#it was so fucking scary and i feel a little sick

[incohorace]

i just had the worst fucking nightmare i've ever had in my entire life.

[pyrriax]

ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think 🙏

[lynxalon]

HOLY SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT THAT CRITROLE EP WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! im SO glad we had the set up of the last one so we could have the big thrills of this!!!!!!!!! this had everything!! it had ira's bad (and good!) decisions! it had sam's out of pocket wacky can shenanigans!! it had deception and sneaking! it had badass plays and some.. eye-catching talents 👀 it had gross shit that's kinda actually sad if u think about it! it had walking (running) away from explosions (NOT a sunglasses moment this was a loserfail) it had .. terrifying parents. it had imodna momence !! :D it even had some unprecedented wins for our typically fighty/flighty adventurers!!! i will ABSOLUTELY be watching that again come monday!!!!!!!!!!

[just-rogi]

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[muttsona]

i hope i die, you broke my heart

[satache]

I love weekends together so much!

We did so much and it was so nice to have a weekend like that because they never really happen. We started this car journal thing and are gonna write down everything we do together and all the adventures and stuff we plan to do etc! It’s so cute. He makes me very happy and I love him so much. I am very lucky! I love him dearly and he’s the best thing that has happened to me.

[pepprs]

mutuals i got myself into a situation so sticky i don’t even know how to describe it (edit: *describes it* lol). please send thoughts of successful escape my way lol

[istherewifiinhell]

anyone wanna get emotional about collaborative art with me?

[Mirage 19 Story: E&L, Layout: Eastman, Pencils: Jim Lawson, Inks: Laird, Letters: Steve Lavigne]

ID from alt: Cropped section of the page annotations by Laird, (relevant) text: Page 18 is also the beginning of what I think of as "Brick hell" - Jim drew so many panels with hundreds of bricks in them, and I felt obliged to ink them all in. That was a LOT of bricks." Left is a panel showing Raph running down a curving brick tunnel, the wall is drawn with individual bricks, uncountable amounts of lines that illustrate the curvature.

If not, enjoy brick hell instead (I'll leave, just a doozy of a brick hell image at the end)

(this issue has beautiful layout paneling, which little snippets of could never replicate. great one to check out. imho)

come one come all to the worst barn party of the decade...

[IDS AND ALTS THE SAME]

ID: Jones family barn interior. Mike and Don speaking to Raph (off panel). Mike, in an open gesture: Life is good here... It's given us time to heal, to accept what's happened. Leo's needed this time, too--. Don, by his work table, no mask, wearing an apron. More neutral: We're not the guardians of society, Raphael... we never were. END

ID: Three panels, Raph pushing Leo around, yelling at him. The background moves from uninked, to midtone, to dark tone, as they both get more angry. Raph: No-- You're hiding out here... scared to face facts... And you're dragging all of us down with you! Fun and games are over, Chump... Look at yourself! END

ID: Two panels, Raph looks down to a wooden sword Leo (off panel) has held up in his way. He looks at it, unimpressed. Then looks up, pissed off and says only "Mistake." END

1. Three panels, Leo in the forground, just his leg seen. Raph on the floor against a wall. He whips his chin, saying "You were always good, Leo...". Close up, spit hangs from his mouth, continues "... One of the best..." He stands and finishes "...Which makes life here even more of a crime."

2. Four panels, Leo has Raph in a choke hold, holding him from behind, they are on the floor. Sweaty and teeth grit with exhertion. Leo says "--Do you hear me?!" Raph starts throwing punches to Leo's head, just above his own. As each one land we close in on Leo's face. END

Well. Thats great. Ill eat my own heart out how abouts.

AND ANYWAY. My favourite favourite effect.

ID: 1. Four panels, Leo, Mike and Don, run along a roof top, grab some fire escapes, and make their way to street level, skirting the edge of a street lamp's glow. The entire set is pen inked normally, and washed completely with the mid tone, save the small circle around the lamp, glowing white.

2. Large panel. Raph, 3 point lands, kicking up dust in the center of a spot lit section of sewer. The tail ends of a hood he wears trail up with the motion. Very little double-tone is used on the page, instead the shadow is communicated by increased hatch lines still following the shapes of every object in shot. END

ID: Raph sits in the tattered remains of the turtles lair, his brothers shadowed in the foreground. Raph, not very warmly says "Welcome Home." END

Okay okay. cry forever and every. please for the love of god. read comics. now. more brick hell

ID: Three panels, showing the entrance of a sewer tunnel into a larger area, closed and open pipes along the wall. The shot holds empty for two panels, then with the inclusion of Raph jumping out the exit in the third. If you are to look carefully. You can tell, though the scenery remains the same, in each, the intricate pen inked brick work and shadows have been done three separate times. END

LIKE. I KNOW ITS TRADITIONAL MEDIUM COMICS. But sir.... SIR? Another annotations from Laird specifically. Have mentioned using the copier to place certain things in backgrounds.... i just.... SIR?

[ironmanstan]

So much work to do but im actually doing it which scares me more than the fact i have work to do and u can tell bc i keep fucking posting like this

[yellowhearther0]

girls when they are trying their best but their best isnt good enough 😔😔

[phagodyke]

venting sorry... don't want to just delete it bc it helps to get it out just ignore this post pls 👍

haven't slept much at all and feeling so sick andstressed and in pain bc my period is due and so tired its making me dizzy but i cant sleep more or ill just feel more sick and I want a hug and to cry so hard into someones shoulder but no one cares or will even come near me it makes me feel diseased they think things about me that aren't true bc I struggle so much to communicate and thry all make assumptions insteqd and no one wants to give me space to talk to them about it so I cant undo that now and its all my fault and I'm so. exhausted :-(

[girlthativealwaysbeen]

i want to be the strongest most unaffected aloofest person ever but im literally the weakest saddest cries at every inconvenience type of person and man.

[episbep]

rehab day fourteen

walked past this number plate on the way back from the AA meeting in the rain - I would have used on this if I’d seen it back home by telling myself ‘it’s a sign’ but it just fucking made me laugh today, like what are the odds😄

forgot to write my daily diary but it’s late and I’m lazy so it’s gonna have to be done in the morning ig- today was actually another rly good day tho. Busy busy but good. Group therapy was uplifting, came out feeling rly motivated and optimistic. I presented my life story to blue group (wasn’t nervous til I was sat up the front waiting to present but they were so lovely in their feedback - one girl told me I’m “a little ball of energy” I love that thank u🫶 ✨ got lots of hugs after too. I had a 1:1 after lunch which was intense bc we spoke about my childhood and relationship with both of my parents (was absolutely not prepared to acknowledge that my mum is anything less than absolutely magnificent or confront some of the things we discussed but it’s helping me to understand why I’m an addict and where unhelpful patterns of thinking and behaviours began/escalated/were taught) and came out feeling kinda blue. My little crush in here (literally been by his side for the entire day he’s a fucking star) helped me feel better and I wrote him a list of 10 compliments lol bit lame, bit cute, it made him smile at least. We ended the day at the centre with auricular acupuncture which I loved! One roommate graduated after three months on the program and a new person who’s just completed detox moved into the house (he’s lovely).

Recieved a package from home with some goodies and a card from my mum but she expressed her lack of understanding around addiction and how it could become the focus of my life, how I put it before things that logically I know should be prioritised. I don’t know how to explain that to her, and I’m not sure that I fully understand it myself. Addiction is like a chokehold that you don’t feel able to escape from, for me it was at least. It almost became compulsive and I didn’t have any tools to work through my feelings, I just sniffed the uncomfortable ones away every time they resurfaced. Didn’t feel great after reading her card, like I think I just felt really judged and not understood? I’m gonna talk about it in group tomorrow.

I had some leftover pizza then we walked to he meeting which was so good, I felt uplifted by the energy in the room, the reading and the shares. Was in such a good mood when we left then seeing the KET number plate made me laugh so hard, talk about irony😄

[beloveds-embrace]

Idgaf abt how military works sorry yall but imagine the 141 gang having to do mandatory charity and no, not even Ghost can opt out of it regardless of how he says he’s honest to god not fucking fit to be visiting sick patients. But alas.

But they end up meeting you- frail, fragile, and sick you, no visitors around you. Though you look at them with curiosity and admiration, you keep yourself away, almost as if you don’t want to bother them.

You can’t help looking at them, though. You’ve been sick all your life- born to a mother who left you on the doorsteps of an overcrowded orphanage, left alone often and long for your body to just… fail you. You don’t think you’ve seen outside the orphanage walls and then these hospital grounds since your birth. You would be dead now if it weren’t for the CEO of the hospital taking pity on you after you turned eighteen and the orphanage cleaned their hands off you.

And so, you can’t help but envy them just a little. Strong, agile people in the military, bodies fit and healthy. Despite knowing they are always putting themselves on the line, constantly in danger, you can’t help the longing you feel. Longing you don’t realize is clear as day in your eyes.

The one to approach you first is the man you thought one of the prettiest men you’ve ever seen. He introduces himself as Kyle, and despite your silence- your interactions with others that are not doctors or nurses are far and few, and you are painfully shy- but he is nice. Gentle. Easily keeps the conversation going despite. He is so easy-going he has you grinning and laughing in no time. It catches the attention of a the Scot with a mohawk, who joins in by sharing even wilder stories. And then the man with the scary ghost mask, so often in their stories, comes to your little crowd. He is big, scary if the nurses’ reactions are anything to go by, and yet the only thing you’ve ever truly been afraid of is dying with a life not truly lived. So you don’t flinch or cower from him, merely ask if he has anything interesting to share with you.

The last you speak with is John Price. Captain John Price. If there is a man that can embody a bear, it has to be him. You are sure of it. Especially when you witness him smacking the back of Kyle’s head lightly after a teasing comment.

Maybe your chances of a long, fulfilling life are slim but today, just for today, you allow yourself to envision a life with them. Such a strange desire, a useless and wistful one.

“Thank you, for today.” You tell them quietly, when it’s nearing time to leave. Your hands are held in Kyle and Johnny’s, frail and weak compared to theirs. You smile at them, squeezing lightly. “I think this is the most happy and content I’ve been all my life. I won’t forget today.”

And in return? Neither will they. How could they ever forget you, the sweetheart in the hospital bed, your sickness keeping you away from the joyful life you deserve?

The won’t forget you. Not at all. And when you start receiving gifts, polaroids and letters and texts, you already know who is sending them to you.

It makes things just a little easier- your life just a little brighter.

Other works + help me choose a title for this!

[confetti-critter]

.....the pain in my ear is getting worse+it feels warm and like the hearing is muffled on that side. I'm gunna have to go to the walk in clinic, aren't I?

[eosofspades]

two things about this i want to talk about: 1) the darkness of the story is what MAKES it so impactful as a kids' movie, and 2) i feel like this post kind of makes it sound worse than it is. it's not even a scary movie.

the story is fundamentally about a 12-year-old girl's pain and frustration at feeling alone and ignored. like, this story does not exist without the protagonist's child-like mindset and worldview. next gen is a kid's movie because the whole story is about the very specific experience of being a kid and feeling so desperately alone and ignored by all the adults in your life. and the reason it's a "dark" kid's movie goes hand in hand with that! this movie does not try to sugar-coat how horrible life feels when you're a mentally ill 11 year old; it never glosses over how big and explosive and horrifying everything that happens at that age feels.

i also just... appreciate it for its darkness. it doesn't gloss over things like death or violence or anger, which a lot of kid's movies do - the most important thing about this movie to me is that it never once comes across as condescending or patronizing to its target audience. it never treats children watching it like they're too stupid or too innocent for the things this story is about.

also - it wasn't even like, discreetly horrifying. the "character gets vaporized on screen" is alarming, but it takes a second and there's no gore of any kind. the "walking corpse" REALLY isn't as overtly scary as this post makes it sound. it's just a guy who looks like a normal dude (like, until the end). there are the terrifying implications listed here, sure, but again - no actual gore or blood or ANY of the process detailed here. i wouldn't even count him as a "corpse in a kid's movie," really, because at no point does he ever actually LOOK like a dead body.

Just watched the Netflix movie "Next Gen" and it was pretty good! A story about a wholesome friendship, robotic sports, and DEATH.

This is a kids movie rated PG, and I honestly have no idea how they got away with that rating. Why? Not only is one character a literal walking corpse, but another gets vaporized on screen.

It's not that I dislike the movie or that kinda thing, I actually really like it, but it's just surprising to me that they put it in a kids movie and got away with it. Many kids movies have villains that want to kill people, so what's the difference? Let me explain.

Most movies:

•Villain doesn't actually get to kill anybody before their stopped. At the end people may be hurt, there may be destruction, but people seem to be alive and ok. Things can be fixed.

•Any death is just implied, like destroyed buildings and such. Maybe a flashback to a grave or something at most.

•Nobody dies directly on screen. They may fall into a pit, or go down with their ship, but you don't watch them die. You very rarely see an exception, like Mufasas body from The Lion King.

This movie:

•Villain has killed two people at the very least. One on screen, the other off screen but directly mentioned.

•Instead of implying people have died, it not only shows the action of murder but also directly talks about a murder. "Okay, fine! I killed Justin Pin and stole his body. Boo-hoo! SHUT UP! The guy's dead! Get over it!"

•Corpses in children's movies are rare, but here we see one for a good duration of the movie. Justin Pin is not human anymore. He was murdered, his body was hollowed out, and anything organic other than skin was replaced with custom robot parts. No fake skin, no doppelgängers, just a straight up modified corpse. That's some FNAF type shit.