the end of it all. They remind Isak of him, and that’s all that matters. That’s what makes it worse. or: a Hanahaki au ft. Isak heavily pining after Even. Lots of angst.
I wrote an angry letter to the void, and the void responded (9.5k words) - Monday comes, and the book is still there. Isak looks around, content to find the floor practically empty, before giving the book the finger. Fuck that book. - a book finds it's way to Isak's sacred study spot. this proves to be a major distraction.
a constant state of closeness by chevythunder (9.7k words) - “What is it about this dude, anyway?” Elias asks. “You’ve barely even talked to him, right?” “I don’t know,” Even says. “I just got this feeling, you know? Just- I want to make sure he’s okay and safe and… stuff.” - It starts with a hug.
Is This Our Time? by Evakkk (9.9k words) - This is a world where everyone is born with an indistinguishable soulmate mark... it only changes into something recognizable, once you have physical contact with your soulmate, and it's always something meaningful to the relationship. Both partners will bear the same mark. Isak is about to turn 18... and he's the only one in his friend group who still hasn't found their soulmate. But what happens when he goes out one night, gets drunk... and wakes up with his soulmate mark?
Is This What You Wanted? by cuteandtwisted (9.9k words) - Isak is filthy rich and Even is a hardworking male model who just got signed to his father's agency. Even gets an awful offer from Isak: one night with him in exchange for money, and begins to despise him. Little does he know that everything he thinks he knows about Isak is wrong.
Just like in the movies by Lokkanel (10.5k words) - As he began taking in his surroundings, Isak realized he was in one of those small theaters that programmed independent and artsy movies, even old black and white films. He was ready to turn around and walk away when he heard a deep voice say, “Halla.”
my tiny heartbeat in his ear by riyku (11k words) - Now, about a week after the longest day of the year, the empty house across the street has stopped being empty. most beautiful things by scarletbluebird (12.7k words) - This fic is a whole ass journey. Warning for pain. This isn’t a fairytale, Isak tells himself. Even is standing at the bend in the road. He looks like a metaphor for immortal life: the youth a god would kill for. Ambrosia eyes, the universe trapped in the curve of his mouth. He looks like every warning from his mother about strangers you run into after dark.
One week by Lokkanel (12.8k words) - This thing going on between Isak and Even, whatever they called it - fuckbuddies, friends with benefits - was simple, fun, nothing more. They were friends, they were both free to do whatever they wanted with other people. They’d just meet and have sex whenever they felt like it. Simple. Until what was bound to happen eventually did and Even fell for Isak.
Plum by Jamz24 (13.2k words) - Femme!teacher!Even asks masculine! plumber!Isak to fix a broken shower on a scorching hot summer day...And if you think it sounds like the start of a porn film you're absolutely right! There's LOADS of smut but ... with LOTS of feelings
Never be the same by nofeartina (14.2k words) - It starts with a bet - one of those really stupid ones: can they last an entire month without any kind of sex?It’s been 22 days – and Even is dying.
Somewhere I’ve never been by MinilocIsland (14.6k words) - The first time Even meets Jonas' best friend, nothing goes according to plan.
If I Should Fall Behind by MinilocIsland (14.7k words) - The plan for tonight had been crystal clear. Stay close to his best friend, and steal her away if needed. Hold her hand through the ordeal of meeting Noora again for the first time in years. Then Even shows up – and suddenly, nothing goes the way it was supposed to.
All I Ever Wanted by MinilocIsland (14.8k words) - Isak is such a good friend. Probably the best there is. How else could he explain that he's agreed to join Magnus to this place deep in the woods for six full days of silence, meditation, and utter boredom? One thing, he knows. There's nothing exciting for him there. Right? Or: the silent retreat AU.
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******* Bonus *******
Season 3: Jonas by Laika_the_husband (WIP, SBB 2021 fic) - There is a scene in the end of the script for season 1, where Jonas and Isak kiss each other on a dare. This story is a retelling of season 3 in a universe, where that kiss happened and completely changed the way Jonas sees Isak. Written in Jonas' POV, the story examines sexuality, love, friendship and coming to terms with never getting the boy you shouldn't have fallen for in the first place.
What the fuck is wrong with me? by notanugget (11.6k words) - The five times isak felt guilty for being in love and the one time he didn’t
thanks for the weed, thanks for everything by evak1isak (13.1k words) - Jokael. Jonas' dealer has moved to Denmark, and Even recommends his friend's weed. What Jonas didn't expect, though, was to develop a crush on a boy, on Mikael.
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******* WIP *******
Baby, why do you have to shine so bright? by Lilacpotter - Even knew he was radiant, and he was used to people always wanting to be around him, enchanted by his captivating words and glowing smiles, as if he was the tantalising sun. But then one day, he comes across someone who shines much brighter than the sun itself in Even’s eyes.
Lonely Hearts Club by EndingsNotTheStory - The Hearts Club. A show run by Isak and his 3 friends. He's kind of had enough with hearing about people's relationship issues and giving advice. Until the guy from his theatre class and Isak's totally not crush Even calls, dealing with relationship issues. pining
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WIP Game of Shame: okay first of all, how am I supposed to only pick a couple because these all sound AMAZING.
Jaskier's goin conspiracy board on his past life
Small god of Kaer Morhen
Hey There Cirilla
Viper!Jaskier
okay now that I'm not mobile I can touch on all this. :3
Jaskier's goin conspiracy board on his past life:
I think in this case you get an excerpt. :3
"He's definitely your ancestor or something!" Maddie told Jaskier with a laugh as she snapped a picture of him posing in front of the large portrait in the Novigrad Art Museum.
"I wish," Jaskier said with a laugh once she'd lowered her phone to post it online. "No one in my family history could ever have been this cool, we'd have long droning stories about them."
They'd come to the museum to get some pictures of themselves with the art, to prove they'd been so they could get extra credit in their art history class, and tucked into some little alcove of the labyrinthine exhibit they had found it. A portrait of a handsome nobleman posing dramatically as his sword pierced the heart of... probably a wyvern. Jaskier had never managed to remember the difference between them and dragons, even if dragons didn't exist anymore and wyverns were still out there, though they were rare. The man looked like Jaskier if he were about ten years older and grew a goatee, which had delighted both of them.
"Maybe it'll go viral and I'll get to be famous for like five minutes," he mused wistfully, while Maddie looked closer at the painting. It had been among a number of works found in an underground storeroom during a construction project years ago, painstakingly restored, and now finally on display in this "art of Medieval Novigrad and Oxenfurt" exhibit.
small god of kaer morhen:
So this is a fic about if a spirit were attached to Kaer Morhen that was essentially like... the guardian/patron of it and the wolf witchers? And I maybe used a conlang builder to make two different conlangs for it and if I ever actually write it I think ppl will enjoy it :3
Hey There Cirilla:
Dadskier! aka the modern AU where Jaskier is Ciri's very loving but kinda deadbeat dad, Yen basically raised her, and both Ciri and Jaskier get ADHD diagnoses and treatment. Jaskier's not REALLY a deadbeat, he's got untreated ADHD and depression, and knew when he was 19 and found out he'd knocked Pavetta up and Pavetta was dead that he wasn't in a position to raise his daughter in a way that would give her the stability and opportunities she deserved, and so he and Yen (her godmother) decided it was best if Yen raised her and Jaskier just visited sometimes, but now Ciri's having trouble in school and needs her dad and Jaskier's determined to figure out how to do better for her.
Features enemies-to-lovers (sorta) Geraskier, bc Geralt initially is under the impression that Jaskier actually IS a deadbeat dad and finds that unacceptable.
Viper!Jaskier:
aka by god still am, my beloved. That one AU where Jaskier was a witcher the whole time but had no memory of it. It was the first proper fic I started in Witcher fandom, and ONE DAY I WILL FUCKING FINISH IT GDI.
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Omega!Bakugou with an Alpha s/o
Anon requested: “Hi I would like to request a omega bakugo x Alfa reader if that’s possible I really enjoy your work but if you have more things to do don’t stress about this request.”
Character: Bakugou Katsuki
Genre: Fluff, ABO universe
Word Count: 549
Tags: @yuki-osaki @liviitehe @iamsoftsodonttoucheume-blog @bunnythepipsqueak
a/n: I couldn’t think of an imagine/scenario to go with this, so I decided to quickly write this as a headcanon instead, if that’s okay with you anon dear! I’m new to writing the whole ABO/omegaverse thing, so I hope this makes sense. I’m keeping this sfw because I don’t want to make this weird or involve anything like that since this is a safe space, but I’ll definitely keep it gender neutral as always.
After this, I have one more LoV request in the works, and then I’ll FINALLY BE DONE WITH ALL MY REQUESTS, BLESS 👏🏼
Buy me a coffee?
-Bakugou would be a pretty bratty/full of himself omega tbh
-this guy was probably like “gdi, how did someone with such a tough quirk like me end up as an omega and not an alpha?!”
-hence, he has an inferiority complex and pushed himself from when he was young to become stronger so he can stand up to most alphas; he was also teased a lot as a younger kid so he’d want to change that
-in high school, he found you as an alpha, only to find out that you don’t have a flashy quirk like he does, probably something low-key or defensive like healing or regeneration
-when you met for the first time, you took one whiff of his scent and smiled genuinely
-“if I didn’t know any better, I would’ve thought you were an alpha” you comment before passing by him in the hall
-it’s true because he’s been working out as much as his omega body can handle
-on the other hand, he’s taken back by how gentle-natured you are as an alpha
-even though you seem like a kind alpha, he notices how your passive presence is still powerful in your little mannerisms: how you fix your hair, how you stand, even how you sit in class so relaxed but still exuding so much charisma and power
-he later finds that not only is your quirk much more powerful because of your alpha status, but your general strength and build is also up to practically god status in his eyes
-at first, he thinks he just admires you, but later he falls hard, because you’re the only alpha who sees him genuinely as an equal to you despite him being omega
-your relationship starts like this:
-bakugou’s grumbling about how he doesn’t seem to be getting strong and how he’s down about being week and never being able to match up to you as always
-and you decide to cheer him up by finally pecking his cheek, sending heat straight to his cheeks
-“katsuki, if I ask you to be my equal, will you be satisfied?”
-all he can do is nod and grumble out a yes
-from then on, you have made it your duty to always build him up
-you love lamenting over the alpha/omega hierarchy and how garbage it is, using both of you as an example
-“You built yourself into an alpha, and I’m so proud of you for that. You were even blessed with a strong quirk as an omega, doesn’t that say something? It proves we’re not that different, other than biology of course.”
-if anyone tries to talk down about, make fun of, bully, objectify/fetishize, etc. Bakugou, god help them; you’re still an alpha after all
-as much as Bakugou hates you defending him, he secretly likes being babied and dominated
-you also decide not to mark Bakugou until he says it’s okay, but he really loves wearing your oversized denim jackets just so your scent comforts him all day, almost as much as you love stealing his hoodies
-the two of you eventually become the power couple of the school as Bakugou uses the strength of your live to go past his full potential
-but let’s just say when he’s in his heats things get spicy
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Codywan Week Day 1!!
Hello! This is my first ever Codywan piece! I hope that I did them a little justice~
The prompt I chose was Fix-It.
Please note that I am not an expert on what happens after a war. i just want them to be happy gdi
Summary: Obi-Wan and Cody argue over baby names a few years after the end of the war.
@codywanweek
https://archiveofourown.org/works/32828329
The war ended swiftly, in Cody's opinion. One moment Generals Kenobi and Skywalker are on their way to rescue the kidnapped Chancellor, and the next the two of them come back without said Chancellor and claim that he was the Sith Lord that they've spent the past two years trying to find. Force, does he need a drink. Maybe Dynamo still has some of his homemade brew left.
So, both Republic and Separatist leaders are out of the equation. Grevious retreated to Utapau, with the 212th in pursuit and the 501st returned to Mandalore to assist Ahsoka and Bo-Katan arrest Maul.
General Kenobi had infiltrated the Separatist base as a distraction, giving the rest of the 212th the chance to slowly advance into Pau City from both sides and take down the droids as they retreated towards where the General was confronting Grevious.
In less than a few hours, the droids in Pau City were reduced to scrap and Grevious was dead. His General, the same man who always said, "Your lightsaber is your life" to his former Padawan, had dropped his lightsaber off a frelling cliff for Cody to find right at the beginning of their confrontation. He had gotten to the fight just as his General used a blaster to shoot lasers into Grevious' chest cavity, permanently killing him.
Cody smiled under his helmet as he held out his General's lightsaber to him. "Excellent job, sir."
"Thank you, Cody." His General smiled gratefully at him as he took back his weapon. Their hands brushed for a brief second and a spark of something traveled up his arm, warming his cheeks under his helmet. "Let's end this war, Commander."
"Sir, yes, sir!"
~
Cody stood next to his General in their makeshift command center in the town hall. They were finishing up coordinating clean up in various sections of the city that had non-functioning droids and collateral damage to homes and other structures.
Intelligence said that the remnants of Separatist leadership retreated to the volcanic planet of Mustafar. General Windu and his troops were on their way there now.
They were recalled to Courasant once clean up was complete and Separatist leadership was arrested. It is honestly a blur of politics and procedure for a long time after that and by the time the dust settled, Cody found himself burnt out and lying across his desk in the office that he shared with his General, who was in a similar position at his desk.
"So, the war is finally over." Cody muttered, rubbing the back of his head.
"Indeed, it is. To be honest, I hadn't expected it to end so suddenly, though I had always hoped it would have ended sooner."
"Now what, sir?"
"What do you mean, Cody?"
"We have been in meetings about the remaining Seppie leaders, new Chancellor, how the Separatist systems will be integrated back into the Republic. But... what about us clones?"
"Oh, you mean... no one has told you yet?"
"No, sir. Told us what?" Cody asked, shaking himself a bit more awake for this, while his General remained slumped over his desk and blindly reaching for a separate datapad.
"My apologies, my dear. That is a mistake on my part." He typed something out on his datapad and Cody's own datapad lit up.
Cody read what his general sent, eyes growing wider and wider, while Obi-wan explained to him. "A few other senators and I have been working on this proposal for quite a while. By next cycle you and the rest of the clones will be free beings. Certainly, the GAR will still exist and you're welcome to stay, but the Republic is sponsoring any job transition, education, and initial housing for any soldier who wants it. I know it won't be an easy decision, but-"
"General, us clones have had a long time to think about what we want to do. 'When the war is over' is like a prayer and promise. We've all decided what we're going to do a long time ago." A pause. "Well, except for the shinies, of course. But now, thanks to you, they have time. If they want to go out to explore the galaxy, they can. If they want to begin an education, they can. If they want to stay here, they can. I... I can't thank you enough for that, General." During this speech, Cody had stood up and walked over to Obi-wan's desk, kneeling in front of his chair so that they were nearly eye to eye. "And I, for one, will be right here, by your side. I will be here for you, no matter what, until you no longer want me around."
"I will always want you around, Cody. Trust me on this."
"Alright, fine. But believe me, we know what we want, and thanks to all of your hard work, we can have that. So, thank you, Obi-wan." Then, he pressed his forehead up against Obi-wan's and they stayed there, just for a bit.
The war was over.
~
Four years later
"What about Mara?" Cody suggested from his place at the dining table, a list of baby names open on his datapad.
"Mmmm, no, that's not it either." Obi-wan hummed from his place at the stove.
A month after the war, the Clone Rights Act was ratified into law, giving every clone trooper citizenship within the Republic. Some took off to the stars and never looked back. Some found jobs on other planets. A vast majority decided to stay in the GAR, and were given a salary and benefits befitting of the protectors of the Republic. A good amount enrolled in a variety of trade schools. In fact, while Obi-wan resumed being a Jedi Master, Cody moved into his own apartment a mere five minute's walk from the temple and began taking classes alongside a few of his fellow clones.
About two years after the end of the war, Cody completed school and earned a position with a reputable security company, and finally began to make his own credits. For the first time in his life, he had his own credits to spend as he pleased. He could open a bank account and start saving up for… whatever he wanted. He’s already imagining spending the rest of his life with Obi-wan.
Speaking of Obi-wan, the two became an official couple on that last night of the war, in their shared office. Between Cody’s schoolwork and Obi-wan’s duties as a master of the Jedi Order, they don’t have much time together besides sleeping together in Cody’s apartment. But they make it work because they have time now.
Present day, they’re getting a second bedroom ready for a tiny baby girl. Because a family was something Cody and Obi-wan began to want three years into their relationship. The mother of this child had previously decided to put her up for adoption and they were finally, finally, bringing her home in a few short days.
However, they still haven’t chosen a name for her.
“We need to choose a name soon, darling. Or at least have a list of names to choose from, but you reject every name I suggest.” Cody complained.
“I’ll know the right name when you say it, my dear.” Obi-wan reassured him, taking the pot off the stove and smoothly dividing its contents into two bowls.
“What if I just read off names until you hear the right one?” Cody joked.
“That will take a while, maybe even until she gets here.” Obi-wan smiled, bringing the two bowls over to the table. Cody locked the datapad, guided the two bowls to the table, and stole a kiss.
“I’m fine with that if you are.”
And he was. Because they have time.
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(Your lovelies with my Naruto Muses)
@historias-multorum Oh man look- LOOK YOU UNLOCKED ONE OF MY SECRET MUSES AND NOW I HAVE TO EVENTUALLY MAKE A BIO! But really there so many horrible ships and interactions i want with you and just- 👌
Pairings under cut.
DoYoung Jangnim Pairings:
Izuna Uchiha- I just love the thought of her hating these people so damn much but they seem to surround her. Like she can be extremely pissy about them but we all know these Uchiha are growing on her.
Itachi Uchiha- Hey they share a work buddy, even if Do kind of disrespects Kisame. She at least has the balls to do it in his face. He'd be constantly amused by her horrible antics. Why is this hoblin woman handing me food? Where did that even come from?
Karin Uzumaki- Hey sis what's up 👋. Uzumaki shenanigan's. She will drag Karin into chaos. Science sounds cool, but putting it into practice would probably blow Do's little brain. Hunting for old man Ga as a bonding experiment and it ending with them kicking him while he's balled up on the ground. Look I live for these girls.
Madara Uchiha- Pure sin tbh, it would be so damn Toxic. Like "Ah an Uzumaki mixed woman- for FWEEEEE?!?" Shes gonna try to fight him a lot ngl. "Look me in the eyes when we talk motherfucker." The actual audacity- but also she will literally look him in the eyes and you gotta respect that.
Yuho Inuzuka pair's:
Hana Inuzuka- Same clan! Dog- so many dogs. Hana waqtching Yuho lay on the floor and cry because one of her students called her old. Winter trips to Kumo please!!!
Sasuke Uchiha- "I remember you being a sad motherfucker in school. Wanna go see some puppies, you probably need it." Will bring him fizzy drinks and listen to his problems.
Ichiban Hyuuga pair's:
Hinata Hyuga- Same clan and same branch. She's probably run into him a few times before being steered away. Ichi was a giant Hyuuga heart throb with a shitty past and a love for his baby sister, that's right up her alley. "I can fix him I swear 🥺"
Tsunade- A bit of an age gap but he's perfectly fine with that. Tsunade beating his ass and dragging him back to the village kicking and screaming would be HILARIOUS! "Mommy, I'm sorry- Mommy?"
TenTen- She deserves so much. Here have a Hyuga Tens, you deserve it. Them meeting when he's all busted and bruised would be such a classic movie moment.
Karin Uzumaki- It would be kinda Toxic, he's a bit daft and that would result in some smacking. Them meeting while in the land of tea and he's just fucking awe struck. Is the equivalent of a golden retriever.
Sook Ga Uzumaki pairs:
Tsunade- Look, I'm not saying he'd be a simp but- he'd simp. Them working on recording Uzumaki scrolls and techniques that are dying out. Tsunade helping him with smithing when he can't wear his prosthetic sounds bad ass.
Izuna Uchiha- He approached first and it left an impression LOL. Uzumaki's x Uchiha's is a winning mix lets be real. Sook is old enough to know about Izuna so seeing this fucker has him confused, he doesn't ask though because he's a good boy gdi.
DoHwang Jangnim:
Hinata Hyuga: she's so tiny and shy, he loves that. Gentle woman, kind woman, will rip your throat right out though- he's impressed. Hwang is extremely pretty, but very blind. Them walking arm and arm and her describing the sky and he's just swimming in her words. Very slice of life and fluffy.
Karin Uzumaki- They share Uzumaki blood. Karen restoring his eyes and that being a huge ass moment between them because she's the first thing he see's. Him sneaking her little gifts when he's in the area from his missions. 10/10 would court like a princess.
Itachi Uchiha- Blind big brother issues. Might have a lot more in common than they think with Hwang being a retired Hunting captain. There will be some outrage from Hwangs side because he would never push his sister to revenge for his own selfish need to die. Will be willing to work through that with the other man though.
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