#just thinkin about it

[fox-guardian]

"maybe if i dress more boring i'll get gendered correctly by strangers" that's the devil talking

[solarmorrigan]

Okay, but imagine the absolute shit fit Eddie and Dustin would throw when it’s not either of them that finally manage to convince Steve to play D&D with them. It’s not Lucas, or Will, or even Erica, in all her terrifying, businesslike glory

It’s Mike fuckin’ Wheeler

Mike, who Steve has technically known longer than any of the other kids; who had never made a secret of when he’d thought Steve was a douchebag; who, even after Steve became de facto babysitter to the group and Mike could admit he didn’t entirely dislike him, had never quite warmed up to him the way the others had. Mike

Dustin has been on Steve’s case to join the game since they became friends, and Steve has said no every time. At first because it sounded complicated and boring and he had no interest, but later because he knows none of the other kids like him as much as Dustin does, and that’s fine, but he isn’t going to sit through something complicated and boring while a bunch of other kids glare at him

Sometime later, on one of the few nights neither Joyce nor Jonathan are available to pick Will up, and Steve is driving him home, Will mentions that it would be cool if Steve wanted to join in and play – since he has to schedule his nights around their games sometimes anyway, after all. Steve smiles and tells him thank you but no thank you. Will is kind, and patient to a fault, and Steve has no doubt Will would genuinely try to include him, but he doesn’t want anyone to feel like he should be invited as an obligation. He really doesn’t mind driving

After Steve starts playing basketball with Lucas, Lucas invites Steve in turn to play D&D with The Party. Steve turns him down, saying he’ll stick to what he’s good at. He wonders if maybe Lucas feels like they should do an exchange—Steve has given him some pointers on basketball, so maybe Lucas will give him pointers on D&D—but really, he’s happy spending his time playing with the kid. He doesn’t need to be offered anything else

Steve turns Eddie down flat no matter how much he wheedles, whines, or offers bribes of various favors and orgasms. He knows Eddie’s previous reputation, that he hasn’t been inclined to accept or be entirely patient with novices at the game in the past, so he’ll either sweep along as usual and leave Steve in the dust, or he’s planning to change his entire style to hold Steve’s hand and help him figure it out, probably to the detriment of everyone else’s enjoyment. Neither option is appealing

Erica asks Steve exactly once, telling him that the only way anyone is ever going to shut up about it is if Steve agrees to play. Steve tells her that, unfortunately, she’ll just have to continue putting up with their whining. She doesn’t seem happy, but she’s certainly not going to beg him to play, and that’s that

But then, one night, Mike watches the whole song and dance routine as Steve drops off Dustin, Lucas, and Erica; tells Dustin that no, he’s not going to stay tonight; kisses Eddie hello and also tells Eddie that no, he’s not going to stay tonight. Mike sighs loudly as Steve moves to head up the stairs and out of the basement

“Dude, we both know Eddie and Dustin have made, like, a dozen characters for you. Just pick one and play with us.”

And Steve stops

Because Mike has never pretended to like Steve. Mike has never pretended to like anyone. He’s jealously guarded membership into The Party, denying anyone he isn’t one hundred percent certain about. He’s about as protective over his nerd game as Eddie is (and as protective over his friends as Steve himself). And with no clear reason to, he’s asking Steve to join them

And Steve can’t help but admit that Mike may actually just want him to play – that maybe they all do (and maybe he sincerely does want to join them, even if it still sounds complicated and might still be boring; maybe he’ll just like spending time with them)

So he sits down and asks what the hell he’s supposed to be doing

(He’s never had so many people try to show him how to do something at once)

[undeadbutch]

absolutely lost in this sauce (buried nose first in her sweaty pit)

[always-the-dm]

I'm rewatching Fantasy High Freshman Year while sick, and maybe it's the hacking coughs talking, but I'm thinking about FH S1 as a metaphor for the horrifying reality that the person you're going to grow into isn't the person you invisioned as a child and how that affects adolescents in a time of finding their identity.

[icedhockey]

this is all hilarious until you realise there's still a reverse sweep to engineer

[grooviestguru]

in light of the chatter around whether or not andreil get married, my thought journey took me to this:

i hope neil’s moriyama tithe is to ‘charities’ so at least he gets to claim them as donations on his taxes…

(this is my white collar criminal mind conspiring, but I can’t actually decide if neil would want that, at the end of the day. maybe he doesn’t want to see a benefit from the price of his freedom. maybe he sees taxes as further proof of his existence as a real person. plus, between him and andrew, they’re pretty financially set, even without tax evasion)

[reallysleepymermaid]

Okay they really did ruin my boy feyd tho huh

[killjoygerardx]

sometimes i think about the longing for boyhood in my girlhood. how my father raised me on old country music and cowboy films, and how i reveled in that.

i recall seeing how he was with my brothers and longing for that dynamic.

one day he took me to a sports shop, we bought a ball, went to a park and kicked it around. i was never interested in football but i loved that day. this was years before i came out, or even realized I'm a man, but it felt like father and son.

[aliusfrater]

thinking about caffeine addict sam winchester who's lightweight

[crybabybat]

I wish I could just ask and have somebody tell me how to figure out if I’m like. Monogamous in my capacity to be truly romantically in love with others or not. But I cannot. Or rather I already know that the answer is kind of just “eh you’re gonna have to wait and see!”, and that sucks to sit with a little

[every-captain]

No one ever draws fat people with my body type because my body type isn't particularly common or desirable even among fat people and its definitely one of those "if you want something done, do it yourself" kinds of things when I want to see myself in art...

[goatpaste]

I'm surprised iv never seen Dr Ferdinand and diego yaois

[squidmaid]

I love you sex education I love you safe and proper BDSM training I love you kink at pride I love you leather daddies I love you butch dykes I love you saucy drag performers I love you horny trans folks I love you slutty bisexuals I love you queer kinksters I love you anti-sanitization of sexuality and the queer experience

[transgender-catboy]

The power I would hold if I owned a strap-on

[rockeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy]

i keep seeing people who portray the present-day eddsworlds like theyre teenagers but like. they are in their early 30s. they are not Little Gabagools anymore they are going to the fucking GROCERY STORE to buy BROCCOLI (while also raising hell but my point still stands)

[joshuaalbert]

you ever think about. to the other cadets, the members of that team are gods and that's a hard image to live up to.