#it just hurts not having someone like that in my life anymore because I did genuinely love them so much but like idk I already knew they’d

[mylovesstuffs]

Jungkook version !

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This is my personal opinion and perspective. It may not accurately reflect their real-life personalities or behaviors.

Jungkook never realized how much he liked you until he saw you laughing with your guy best friend. He thought it was normal to enjoy your company, but when you started ignoring him for your crush, it hit him like a ton of bricks. His heart started to ache, and he couldn’t figure out why.

Jungkook is typically laid-back, but when he gets jealous, it’s a whole other story. At first, he tries to hide it, but his eyes betray him every time you give your best friend attention. He’s quiet, brooding, and the playful smile he normally gives you vanishes.

When he gets jealous, he plays it cool. He’ll act like everything is fine, cracking jokes, but you can feel the cold distance. You’ll notice him staring at you when you’re talking to your guy friend, his jaw clenched slightly. He tries to act like he’s not affected, but it’s so obvious.

Jungkook, feeling hurt and frustrated, starts pulling away from you, convincing himself that maybe it’s better if he keeps his distance. He’s so confused by his feelings—he doesn’t want to complicate your friendship, especially when he knows you see him only as a friend.

One day, Jungkook can’t take it anymore. After another day of watching you laugh with your guy best friend, he snaps at you. His voice isn’t angry, but it’s sharp, and his words are harsher than he intends: "Don’t you have enough time for me, too?" The moment it slips out, he regrets it immediately.

Jungkook pushes you away, even though he doesn’t want to. "Maybe you should spend more time with him," he says, his voice cracking just a little. He doesn’t want to confess yet because he’s terrified you’ll reject him, so he opts to distance himself. He’s trying to protect himself and you from further pain.

He watches you, a mix of guilt and frustration in his eyes as you try to understand what went wrong. He can’t bear the thought of you questioning why he’s being distant, so he stays silent, waiting for you to make the first move.

He HATES the thought of someone else holding your attention like he used to, but he doesn’t want to admit his feelings because of the fear of ruining everything.

After a few days of avoiding you, Jungkook finally breaks. The guilt eats him up inside. He’s heartbroken at the thought of pushing you away, and he knows deep down that he doesn’t want to lose you—at least not like this.

One night, Jungkook finally accepts his feelings. He lies in bed, staring at the ceiling, realizing how much he truly cares about you. It’s not just a crush...And the thought of never being with you because he kept hiding his emotions is devastating.

Jungkook decides he can’t do this anymore. He can’t keep pretending like he’s fine when he’s breaking inside. He asks you to meet him, and this time, he doesn’t back down. He doesn’t want to live in regret anymore.

He takes a deep breath and, with his usual shy smile, he confesses. "I’ve been such an idiot... I like you. More than just a friend. I don’t know when it happened, but it did." His words are soft but sincere, and you can see the vulnerability in his eyes.

After confessing, Jungkook waits for you to speak. He’s terrified of rejection, but he can’t stop the words from flowing. His heart is in his throat as he watches you, desperate for your reaction.

You reassure him, gently explaining that you never realized he had feelings for you and that you were simply caught up in your own crush. But now, after hearing his confession, you start to see him in a new light.

Jungkook pulls you into a hug, his arms tight around you, as if holding onto the hope that things are finally right. He buries his face in your hair, his heart still racing from the confession, but the warmth of your embrace gives him the peace he’s been longing for.

After that moment, things begin to change. Jungkook becomes even more attentive to you, but not in a possessive way. He lets you know how much he cares through small gestures—making sure you’re okay, supporting you when you need it, and making you laugh with his goofy adorable side.

The tension between you fades, and instead, there’s a deep understanding between you. He doesn’t have to worry about hiding his feelings anymore because you’ve both found something real. You learn how to balance your friendship and love for each other, and everything falls into place so beautifully.

He surprises you with spontaneous, romantic dates that feel like something out of a dream. Candlelit dinners, quiet walks under the stars, or even silly things like going to an amusement park and holding hands while laughing at the rides. He’ll show off a little on the rides just to impress you, but always makes sure you feel like the center of his world.

Jungkook can’t resist being close to you now. He’ll walk behind you and pull you into his chest just to make you blush. He loves being able to wrap his arms around you, resting his chin on your head. "You look better in my arms," he’ll say with that cocky grin.

Even with his playful attitude, Jungkook is very protective of you. If he notices someone giving you too much attention, he’ll subtly step in and wrap his arm around your waist, pulling you closer to him. "She’s taken, buddy," he’ll say with a smirk, totally owning it. You can feel his warmth, and you know he’s not letting go.

When he kisses you, it’s slow and tender, but there’s a slight, hawt edge to it. It’s as if he’s savoring every moment of having you, exploring your lips like he’s in no rush. His kisses linger, and you can feel his heart beat faster with each one, as if he can’t get enough of you. But when he wants to be playful, he’ll steal quick pecks, teasing you, then backing off just as you reach for him.

Jungkook loves whispering sweet, sexy things in your ear, and he does it often. He’ll murmur especially while you’re in public, just to make you feel special and a little flustered.

He touches you often, but always with intention. Whether it’s brushing your hair out of your face or running his fingers over your hand when you’re sitting next to each other, it’s gentle and soft. But when he’s feeling cocky, his hand will linger a little longer, and you’ll catch him smirking as if he knows exactly how much it makes your heart race.

Jungkook’s compliments go BEYOND surface level. He tells you that you’re not just beautiful, but that you make him want to be a better man. He’ll say, looking deep into your eyes, making you feel like the only person that matters.

There’s something about Jungkook’s presence that feels comforting. When he’s around, everything seems right. Whether it’s cuddling on the couch or just sitting next to you as you both enjoy a quiet moment, he gives you a sense of peace that you didn’t realize you needed until you had it.

Jungkook loves building that slow, lingering tension between you two. He’ll drop subtle comments like, "You look really good tonight," or let his hands brush against yours in a way that makes your heart skip a beat. His confidence is irresistible, but he knows how to push your buttons without going too far. He enjoys the chase, and he loves making you anticipate his every move.

Jungkook’s teasing side is always on full display. He loves making you laugh, but when his eyes catch yours, there’s a depth to them that can make you weak in the knees. His smirks are often paired with a mischievous gleam, and you can never quite figure out if he’s being playful or if he has more intimate plans in mind.

When the two of you finally find that intimacy, Jungkook is gentle and slow. He takes his time, ensuring you’re comfortable and cherished, but there’s a quiet intensity in his actions. His eyes never leave yours, making sure you feel safe and desired. The way he touches you is deliberate and loving, sending sparks through your entire body.

Jungkook isn’t afraid to let down his guard around you, and that vulnerability only makes him even more irresistible. You’ve seen the parts of him no one else has, and he’s opened up to you in ways that make your heart ache with tenderness. The rawness between you two is a beautiful thing, and it makes every kiss, every touch, even more meaningful.

[spamziii]

Do you ever wish that you can like, stop existing?

I'm tired, life is hard and I am weak.

I just don't want in anymore.

My brain don't want in anymore. The voices keep saying "I wanna d1e I wanna d1e I wanna d1e" in a loop for the past 3 years.

Don't get me wrong. I AM LOVED. I know it and that's the part driving me crazy. Why do I feel like this? I have a life so many people dream of. Why am I unsatisfied? Why am I so ungrateful ?

I am like the biggest hypocrite. I know exactly what to say to someone in my situation. In fact I've done it. Because I care about people. I care even when I don't wanna care.

But even if I know and I can try to control my thoughts, my feelings end up betraying me. Because you cannot control your feelings. I spent half my live running away from them and let me tell you, that's a bad bad idea.

But even though, why do I feel like I want to d1e? The feeling will ho away eventually, I know it. But I'm tired of waiting and even then I know that EVERYDAY is gonna be a constant fight. Some are easier some are better. But I don't wanna keep on fighting.

But what about my friends. A part of me wonders how shocked they would be if I d1e. I know my bffs are gonna be devastated. We're soulmates and I mean it literally. Part of me want them to be shocked and devastated wondering "how did we not see the signs " when i know damn well that I never reached out and I willingly hid everything and chose to go through this on my own.

Life is about choices. Oh choices, I hate making them. But I made mine because truth is, no matter how much we try to sugar coat it, having a mentally ill friend is draining. No matter how strong you feel you are sooner or later you'll find yourself in their shoes and I would never ever wanna do something like that to my friends. Did I do it for them? Yes. would I do it again? In a heartbeat.

Also I wonder how my sisters and parents would feel. My parents and aunts and uncles would probably say why did she do this to us . I heard my neighbour once talk about someone who unalived themself. "Selfish, didn't he thing about his parents he was an only child. Stupid kid"

And honesty, I do find it selfish. But this selfishness is the result, and I'm not trying to compliment myself, selflessness. I always always but others above me. I rarely prioritise myself and when I do it's usually my way to rebel. It's just who I am, and I hate talking about my qualities I find it egocentric, but I genuinely like to be of service and help my family and friends. I like to be useful. I am useful. But I'm tired. My heart hurts. I don't know what i want. I wanna sleep for a month. I wanna live in the middle of nowhere and be detached from reality and the news. I wanna scream and cry and laugh and dance. I want everything and nothing.

I have a partner but I don't feel loved. Idk if it's because I'm mentally ill or because I made them too comfortable with me accepting them the way they are. And hear me out. I'm not asking for drafting changes but wtf do you mean you didn't reply to me because you're awkward and don't know what to respond or because your social battery dies after 7 pm. I get tired too but I always make effort because I care. I know they care. But I don't FEEL it. And you're gonna say I should talk about it communication and yes I did once after months of hesitation, rightfully so. They have a low self esteem and crashed down " I'm the worst partner I'm gonna change you're right you deserve better " and it ended up in me reassuring them and no they did not do it in a manipulative way. Trust me. They just have low self esteem and since the beginning I felt like I'm walking on eggshells with them. It's tiring. But I CANNOT imagine myself without them. I brought them out of a dark place, I made them want to live again. When I can't sleep I just imagine myself in their arm.

But sometimes love just isn't enough.

They say you can't love others if you don't live yourself, somehow I learned to love everyone but myself. It's easier to love others. You're not them. You don't know all of "them". And no matter how much you know, you can find a way to sympathies and admiring them. You're not haunted by their embarrassing moments, mistakes etc. It's easier for you to dismiss them and focus on the positive.

"Well you can do the same to how you perceive yourself, it's all about your mindset" trust me , these are my words no use in telling me. I tried but, and here I am repeating myself, you cannot control your feelings and I'm tired of fighting them.

Maybe I am just not made for this. I don't know how to deal with stress. I have the worst, well at least bad, coping mechanisms. The only reason it haven't gotten really really bad yet is because I'm trying to not disappoint everyone in my life and there is a tiny tiny piece of me that thinks I can do it.

But who knows who will win? How will it end? I wish I can skip thru chapters and see the final page. Would it make it easier ? Knowing the ending?

[grapejuicebrat]

champagne coast - r.c.

where rafe has to watch you moving on.

warnings: mentions of smut, kissing, swearing, heavy angst, might be a happy ending, rafe tries to be better.

notes: SHES BAAAACK. and a little reminder: english is not my first language so be nice! x

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“i want you to be happy rafe, that’s all i ever wanted”

but what if he can’t be happy without you? what if just your presence made rafe smile? if you want him to be happy, why did you leave? those questions were never asked but god, rafe still do want to know all the answers.

watching you moving on is hard. the first time rafe saw you after the break up, your eyes were red from crying. you never smiled. never wanted to pretend that you’re ok. you still loved rafe after all. even if he was a drug addict, even if he was a mean grumpy man. you really wanted to see rafe as an old rafe who tried to not hate on pogues. who tried to catch up with his sister and be a good older brother.

he really tried to be better. for you. for your future family.

he even wanted to marry you. of course, part of him understands that all those thoughts were in his head because he wanted you to stay with him. maybe he could get you pregnant with his baby. having a little copy of you with those big doe eyes was everything he ever wanted. but looking back, it wasn’t possible. not anymore.

sitting in a country club and watching you working hard was difficult. in the beginning of your relationship rafe made that clear. he never ever wanted you to work there again. not because he wanted you to be in a golden cage, just because men in this club were disgusting. rafe would never forget how you cried in his shirt about another nasty comment about her body. that’s why you decided to quit your job and instead of being a waitress you waited at home for rafe, making a dinner for you two and being like a housewife.

you changed rafe in a lot of ways. so now he doesn’t even want to punch this motherfucker jj in the face, because he is clearly flirting with you. after all, he promised you to fight with his anger.

the last thing rafe wants to do is disappoint you again.

“bro, there many other bitches, just forget about her” kelce said to rafe, laughing.

rafe’s eyes shifted to kelce, anger bubbling up in his blood. nobody gets to talk about you like that. even if you were the one to break up with him, you did it for best.

“if you try to say stupid shit like that again, i won’t even hesitate to punch you in a fucking face. you don’t know anything, motherfucker”.

it was the first time rafe didn’t let his friends say something disrespectful towards a girl.

you would be proud of him, that’s for sure.

after two shitty weeks of your break up, rafe saw you smiling for the first time. and he could swear, his heart melted. of course he wanted you to be happy to, even if it does mean that he won’t be included in your life anymore. as much as it hurts to say, maybe in some time you will start a family with a guy that really deserves you. and rafe always said to you that he didn’t deserve you. well, that’s true. he never deserved your kindness, your patience and mostly, your love.

after a long month, rafe could proudly say that he didn’t do coke for a month and two weeks. he didn’t drink either, except one bottle of a beer at the party. he wanted to start a new life, to try to be someone who would deserve you even if you doesn’t want him anymore.

and of course, you knew about this changes. you promised yourself to keep an eye on him if anything happens. and you were really happy to see him like this. without his stupid friends, that you never liked. without being high and drunk. at some time you would think that it’s your old rafe. who you used to know. and your heart would skip a heartbeat. after all, you still loved him. you will always love him.

sometimes you wanted to kiss him like you used to. to hug him, whisper an “i love you” and kiss like there was no tomorrow. you wanted to feel his hands on your neck, on your waist, everywhere. you missed this feeling of being loved by him, you missed his big eyes and his perfect smile. you missed those rare times you two made love to each other. of course you were obsessed with his dominant side in sex but oh god, when he would lay on you and hug you, and his dick was buried deep in your pussy and only god knows how many times he said that he loved you.

you would look at him in a country club, scared that some chick would hug him and sit in his lap. but not in a month, or two. not after a year after your break up, he still didn’t bring anybody. and if topper told you the truth, he refused to even look at some girl. except you.

there were still some rare moments when you would just sit in your kitchen and there will be only one question.

“what if we were still together”

you tried to imagine your life with rafe, how would everything be okay. and you cried. every time.

after another long night in an empty bad you’ve had enough. even if it is the biggest mistake you’ve ever made, you didn’t want this to be the end. not like that. when everything could possibly be better. when rafe at least tries to be better. because you still love him and some part of you hopes he still does love you. so you made your choice right away, getting your phone from the table.

notes: end sucks, i know. but i am still proud of this one. waiting for your comments!

[blainehasregrets]

What’s your view of the Blam crush?

Also you should tag your meta with character name as it’s not being seen, only by your followers.

It makes sense Blaine would find someone to project on/have a crush on in the meantime while he’s broken up with Kurt, since he’s someone who loves love (Silly Love Songs comes to mind), but he gets over it pretty fast (he could barely even think of any good parts of Sam’s personality in Tina In The Sky With Diamonds lol I also think quite a few Blamtina scenes felt very much like Blaine completely forgot he ever had a crush on Sam) with, in my opinion, little lasting effects.

I feel like, since Blaine moved on so quickly and just went back to Literally planning his wedding with Kurt like nothing, it showed being rejected by Sam didn’t foster any hurt, resentment, or regrets inside of him. He literally just did not care anymore lol Whereas I think Kurt’s crush on Finn and even interest in Sam, though brief and done after their arcs were over, continued to affect him going forward. Those events definitely furthered his communication issues and knocked down his self esteem, which in turn ended up causing problems within his relationship with Blaine.

Though I do think Kurt ultimately loved and chose to be with Blaine because it’s what he wanted, I felt he sometimes had this belief that nobody but Blaine would ever love him. Ex: Saying “I don’t think I’m ever gonna find someone else who’s going to make me feel [safe, connected, and loved like Blaine].” in Love, Love, Love. But I don’t think Blaine had that same fear?

I mean, sure, abandonment issues are the go-to thing people talk about when it comes to Blaine, but I think his abandonment issues were like. Solely focused on being abandoned by Kurt. (Note how he didn’t give a fuck about abandoning the Warblers himself…they loved him so much and worshipped the ground he walked on and yet he left them as soon as Kurt said “I want to spend every minute of everyday…with you♥️” in PPP. Blaine would take that hyperbolic statement to heart and make it his life’s mission to accomplish just that.) I don’t think he ever thought “I have no choice! Nobody but Kurt will ever love me! 😩” It was more like “I don’t CARE about anyone else, even if another person proposed to me right now, I only want KURT!!!!!” Ex: Never pursued Sebastian despite all of his flirting, literally about to throw up after he had sex with Eli (and I think it’s interesting Blaine says “I cheated on the one person I love more than anything in the world” in Dynamic Duets, like that’s his takeaway here. It’s not about feeling like Kurt is his only option, it’s that Blaine wants his only option to be Kurt, which is made more obvious with how he could and did hook up with Eli, yet doing so just made him think “wow I really only gaf about Kurt”), had a crush on straight guy Sam which would clearly go nowhere (and could be argued to just be projection and a safe way to experience a crush without it being reciprocated…), dated Dave as a power move more than anything (and this could come with its own set of 5 canon scenes to link to and explain), and does not even care to give Jeremiah a second thought in Transitioning. Though maybe blangst fans would disagree lol

And okay I got ramble-y there for a second, but that’s all to explain why I don’t think Blaine ultimately cared too much about his crush on Sam after the fact!

And while it may be classic Klainer cope, I do think the song he sang “to Sam” in Guilty Pleasures fit Kurt better!

Also thank you for reminding me! I need to organize my tags a little more in general… I went back and fixed up my last post a little (it’s still more messy than I’d like and I also want to add more specific canon scenes as evidence 😔 I’ll have to keep working on it) and tagged it! I’m so used to writing my glee thoughts on private accounts I forget other people can and want to see this stuff…

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

i'm kind of amazed how most of the stardew marriage candidates just want you to be their manic pixie dream whatever by agreeing with everything they like and plying them with compliments or praise or whatever (which is fine but a bit. Much) but for shane his romance is just you being there for him while he figures his own shit out... dunno why i never wanted to romance him before he's so good

[thorninyourpaw]

my existence makes me feel awful for my family

[tenwhiteandalusians]

pertaining to the idea of tenax’s band of strays i do think it’s touching that the kids are the ones who saved him and waited outside the door to make sure he’s okay. for all tenax claims to be harsh and cruel it’s a fine indicator of his character that the kids won’t rest without him and are there every time he’s in danger.

[avakitsune]

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[icewindandboringhorror]

I love all of these goofy product photos where the water bottle is extremely obviously just photoshopped onto a stock image of someone pretending to hold something or whatever.. very convincing..

[our-lady-of-mcr]

everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn

[phagodyke]

tried going to bed early bc ive just been sitting staring at the wall or my phone all afternoon but it's been 3 hours now and I can't stop crying. :(

[abyssalpriest]

Working with Leviathan be like

Leviathan: *completely both rewrites a severe trauma trigger back into something neutral and freeing, and further reconnects me to the Sky and myself off plane and pre-incarnation in the space of 24 hours* yeah nice, anyway we should play video games now I'm tired

[whimsyprinx]

i think I just need to stop clinging to and getting so attached to people

[beast-of-the-void]

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