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whenever i see 2020s-style '2000s' VHS tape aesthetics i feel like i'm not quite the right age to be nostalgic or especially anemoic for them. i grew up with them and then stopped using them when the VCR broke, so it was easier to use DVDs because the DVD player worked. They never ever felt vaporwave to me. They never felt Y2K. They were a thing that I used until I didn't anymore. I feel nostalgic when I see VHS tapes being used through the visual signifiers of reality, and when I see the ones that I personally used. But, as prevalent online as the simulacrum of VHS and early 2000s nostalgia/anemoia as represented by a pink wash and TV lines and vaporwave 2 and chromatic aberration is, I kind of just find it annoying, because the 2000s didn't look like that to me. The thing about 2000s technology I encountered in real life was that it either looked bright and futuristic in that vivid plastic way (think something you'd see in a Future Shop flyer or a TV ad, or like the pink CRT television I had), or it looked beige and crusty and old as hell (the computers, speakers, keyboards, and mice your school and family members had. there were still balls in the mice for god's sake). Sometimes i can't tell if the people making things themed with the simulacrum version are old enough to remember but know their young market will eat this shit up, or if they genuinely weren't alive in the early 2000s or maybe any of the 2000s at all to know that it didn't look like a few glitchy tiktok filters. Personally, for 2000s technology aesthetics, I'd like to see people lean more into that 'futuristic' brightness or the older more neutral-toned and boxy tech models, or if we want to try something different, the aesthetics of early digital camera photography. in another timeline flash-induced high contrast and red eyes in photographs became the symbol of soooo vintage and popular. but as long as people condense the early 2000s into this far off distant liminal space where the world exists only in cool-toned pastels and everyone's every VHS has bad degradation, i just really don't think that's going to happen :P
(as a slight digression on that photography note, but at least the vintage-themed insta filters of the 2010s sometimes tried to replicate the lighting and saturation or lack-thereof of vintage photography, a medium that actually would have looked somewhat like that at the time because of how photos were developed. on the other hand, if your VHS tape in the 2000s looked like these faux-VHS rental aesthetic filters do, there was probably something wrong with it. The difference between approaching the past with the quirks of the mediums of the past as they'd usually occur — red eyes in early digital cameras, for example, which would be on the photo from the moment it was taken and was extremely common — and approaching the past with the defects of the same technology 20 years on — like VHS tape degradation that shouldn't be on a tape fresh out of the case in the 2000s — is the difference between approaching the past as it was and approaching the past as The Past.)
i think aesthetically approaching most decades from the lens of it being in the past is going to create an aesthetic that operates with the assumption that it always was the past. what most faux-nostalgic aesthetics that don't replicate the mediums of the time but instead dial them up to 11 and then slap a bunch of filters on miss is that each new decade is the present leaning into the future, in the time that decade is current. if you approach the new millennium aesthetically by taking an image and adding generic instagram or tiktok digital-vintage filters over it to show how vintage it was and always has been, you miss a lot of what made much of the decade, especially the early part, what it was.
#rubia speaks#like ok. u took a perfectly good vaporwave and made it worse. congrats#there's an event online running w the faux 2000s vhs aesthetic this year as the aesthetic theme and i'm so uninspired tbh#it makes it hard to want to participate#anyway.
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Congratulations to TEAM CHEESE for winning the popular vote on the Charcuterie poll!
#charcuterie saga#digital art#I initally made the poll as a fun little side thing while I was away and not able to draw -#-and a week later it has become a true battleground of food passion!#I *will* be drawing the charcuterie board soon (I first need to plan out what this thing looks like based on the ratio of votes)#But I also really want to draw more faux stickers like this. Possibly...to make them into actual stickers?#Let's see what the vibes are like after I draw more. I'll do a interest check and if enough people want them...It will be so.#Team Olives and Pickles will get one next. As will team Crackers. You both fought hard but the battle was stacked against you.#Turns out people have very strong opinions about cheese!#Team Jam kept it fun with recommending the most delightful combinations and spreads.#Team meat made me laugh with their chants. Team fruit just wanted a lovely time.#Team crackers were the underdogs but fought a good fight.#Team olives and pickles - you weren't even an official team at the start but you made it your destiny. Well done.#Team Vanilla extract....You made me eat something terrible. Feta. Old chedder. Gouda. Babybel. None of these are good with Vanilla.#Don't ask me how I know that.#(I know I should do a soft goat cheese with some fruit in it. I just haven't had the opportunity yet.)#Thank you all for your participation and for filling my week with whimsy B*)#I've loved drawing these little mice a lot!
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Orufrey week day 8: Free prompt
I wanted to make something soft and cute for this one but my hand slipped, so now i'm ending the orufrey week with angst
#orufreyweek2023#witch hat atelier#orufrey#i drew something#qifrey#olruggio#wha olruggio#qifrey wha#i'm sorry guys i really wanted to make fluffy stuff but uh. things happened#as always. i didn't like how qifrey's hair ended up looking#it's always so hard to draw#but um. yeah. anyways maybe next year I'll finish the week with cute things#but this year i just heard “free prompt” and went oh wow I can draw angst :D#either way it was very fun to participate in this!#wha spoilers
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finally finished the dtiys that @ask-the-cat-cafe is hosting! honestly wasn't sure i'd make the deadline with finals crunch lmao
#honestly this isn't usually something i'd pick up#but i liked the idea of it and i needed a way to challenge myself i think#i took out a few cats bc i understood the want for visual clutter#but i felt that the original wasn't cluttered with intention if that makes sense?#like the push for getting every character in frame actively hurt its coherency in a way that just made it look muddled#ive never participated in a dtiys before and i had fun!#might try more in the future#tccdtiys#my art#im not gonna look too hard at the mistakes its been SO long since ive done something fully inked colored and shaded
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Happy Valentines, Akira. Happy Valentines, Asshole.
If you can’t read what Akechi’s secondary inner-dialogue says cause I obscured it too much behind his regular dialogue, here’s a transcription in panel order: Hello, you fucking- Ah- Hello, Akira! Fuck off, why should I tell you- Just a soda- there’s a new flavor.
I don’t want your shitty gift. Oh- haha! You’re so sweet.
I hope I choke. They’re lovely, thank you.
Like hell. Likewise. There’s no way it’s just a coincidence. Still though, it’s a funny coincidence.
#p5#akeshu#akechi goro#kurusu akira#wow- me?? posting a valentines comic... actually on?? valentines????? wack. absolutely wack#it's a short one! I purposefully tried to keep it short. it was a challenge and it still ended up being 3 pages. but i blame my canvas size#also in case u can't see what akira is holding out to akechi: theyre chocolate covered strawberries on sticks!#i saw them irl and was like oh god i want those. i am going to project that feeling on my favorite characters so help me god#and now! here we are! but my shitty-ass coloring & line quality make it hard to discern them so. sorry about that lmaooooo#ANYWAY i don't do enough post-maruki stuff so. i made this one a little bittersweet. :)#why did i put akechi's scarf in a bow? honestly i dont know! i think i saw some art a while ago that did that too and i thought it was cute#well. plus i guess there's the symbolism of 'akechi being alive and reciprocating your feelings (however involuntarily) IS a gift' part#hence that hes wrapped up in a bow. like a present. :)#also god. the first panel is supposed to be akechi's reflection in a vending machine window. I could NOT get it to look right#so for reference!!! just so you guys understand!!!!!! thats what that panel is supposed to be!!! he is NOT in fact a ghost. (sigh)#hope you enjoyed and had a lovely valentines!! for my part i have eaten nothing but sweets today and hoo boy will that have been a mistake#ALSO in terms of the audience-participation comic...hopefully coming soon. if i can ever gain the will to draw it.#but at least tumblr has polls now so i can do the audience-choose-y bit without needing to use a separate website! so thats good i guess#anyway anyway anway thanks for listening to me ramble if you made it this far! have a lovely rest of your day and hopefully see u again soon
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Stranger Summer Week 9
Alternate Meeting/ Where it all started + Sapphic Hellcheer
Short fic to come in the mean time enjoy some mood-boards for our girls and the covers that Inspired me.
(Two covers of Dirtbag I think are great below)
#stranger things#a stranger summer#hellcheer#sapphic hellcheer#fem!eddie munson#chrissy cunningham#I'm so behind on my writing but I wanted to participate on time for once#Also I love making mood-boards#It was so hard to find images for Edith/Eddie so it's basically all Jody Turner#~50% Jody turner#q#my stuff#Spotify
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hm. struck all of a sudden with the urge to write a candlenights fic. i don’t think i really have the time for that but its. really strong.
#tidings of comfort and joy.... love the wording of that idk idk#like the sense of warm togetherness and well wishes in the face of implied difficult times#idk i kinda struggle w christmas themed stuff. its a holiday that has parts that i really love participating in#but it just has soooo much baggage both religiously and culturally both parts of which i'm not at all interested in participating in#but the imagery of the warm holiday of. comfort and joy. in the wintertime is certainly compelling#and in america that holiday is assumed to be christmas kinda whether you like it or not#but i dont really want to carry over that baggage into 1. a hobby of mine and 2. a fictional world it doesnt really belong in#like i dont want to write a ‘candlenights’ fic (but its actually just christmas). no hate to people who do but thats not what im going for#idk maybe i will write a candlenights fic and lean hard into the sort of yuletide angle#just a very simple idea of 'winter solstice type holiday during the coldest time of year where people come together to be warm together' yk#maybe i'll just like. avoid christmas-y traditions and make up other stuff thats in theme with winter holiday. like candles and shit#since like the concept of a winter holiday does not belong to christmas#mine#but sighhh as so often happens i have a Vibe and a Theme i'd like to write about but no concrete plot or events to actually convey it lol
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Marchil March 2024!
A ship week event for the Dungeon Meshi pairing Marcille x Chilchuck! It will run from Monday the 18th to Sunday the 24th, in about a week.
The themes for the days are:
Explosion / healing
Fairytale / role swap au
Fashion / modern au
Hair / race or species swap au
Teasing / genderbend au
Gifts / date
Free prompt / food
You’re welcome and encouraged to put a twist on the prompts, pick either of them on any given day or mesh them both into the same piece, stick to them as much or as little as you want. For example, the race swap prompt mainly refers to elves, half-foots, etc, but you could just as well use it to draw them as cats if you’d like! There are essentially no rules, this isn’t inktober and there’s no pressure, feel also free to make things for it in advance rather than day to day. This is a ship week, but feel free to depict them in a platonic or queerplatonic way rather than romantic as well! This week is to celebrate them as a duo, and every work is welcomed: fanart, writing, edits, anything. Join the festivities!
Tag your posts for it "marchil march 2024"!
I’ll be hosting it on the @feedmarchil blog, I intend to reblog every piece made for the week there. Ty to Pupucachi for heavily inspiring the first ad card!
#Dungeon meshi#Delicious in dungeon#marchil#More people than i expected are saying they wanna try and participate! Joy~#And just to be clear marchil is getting a ship week not bc it’s popular but bc i’m stepping up#Repeat after me the lesson that ao3 marchil is teaching us is that continued hard work does build up into something#Some ship positivity in these trying times#Marchil march 2024#Marchil ship week#Kaboom kerchack#Gonna make a reminder post the day just before it starts too#If there are prompts you’d have liked feel free to send me some and I’ll consider for future events. There are just so many good ones#If u wanna participate everything is optional tbh. Idk do whatev u want we’re here to have fun. Gdbdgdg I’m a bad event host
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temperature sensitivity is such an annoying part of my disability. what do you mean i can’t go out in colder weather or warmer weather because the cold gives me allergy-like symptoms that last for days and makes my hands stop working but the heat makes me lightheaded and headachey and too exhausted to think? what do you mean i can’t be in direct sunlight or direct contact with cold without breaking out in hives? why must i have the physical constitution of a sickly victorian boy?
#this post was brought to you from the protest that im trying so hard to participate in#despite the fact that the days are too hot and the nights are too cold#so i basically only get a couple hours of Doing Things before im running to the nearest tent or just going home#i know i still have a much easier time than a lot of disabled people but GOD it’s so fucking annoying. i want to Do Things!!!!!#couldn’t my body as least pick one temperature to have instead of making all of them suck#poss screams#ehlers danlos syndrome#eds#heds#hypermobile ehlers danlos#hypermobile eds#dysautonomia#heat intolerance#cold intolerance#cold urticaria#actually disabled#actually chronically ill#chronic health issues
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#i needed some minutes to get my thoughts together but this is a more cohesive ... thing of what i feel? idk#i feel like theres just no balance. obvs they debuted at a difficult time and it wouldve been hard to push it back bc of the members etc#its either theyre ignored (quite literally) or they get fucked over. why is there no balance between keeping their essence and also promo#like its SM's fucking fault that they didnt reach their actual potential. and it's their fault on how they handled lu/as' scandal.#if you weren't going to add him back to the group. why did you waste almost two years of their time for no reason? i just dgi. it always#makes me feel sad to see that clip of ten spoiling phantom at a kick back stage. they had their next cb planned like... idek#i feel from omy onwards when they shifted under prism. theyve had a different sound and their focus feels just on the kn audience#which is WILD. they have 127 and dream as it is. and it was a wayv song that got cn banned from being sung on national tv so... ?#sm wants cn money but no effort with their cn group. and this comeback has just pissed me off ngl. i like the songs and the aes but what#is the aim? what audience are we trying to cater to? krn? global? cn? okay. you fucked up in the past but look at what the fans are saying#what they like. phantom was their cb and it broke records. personal and otherwise. why arent we sticking to this? why arent are there no cn#bsides. and ill never forgive them for blaming wayv and kun. i really never will.#and about the sc situation. i think he can do as he pleases and im happy with whatever he picks. but the purposeful sabotaging of wayv & him#shifting the dates so he cant participate. .. SM you'll implode by my hand i promise. and then his fans coming to shit on wayv like they#personally told him not to participate. ridiculousness from both sides.#i don't think its that hard to experiment but also stay with what was liked originally. if theyre a chinese group. give them some cn songs.#to add on. i personally believe they shifted the dates bc lu/as debut was a complete money waste and they desperately needed another avenue.#egg.co
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c!Sapnap did steal his things threatening him to join the fight against c!Ponk and c!Alyssa, but the c!Dream fight was separate and something that both of them wanted to do
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Thank you for the summary?… I did in fact watch the stream yesterday lol. So I know what happened. It is notable however, that while Sapnap takes Tommy’s netherite sword and chestplate to threaten him into joining him, Sapnap gives back the items before Tommy agrees [clip], so the threat didn’t last long. And Tommy actually doesn’t seem to want to join Sapnap until, “the woman,” Alyssa is mentioned and that’s when he’s more on board [clip] and then really on board once Alyssa mentions him taking her diamond [clip]. Needless to say, the argument that Sapnap threatened Tommy into the war is bullshit as Tommy clearly was enthusiastic for the war against Alyssa, even killing her unprompted [clip] before the war even begins. But even if Sapnap had forced or coerced Tommy into joining him in the war, as you pointed out it is separate from them attacking Dream that then started the disc saga, so it’s pretty irrelevant to the whole point. Like… it doesn’t even matter. Not unless we wanna discuss how screwed up and kinda sexist it is for Tommy to kill and join the war because of “the woman,” Alyssa and then refer to her voice as the ghost in his head throughout the stream… but let’s not open that can of worms just now.
#hello there#like seriously as a woman bullied and mistreated in playing video games with men this is yet another reason that makes it hard for me#to like Tommy… not to say the kinda sexist attitude and treatment is excluded to just him there are multiple participants including Sapnap#dsmp#crumbs#dsmp lore#dreblr#<3 <3#c!dream#dishing up lore#dsmpblr#dream smp#I find asks like this weird sometimes… like just stating a fact or opinion… like do you want my thoughts or wanna ask a question or somethn#I don’t know… probably a me thing lol
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Decided to sketch some of those YCH ideas for warm up but they kept getting smaller as I went
Finished the papyri and then went “ok, time to do some sanses!” and stared blankly at the canvas for like six minutes
#I wanna emphasize that these can be either platonic or romantic but even STILL I hc sanses in general as just not being fans of physical#affection that much which makes character interaction things like this. difficult#maybe sledding with blue…but then I’d have to do full body…ough#ooh. sans putting the snowman’s carrot through his nasal cavity and the insert laugh while holding a snowball to imply making a snow#snow man I hate typing on the ipad dying ten thousand deaths. anyway#hmmmm#HMMM…#OH maybe I could add Pup and insert character getting tangled in Christmas tree lights that’d be cute right??#not a sans lol OUGH red is so Not a touchy guy who doesn’t participate in things it’s hard to imagine him in most seasonal situations#maybe just smth simple like insert putting a knit cap on his head to keep him warm..? ough#wanna self indulgently add void but Who would want that and What would be even be doing. wait no cute imagery of him knitting and insert#holding the yarn for him watching curiously OUGH…what a grandma#maybe I could just draw that as him and the Chara who lives w/ him for a bit as a Christmas doodle like the one w/ abstract#I’m just talking to myself at this point ok sorry bye#sunny with clouds#wips in the sun
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I hate that the answer so often given when someone voices their loneliness is to “rely on yourself” or “be your own best friend” “start a hobby” or some other variation of loving yourself and keeping yourself busy, as if either of those are a substitute for connection and community. Yes they’re important, but they should be in addition to feeling connection in community, not as a replacement.
#every time I talk about feeling lonely or disconnected or anything like that#and when I talk about trying to make more connections and how it’s so hard and almost always goes nowhere#even in just trying to make friends#the answer I hear is always ‘well you have yourself and you have to learn to be ok with that’#and like no??!?? like I get it and yes I do have myself#but why is that suddenly the replacement for connection and love outside of ourselves?#idk I just feel like we’ve all become so out of touch with each other#and no one really want to participate in real community anymore#so much so that the answer to loneliness is often ‘just rely on yourself’#like babe that’s not a problem area#it should be a both/and#not an either/or#mine#text post
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I HATE MY ROOMMATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
#this is the only safe space for me to say it#bc everyone else can see on my other socials#she’s a slob#she asks me to take the trash out yet can never do it herself#whines about her medical issues yet I can pinpoint exact lifestyle choices she could make in order to make them go away#yet she won’t do it#just wants people to coddle her and feel bad for her#and I’m not giving her that#woke me up when I was trying to sleep in bc she was talking on the phone#like do what I do and go in the hallway#also let the microwave go off#so the beeping didn’t help#comes in super late every night#complains about her life in general yet puts no effort in whatsoever#takes advantage of her boyfriend#aka my friend#and both me and my other friend have noticed that he’s now just a shell of who he used to be#bc now she’s with him 24/7#and all the while she wants people to handhold her but wants to get into medical school#yet can’t even handle her first semester of undergrad#goodbye#she acts like she has it so hard meanwhile I have a minor a job clubs and am actually participating in my other stuff#unlike SOMEONE I know#then when I’m trying to sleep#has her brightness up in the dark#or comes in with her flashlight all the way on#and is playing videos#let me sleep#bc I have to be at work for 7am#and my day doesn’t end until 10pm
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if i had a dollar for every time a religious missionary knocked on my door to "spread the good news" while i was actively in an acute mental health crisis i'd have 2 dollars, which isnt a lot but also. how many times does this have to happen before they stop coming.
#technically ive actually had three but the ones where they come to my home feel more violating and embarrassing#heads up im going to talk about grim things but its so bananas that its hard not to talk about#2 years ago i had one come while i was Participating In An Activity One Does When You're Grappling With SI#and it was a very bad time and an overall terrible encounter#especially bc it was obvious at the time i was deeply unwell but of course they didnt want to actually address it#and today i had two come while i was having an active manic episode and looked DEEPLY insane and was in the middle of some bullshit#and both times as soon as i opened the door i can tell theyre like 'oh fuck' and realize that theres something serious going on#but at the same time. play stupid games win stupid prizes.#if someone is having a MH crisis they try to do it in a safe and private environment like their gotdamn house for a reason w/o strangers#and if you just show up unannounced to talk about Mormonism to a random persons house theres a good chance youre going to be-#interrupting something and that something isnt always good#i know door-to-door solicitors are '''normal''' but the whole thing really whacks me out and makes me feel kind of angry
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Christmas presents all wrapped.
I survived.
#I’ve been crying a lot#I wish my mom was here and my husband wasn’t#I worked so hard to make this a good Xmas#and we’re all sick and he won’t…participate in anything#I asked him to do one thing - should have taken 30-60min and it took him 9 hours#he doesn’t even know what’s in most of the packages#do I lie and put his name on#tonight my oldest cleared the table and wiped it down#and ‘swept’ the kitchen and bathroom because I’m sick and ‘dad isn’t helping’#breaks my damn heart#is this the sort of Xmas I want them growing up remembering#how long do I do this#why do I do this#am I scared to go alone#either way I hate myself#shut up dragoon811
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