#i have no way out of the situation im in. ive been stuck alone with no way out since 2020 and there is no escape

[pielove123clan]

My head's being mean to me again. Big oof.

[the-moon-files]

As I work on my college assignments that I have missed due to being sick I can't help but think *damn* I would absolutely hate being transported to another world due to all my responsibilities. Like, even if it was that zero time occurring between getting back home I wouldn't want that, because fuck what if time did pass? What if I got fired from my job or missed on rent and all my stuff got thrown out of my apartment?? I love the idea of being away from my responsibilities but I hate having to go back to more and more things I have to more things I have to make up or have just missed.

Anyway, my brain suddenly attached this to a reader who got stuck in the linked universe. The emotions they would go through because their mind isn't stuck on the past or present but in the future. What if they had pets? Who'd take care of them? How would they pay their bills if they got stuck in an alternate universe? It's a sudden absence of these things that really trip them up because they had so much to do and now it's all gone. They can actually live now. But also they weren't built to live life outside of the weird society we have. How can they learn to live if the way they'd been living was nothing but a mental ladder to keep up with. How can they keep going knowing that back home there are important events and people and animals that they are missing out on.

-✒️ (Sorry for the long ask I'm an a very existential mood rn)

Sorry this is such a late reply!! I've had a "fanfic author curse" kinda year tbh, so I'm just now getting back into my hobbies :/

(i just got so burnt out by life i wasn't even in the mood to play the video games, let alone touch my blogs/write for them :( which is sad bc i love talking to you guys /gen)

So, I hope this late response is okay, and college and things these days are going better for you anon!!

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BRO RLLY DROPPED MY WORST FEARS IN MY MAIL BOX ON A GODDAMN?? WEDNESDAY EVENING??? 😭😭 /LH

NO but SERIOUSLY this is genuinely a fear ive had in realistic isekai scenario situations,

So for like a year, maybe 2 now? Ive been obsessively consuming "isekai/reincarnation/transmigration anime" or this trope that somehow someway a character is misplaced from their original timeline, maybe just mysteriously yoinked/died/possessed another body in a diff universe, whatever, either way theyre There now, in a diff universe. And animes consistently gloss over this transitional period, that i can see real ppl actually having, to just sort of accept and move on, of course yo get the plot rolling.

But i guess theres just not quite enough sort of nitty-gritty isekai content yet for anyone to get have finally made an isekai genre thing that really goes on the other side of the spectrum, where the MC is like, well, THIS^^^

Like unless ur actually a hermit, youve either pushed away all ur family anf friends or theyve passed away, and you dont have a pet, pr whatever/whoever else,

ive learned after sort of coming out of teen years/rlly long depressive episodes that, Someone will always notice you. Theyll notice youre gone, and theyll miss you.

Like ppl hit u with that angsty, "nobody cares abt me" and then when u realistically sit them down like, "okay. What about your favorite teacher? What about your best friend? What about your online friends who will never see you log on again? What about your dog?"

Like yeah, who will take care of your dog?? Becaue where im at in life, if my sibling dies, ive got no one to care about my old girl, my kitty Mia <3 whos loved me since i was 12 😭

So, ive been actually wanting to fill in somewhat this gap in isekai genre by sort of expanding on it, i mean to be honest fanfiction is the only media ive seen thats gotten close to tackling this, with any amount of realism/emotional depth it deserves.

i hope u found this any amount of satisfying response, i probably would take this is in either a complete horror fashion/tragic scenario (which i don't write that often tbh) or a sort of "angst with a happy ending" like MC/reader worrying freaking out abt homeworld but there's a portal to let you go between worlds or smth

Peace out ✒️,

🌙📁

(i found a file emoji - how do we feel abt it??)

[angelliicc]

xo, call me

“so if its feeling right

why should we say goodbye?”

masterlist

a/n hi guysss!! im back bc i finished my exams this week. im deadass tired and trying to not fall asleep. anyways enjoy

warnings not proofread, mentions of ex bf

| the final bell rang in bio, making your way to math class. you usually stayed on the 3rd floor, waiting for all the chaos on the staircases to die down. you wore a black sweatshirt, jeans, along with your black converse. you hair was half-up half-down with a red bow. as you were walking to math, your ex found you in the hallway. he had always been very clingy, never understanding.

“hey there pretty girl.” he said to you as he followed you down to the first floor. you got icked out immediately.

“leave me alone please.” you told him, attempting to walk faster.

“not when you look this beautiful.” he said, as he grabbed your arm to make you stay close to him.

“dont touch me!” you said in a stern tone, immediately making sure he released your arm. thankfully by your surprise, a girl was watching the whole time.

she had auburn hair that was up half-up half-down and went above her shoulders, green eyes, and freckles. she wore a hoodie with green parachute pants.

the way she saw the situation, she was immediately worried, so she decided to step in.

“the fuck you think you’re doing?” she said to the guy.

“talking to the prettiest girl i know.” he replied, looking straight into your eyes.

she wrapped her arm around your neck and shoulder. “a girl thats taken.”

you looked at her, “wait wh-?”

she gave you a look, basically telling you to shut up in a nice way. then it clicked.

“what your mouth next time you’re around her, or ill kick your ass. got it?” she repeated defensively.

the guy wasn’t scared, but annoyed. he left in defeat, a scoff leaving his mouth as he rolled his eyes.

“hope you didn’t mind. i didn’t like the way he talked to you. im ellie.” ellie said.

“no, thank you. i really appreciate it.” you told her.

on the outside, you looked fine. but on the inside, you we’re freaking out. not because of fear, but because of how brave she was. she did that, for you. for your safety. you blushed at the thought of her defending you again.

“how do you know him? seems like a bitch.” she asked, as you both walked down in the hallway.

“ex-boyfriend, sadly.” you replied. “but once again, i really thank you for helping me out there. do you mind if i get your number?” you didn’t think twice as the words left your lips.

“oh no, not at all.” she said as she handed you her phone to put your number in. “thanks”

“see you again sometime?” you asked nervously.

“yeah, see ya.”

your brain was still trying to comprehend and process what the fuck just happened, as everything happened so fast.

a few hours later the school day ended. you decided to text ellie.

r: “hii”

e: “heyy, how ru?”

r: “im good wbu?”

e: “tired”

r: “same.”

e: “dyk if you have any classes with me?”

r: “no not really, whats your schedule?”

ellie then sent a photo of each block that she had, 1-7.

r: “we have math and history together”

e: “i can finally have someone to talk to, lol”

r: “sameee”

e: “hey about earlier, sorry if i pushed a boundary i didn’t know about. i just didn’t like the way he talked to you, it just made my blood boil. if you don’t wanna talk to me anymore, i completely understand. i wont take it personal.”

r: “nonono, i really liked it that you stuck up for me. no ones ever done that for me before. and i do want to keep talking to you. you seem like a really cool person.”

e: “thank you, thats one of the best compliments ive received.”

r: “im gonna head to bed, but ill see you tomorrow! good night”

e: “night 💫”

as you put your phone away, it was hard to fall asleep. all you did was think about her. she was on your mind for that entire night. because what you both had, felt right.

weeks went by, and you guys became an incredible duo. you both were always together. you knew what made each other smile, happy, laugh, cry, become sad, and so much more.

finally, it was hoco week. you already knew what to wear, since the theme was ocean. as you got to school, ellie asked you the question that every student asked their peers. “are you going to homecoming?”

“yeah, i really wanna go. i already have my outfit. i dont have a date, but its fine.” you told her.

the bell rang, signaling for students to get to their first class. “ive got dance, ill see you later tho.” you told her

“peace, i got bio-med.” she replied.

block 1 officially ended, giving students a 15 minute passing period. you sat outside, waiting for ellie. “wheres this girl?” you thought. suddenly, a crowd began to form. you turned around and saw ellie standing infront of you, with a poster and flowers. everyone had their phones out, recording your answer and reaction.

your face lit up in shock, with you hands covering your face. will you be my supermodel for the weekend @ hoco? the poster said. “she remembered my fav artist, sza. and my fav flowers.” you thought. “yes!!” you said as you ran up to hug her.

“im not done.” she told you in your ears as you gave her a hug. “will you be my girlfriend?”

this moment couldn’t be real. it was all a dream. you were on cloud 9. you wanted someone to pinch you. “of course i will.” you replied as you gave her a kiss on her lips.

i’ve been everywhere, seen everyone

but what we got feels right.

[entities-of-posts]

Im an exotic animal rescuer, not by trade but just for fun. i prefer to take in non- avian reptiles and small animals like rabbits but push comes to shove ill take just about anything for a short period.

anyways I got a call from a local shelter, they told me they had a goat surrendered to them, weird but i have an acreage and i assuming i didnt want to keep it i could probably find a new home for it easily.

I noticed something was weird when I went to pick him up. He was a little goat, probably a pygmy mix with mostly black fur and little horns. He looked entirely normal but immediately i felt like something was off. Being at an animal shelter is a scary experience, especially for prey herd animals like goats, usually they would be cowering or prone to aggression, but he just let me take him. He had a sort of confidence that I had never seen in an animal before.

I sort of assumed he was just a very well loved pet, they said he was surrendered by an old woman who said he belonged to her late daughter, the strange confidence of the animal could be explained by him being a very good pet, brought around strangers and comfortable in new situations. That’s what i tried to tell myself.

I brought him into my house, i didnt have a pen set up yet but my bathroom had been home to chickens and cats and once even a deer temporarily. he let me carry him and when i put him down he looked me straight in the eyes. not in the eyes like turning his head to one side to look at me but straight on, the way a dog looks you in the eyes. his eyes followed me as I set up the bathroom for him. dead quiet. No fear.

I close the door and leave him in the bathroom. I needed to get back to work, I work from home so it’s flexible enough that i can leave in the middle of the day to pick up a goat but I still should get my work done in time. I sort of forgot about the goat, until i heard my cat screeching in the other room.

My cat was an elderly calico who i rescued when I was just a teenager, she had quite a few things wrong with her, having absolutely 0 self preservation instincts or hunting drive, when in university my parrots were free roamed during the day alone with her. Stupid but she literally didnt seem to realize she could attack them. I think she may have had some sort of brain damage, because genuinely she was strange.

anyways, her screeching is not too unusual, i walked out, expecting she had once again gotten herself tangled in something or stuck somewhere. She loped over as she saw me, still screaming. she was bleeding.

The goat was in the kitchen, blood around his mouth. he looked at me with those predatory, very ungoatlike eyes. he opened his mouth, it opened much larger than it should have been able to, like his face was splitting open. He began to charge at me.

I was nearly blind with panic, not that ive never been attacked by an animal before, but this was different. unexpected. impossible.

I managed to lead him outside, suffering only a bite to the leg. All day he stood outside the door, like he knew i was in there. like he was waiting.

he left at some point during the night when the coyotes got louder. I brought my cat to the vet but it was too late. I went to a walk in clinic and got a rabies shot. They said it looked like a fox bite.

One of my favorite ways the Hunt manifests is by turning a prey into a predator. Delightfully unexpected every time. The wrongness of it makes the horror more potent.

[phagodyke]

doing the classic 'trying to open cards ppl sent but I have to keep putting my face in my hands and sobbing snottily bc I don't understand why they were so kind and it scares me so much'

back home and my washing is done and I need to eat lunch and do my ironing and then I've done all the tasks on my list and I can spend the rest of the day having a mental breakdown and then go straight to sleep woohoo

[infranthrax]

helo. im one they call 🍂 and id like to. make a request. i hope ur doing okay (*＞∇＜)ﾉ ur free to write this or not

i would like to request an angst w/ a good ending type of thing if its okay. a platonic f!reader&heartslabyul (seperately. if its limited to one character, you can go with riddle) headcanon that has the following plot;

mc is a pessimistic person, a very tired, overworked one. all they want is a bit of peace and quiet, but they care about the heartslabyul gang very much. they have kind of become a mom/older sister to the group (kinda like trey). anyway, one day the gang realizes that mc seems more irritable than usual which results in them making a snide remark/get in an arguement about the guy's flaws (like how riddle hurt many pre-overblot, how ace runs his mouth at the worst times, how deuce is not the brightest around, cater being addicted to his little social media sites, and trey ignoring the problems regarding riddle because he didnt want conflict, etc etc) that would hurt them.

they kind of ghosting everyone for a couple of days to calm down, and then they awkwardly come back with a box of sweets (that they managed to purchase by scraping by lmao, girlie's poor as hell...) to apologize, and eat them over tea! mc apologizes directly and wants to make up for their words, but they are not the best at speaking their mind.

ive seen countless fics where the main cast gets to be the agressive and sad, sopping wet cats, and reader comforting them. ngl, i wanted to write a piece where MC is the "sad little pathetic shrimp" but i just didnt have the time. anyway, i hope you like this prompt

oh my god I love this prompt! the mc is definitely the therapist of the group and I can imagine this happening… I restricted it down to just riddle given how detailed this prompt was, the rest of the dorm is self explanatory.☺️/pos (and thank you for your kind words! I hope you’re having a good day/night!)

generating new memory… please, one moment… ✨

𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊!

Heartslabyul x f!reader — headcanons!

sypnopsis: mc has had enough of the anal shenanigans after a near traumatic event, and she lashes back out at riddle, who is left bewildered and heated at the event.

light tw // domestic conflict, implied traumatic event

riddle rosehearts

riddle is just anal and sometimes he comes off as bossy and or ungrateful. that’s not really his intention however. that’s just an act of conditioning he’s been through.

so when he sees that you’re overwhelmed, at first he blind sighted to it. riddle isn’t great per se at emotions— let alone the ones of other people.

he gets on you for being late to class one day and it all piles up. You’re in a dorm full of boys— what girl wouldn’t have enough? at the time it was little around the time in which riddle overblotted, and he just went on with daily life like none of that ever happened.

he fucking hurt your ass. quite frankly that was the first (of many) overblots you’ll have to go through, and that’s how you’re gonna handle it? hell no, especially after the fact that you had to play superwoman to get the goons out of a near death situation.

before this, you had gotten into tiffs with the redhead on numerous occasions, trying to ground him down. never really did it work though as he was always stuck in his perfectionist ways. and you hated that about him because his mannerisms reflected into you.

he expected you to be able to carry yourself in a manner that would suit him. he expected you to dress a certain way. he expected you to follow his orders, his rules, his ultimatum. that you couldn’t stand any longer.

when he got on you for being tardy, the melting pot overflowed… and it wasn’t pretty either. let’s say you were in pain, in addition to your mental health plummeting due to not really having anyone to talk to, and then when mother nature calls upon you for your monthly drain you must attend.

you shouldn’t mess with the wrath of a woman on her period. this, riddle learned the hard way… with you.

“riddle… i swear… on god’s green earth, if you don’t shut the hell up… i’m fucking TRYING. I’M TRYING! FUCK YOU, YOU UPTIGHT PIECE OF SHIT, GO ON SOMEWHERE!”

and then the fire brewed. and then it exploded. (quite literally.) it would be hellish screaming match between you two, despite riddle claiming he is above such things. he really isn’t, he’s got a temper that’s about as fagile as glass. (no, it’s not microwave safe.)

after your blow up with riddle, you both proceed to give each other the silent treatment for the better part of a month. during this time you find comfort in your other classmates, spending time with other students outside of heartsllabyul, namely vil and rook, just for a boost of female empowerment.

and while riddle was contemplating all the bullshit that went down between the two of you, he began to feel a little bit of guilt. mattered if fact, both of you did. you shouldn’t have been so aggressive and he shouldn’t have been so… well, himself.

before class one day you enter your lab room to see a small box at your seat with a little note attached to it.

it was from riddle— a little chocolate potion bottle with those biscuits— the exact ones from the disney movie. little did he know, you happened to pop by sam’s shop to get him some mini fruit tarts and snuck into his class early to put them on his desk. you ate his little gift up, in a little bit of worry. would he accept that?

at the end of the day though, you had to return to heartslabyul to see him. and what a surprise, he wanted to talk to you.

call it him playing kiss ass— no, he’s not. he’s sorry. to be true, he should be more careful and more intuitive as a dorm lead to ensure the comfort of his students, and he does understand that sometimes he can come off as overbearing or, dare i say dictatorial. it’s really not meant to cause harm. it has a lot to do with his upbringing.

and you were sorry too. and you both hugged it out. every couple has their tiffs, right? just something he’s gonna have to work on.

[spookythesillyfella]

I think it's my obligation (Not actually BUT I want to) ask if you've recently had any song you've wanted to explain and why you associate it with anyone in HV? This isn't a forced response I know you're dealing with a lot currently and I don't want you to feel I'm pressuring you to answer me.. Simply take your time! Sorry to come out of nowhere. I would of said something else though I overdo it with the "I care about you" inboxes. It sounds like noise coming out of me after awhile so I'm approaching with your interests! Or something you care about to a degree! Feel free to say as little or as much as you want! I don't mind either way. I could never hate long paragraphs but I also could never hate short responses. Just do what makes you comfortable most!

oh goodness YES !!! thank you for asking thiz becauze . if not for thiz . id probably forget about bringing it up again [seriously ive been planning to post thiz like three dayz ago but i keep forgetting to write thiz out euughh >X[ ]

in any caaaseee .....~

"A Solitary Finished Product" – Dobuno Awa with HV! Colin and Tracey [but mostly colin] !!! an idea that ive had for like . the longest time !!! X33

"What I’m really afraid of isn’t feeling pain // It’s losing my strength // As if my veins have been stripped away" – so . the beginning already screamed HV! Colin to me ; hez not necessarily afraid of feeling pain itzelf . rather hez afraid to have people messing with hiz insidez [both hiz software and hiz hardware] and changing thingz – the line "As if my veins have been stripped away" can refer both to the fact hiz wirez are entwined with hiz veinz and getting rid of one would also mean getting rid of the other . but also to all the information stored inside him and how getting rid of it would be exactly like being stripped of hiz identity

"Nobody can live alone // They need someone apart from themselves" – i find that thiz line correlatez with the fact that HV! Colin and Tracey had to depend on one another to actually survive when they were younger ; neither of them would be alive in the current HV timeline if not for the other

"I’ve lost all my sensitivity // Since that’s out of the question for me now" – az time passed . however . the two began to grow distant ; Colin would be pulled away from Tracey time and time again by hiz dutiez and responsibilitiez and . eventually . he waz isolated from almost the entire world – a test subject stuck in a cage . only interacting with hiz observerz when they came by every couple of hourz . monitoring hiz progress in the "Operation"

"Someone, someone // Wanders, just like that // Do they run? They run! // At any rate, the result is—" – i find thiz line to actually refer to HV! Tracey . and how they spent most of their time while Colin waz absent basically wandering through the facility . and ending up accidentally discovering what the Operation really entailz ; in my mind . thiz line iz from Colinz pov . az now The Operation iz in full swing . carefully monitoring them – they run . for they know big brother iz watching you

"The moment your vision turns pitch black // Isolation comes to attack you // This world is so vast // Do you understand? // You’ll be alone forever" – i think thiz iz actually Tracey trying to reazon with The Operation itzelf [im uzing "The Operation" to refer to Colin in the state of . y'know . being wired to act az the peefect machine "he was alwayz meant to be"] ; alternatively . thiz could be The Operation trying to convince Tracey to hand over control and instead join thiz hivemind – reminding them that nobody iz on their side in thiz situation anymore . and that it would be one against many if it came down to a fight

"You want to be strong // But you just keep getting weaker" – once again . another jab at how HV! Tracey iz trying so hard to keep going without the support from their once beloved brother . and how they want to take down The Operation but can't – not just becauze itz stronger than them . but also becauze they're held back by the idea of having to hurt the body that belonged to someone so dear to them

"Do tears taste good? // You look utterly foolish" – are you – machine meant to work . experiment meant to be studied – crying ? are you – thing made not to feel . but to be marveled at – expressing emotion ? perhapz you should've been decomissioned long ago .. you're clearly not cut out for thiz cruel . cruel world . you poor fool ...

"The sounds of you falling apart are so annoying. I can’t stand it // Meanwhile, I want to put a bag on my head and sleep" – i think thiz iz actually something Tracey would be thinking ; rather than facing thiz monstrosity . the awful sound of twisted wordz spoken by a familiar voice . they would chozen to be decomissioned long ago

"When the world turns pitch black // Perhaps you’ll understand everything // In this place where I belong // I am alone // Because you’re me" – once again . The Operation trying to coax the smaller one to hand over the control – to finally be useful for once and aid in itz growth . to serve thiz flawless machine ; they're made from the same metal . the same wirez . the same people – they are one another and itz about time Tracey became a reflection of what they were suppozed to be since the very beginning ; i also feel like thiz could refer to the fact that . if Tracey WAZ to hand out control . that would leave Colin defenseless . in the place where he belongz – the very chamber hez been locked inside to act az the most masterful computer

[yeahiwasintheshit]

so i watched john cassavetes' 'a woman under the influence' the other night, and hooboy was that an intense movie. with an amazing performance by gena rowlands as mabel. and peter falk is great in it too. but boy is this a hard watch. you just feel bad for all these people, especially mabel. shes clearly a person in distress and she just doesnt have the people in her life that can help. not only cant help, but make her situation worse. what adds to the intensity is the way its shot, it almost feels like a documentary of this family. natural light, natural performances, natural dialogue. rowlands and falk really become these people. the thing is you also really like them. falk's character nicky really does some horrible horrible shit, and you end up feeling like hes the one mentally worse off by the end, because almost every decision he makes is wrong. but he clearly loves his wife, who is a very sick person, he just doesnt know what the right thing to do is. theres no excuse for his abuse, its bad, and hes a lousy father, but falk is such a charismatic and sorta lovable presence, you dont necessarily forgive him, there just arent any villains in the movie.

theyre just this sad family who are dealing with this mental illness, that they dont really understand, nor does the society around them. when she goes to the hospital for 6 months, and the day she comes back and nicky invites a house full of people to celebrate, you just want to strangle the guy, but its coming from a pure place of wanting to make a normal house, but its so hard to watch. plus the doctor who commits her seems to have encouraged the party, so thats another part of it, but what a bad decision. then theyre at the table and hes yelling that he wants her to have a normal conversation, and this poor woman is locked and stuck. she doesnt know what to do. the gif above is so heart wrenching. shes saying this to her father, and ooof it knocks it right out of you. that whole final third of the movie is notched up to a level 11, which is like watching a horror movie. everyone does the wrong thing for this suffering woman, and she reacts accordingly. its also hard to watch it from a 2024 perspective cause you know she could prob live a better life today with the right meds, and the right medical information for her and nicky to deal with her illness.

anyway ive been sitting on writing a review of it cause i almost didnt know what to say, cause its a lot. and maybe thats part of the problem. there are parts of the movie that are at an 11 for so long you almost shaking watching it. its a good movie with an amazing, and shocking and almost too real performance by gena rowlands (who is still alive today. shes 93) in parts it really does feel like a horror movie youre watching between your fingers. but it is really good. worth watching for her performance alone

john cassavetes is considered the father of independent movies, and i think this may be considered his best movie. he was nominated for best director and rowlands was nominated for best actress that year. so im glad i watched it, but dont have any plans rewatching anytime soon at least.

[foralteregos]

part one of me explaining acm!!! mostly copy and pasted from a convo abt them loll

@aerodynamic-acephalic tagging you since you wanted it

1 - What is ACM?

acm (Alternate Connection Multiverse) is a multiverse related oc universe that i made last year i think, idk. and surprinsgly ive barely drawn it so i have no art to show </3. ive been obsessed with alternate universes since like early 2019 i guess so . yeah.

my first ever creation with acm was just a little joke fanfic i wrote for fun, which inculded identity fraud and almost murder (thanks cobalt for that incredible act 2 drama👍) lol

but even before acm was made i still like, had ideas for au crossovers and such so, i guess acms main and original purpose was that rlly.

acm is technically a canon extended version/sequel of multiple other oc universes (more specifically future's canon timeline) i have (ITS A MULTİVERSE.. OK...) and i cant stop Thinking about it.

Ok, Main characters!

2 - The Important Characters

- Future, the young timetraveller.

Future is a late college student who dropped out to mostly focus on his new career as the ceo of his stupid (/aff) multiverse company. hes very young and clueless so hes easily pushed around and sometimes manipulated by others. he invented the multiverses "first" time machine and eventually rebuilt his enemy's (otherwise known as devante) Dimension Travelling Mechanism (devante never gave it a proper name because he thought he would murder Future instantly, and DTM was a back up plan just incase Future managed to break free.) after almost being killed by it.

- Equinox, the inventor and lone creator.

Equinox is the god of the multiverse, and works alone despite the couple of other gods that wouldve loved to help him with his 'situation'.

equinox is, not social. if i can say that. and very uyuhh easily angerable. tjats all i can say abt them without diving too deep into lore

- Timekeeper, the first and original.

timekeeper has been dead for centuries. being one of thr original versions of the universes before the 'loops' had started. he was stuck alongside equinox after his universe collapsed from a incident he refers to as 'Same Date Different Incident'. in which timekeeper and future BOTH invented the time machine at the same time, thus, causing one of them to collapse. and timekeeper was the unfortunate victim of a incident equinox couldnt control. Timekeeper met Future after Future almost died in his universe.!!

timekeeper doesnt mind being dead, infact, talking and being alive is something he'd rather NOT go back to. despite equinox forcing him into it somewhere around act 6, aka the second time future broke a universe but shush

3 - The Beginning Of Chaos, And The End Of Peace

Facade and Solace were two 'accidents' that were made by equinox. originally (aka back when i first made them) they were only meant to exist to destroy acm as a whole because equinox was tired of it

((^ im still rlly proud of this GOD why did i change it))

i guess that mechanism is still canon BUT now equinox mostly made them as a way for acm and such to continue acm and so it wont end up like the original universe but it just made it worse and facade and solace were kinda leading up to the universes destruction.

- Facade/Falen (He goes by Falen in acm i just prefer to refer to him as Facade)

quit his job as a (forensic, but still can make inventions) scientist, to focus COMPLETELY on ACM (OR IN UNIVERSE-WISE ACRONYM: ABUNDANT COSMOS (OF THE) MULTIVERSE)

he only has one arm, eventually got a prosethic because cobalt bribed (aka 'make this or ill Kill you') someone in the middle field

if not obvious, hes. not a good person rlly. yeah he gets to be a better person after realizing his purpose was nothing but to continue a story that shouldve ended ALOT earlier but yeah hes still a bad person.

- Solace, (yeah thats his name ok)

Solace was unemployed for most of his life, i mean his original universe was quite literally trying to kill people like him so-

unlike falen, his way of 'manipulation and control' inculded alot more violence than actual words and forcing. solace cant make inventions like facade can so he usually resorts to getting his own hands dirty for it.

I wont explain what they did as i want to write and draw it, but it should be obvious.

AND.. THATS PART 1!!IT MAY BE A LITTLE MESSY BUT ILL GO ON INCASE ANYONE HAS QUESTIONS!!:D

[narabea06]

GOD im thinking about ASMP Ranboo again after months of not thinking about them LEAVE ME ALONE i just have sm questions :((

Like Ranboo sounds so annoyed when they tell Aimsey initially that they're a cat- Like when Aimsey asks "what are you", he doesn't say "oh its obvious, isn't it? Im a cat" nor does he just say "oh yea im cat", they say "yea im a cat-...Im a cat" like bro sounds MISERABLE and it makes me wonder if each time Aimsey has been stuck in their false reality if they change everyone else stuck there too

Well i mean yea that was kinda stated that they do, but idk what im trying to say that is that i find it kinda funny that Ranboos just going "oh god, yea im a cat THIS TIME", idk its funny

Honestly theres also another layer to the whole thing, where all of the people stuck in the reality are affected and constantly going through loop after loop, and with Ranboo and Guqqie (I KNOW THERES ANOTHER GUY BUT I GEN CANT REMEMBER HIS NAME AND ITS BUGGING ME BUT ITS 3 AM) being the only ones who remember, i cant help but think it possibly takes a toll on them

Like it messed up Aimsey bc star DIDNT remember but KNEW something was missing and idk it kinda brings into one of the driving themes of asmp of whether its better to forget horrible things you've done or be forced to remember them. Granted the situation is VERY different considering a!Aimseys "horrible things" were accidentally killing their planet and family bc they were a child god with no way to control their powers vs Ranboo and Guqqie who were grown adults fully aware of what they were doing

Granted also tho, ive seen people point out that Guqqie was raised to protect Aimsey since they were kids, she was taught to be a protector, a weapon, a shield AS A CHILD, and it makes me wonder was Ranboo the same way?? Like not directly protecting Aimsey obv but was he involved when they were young too??

Idk im just so curious on whether their breaking point and need of power was genuinely out of nowhere and was out of character for Ranboo or was it a genuine slow burning flame?? Did they lose it bc they saw how they had to tend to this prince who they saw as a bad person??

Why did they start to put the false code into the machine that was somewhat working? (metaphorical) How did they get so hungry for power? Did they start to lose it the same way Guqqie and Aimsey did?

Btw none of this is meant to justify a!Ranboo as a character, they could very possibly just be some selfish powerhungry cat that im just reading too far into bc why not, but i just idk, i love asmp sm and i love how despite it being over, im still asking questions, im still searching for more secrets and information, im still so so intrigued

[thesweetestdevotion]

do u think trump will ever be assasinated or taken out the way other presidents were? like whats his outcomes going to be like for this coming year and was his attempted assasination a distraction / hoax or preplanned to take him out? thanks v much again!

Trump General Reading for 2025:

(ive been wondering this too, so im glad you asked lol)

Assasination:

Was it planned?: The Lovers Reversed, Seven of Swords, The Empress Reversed, The King of Cups Reversed, Seven of Coins

Immediately I’m getting that it wasn’t planned, or at least not in the way suggested here. I see an energy of displeasure, unhappiness, of a promise broken. the perpetrator came out as the king of cups reversed, and this tells me that there was a deep discontented feeling within him. Especially when the lovers and empress also came out reversed. there was something that made the perpetrator feel betrayed, maybe a decision made by trump? Or something that trump promised that did not pan out in the way this person wanted. I think this led him to sneak around and plan out this whole thing, but it was definitely on an individual level. I dont see this person being connected to anyone else. actually its almost like he’s severed form others, I see him as a figure standing in a dark room, alone. I think he was someone who was extremely angry and felt betrayed, it may have had to do with his ideals differing from trumps at some point, and also trump disappointing him. Though i see that this attempt inadvertently led to benefits for trump, what with all the fanfare and attention he got from it.

Will it happen again?: Ten of Swords Reversed, Ten of Cups, Knight of Pentacles Reversed, The magician, King of Pentacles Reversed, Four of Cups reversed

I don’t think something like this will happen again, at least if it does it wont be in the same way that happened in the past. I see trump has been strengthened by not just his survival, but his win of the presidency and the support he gained due to it. Trump right now is very well protected by those around him. If you ask me i think he may be safer than he was in his first presidency. though i see this protection is conditional. I think trump has promised many people many different things and if he fails to act or does something that displeases the people around him he will be more vulnerable. I see right now he’s like a valuable pawn, that is not acting on his own interest but rather the ones of the people who have supported and protected him. I see him being pulled in all sorts of directions, which i don’t think he minds. trump seems like the type of person to not necessarily be personally invested in a specific outcome, rather he follows where the money and power is. I think he’s happier this way, doing the things other’s want from him and in turn benefiting from their power and influence. He feels very empowered right now that’s for sure.

His outcomes for the next year (2025): The Hierophant Reversed, Two of Coins, Queen of Cups, Five of Wands, Eight of Swords, Judgement reversed, Seven of Wands reversed, Ace of Wands

I see him reaching a stalemate at some point?? It’s like he’s gonna have trouble balancing two sides at once, and this will lead him to be a bit stuck. Someone, probably a woman but mostly a feminine energy will step into the picture, and this will lead him to be conflicted in a choice he needs to make. I think this will lead him to be heavily criticized by some people and it could even lead to a battle between the interested parties of this situation. I think he wants to please too many people at once, especially this queen of cups, and I see him taking a route that is not ‘traditional or just doing something that is out of the bounds of normality for a president to do. That being said this is something trump does quite often so its not too strange coming from him. I just see him being able to win whatever battle this is, he somehow always comes out on top its actually insane. But i also see him not doing the things we expect him to do, or backing out of certain plans? In nit sure what those are because i feel heavy all of a sudden and my neck started to ache. I think whatever this future looks like its heavily protected at this time. Though i think he’s gonna surprise a lot of people, on both sides of the political spectrum, this year.

I really want to o see what this energy is. Perhaps ill do a follow up reading after some months pass by! I hope this isn’t too messy, or looks like I’m a trump supporter or something 😭 i like to remain neutral when I’m doing my readings, but i hope i dont come off as sympathetic bc I’m literally not lmao 💀 lmk if you have any questions!

[rhythmandstealth]

this post is long. like really long. stream of consciousness venting downer post that may or may not make sense. this isnt even touching on everything thats been on my mind but i think ive got the important stuff out.

my brain has quite literally not been working the same since i took that rick and morty acid. like its been completely. i dont know. its like im a completely different person.

the girl using this body beforehand got her shit rocked way too hard, and now a different girl had to take control and now she has to relearn basically everything ever. my autism feels cranked way beyond any countable level and i feel like there are more and bigger gaps in my mind. even my most basic bodily signals just feel completely alien and terrifying to me and its only intensified by the fact that i had food poisoning AND a kidney stone recently.

most of the time i dont even think to eat and when i do get food i just stare at it because i dont know what im supposed to do? and when i do eat its like. off puting. i dont know. everything tastes weird and has a bad mouthfeel and also im having a hard time fully moving my jaw? i feel like my entire taste palate has been completely randomized and everything i was eating is now just utterly revolting and/or physically difficult to eat in some capacity. also all my emotions feel cranked to like a billion and im struggling to even shower and do laundry regularly and always at least a little bit brainfogged and just. a whole bunch of other stuff. idk.

and it wouldnt feel as bad except for the fact that im stuck in a living situation that due to a bunch of reasons is like super duper actively detrimental to my well being. i feel like im about to bottom out all the time like i really fucking am like. i cnt even say im on the edge of something because "edge" implies a line and that line has gradually contracted into a single gradually shrinking point beneath my foot. and like. i know i need help and technically i know how to get it but when i try to act on the relevant information im intrnally just kind of weakly pawing at imperatives that the body is just refusing to execute. and this isnt helped by the fact that due to my autism being cranked off to hell im having an exponentially more difficult time trying to fully externalize my wants and needs or even my problems.

the fact that ive managed to type all this up is a miracle. i am just doing Really Badly. and it wouldnt really suck so bad except for the fact that i live in a southern suburb with someones family who are basically like space aliens to me and have been for far longr than i intended to be due to the pandemic. i need to be rehomed and retrained and re. fucking. i dont know. i dont even know where i was going with this i dont even know if it makes sense. its kind of a cry for help but more importantly i really just need to get it all out there no matter how badly or clumsily worded it is and get over my fears of being open about my feelings with people i know and of being fucking blown up at with because i didnt use the "correct" terms for expressing myself in a way thats acceptable to the other partys experiences and expectations.

i desperately need to rebuild my brain and my sense of self from the ground up in a way that makes me feel good and happy and fulfilled and not. adrift and alone and frustrated and scared. and i need to do it somewhere away from here. but i dont really kknow how to accomplish that because i have no real aims or even the, like. mental scaffolding to support the process of making and executing a long term life goal. not helped by the fact that i just dont have a very strong sense of initiative or autonomy? there are things i want and need to do but i lack the cognitive function to pull myself out of this hell im in and i dont know what to do or how to fix it because i feel like the conventional wisdoms for improving your situation require having some conventional baseline of brainpower that i am like. actively failng to meet. i grew up being discouraged and even punished for acting on internal forces and so now i can only seem to react to the external and thats why now i love getting high as fuck and why i dont really do much when hanging out with people unless someone says "hey come do this with us".

its a miracle i typed this much more. im sorry. im sorry for talking so much and im sorry for making this everyones problem. at least its under a readmore so it doesnt have to be. so whatever. i cant stop typing and crying. im overwhelmed. im burnt out. i dont have any real local support network. ive just been bottling and rotting bc ive just felt scared and embarrassed for how bad ive let myself get without any real help because i lierally just. havent been able to like. push. my brain. and body. into working properly. i dont even know how or why i managed to do all this. maybe doing an acrobatic fucking pirouette off the deep end by posting my little confession last night and letting one of my deepest most secretest cats out of the bag and not immediately having a bunch of gun laser scopes pointed at me for it like id feared for literally years has emboldened me to be moreopen about lower stakes things.

idk. maybe the fact that ive been struggling by myself with various levels of success doesnt matter anymore bc everything including stuff i thought id dealt with was violently dredged up by sufficiently potent psychedelics. i dont know. im a different girl whos new to this world. or maybe im the same girl but an outdated and incomplete version. im in a weird brainspace now that i genuinely dont know how to contend with. i need help and support from people i know and trust and feel safe with. which im still. struggling to get a good handle on. because i never really learned how to socialize properly or make good solid relationsips due to a turbulent upbringing. idk.

im trying. i really really am. i dont think the people who live with me think im trying in life because im not showing any visible signs on the metrics theyre using. but i really am trying my level best to push upward again and achieve the things i really want and live my best fucked up weirdo life. im trying to take things one baby step at a time. eventually, hopefully, i will figure things out.

and so we move.

[0809sysblings]

Amane: 10, 14, 22, 29 (you can pick any of them or do all I dont mind...just....Amane)

Amane... i COMPLETELY understand...

10. Describe the character in one sentence

how cruel... to be forced to describe My Beloved in only ONE sentence... pain and agony. i will try my best though! For Her.

.

i tried my best and it wasnt good enough, oh well! i literally cant describe her in one sentence.

14. Best storyline they had

The Purge March 🥰. im so fucking glad her mom is dead and that she was the one who got to kill her. im insane over the entirety of purge march. like i hate that all that stuff had to happen to her to reach that point. but god it just really. shows her character so well. im ill. sick. unwell. etc

22. When do you think they were at their lowest?

can i be very depressing and say that i think. Right Now is probably her lowest point.

if not now, then probably the time span of finding the evidence of the cat having been killed til her arrival at Milgram. cause her uh. voice line in the first voice trailer during the static bit... really makes me wonder what ended up happening after the murder... It Fucking Haunts Me.

anyway. about why Right Now may be her lowest. she like... she's in so much turmoil she has to Become her faith. she is completely alone. she is having to re-experience her abuse and trauma (not like she's ever even had a break from it in the fist place...), and she can't even fight to defend herself this time. it's literally impossible.

especially with the re-experiencing bit, its like... well did the abuse ever even stop? no not really. but i think the fact that its a whole new environment.. and she still has to deal with it.. makes for a whole new level of hopelessness and dread. its a different feeling: being abused in the same environment youve been stuck in all your life VS being abused in almost the same manner (at a fundamental level) again in a new environment.

im breaking her out of there one way or another, mark my words.

29. How do you think they would be as a parent? (and if they are a parent, how do you think they would be if they weren't?)

OHhgggg... i think... she'd be a very compassionate and understanding parent to her kid. she'd listen and hear them out and would treat them like the intelligent human they are, not dismiss them for being "just" a child like she often was.

she'd probably struggle with a lot of anxiety though. both surrounding herself as the parent and her kid. she'd probably struggle especially when it comes to her kid getting sick or injured in the typical ways children are prone to. it'd bring up a lot of stuff for her, i think...

she'd be her kid's #1 defender. if she hears about her kid being picked on by someone at school, that school's director/principal will never know another day of peace until the situation gets resolved.

OK THATS ALL IVE GOT. TYSM FOR THE ASK!!!

[moonlightandromache]

911 Characters + dogs you think they should own

okay im sooo sorry it's taken me so long to reply to this but i wanted to really mull it over and i've been thinking about it a lot and i've come up with a basic list for the main chars (+ a few that are Main In My Heart) i've paired off the canon couples since they would be getting the dog together.

bobby (and athena, but i'm putting bobby specifically because athena is allergic to dogs and thus this is His dog) - Chinese crested dog (i originally was debating between bichon and toy poodle but then i saw the error of my ways) bobby rescues this older, a little bit in need of some tlc chinese crested and it's perfect because they're a pretty hypoallergenic breed (the hairless ones at least, which is what bobby rescues), athena is hesitant about the dog at first,

henren - golden retriever / mix, i know they had a smaller dog in the past but personally i think they should have a medium/large dog next, a rescue who is a little older (past puppyhood/young adult bc hooo boy you don’t need a puppy and a baby at the same time), idk if it’s a full golden or a mixed breed with some golden in it but it’s a very even tempered fluffy dog who’s a total sweetheart (if sometimes a little stubborn about moving… i’m not speaking from any person experience what are you talking about)

madney - staffy mix, okay i’m giving credit to maddie (@thebuckley-hans) for getting me on the madney getting a staffy agenda and also the wonderful staffy mix at my work who is an ANGEL. again they rescue a little older of a dog (bc i am NOT subjecting my blorbos to puppy & young child i’m not doing that!!!! getting a puppy when you have a baby is a trend that needs to die out imo <3 why would you subject yourself to that On Purpose)

bonus for madney - i also think they should get a boston terrier, maybe a little later when jee is a little more grown up, bc hooo boy bostons can be fucking wild but i have a soft spot for bostons and also THE madney ep... boston... yeah

eddie - english bulldog. this is based on approx nothing except for the fact that we had our bulldog regular, George, at work recently and i thought it would be funny if eddie somehow ended up with a bulldog and i’ve been stuck on this concept ever since

buck - irish wolfhound. this is absolutely me projecting my captivation on the breed that ive had for so long (my original want for him was a newfoundland, for uh, similar reasons, but i feel soooooo bad putting on in california) i just think he should have a Real Big Dog (as @scattered-winter has put it, a dog that could just lie on him and be like a weighted blanket)

ravi - okay i have two VERY different vibes for ravi that i cannot decide between. one is a border collie, theyre... very intense but i think he would go all in on the training, it might be a little challenging with his long shifts though, they dont do well with being left alone/boredom but he could have a pettsitter situation. now on the COMPLETE OPPOSITE END OF THE SPECTRUM, i could also see ravi with a little spoiled purse dog, i'm thinking lhasa apso? (am i biased bc one of my dogs is supposedly 20% lhasa, maybe) i think he would would dote on that dog sooo hard and spoil her and she have little spa days and maybe her and bobby's dogs are friends......

lucy - shetland sheepdog. i cannot explain it but i got it in my head of her having sheltie(s) and its stuck like glue. she just has the Sheltie Person Vibe I CANT EXPLAIN IT

may - mixed breed as a bonus i think may should have a scruffy lil mixed breed, not small small but like medium small. just a scrungley guy (maybe a cairn terrier mix?)

okay yeah!! i think this is it!! apologies again for the long ass ramble and the delayed response but i thought about this a lot and im just!!! thank you for this ask!!!

[puppysdog]

I know nothing of your OCs tell me about them

ive got way too many so im gonna talk about the final girls ocs i have from my horror movies !

first is Áine from Goldberg. shes one of my favorites since shes the first final girl i came up with. she was really fun to make bc i realized i didnt have any “weird girl” ocs which was a tragedy. college aged, lived with her bestfriend izzy (pre death) and her two closest friends after. shes got copper curly hair (like the irish actress jade jordan), big brown eyes and glasses, and the same set of five tshirts and cargo pants from high school. shes super into horror movies and murder mysteries, and is over confident in her abilities which continuously puts her in dangerous situations, but also helps her get out of them. she ends up with the killer at the end of the movie which i think was a fun turn on the final girl trope

for the movie The Summoning in the Forest (title in progress still) both Alex and Ranger Butch Ryder are the final girls. ive always been a big fan of unwilling mentor/younger character with no family left type tropes so i thought what better way to do so than with a butch lesbian and a just-came-out-two-months-ago 17yr old. Alex loses her sister during a ritual summoning to try to being back their parents, and accidentally unleashes a demon in the forest. Fire Ranger Butch Ryder and her dog Sapphie live out in a near by fire tower for the season, and end up taking Alex in while trying to stop this demon from setting her entire forest on fire. I havent worked on the script for that one yet, but i want to focus on Ryder’s butch aspects and show them as desirable and hot. I also think Alex and Ryder being able to bond through their sexuality is a great way to steamroll through two strangers wouldnt work together bc two lesbians stuck in a horror situation would no doubt team up

Dakota is the final girl for Haunted House and oh boy shes gotta be my second favorite. British, fat, shaved head, dyke, 80s type punk chav vibe, hot headed, literally everything to me. She ends up inheriting a house from a family member shes barely heard of, and being a broke mid twenties yr old she immediately is on board. the house has a minor staff run by Ms. Adeline Falls so Dakota doesnt even have to do anything but play head of the house and follow the rules. Except shes really bad at following rules, and the house hates her. cue movie horror montage of a haunted house trying its best to kick the most stubborn girl out. i think this one will have more of a crimson peak/bly manor type vibe than anything? gothic semi tragedy horror is the feel i want to go for. also she basically ends up getting with the house at the end, so theres that

My last final girls are Belle and Julia from Sleep Over (title also in progress) i hesitate to call Julia a final girl since shes the antagonist, but she does end up alive at the end with Belle so ig she counts. very horror comedy with an over the top weird girl, Belle. Belle is absolutely obsessed with horror and the macabre, extending to serial killers and such. she has an entire room dedicated to horror props and set pieces, and she’s extremely elitist about her opinions on the genres. shes very much like May from the movie May, super awkward but much more outgoing with it. Julia and her crew are the new up and coming serial killers of the city, and decide Belle is gonna be their next target. Belle, already unhappy with the groups work and considering a shame to true serial killers, turns her house into a deadly home alone mixed with saw style death trap, and the serial killer trio slowly realize theyre the ones trapped in the house. I really want to give Julia and her crew popular mean girl type vibes. Like hair done poofy, cherry earrings, gold rings, lots of matching pinks, etc. Her and Belle dont end up together or anything but they do get the same life sentence, and the movie ends with what looks like them breaking out together

and thats my girls <3

[stepfordgoth]

I keep trying to make goals/resolutions for the new year but I'm stuck. I've never been very good at making goals. Last year I think I kept it completely abstract like "in 2024 I want to continue improving myself in every possible healthy way", which is, of course, not really a goal. Goals have to be specific and have to have a time limit to achieve them and a way to measure your progress. Among other things. Im referring to the SMART goals system right now btw:

However I will say, despite it not being a goal set scientifically, I do think I did improve vastly in the last 12 months and I certainly wouldn't call that goal a failure! Compared to where I was last year, here are some of the things Ive achieved:

I am drinking way less frequently (and way less in general) now since this time last year (I was becoming messy tbh)

I joined a gym for the first time ever in my life in august, and I fell in love with it fast. What a confidence boost to not only be going to the gym regularly at all, but to commit to it after the idea of it has scared you for so long. And then to fall in love with the gym too! I'm giving myself lots of praise right now, thats a brand new set of several skills I acquired when I decided to walk into the gym! Compare that to the girl I was a year ago who was drinking way too much and not eating healthily and getting enough exercise and gaining weight because of all of these things. I've definitely lost a little bit of weight and I look a lot better/sexier/healthier now too

I've got my chronic physical issues more or less under control. Some weeks/months are better than others. I spent a lot of time this year trying to understand and fix my gut health and I can proudly say that a year ago I kinda thought I was going to die because of the terrible flare up I was experiencing, and today I have a pretty decent handle on it. January 2024 was the worst flare-up I've had in my life, and it has never approached that level since then. And it still flares up and it's awful when it does, but they're fewer and further between now, and they aren't nearly as painful or damaging. I'm really proud of how I've done the research and tried things until I found something that helps.

I have been strong and supportive and helpful as much as possible for my husband while he's been going through a lot of changes in his (and our!) life. I am so proud of him! It's been a crazy ride but it feels so good and I know he's got this, he's a fucking rockstar.

I have given so many new things chances this year. Specifically, new music. I've really allowed myself to be more open minded musically this year than I have in a very long time.

I have persevered this year. In so many ways. I have navigated lots of situations and always come out of it okay.

I have stuck up for myself. I have spoken up and stuck to my guns for what's right for me while also being proactive and trying new techniques and ideas to deal with my life issues. I have been assertive and I've spoken my thoughts and wants and feelings. Somtimes I have made big choices or changes and stuck to them even when others around me weren't huge fans of it.

I've gotten closer to truly loving myself. I'm still working on it though, but I made some big breakthroughs this year. I've put conscious effort into being more feminine and attracting more feminine energy to myself this year, and I've done a lot of reading/changing experimenting with different hair and makeup techniques and products and clothes this year!

I went to a Caribbean island (that alone is a first) and I saw so many more stars than I've ever seen in my life and I learned to boogie board and i started to realize that it's time to let go of that "I was raised as a prisoner" mentality that makes me forget that I'm a free, grown adult and I can do whatever I want. And I got the cutest little whale tail tan line! And I learned that my husband is more in tune with "the cosmos" (so to speak) than I gave him credit for.

I finally put some things into motion regarding some stuff around the house that has been bugging me for a while but I kept getting put off for whatever reason.

I was finally able to recognize the root of an issue I've had in my life on and off since I was 14, and accept it for what it is and make peace with it. It no longer obsessively plagues my thoughts as it did for many years, thank god!

I shyed away from fewer social engagements this year than I did last year (i think?) and I tried a little bit harder to make friends, or at the very least build some sort of personal familiarity with a few new people.

I was not perfect with it, but I made HUGE strides in my not abusing my stimulant meds journey. Yes I did indeed have slipup moments but I think overall I probably took the least total amount of stimulants in 2024, that I have since 2018.