#it just drains me like nothing else
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cosmicdreamgrl · 1 year ago
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coridallasmultipass · 1 year ago
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Why are we calling him "Alpha Dave" when we could be calling him "Big D"?
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medicinemane · 6 months ago
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I don't know... horrible things happen all around the world and it's not a competition
Atrocities are committed against multiple groups in multiple parts of the world at the exact same moment, and none of them erase each other. They all matter, all the people in this world who are being brutalized matter. There shouldn't be any line you draw where one group doesn't actually matter as much as another
You're welcome to prioritize your energy towards helping one group or another, but what's not ok is invalidating or dismissing people who are actively being harmed
Same goes for trying to figure out which social group has things worst (and lets be honest, always using a US lens)
Like... maybe the important thing is to prop each other up and help everyone get on their own feet rather than trying to... pick fights about if physical disabilities or mental illness are less respected (I'm trying to pick a more absurd example but sadly I've seen exactly that argument happen before). Maybe it doesn't really matter and what matters is helping who we can when we can
I'm tired of it, I'm just fucking tired of it. Support people, champion them when the world is just brutalizing them, but you don't need to throw a single other person under the bus to do that
Which seems to be an absolutely impossible lesson for people to learn
#I won't say anything else on this; but I will say that to me one of the groups that it feels like is most forgotten is Syrians#including by me if I'm honest#I don't know what's currently happening in Syria... but... my understanding is it still hasn't really gotten better#assad is still brutalizing people last I had heard#so rather than saying anything else I'd prefer to simply focus on some people it feels like were forgotten back during Obama#and... and have remained forgotten#and I'm sorry I can't do more to help with the suffering in the world#but... you notice what I'm not having to do here?#I'm not having to throw a single other person under the bus#I'm able to just focus on how much I wish for Syrians to be ok (which is a hollow gesture on my part in many ways I think)#and I can keep all the focus on Syrians rather than throwing anyone else under the bus or doing any whataboutism#and that's literally all I'm asking of you fucking people#don't downplay human misery to try and make your thing seem more important#they're both fucking important... they're all important#there's so much suffering I can't even keep up with it#there's so much of it that I can only name without knowing the details; Congo; I believe Sudan is still suffering; Haiti#I don't know how things are in Ethiopia right now... I can't keep track#and none of these situations and the horrible things they're dealing with; things I haven't even been able to follow#none of it detracts from and of the issues I am following more closely#I don't need to compare them and say 'well it's not as bad'; because... bad is bad and any is too much#and nothing I say here will do a damn thing; no one'll hear and even if they did they'd ignore it or get pissed#that's what my evidence shows me about how people behave#but suffering isn't a competition; the correct amount is zero#and... perhaps I'd have more tolerance if I hadn't watched how you behave with stuff#...the worst part is the person I adore who... man... I wish I could just get them to really think through their words#they mean well; they're coming from a place of love; but I just haven't been able to paint the picture for them of the harm#and I'm flawed; I don't have all the answers; I could be wrong here#but... can you at least see why I feel that maybe we shouldn't pit misery against each other#that the people suffering have more in common with each other than opposed and... maybe westerners aren't fucking helping#eh... too fucking drained thinking about this; end of tags
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lesbianlenas · 4 months ago
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i have been very sociable since starting the new school yr vs last yr where i was like not lmfao & i was wondering why that was bc i was a lot more sociable in college and then after starting law school i was like avoiding ppl again for no reason and having a lot of trouble being like idk normal talking to ppl bc it’s like i get really 😐 and i will not give anything to ppl i’m talking to which is truly not me at all personality wise but it is smth i struggle w…..but anyway i was thinking to myself why am i doing so much better like i am quite honestly being more sociable than i have ever been in my life now when not much has changed & i had just majorly regressed but i think i was just really emotionally drained last yr for several reasons and i know the reason i was like that in high school was bc i was stuck living w my dad & that was so mentally/emotionally draining that doing everything including talking to other ppl was so difficult and i was very closed off to ppl bc of that & i think i was going thru a similar experience of emotional/mental exhaustion last yr that just made me really drained & not able to be normal around other ppl 😭 bc the only thing that is different abt me now from a few months ago is that i have really been able to let go of certain things that have been causing me a lot of mental distress for a while & even tho i have been dealing w depression issues as always i have been in a way better place emotionally even if not so much mentally & i have been able to be so much more comfortable interacting w ppl & being myself & not being so closed off it’s very nice 😌 i actually feel normal now & it is helping w my depression a lot too bc having that issue again was making my depression a lot worse too. but basically i feel like a normal person again after spending the past yr feeling extremely uncomfortable & not in control of myself bc of how i couldn’t make myself act normal & being all closed off even tho i didn’t want to be. so i love that for me 😊
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official-bunbun · 1 year ago
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i am So Tired
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reanimated-owl · 9 months ago
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((what is everyone's least favorite chore mine is laundry
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ghoulfr13nd · 1 year ago
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immmm really. not great rn
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elegyofthemoon · 11 months ago
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tbh i think i just need to get into a media thatll shake me to my core the way me revisiting p//andora hearts at a crucial time shook me
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Pretty bummed my Succession OTP this season is officially noncanon 😔😔😔
Succession TV Show (2018)/Humor and Levity
I still ship you, but the writers certainly don’t 🫡
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cetoddle-archive · 1 year ago
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like i just don't get it
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loumauve · 2 years ago
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#running face first straight into every single rejection sensitive wall atm and it's so frustrating#like. can we just not do this rn brain? I'm too tired to deal with this on top of everything else#all it does is make me alienate myself from people I care about and make me feel like shit afterwards#and it doesn't fix any of the underlying issues either. (like. I've been upset about ppl not doing what I do)#(as in read all of my fic like I try to read all my friends' fic usually. but like.. not everyone can and not everyone wants to)#(but it's one of those irrational things of 'if they cared about me wouldn't they also try' even tho that's not a fair ask)#(and like.. most people don't read random fic for fandoms they're not even in so this is entirely stupid to be upset about)#(but here we are anyway)#just.. me. raw to the very nerve and too tired to fix anything that might help alleviate it#I just want to feel normal again. and like I have control over my emotional state#but between 'dude fucked up bc of his borderline being triggered by grief and letting out all his frustrations on me for weeks'#and 'other dude grieving but not processing and not even taking a break to figure out where he's at emotionally..#..therefore dropping all of his unprocessed baggage and his part of the group work right on top of me' I'm just having a heck of a month#and idk. it would have been nice to talk to sb about my fic even if it's older now and not the best perhaps#(doesn't help when everybody you know writes really great fic and you're just outside the door scribbling some ideas into the sand)#idk. usually I do better in disconnecting self-worth and accomplishments and stop myself before the comparisons with others start#but rn it's all too much and I'm drained and exhausted and nothing feels good or helps much at all.#anyway.#it is what is I guess. and what it is is fucked and I doubt it's gonna change anytime soon.#that's not me being unrealistic or depression talking. it's based on how things have progressed thus far#there's another year and a half of this kind of stress which will likely get worse when our group grows from 18 to 31 in October#and then I'd have to start working proper again which I haven't in over two years bc of all the rehabilitation I've been going through#and it's terrifying and I'm already exhausted and worn down and worn out and I just don't know how normal is ever gonna be my life again
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catcatb0y · 2 years ago
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Man I just wanted to watch a silly video and draw a little bit before I had to wake up at ten am, but people can't stop being Weird (deragatory) On The Internet. I'm gonna get less than five hours of sleep on a day where I'll get yelled at if I put in my headphones.
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liizzarddd · 2 years ago
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**vent***
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teddytoroa · 2 years ago
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lrt to be honest now if i meet someone and they're extremely self loathing i just dont foster that relationship and avoid them. And i left all my friends that did that over the years and now only befriend folks who are like...at least trying to be better. if you're depressed im sorry but we're all fucking depressed and traumatized and just trying to make it through and sometimes that means not adopting relationships with people who are going to make our lives worse. yes thats maybe cruel but like. if someone is just a huge downer all the time why the hell would i want to spend time with them. its different ofc if its a friend who wasnt like that who then falls into that behavior bc then somethings Up, but if i meet someone new and they just talk about hating themselves all the time and act extremely traumatized and panicked and people pleasery its like. annoying. i dont have the ability to help these people and if i get involved im just gonna end up drained and miserable. sorry your life sucks but im not dealing with that. adios.
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biromanticwritergal · 2 years ago
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I was working on my new experimental writing project any way. It's something I wanted to try since well, I have waited way too long already to not do something.
It's historic fiction, it's a dramatic family epic with a lesbian lead character.
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extervus · 24 days ago
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Being sick sucks sooo bad man I can even enjoy my delicious homemade shaken espressos with vanilla served in a mason jar because I prefer those to our normal drinking glasses since they're harder to accidentally knock over. And with a reusable straw! No less
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