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Yesterday I was standing at a crosswalk waiting for the light to change and thinking about the Tuba mirum movement from the Mozart Requiem (since I am learning it for solo cover auditions) and then someone rode past me on a bike carrying a tuba
#it was eerie but neat#choir stuff#btw tuba in latin means trumpet#the tuba as we know it postdates mozart by nearly a century#and the last trumpet in the mozart requiem is in fact a trombone#a really beautiful trombone solo
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āCan my brother and I stay over at your house during the day? I promise, we wonāt be of any nuisance to you. Better yet, we can help reinforce the defences on this building during night.ā
Inspired by the indie horror game No Iām Not Human
#alan wake 2#jaakko koskela#my posts#my doodles#no iām not human game#crossover#no iām not human#fanart#that game is so neat and eerie#it rly ramps up the paranoia andbthe style is unsettling in all the right ways
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Jjk 260 spoilers āļø
So do people genuinely think Gojo is back or is it agreed that itās a cliffhanger to trick fans. Because right now, it seems too fake or likely Sukuna seeing his eventual end in sight, but even on the chance itās real, there has to be a catch
#idk what the general consensus is but itās not something im going to get excited over until we get more info#bc I do think heās not actually back#but if he is it needs to be. good. lmao#maybe too big a demand at this point#jjk spoilers#jjk 260#I like the eerie phrasing and gojo appearing from the mist w focus on one eye#that was neat#thereās just too little to make any guess on where this is going#and rn im just going with the flow on whatever journey this manga goes on
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finished act 3 of kentucky route zero!
the music continues to be indescribably beautiful and the vibes are utterly eerie but in a strangely comforting way.
i find myself both unnerved but at home within the dialogue and the audio is perfect.
idk what it is about this game, but i'm totally drawn in. just spent 20 minutes on an in-game phone call learning about the strange ecosystem of a river (and also how to talk to a snake).
#[static]#wolf plays games#kentucky route zero#the characters are so well written imo#like i feel like i both dont know them but then know super deep meaningful facets about what make them human#like sure this game is basically a walking simulator but there are so many easter eggs and hidden gems to find#it feels like a lot of life was breathed into it#it reminds me of some of favorite eerie horror novelists ... like if jeff vandermeer and the creators of oxenfree made an indie game lol#like you can call the phone number they provide you in real life and get the same dialogue you do in the game ! it's just neat!
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i played the remastered alan wake a while back and am replaying the original on steam, and, honestly, theyāre so similar, I couldnāt tell which is which if you held up comparisons. ive come across reviews about the game looking outdated and bad (mostly compared to other releases in that time), but the original looks great and I like the hazy dark lighting for both this and awan
#might delete#I canāt wait to run into all the product placements#like yeah I know itās not. top graphics of that year. but Iāve stopped and looked at the environment So many times. itās pretty!#this is because im biased but I *loved* AWANs choice of scenery. although I wish it was as detailed and expansive as the original games#all of remedyās games do pretty great in terms of the environment. ignore controls terrible map and the Oldest House is an incredible space#to navigate just by following signs and all the little details. the atmosphere!#donāt even need to explain how aw2 is good with that#but even Max Payne 1 has this beautiful eerie quality where everything is this fever dream of grungy or old environments#even before the literal nightmare sequence it felt like navigating a dream of this Not New York City. like of course itās likely born from#the limitations the developers had when making it. but the emptiness and placement of npcs added to the experience#QB so far is my least favorite in its style and environment but itās still had some good moments. the use of flashbacks + time overlapping#onto abandoned and destroyed environments was genius. the college campus itself and the train(?) cargo(?) area was neat to go through#thereās some really good stuff there! *im also. not done with QB so im still hoping things get more wild!!#im honestly more forgiving of QB as a whole and find it interesting since it went through a lot of hell in its development#this might seem negative but itās not! itās a shockingly beautiful game. graphics exceed expectations#the style and some locations is where itās more boring for me. but still good. im so tempted to buy it on steam to finally finish it#endless apologies if u opened this and ur entire page opened up an essays worth of tags
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I got to witness totality and managed some photos :)
Taken on an S23 Ultra
#life of asha#image#solar eclipse#it was neat and eerie actually#and i tried to get pictures of the partial after totality was over#but i could not for the life of me get my phone to pick it up again#weirdness but i got some photos before and during#several that look similar because i was adjusting settings on my phone's camera#i don't normally mess with camera settings because i do not normally take photos#but i was glad to have these#my photos
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@00kie-sp00kie I think this might actually be a wedding picture...
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Imagine this man is actively torturing you and, when he turns around, you see he is wearing a cutesy bow because he is vanillacore like that.
#ā„ ā out of chrysalis ā (ooc)#ā„ ā hibernation to the world ā (crack)#it's stupid but I like to think he likes to wear butterfly bows#especially if they're gifts#it's also a strategy to appear much more innocent/harmless#to his peers and the people around even though his face may be eerie and not entirely gentle looking#I just think it's neat hehe
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Please please please please please PLEASE tell me more about liminal, daytime, and neatness horror. I'm obsessed with the idea of horror that's horrific because it's just- slightly wrong somehow. Like something just feels off. (sending this in again to leave my signature, the seamstress anon. Please put #seamstress in the tags of the answer so I can find it when you answer)
Not going to lie, Iām not one hundred percent sure what you want from me here? The fact that youāre linking those three says youāve probably already had a browse around those tags on my blog, so Iāll have to try not to repeat myself, and Iām not fully sure what new thing you want.
But, I guess, a linking theme between the three of them, daytime, liminal and neat horror, would be ā¦
Theyāre not necessarily monster horror, jump-scare horror. They can include them, but the moments weāre talking about, sunshine and incongruous neatness and between places, theyāre not about action, being attacked, theyāre about dread. Eeriness, unreality, wrongness. Theyāre about looking around something that looks relatively normal and your brain just going āsomething is wrongā.
We donāt expect horror in the daytime. Horror is a thing of darkness, thatās its natural environment, where we canāt see, where unknown things lurk to leap out at us. To have horror happen in daytime adds a layer of unreality, affront, this doesnāt belong here. This isnāt supposed to be happening. Not now. Why is this happening when itās bright out? When Iām supposed to be safe?
Neatness evokes the same feeling. Thereās a layer of wrongness, of something out of place, of something happening that doesnāt fit with the rest of whatās around it. Neatness, played right, is a step away from reality, from the natural, a layer of artifice and someoneās doing something layered over the world around us.
And liminal spaces, those perpetual in-betweens, the bus stops and hotel corridors and doorways or gates that lead nowhere, theyāre always unreal, always in-between, places where no one belongs, places where no one knows you and no one cares. Anything could happen at one of those places, and nobody would care in the morning. You look around them, and your brain knows that they arenāt places to stay, they arenāt places to belong, they arenāt safe.
The feeling, every time, is a sort of subconscious dread, a wariness, an eeriness, the feeling of looking around and feeling that somethingās in the wrong place, that you are in the wrong place. Itās not about fear, as such, but about uneasiness, uncertainty, affront.
As humans, we like things to be where theyāre supposed to be, doing what theyāre supposed to do. We like order, and safety, and things being as we expect. These things, incongruity, transience, emptiness, trespass, theyāre not about visceral horror, theyāre about the itchy, unsafe feeling in your brain when something isnāt where itās supposed to be, isnāt doing what itās supposed to do. You feel unsafe, not because thereās necessarily a visible threat, but because some part of you canāt help but instinctually feel that something is wrong and that means thereās a potential threat. And the thing with potential threats, as opposed to visible threats, is that you canāt deal with them. Not until they materialise. Thereās a dread, thereās a paranoia, because the layer of safety and normality around you is stripped away by the feeling that something invisible is wrong, and thereās no undoing that. Daylight doesnāt protect you. Somethingās out there, somethingās tidying. No one belongs here, no one will notice what they do to you.
This type of horror is about stripping away safety, stripping away expectation, leaving only unease and paranoia and dread underneath. Itās not (at least necessarily) about a single violent threat, itās about ā¦ taking away the safeties. Thereās no one around whoāll care. It doesnāt need the dark. Even your own mind isnāt necessarily safe, with the world being arranged this way around it.
Thereās an affront to all of these types of horror, and a slow, pervasive dread. Itās wrong, itās all wrong, but itās happening anyway, and none of the normal safeties can stop it.
Itās about dread, not fear. Uneasiness, wariness, unreality. The basic feeling that something is wrong, and no one can stop it. Maybe no one but you even sees it. They see the expected thing, and you donāt, and what can you do with that? Who, what, can you trust? Even yourself?
Break down expectations, normality, safety, and see what slow, insidious horrors lurk underneath, behind, through.
I do adore this sort of horror so much. It takes more time, you have to set the tone and the expectations more carefully, before you slowly strip them away, but the effect once accomplished is spectacular. I love the eeriness and the pervasiveness of it.
Um. I hope thatās what you wanted?
#seamstress#horror#daylight horror#liminal horror#the horror of neatness#unreality#dread#eeriness#it's about building a mood#unsafety#take your time and strip away the protections#let people see what lurks unseen but sensed underneath
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In Endgame, Scott said that 5 hours in the quantum realm is 5 years in the normal world, so how long were they in the quantum realm for in Quantumania? The run time of the movie is 2 hours so were they gone for about 2 years in the real world? Or maybe there was some universe swapping tomfoolery, somewhat similar to the end of Loki?
#i've been thinking about this a lot#like the time thing wasn't addressed PLUS scott's existential dread monologue at the end too with the eerie vibe#i just thought about the janet thing#who knows - maybe they are in a slightly different universe which would be neat!#or they just forgot about the time thing lol#ant-man and the wasp: quantumania#ant-man and the wasp: quantumania spoilers#quantumania spoilers#ant-man spoilers#ant-man#scott lang#avengers: endgame#loki#loki series#kang the conqueror#janet van dyne#hope van dyne#hank pym#cassie lang#marvel#mcu
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animal. black and white ravens or crows. color(s). toxic/radioactive shades of green, icy blue/cyan, purple, red, white, black. month. october. song. morph by twenty-one pilots. number. 14 day or night. night. plant. snapdragons. smell. chemical. season. fall. place. an empty high school. food. burgers and fries. astrological sign. scorpio. element. lightning. drink. soda.
tagging: YOU!
#dash games ii eerie#///fun fact#twenty one pilots is my voice claim for phantom#///all of the vocals///#ghosts can do some pretty neat things with their voices
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ļ¹ ā ; @dernarrleid / left a prayer ā white oleander, pt. 2.
sometimes attention hurts more than it helps. (johan)
Ā Ā Ā Ā āāā Ā Ā ā āāĀ šš”š š”šš šššš§ šš”š šØš§š ššØ šš©š©ļæ½ļ潚ؚšš” š”š¢š¦, tottering in too-tall heels and focusing on not dropping the uncapped bottle of water trying its utmost to slip through her fingers. Her motivations are laughably simple: everyone was inside partying 'til they dropped, he was outside instead, and that seemed awful lonely. So with water in hand just in case he wasn't feeling well, she had slipped from the din of music and out the quiet street.
Ā Ā šš¢š¬ šššš š„šØšØš¤š¬ ššš¦š¢š„š¢šš«. Is he someone's friend from college or work? Childhood friend? Boyfriend? Ex? Agent? Each role feels less likely than the next. With a shrug meant more to keep her coat on than to dismiss the thought, she decides it's better to find out organically.
Ā Ā šš”š ššš§'š š¤ššš© šš«ššš¤ šØš š°š”šš š¬š”š š”šš¬ šØš« š”šš¬š§'š š¬šš¢š. Likely she's introduced herself ('Shi Qingxuan, although most people here know me by my online alias!'), promised she wasn't drunk ('Just tipsy! It takes way more than what I've had for me to get plastered.' Not drunk, just bubbly and loose and weightless, the way she wants to be now and forever), asked if he needs water or a smoke or both. If she's given him any time to answer, it's all melted into the comfortable if not disorienting warmth of insobriety pumping through her veins.
Ā Ā šš®š šš”šš§ š”š š¬šš²š¬ šš”šš, and she slips off the tightrope separating from reality. Not even all the alcohol in the world could buoy her back up to cloud nine.
Ā Ā ššØš¦ššØš§š šš„š¬š š”šš¬ š¬šš¢š šš”š¢š¬ ššØ š”šš« ššššØš«š. Recollection dampened by the across her brain and eroding childhood memories, she can't quite grasp what the circumstances calling for such an ill portent had been, nor if it had been delivered to her or the parents who had failed to heed it. Maybe she's making it up. Confabulation. That's what the trauma therapist at the hospital had called it when she had insisted something (something, not someone) had caused the accident and left her alive on purpose, that it had been following her since before she could even walk, just ask my brother, he'll tell you. Funny how she's able to remember something she'd been told at fourteen while high off a cocktail of painkillers and fear and not why such a simple statement makes her feel the need to run away.
Ā Ā Ā šš”šš š°šš¬ šš”šš§. This is now. The two events are unrelated, and he probably just wants her out of his space without having to be too mean.
Ā Ā "ššØš°, šš„š«š¢š š”š, š°šš² ššØ šš š ššØššš„ šš®š³š³š¤š¢š„š„!"Ā she laughs, the sound as ebullient as a springtime breeze. "You can be more forward if you want me to scram. I've got thick skin." That, and she finds she's not ready to leave his company just yet. She can't put her finger on why. A silly whim, more likely than not. But if there's one thing it is, it's stubborn. So with a sigh, she makes herself comfortable on the curbside while adding, "I'm not saying you're wrong; I just think it's way too pessimisstic." She pauses to waterfall some of the now-lukewarm water into her dry mouth, then holds it up. "Want some? It's the good stuff."
#dernarrleid#ā ā IN CHARACTER ; āwalk atop the big bright skyā#ā ā MODERN ; āthis flower blooms in brilliant shadesā#OMG HI!!!! it's SO good to see you again!!!! :D#sorry this took me a while-- my activity on tumblr these days is spotty at best :'3#as u can see shi qingxuan is the human version of a purse dog who doesn't know when to stop yapping#while i was writing this i kept thinking about how eerie & neat it is that johan and nina/anna mirror shi wudu and shi qingxuan#i will happily give you the rundown on them if you are unfamiliar with tgcf!
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It is kind of funny thinking on my headcanon like naturally im googling that where im like Did anyone else have this thought and a few people yes! I tend to see other diagnoses which are usually fair. But also stumbling upon someone else thinking that by chance was so DELIGHTFUL i still clap when i see others mention it like YES!!! YEAH!!!!
#floyd.txt#it can be a complicated thing but again for me#i am projecting in some ways but i also see other traits and its#for me i do have genuine interest in this i always think its neat to see stuff align#for a character made before this was like...a diagnosis i guess. i guess thats wording it right...#i was rereading and highlighting because i know i had a lot of moments casually reading where im kind of like#woah...that reminds me of this/me#i always feel like i need to disclaimer stuff or otherwise but must i really. i can have fun. i can do things#i do think this is stemming from like..never really reading a character with such similar struggles.#both in what a lot of people may relate to but some things were like...#i dont know just kind of eerie in how nearly 1:1 it would feel like ive never really read a protagonist going thru this stuff#so i feel like i naturally dive im some more#i feel like these always sound goofy silly i just have a lot of struggles and it was an experience to see so fucking many in a guy made so#long ago...#like i read ive been picking up reading more and have related to charactwrs before to degrees but WAOW...#Good God i can ramble about him. sorry....nope...MY BLOGGGG#i can get over the duhh everyones thought and known this about the guy because I am pretty new here#part of the joy and fun is all of this..we are all new to something...! at some point! thank you.mm#tumblr app let me edit tags plese...
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Hate Is A Strong Word - N.R
P: Slytherin!Ni-ki X fem!reader
Synopsis: You never imagined that the picture perfect Slytherin would like you
Warnings?: Fluff, Misunderstandings, bullying (not from N-ki). Insecurities.
a/n: So this is the start of my Hogwarts au for each of the members. Ni-ki is the first one out! :D The next one will be Jake!
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As the heavy oak doors of the Transfiguration classroom creaked open, you walked in alongside your friend Leeseo. The room, illuminated by large arched windows that allowed beams of sunlight to dance across the stone floor, was already buzzing with the chatter of students.
Leeseo nudged you gently, her eyes sparkling with anticipation. āI heard todayās lesson is going to be something really challenging,ā she whispered, her excitement barely contained. You nodded, sharing her eagerness. Transfiguration was one of the most fascinating subjects at Hogwarts, and Professor McGonagallās classes were always a blend of rigorous discipline and awe-inspiring magic.
As you took your seats, you glanced toward the front of the classroom. There, standing tall and composed by the blackboard, was Professor McGonagall. Her stern yet kind eyes surveyed the room, ensuring everyone was settled. With her wand in hand, she exuded an air of authority and wisdom, her emerald robes flowing gracefully around her.
The murmurs gradually subsided as McGonagall stepped forward, her presence commanding your attention. āGood morning, class,ā she began, her voice clear and steady. āToday, we will be advancing to human transfiguration, a complex and delicate branch of magic that requires utmost precision and concentration.ā
The mention of human transfiguration sent a ripple of excitement and nervousness through the room. You exchanged a quick, thrilled glance with Leeseo. This was the kind of magic that defined wizardry, the intricate spells that transformed the very essence of matter.
Professor McGonagall flicked her wand, and the blackboard behind her filled with neat, precise instructions and diagrams. āNow, before we begin, I must remind you of the importance of practice and control. Improper transfiguration can haveā¦ unintended consequences.ā Her eyes swept the room, emphasizing the seriousness of her words.
With a final nod of understanding, you prepared your wand and opened your textbook to the designated chapter.
After Transfiguration, your day continued with a series of classes, each filled with the usual hustle and bustle of student life at Hogwarts. Charms was lively as always, with Professor Flitwickās enthusiastic instruction keeping everyone engaged. Herbology followed, where you worked in the greenhouse, learning about magical plants and their properties.
As the day wore on, you eventually made your way to the dungeon for Potions class. The air grew cooler and the corridors darker as you descended, the flickering torches casting eerie shadows on the stone walls. You and Leeseo entered the dimly lit classroom, settling into your usual seats near the middle. Around you, your classmates were chatting in low tones, the anticipation palpable.
The door swung open with a dramatic flair, and Professor Snape swept into the room, his black robes billowing behind him. The room fell silent instantly, every student turning their attention to the formidable Potions Master. Snapeās presence commanded a certain respectāor perhaps fearāthat was undeniable.
āToday,ā Snape began, his voice a silky drawl that carried a hint of menace, āyou will brew a Veritaserum.ā He paused, letting the weight of his words settle over the class. āA truth potion, which when correctly brewed, will compel the drinker to reveal their innermost secrets.ā
He moved to the front of the classroom, where a cauldron was already simmering. With precise, deliberate movements, he began demonstrating the brewing process, adding ingredients with a practiced ease. His every action was fluid, almost mesmerizing, and you found yourself taking meticulous notes, your eyes darting between the instructions in the textbook and Snapeās methodical demonstration.
āTake care to follow the instructions exactly,ā Snape intoned, his dark eyes sweeping the room. āAny deviation could render the potion uselessā¦ or worse.ā
He finished his demonstration and stepped back, crossing his arms. āI have set up each of you with a partner, so I expect you all to work together,ā he announced. The room buzzed with curiosity as you waited for your name to be called.
One by one, Snape called out the pairings. Leeseo was partnered with a Gryffindor student, and soon your name came up. āYou will be working with Nishimura Ni-ki,ā Snape declared.
You glanced over at Ni-ki, a Slytherin student known for his cunning nature and sharp intellect. Your eyes met briefly before he stood up and walked toward you, his expression neutral. He took the seat beside you, and for a moment, you simply looked at each other, assessing.
āShall I cut and you brew?ā Ni-ki asked, his voice calm and steady.
You nodded in agreement. āThat sounds good.ā
With a silent understanding, you both began your task. Ni-kiās hands moved deftly, slicing ingredients with precision and efficiency, while you focused on the careful process of brewing, ensuring each step was followed meticulously. Though you didnāt converse much, there was an unspoken coordination between you, a shared goal that drove your efforts.
The potion started to take shape, its color gradually shifting as you added each ingredient in turn. Ni-kiās sharp observations and quick corrections were invaluable, and you found yourself appreciating his expertise despite your limited interactions.
As the final stages approached, the potion glowed a soft, silvery hue, indicating you were on the right track. Snape prowled the classroom, occasionally stopping to observe or comment on various pairsā progress. When he reached your desk, he paused, scrutinizing your work with his usual critical eye.
āAcceptable,ā he murmured, giving a slight nod before moving on. It was high praise coming from Snape, and you felt a sense of accomplishment.
After you and Ni-ki finished brewing the Veritaserum, you let out a quiet sigh of relief and settled back into your seat. The potion simmered gently, its translucent glow a sign of your successful collaboration. With the class winding down, you pulled out your notebook and began doodling absentmindedly, your mind drifting.
Ni-ki, meanwhile, was meticulously sorting out the remaining ingredients. You stole a quick glance at him, curiosity getting the better of you. His recently dyed light hair hung in front of his eyes, accentuating his piercing stare. Despite his cold demeanor, there was an undeniable intensity in his gaze that seemed to see right through people. His robes fit him perfectly, the black fabric contrasting sharply with his pale complexion. The Slytherin badge, neatly stitched into his robes, was complemented by the prefect badge pinned just beside it, a testament to his standing and discipline.
You had to admit, even if only to yourself, that Ni-ki looked good. There was something striking about him, an aura that was hard to ignore. But you would never voice this thought out loud. You admired him quietly, keeping your appreciation to yourself. Despite his coldness, he wasnāt like some of his fellow Slytherins who resorted to bullying and teasing. No, his crime was differentāhe was aloof, detached, and seemingly emotionless. He was an enigma, always keeping to himself and his close-knit group of peers.
As you doodled, you found your thoughts wandering. What was Ni-ki hiding behind that expressionless face? What would it be like to see him smile, to see his features soften with joy? Did he ever feel sadness, and if so, did he let himself cry? These questions swirled in your mind, each one deepening the mystery that was Ni-ki.
Before you could ponder further, the sound of chairs scraping against the stone floor signaled the end of class. Snapeās curt dismissal barely registered as you blinked, realizing how lost in thought you had become. You looked up to find that Ni-ki had already stood up and left, leaving behind a spotless workstation. The ingredients were neatly put away, the table wiped clean. In your daydreaming, you hadnāt even noticed him tidying up.
As you left the Potions classroom, the dark and cool dungeons faded behind you, but your thoughts lingered on Ni-ki. You shook your head, trying to clear the lingering questions that kept popping up about him. It wasnāt like you caredāhe was distant and cold. But the fact that he cleaned up without saying a word or asking for acknowledgmentāit was almostā¦ considerate. Strange for someone like him.
You walked down the stone corridor, heading toward the next class with Leeseo catching up to you. āHow was it working with Ni-ki?ā she asked, her voice light and curious.
You shrugged, keeping your expression neutral. āHeās efficient. Doesnāt talk much.ā
Leeseo raised an eyebrow, clearly intrigued. āEfficient? Thatās not the word I expected you to use.ā She grinned playfully, nudging you. āYou didnāt bicker, did you?ā
You rolled your eyes. āWe didnāt even speak much, to be honest. He justā¦ does his part and leaves. Not much else to say.ā
āClassic Ni-ki,ā she mused, adjusting her bag over her shoulder. āStill, itās kind of impressive that you got to work with him. Heās got a reputation, you know.ā
āYeah, Iāve heard.ā You kept your voice light, trying not to dwell on the fact that you had spent the better part of Potions class analyzing the guy instead of just brewing the potion. āItās just one class though. Nothing special.ā
But even as you said it, you couldnāt help but wonder why he kept himself so closed off. There was a quiet confidence about him, yes, but also a wall that he didnāt seem to let anyone through. It made him mysterious, sure, but also frustrating. What was he hiding? Or was it just his nature, plain and simple?
Leeseo and you reached the courtyard, the cool autumn air refreshing after the confined dungeon. You tilted your head up, letting the breeze rustle through your hair, trying to shake off the distraction that Ni-ki had become in your thoughts.
āWell, heās not bad-looking,ā Leeseo added with a grin, catching you completely off guard.
You nearly choked on air, throwing her an incredulous look. āSeriously?ā
She laughed, her eyes twinkling with mischief. āCome on, you canāt deny it. Heās got that whole mysterious, brooding Slytherin thing going on. Youād be blind not to notice.ā
You groaned, tugging your scarf tighter around your neck as you continued walking. āI donāt need any more distractions, thanks. We have enough on our plate with the upcoming exams and essays.ā You tried to steer the conversation away, not wanting to admit that, yes, Ni-ki was ridiculously good-looking. Admiring him from afar was one thing, but beyond that? Absolutely not.
Leeseo just smiled knowingly, but thankfully, she let the topic drop as you made your way to the next class. Still, as the day went on, Ni-kiās expressionless face, his precise movements, and the way his hair fell over his eyes refused to leave the corners of your mind.
You sighed to yourself. This was going to be harder to ignore than you thought.
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It all really started one afternoon at the library when you were tucked away at your usual table near the back, surrounded by textbooks and parchment. You were completely immersed in your reading when you noticed a shadow fall across the table.
Looking up, you saw himāNishimura Ni-ki.
Without a word, he pulled out the chair opposite you and sat down. No greeting, no explanation, just the soft sound of him placing his books on the table. He didnāt meet your eyes, didnāt acknowledge your surprised expression. Instead, he opened his own textbook and began reading, as though it was the most natural thing in the world for him to sit there.
You blinked, taken aback. For a moment, you considered asking him what he was doing. After all, it wasnāt as if the library was short on tables, and Ni-ki wasnāt exactly known for being social with anyone outside of his Slytherin circle. But instead, you tried to focus on your work, convincing yourself that heād leave soon enough.
But he didnāt.
He stayed, flipping through pages, scribbling notes in his neat, precise handwriting. He didnāt speak, didnāt look at youājust sat there, quietly doing his own work. You couldnāt help but steal a few glances at him, confused by his presence. Why was he here, sitting with you, of all people?
After what felt like an eternity, you couldnāt hold back any longer. "What are you doing?" you asked, keeping your voice low to avoid drawing Madam Pinceās ire.
He didnāt look up from his book. "Studying," he replied, his tone clipped and direct.
You raised an eyebrow. "I can see that. But why here?"
For the first time, he looked up, meeting your eyes with that same unreadable expression he always wore. "Is there a problem?" he asked calmly, his voice steady.
You hesitated. He wasnāt being rude, exactly, but the way he spoke made it clear he didnāt think he needed to explain himself. You shook your head, deciding it wasnāt worth pushing further. "No," you muttered, turning back to your own notes.
And so the pattern began.
Each time you came to the library, Ni-ki would show up not long after. Sometimes he arrived before you, already seated at the same table, as if claiming it before you could. Other times, heād stroll in after youād settled down, take his seat across from you, and dive into his work. He never spoke unless you asked him a direct question, and even then, his answers were always short, almost dismissive. It wasnāt that he was unkindājust distant, like there was no need for conversation.
"Why do you keep sitting here?" you asked one day, after heād settled into the chair across from you for what felt like the hundredth time.
He didnāt even look up. "Itās quiet," he answered simply, continuing to write in his notebook.
You frowned, not satisfied with the answer. "There are other tables. You could sit anywhere else."
"True." He glanced up briefly, his eyes meeting yours before flicking back to his book. "But Iām sitting here."
That was all he said. No further explanation, no invitation for more questions. Just a simple, matter-of-fact statement that left you feeling more confused than before.
It wasnāt like he was helping you with your work, either. He didnāt offer advice, didnāt join in on any discussions about the material you were studying. He was justā¦ there. A quiet presence that made you hyper-aware of his every movement, even though he barely acknowledged you. It was unnerving at first, but over time, you began to expect itāNi-ki would be there, silently doing his own thing while you tried to focus on yours.
There were moments when you found yourself glancing at him more than you should have. His hair, still that light shade, would occasionally fall in front of his eyes, and heād push it back with a practiced motion. His fingers moved with such precision as he wrote, and his posture was always so composed, like he never let himself relax fully.
And yet, despite the quiet, there was something oddly comforting about his presence. It was strange to admit, but in the silence of the library, having him across from you becameā¦ familiar. Predictable, even.
Still, the lack of interaction left you with more questions than answers. Why sit with you every time if he had no intention of talking? What was he gaining from it? Was it simply convenience, or was there something else going on that you couldnāt see?
One afternoon, after another long stretch of silent studying, you finally broke the quiet. "You donāt have to sit here, you know."
He paused, his quill hovering over the parchment. His eyes lifted to meet yours, and for a moment, he seemed to consider your words. "I know," he said quietly, his voice softer than usual. "But I am."
And with that, he went back to his work, leaving you with nothing but the steady scratch of his quill and the growing confusion swirling in your mind.
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As the weeks passed, Ni-kiās quiet presence at your table in the library became something you began to anticipate. It was no longer surprising when he pulled out the chair across from you, settling in without a word. At first, it had unnerved youāthe silent way he occupied the space, his sharp focus on his own work, and the fact that, outside these moments, he didnāt acknowledge you at all. But now, somehow, you didnāt mind it.
In fact, you found yourself looking forward to it. His quiet company had a strange, calming effect, as if the library wasnāt truly complete without him sitting across from you. You had started to expect him there, so much so that on the rare occasions when he wasnāt, you couldnāt help but feel a little off-kilter, like something was missing from the day.
It wasnāt that the two of you had grown closer, at least not in the usual sense. He never spoke unless you asked him a direct question, and even then, his answers were brief and to the point. He offered no opinions, no conversation startersājust an occasional glance in your direction, sometimes a quiet nod. And yet, you had grown accustomed to the silence between you, a silence that felt oddly comfortable.
But the strange thing was, beyond these quiet library sessions, it was as if Ni-ki didnāt know you at all.
In classes, he barely looked your way. If he did speak to you, it was only because the lesson demanded itāwhen he was your partner for a potion, or during group work in Transfiguration. His responses were always curt, efficient, like he was checking off a box before returning to his own tasks. You would pass each other in the corridors, or see him in the Great Hall, always surrounded by his Slytherin friends, and it was like you didnāt exist. Not a glance, not a nod, nothing to suggest he even knew you.
It puzzled you to no end. You werenāt sure if it bothered you or just left you more curious. Why go out of his way to sit with you in the library if he had no interest in interacting with you elsewhere? It wasnāt like he needed help with his studiesāNi-ki was brilliant in his own right. And it wasnāt like you were friends, either. In fact, you had hardly spoken more than a handful of sentences to each other since you first started sharing a table.
You found yourself wondering more and more why he bothered. Why, out of all the places in Hogwarts, did he always choose the spot across from you? Why did he sit with you, week after week, without saying much of anything, only to act as if you didnāt exist the moment you left the library?
But you didnāt dare ask him. For one thing, Ni-ki was rarely alone. He was almost always surrounded by his Slytherin friendsāusually fellow prefects or others from his house, most of whom carried an air of superiority that reminded you why you kept your distance from most of them. There was never a convenient moment to pull him aside, and even if there were, you couldnāt imagine what youād say.
And then there was the other part of you, the part that didnāt exactly want to know the answer. What if it was something you didnāt want to hear? What if the reason was as simple as convenience, or worseāwhat if there was no reason at all? What if, to him, you were just a tablemate, nothing more?
Youād often catch yourself glancing over at him during Potions or in the Great Hall, trying to make sense of him. His friends would be laughing or talking among themselves, and there Ni-ki would be, sitting quietly, his expression unreadable, completely detached from whatever conversation was happening around him. You wondered if he was the same with themādistant, aloof, only speaking when necessary.
Sometimes youād catch his eye, and for the briefest moment, you thought you saw somethingāmaybe recognition, maybe nothing at all. But then, heād look away, and the moment would pass as quickly as it came.
It became a kind of ritualāthis quiet routine in the library, these fleeting moments of wondering. You couldnāt deny the growing curiosity, though. Why did he choose you, out of everyone he could have sat with? And why did it seem like he was perfectly fine with justā¦ existing alongside you, never crossing the invisible line that separated the two of you?
You wished you had the courage to ask him. But each time you considered it, you reminded yourself of who he wasāNishimura Ni-ki, Slytherin prefect, sharp-tongued and unreadable. He wasnāt someone you could just ask a simple, casual question and expect an answer that wouldnāt make you regret it.
And besides, maybe it was better this wayābetter to leave the mystery unsolved than to shatter the quiet routine you had somehow built with him.
Even your friends began to notice. Leeseo had raised her eyebrows the first time she saw Ni-ki sitting with you in the library, but she hadnāt said anything beyond the occasional teasing. āYour silent study buddyās here again,ā sheād say with a wink when she caught him at the table. āYou two make quite the pair.ā
You always brushed it off, rolling your eyes at her remarks. But deep down, a part of you wondered if she saw something you were missing. Was there more to Ni-kiās presence than what you had convinced yourself to believe?
It was during one of those quiet afternoons, with parchment spread across the table and the soft scratch of your quill filling the silence, that you found yourself thinking about it more than usual. Why, out of all the students at Hogwarts, did he choose to sit with you? Surely, he had plenty of friends or places he could have gone. And more importantly, why did he never talk to you outside of the library?
Your eyes flicked up to Ni-ki, who was seated across from you as usual, engrossed in a large, ancient-looking tome. His light hair fell over his forehead, slightly tousled from the breeze outside. He looked calm, composed, and completely at ease, as if this had been his routine for years.
A question hovered on the tip of your tongue, one you had been pushing aside for weeks now. But before you could find the courage to ask, Ni-ki suddenly closed his book with a soft thud. You blinked, startled out of your thoughts, and he stood up, gathering his things with that same quiet precision.
He looked at you, his dark eyes briefly meeting yours. For a second, you thought he might say something, but instead, he gave a slight nodāhis usual, silent goodbye. Without a word, he turned and left the library, his footsteps soft against the stone floor.
You watched him go, feeling that familiar, quiet emptiness settle in his absence.
What you didnāt know was that, in Ni-kiās mind, a storm was brewing. A quiet turmoil, hidden beneath his calm exterior, had begun to take shape, and it was all because of you. He had always prided himself on his ability to maintain focus, to keep his thoughts clear and his goals straightforward. But lately, you had become an unexpected variable in his otherwise predictable life.
At first, he had taken little notice of you. You were just another student, one among many who populated Hogwarts. But then, slowly but surely, that indifference had shifted to something elseācuriosity. He began to notice the way your brow furrowed in concentration when you studied, the way your lips would curve into a small smile when you finally grasped a particularly tricky concept. There was something intriguing about your determination, something that pulled at the edges of his awareness.
As he continued to share those quiet moments in the library with you, he found himself observing you more intently. He noticed the small things: how you tucked a stray piece of hair behind your ear when you were deep in thought, how your expressions shifted subtly as you worked through problems. You were a puzzle he hadnāt expected to encounter, and with each encounter, the mystery deepened.
But it didnāt stop there. What began as a mild curiosity morphed into confusion. Ni-ki couldnāt quite articulate it, but there was something compelling about youāsomething that made you linger in his thoughts long after he had left the library. Why did your laughter echo in his mind? Why did he find himself glancing in your direction during meals, seeking you out in the crowded Great Hall, even when he was surrounded by his friends?
It was disconcerting, to say the least. He was known for his stoic demeanor, for being the type of person who kept his emotions in check. Yet, here he was, caught in an unyielding tide of thoughts about someone he had initially dismissed. It was frustrating, and a little alarming. He was supposed to be focused on his studies, on his role as a prefect, on maintaining the reputation he had carefully crafted. So why couldnāt he shake the feeling that there was something deeper to explore with you?
Every time you caught his gaze across the Great Hall or shared a fleeting moment in the library, the storm would build inside himācuriosity colliding with confusion, a need to understand you battling against the fear of opening up. What if you didnāt feel the same? What if this was all one-sided, and he was just a distant presence in your life? The idea sent a jolt of uncertainty through him.
Ni-kiās friends began to notice his distraction. They would tease him about how often he seemed to lose focus, how he would sometimes pause mid-conversation, his eyes drifting off to the side as if searching for somethingāor someone. But he brushed their remarks aside, masking his inner conflict with indifference.
He found himself wrestling with a mounting desire to approach you, to understand the enigma you represented. But every time he would gather the courage to break that silence, to say something more than the necessary exchanges during class, he hesitated. The distance between you felt both comforting and suffocating.
It was a confusing dichotomy, and Ni-ki was left to navigate his own feelings in silence, unsure of where this newfound intrigue would lead him. All he knew was that every time he sat in front of you in the library, the storm inside him would shiftāpushing him closer to the edge of wanting to reach out, even as fear held him back.
He didnāt know what to do about it. He didnāt know why he kept coming back, why he couldnāt stay away, even though he knew that sitting there, in silence, only made things more complicated.
But he couldnāt stop. And he didnāt want to. He just needed to figure out how.
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It started gradually, almost imperceptibly. The silence between you and Ni-ki began to shift, not in any overt way but in small moments that made it feelā¦ less heavy. The library sessions continued as they always had, with Ni-ki sitting across from you, his head bent over his books, while you quietly worked on your own assignments. But there were times now when you found yourself speaking.
It started off with casual remarks. Maybe it was the stress of exams or the overwhelming workload that had you venting aloud, but Ni-ki never seemed bothered by it. He didnāt offer much in returnājust a short nod or a quiet hum of acknowledgmentābut he listened.
One evening, after a particularly difficult day, you couldnāt hold back anymore. "I just donāt get it," you muttered, staring at your Transfiguration textbook in frustration. "No matter how much I study, I canāt seem to get this right. And McGonagall keeps assigning more complex material like itās nothing."
Ni-ki looked up, his eyes flicking to the page you were stuck on before settling back on your frustrated expression. He didnāt say anything, just kept watching you with that same quiet intensity you had grown used to.
"And," you continued, feeling a strange comfort in speaking your thoughts aloud to him, "thereās this Slytherin who wonāt stop picking on me. Every time I pass by them, itās like they have to make some snide comment or knock my bag off my shoulder. Itās ridiculous." You sighed, shaking your head. "But I guess thatās just how it goes sometimes."
Ni-kiās eyes darkened slightly at your words, his jaw tightening, but he said nothing. You didnāt expect a response; you were just letting off steam. Somehow, Ni-kiās silent presence always made it easier to say the things that were weighing on you. You could talk to him without fear of judgment or interruption. He just listened, and that was enough.
The next day, something changed. The Slytherin student who had made it their mission to irritate you suddenly stopped. They no longer sneered at you in the halls, no longer made rude remarks or tried to provoke you. In fact, they seemed to go out of their way to avoid you altogether. You didnāt understand why, but you werenāt about to complain.
And then, there was the folder. It appeared during one of your classes, a neatly organized folder filled with notes on every subject you had been struggling with. The handwriting was unmistakableāprecise, clean, and undeniably Ni-kiās. The notes were thorough, covering all the topics you had mentioned having trouble with. It was as if he had gone out of his way to compile everything you needed to help you catch up.
You didnāt know how to react at first. Gratitude and surprise warred within you as you thumbed through the pages, recognizing the meticulous effort that had gone into writing them. Ni-ki hadnāt said a word about it, hadnāt even hinted that he was going to help you like this. He had just quietly, and without fanfare, made sure you had everything you needed.
The next time you saw him in the library, you didnāt hesitate to thank him.
"Ni-ki," you began softly, looking up from your books to meet his gaze. His head lifted slightly, acknowledging that he was listening. "Thank youāfor the notes." Your voice was sincere, full of the appreciation you felt. "I really didnāt expect it, but it helped a lot."
He didnāt say anything in return. He just nodded once, his face remaining as impassive as ever, as if this grand gesture was nothing out of the ordinary. For Ni-ki, maybe it wasnāt. Maybe that was just how he operatedāhelping silently, without drawing attention to it, without expecting anything in return.
But for you, it meant something. A lot, actually. It was a reminder that beneath Ni-kiās cold exterior, there was more to him than he let on. His actions spoke louder than any words could, and though he kept his distance in almost every other part of your life, in these quiet moments, he was closer than anyone.
And so, you didnāt ask what had happened with the Slytherin who had suddenly stopped bothering you. You didnāt ask why Ni-ki had gone through the trouble of writing those notes for you or why he had stayed by your side all this time in the library. Because somehow, you knew. This was just Ni-kiās wayāsilent, unspoken care hidden behind his cool exterior.
And that was enough for now.
One evening, during one of your usual study sessions in the library, you were stuck. The upcoming exam loomed over you, and no matter how many times you read the same question, the answer refused to reveal itself. You sat there in silence, frustration building as you stared blankly at the page in front of you.
The library was quiet, save for the occasional rustle of parchment and soft footsteps in the distance. Ni-ki sat across from you, as usual, his head bent over his own work. The silence between you two was comfortable by now, and you didnāt expect it to be broken anytime soon. You sighed, trying to push through the mental block that had settled over you.
Then, you heard movementāa soft rustling. Glancing up, you saw Ni-ki standing. For a moment, you thought he was leaving, and disappointment bloomed unexpectedly in your chest. You looked back down, resigned to continuing your struggle alone, but then something surprising happened.
You felt the faint shift of air and the quiet creak of the wooden bench, startled, you turned your head and found him sitting right next to you. His presence was closer than it had ever been during these sessions, and it made your heart race for reasons you didnāt entirely understand.
"Where are you stuck?" Ni-ki asked, his voice soft but clear. There was no trace of his usual distance, just a quiet sincerity that caught you off guard.
Blinking, still mildly in shock from the sudden change in his behavior, you pointed at the question that had been giving you trouble. You half-expected him to glance at it, make some passing comment, and return to his seat. But instead, Ni-ki leaned in slightly, examining the material with a focused expression.
He began speaking, his voice calm and smooth as he explained the concept in clear, concise terms. There was a quiet assurance in the way he spoke, his words precise and easy to follow. He wasnāt just repeating the textbook eitherāhe was breaking it down in a way that made it understandable, relatable even. You listened closely, hanging onto each word, and slowly, like fog lifting from your mind, the confusion began to clear.
With each sentence Ni-ki uttered, the material started to make sense. What had seemed impossible moments before was now manageable, the concepts clicking together as he guided you through the steps. His voice had a soothing quality to it, calm and unhurried, like he had all the time in the world to sit with you and explain.
You found yourself glancing at him occasionally, taking in the way his eyes stayed fixed on the book, his brow slightly furrowed in concentration as he worked through the material with you. There was something unexpectedly gentle about the way he spoke, something that contrasted with the cold, distant persona he usually kept up. And in this moment, sitting side by side in the dim light of the library, it was hard to remember why you had ever thought of him as distant at all.
When he finished explaining, you stared at the page for a moment, absorbing the new understanding. It felt like a weight had lifted, and for the first time in hours, you felt a surge of confidence that maybeājust maybeāyou could actually manage this exam.
"Does that make sense now?" Ni-ki asked, his voice still soft.
You nodded, almost dazed. "Yeahā¦ it does. Thanks."
He didnāt say anything in response, just gave a small, barely noticeable nod before settling back into his seat, returning to his own work as if nothing unusual had happened.
But something had shifted between you. You werenāt sure what it was exactly, but the air felt different nowāless like the quiet companionship you had grown used to and more likeā¦ something else. Something unspoken.
You sat there for a few moments longer, still processing both the study material and the fact that Ni-ki had just sat next to you, helped you. He hadnāt done it begrudgingly either; he had simply done it because you needed help. And his presence, his voice, had made all the difference.
As you returned to your notes, you couldnāt help but glance at him again, wondering what other sides of Ni-ki lay hidden beneath the surface.
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One evening, after hours of studying and flipping through books, you found yourself exhausted. Your eyes were burning from reading the same passage over and over, and you sighed loudly, resting your head on the table. Ni-ki glanced up from his work, giving you a quizzical look.
āLong day?ā he asked, his voice softer than usual, almost concerned.
You nodded, not lifting your head. āYeah. Between Potions, Transfiguration, and Herbology, I feel like my brain is going to melt.ā
There was a pause before you heard him shifting in his seat. āPotions is your weakest subject, right?ā
You looked up, blinking in surprise. It wasnāt like Ni-ki to make small talk, and the fact that he remembered your struggles in Potions caught you off guard.
āYeah,ā you admitted, sitting up straighter. āIt just doesnāt click for me like other subjects do.ā
Ni-ki seemed to consider this for a moment before responding, āI used to be terrible at Potions too. In second year, I once brewed a Sleeping Draught that knocked out half the class. Snape wasnāt pleased.ā
Your eyes widened in surprise, a laugh escaping you. āNo way! You, bad at Potions? I canāt believe it.ā
āEveryone starts somewhere.ā
Another time, while working on your Charms essay, you noticed Ni-ki was unusually quietāeven for him. He wasnāt reading or writing, just sitting there, staring at his open textbook with an intense focus that seemed off.
You hesitated before asking, āAre you okay? You seemā¦ distracted.ā
He didnāt look up at first, his fingers absentmindedly tapping the table. āIām fine,ā he said, but his tone lacked its usual confidence.
You waited, sensing that he wasnāt fine at all. After a long moment of silence, Ni-ki finally spoke again, quieter this time. āIāmā¦ just thinking about some things. Itās nothing important.ā
You could tell that was a lie. He was always so composed, so in control of his emotions, that seeing him unsettled was strange. But you didnāt push him. Instead, you offered something simple.
āIf you ever want to talk, Iām here.ā
Ni-ki glanced at you, his expression softening just a little. He didnāt say anything, but the small nod he gave you felt like a thank you.
Another late night, the library was almost empty, save for you and Ni-ki at your usual spot. You had been studying for hours, and exhaustion was starting to settle in. You stretched, groaning as you reached for your quill.
āI canāt do this anymore,ā you muttered. āMy brain is fried.ā
Ni-ki glanced up from his book, closing it with a quiet snap. āTake a break.ā
You blinked at him, surprised by the suggestion. āYou? Telling me to take a break? Whatās gotten into you?ā
āEven I take breaks sometimes.ā
Skeptical, you raised an eyebrow. āReally? Iāve never seen it.ā
Instead of responding, Ni-ki stood up and stretched, motioning for you to follow him. āCome on. Letās walk around for a few minutes.ā
Confused but curious, you followed him out of the library and into the cool night air. The two of you walked in silence for a while, the soft breeze helping to clear your mind. After a few minutes, Ni-ki broke the silence.
āYou push yourself too hard sometimes.ā
You glanced at him, surprised by the observation. āYouāre one to talk.ā
He shrugged āMaybe. But I know when to stop.ā
But perhaps the most unexpected moment came one late afternoon, as you both sat in the library, quietly working on your respective assignments. You were in a lighter mood that day, having finally finished an essay that had been plaguing you for weeks. Feeling more relaxed, you absentmindedly began talking about the ridiculous antics of a few fellow students during Herbology, mimicking the professor's reactions with exaggerated gestures and voices.
Ni-ki, as usual, didnāt say much, just listened with his usual calm expression. But then, something shifted. When you imitated Professor Sprout tripping over a Mandrake root, you caught itāthe faintest twitch of his lips. At first, you thought you had imagined it, but then it happened again. His lips curved up into a small smile, and for a brief moment, Ni-kiās usually composed face broke into something entirely different.
You froze mid-sentence, staring at him in shock. Ni-kiāquiet, serious, and often unreadableāwas smiling. Not just a polite smile, but a genuine one, and you could see a glint of amusement in his dark eyes.
āWhat?ā he asked, raising an eyebrow as he noticed your stunned expression.
āIā¦ I didnāt know you could smile,ā you blurted out, completely forgetting your earlier train of thought.
Ni-kiās smile widened, and then, to your utter disbelief, a soft chuckle escaped him. It was quiet and brief, but it was thereāa real laugh. And suddenly, the cold, distant image you had of him cracked just a little more, revealing something warmer, something softer beneath the surface.
He quickly composed himself, the smile fading but not disappearing entirely. āIām not a statue,ā he said dryly, though there was a playful glimmer in his eyes that you had never seen before.
āI mean, I guess I just assumedā¦ā you trailed off, still processing the fact that you had just witnessed Ni-ki laugh.
And then, with a small smile still playing at the corners of his lips, Ni-ki returned to his work, leaving you to sit there.
But one of the most memorable moments between you happened during a study session where, for once, things were going smoothly. You were both focused on your work when a random thought popped into your head, and without thinking, you said it aloud.
āDo you think Professor McGonagallās animagus form ever accidentally knocks things off tables like a real cat?ā
Ni-ki looked up at you, clearly confused. āWhat?ā
You laughed, suddenly realizing how ridiculous the thought sounded. āI mean, sheās a cat, right? What if she just canāt help herself and bats things off desks?ā
For a moment, Ni-ki just stared at you, and you thought he was going to tell you off for not focusing. But then, to your utter shock, he started laughingāa real, genuine laugh. It wasnāt loud, but it was pure, and the sound of it made your heart skip a beat.
āWhy would you even think of that?ā he asked, still chuckling.
You shrugged, grinning. āI donāt know. It just popped into my head.ā
Ni-ki shook his head, still smiling. āYouāre ridiculous.ā
But there was no malice in his words, only a warmth that hadnāt been there before. And in that moment, you realized just how much closer the two of you had become. And seeing him laughāreally laughāwas something you wouldnāt forget anytime soon.
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It was a quiet afternoon when it happened. You had just finished another study session in the library with Ni-ki. He had helped you with a particularly difficult problem, and though he was his usual quiet self, you had left feeling a sense of warmthālike things between you were truly starting to shift. Maybe Ni-ki didnāt always show it in public, but you were sure he valued your time together, even if it was mostly in the library.
However, as you made your way through the corridors, feeling content from the productive session, a group of girlsāNi-kiās admirers, if you were honestāblocked your path. Their expressions werenāt friendly, and you could tell right away that something was off.
Before you could say anything, they pushed you into an empty classroom, closing the door behind you. The leader of the group, a girl you recognized as one of Ni-kiās more obsessive followers, crossed her arms, sneering.
āSo,ā she began, voice dripping with disdain, āyou think you're special, huh? Just because you spend time with Ni-ki in the library?ā
You froze, your heart pounding. You didnāt know what to say, so you just stared at them, trying to keep calm.
āDo you actually believe he cares about you?ā another one chimed in. āHeās just too polite to tell you to leave him alone.ā
You opened your mouth to defend yourself, but the leader cut you off. āOh, please. He pities you. You should hear the things people say. Theyāre always wondering why he wastes his time on someone like you.ā
Her words hit hard, and before you could stop yourself, you blurted out, āThatās not true. He helps me because heāā
āBecause he what?ā she interrupted with a cruel laugh. āBecause he likes you? Donāt be stupid. He only tolerates you. He never talks to you outside the library, does he?ā
That made you pause. It was trueāNi-ki never approached you in the halls, never spoke to you outside of your library sessions. He barely acknowledged you in class unless it was absolutely necessary. Even when you saw him with his friends, he acted as if you didnāt exist.
They could see the doubt in your eyes, and the girl smirked, sensing victory. āSee? You know itās true. If he really liked you, why would he act like you donāt exist when youāre not sitting across from him in the library?ā
You stayed silent, unable to find an answer. The doubts they were planting in your mind started to grow roots, wrapping around your thoughts and pulling you into a spiral of overthinking.
āHe probably thinks youāre a burden,ā one of the girls said with a mocking laugh. āI mean, why else would he avoid you in front of his friends? He doesnāt want them to see him hanging out with someone like you.ā
The words stung, each one cutting deeper than the last. You tried to fight back, tried to tell yourself that Ni-kiās quiet nature didnāt mean he didnāt care, but their accusations fed into your worst fears. What if you really were just a burden to him? What if he did pity you, and thatās why he never spoke to you outside of your study sessions?
You kept quiet, and they could see they had hit their mark.
āFace it,ā the leader said, stepping closer with a satisfied smirk. āNi-ki feels sorry for you. Youāre nothing to him.ā
You bit your lip, holding back the sting of tears. You didnāt want to give them the satisfaction of seeing you cry, but the words had already wormed their way into your head. Why did he only talk to you in the library? Why didnāt he ever approach you outside of that space? You thought you had gotten closer to him, but maybe you had been wrong all along.
They left you there in the empty classroom, their mocking laughter echoing in the halls as they disappeared. You stood frozen in place, your thoughts swirling with doubt and confusion, questioning everything you thought you knew about Ni-ki and your growing connection with him.
That one question kept repeating in your mind: Why didnāt he talk to you outside of the library?
After that confrontation in the empty classroom, you couldnāt shake the words that had been thrown at you. The girls' taunts, the doubts they had planted in your mindāthey echoed endlessly, gnawing at your thoughts and twisting everything you thought you knew about your relationship with Ni-ki. Every time you walked through the halls, you felt a strange weight on your chest.
You began to pull away, slowly at first. It started with cutting your library sessions shorter. Where once you might have lingered for hours, speaking to Ni-ki about anything and everything, now you found yourself packing up your things earlier, offering hurried excuses about homework or other commitments. Ni-ki would glance at you but never say much, and his silence only added to your doubts. It was almost like he didnāt notice your growing distance, or maybe, you thought bitterly, he didnāt care enough to ask.
The distance grew wider as the days passed. You started skipping your library sessions altogether, avoiding the places you knew Ni-ki would be. The once-familiar space where the two of you had shared quiet moments now felt like a weight, a place filled with uncertainty and confusion. You didnāt know what to make of your feelings, or of Ni-kiās. Were you really just a burden to him? Did he pity you, as they had said?
It hurt too much to face him, so you stopped trying.
In the hallways, you could feel his gaze on you. Even if you werenāt looking, you knew when Ni-ki was nearby. It was as if some invisible thread still tied the two of you together, but now it felt frayed and fragile, a connection you didnāt know how to mend. You passed by him in the corridors, your head down, avoiding his eyes at all costs. In the Great Hall, you chose seats far away from where he and his Slytherin friends sat. But somehow, it didnāt matter. You could feel his eyes on you from across the room, his gaze following your every move, and each time, it sent a wave of guilt crashing over you.
You never looked back at him, though. You couldnāt.
You skipped classes you shared with him. It started with one or two missed lectures, but eventually, it became a pattern. Without him, you struggled, barely scraping by with borrowed notes from friends. They werenāt as clear or detailed as Ni-kiās notes, but they would have to do. You couldnāt bring yourself to ask him for help again.
Despite all your attempts to avoid him, Ni-kiās presence lingered everywhere. You didnāt know if it was your mind playing tricks on you, or if he really was watching you more closely now. Whatever it was, you felt more conflicted than ever. You wondered if he noticed your absence, if he cared, but then that gnawing insecurity crept back in, reminding you of what those girls had said. Heās just too polite to tell you to leave him alone.
The more you thought about it, the more you withdrew. Doubts clouded every memory of your time with Ni-ki, twisting your perception of everything heād done for youāthe notes, the help with your studies, the quiet moments youād shared. What if it had all been one-sided? What if you had been nothing more than a project, a pity case?
And so, you kept your distance, avoiding the boy whose piercing gaze you could no longer bear to meet, and wondering if maybe, in the end, they had been right all along.
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You had been so lost in your thoughts, your mind circling around the same questions, the same doubts, that you didnāt even realize where your feet were taking you. It wasnāt until you glanced up that you noticed the dim, cold lighting of the dungeons, the walls lined with stone, and the distant murmur of voices. You froze, recognizing how close you were to the Slytherin dorms.
Instinctively, you were about to turn and head back the way you came when the sound of laughter caught your attention. It was light, warm, and carefreeāa sound that felt almost foreign in this part of the castle. Curious, despite yourself, you peeked around the corner.
Your breath caught in your throat.
Standing there, casually leaning against the wall, was Ni-ki. His head was tilted slightly back, his face scrunched up in genuine amusement, his white teeth flashing in a wide grin. He was laughing, his eyes crinkling at the edges, his normally stoic expression completely replaced by something so light and happy that it shocked you. You had never seen him like this before. His laugh, his smile. It made him seem younger, softer, almostā¦adorable. For a moment, you were completely transfixed, unable to tear your gaze away from him.
But then, your eyes flickered to the people surrounding him. His friendsāother Slytherins you recognizedāwere standing nearby, laughing along with him. Among them, you spotted a few of the girls who had cornered you in the empty classroom, their cruel words still echoing in your mind. The sight of them, standing so close to Ni-ki, chatting and laughing as if everything was normal, sent a jolt of discomfort through you.
And then, before you could react, one of Ni-kiās friends noticed you. His expression shifted slightly as he leaned in to whisper something in Ni-kiās ear.
Ni-ki turned.
Your heart dropped.
His gaze locked onto yours from across the hallway, his laughter fading instantly. Your body reacted before your mind could catch up, a gasp escaping your lips as you quickly turned on your heel and speed-walked down the hallway, trying to put as much distance between yourself and that scene as possible.
Your heart was pounding, your thoughts racing. He was laughing with them. With those girlsā¦ The image of his bright smile, so carefree, so natural, was seared into your mind, but it was tainted now by the memory of the people surrounding himāthe people who had made you doubt everything.
Had he heard what they said? Did he know?
You didnāt wait to find out. All you knew was that you needed to get as far away from the dungeons, and from Ni-ki, as quickly as possible.
You didnāt exactly know how you ended up in the library, but here you were, tucked away in a quiet, hidden corner that no one ever really bothered with. It was your place, somewhere you used to come to study, or more recently, to avoid. The shelves towered above you, enclosing you in their safe, comforting silence, but it did little to ease the heavy weight in your chest.
Wiping away the stray tears that had already started to fall, you slid down to the floor, pulling your knees up to your chest. Your bag dropped beside you with a soft thud, the books spilling out carelessly, but you didnāt bother to pick them up. It felt like too much effort, like you couldnāt muster the energy to do anything but curl in on yourself.
Tears fell freely now, and you buried your face in your arms, trying to muffle the soft sobs that escaped. Everything had justā¦ built up. The confusion, the distance, the hurt from what Ni-kiās admirers had said, and now seeing him so happy without you. You had tried to tell yourself that it didnāt matter, that he was just a library acquaintance, but the truth was that it did matter. More than you wanted to admit.
The quiet of the library felt like it was pressing down on you, suffocating in its stillness, yet at the same time, it was the only place where you could let go like this. Where no one would see you, no one would ask questions, and no one would tell you that you were being silly for feeling this way.
You cried softly, the hurt youād been bottling up for so long finally breaking free. The words of those girls echoed in your mind, their sneering voices telling you that Ni-ki pitied you, that he didnāt care, that you were nothing to him. The worst part was that you had started to believe it.
The image of Ni-ki laughing with his friends flashed before your eyes again, and it only deepened the ache in your chest. He seemed so happy, soā¦ distant. And you? You were nothing but a fading presence, something he could ignore outside of your shared library sessions. You had convinced yourself that maybe you had become friends, maybe there was something more, but now, it all felt like a lie.
The sobs came harder now, your chest tightening painfully as you curled further into yourself. You didnāt want to care this much. You didnāt want to feel this way. But here you were, hiding in the shadows of the library, crying over someone you werenāt even sure cared about you at all.
The quiet shuffling beside you broke through your tears, making you look up from your curled position. Your heart skipped a beat when you saw Ni-ki standing right there, holding your bag in his hand, his face full of worry. His usually composed expression was soft, eyebrows knitted together as he searched your face.
"You okay?" he asked, his voice gentle, almost hesitant.
You sniffled, quickly wiping your nose with the back of your sleeve and nodding, though your heart wasnāt in the gesture. You looked away, half-expecting him to leave like always, to walk away and give you space. But instead, you heard him set his bag down. You glanced at him, shocked, as he sat beside you on the floor.
Ni-ki leaned back against the shelves, closing his eyes for a moment before sighing deeply. "I know youāve been avoiding me," he said, his voice softer than usual, yet it held a vulnerability you werenāt used to hearing from him. He opened his eyes, looking directly at you, and asked, "Did I do something wrong?"
You sat up, startled by his question. "What? No, no, of course you didnāt!" you answered quickly, panic rising in your chest.
He tilted his head slightly, clearly unconvinced. "Then whyā¦" His words trailed off as he sighed again. He looked at you, his expression filled with something close to concern. "Pleaseā¦ tell me. Iām worried about you," he admitted, his voice quiet.
His words made your heart clench. You could see the sincerity in his eyes, and it made it harder to stay quiet. You gulped, trying to steady yourself. This was the moment you had been dreading. You didnāt want to tell him, didnāt want to say the words that had been haunting you since that confrontation. But seeing him here, sitting beside you, waiting for an explanationāit was enough to make you break.
"Iā¦" You began, your voice shaky. "Itās not you, Ni-ki, really. You didnāt do anything wrong." You took a deep breath, trying to calm your racing thoughts. "Some girlsā¦ they confronted me, said that you pitied me. That you thought I was a burdenā¦ and it got in my head. They asked why you never talk to me outside the library, andā¦ I started wondering if they were right."
Ni-kiās expression shifted immediately, his brows furrowing in confusion. "What? Why would they say that?"
You shrugged, looking down at your hands. "They said I was stupid for even thinking we were friendsā¦ that I didnāt matter to you outside of studying."
There was a long pause, the silence hanging heavily between you. You couldnāt bring yourself to meet his gaze, too afraid of what you might see in his eyes. But then, after what felt like an eternity, Ni-kiās voice broke the silence.
"Thatās not true," he said quietly, his tone firm but gentle. "Youāre not a burden. I donāt pity you."
You slowly looked up at him, surprised by the intensity in his gaze. His usual calm exterior was gone, replaced by something raw, something real.
"I didnāt know you felt like that," Ni-ki continued, his voice soft. "Iā¦ I just didnāt think youād want to hang out with me outside the library. I didnāt think I was someone youād want to be around like that."
Your eyes widened in disbelief. "What? Butā¦ youāre always surrounded by people. Why would you think that?"
He laughed softly, shaking his head. "Yeah, people, not friends. Most of them just see me as Ni-ki, the Slytherin prefect or whatever. I donātā¦ I donāt let people in easily. But youā¦" He trailed off, searching for the right words. "I guess I didnāt realize how much I enjoyed your company until you started avoiding me."
His words made your heart race, and you couldnāt help but feel a flicker of warmth amidst all the confusion and hurt.
"Iām sorry," you whispered. "I didnāt mean to make assumptions or push you away. I justā¦ I didnāt know what to think."
Ni-ki shook his head, his gaze softening. "Itās okay. I shouldāve been more clear with you." He hesitated for a moment, then added, "I want you to knowā¦ I donāt just think of you as someone I study with. Iā¦" He trailed off again, his cheeks tinting the faintest shade of pink.
You blinked, caught off guard by the sudden shift in his demeanor. He looked vulnerable, in a way you had never seen before.
"I care about you," he finally said, the words slow and deliberate, as if he had been holding onto them for a long time. "More than you think."
Your breath caught in your throat at his admission. For a moment, you just sat there, staring at him, unsure of how to respond. The sincerity in his voice, the way he was looking at youāit made your chest tighten in a way that was both overwhelming and comforting.
"Iā¦" you started, your voice faltering. You didnāt know what to say, how to express the whirlwind of emotions swirling inside you.
But you didnāt have to say anything, because in that moment, Ni-ki smiled at youāgenuinely smiled, the corners of his lips turning up, his eyes softening. It was a small, almost shy smile, but it was enough to make you realize that everything you had been overthinking, all the doubts and insecurities, had been for nothing.
Ni-ki cared. He had always cared.
Ni-ki stayed by your side, his presence steady and comforting as you finally let the weight of everything spill out. You told him about the girls, your voice shaky at first, but as you continued, you felt lighter, as though every word lifted a little bit of the burden off your chest. His expression shifted the moment you named them, his brows drawing together in a way youād never seen beforeāserious, almost dangerous.
For a moment, you worried that he might storm off, that his calm demeanor would crack and heād go after them. But instead, he simply listened, his face tight with restrained anger, and when you finished, he surprised you once again.
He opened his arms.
Without a second thought, you slid into his embrace, feeling his warmth surround you, his arms wrapping securely around your back. His chin rested lightly on top of your head, and for the first time in what felt like forever, you smiledāa real, genuine smile.
"They were wrong," he murmured softly, his voice vibrating through his chest. "You mean so much more to me than they could ever understand."
You felt your heart swell at his words, the knot in your stomach slowly unraveling. He didnāt hate you. He never had.
When you finally pulled back from the hug, your gaze met his, and the intensity of his eyes made your breath hitch. His face was still close, his cheeks tinged with the faintest blush. He opened his mouth to say something, but then he paused, swallowing nervously.
"Iā¦" he began, his voice a little shaky. "I need to tell you something." His eyes darted away for a moment before finding yours again, determination setting in. "Iāve beenā¦ thinking about this for a while, and I justā" He sighed, clearly flustered. "I donāt know how to say it."
You blinked, taken aback by his sudden vulnerability. Ni-ki, the calm, collected boy who never seemed to let anything rattle him, was stuttering and blushing, his usual composure unraveling before your eyes.
"I-I like you," he blurted out, his face now fully red. "A lot. I have for a while, but I didnāt know how to say it. Iām not good at this stuff, and I didnāt want to make things weird between us, but when you started avoiding me, Iā"
He was rambling now, his words spilling out in a rush, and you could tell he was struggling to keep up with his own thoughts. It was so unlike him, seeing him this vulnerable, this unsure. It was endearing.
Before he could continue, you acted on impulse, reaching up to gently cup his face and pulling him toward you. His eyes widened in surprise just before your lips met his.
For a split second, you could feel his shock, his body freezing beneath your touch. But then, just as quickly, he melted into the kiss, his hands coming up to cup the sides of your face, pulling you closer. His lips were soft, hesitant at first, but then the kiss deepened, his movements growing more sure, more confident. He held you like you were something precious, something he didnāt want to let go of.
The world seemed to disappear around you, the weight of everything that had been bothering you fading away in the warmth of his embrace. It was just you and Ni-ki, the soft press of his lips against yours, the way he held you like heād been waiting for this moment for longer than either of you realized.
When you finally pulled back, your heart was racing, your face warm from the intensity of the moment. Ni-ki stared at you, his lips slightly parted, still processing what had just happened.
"Iā¦ uhā¦" He blinked, his usual calm demeanor shattered, and it made you smile.
"That was your way of saying you like me too, huh?" he asked with a sheepish grin, his thumb brushing softly against your cheek.
You laughed softly, nodding. "Yeahā¦ I like you too, Ni-ki."
His smile widened, this time filled with a mixture of relief and happiness. "Iām glad," he said softly, his voice warm and full of sincerity.
For a moment, you both just sat there, basking in the newfound closeness, the tension that had been between you for weeks dissolving into something sweet, something real.
"Letās forget about those girls," he murmured after a while, his forehead resting gently against yours. "They donāt know what theyāre talking about. All that matters is you and me, okay?"
You nodded, your heart full. "Okay."
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The imagery in this is just neat. NEAT.
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another update! first record of the collection. second hand but never been played. just nice to have it. . huge print of geneviĆØve's art and witch hazel details on the record itself :' )
the only other record i own is a gift for the end by mariee siou. i dont usually buy them but i like it as a whole artwork. mount eerie especially treats the records as the finished whole version of his art
3 more CDs added to my collection (the top row). they're all second-hand but Now Only seems barely even opened so thats nice. also i love the wee drawing on the disk, made me think of these lyrics from crow pt. 2
(CDs from left to right: the singing from mount eerie, mount eerie, now only, winds poem, lost wisdom, black wooden)
#i think the whole collection is second hand so thats neat#but ill buy thiings directly from pwelverum&sun eventually. its just a lot of shipping price (undertstandbly) but i'd like to get#physical copies obvs but also a bunch of geneviĆØve's work#like books and cds#kiddo say#mount eerie#musicposting
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