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shredsandpatches Ā· 5 months ago
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Yesterday I was standing at a crosswalk waiting for the light to change and thinking about the Tuba mirum movement from the Mozart Requiem (since I am learning it for solo cover auditions) and then someone rode past me on a bike carrying a tuba
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koskela-knights Ā· 2 months ago
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ā€œCan my brother and I stay over at your house during the day? I promise, we wonā€™t be of any nuisance to you. Better yet, we can help reinforce the defences on this building during night.ā€
Inspired by the indie horror game No Iā€™m Not Human
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lavenderjewels Ā· 8 months ago
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Jjk 260 spoilers ā—ļø
So do people genuinely think Gojo is back or is it agreed that itā€™s a cliffhanger to trick fans. Because right now, it seems too fake or likely Sukuna seeing his eventual end in sight, but even on the chance itā€™s real, there has to be a catch
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famewolf Ā· 1 year ago
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finished act 3 of kentucky route zero!
the music continues to be indescribably beautiful and the vibes are utterly eerie but in a strangely comforting way.
i find myself both unnerved but at home within the dialogue and the audio is perfect.
idk what it is about this game, but i'm totally drawn in. just spent 20 minutes on an in-game phone call learning about the strange ecosystem of a river (and also how to talk to a snake).
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velvetjune Ā· 5 months ago
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i played the remastered alan wake a while back and am replaying the original on steam, and, honestly, theyā€™re so similar, I couldnā€™t tell which is which if you held up comparisons. ive come across reviews about the game looking outdated and bad (mostly compared to other releases in that time), but the original looks great and I like the hazy dark lighting for both this and awan
#might delete#I canā€™t wait to run into all the product placements#like yeah I know itā€™s not. top graphics of that year. but Iā€™ve stopped and looked at the environment So many times. itā€™s pretty!#this is because im biased but I *loved* AWANs choice of scenery. although I wish it was as detailed and expansive as the original games#all of remedyā€™s games do pretty great in terms of the environment. ignore controls terrible map and the Oldest House is an incredible space#to navigate just by following signs and all the little details. the atmosphere!#donā€™t even need to explain how aw2 is good with that#but even Max Payne 1 has this beautiful eerie quality where everything is this fever dream of grungy or old environments#even before the literal nightmare sequence it felt like navigating a dream of this Not New York City. like of course itā€™s likely born from#the limitations the developers had when making it. but the emptiness and placement of npcs added to the experience#QB so far is my least favorite in its style and environment but itā€™s still had some good moments. the use of flashbacks + time overlapping#onto abandoned and destroyed environments was genius. the college campus itself and the train(?) cargo(?) area was neat to go through#thereā€™s some really good stuff there! *im also. not done with QB so im still hoping things get more wild!!#im honestly more forgiving of QB as a whole and find it interesting since it went through a lot of hell in its development#this might seem negative but itā€™s not! itā€™s a shockingly beautiful game. graphics exceed expectations#the style and some locations is where itā€™s more boring for me. but still good. im so tempted to buy it on steam to finally finish it#endless apologies if u opened this and ur entire page opened up an essays worth of tags
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lovesanimefanart Ā· 10 months ago
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I got to witness totality and managed some photos :)
Taken on an S23 Ultra
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rjavenuru Ā· 11 months ago
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@00kie-sp00kie I think this might actually be a wedding picture...
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hauntsect Ā· 10 months ago
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Imagine this man is actively torturing you and, when he turns around, you see he is wearing a cutesy bow because he is vanillacore like that.
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honourablejester Ā· 2 years ago
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Please please please please please PLEASE tell me more about liminal, daytime, and neatness horror. I'm obsessed with the idea of horror that's horrific because it's just- slightly wrong somehow. Like something just feels off. (sending this in again to leave my signature, the seamstress anon. Please put #seamstress in the tags of the answer so I can find it when you answer)
Not going to lie, Iā€™m not one hundred percent sure what you want from me here? The fact that youā€™re linking those three says youā€™ve probably already had a browse around those tags on my blog, so Iā€™ll have to try not to repeat myself, and Iā€™m not fully sure what new thing you want.
But, I guess, a linking theme between the three of them, daytime, liminal and neat horror, would be ā€¦
Theyā€™re not necessarily monster horror, jump-scare horror. They can include them, but the moments weā€™re talking about, sunshine and incongruous neatness and between places, theyā€™re not about action, being attacked, theyā€™re about dread. Eeriness, unreality, wrongness. Theyā€™re about looking around something that looks relatively normal and your brain just going ā€˜something is wrongā€™.
We donā€™t expect horror in the daytime. Horror is a thing of darkness, thatā€™s its natural environment, where we canā€™t see, where unknown things lurk to leap out at us. To have horror happen in daytime adds a layer of unreality, affront, this doesnā€™t belong here. This isnā€™t supposed to be happening. Not now. Why is this happening when itā€™s bright out? When Iā€™m supposed to be safe?
Neatness evokes the same feeling. Thereā€™s a layer of wrongness, of something out of place, of something happening that doesnā€™t fit with the rest of whatā€™s around it. Neatness, played right, is a step away from reality, from the natural, a layer of artifice and someoneā€™s doing something layered over the world around us.
And liminal spaces, those perpetual in-betweens, the bus stops and hotel corridors and doorways or gates that lead nowhere, theyā€™re always unreal, always in-between, places where no one belongs, places where no one knows you and no one cares. Anything could happen at one of those places, and nobody would care in the morning. You look around them, and your brain knows that they arenā€™t places to stay, they arenā€™t places to belong, they arenā€™t safe.
The feeling, every time, is a sort of subconscious dread, a wariness, an eeriness, the feeling of looking around and feeling that somethingā€™s in the wrong place, that you are in the wrong place. Itā€™s not about fear, as such, but about uneasiness, uncertainty, affront.
As humans, we like things to be where theyā€™re supposed to be, doing what theyā€™re supposed to do. We like order, and safety, and things being as we expect. These things, incongruity, transience, emptiness, trespass, theyā€™re not about visceral horror, theyā€™re about the itchy, unsafe feeling in your brain when something isnā€™t where itā€™s supposed to be, isnā€™t doing what itā€™s supposed to do. You feel unsafe, not because thereā€™s necessarily a visible threat, but because some part of you canā€™t help but instinctually feel that something is wrong and that means thereā€™s a potential threat. And the thing with potential threats, as opposed to visible threats, is that you canā€™t deal with them. Not until they materialise. Thereā€™s a dread, thereā€™s a paranoia, because the layer of safety and normality around you is stripped away by the feeling that something invisible is wrong, and thereā€™s no undoing that. Daylight doesnā€™t protect you. Somethingā€™s out there, somethingā€™s tidying. No one belongs here, no one will notice what they do to you.
This type of horror is about stripping away safety, stripping away expectation, leaving only unease and paranoia and dread underneath. Itā€™s not (at least necessarily) about a single violent threat, itā€™s about ā€¦ taking away the safeties. Thereā€™s no one around whoā€™ll care. It doesnā€™t need the dark. Even your own mind isnā€™t necessarily safe, with the world being arranged this way around it.
Thereā€™s an affront to all of these types of horror, and a slow, pervasive dread. Itā€™s wrong, itā€™s all wrong, but itā€™s happening anyway, and none of the normal safeties can stop it.
Itā€™s about dread, not fear. Uneasiness, wariness, unreality. The basic feeling that something is wrong, and no one can stop it. Maybe no one but you even sees it. They see the expected thing, and you donā€™t, and what can you do with that? Who, what, can you trust? Even yourself?
Break down expectations, normality, safety, and see what slow, insidious horrors lurk underneath, behind, through.
I do adore this sort of horror so much. It takes more time, you have to set the tone and the expectations more carefully, before you slowly strip them away, but the effect once accomplished is spectacular. I love the eeriness and the pervasiveness of it.
Um. I hope thatā€™s what you wanted?
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itsjuliak5 Ā· 2 years ago
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In Endgame, Scott said that 5 hours in the quantum realm is 5 years in the normal world, so how long were they in the quantum realm for in Quantumania? The run time of the movie is 2 hours so were they gone for about 2 years in the real world? Or maybe there was some universe swapping tomfoolery, somewhat similar to the end of Loki?
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ectoamerican Ā· 2 years ago
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ā€” character associations
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animal. black and white ravens or crows. color(s). toxic/radioactive shades of green, icy blue/cyan, purple, red, white, black. month. october. song. morph by twenty-one pilots. number. 14 day or night. night. plant. snapdragons. smell. chemical. season. fall. place. an empty high school. food. burgers and fries. astrological sign. scorpio. element. lightning. drink. soda.
tagging: YOU!
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deiscension Ā· 4 months ago
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ļ¹„ ā—‡ ; @dernarrleid / left a prayer ā€” white oleander, pt. 2.
sometimes attention hurts more than it helps. (johan)
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Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā āŒœā—ˆāŒŸ Ā  Ā ā–Œ ā”€ā”€Ā š’š”šž š”ššš š›šžšžš§ š­š”šž šØš§šž š­šØ ššš©š©ļæ½ļ潚Øšššœš” š”š¢š¦, tottering in too-tall heels and focusing on not dropping the uncapped bottle of water trying its utmost to slip through her fingers. Her motivations are laughably simple: everyone was inside partying 'til they dropped, he was outside instead, and that seemed awful lonely. So with water in hand just in case he wasn't feeling well, she had slipped from the din of music and out the quiet street.
Ā  Ā  š‡š¢š¬ šŸšššœšž š„šØšØš¤š¬ šŸššš¦š¢š„š¢ššš«. Is he someone's friend from college or work? Childhood friend? Boyfriend? Ex? Agent? Each role feels less likely than the next. With a shrug meant more to keep her coat on than to dismiss the thought, she decides it's better to find out organically.
Ā  Ā š’š”šž šœššš§'š­ š¤šžšžš© š­š«šššœš¤ šØšŸ š°š”ššš­ š¬š”šž š”ššš¬ šØš« š”ššš¬š§'š­ š¬ššš¢š. Likely she's introduced herself ('Shi Qingxuan, although most people here know me by my online alias!'), promised she wasn't drunk ('Just tipsy! It takes way more than what I've had for me to get plastered.' Not drunk, just bubbly and loose and weightless, the way she wants to be now and forever), asked if he needs water or a smoke or both. If she's given him any time to answer, it's all melted into the comfortable if not disorienting warmth of insobriety pumping through her veins.
Ā  Ā  šš®š­ š­š”šžš§ š”šž š¬ššš²š¬ š­š”ššš­, and she slips off the tightrope separating from reality. Not even all the alcohol in the world could buoy her back up to cloud nine.
Ā  Ā  š’šØš¦šžšØš§šž šžš„š¬šž š”ššš¬ š¬ššš¢š š­š”š¢š¬ š­šØ š”šžš« š›šžšŸšØš«šž. Recollection dampened by the across her brain and eroding childhood memories, she can't quite grasp what the circumstances calling for such an ill portent had been, nor if it had been delivered to her or the parents who had failed to heed it. Maybe she's making it up. Confabulation. That's what the trauma therapist at the hospital had called it when she had insisted something (something, not someone) had caused the accident and left her alive on purpose, that it had been following her since before she could even walk, just ask my brother, he'll tell you. Funny how she's able to remember something she'd been told at fourteen while high off a cocktail of painkillers and fear and not why such a simple statement makes her feel the need to run away.
Ā  Ā  Ā š“š”ššš­ š°ššš¬ š­š”šžš§. This is now. The two events are unrelated, and he probably just wants her out of his space without having to be too mean.
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Ā  Ā  "š–šØš°, ššš„š«š¢š š”š­, š°ššš² š­šØ š›šž šš š­šØš­ššš„ š›š®š³š³š¤š¢š„š„!"Ā she laughs, the sound as ebullient as a springtime breeze. "You can be more forward if you want me to scram. I've got thick skin." That, and she finds she's not ready to leave his company just yet. She can't put her finger on why. A silly whim, more likely than not. But if there's one thing it is, it's stubborn. So with a sigh, she makes herself comfortable on the curbside while adding, "I'm not saying you're wrong; I just think it's way too pessimisstic." She pauses to waterfall some of the now-lukewarm water into her dry mouth, then holds it up. "Want some? It's the good stuff."
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lesbianraskolnikov Ā· 8 months ago
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It is kind of funny thinking on my headcanon like naturally im googling that where im like Did anyone else have this thought and a few people yes! I tend to see other diagnoses which are usually fair. But also stumbling upon someone else thinking that by chance was so DELIGHTFUL i still clap when i see others mention it like YES!!! YEAH!!!!
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elikajinnie Ā· 4 months ago
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Hate Is A Strong Word - N.R
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P: Slytherin!Ni-ki X fem!reader
Synopsis: You never imagined that the picture perfect Slytherin would like you
Warnings?: Fluff, Misunderstandings, bullying (not from N-ki). Insecurities.
a/n: So this is the start of my Hogwarts au for each of the members. Ni-ki is the first one out! :D The next one will be Jake!
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As the heavy oak doors of the Transfiguration classroom creaked open, you walked in alongside your friend Leeseo. The room, illuminated by large arched windows that allowed beams of sunlight to dance across the stone floor, was already buzzing with the chatter of students.
Leeseo nudged you gently, her eyes sparkling with anticipation. ā€œI heard todayā€™s lesson is going to be something really challenging,ā€ she whispered, her excitement barely contained. You nodded, sharing her eagerness. Transfiguration was one of the most fascinating subjects at Hogwarts, and Professor McGonagallā€™s classes were always a blend of rigorous discipline and awe-inspiring magic.
As you took your seats, you glanced toward the front of the classroom. There, standing tall and composed by the blackboard, was Professor McGonagall. Her stern yet kind eyes surveyed the room, ensuring everyone was settled. With her wand in hand, she exuded an air of authority and wisdom, her emerald robes flowing gracefully around her.
The murmurs gradually subsided as McGonagall stepped forward, her presence commanding your attention. ā€œGood morning, class,ā€ she began, her voice clear and steady. ā€œToday, we will be advancing to human transfiguration, a complex and delicate branch of magic that requires utmost precision and concentration.ā€
The mention of human transfiguration sent a ripple of excitement and nervousness through the room. You exchanged a quick, thrilled glance with Leeseo. This was the kind of magic that defined wizardry, the intricate spells that transformed the very essence of matter.
Professor McGonagall flicked her wand, and the blackboard behind her filled with neat, precise instructions and diagrams. ā€œNow, before we begin, I must remind you of the importance of practice and control. Improper transfiguration can haveā€¦ unintended consequences.ā€ Her eyes swept the room, emphasizing the seriousness of her words.
With a final nod of understanding, you prepared your wand and opened your textbook to the designated chapter.
After Transfiguration, your day continued with a series of classes, each filled with the usual hustle and bustle of student life at Hogwarts. Charms was lively as always, with Professor Flitwickā€™s enthusiastic instruction keeping everyone engaged. Herbology followed, where you worked in the greenhouse, learning about magical plants and their properties.
As the day wore on, you eventually made your way to the dungeon for Potions class. The air grew cooler and the corridors darker as you descended, the flickering torches casting eerie shadows on the stone walls. You and Leeseo entered the dimly lit classroom, settling into your usual seats near the middle. Around you, your classmates were chatting in low tones, the anticipation palpable.
The door swung open with a dramatic flair, and Professor Snape swept into the room, his black robes billowing behind him. The room fell silent instantly, every student turning their attention to the formidable Potions Master. Snapeā€™s presence commanded a certain respectā€”or perhaps fearā€”that was undeniable.
ā€œToday,ā€ Snape began, his voice a silky drawl that carried a hint of menace, ā€œyou will brew a Veritaserum.ā€ He paused, letting the weight of his words settle over the class. ā€œA truth potion, which when correctly brewed, will compel the drinker to reveal their innermost secrets.ā€
He moved to the front of the classroom, where a cauldron was already simmering. With precise, deliberate movements, he began demonstrating the brewing process, adding ingredients with a practiced ease. His every action was fluid, almost mesmerizing, and you found yourself taking meticulous notes, your eyes darting between the instructions in the textbook and Snapeā€™s methodical demonstration.
ā€œTake care to follow the instructions exactly,ā€ Snape intoned, his dark eyes sweeping the room. ā€œAny deviation could render the potion uselessā€¦ or worse.ā€
He finished his demonstration and stepped back, crossing his arms. ā€œI have set up each of you with a partner, so I expect you all to work together,ā€ he announced. The room buzzed with curiosity as you waited for your name to be called.
One by one, Snape called out the pairings. Leeseo was partnered with a Gryffindor student, and soon your name came up. ā€œYou will be working with Nishimura Ni-ki,ā€ Snape declared.
You glanced over at Ni-ki, a Slytherin student known for his cunning nature and sharp intellect. Your eyes met briefly before he stood up and walked toward you, his expression neutral. He took the seat beside you, and for a moment, you simply looked at each other, assessing.
ā€œShall I cut and you brew?ā€ Ni-ki asked, his voice calm and steady.
You nodded in agreement. ā€œThat sounds good.ā€
With a silent understanding, you both began your task. Ni-kiā€™s hands moved deftly, slicing ingredients with precision and efficiency, while you focused on the careful process of brewing, ensuring each step was followed meticulously. Though you didnā€™t converse much, there was an unspoken coordination between you, a shared goal that drove your efforts.
The potion started to take shape, its color gradually shifting as you added each ingredient in turn. Ni-kiā€™s sharp observations and quick corrections were invaluable, and you found yourself appreciating his expertise despite your limited interactions.
As the final stages approached, the potion glowed a soft, silvery hue, indicating you were on the right track. Snape prowled the classroom, occasionally stopping to observe or comment on various pairsā€™ progress. When he reached your desk, he paused, scrutinizing your work with his usual critical eye.
ā€œAcceptable,ā€ he murmured, giving a slight nod before moving on. It was high praise coming from Snape, and you felt a sense of accomplishment.
After you and Ni-ki finished brewing the Veritaserum, you let out a quiet sigh of relief and settled back into your seat. The potion simmered gently, its translucent glow a sign of your successful collaboration. With the class winding down, you pulled out your notebook and began doodling absentmindedly, your mind drifting.
Ni-ki, meanwhile, was meticulously sorting out the remaining ingredients. You stole a quick glance at him, curiosity getting the better of you. His recently dyed light hair hung in front of his eyes, accentuating his piercing stare. Despite his cold demeanor, there was an undeniable intensity in his gaze that seemed to see right through people. His robes fit him perfectly, the black fabric contrasting sharply with his pale complexion. The Slytherin badge, neatly stitched into his robes, was complemented by the prefect badge pinned just beside it, a testament to his standing and discipline.
You had to admit, even if only to yourself, that Ni-ki looked good. There was something striking about him, an aura that was hard to ignore. But you would never voice this thought out loud. You admired him quietly, keeping your appreciation to yourself. Despite his coldness, he wasnā€™t like some of his fellow Slytherins who resorted to bullying and teasing. No, his crime was differentā€”he was aloof, detached, and seemingly emotionless. He was an enigma, always keeping to himself and his close-knit group of peers.
As you doodled, you found your thoughts wandering. What was Ni-ki hiding behind that expressionless face? What would it be like to see him smile, to see his features soften with joy? Did he ever feel sadness, and if so, did he let himself cry? These questions swirled in your mind, each one deepening the mystery that was Ni-ki.
Before you could ponder further, the sound of chairs scraping against the stone floor signaled the end of class. Snapeā€™s curt dismissal barely registered as you blinked, realizing how lost in thought you had become. You looked up to find that Ni-ki had already stood up and left, leaving behind a spotless workstation. The ingredients were neatly put away, the table wiped clean. In your daydreaming, you hadnā€™t even noticed him tidying up.
As you left the Potions classroom, the dark and cool dungeons faded behind you, but your thoughts lingered on Ni-ki. You shook your head, trying to clear the lingering questions that kept popping up about him. It wasnā€™t like you caredā€”he was distant and cold. But the fact that he cleaned up without saying a word or asking for acknowledgmentā€”it was almostā€¦ considerate. Strange for someone like him.
You walked down the stone corridor, heading toward the next class with Leeseo catching up to you. ā€œHow was it working with Ni-ki?ā€ she asked, her voice light and curious.
You shrugged, keeping your expression neutral. ā€œHeā€™s efficient. Doesnā€™t talk much.ā€
Leeseo raised an eyebrow, clearly intrigued. ā€œEfficient? Thatā€™s not the word I expected you to use.ā€ She grinned playfully, nudging you. ā€œYou didnā€™t bicker, did you?ā€
You rolled your eyes. ā€œWe didnā€™t even speak much, to be honest. He justā€¦ does his part and leaves. Not much else to say.ā€
ā€œClassic Ni-ki,ā€ she mused, adjusting her bag over her shoulder. ā€œStill, itā€™s kind of impressive that you got to work with him. Heā€™s got a reputation, you know.ā€
ā€œYeah, Iā€™ve heard.ā€ You kept your voice light, trying not to dwell on the fact that you had spent the better part of Potions class analyzing the guy instead of just brewing the potion. ā€œItā€™s just one class though. Nothing special.ā€
But even as you said it, you couldnā€™t help but wonder why he kept himself so closed off. There was a quiet confidence about him, yes, but also a wall that he didnā€™t seem to let anyone through. It made him mysterious, sure, but also frustrating. What was he hiding? Or was it just his nature, plain and simple?
Leeseo and you reached the courtyard, the cool autumn air refreshing after the confined dungeon. You tilted your head up, letting the breeze rustle through your hair, trying to shake off the distraction that Ni-ki had become in your thoughts.
ā€œWell, heā€™s not bad-looking,ā€ Leeseo added with a grin, catching you completely off guard.
You nearly choked on air, throwing her an incredulous look. ā€œSeriously?ā€
She laughed, her eyes twinkling with mischief. ā€œCome on, you canā€™t deny it. Heā€™s got that whole mysterious, brooding Slytherin thing going on. Youā€™d be blind not to notice.ā€
You groaned, tugging your scarf tighter around your neck as you continued walking. ā€œI donā€™t need any more distractions, thanks. We have enough on our plate with the upcoming exams and essays.ā€ You tried to steer the conversation away, not wanting to admit that, yes, Ni-ki was ridiculously good-looking. Admiring him from afar was one thing, but beyond that? Absolutely not.
Leeseo just smiled knowingly, but thankfully, she let the topic drop as you made your way to the next class. Still, as the day went on, Ni-kiā€™s expressionless face, his precise movements, and the way his hair fell over his eyes refused to leave the corners of your mind.
You sighed to yourself. This was going to be harder to ignore than you thought.
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It all really started one afternoon at the library when you were tucked away at your usual table near the back, surrounded by textbooks and parchment. You were completely immersed in your reading when you noticed a shadow fall across the table.
Looking up, you saw himā€”Nishimura Ni-ki.
Without a word, he pulled out the chair opposite you and sat down. No greeting, no explanation, just the soft sound of him placing his books on the table. He didnā€™t meet your eyes, didnā€™t acknowledge your surprised expression. Instead, he opened his own textbook and began reading, as though it was the most natural thing in the world for him to sit there.
You blinked, taken aback. For a moment, you considered asking him what he was doing. After all, it wasnā€™t as if the library was short on tables, and Ni-ki wasnā€™t exactly known for being social with anyone outside of his Slytherin circle. But instead, you tried to focus on your work, convincing yourself that heā€™d leave soon enough.
But he didnā€™t.
He stayed, flipping through pages, scribbling notes in his neat, precise handwriting. He didnā€™t speak, didnā€™t look at youā€”just sat there, quietly doing his own work. You couldnā€™t help but steal a few glances at him, confused by his presence. Why was he here, sitting with you, of all people?
After what felt like an eternity, you couldnā€™t hold back any longer. "What are you doing?" you asked, keeping your voice low to avoid drawing Madam Pinceā€™s ire.
He didnā€™t look up from his book. "Studying," he replied, his tone clipped and direct.
You raised an eyebrow. "I can see that. But why here?"
For the first time, he looked up, meeting your eyes with that same unreadable expression he always wore. "Is there a problem?" he asked calmly, his voice steady.
You hesitated. He wasnā€™t being rude, exactly, but the way he spoke made it clear he didnā€™t think he needed to explain himself. You shook your head, deciding it wasnā€™t worth pushing further. "No," you muttered, turning back to your own notes.
And so the pattern began.
Each time you came to the library, Ni-ki would show up not long after. Sometimes he arrived before you, already seated at the same table, as if claiming it before you could. Other times, heā€™d stroll in after youā€™d settled down, take his seat across from you, and dive into his work. He never spoke unless you asked him a direct question, and even then, his answers were always short, almost dismissive. It wasnā€™t that he was unkindā€”just distant, like there was no need for conversation.
"Why do you keep sitting here?" you asked one day, after heā€™d settled into the chair across from you for what felt like the hundredth time.
He didnā€™t even look up. "Itā€™s quiet," he answered simply, continuing to write in his notebook.
You frowned, not satisfied with the answer. "There are other tables. You could sit anywhere else."
"True." He glanced up briefly, his eyes meeting yours before flicking back to his book. "But Iā€™m sitting here."
That was all he said. No further explanation, no invitation for more questions. Just a simple, matter-of-fact statement that left you feeling more confused than before.
It wasnā€™t like he was helping you with your work, either. He didnā€™t offer advice, didnā€™t join in on any discussions about the material you were studying. He was justā€¦ there. A quiet presence that made you hyper-aware of his every movement, even though he barely acknowledged you. It was unnerving at first, but over time, you began to expect itā€”Ni-ki would be there, silently doing his own thing while you tried to focus on yours.
There were moments when you found yourself glancing at him more than you should have. His hair, still that light shade, would occasionally fall in front of his eyes, and heā€™d push it back with a practiced motion. His fingers moved with such precision as he wrote, and his posture was always so composed, like he never let himself relax fully.
And yet, despite the quiet, there was something oddly comforting about his presence. It was strange to admit, but in the silence of the library, having him across from you becameā€¦ familiar. Predictable, even.
Still, the lack of interaction left you with more questions than answers. Why sit with you every time if he had no intention of talking? What was he gaining from it? Was it simply convenience, or was there something else going on that you couldnā€™t see?
One afternoon, after another long stretch of silent studying, you finally broke the quiet. "You donā€™t have to sit here, you know."
He paused, his quill hovering over the parchment. His eyes lifted to meet yours, and for a moment, he seemed to consider your words. "I know," he said quietly, his voice softer than usual. "But I am."
And with that, he went back to his work, leaving you with nothing but the steady scratch of his quill and the growing confusion swirling in your mind.
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As the weeks passed, Ni-kiā€™s quiet presence at your table in the library became something you began to anticipate. It was no longer surprising when he pulled out the chair across from you, settling in without a word. At first, it had unnerved youā€”the silent way he occupied the space, his sharp focus on his own work, and the fact that, outside these moments, he didnā€™t acknowledge you at all. But now, somehow, you didnā€™t mind it.
In fact, you found yourself looking forward to it. His quiet company had a strange, calming effect, as if the library wasnā€™t truly complete without him sitting across from you. You had started to expect him there, so much so that on the rare occasions when he wasnā€™t, you couldnā€™t help but feel a little off-kilter, like something was missing from the day.
It wasnā€™t that the two of you had grown closer, at least not in the usual sense. He never spoke unless you asked him a direct question, and even then, his answers were brief and to the point. He offered no opinions, no conversation startersā€”just an occasional glance in your direction, sometimes a quiet nod. And yet, you had grown accustomed to the silence between you, a silence that felt oddly comfortable.
But the strange thing was, beyond these quiet library sessions, it was as if Ni-ki didnā€™t know you at all.
In classes, he barely looked your way. If he did speak to you, it was only because the lesson demanded itā€”when he was your partner for a potion, or during group work in Transfiguration. His responses were always curt, efficient, like he was checking off a box before returning to his own tasks. You would pass each other in the corridors, or see him in the Great Hall, always surrounded by his Slytherin friends, and it was like you didnā€™t exist. Not a glance, not a nod, nothing to suggest he even knew you.
It puzzled you to no end. You werenā€™t sure if it bothered you or just left you more curious. Why go out of his way to sit with you in the library if he had no interest in interacting with you elsewhere? It wasnā€™t like he needed help with his studiesā€”Ni-ki was brilliant in his own right. And it wasnā€™t like you were friends, either. In fact, you had hardly spoken more than a handful of sentences to each other since you first started sharing a table.
You found yourself wondering more and more why he bothered. Why, out of all the places in Hogwarts, did he always choose the spot across from you? Why did he sit with you, week after week, without saying much of anything, only to act as if you didnā€™t exist the moment you left the library?
But you didnā€™t dare ask him. For one thing, Ni-ki was rarely alone. He was almost always surrounded by his Slytherin friendsā€”usually fellow prefects or others from his house, most of whom carried an air of superiority that reminded you why you kept your distance from most of them. There was never a convenient moment to pull him aside, and even if there were, you couldnā€™t imagine what youā€™d say.
And then there was the other part of you, the part that didnā€™t exactly want to know the answer. What if it was something you didnā€™t want to hear? What if the reason was as simple as convenience, or worseā€”what if there was no reason at all? What if, to him, you were just a tablemate, nothing more?
Youā€™d often catch yourself glancing over at him during Potions or in the Great Hall, trying to make sense of him. His friends would be laughing or talking among themselves, and there Ni-ki would be, sitting quietly, his expression unreadable, completely detached from whatever conversation was happening around him. You wondered if he was the same with themā€”distant, aloof, only speaking when necessary.
Sometimes youā€™d catch his eye, and for the briefest moment, you thought you saw somethingā€”maybe recognition, maybe nothing at all. But then, heā€™d look away, and the moment would pass as quickly as it came.
It became a kind of ritualā€”this quiet routine in the library, these fleeting moments of wondering. You couldnā€™t deny the growing curiosity, though. Why did he choose you, out of everyone he could have sat with? And why did it seem like he was perfectly fine with justā€¦ existing alongside you, never crossing the invisible line that separated the two of you?
You wished you had the courage to ask him. But each time you considered it, you reminded yourself of who he wasā€”Nishimura Ni-ki, Slytherin prefect, sharp-tongued and unreadable. He wasnā€™t someone you could just ask a simple, casual question and expect an answer that wouldnā€™t make you regret it.
And besides, maybe it was better this wayā€”better to leave the mystery unsolved than to shatter the quiet routine you had somehow built with him.
Even your friends began to notice. Leeseo had raised her eyebrows the first time she saw Ni-ki sitting with you in the library, but she hadnā€™t said anything beyond the occasional teasing. ā€œYour silent study buddyā€™s here again,ā€ sheā€™d say with a wink when she caught him at the table. ā€œYou two make quite the pair.ā€
You always brushed it off, rolling your eyes at her remarks. But deep down, a part of you wondered if she saw something you were missing. Was there more to Ni-kiā€™s presence than what you had convinced yourself to believe?
It was during one of those quiet afternoons, with parchment spread across the table and the soft scratch of your quill filling the silence, that you found yourself thinking about it more than usual. Why, out of all the students at Hogwarts, did he choose to sit with you? Surely, he had plenty of friends or places he could have gone. And more importantly, why did he never talk to you outside of the library?
Your eyes flicked up to Ni-ki, who was seated across from you as usual, engrossed in a large, ancient-looking tome. His light hair fell over his forehead, slightly tousled from the breeze outside. He looked calm, composed, and completely at ease, as if this had been his routine for years.
A question hovered on the tip of your tongue, one you had been pushing aside for weeks now. But before you could find the courage to ask, Ni-ki suddenly closed his book with a soft thud. You blinked, startled out of your thoughts, and he stood up, gathering his things with that same quiet precision.
He looked at you, his dark eyes briefly meeting yours. For a second, you thought he might say something, but instead, he gave a slight nodā€”his usual, silent goodbye. Without a word, he turned and left the library, his footsteps soft against the stone floor.
You watched him go, feeling that familiar, quiet emptiness settle in his absence.
What you didnā€™t know was that, in Ni-kiā€™s mind, a storm was brewing. A quiet turmoil, hidden beneath his calm exterior, had begun to take shape, and it was all because of you. He had always prided himself on his ability to maintain focus, to keep his thoughts clear and his goals straightforward. But lately, you had become an unexpected variable in his otherwise predictable life.
At first, he had taken little notice of you. You were just another student, one among many who populated Hogwarts. But then, slowly but surely, that indifference had shifted to something elseā€”curiosity. He began to notice the way your brow furrowed in concentration when you studied, the way your lips would curve into a small smile when you finally grasped a particularly tricky concept. There was something intriguing about your determination, something that pulled at the edges of his awareness.
As he continued to share those quiet moments in the library with you, he found himself observing you more intently. He noticed the small things: how you tucked a stray piece of hair behind your ear when you were deep in thought, how your expressions shifted subtly as you worked through problems. You were a puzzle he hadnā€™t expected to encounter, and with each encounter, the mystery deepened.
But it didnā€™t stop there. What began as a mild curiosity morphed into confusion. Ni-ki couldnā€™t quite articulate it, but there was something compelling about youā€”something that made you linger in his thoughts long after he had left the library. Why did your laughter echo in his mind? Why did he find himself glancing in your direction during meals, seeking you out in the crowded Great Hall, even when he was surrounded by his friends?
It was disconcerting, to say the least. He was known for his stoic demeanor, for being the type of person who kept his emotions in check. Yet, here he was, caught in an unyielding tide of thoughts about someone he had initially dismissed. It was frustrating, and a little alarming. He was supposed to be focused on his studies, on his role as a prefect, on maintaining the reputation he had carefully crafted. So why couldnā€™t he shake the feeling that there was something deeper to explore with you?
Every time you caught his gaze across the Great Hall or shared a fleeting moment in the library, the storm would build inside himā€”curiosity colliding with confusion, a need to understand you battling against the fear of opening up. What if you didnā€™t feel the same? What if this was all one-sided, and he was just a distant presence in your life? The idea sent a jolt of uncertainty through him.
Ni-kiā€™s friends began to notice his distraction. They would tease him about how often he seemed to lose focus, how he would sometimes pause mid-conversation, his eyes drifting off to the side as if searching for somethingā€”or someone. But he brushed their remarks aside, masking his inner conflict with indifference.
He found himself wrestling with a mounting desire to approach you, to understand the enigma you represented. But every time he would gather the courage to break that silence, to say something more than the necessary exchanges during class, he hesitated. The distance between you felt both comforting and suffocating.
It was a confusing dichotomy, and Ni-ki was left to navigate his own feelings in silence, unsure of where this newfound intrigue would lead him. All he knew was that every time he sat in front of you in the library, the storm inside him would shiftā€”pushing him closer to the edge of wanting to reach out, even as fear held him back.
He didnā€™t know what to do about it. He didnā€™t know why he kept coming back, why he couldnā€™t stay away, even though he knew that sitting there, in silence, only made things more complicated.
But he couldnā€™t stop. And he didnā€™t want to. He just needed to figure out how.
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It started gradually, almost imperceptibly. The silence between you and Ni-ki began to shift, not in any overt way but in small moments that made it feelā€¦ less heavy. The library sessions continued as they always had, with Ni-ki sitting across from you, his head bent over his books, while you quietly worked on your own assignments. But there were times now when you found yourself speaking.
It started off with casual remarks. Maybe it was the stress of exams or the overwhelming workload that had you venting aloud, but Ni-ki never seemed bothered by it. He didnā€™t offer much in returnā€”just a short nod or a quiet hum of acknowledgmentā€”but he listened.
One evening, after a particularly difficult day, you couldnā€™t hold back anymore. "I just donā€™t get it," you muttered, staring at your Transfiguration textbook in frustration. "No matter how much I study, I canā€™t seem to get this right. And McGonagall keeps assigning more complex material like itā€™s nothing."
Ni-ki looked up, his eyes flicking to the page you were stuck on before settling back on your frustrated expression. He didnā€™t say anything, just kept watching you with that same quiet intensity you had grown used to.
"And," you continued, feeling a strange comfort in speaking your thoughts aloud to him, "thereā€™s this Slytherin who wonā€™t stop picking on me. Every time I pass by them, itā€™s like they have to make some snide comment or knock my bag off my shoulder. Itā€™s ridiculous." You sighed, shaking your head. "But I guess thatā€™s just how it goes sometimes."
Ni-kiā€™s eyes darkened slightly at your words, his jaw tightening, but he said nothing. You didnā€™t expect a response; you were just letting off steam. Somehow, Ni-kiā€™s silent presence always made it easier to say the things that were weighing on you. You could talk to him without fear of judgment or interruption. He just listened, and that was enough.
The next day, something changed. The Slytherin student who had made it their mission to irritate you suddenly stopped. They no longer sneered at you in the halls, no longer made rude remarks or tried to provoke you. In fact, they seemed to go out of their way to avoid you altogether. You didnā€™t understand why, but you werenā€™t about to complain.
And then, there was the folder. It appeared during one of your classes, a neatly organized folder filled with notes on every subject you had been struggling with. The handwriting was unmistakableā€”precise, clean, and undeniably Ni-kiā€™s. The notes were thorough, covering all the topics you had mentioned having trouble with. It was as if he had gone out of his way to compile everything you needed to help you catch up.
You didnā€™t know how to react at first. Gratitude and surprise warred within you as you thumbed through the pages, recognizing the meticulous effort that had gone into writing them. Ni-ki hadnā€™t said a word about it, hadnā€™t even hinted that he was going to help you like this. He had just quietly, and without fanfare, made sure you had everything you needed.
The next time you saw him in the library, you didnā€™t hesitate to thank him.
"Ni-ki," you began softly, looking up from your books to meet his gaze. His head lifted slightly, acknowledging that he was listening. "Thank youā€”for the notes." Your voice was sincere, full of the appreciation you felt. "I really didnā€™t expect it, but it helped a lot."
He didnā€™t say anything in return. He just nodded once, his face remaining as impassive as ever, as if this grand gesture was nothing out of the ordinary. For Ni-ki, maybe it wasnā€™t. Maybe that was just how he operatedā€”helping silently, without drawing attention to it, without expecting anything in return.
But for you, it meant something. A lot, actually. It was a reminder that beneath Ni-kiā€™s cold exterior, there was more to him than he let on. His actions spoke louder than any words could, and though he kept his distance in almost every other part of your life, in these quiet moments, he was closer than anyone.
And so, you didnā€™t ask what had happened with the Slytherin who had suddenly stopped bothering you. You didnā€™t ask why Ni-ki had gone through the trouble of writing those notes for you or why he had stayed by your side all this time in the library. Because somehow, you knew. This was just Ni-kiā€™s wayā€”silent, unspoken care hidden behind his cool exterior.
And that was enough for now.
One evening, during one of your usual study sessions in the library, you were stuck. The upcoming exam loomed over you, and no matter how many times you read the same question, the answer refused to reveal itself. You sat there in silence, frustration building as you stared blankly at the page in front of you.
The library was quiet, save for the occasional rustle of parchment and soft footsteps in the distance. Ni-ki sat across from you, as usual, his head bent over his own work. The silence between you two was comfortable by now, and you didnā€™t expect it to be broken anytime soon. You sighed, trying to push through the mental block that had settled over you.
Then, you heard movementā€”a soft rustling. Glancing up, you saw Ni-ki standing. For a moment, you thought he was leaving, and disappointment bloomed unexpectedly in your chest. You looked back down, resigned to continuing your struggle alone, but then something surprising happened.
You felt the faint shift of air and the quiet creak of the wooden bench, startled, you turned your head and found him sitting right next to you. His presence was closer than it had ever been during these sessions, and it made your heart race for reasons you didnā€™t entirely understand.
"Where are you stuck?" Ni-ki asked, his voice soft but clear. There was no trace of his usual distance, just a quiet sincerity that caught you off guard.
Blinking, still mildly in shock from the sudden change in his behavior, you pointed at the question that had been giving you trouble. You half-expected him to glance at it, make some passing comment, and return to his seat. But instead, Ni-ki leaned in slightly, examining the material with a focused expression.
He began speaking, his voice calm and smooth as he explained the concept in clear, concise terms. There was a quiet assurance in the way he spoke, his words precise and easy to follow. He wasnā€™t just repeating the textbook eitherā€”he was breaking it down in a way that made it understandable, relatable even. You listened closely, hanging onto each word, and slowly, like fog lifting from your mind, the confusion began to clear.
With each sentence Ni-ki uttered, the material started to make sense. What had seemed impossible moments before was now manageable, the concepts clicking together as he guided you through the steps. His voice had a soothing quality to it, calm and unhurried, like he had all the time in the world to sit with you and explain.
You found yourself glancing at him occasionally, taking in the way his eyes stayed fixed on the book, his brow slightly furrowed in concentration as he worked through the material with you. There was something unexpectedly gentle about the way he spoke, something that contrasted with the cold, distant persona he usually kept up. And in this moment, sitting side by side in the dim light of the library, it was hard to remember why you had ever thought of him as distant at all.
When he finished explaining, you stared at the page for a moment, absorbing the new understanding. It felt like a weight had lifted, and for the first time in hours, you felt a surge of confidence that maybeā€”just maybeā€”you could actually manage this exam.
"Does that make sense now?" Ni-ki asked, his voice still soft.
You nodded, almost dazed. "Yeahā€¦ it does. Thanks."
He didnā€™t say anything in response, just gave a small, barely noticeable nod before settling back into his seat, returning to his own work as if nothing unusual had happened.
But something had shifted between you. You werenā€™t sure what it was exactly, but the air felt different nowā€”less like the quiet companionship you had grown used to and more likeā€¦ something else. Something unspoken.
You sat there for a few moments longer, still processing both the study material and the fact that Ni-ki had just sat next to you, helped you. He hadnā€™t done it begrudgingly either; he had simply done it because you needed help. And his presence, his voice, had made all the difference.
As you returned to your notes, you couldnā€™t help but glance at him again, wondering what other sides of Ni-ki lay hidden beneath the surface.
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One evening, after hours of studying and flipping through books, you found yourself exhausted. Your eyes were burning from reading the same passage over and over, and you sighed loudly, resting your head on the table. Ni-ki glanced up from his work, giving you a quizzical look.
ā€œLong day?ā€ he asked, his voice softer than usual, almost concerned.
You nodded, not lifting your head. ā€œYeah. Between Potions, Transfiguration, and Herbology, I feel like my brain is going to melt.ā€
There was a pause before you heard him shifting in his seat. ā€œPotions is your weakest subject, right?ā€
You looked up, blinking in surprise. It wasnā€™t like Ni-ki to make small talk, and the fact that he remembered your struggles in Potions caught you off guard.
ā€œYeah,ā€ you admitted, sitting up straighter. ā€œIt just doesnā€™t click for me like other subjects do.ā€
Ni-ki seemed to consider this for a moment before responding, ā€œI used to be terrible at Potions too. In second year, I once brewed a Sleeping Draught that knocked out half the class. Snape wasnā€™t pleased.ā€
Your eyes widened in surprise, a laugh escaping you. ā€œNo way! You, bad at Potions? I canā€™t believe it.ā€
ā€œEveryone starts somewhere.ā€
Another time, while working on your Charms essay, you noticed Ni-ki was unusually quietā€”even for him. He wasnā€™t reading or writing, just sitting there, staring at his open textbook with an intense focus that seemed off.
You hesitated before asking, ā€œAre you okay? You seemā€¦ distracted.ā€
He didnā€™t look up at first, his fingers absentmindedly tapping the table. ā€œIā€™m fine,ā€ he said, but his tone lacked its usual confidence.
You waited, sensing that he wasnā€™t fine at all. After a long moment of silence, Ni-ki finally spoke again, quieter this time. ā€œIā€™mā€¦ just thinking about some things. Itā€™s nothing important.ā€
You could tell that was a lie. He was always so composed, so in control of his emotions, that seeing him unsettled was strange. But you didnā€™t push him. Instead, you offered something simple.
ā€œIf you ever want to talk, Iā€™m here.ā€
Ni-ki glanced at you, his expression softening just a little. He didnā€™t say anything, but the small nod he gave you felt like a thank you.
Another late night, the library was almost empty, save for you and Ni-ki at your usual spot. You had been studying for hours, and exhaustion was starting to settle in. You stretched, groaning as you reached for your quill.
ā€œI canā€™t do this anymore,ā€ you muttered. ā€œMy brain is fried.ā€
Ni-ki glanced up from his book, closing it with a quiet snap. ā€œTake a break.ā€
You blinked at him, surprised by the suggestion. ā€œYou? Telling me to take a break? Whatā€™s gotten into you?ā€
ā€œEven I take breaks sometimes.ā€
Skeptical, you raised an eyebrow. ā€œReally? Iā€™ve never seen it.ā€
Instead of responding, Ni-ki stood up and stretched, motioning for you to follow him. ā€œCome on. Letā€™s walk around for a few minutes.ā€
Confused but curious, you followed him out of the library and into the cool night air. The two of you walked in silence for a while, the soft breeze helping to clear your mind. After a few minutes, Ni-ki broke the silence.
ā€œYou push yourself too hard sometimes.ā€
You glanced at him, surprised by the observation. ā€œYouā€™re one to talk.ā€
He shrugged ā€œMaybe. But I know when to stop.ā€
But perhaps the most unexpected moment came one late afternoon, as you both sat in the library, quietly working on your respective assignments. You were in a lighter mood that day, having finally finished an essay that had been plaguing you for weeks. Feeling more relaxed, you absentmindedly began talking about the ridiculous antics of a few fellow students during Herbology, mimicking the professor's reactions with exaggerated gestures and voices.
Ni-ki, as usual, didnā€™t say much, just listened with his usual calm expression. But then, something shifted. When you imitated Professor Sprout tripping over a Mandrake root, you caught itā€”the faintest twitch of his lips. At first, you thought you had imagined it, but then it happened again. His lips curved up into a small smile, and for a brief moment, Ni-kiā€™s usually composed face broke into something entirely different.
You froze mid-sentence, staring at him in shock. Ni-kiā€”quiet, serious, and often unreadableā€”was smiling. Not just a polite smile, but a genuine one, and you could see a glint of amusement in his dark eyes.
ā€œWhat?ā€ he asked, raising an eyebrow as he noticed your stunned expression.
ā€œIā€¦ I didnā€™t know you could smile,ā€ you blurted out, completely forgetting your earlier train of thought.
Ni-kiā€™s smile widened, and then, to your utter disbelief, a soft chuckle escaped him. It was quiet and brief, but it was thereā€”a real laugh. And suddenly, the cold, distant image you had of him cracked just a little more, revealing something warmer, something softer beneath the surface.
He quickly composed himself, the smile fading but not disappearing entirely. ā€œIā€™m not a statue,ā€ he said dryly, though there was a playful glimmer in his eyes that you had never seen before.
ā€œI mean, I guess I just assumedā€¦ā€ you trailed off, still processing the fact that you had just witnessed Ni-ki laugh.
And then, with a small smile still playing at the corners of his lips, Ni-ki returned to his work, leaving you to sit there.
But one of the most memorable moments between you happened during a study session where, for once, things were going smoothly. You were both focused on your work when a random thought popped into your head, and without thinking, you said it aloud.
ā€œDo you think Professor McGonagallā€™s animagus form ever accidentally knocks things off tables like a real cat?ā€
Ni-ki looked up at you, clearly confused. ā€œWhat?ā€
You laughed, suddenly realizing how ridiculous the thought sounded. ā€œI mean, sheā€™s a cat, right? What if she just canā€™t help herself and bats things off desks?ā€
For a moment, Ni-ki just stared at you, and you thought he was going to tell you off for not focusing. But then, to your utter shock, he started laughingā€”a real, genuine laugh. It wasnā€™t loud, but it was pure, and the sound of it made your heart skip a beat.
ā€œWhy would you even think of that?ā€ he asked, still chuckling.
You shrugged, grinning. ā€œI donā€™t know. It just popped into my head.ā€
Ni-ki shook his head, still smiling. ā€œYouā€™re ridiculous.ā€
But there was no malice in his words, only a warmth that hadnā€™t been there before. And in that moment, you realized just how much closer the two of you had become. And seeing him laughā€”really laughā€”was something you wouldnā€™t forget anytime soon.
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It was a quiet afternoon when it happened. You had just finished another study session in the library with Ni-ki. He had helped you with a particularly difficult problem, and though he was his usual quiet self, you had left feeling a sense of warmthā€”like things between you were truly starting to shift. Maybe Ni-ki didnā€™t always show it in public, but you were sure he valued your time together, even if it was mostly in the library.
However, as you made your way through the corridors, feeling content from the productive session, a group of girlsā€”Ni-kiā€™s admirers, if you were honestā€”blocked your path. Their expressions werenā€™t friendly, and you could tell right away that something was off.
Before you could say anything, they pushed you into an empty classroom, closing the door behind you. The leader of the group, a girl you recognized as one of Ni-kiā€™s more obsessive followers, crossed her arms, sneering.
ā€œSo,ā€ she began, voice dripping with disdain, ā€œyou think you're special, huh? Just because you spend time with Ni-ki in the library?ā€
You froze, your heart pounding. You didnā€™t know what to say, so you just stared at them, trying to keep calm.
ā€œDo you actually believe he cares about you?ā€ another one chimed in. ā€œHeā€™s just too polite to tell you to leave him alone.ā€
You opened your mouth to defend yourself, but the leader cut you off. ā€œOh, please. He pities you. You should hear the things people say. Theyā€™re always wondering why he wastes his time on someone like you.ā€
Her words hit hard, and before you could stop yourself, you blurted out, ā€œThatā€™s not true. He helps me because heā€”ā€
ā€œBecause he what?ā€ she interrupted with a cruel laugh. ā€œBecause he likes you? Donā€™t be stupid. He only tolerates you. He never talks to you outside the library, does he?ā€
That made you pause. It was trueā€”Ni-ki never approached you in the halls, never spoke to you outside of your library sessions. He barely acknowledged you in class unless it was absolutely necessary. Even when you saw him with his friends, he acted as if you didnā€™t exist.
They could see the doubt in your eyes, and the girl smirked, sensing victory. ā€œSee? You know itā€™s true. If he really liked you, why would he act like you donā€™t exist when youā€™re not sitting across from him in the library?ā€
You stayed silent, unable to find an answer. The doubts they were planting in your mind started to grow roots, wrapping around your thoughts and pulling you into a spiral of overthinking.
ā€œHe probably thinks youā€™re a burden,ā€ one of the girls said with a mocking laugh. ā€œI mean, why else would he avoid you in front of his friends? He doesnā€™t want them to see him hanging out with someone like you.ā€
The words stung, each one cutting deeper than the last. You tried to fight back, tried to tell yourself that Ni-kiā€™s quiet nature didnā€™t mean he didnā€™t care, but their accusations fed into your worst fears. What if you really were just a burden to him? What if he did pity you, and thatā€™s why he never spoke to you outside of your study sessions?
You kept quiet, and they could see they had hit their mark.
ā€œFace it,ā€ the leader said, stepping closer with a satisfied smirk. ā€œNi-ki feels sorry for you. Youā€™re nothing to him.ā€
You bit your lip, holding back the sting of tears. You didnā€™t want to give them the satisfaction of seeing you cry, but the words had already wormed their way into your head. Why did he only talk to you in the library? Why didnā€™t he ever approach you outside of that space? You thought you had gotten closer to him, but maybe you had been wrong all along.
They left you there in the empty classroom, their mocking laughter echoing in the halls as they disappeared. You stood frozen in place, your thoughts swirling with doubt and confusion, questioning everything you thought you knew about Ni-ki and your growing connection with him.
That one question kept repeating in your mind: Why didnā€™t he talk to you outside of the library?
After that confrontation in the empty classroom, you couldnā€™t shake the words that had been thrown at you. The girls' taunts, the doubts they had planted in your mindā€”they echoed endlessly, gnawing at your thoughts and twisting everything you thought you knew about your relationship with Ni-ki. Every time you walked through the halls, you felt a strange weight on your chest.
You began to pull away, slowly at first. It started with cutting your library sessions shorter. Where once you might have lingered for hours, speaking to Ni-ki about anything and everything, now you found yourself packing up your things earlier, offering hurried excuses about homework or other commitments. Ni-ki would glance at you but never say much, and his silence only added to your doubts. It was almost like he didnā€™t notice your growing distance, or maybe, you thought bitterly, he didnā€™t care enough to ask.
The distance grew wider as the days passed. You started skipping your library sessions altogether, avoiding the places you knew Ni-ki would be. The once-familiar space where the two of you had shared quiet moments now felt like a weight, a place filled with uncertainty and confusion. You didnā€™t know what to make of your feelings, or of Ni-kiā€™s. Were you really just a burden to him? Did he pity you, as they had said?
It hurt too much to face him, so you stopped trying.
In the hallways, you could feel his gaze on you. Even if you werenā€™t looking, you knew when Ni-ki was nearby. It was as if some invisible thread still tied the two of you together, but now it felt frayed and fragile, a connection you didnā€™t know how to mend. You passed by him in the corridors, your head down, avoiding his eyes at all costs. In the Great Hall, you chose seats far away from where he and his Slytherin friends sat. But somehow, it didnā€™t matter. You could feel his eyes on you from across the room, his gaze following your every move, and each time, it sent a wave of guilt crashing over you.
You never looked back at him, though. You couldnā€™t.
You skipped classes you shared with him. It started with one or two missed lectures, but eventually, it became a pattern. Without him, you struggled, barely scraping by with borrowed notes from friends. They werenā€™t as clear or detailed as Ni-kiā€™s notes, but they would have to do. You couldnā€™t bring yourself to ask him for help again.
Despite all your attempts to avoid him, Ni-kiā€™s presence lingered everywhere. You didnā€™t know if it was your mind playing tricks on you, or if he really was watching you more closely now. Whatever it was, you felt more conflicted than ever. You wondered if he noticed your absence, if he cared, but then that gnawing insecurity crept back in, reminding you of what those girls had said. Heā€™s just too polite to tell you to leave him alone.
The more you thought about it, the more you withdrew. Doubts clouded every memory of your time with Ni-ki, twisting your perception of everything heā€™d done for youā€”the notes, the help with your studies, the quiet moments youā€™d shared. What if it had all been one-sided? What if you had been nothing more than a project, a pity case?
And so, you kept your distance, avoiding the boy whose piercing gaze you could no longer bear to meet, and wondering if maybe, in the end, they had been right all along.
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You had been so lost in your thoughts, your mind circling around the same questions, the same doubts, that you didnā€™t even realize where your feet were taking you. It wasnā€™t until you glanced up that you noticed the dim, cold lighting of the dungeons, the walls lined with stone, and the distant murmur of voices. You froze, recognizing how close you were to the Slytherin dorms.
Instinctively, you were about to turn and head back the way you came when the sound of laughter caught your attention. It was light, warm, and carefreeā€”a sound that felt almost foreign in this part of the castle. Curious, despite yourself, you peeked around the corner.
Your breath caught in your throat.
Standing there, casually leaning against the wall, was Ni-ki. His head was tilted slightly back, his face scrunched up in genuine amusement, his white teeth flashing in a wide grin. He was laughing, his eyes crinkling at the edges, his normally stoic expression completely replaced by something so light and happy that it shocked you. You had never seen him like this before. His laugh, his smile. It made him seem younger, softer, almostā€¦adorable. For a moment, you were completely transfixed, unable to tear your gaze away from him.
But then, your eyes flickered to the people surrounding him. His friendsā€”other Slytherins you recognizedā€”were standing nearby, laughing along with him. Among them, you spotted a few of the girls who had cornered you in the empty classroom, their cruel words still echoing in your mind. The sight of them, standing so close to Ni-ki, chatting and laughing as if everything was normal, sent a jolt of discomfort through you.
And then, before you could react, one of Ni-kiā€™s friends noticed you. His expression shifted slightly as he leaned in to whisper something in Ni-kiā€™s ear.
Ni-ki turned.
Your heart dropped.
His gaze locked onto yours from across the hallway, his laughter fading instantly. Your body reacted before your mind could catch up, a gasp escaping your lips as you quickly turned on your heel and speed-walked down the hallway, trying to put as much distance between yourself and that scene as possible.
Your heart was pounding, your thoughts racing. He was laughing with them. With those girlsā€¦ The image of his bright smile, so carefree, so natural, was seared into your mind, but it was tainted now by the memory of the people surrounding himā€”the people who had made you doubt everything.
Had he heard what they said? Did he know?
You didnā€™t wait to find out. All you knew was that you needed to get as far away from the dungeons, and from Ni-ki, as quickly as possible.
You didnā€™t exactly know how you ended up in the library, but here you were, tucked away in a quiet, hidden corner that no one ever really bothered with. It was your place, somewhere you used to come to study, or more recently, to avoid. The shelves towered above you, enclosing you in their safe, comforting silence, but it did little to ease the heavy weight in your chest.
Wiping away the stray tears that had already started to fall, you slid down to the floor, pulling your knees up to your chest. Your bag dropped beside you with a soft thud, the books spilling out carelessly, but you didnā€™t bother to pick them up. It felt like too much effort, like you couldnā€™t muster the energy to do anything but curl in on yourself.
Tears fell freely now, and you buried your face in your arms, trying to muffle the soft sobs that escaped. Everything had justā€¦ built up. The confusion, the distance, the hurt from what Ni-kiā€™s admirers had said, and now seeing him so happy without you. You had tried to tell yourself that it didnā€™t matter, that he was just a library acquaintance, but the truth was that it did matter. More than you wanted to admit.
The quiet of the library felt like it was pressing down on you, suffocating in its stillness, yet at the same time, it was the only place where you could let go like this. Where no one would see you, no one would ask questions, and no one would tell you that you were being silly for feeling this way.
You cried softly, the hurt youā€™d been bottling up for so long finally breaking free. The words of those girls echoed in your mind, their sneering voices telling you that Ni-ki pitied you, that he didnā€™t care, that you were nothing to him. The worst part was that you had started to believe it.
The image of Ni-ki laughing with his friends flashed before your eyes again, and it only deepened the ache in your chest. He seemed so happy, soā€¦ distant. And you? You were nothing but a fading presence, something he could ignore outside of your shared library sessions. You had convinced yourself that maybe you had become friends, maybe there was something more, but now, it all felt like a lie.
The sobs came harder now, your chest tightening painfully as you curled further into yourself. You didnā€™t want to care this much. You didnā€™t want to feel this way. But here you were, hiding in the shadows of the library, crying over someone you werenā€™t even sure cared about you at all.
The quiet shuffling beside you broke through your tears, making you look up from your curled position. Your heart skipped a beat when you saw Ni-ki standing right there, holding your bag in his hand, his face full of worry. His usually composed expression was soft, eyebrows knitted together as he searched your face.
"You okay?" he asked, his voice gentle, almost hesitant.
You sniffled, quickly wiping your nose with the back of your sleeve and nodding, though your heart wasnā€™t in the gesture. You looked away, half-expecting him to leave like always, to walk away and give you space. But instead, you heard him set his bag down. You glanced at him, shocked, as he sat beside you on the floor.
Ni-ki leaned back against the shelves, closing his eyes for a moment before sighing deeply. "I know youā€™ve been avoiding me," he said, his voice softer than usual, yet it held a vulnerability you werenā€™t used to hearing from him. He opened his eyes, looking directly at you, and asked, "Did I do something wrong?"
You sat up, startled by his question. "What? No, no, of course you didnā€™t!" you answered quickly, panic rising in your chest.
He tilted his head slightly, clearly unconvinced. "Then whyā€¦" His words trailed off as he sighed again. He looked at you, his expression filled with something close to concern. "Pleaseā€¦ tell me. Iā€™m worried about you," he admitted, his voice quiet.
His words made your heart clench. You could see the sincerity in his eyes, and it made it harder to stay quiet. You gulped, trying to steady yourself. This was the moment you had been dreading. You didnā€™t want to tell him, didnā€™t want to say the words that had been haunting you since that confrontation. But seeing him here, sitting beside you, waiting for an explanationā€”it was enough to make you break.
"Iā€¦" You began, your voice shaky. "Itā€™s not you, Ni-ki, really. You didnā€™t do anything wrong." You took a deep breath, trying to calm your racing thoughts. "Some girlsā€¦ they confronted me, said that you pitied me. That you thought I was a burdenā€¦ and it got in my head. They asked why you never talk to me outside the library, andā€¦ I started wondering if they were right."
Ni-kiā€™s expression shifted immediately, his brows furrowing in confusion. "What? Why would they say that?"
You shrugged, looking down at your hands. "They said I was stupid for even thinking we were friendsā€¦ that I didnā€™t matter to you outside of studying."
There was a long pause, the silence hanging heavily between you. You couldnā€™t bring yourself to meet his gaze, too afraid of what you might see in his eyes. But then, after what felt like an eternity, Ni-kiā€™s voice broke the silence.
"Thatā€™s not true," he said quietly, his tone firm but gentle. "Youā€™re not a burden. I donā€™t pity you."
You slowly looked up at him, surprised by the intensity in his gaze. His usual calm exterior was gone, replaced by something raw, something real.
"I didnā€™t know you felt like that," Ni-ki continued, his voice soft. "Iā€¦ I just didnā€™t think youā€™d want to hang out with me outside the library. I didnā€™t think I was someone youā€™d want to be around like that."
Your eyes widened in disbelief. "What? Butā€¦ youā€™re always surrounded by people. Why would you think that?"
He laughed softly, shaking his head. "Yeah, people, not friends. Most of them just see me as Ni-ki, the Slytherin prefect or whatever. I donā€™tā€¦ I donā€™t let people in easily. But youā€¦" He trailed off, searching for the right words. "I guess I didnā€™t realize how much I enjoyed your company until you started avoiding me."
His words made your heart race, and you couldnā€™t help but feel a flicker of warmth amidst all the confusion and hurt.
"Iā€™m sorry," you whispered. "I didnā€™t mean to make assumptions or push you away. I justā€¦ I didnā€™t know what to think."
Ni-ki shook his head, his gaze softening. "Itā€™s okay. I shouldā€™ve been more clear with you." He hesitated for a moment, then added, "I want you to knowā€¦ I donā€™t just think of you as someone I study with. Iā€¦" He trailed off again, his cheeks tinting the faintest shade of pink.
You blinked, caught off guard by the sudden shift in his demeanor. He looked vulnerable, in a way you had never seen before.
"I care about you," he finally said, the words slow and deliberate, as if he had been holding onto them for a long time. "More than you think."
Your breath caught in your throat at his admission. For a moment, you just sat there, staring at him, unsure of how to respond. The sincerity in his voice, the way he was looking at youā€”it made your chest tighten in a way that was both overwhelming and comforting.
"Iā€¦" you started, your voice faltering. You didnā€™t know what to say, how to express the whirlwind of emotions swirling inside you.
But you didnā€™t have to say anything, because in that moment, Ni-ki smiled at youā€”genuinely smiled, the corners of his lips turning up, his eyes softening. It was a small, almost shy smile, but it was enough to make you realize that everything you had been overthinking, all the doubts and insecurities, had been for nothing.
Ni-ki cared. He had always cared.
Ni-ki stayed by your side, his presence steady and comforting as you finally let the weight of everything spill out. You told him about the girls, your voice shaky at first, but as you continued, you felt lighter, as though every word lifted a little bit of the burden off your chest. His expression shifted the moment you named them, his brows drawing together in a way youā€™d never seen beforeā€”serious, almost dangerous.
For a moment, you worried that he might storm off, that his calm demeanor would crack and heā€™d go after them. But instead, he simply listened, his face tight with restrained anger, and when you finished, he surprised you once again.
He opened his arms.
Without a second thought, you slid into his embrace, feeling his warmth surround you, his arms wrapping securely around your back. His chin rested lightly on top of your head, and for the first time in what felt like forever, you smiledā€”a real, genuine smile.
"They were wrong," he murmured softly, his voice vibrating through his chest. "You mean so much more to me than they could ever understand."
You felt your heart swell at his words, the knot in your stomach slowly unraveling. He didnā€™t hate you. He never had.
When you finally pulled back from the hug, your gaze met his, and the intensity of his eyes made your breath hitch. His face was still close, his cheeks tinged with the faintest blush. He opened his mouth to say something, but then he paused, swallowing nervously.
"Iā€¦" he began, his voice a little shaky. "I need to tell you something." His eyes darted away for a moment before finding yours again, determination setting in. "Iā€™ve beenā€¦ thinking about this for a while, and I justā€”" He sighed, clearly flustered. "I donā€™t know how to say it."
You blinked, taken aback by his sudden vulnerability. Ni-ki, the calm, collected boy who never seemed to let anything rattle him, was stuttering and blushing, his usual composure unraveling before your eyes.
"I-I like you," he blurted out, his face now fully red. "A lot. I have for a while, but I didnā€™t know how to say it. Iā€™m not good at this stuff, and I didnā€™t want to make things weird between us, but when you started avoiding me, Iā€”"
He was rambling now, his words spilling out in a rush, and you could tell he was struggling to keep up with his own thoughts. It was so unlike him, seeing him this vulnerable, this unsure. It was endearing.
Before he could continue, you acted on impulse, reaching up to gently cup his face and pulling him toward you. His eyes widened in surprise just before your lips met his.
For a split second, you could feel his shock, his body freezing beneath your touch. But then, just as quickly, he melted into the kiss, his hands coming up to cup the sides of your face, pulling you closer. His lips were soft, hesitant at first, but then the kiss deepened, his movements growing more sure, more confident. He held you like you were something precious, something he didnā€™t want to let go of.
The world seemed to disappear around you, the weight of everything that had been bothering you fading away in the warmth of his embrace. It was just you and Ni-ki, the soft press of his lips against yours, the way he held you like heā€™d been waiting for this moment for longer than either of you realized.
When you finally pulled back, your heart was racing, your face warm from the intensity of the moment. Ni-ki stared at you, his lips slightly parted, still processing what had just happened.
"Iā€¦ uhā€¦" He blinked, his usual calm demeanor shattered, and it made you smile.
"That was your way of saying you like me too, huh?" he asked with a sheepish grin, his thumb brushing softly against your cheek.
You laughed softly, nodding. "Yeahā€¦ I like you too, Ni-ki."
His smile widened, this time filled with a mixture of relief and happiness. "Iā€™m glad," he said softly, his voice warm and full of sincerity.
For a moment, you both just sat there, basking in the newfound closeness, the tension that had been between you for weeks dissolving into something sweet, something real.
"Letā€™s forget about those girls," he murmured after a while, his forehead resting gently against yours. "They donā€™t know what theyā€™re talking about. All that matters is you and me, okay?"
You nodded, your heart full. "Okay."
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neat-stuff-really Ā· 2 years ago
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The imagery in this is just neat. NEAT.
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c-kiddo Ā· 5 months ago
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another update! first record of the collection. second hand but never been played. just nice to have it. . huge print of geneviĆØve's art and witch hazel details on the record itself :' )
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the only other record i own is a gift for the end by mariee siou. i dont usually buy them but i like it as a whole artwork. mount eerie especially treats the records as the finished whole version of his art
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3 more CDs added to my collection (the top row). they're all second-hand but Now Only seems barely even opened so thats nice. also i love the wee drawing on the disk, made me think of these lyrics from crow pt. 2
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(CDs from left to right: the singing from mount eerie, mount eerie, now only, winds poem, lost wisdom, black wooden)
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