#it's mostly rambling

[felixxthefrog]

i wish i could escape her.

i wish i could escape her, but i know i can't. i've never been able to.

i see her face every time i look in the mirror.

i see her in the way my eyes glow in the sun, and the softness of the curls that hug my face.

her cheeks mimic mine, and the frown lines between our brows are shadows, photocopies of each other.

i glance at my chin and the squish that lies beneath it - for a moment a see a flash of her nails clawing at her own throat, and her frustrated groans are once again ring sharp in my ears.

"god it's horrendous," it echoes, "i need to lose weight."

it's her hand that guides mine to my stomach to prod at the fat that has accumulated since i got married;

her fingers that snatch the sweets out of pantry to chuck them in the bin;

her hunger pangs that keep me gazing longingly at the fresh buttered tortillas i crave and deny.

it's her grip that straightens my shoulders when i slump forward in exhaustion;

her ever-scrutinizing gaze that makes me reach for the dainty nude heels over the bulky, chunky, spiked, black leather boots that i want to wear so desperately;

her unnerving stare that makes me put back the short shorts and reach for the tea-length dress.

her quiet words still cut deep,

"do you seriously have stretch marks?" and i know she really means 'you were supposed to be better than me.'

her disdainful stare stabs through my chest when i attend dinner with fire truck red hair and a slit in my brow

her opinions ricochet off the walls of my brain "stretched lobes are so ugly, i just think they're horrible." as i gaze longingly at the ornate gold gauges that i reluctantly scroll past.

as much as i abhor every moment she influences who i am, i cannot escape her.

when i passingly mention transness, i feel it in my soul. i feel everything she does, everything she says, everything she has ever said and will ever say.

her hands stretch down my throat and tear my vocal chords from their place when my aunt mentions politics, and they tear my ribs out of place to shred my lungs when she asks me why i haven't gone to church recently. she unthreads my veins from under my skin when she points at the spot that appeared on my cheek this morning and digs her nails into my heart when she tells me she wishes i wouldn't dress like that.

my mind screams and cries begging for her approval, and i know, i know i will never receive it, i know she will never care enough, i know i will never be enough

i know that her god will always and forever fill the place in her heart where i am supposed to be, and i know that her fear and insecurity and compulsion to stick with the status quo will overshadow any beauty that resides within her, and as such within me, but

it

still

hurts

like

hell

and i cannot escape her.

i wish i could escape her.

[agnesmontague]

devastating news for the discourse poster: “media literacy” in the modern age includes the ability to identify which posts are bait

[flame-shadow]

hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???

i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)

[fox-guardian]

"maybe if i dress more boring i'll get gendered correctly by strangers" that's the devil talking

[trans-rights-coastalmangoes]

guess we're not 3 guys

[dootznbootz]

Sorry, not sorry but I see this too often and it bothers me :)

Before people get mad: Notice how I put “Me and Penelope fans” there? I know there's others. this ain't about you <3

edit: This is about how people in the fandom prioritize Odysseus and Telemachus (and even Diomedes, who is not in the Odyssey) despite the Odyssey also being HER story as well. I've seen many fics about Odysseus and Telemachus in their youth, and never really seen that for Penelope.

[puppppppppy]

learned something about myself lately

[technically-human]

Hey, don't cry. Ghost yuri, okay?

(Now that you know the girls, they need to meet the boys!)

[shiraishi--kanade]

Instead of trying to replace an ableist and incorrect usage of intensive though (e.g "the intrusive thoughts won tonight") to mean impulsive behaviour with the term "impulsive thoughts" (which is clunky because it obviously still draws from intrusive thoughts and is similar enough for people to not notice or know the difference, is still ableist as this is also a medical term, and self-contradictory, as any impulsive thoughts are not necessarily harmful in a way that works for the meme), I suggest we start referring to it as The Impulse. Capital letters and all.

Arguments:

- draws on the popular internet slang expression of The Horrors (unspecific but commonly experienced life struggles of both psychological and material original), and is therefore not connected to the ableist misuse of instructive thoughts;

- additionally, implies the existence of universal human experience with The Impulse, in a similar way humans universally can experience The Horrors, and therefore inclusive of all;

- also implies the existence of The Impulse entity which, according to individual interpret, can be anything yet immediately relatable to other people;

- is literally just funnier than both intrusive thoughts and impulsive thoughts in that context;

- sounds ominous enough to use in ominous situations.

Example of use:

"bro let The Impulse win 💀"

"The Impulse won tonight (dyed my hair at 3 am)"

"The Impulse telling me to call my ex [insert reaction picture]"

"can't let The Impulse win this one"

You can also smack at ™ there, implying that The Impulse™ is well known enough to be trademarked and widely recognisable, which I think is cool.

[remxedmoon]

i hit 1k followers recently!!!! yipee!!!!!!! thank you all!!! so in celebration here’s all of my completed isat doodle pages, from oldest to newest. go nuts with them!! and maybe don’t look at the first doodle page too closely. it’s Old.

(no greyscale version below for once! just some mushy ramblings. you don’t have to read them don’t worry)

hhhhhha?? so many people. where did you come from. how did you all find me.

ok but seriously, thank you all so much for all the support. i never really. expected to make it this far? like, ever?? i’ve mentioned it a few times on here, but i’ve been a lurker for the past… 2 years, i think? and even before that, i never gained much traction outside of a couple posts. so this has been. very new to me!! in a nice way!! it’s weird to feel like an actual member of a community!! that people know about!

the idea of finally coming back to social media was Daunting (i literally got stress hives writing my first post lol) and the warm reception really. meant a lot?? i don’t think i would’ve ever gotten the courage to come back if i hadn’t been encouraged to by the people over at the isat discord!!

the fact that people actually care about my art still doesn’t feel real?? seeing people take inspiration from my art is just. surreal. just. auagssh. thank you all so so much for everything, i really do appreciate it!!! i’m really glad to be in this community. sorry if this all sounds sappy and long winded i’ve just got a lot of emotions about this whole thing!!

(also as a bonus for reading all this or whatever. here’s a concept page for isatscryption! it felt a little out of place next to my normal canvases so i’m putting it down here! yipee! sorry my notes here are so disjointed auauau…)

[gophergal]

Guilt tripping people does nothing but cause vulnerable folks to spiral and make folks who dont live with moral OCD feel negatively toward your cause

[katetorias]

there is something so horrible about destroying churches, or any place of worship. im not even religious. it’s about the fact that people were so devoted, put so much effort into building and decorating and just experiencing this part of their life, that they hold so important. and all that effort is taken away by a fucking bomb

I find religion beautiful, and it’s harrowing to see these things happening in PaIestine and no one cares. suddenly now no one cares about religion or the importance of religious monuments

[sainz100]

2024 Brazilian GP | x

[bluerosefox]

Family Resemblance

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I had another 11pm brain worm.

Enjoy

-x-x-

Daniel Wayne, the younger toddler brother of Bruce Wayne and the son of Martha and Thomas Wayne had been kidnapped the night their parents were murdered.

Daniel had been snagged the moment their killer heard people headed to the alley and Bruce in his state of shock didn't realize it until it was far to late and could only scream in horror (from everything) as his baby brother is crying his name. (If you wanna make it even more heart wrenching, make it Danny's first time being able to say Bruce's name right and/or Bruce had said some mean things to Danny earlier after he accidentally broke something of Bruce's, something like 'I wish youd go away' or 'I never wanted a brother, you're such a bother!')

Bruce is being held by Alfred as some police officers are chasing down the Wayne's parents killer while some stay behind to see if they could do something.

Minutes turn to hours and as they wait, praying the police at least found Danny, Bruce is ridden with guilt. From his parents death to allowing his brother to be kidnapped.

Eventually the police return to give Alfred and Bruce the news. And it's not good.

The killer escaped and Danny was nowhere to be found.

And it would take many years before he would be found.

-x-x-

Bruce gets a call from Damian during school hours one day. When he answers he is greeted with Damian demanding him to get to the school and explain himself.

Confused Bruce asks what does he mean and Damian responds with

"The two new students in class today are the spitting images of you and I father! Either they are poorly created clones or you have more hidden blood children!"

-x-x-

Meanwhile the very students being discussed are calling up someone too

"Ellie? Dan? What's wrong? You better not have made too much chaos already, I just paid for the uniforms for that place."

"DAD! I THINK ANOTHER ONE OF THE FRUITLOOPS FAILED CLONES SOMEHOW SURVIVED!"

"What?"

[itsraining-honey]

hot opinions straight off the stove! 🥘🔥

[gas-station-chai]

I ship them but in a "definitely on their 3rd divorce" way