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xysidhequeen · 1 year ago

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Current count since I last slept: 41 hours.

I think I've capped out at 46 before, I'm not sure because my worst fit of insomnia had me in no position to check times. But I'll say 46. So if we hit 48 we're setting personal records!

#i do not want to actually be awake #my body just physically cant process stress #'oh zee why cant you be in a car?'#this. this is why #and you might think: 'oh this cant be because you were in a car!'#it is. it so totally is #and also stress #but mostly i blame being in a car #everytime i get in a car i get sick #motion sickness vertigo dizziness insomnia #my body is violently against automobiles #which is actually so annoying because i finally own one of my dream cars #and wanna know when i last drove my baby?#A YEAR AND FIVE FUCKING MONTHS AGO #Also please for the love of fuck do not suggest anything to help me sleep #i. have. tried. it.#when im dealing with insomnia like this the only way it stops is preceiotion strength meds or my body calms itself the fuck down #no teas no melatonin no meditating no lettuce water no hot milk NOTHING will work #and also even prescription strength meds dont always work when its like this i have woken up like two hours after taking some b4 #when my body doesnt want to sleep it will not sleep #you can tell how little sleep im running on based on how unhinged these tags are

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bixels · 2 months ago

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As gen-AI becomes more normalized (Chappell Roan encouraging it, grifters on the rise, young artists using it), I wanna express how I will never turn to it because it fundamentally bores me to my core. There is no reason for me to want to use gen-AI because I will never want to give up my autonomy in creating art. I never want to become reliant on an inhuman object for expression, least of all if that object is created and controlled by tech companies. I draw not because I want a drawing but because I love the process of drawing. So even in a future where everyone’s accepted it, I’m never gonna sway on this.

#personal #im still fighting it but im also a realist so I’ve accepted that this will be our future #rant #gen ai is fucking boring #I hope this doesn’t make me sound like a ‘going against the crowd. not like the rest of society’ type (it would be depressing if it did)#but yeah even in a world where it’s considered totally fine to use ai to make art I’ll still be using my bare hands #because I like it and nobody can take that from me #if you’re a young artist interested in or already using ai. just know that the thing you rely on to make art can be taken away at any point #all of it. and there’s nothing you can do about it if they decide to. it doesn’t belong to you

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everythingwasnormalhere · 9 months ago

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pls rb if you think cuddling doesn't have to be s3xual

im tryna prove a point to my bf's mother help me out

#like im asexual its def not gonna be like that for me #but she still thinks it is soo #but like. cuddling can totally be platonic there doesnt gotta be such a fuss abt it 😭#i get her pov but c'mon #asexual #aromantic #<- for reach #edit: ...its censored because i want to btw #like. ik im in the horniest social media but i wanna censor it so i do #ik i wont get shadowbanned like in tiktok lmao #im not even in tiktok......😭#so yup i censored it for my own comfort 💯 hope this answered your questions pls shut up now lmaooo

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bluebellhairpin · 2 months ago

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Crying bc the events of Pacific's Rim are literally happening right now. January 8 was the day Mako and Raleigh fought those kaijus in the Hong Kong double event. January 12 is the triple event where they close the breach. In two days we cancel the apocalypse.

#AND MY TIMEZONE DAYS TOO SO PITERALLY PN MY SUNDAY OMGGG #you so dont understand how excited this makes me feel #but also sad #i love pacific rim lol #totally gonna watch the movie on sunday now #nemos thoughts #pacific rim

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pangur-and-grim · 3 months ago

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one thing that took me embarrassingly long to learn is "sometimes when people say things, they will not be true."

I used to tell people about this revelation and they'd be like yeah.....duh.....but like, why wouldn't my base assumption be that you're communicating to me in a straightforward manner. anyway, I get scammed a lot.

#example: a 'friend' in middle school told me I should ask a guy out. she said 'he'll totally say yes'.#he did not. which was the obvious outcome #but it took me years to realize that she'd said that hoping to fuel some drama for her own entertainment.#ANOTHER EXAMPLE #a guy in college approached me saying that he'd been seeing me around campus but was always too shy to talk to me #and that he really wanted to get to know me #so I was like wow 🥺 romance 🥺 and hopped into bed with him #and afterward I was like what do you wanna do 😊 should we see a movie 😊 should we go out 😊#and he was like nope. byeeee.#and I realized I got bamboozled into sex #total shocked pikachu face #I'm still not the best at this tbh. I'm like 'why would this person lie to me. lying is bad'.#anyway this is why I not looking forward to entering the dating world again #DONT BAMBOOZLE ME I'M GULLIBLE

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narwhalsarefalling · 9 months ago

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my (cis) brother is using my old license to buy wine and it has the gender marker F on there. so whenever he gets asked he just says “oh i’m trans”. its literally worked every single time.

#the narwhal speaks #we’re close enough in age and looks to pass for the other #if you took out photos and then shrunk it down on shitty plastic #if he gets asked why he doesnt quite look like the photo he has a whole speech planned abt how hormone replacement therapy changed so much #like muscle distribution etc #he hasnt been asked yet tho but hes practed the speech on me its totally great #what a time for our generation to be alive

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caemidraws · 2 months ago

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