#I haven’t talked to her in forever and texting her now would be akward as hell I think

[caterpillarinacave]

y’all I am losing my mind

[theoriginalsfan124]

Always and forever / Teen wolf imagine / the pack x oc

Warnings : mentions of death, angst p>

I walked down the streat, two bounets of flowers in one hand and four graveyard candles in the plastic bag that I carried in the other. The rain was pouring onto my head and body,completely soaking my blonde hair and all of my clothes,but I didn’t care. Honestly there wasn’t much that I cared about in this last couple of months. I kept walking and walking towards my goal ,I ignored completely everything around me. I finally noticed the old metal gate and the sign that was above it “ Beacon Hills Cemetery ”. Signing softly to myself I put the plastic bag on the ground and gently pushed the gate open. While holding the gate open with my foot and took my plastic bag and continued walking in. I got to Allisons grave. I put all the things I was holding in my hands on the ground gently ,so the candles won’t brake or the flowers don’t mess up. I took the white rose bounet,crouched down to the grave and gently laid the bounet on Allisons grave, close to the gravestone. I stood back up and grabbed two of the candles out of the bag, and the lighter that was in my pocket to light them up with. I placed the candles close to the bounet and hovered over them so I could light them up ,without the rain putting them out before I closed the lid. After everything I stood up and took the other bounet and the two candles that were left in the bag. I blew a kiss to Allisons gravestone, cause that was our thing. I missed her . I really did ,but she wasn’t my destination. I kept walking depper into the cemetery. My breathing getting heavier and heavier as I got closer to my destination. Finally after a couple minutes of walking I stopped and I was sure my breath did too. My heart dropped at the sight,even though I came here and saw it everyday for the past couple of months I never got used to it and I’ll never will. Taking a deep,shaky breath I just barely hold myself from dropping on my knees and crying my heart out.

“Hey…I brought you your kind favorite of flowers. Well actually I brought a whole bounet of them” I gestured to the white lilacs in my hand.

Slowly I walked forward closer and shakingly laid the lilacs on the grave.

“I brought candles too…”

Just like on Allisons grave I hovered over them to light them up.

“I know if you would here right now you would probably say something along the lines ‘you come here everyday and you always bring flowers and candles, you spend too much on that ,you should worry about yourself and not some stupid flowers’ ” I laughed sadly.

“You always took care of me , even when I didn’t need it. I loved you with all my heart , I still do and I always will” tears were now spilling from my eyes.

“You know I never did the thing we promised each other. ” I remembered

“Always and forever, brother. Until forever ends.” I was now sobbing.

Me and my brother came up with the saying when I was five or four ,but we would only say half of it . Just the ‘Always and forever’ part . We promised each other that when one of us died the other would finished the saying when they visit the others grave. Never in a million years did I think I would have to say it so soon. Hell I didn’t even think I would be the one saying it. I was the younger and more reckless sibling. He though was my older brother , corection IS my older brother. He’s a bit older then Derek . Derek was now twenty four and my brother died at twenty five.

“God maybe if I were there I could have helped you ,Eric” I said quetly almost whispering and fiercely wiping my tears away.

You see we were hunters. Not the kind that just hunt. We protected those who couldn’t protect themself’s. Him and me didn’t even call ourself’s hunters, we refereed to ourselfs as protectors. We protected not just humans but also the supernatural that couldn’t protect themselfs. Though we hunted when needed , when called or asked. We actually came to Beacon Hills to help Mrs . Argent, Allisons dad. But we decided to stay. He made friends and I did too. Hell I was ,still am a part of Scotts pack. But the day he got killed I will forever remember. I will always remember his killers name and I will never NEVER forgive her. Kate. He died because he wanted to protect me and everyone from her. After Mexico she ran but came back when we won against the dread doctors. Derek was the one to find him and when I saw him at the mourge and almost didn’t recognize him . Those memories are forever stuck in my mind and in my dreams.

After some time of crying and talking to my brothers grave my phone vibrated. I pulled it out and saw a lot of missed calls and texts from Lydia, Malia, Scott, Stiles, Isaac, Liam , Hayden, Derek and even Theo . I don’t even know how that bich got my number in the first place. I signed and texted Lydia ’ can’t talk right now, busy’

I rested my head in my hands thinking how akward it is to face Derek. See me and Derek had a thing. But didn’t work out ,I was just a stupid school girl actually in love and to him I was just a four time thing . That’s it. I don’t know why it’s so akward to face Derek now but facing Theo is a piece of cake. Well Theo technically was only a one night stand and I didn’t have feelings for him,but I did have feelings for Derek so maybe that’s why. Whatever. Why am I even thinking about it?

I stood up from my crouching position I was in when I heard a familiar voice.

“Caroline?” Said the voice.

It was Brett Talbot. He’s actually my friend , well I guess he’s the packs friends too.

“What are doing out here?” He questioned getting closer ,until he was infront of me.

I took I few steps back,not because I was uncomfortable, it was because he’s a fucking giant and I’m a little troll compered to him. Well I’m a little troll compered to everyone.

“Brett seriously? ” I asked raising one eyebrow.

He turned his head and saw my brothers grave.

“Oh….sorry I didn’t mean to… I am very sorry for-” Before he could finish I cut him off .

“Don’t. I’ve heard that a lot lately and as far as I checked it doesn’t bring Eric back nor does it help” my face was stone and I was trying very hard not to cry.

“Yeah…I know…it’s just that it seems the right thing to say ” he apologized looking sadly at me.

“Yeah,I get it. It seems appropriate. So what are you doing here? ” I asked wondering if he was visiting his parents grave.

“ Just you know…visiting the dead”

“Your parents?” I said bluntly without even thinking.

“I am actually…” Brett said sadly.

“Sorry…I didn’t mean to come of rude like that.” I apologised

“ It’s okay,Caroline.” He smiled a small smile

“Well I was about to leave. Want to come with ?I could give you a ride since I see that you haven’t got an umbrella” “I see you are in the same situation ” I remarked. “Hey! At least I came here with a car” he sassed back. “So how about the ride home?” I asked. I knew that he wouldn’t leave me alone if I didn’t take up his offer. I knew that he would probably tell the others and then the other would probably lecture me. He smiled and motioned for me to follow him,so I did. We got to his car and got in. “You’re probably freezing ” Brett said and turned up the heating in the car. I took out my phone and saw that I missed even more calls from the others then before. If that’s even possible. “Lydia is gonna kill me” I muttered under my breath. “And why is that ?” Brett asked. “Curse your wolf hearing” “You didn’t answer my question.” “It’s none of your business ” I snapped. Brett stayed quiet. My mind kept wondering back to that horrible day I lost my brother. “I know it’s none of my business ” the wolf besides me started “but I know that Eric wouldn’t want this…” I wipped my head in his direction when I heard my brothers name. “He wouldn’t want you being sad. He wouldn’t want you to spend every single minute of your time in the cemetery. Eric wouldn’t want you ignoring your friends. He wouldn’t want you to blame yourself. He wouldn’t want you to be completely closed off.” Nomether how much what he said hurt and nomether how much I wanted to hit him in the fucking face right now , he was right. Just then we stopped in front of my house. I didn’t even say thank you or goodbye, I just stormed out of the car and slammed the car door shut. I wanted to run inside my house and just cry,but the sight infront of me stopped me. The pack all stood at my front porch. So I stopped dead in my tracks. “Caroline…” Lydia spoke up.“ We know what you feel.” “And we know what you are going through ” Malia spoke. “And we know that you don’t want to talk” said Scott. “But when you need us we’re here” said Styles. “And when you need us to help just tell us ” said Liam. I got up the stairs on the porch and just trew my arms around Lydia and started to sob uncontrollably. She hug me back. “Shhh….I’m here…It’s okay….it’s okay…” She said stroking my back. “H-he’s g-gone Lyd-dia….He’s go-one…” I choked out. Malia came behind us and rapped her arms around me and Lydia too. “ Everything will be okay…” Malia gently said. By now Lydia was tearing up too and so was Malia. I got out of the hug and wipped my tears away. “I need your help with something ” I said still shaking a bit. “Sure. We’ll help with anything ” Scott said and the others nooded. I opened my the door to my house,to reveal a huge mess. Clothes , books splattered everywhere. The bookshelf fallen on the floor. Trash , dirty plates everywhere. “I need your help with this” I pointed at the mess. We began cleaning. Malia gathered the trash. Scott lifted up the bookself up from the floor , Liam gathered the books, Styles cleaned the dishes, Lydia gathered the clothes and I…I took the photographs and hung them up on the wall again. The place was cleaned up after sometime. “Caroline! You missed this one.” Styles yelled and ran up to me , handing me a photo frame. “Huh..I missed it.” I said gently taking the photo frame from his hands. I looked at the photo and sat on the stairs. It was me and my brother just four moths ago,smiling and hugging. My heart stang and warm tears started falling down my cheeks. He was gone and he was never coming back. My big brother, my protector, my mentor, my best friend…he was gone… “Hey…It will be okay …” Styles said while gently rubbing my back. I took a deep breath and stood up and hung the picture on the wall. I knew that I needed to let him go. “I hope you like up there in heaven,” I smiled through tears. “Always and forever brother, until forever ends”