#it has osdd and trans people

[pawberri]

Ciconia WTC, one of my favorite game ever, is on sale rn 💖 you can play it without the other entries in the series, but it's a lot of fun if you have read those too (and they're on sale too!)

[weareuniqueandimportant]

EMPATHY GLAMORIZATION IS NOT ABOUT EMPATHY BUT SUPERIORITY TORWARDS APATHETIC PEOPLE BIGOTRY TORWARDS THEM TYPICAL BIGOT EVIL. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU SEE THEM AS LEFTIST YOU'RE NO LEFTIST YOURSELF. HORRIBLE. THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE ONLY EMPATHY AND BAD TO THINK EVERYTHING YOU DO IS SUCH ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY'RE CLEARLY BEING APATHETIC IF ANYTHING WHEN THEY DO THIS...

COMES TO SHOW BIGOTRY TORWARDS CRAZY AND DISABLED PEOPLE ASWELL AS PARAPHILIA PEOPLE ISN'T TAKEN AT ALL THE SAME AS SEXISM RACISM AND QUEERPHOBIA... OR PERHAPS... LIKELY... THEY ARE ALL THE BIGOTED THINGS EVIL AND TAKE NONE THAT SERIOUSLY... BELITTLING DOWN THEIR PAIN AND DAMAGE...

[misscammiedawn]

You may have discussed it before, but would you mind speaking a little bit on how you discovered you have DID?

I feel like I have a pretty stable core identity but there have been times under intense stress where I’ve experienced sudden “switches” in my personality. During a particularly bad period for a little over a year there was a time where I distinctly felt like a different person and did things I wouldn’t normally do, and I remember the specific moment where I came back into my body and became “me” again. This doesn’t happen often, but it has happened more than once throughout my life. When I see people talk about plurality I feel a little confused because their identities often seem to have their own names and genders and ages and backstories, and it seems so cut-and-dry.

I know these are all things to discuss with my therapist but I love how you talk about your own experiences. How can you differentiate between DID and other kinds of dissociation?

Thank you for asking, anon! I'm glad you are going to talk to your therapist about it while also doing the reading and reaching out-- heaven knows our own journey within the US mental healthcare system was rocky at best. The latest chapter of Madison/Belladonna is heavily sourced from IRL circumstances both in receiving the diagnosis and the decades long journey in the mental healthcare system to get there.

But to answer more directly-- (as always we are answering from a psychopathology lens for care and treatment, we recognize the beauty of plurality and do not reduce ALL experiences to mental healthcare concerns, we are approaching our own situation and experiences this way as it is how we lived it)

Our journey was guided from the outside. Both therapists and our partner who was able to see these "mood swings" in us were able to gently guide us to water despite our fierce denial and rejection of our situation. What started as "we're fine" turned to "mood swings" turned to "BPD" turned to "---maybe we should read up on OSDD?" Turned to our current therapist telling us over a year ago that we had DID after months of testing and interviewing to determine.

I should also note I likely realized it MULTIPLE times in my history and buried it again and again. I legitimately think that people in my former life knew and either assumed I knew too or worse I had told them and forgot that I told them. It worries me because I cannot ever be certain. I once asked my ex-wife about it after the divorce/diagnosis and she did say it was weird how she had a "different husband" depending on environment and social group. She said she never noticed it during the interactions, but she would always think back and feel that the "me" in any given moment was different from the ones she observed in social/work situations etc.

So like--- even if people notice, sometimes they don't even realize what they're seeing. Honestly I go full No Mask at work even when a male part fronts and no one really bats an eye. I don't think *most* people are as observant as we worry they are.

ANYWAY! Looking back these are the signs that I ignored:

- I not just wrote a consistent journal through every phase of my life (even going as far as to have a "memory list" that I populated "when I felt like it" (<- IE: when a part that associated with the memory was fronting and wanted to type about it) and more importantly I READ it. Often. I sometimes think that the majority of our memories are just imagined versions of what we wrote. That notion is helped by the fact we [used to] stop journaling during times of crisis or delete journal/chat log to prevent us thinking about distressing things.

- I wrote a lot of plural characters in my stories since my teenage years. Kinda like I kept writing female versions of myself? Funny how the Trans and DID acceptance arcs are so dang similar.

- I would emotionally cave in on myself after gatherings, berating myself for how I had acted all evening. Getting deeply upset at how "out of control" I was. We outright AVOID mood altering substances like alcohol or weed.

- When talking about traumatic memories we typically just tell the story rote. It doesn't bother us. We told therapists without batting an eyelid. This is dissociation. We were disconnecting ourselves from our memories. Emotionally distancing ourselves from the experiences.

- In the same vein, when we remember things we imagine things in locations like a 3rd person camera. Not populated. We don't hear or feel or associate. It's just a place and a knowledge. Our whole "context packet" thing where we just understand something without *feeling* it.

- Deleted emails and chatlogs, references to things we don't remember. Discord messages with people we don't remember talking to. It bothers me how many people in our online communities we were actually close to at some stage of our life and then erased. This is specific to us but Dawn has opened many accounts in the hypnokink community and Camden has shut them down and this has happened so many times that we don't even get upset when we find a buried email from 2013 with sign-up to a Yahoo Email account we don't remember having. That sounds dramatic. It's more just. Go into your emails, pull stuff up from 5-10 years ago and just scroll a while. See how much you remember and associate into. It's NORMAL to forget what websites you were browsing a decade ago. It's not normal to have an entire *LIFE* you hid from yourself.

- Sometimes people just... saw/knew us before we did and there were times when they would describe a version of us they weren't supposed to see and we got complete dysphoria over it. Sometimes it as joyful. Someone we love saw Cammie well enough to say when we transitioned that they wanted to see that "windswept girl with the big smile" all of the time. Sometimes it's mortifying, like when someone approaches Camden as if she is Dawn and Camden REJECTED that side of us so heavily that it caused emotional meltdowns and turmoil because Camden didn't WANT to be a sexy confident domme, she could barely see herself as a woman, when people saw the wrong version of us *without permission* it was just a violation that made things WORSE.

- On that note-- meltdowns-- we mentioned the whole "after a social gathering we'd emotionally cave in on ourselves" thing, there was a lot of that. After work we'd get a complete drop from having to be in Manager Mode all day or we'd have a crisis after erotic intimacy encounters because we're sex repulsed ace. The fact is our nervous system was activated during those times, our survival instincts were kicked in and brought the part associated to the surface to DEAL and when they backed off our body was still reacting to the trauma trigger and it would cause us to implode.

All of these things in therapy brought us to the conclusion of BPD. Because therapists be like that at times. A *TRAUMA* therapist gave us some DES-II, MID and ACE tests and worked out what was going on within 3 months.

It took a further 6-9 months with constant support from loved ones who were able to see us as individuals to *ACCEPT* it. This is a denial disorder, it doesn't want to be found. Asking questions, being honest and being accepting is the best way to come to terms with it. I wish it were easier and I wish you luck and support in your journey. Our inbox is always open!

You're not alone <3

[conceptofjoy]

not rlly a point im just writing to put my thoughts down, i think ive said heart was like the "character" aspect before, the leijons ship their friends in a way reminicent to how fandom ships characters. dps is the self actualized version of their components and is the final stage of their character arcs. dirk is made up of multiple characters and becomes different characters in the comic yk.

damn this got long

bc character transitions can b easily read as a trans metaphor, u can point to dps, who is canonically queer, and dirk(s) to be like oh yep trans gender. dirk's relationship to his body as well as bgd and hal's is rly interesting. hal has zero control over the safety of his body and bgd's existence relys entirely on jake.

dirk's casual suicidal tendencies are given a reason every time, and hal doesnt seem bothered to exploit them possibly exposing a shared value they have. "it is ok to die AS LONG as its for the greater good". its tested however when dirk kills himself in game over, as much as he tries to get shit done, he is just a 16 yr old. AND like the other space players, he's been awake on his moon for a while. the dual waking thing prolly wasn't any good for him and exasperated any dissociative symptoms he would have developed by living alone his entire life. so basically, i dont think he's very connected to his body, seeing his brain more of himself rather than the body he inhabits. the lack of physical autonomy in bgd and hal is a round are just different versions of that. body mind soul thing yk.

through a trans lens, i see him as a trans guy who's far removed from his body mentally. this could be from dysphoria, or an intense neutrality from it from disassociation. from a mental health lens, its giving dissociation and osdd. bro's filled to the brim with himself, but is also exhausted from his hyper vigilance in keeping himself in check.

i think the idea of hrt would kinda freak him out in the same way puberty would have freaked him out if he went through a regular one (no way his ass was getting his nutrience). any sudden changes to his body that he wouldnt have done meticulously would have been a big hell no despite his distancing. though it isn't "him", it's his, like how one would see a tool. he's hella anal about that sort of thing.

which makes me think about bgd. interesting fella. i think the way he copes is how he views himself as a tool, like how hal does when he says he's just glasses. he enacts jake's will by fighting aranea "for his honor". bgd is also smitten with jake, being a big loop of dirk and jake's feelings for one another, which also softens the whole thing. its rlly no shocking idea that dirk puts people on crazy high pedestals, so like as long as jake's happy, he's happy. its more complicated than that, but this is a long ass post lol.

[lefluoritesys]

We all know that introjects are supposed to be loved and cared for, and they deserve all the good things like the rest of the system.

But I've noticed some shoutouts were missing. So:

Shoutout to introjects who are both fictives and factives of one person (from your fellow fictive & factive of one person).

Shoutout to introjects who are both fictives and factives of multiple people/sources.

Shoutout to introjects who have multiple sources that are completely unrelated to each other.

Shoutout to introjects of OCs and DnD characters.

Shoutout to introjects of mainstream/popular media.

Shoutout to introjects of people the system knew personally IRL.

Shoutout to introjects of abusers in the system's life that are trying to heal.

Shoutout to nonhuman introjects that were also nonhuman in source (and are often considered "horrifying" or "scary").

Shoutout to introjects that have a source but are still brainmade by like a half at least.

Shoutout to introjects from anime.

Shoutout to introjects from movies/series.

Shoutout to introjects from books.

Shoutout to introjects of inanimate objects.

Shoutout to introjects who are scared of telling others they're introjecrs because of the hate and stigma the DID/OSDD community still has, especially against factives.

Shoutout to introjects whose roles make absolutely no sense to others but perfect sense to the system.

Shoutout to trans introjects.

Shoutout to introjects who change their names.

Shoutout to introjects in median/OSDD-1a systems/subsystems.

Shoutout to introjects with multiple/countless doubles of their source.

Shoutout to introjects who are scared to interact with their sourcemates.

Shoutout to introjects who miss their sourcemates and want the brain to split them. Or find other systems with fictives of their sourcemates.

Shoutout to introjects who are families/friends/partners with introjects from other completely different sources.

Shoutout to introjects with different nationalities/races than the body, whether they want to learn about that culture or not.

Shoutout to introjects who face discrimination and/or hatred for their race/nationality being different than the body's, either from other people or their own system.

Shoutout to introjects who drag the system to learn a new language because they want to feel closer to their source.

Shoutout to introjects with families/friends/partners with brainmade alters.

Shoutout to introjects with source trauma and/or memories that trigger them.

Shoutout to introjects with source trauma and/or memories they don't identify with but it still affects them in some way.

Shoutout to introjects who are indifferent to their source trauma and/or memories.

Shoutout to introjects without source trauma and/or memories.

Y'all are loved, cared for, respected, and acknowledged. If not by other people, then on this blog. You are all valid and welcome on our blog, you deserve to exist, and whoever tells you otherwise should be punched in the face.

-sexual persecutor-caretaker

[livseses]

Idk, there's something that always bugs us about the statement "endos claiming to have DID/OSDD-1" instead of something like "DID/OSDD-1 systems who are endogenic" or "endogenic systems with DID/OSDD-1".

Okay I lied, I do know. It's the "claim" part. It's always that the hypothetical system is endogenic first and foremost. It's always a given. That goes without question (okay it's definitely questioned but I'll get back to that).

But they only claim to have DID/OSDD-1. When this phrasing is trotted out its never a given that the system has DID/OSDD-1. It's never believed that a system can exist prior to developing a dissociative disorder. Or that a system with a dissociative disorder can discover or recognize how they came to be and not ascribe that to trauma. It implies that the system doesn't have the disorder that they have.

And that framing is really unfair.

Wouldn't it be shitty if we did the same thing elsewhere? If someone said "this adult who claims to be autistic"? Or "this woman who claims to be a lesbian"? Or "this non-binary person who claims to be trans"? Or "this traumagenic system that claims to have DID/OSDD-1"?

We've seen all of those tossed around for the same reason. That last one is said (not in those words of course) by folks I think most of us would generally agree are being shitty. It's said by people who will fakeclaim any system for any reason. It's said by those that will fakeclaim a system for being queer or online. That's really bad company to have.

The usual response we see in defense of endogenic systems is "Most endogenic systems don't claim to have DID/OOSDD-1." Which is true, yes! We can't help but feel like that's talking about this on the fakeclaimer's terms though. We aren't asking folks to change how they respond of course, because we don't really know a better way to reject the accusation.

But those endogenic systems with DID/OSDD-1 aren't simply "claiming" to have DID/OSDD-1 any more than traumagenic systems are "claiming" to. They just have those disorders and are sharing that information about themselves.

While "endos are claiming to have DID/OSDD-1" puts the endogenic part first, implicitly leaving the diagnosis up for questioning, there is a flip side (see, I'm getting back to it).

To compliment the above, fakeclaimers will say that disordered endogenic systems just really don't know about their trauma; essentially that these DID/OSDD-1 systems are just claiming to be endogenic. Of course, we don't see it phrased that way. It's usually trying to be nicer. These poor misguided systems were tricked into thinking that they're endogenic. Or these foolish systems don't really know their origin. Or these crazy systems can't be trusted with their own experiences, cause that's what DID/OSDD-1 does to you.

It's patronizing. It's invalidating. It's disrespectful. It's sanism. It is opposed to disability rights and mad liberation. It speaks over DID/OSDD-1 systems.

These two claims compliment each other. They both feed into the idea that plurality (or at least DID/OSDD-1) can only exist for traumagenic systems. Anyone who disputes that with their lived experiences are either malicious fakers doing some stolen valor shit and invading spaces, or poor "real" systems that are just manipulated/ignorant/crazy.

Huh? That sounds familiar. Reminds me of attacks on trans folk that paint us as dangerous predatory invaders or poor deluded children falling for peer pressure... I would say it's strange or surprising, but we've gotten pretty used to attacks on systems having analogues in transphobia.

Anyways, endogenic systems aren't "claiming" to have DID/OSDD-1. Most endogenic systems don't have DID/OSDD-1, and they never said they do. Some endogenic systems do have DID/OSDD-1, and they share that part of their lives. Some DID/OSDD-1 systems are endogenic, and they have just as much right and ability to determine what caused their system to form and talk about it as any other system.

-Faye

[nonaltercdd]

Ξ Welcome to Non alter CDD Ξ

Non alter CDD is a blog about the non alter part of the complex dissociative disorders!!!

We have seen a lot of alter centered blogs around, but not one centered in the other aspects and symptoms of this disorders, wo we said "why not?" and give it a try

Here you can submit any kind of thing related to CDD outside the alter aspect. You can vent, ask questions, talk about an experience, just ramble or do anything that has to do with DID/OSDD-1 besides the alter parts!

Also we're gonna make post talking about our experiences, making polls, answering questions and just do all the things we can say and do related to the non alter aspect of CDD

I think the name and concept talk by themselves, is just another blog to CDD systems just not focused in the alter way, all that we and you can think of not alter related can be and will be posted here

So to clarify, this is a space for CDD systems or people with CDD, cause yeah, we know some people don't feel comfortable saying they're a system and have some CDD

In this post we don't care about syscourse so don't bring it up here, any kind of syscourse related topic here will be deleted. You're anti/neu/pro endo? We don't care, here's not the place to talk about it and this blog is just centered in it's topic

And in the same instance because this is an only CDD place if you're enod get out of here, this is not your blog and you're not welcomed here, if you don't have CDD this isn't your place

You have a CDD but also identify as endo? Good for you, you can be here because of the CDD part but don't bring up never the endo part about you, that's irrelevante and if you do it we'll block you, this is only CDD centric blog (We'll save up our endo opinion and stance, we have mixed and complicated opinions regarding "mixed origin systems", but for simplicity and purpose of the blog if they don't state they're endo outside the CDD part we don't care)

DNI

Endos Anti-recovery Trans id Use traumascum/sysmed Singlets Syscourse blogs Basic DNI

It's the basic stuff, I don't think we'll have to put more here

Anon claims

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About owner

This is a little about us!!

We're a polyfrag DID system that use he/they pronouns, we normally use singular and plural pronouns at the same time

This is one of our multiple side blogs, we LOVE doing side blogs If you wanna see the rest of our side blogs you can go to our principal blog @persmo, and there in our pinned post/intro you'll find the list

Feel free to be in this blog, it's a safe space to expand the talk about this disorders and get of the stigmatization and glorification this disorders already have

Hope you like here and be more around!!!

[system-community-corner]

welcome to system-community-corner! a place for systems, by systems.

first and foremost, this blog is strictly for people with DID, OSDD, or UDDs. This is an ANTI ENDOGENIC place. Respect that.

the only DNI (do not interact) this blog has is if you're pro endogenic, support endogenics, or are endogenic yourself.

this blog is intended to be a safe space for all systems! this blog does not support the action of spreading misinformation, especially medical misinformation. asks + submissions that do so will simply be deleted.

a side blog, run by the same admin; @system-positivity

need a place to vent? you can do that here, tag common triggers, though.

need a place to share some good news? you can do that here!

need a place to be a little hater? you can do that here, calls for death and harrasment is not allowed, though.

need a place to talk about your experiences as a system? you can do that here!

〔 about the admin 〕

Our name is Tango, and we are a professionally diagnosed hc-DID / polyfrag system. We are 20 years old, and we are very trans and very gay. We do not consider Queer a slur and will not tag it as such. Thank you <3

we're the only system running this account. Mod tags may contain the name of the particular fronter at that time and may include their pronouns! Speaking of pronouns, our collective set(s) are as follows; He/Snow/Cold/Ices/Flames/Fireself

[offbeatorbitalliance]

Hot take with the dissociative disorder community.

*Don't care about hate.*

As someone who has been not only diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder and has been doing more and more in-depth studies and research on the subject.

I don't believe half the people that claim to have DID or OSDD-1. And that's not including the "endo" or "trans-id" people. All this stuff about Fictives being spread around, the mass influx of "alters" people claim to get from seemingly no reason, the misinformation of people having 7 switches in less than 10 minutes.

I don't believe any of it.

Hate me all you want but imma say it. I agree with r/fakedisordercringe over on reddit. This shit is getting to much and its getting ridiculous.

Send me hate all you want. Im speaking my mind and I don't care.

-🪢

[weareuniqueandimportant]

YOU SHOULD JUST COMMIT SSSSCIDE... YOU'RE WORTHLESS... YOU VIEW US THIS WAY YOU'RE AN ABUSER A KILLER A MURDERER... TRULY... YOU WOULDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO US YOUR HANDS THEY'RE ON OUR THROAT... YOU'RE WORTHLESS AS RESULT... GO AHEAD... YOUR VALUE IS COMPLETE 0...

THIS POST IS ABOUT LESBIAN FOOD... NOTHING MATURE ABOUT THAT... I LOVE EATING SSSSIDE... THAT IS A TYPE OF FISH WE WOMAN TEND TO EAT TOGETHER... WHY DO THIS TO US 😢...

DAMN... I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS COMPLETELY SHADOWBANNED POST WAS CHECKED BY THE SITE... THAT'S CRAZY... WHO EVEN FOUND THIS...? OH WHATEVER... HA.

[echodoesstuff62333]

ROTTMNT Mad Dogz Headcanons

Headcanons for stupid turtles because HELL YEAH

R A P H A E L

• Probaby has OSDD-1/P-DID [savage anybody??]

• Has plushies of his bros + April

• He/She slay

• Pansexual

• Has had his tail used to trip others

• Could go onto a 5 hour ramble on kid show's characters' personalities and how deep the story actually is

• As a tot he had an absolutely horrible chewing habit[chewing through furniture, chewing his own arm, etc]

L E O N A R D O

• He has dyslexia [you can't change my mind]

• Older between him and Donnie

• Trans in some fucking way

• Leo is androsexual [y'all I'm teaching words here]

• When Leo was a tot he often mimicked his brothers to "fit in"

• Sometimes indulges in binge eating

• Leo felt separated from Donnie as a tot

D O N A T E L L O

• As a tot he was the one that suggested being twins with Leo

• Austic ass

• Has burnout but is very good at masking it

• Asexual Demiromantic demiboy king✨

• Has a wall thingy to show off all his fidget toys

• You could infact troll him with the Alt + F4

• Has a notebook to write down stuff about people. Knows the sensory needs of all the people he cares for.

M I C H E L A N G E L O

• ADHD

• Can get very aggressive when upset

• Chewing habit [whether that be a braclet or paper]

• He likes to doodle on extra markings onto himself

• Mikey is just Mikey, he doesn't do labels

• As a tot he has tried to bring stuff like food into his shell

• Knows exactly where that thing from 183 days ago you lost at 7:14 am is but can't remember where he put his pencils

[piece-of-hweat]

Little Nightmares Headcanons!!

(May change over time n stuff)

listed from youngest to eldest

RUNAWAY 9y/o

No clue, he/him

Really good at swimming (main reason why I draw him as a fish-person)

Loud, confident idiot (stares at Tommy-Innit)

Hates broccoli.

Lactose intolerant

Hates being wrong/failing

Very much a "act-before-think person"

Break dances epically

Competitive. Very competitive. (especially with Six)

Hates Six's guts

Has a collection of ships in bottles

Either Runaway or Mono are trans... I just want like... supportive brother arc please--

Plays with sticks

Knows one word in French. And it's piscine. He was the one who told Mono about the piscine joke.

Athletic

SIX - 9y/o

Aro/ace, she/it

loves ducks

Will bite (you and your belongings)

Won't scratch (she bites her nails)

Knows how to swim on the surface

Pupils are slightly slitted

Sharp canines

Growls and hisses when she’s really mad, or extremely not in the mood for anything

Had a duck and mouse plush at some point

Will tear Runaway into pieces if she could

There was a head-canon idea where Six has some form of DID, OSDD, UDD, etc. I don't really use this headcanon a lot because I myself don't have DID, so :/

Dark humor

NOONE - 10y/o

She/her

Animal lover <3

Clutches/fiddles with the ends of her clothing when nervous

Looks confused/concerned and scared 24/7

Likes drawing (probably has some animal doodles in her school books)

Listens to Mono's late night singing.

Allergic to nuts (once, at school, a group of students with pbj sandwiches "offered" Noone the sandwiches despite her declining. She was sent to the ER shortly after and was excused from school for the rest of the day and the day afterwards.)

Probably will get along with Six

Ticklish

Reads a lot

Laughs at Six's jokes.

Around the same height as Mono (taller than Raincoat)

Smartest (academically) in the group

LOW - 10-11 y/o

Bird nerd

Always liked reading comic books (especially the super-hero ones)

Percussion my beloved <3

Listens to your problems and gives you decent advice

Took up archery in school

Makes friendship bracelets

*insert epic secret handshake*

Ticklish

Probably makes music with Mono and Raincoat

Apple Juice lover

Plays with sticks

Very strategic

Probably plays chess or smth

Gamer /pos

Athletic

ALONE - 10-11 y/o

She/he

Listens to your problems and gives you… advice. Not good, not bad. Just advice.

Engineering <3 (probably would be really into those lego-machines)

Hits harder than a truck. Be careful, you might've shatter a bone.

Probably was a batter in baseball

Probably will win in a arm-wrestle against Mono.

Hits you lightly when laughing

Allergic to nuts

Apple juice lover

Doesn't talk much

G R E E N

Knows how to handle and discharge a gun properly. Do not ask her how or why she knows this. He simply does.

Person with the most amount of obscure knowledge (more people drown in freshwater than they do in saltwater. fear that creek in the forest behind your house. fear it. It will take your life one day)

Fascinated by wires and Mono's powers

Probably needs glasses

Reads a lot

MONO - 10-11y/o

Bi, He/him

Is British

Plays the violin (but it’s more like a guitar bc it’s big for him and he lost the bow)

Despite being taller than average, he walks around on his tippy toes

Barely knows how to swim (just fails around and barely stay afloat)

Dino-arms

Knows very limited amounts of Japanese and German (knows a couple of words in French, but only really remembers bonjour and piscine)

Punches hit like a truck, but it hurts Mono's hand a lot

Asthma

Very ticklish

stands awkwardly in the corner

Probably makes music with Raincoat and Low

Plays with sticks (uses them to direct magic)

Broken humor

Has negative associations with trains (doesn't like them)

RAINCOAT - 11-12 y/o

No Clue, She/her

Is Sisi

LOVES horses

Wanted to be an actress because MAKE UP, COSTUMES!! ACTING!! SINGING!! AAAAA!!

Good at cooking and baking (stares at my Bakes-Cookies-for-Otto headcanon)

Has some experience with piano and choir, but nothing else really

Bestest big sister ever

Will totally paint your nails while you ramble about something

Really likes playing with hair (another career dream she had was a hair stylist)

Will tease you (/lh)

Really pretty voice <3

Typically the one breaking conflict up

Probably makes music with Mono and Low

Reads bedtime stories to others

Around the same height as Mono (shorter than Noone)

Also, secret funky art post on youtube

[antiendovents]

...I'm so done. "DNI if your sysmed/traumasus" or whatever tf that is.

We're sorry??? We asked our therapist in session on Tuesday if he believes you can be a system without DID/OSDD. His response? "If they believe there are people in their head and don't have DID/OSDD, they've got another condition. Rather it's schizophrenia or another disorder, they've got something going on".

A LICENSED PROFESSIONAL said that.

Meanwhile if people try to point stuff like that out, we get named sysmed. Who gives a damn at this point?

Call us sysmed. You cannot be a system without some sort of dissociative disorder, rather it's DID, OSDD, or UDD.

*Also, final bit, the amount of people who have related being trans to being a system are so off. Transmed is completely not okay, not everyone who's trans wants surgeries or hormones, they're comfortable as they are or it isn't safe to. Sysmed, that's a fact. Systems can't exist without DID/OSDD/UDD*

Yeah. literally no licensed professional should and would ever say that endos exist. if they don't have trauma then its either some other thing or they're faking on purpose. saying "sysmed" is like saying "BPDmed" or any other disordermed. like yes i believe in the science of a disorder, no i do not believe you can just one day chose to be a system, like what-- insult me all you want i'll always believe facts over opinions. being trans has no requirements. being a system does. they are not comparable

[gipzisays209]

Are... Are Anti-Endos serious? Like, is this a legitimate, honest fucking opinion? Because I genuinely cannot tell anymore what is satire and what is serious...

Let's just... digest that "positivity" post for a sec, under the cut right here.

"If you're [Insert thing here] you can be a system, but you can't be a system unless you fit this super specific criteria that WE say you fit under!"

I hate to break it to you, but you can be a system BECAUSE of the things on that list, not IN SPITE OF THEM. Plurality is NOT EXCLUSIVE TO DID AND OSDD, and no amount of saying we aren't valid is going to change that. My plurality was caused because of my Alterhumanity and my spirituality, not because of trauma... and DEFINITELY independently of any kind of CDD. Yes, trauma was a factor later on, but originally? Trauma played no role.

So yes, there are those of us out there that are plural and Alterhuman. Yes, there are those of us out there that are plural and Trans. Yes, there are those of us out there that suffer from things like NPD, Schizophrenia, BPD, and a MYRIAD of other disorders AND ARE PLURAL. A CDD IS NOT A REQUIREMENT TO BE PLURAL, AND NO AMOUNT OF BITCHING ON YOUR "POSITIVITY" POST IS GOING TO CHANGE THAT.

Like. Do you... fucking hear yourself. You LEGITIMATELY SAID "It does not matter what or who someone is". And then you pull "But not Endos" IN THE VERY START OF A POSITIVITY POST.

It is NOT a positivity post if you're directly targeting a group of individuals WITH SAID POST! A positivity post is INCLUSIVE and is aimed at bringing people up, not knocking people down. Directly and clearly excluding a group from your positivity post automatically makes it an attempt at exclusionary bullying, not a positivity post. Like the message OP was going for, but poor and tasteless execution. 3/10.

I actually hope this shit is satire... But unfortunately I have a feeling it isn't. Because since when are exclusionaries capable of such nuance, right. Especially when they're blatantly ignoring the collections of sources put forward to them, like this one from Sophie, or this one from the Guardian System.

So congrats on the half-assed attempt at bigotry, Antis, but I suggest that every time one sees a "positivity" post that has tags like these, find positivity in it anyways. Not only will it (hopefully) make you feel better, but it'll make the exclusionaries pissed off to know that we're turning their attempts at being bigots into something that ACTUALLY spreads positivity!

This has been another Ted Talk from your local Dragonkin Mixed-Origin system on why positivity posts don't make good ammo for bigotry, and once again, your friendly reminder that being a system is an individual experience that can't be defined by one label or box. Anyone that tries to tell you otherwise, especially random people on the Internet, is being a bigot. Have a wonderful day!

[the-chorus-of-voices-collective]

I just saw a post that was something along the lines of-

This line of dialog "being gay/trans is unnatural!" And then the post saying in response 'you traumatized your child so regularly and severely that their identity fractured into 49 different parts'

The post ends with this 'no animal could ever come close to hurting a child like that'

This really. Really stuck with me. Cause their right. Animals run primarily on instinct and learned behaviors. However that instinct will never be to hurt their offspring the way humans hurt theirs. Animals do not have the urge to inflict unnecessary pain. Do some kill/eat their children from time to time? Yes I won't deny that. But it's not for their pleasure. They simply do it because it's the circle of life.

What I'm trying to say is that-i believe. Or I would hope because humans have already failed me.

I believe that an animal should they have been given our sentience and awareness they wouldn't inflict suffering on their young. I think they would cherish those little guys like children are meant to be. Those little guys wouldn't be subjected to anything close to what I or many others have been through. Because at their core I genuinely believe animals can only love.

Humans on the other hand. Are full of hatred and it sickens me.

Yknow my boyfriend texted me today. Half-dissociated and numb. Because his grandmother responded to a snarky comment by snatching, and ruining my boyfriends food. My boyfriend had to wrestle his food back. And feeling obvious frustration, he slammed the door of the microwave and subsequently got yelled at for it. He yelled back. He got hit for it. His aunt and his mother had to get between them because that grown ass woman was dead set on beating my boyfriend. Then proceeded to get bitchy and defensive when not given the fucking chance.

Why am I saying this? Why the fuck am I going on this long-winded rant. I may not even be making sense right now. None of you could have stopped and read this but that doesn't matter cause If one person hears me and processes what I'm trying to get across that's enough for me. If that person is myself? Well thats fine by me.

I hate the human race. I hate DID/OSDD and what had to happen for our community to have this disorder. Maybe not everyday is pain but I remember a time when it was.

20 headmates. 20 people living in our brain because mother couldn't stop fighting and screaming and couldn't ever seem to get to us when her now ex-husband got too angry and pushed me around like a rag doll. Said ex-husband being sure to employ graphic threats to my or my siblings safety when he felt he was being disrespected. Various fits of loud pointed cursing and throwing things around.

A child shouldn't fear being hit by someone who should love them. A child shouldn't expect someone who should love them to hit them.

Animals wouldn't hurt me like humans have. The worst my dog has ever done to me is hump my fucking leg before backing off with a bit of scolding.

The worst my parents have done to me is fracture my identity into 20 pieces because they were so hurt and broken they just couldn't help themselves to break me down to that state as well.

they didn't hear me when I screamed. When I screamed for help or just a scrap of love that wasn't imposing or codependent. They weren't there when I cried into the night wishing for death.

I was a scared little kid. And now I'm a traumatized and bitter teenager.

Who am I?

It depends.

But one thing is this. Animals? They wouldn't hurt me the way humans have. They wouldn't hurt you. They would take in or have children and love them because that's what you're supposed to do with children.

We didn't deserve what happened to us.

The animals know that.

(I was going to reblong the original post but unfortunately I had to refresh my screen and lost sight of it. Credit goes to the original poster)

[ashwin-the-artless]

Here's a bunch of press release style description of my novel and its sequels, complete with release dates. If you are trans, autistic, and/or plural, and into science fiction, you may appreciate what we've made.

The Tunnel Apparati Diaries Book Release

With the guidance of Mau (a.k.a. Phage), Ashwin Pember, recently ascended Ancestor of the Sunspot, projects their mind to Earth via the Tunnel Apparatus. Only, they do this to become the new headmate of the twenty-seven year old autistic transgender plural system of Sarah and Goreth Ampersand of Portland, OR, who think that Phage is their old imaginary friend.

Unfortunately, Sarah and Goreth struggle to manage their already difficult life.

They’ve been leaning on their housemates and friends for support, but playing host to an alien being challenges them all.

Furthermore, there's an important reason Phage came to Earth in the first place, and it needs Sarah and Goreth to cooperate with Ashwin in order to achieve its goals.

The Tunnel Apparati Diaries tell the story of how the Sunspot Chronicles came to be translated and published on Earth, but what does this mean for humanity?

Because there’s a probe full of construction nanites left somewhere in the mountains of Washington State and someone needs to take responsibility for it before it falls into the wrong hands.

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Release Dates for the Tunnel Apparati Diaries:

Book One: The End of the Tunnel - July 31, 2024

Book Two: The Sun Also Hatches - October 21, 2024

Book Three: The Dragon in the Dining Room - November 27, 2024

Available at http://www.sunspot.world or http://www.lulu.com

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The Tunnel Apparati Diaries take place on Earth between the years of 2023 and 2025, in Portland Oregon, and follow the lives of Sarah and Goreth Ampersand, Erik, and the Audreys – a friends group of transgender plural systems – after they make contact with an alien visitor to Sarah and Goreth’s psyche, Ashwin Pember. 

Soon it becomes clear that this is not a product of their trauma or mental illness. It is a real event, actual first contact, and the fate of the Earth is on the line. But the personal impacts of this contact end up taking priority.

Their personal accounts, each book written by a different system member (Ashwin, Goreth, and then Sarah), explore the challenges of building community and relationships while being multiply disabled, transgender, queer, autistic, and experiencing a consensus reality that does not match that of most of the rest of the world.

It is a sequel and a possible entry point to reading the Sunspot Chronicles, and the two series together combine themes of plurality, neurodiversity, biodiversity, and the exercise and protection of personal consent and autonomy in the face of past and rising fascism. Every book has its own unique focus and take on building and keeping found family and community here on Earth and out amongst the stars. And what it means to be person, whether human or otherwise.

Written by different members of the Inmara Fenumera, an autistic transgender plurality living in the Pacific Northwest, the Tunnel Apparati Diaries offer genuine personal insight into the lived experiences of diverse plural systems (people living with DID, OSDD, and other forms of plurality), but with a strong dash of wish fulfillment, light romance, and adventure.

The Future is Plural. It deserves good plural fiction.