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Something that I really love about Sam, and have always loved since I listened to his first video, is how he entirely subverts the expectations for vampires. Not just modern day ones but the expectations that have always been there for vampires.
(And his southern accent but that’s not what this post is about)
When vampires first rose to popularity, what they represented was a fear of sexuality. They were inherently sexual creatures of the night who lured innocent people into the shadows with their powers of seduction only to drink their blood.
We even see this in most of the redacted vampires. Vincent was literally introduced as “the flirty vampire”. While later he was given some depth and we learn that he just picked up that act from Porter, it was still an integral part of him in the beginning. Even Alexis, as little from her as we have heard, she speaks in a very low, sultry tone. Even when she isn’t trying to be flirtatious.
This is a very inherent part of vampires some lore even describes it as a power that they have. (I believe this is addressed within Castle Audios lore as “the lure”)
But Sam doesn’t have that. He isn’t flirty. He isn’t seductive. Not in the traditional way anyways. (Because HOO BOY AM I SEDUCED)
Sam doesn’t try to lure Darlin in when they first meet. He doesn’t really try to lure darlin at all, really. They just naturally grew close. It was active flirtation, it was just chemistry and care.
Even when they do admit their feelings for each other Sam still doesn’t want to have sex. He hadn’t for over a decade, and the last person he had sex with stole his life away from him. Of course he didn’t feel comfortable.
And I think this all helps to portray the most important part of Sam’s backstory.
He wasn’t supposed to be a vampire.
He never planned on being turned. He didn’t want Alexis to turn him. He never wanted to be that.
The same could be said for Vincent, he didn’t wanted to be turned either. He wasn’t given a choice. However, Vincent still took on that flirty vampire persona.
I think this illustrates the difference in how Vincent and Sam grew into their turning over time. Vincent, while extremely depressed in the beginning of his turning, grew into it. He eventually learned to accept himself as a vampire, and even embrace it. I think him taking on that traditional, flirty vampire act, was his way of embracing what he now was.
Lovely’s part in Vincent’s character growth, rather than teaching him to accept himself as a vampire, was helping him to learn that he didn’t have to be someone new just because his mortal self is dead.
Sam, while he accepted the fact that he was a vampire passively, he never really embraced it as part of himself. I think this is really well illustrated by how he handled feeding before he fed from Darlin. “I’ve never been one to savor the taste. I just chug it like a supplement and pour a cup of something I actually like the taste of”. (That was paraphrased pls don’t hurt me if I got something wrong). He accepts that he needs blood to survive but he is going to incorporate it into his life passively, and focus on the things he actually likes. He accepts that he is a vampire, but he won’t take it as a part of himself.
I think this is even shown well in Sam choice to “chose morality” (as it was put in the trigger warnings of that one video, still hung up on that btw) rather than live forever. He accepts that he is immortal, but he isn’t going to embrace it.
To Sam vampirism isn’t a part of himself, it’s just something that was done to him. Like a giant scar that covers his body, his face, his eyes, even his core. It still isn’t him.
The way that Darlin plays into Sam’s character growth, I think has potential to change this and I think it’s something interesting to explore.
So far Darlin already has played a pretty big part in Sam’s character growth. Before meeting them he was closed off. Isolating himself from pretty much everyone but a few people in his clan. Darlin has brought him out of that. He now has people, he has the pack. While he does love Vincent and Lovely (and possibly Fred and Bright but we will never know what happened with them), it’s important to have people outside of the ones that you are forced to interact with by circumstance. Especially if said circumstances are horribly traumatic for you.
Blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb, and all that.
However, I think Darlin inadvertently helping Sam to embrace the vampiric aspects of himself is interesting concept. Especially now that Sam has fed from Darlin, and enjoyed it, and saw how much his mate enjoyed. I think Sam slowly accepting vampirism is absolutely a possibility in the future.
If it ever happens or not I will still adore Sam’s character all the same.
Anyways this was a really long winded way of explaining that I like how Sam subverts the typical tropes with vampires, and I appreciate how it ties into his turning being non-consensual. I like to rant if people haven’t picked up on that already lmao.
Also I miss my girlfriend. Erik bring Sam back home immediately.
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angst prompt #21. "you don’t get to walk back into my life like this." with female reader and mingyu
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angst prompt #21: "you don't get to walk back into my life like this."
mingyu hadn’t expected to feel this much.
he’d thought he could handle it—seeing you again after all this time, just a chance encounter. but the moment he saw you, his heart had dropped, and all the walls he’d built around himself crumbled.
he hadn’t realized how much he missed you until now.
it had been months since he walked away from you, and the emptiness he tried so hard to fill never truly went away. he had convinced himself that leaving was the right thing to do, that you’d be better off without him, that you deserved someone who could give you more. but the truth was, he had been too scared to face his own feelings, and in the end, he left you behind.
but now, standing in front of your door, mingyu felt the weight of everything he had done.
he had to see you.
“hey,” mingyu said softly when you opened the door. your eyes went wide in recognition, and he felt a pang of guilt at the guarded look in them.
“mingyu?” you asked, the surprise quickly shifting into something harder, colder. “what are you doing here?”
he swallowed, his hands shoved deep in his pockets, feeling small under your gaze. “i just... i saw you earlier, and i couldn’t stop thinking about everything. about us.”
you raised an eyebrow, stepping back slightly, but not enough to invite him in. “us? you’ve got a funny way of showing it. you didn’t seem to care about ‘us’ when you walked out without a word. remember that?”
the words hit him like a punch to the gut.
“i know,” he whispered, his voice breaking as the weight of his regret crushed him. “i know i messed up. i didn’t mean to hurt you, but... i didn’t know how to fix it. i thought i was doing what was best for both of us, but i was wrong. i should’ve never left.”
you let out a bitter laugh, the sound sharp and almost mocking. “you think you can just come back and undo everything? you can’t just walk back into my life and act like nothing happened. you hurt me, mingyu. you hurt me more than you’ll ever understand.”
mingyu’s chest tightened as he watched the anger and pain in your eyes. the person standing before him wasn’t the one he remembered—the one he used to joke with, the one who smiled when he walked into the room. no, this was someone who had healed, someone who had moved on without him.
and it hurt.
“i’m sorry,” he whispered, shaking his head. “i can’t take back what i did, but i want you to know how sorry i am. i wasn’t ready before, but i am now. i want to make things right between us.”
you shook your head, a sad smile curling on your lips. “you don’t get it, do you? i moved on, mingyu. i had to. i can’t just forget everything, and i can’t just let you back in because you finally decided you made a mistake. it’s too late for that.”
the words hit him harder than anything. too late.
“please,” he said, stepping forward, but you took a step back, closing the distance between you with an air of finality.
“no,” you said firmly, voice trembling but steady. “i can’t keep doing this. i can’t keep hoping for something that’s never going to happen. i’ve moved on. i’ve let go.”
mingyu felt like the ground had been ripped out from beneath him. he opened his mouth to say something, but the words wouldn’t come. what could he say? how could he fix this when everything he had done was unforgivable?
he couldn’t.
“you don’t get to just walk back into my life, mingyu,” you repeated, this time quieter, but no less painful. “i can’t keep waiting for someone who’s never coming back.”
mingyu’s throat tightened as he stood there, watching you—the person he once thought he’d spend forever with—walk away from him, slipping behind the door with a final click.
he stood there for what felt like forever, frozen in place.
he thought he could change. he thought he could fix what he had broken. but some things couldn’t be fixed. some mistakes were too big to come back from.
and as he stood outside your door, the reality settled in.
it was too late.
#seventeen imagine#seventeen#svt#svt x reader#svt angst#seventeen angst#angst seventeen#kim mingyu#kim mingyu seventeen#seventeen kim mingyu#kim mingyu angst#kim mingyu fanfic#kim mingyu imagines#kim mingyu x reader#mingyu angst#mingyu fanfic#mingyu imagines#mingyu seventeen#seventeen mingyu#mingyu#mingyu x reader#daisymbin: reqs
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Chenford strikes again 😌😍
#the rookie#chenford#lucy chen#tim bradford#what’s personal space#they don’t know it#stolen from twitter#it’s been forever since I’ve done one of these#pre canon#canon chenford
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Naba: You know, Connor gets Kevin flowers everyday, I wish you would do that too.
Arnold: Okay.
*Later*
Arnold: *gives Kevin flowers*
Kevin: ???
Arnold: I don’t know, I’m confused as well.
#it’s been forever since I’ve done one of these#incorrect bom quotes#incorrect bom#broadway#musicals#tbom#tbom musical#bom#elder price#the book of mormon muscial#bom musical#kevin price#book of mormon musical#elder mckinley#connor mckinley#elder cunningham#arnold cunningham#nabulungi hatimbi#mcpriceley#arnaba
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I was tagged by @eliooliver83
And I don’t really feel like tagging anyone so if you want to do these questions consider yourself tagged!
Favorite color- mint green and blue-ish purples
Last Song South into the Night by Skyland which is an Irish folk band I’m currently obsessed with who only have one song online but should have four more soon. I saw them at the free library concert and they were sooo fun!!! Such a good sound… not a lot of lyrics though.
Currently reading Who Moved My Cheese (This is a self help book about dealing with change. I read a lot of self help books for someone that only reads fanfic)
Currently Watching Olympics- mainly Women’s soccer and Women’s rugby sevens (which is now over but was really fun)
Currently Craving Hockey (I hate the off season) and more Robo fanfics bc there hasn’t been a new one in like a month and he’s my fav
Coffee or Tea- Tea, I love a lot of different teas whereas I’m trying to give up coffee
Hobby to Try- i really want to learn how to ice skate bc it seems like so much fun but I’m so scared of falling that I latch onto the wall and don’t have the fun i could/should be… or dance
Current AU- I’m terrified about how out of character it would be but I kind of really want to write soulmate fic for Roope/Robo
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I had to do it- it was just too silly not to
Original under the cut :)
#I know it’s been a minute since I’ve posted here#don’t worry about it#it’s fineeee#I’ll have some actual stuff to post soon trust#for now: have this#I hope no one else has done this yet#but it’s fine if they have#maybe a two cakes situation#spies are forever#agent curt mega#tatiana slozhno#curt mega#mary kate wiles#tin can bros#tin can brothers#my art
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Wahh<3
#fable smp#rae morningstar#my art#I don’t have many coherent thoughts about this one I’ve been working on it on and off since before he got a tail canonically#I’m so glad it’s done though I like it a lot#I think the funky enderman mouth and legs are so fun I’m going to be spreading this agenda forever#It’s just neat
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Fat Hottie CAS Day 7: Hippy 🌸
#It’s been forever since I’ve done one of these but we ball#sims 4#sims 4 mods#sims 4 simblr#sims 4 cc#black girl magic#ts4#the sims 4#sims 4 edit#black simmer#fathottiecas#fathottiecaschallenge
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just spent an hour redoing my ipads home screen because it felt so ugly LMAO
#mobile ooc tag.#large image /#will probably change this screen again. it’s been forever since i’ve done an aesthetic screen#i’m not super happy w this one but i like the vibes idk#i also refuse to pay for the icons on etsy so i have to make due with the ones i can find on pinterest#anyway can yall tell i’ve been thinking ab the spider-men™️ 😬 LMAO
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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.
#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void#shits rough dawg#I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts#haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier#it’s cold#saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours#guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left#even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are#I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh#my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week#maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting#woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside#hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning#can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience#anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments#I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now#ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever#you can ignore this#text
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the thing about movies and tv shows is that some of them are simply not that good! But holy shit they’re still fun to watch
#like I am not good at judging the quality of shows or movies. I’ll just be like wow that was fun! or it wasn’t#there are so many things that are good but not Good and that’s fine I think#i post#like arcane. it’s a silly edgy show for a video game I’ve never played. but one of my friends really likes it so I watch it so we can talk#abt it together#I watched my old ass and I think that movie had some plot issues like. I think the time travel bit could’ve been done different/better#but like it was a fun cute silly movie and it’s had my brain in a death grip since I saw it so like#idk this is a nothing post I just feel the need to justify the things I do. constantly and forever
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to think that honeypre was still alive when vol 3 of idol sengen was released…
#sOBS IM SO SLOWWWWWWWWWWW#JUST ONE MORE BONUS CHAPTER AND IM DONE AUAUAUAUAUAUAAAAA#a. and then… maybe another year for vol 4 bc the chapters are longer…#but aaaaaa!!!!!!!!! i’ve been waiting to get to this certain part of vol 4 since forever!!!!!!! auauauauauauauaaaaaaaaa#and vol 5!!!!! the asuna vol!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaasaaaaaa#ig my goal for now is to finish vol 4 by the end of the year lol#screw my day job for being such a pain :( can’t i just idol sengen 24/7 instead~~~~~~~~
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flippin boobahs!
#weezer#rivers cuomo#brian bell#patrick wilson#scott shriner#OKAH HI CHAT#i’ve been thinking#this tag will be just a rant not really weezer related#yk laufey ?#i was listening to her song ‘letter to my 13 year old self’ and just started overthinking about myself when i was younger#i just think about my younger self and get so sad thinking about her; i wish i could’ve done more for her#i was a huge introvert and talking to anybody made me super super anxious; so much so that my teacher noticed and had me join a ‘social#emotional learning’ group where we spoke about low self esteem and how to raise it and everything like that#i only left it in 8th grade because i didn’t wanna keep missing class for it; but it made me so sad to think i thought so low of myself#i would wear hoodies all the time and jeans because i used to hate my body a lot#which is awful to do in socal heat!#i think it started because in my family i was always stereotyped as the fat one; yk how mexican families are? they called me gordita for#the longest time; which made me incredibly insecure and only in 10th grade did i start showing my arms 😭 IK ITS DUMB BUT ITS SO WEIRD#i still can’t do it entirely; i’ll wear shrugs and things like that because i still am insecure about my arms sometimes but ive been better#i only really had one friend but she had a different lunch; so i was alone for most of the time on the swings by myself or sitting at the#lunch tables alone waiting for lunch to end and this noon duty came to me a lot and would talk to me since she felt bad i was always alone#while everybody else played with each other ; and i don’t know why i just broke down thinking about how lonely i was at the time#i’d go to the school’s friendship room everyday after that because it was just a teacher who let kids come inside her room to play games if#they didn’t wanna be in the heat and soon i became friends w the teacher and she’d play uno with me everyday; mainly because the room was#relatively empty until they got loom bands! and i was an expert on loom bracelets so i would help others make them and that was a confidenc#e boost; i remember being proud of myself for socializing like that LOL#i just get sad thinking about that time; i like to think that if little Lyss saw me; she would be so proud because i have friends;#a boyfriend ; good grades ; and i’m well liked and regarded. i hope she’s proud of my progress socially because it was such a leap#i wish i could go back in time and tell her how much better things get and how she won’t be lonely forever#…and to not online date. definetly don’t do that one.
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editing, my beloathed 😫
#a hot new gwen fic coming at ya hopefully within the next few days when i can actually get this editing done#just in time bc it’s about to be a year since i posted the first part 🫢#so uhhhh idk how many ppl have been waiting patiently for the new update#but don’t worry it’s coming#i’ve been working on it all day#and i’m gonna work diligently to finsh the editing and get it posted 😌#it’s just there’s a lot to get through so uhh bare with me?#but!! i’m excited!! new fic for the first time in forever!#my ao3 acc has been so dry lately#so a new fic should perk it up#and then i think i’m gonna try to work on some other wips#bc i have at least three of the top of my head#including crack the window 2 and the road trip fic#among others#but we’ll see once this one’s done i guess#was gonna post this update as a surprise#but i feel the need to take a break from editing to complain and motivate myself to finish imaooo#gwen rambles#gwenposting
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y’all I am losing my mind
#Who WAS that#This is driving me insane#Ran into someone who was like “we have met! We went skating together awhile ago!”#And I was like “oh! With *redacted* figure skating club?” And they said no???#But??? When- where??? I skate at 6 am???? When the rink is dead empty???#There’s one person I can think of who I used to skate with in the mornings but I swear that wasn’t her????#But was it???#I haven’t talked to her in forever and texting her now would be akward as hell I think#Particularly becuase that interaction happened like a full day ago#And in my head I was like “oh we must have been skating together on a school group skating trip years ago”#Y’all. I did not go on that trip. I went to a trampoline park. It took my a full 18 hours to be like “wait I literally have never done that#Also that would have been in like??? Middle school??? I have no idea why I thought I went on that trip#It would also have been more than “awhile” ago#Anyways. Driving me insane.#I swear that girl lives in a much different area???#I am so confused now#I guess it has been like two three years since I’ve seen her? So maybe???#Anyways I’ll just wait for FS news to break then text it to her like it hasn’t been months#Also I have zero concept of time and space while I’m working#I can barely muster human emotion much less recognize a face
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The next chapter of SkullHacker, my cyberpunk shivrye AU, is finally out! You can check it out at the usual spot, over here.
#splatoon#it’s been so long since I’ve updated I hope the tone isn’t completely different from earlier chapters#I didn’t actually like. reread my fic first.#which I maybe should’ve done but also this has been mostly finished for forever so it’s fine#repeating to myself ‘doesn’t need to be perfect just needs to be done. doesn’t need to be—‘#as I post it#anyway next chapter is sort of an intermission Marie chapter and is really short#but I’m gonna try and get the one after that slightly more done before I post it#though I might work on updating eels first#next eel chap is like 70% done maybe? I’m still trying to decide between a couple things#my writing#shivrye#utsufuu#everyone moving back to prlina except for me…#my city now
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