#it drives jeremy insane

[arianwyn-art]

glasses jean

[elinordash]

SHERLOCK HOLMES (1984 - 1994) ↳ 4x03 | Silver Blaze

[sydcarmyfan]

Mom and dad are feeding us so well

[beedragony]

The night was a fractured mess, but parts of it were clear enough to cut. The dizzying rush of an overdue high, the harsh taste of scotch on Dexter’s lips, the weight of too many hands looking for a little release and comfort. Equally sharp: skinning his knees on the rough carpet when a cop hauled him out of bed, the bruising pressure of a boot on his spine to keep him down, the pinch of handcuffs snapped too tight.

— The Golden Raven (chapter fifteen)

[andrew-03-minyard]

the golden raven bingo:

<- my assumptions

[str4wb3rry-fire]

SOMEONE HELP I NEED THE CLIP ON JEREMY JORDAN SINGING SANTA FE OPT UP WOTH BEN FANKHAUSER PLAYING PIANO

[melanodis]

can I please talk about how jeremy must have felt after ffps. has anyone talked about this. or even thought about it. there's no reason michael would've left without a word, something had to have happened, and yet fazbear entertainment made quick work of covering most of the evidence up to fade away into obscurity. how do you think jeremy felt when he awoke to the bed empty? to michael's wedding ring sitting on the nightstand, when he never ever took it off?

where did you go? what happened to you? what could've possibly harmed you even after everything you've been through?

i hope it didn't hurt.

[edwardian-girl-next-door]

Brideshead Revisited (1981) // Ep 1, "Et in Arcadia Ego" // Ep 3, "The Bleak Light of Day"

[wovenvessel]

I feel like people don't talk about/notice the parallels between the friendship of Brooke & Chloe and Jeremy & Michael

[waystarnatco]

my type

[jeremysvoices]

he has homophobia in his eyes...

so bmc is coming back, ex-bmc artists RISE UP ONCE MORE

[jeanmoreausautismstickers]

jeremy knox 100% says awesome sauce to EVERYTHING.

it drives jean insane

[feelingthedisaster]

i need to know the age order of jeremy and his siblings. like its driving me insane not knowing. like joshua and noah are younger than jeremy and irish twins, but which one is older? bryson is older than jeremy (he had graduated highschool when the accident happened and jeremy hadnt yet bc the coke was post-accident and but pre-trojans) but for how much? annalise is next to jeremy in age order, but on the younger or older side? im going with older than jeremy but idk. i need birth years and an organized list

[ninyard]

more chapter 15 thoughts because the more i think about it the more emotional im making myself

Going back a second. As if Jeremy didn’t remember the moment with agonising clarity. He felt COLD all over as his heart left CRACKS along his RIBCAGE.

anyways

His fucking brother man. Turning him onto these drugs. also the “They did and didn’t.” is devastating to me. The fact Bryson knows how hard it is being Jeremy, living at home, being who he is, and uses that vulnerability to fuck with his brothers life. For what reason? For money? More money?

Did he show him how to snort it properly? Did Jeremy feel for a moment like that was bonding, like something he could share with his brother, a moment where they could bond over bad decisions and being high at the dinner table? He was in fucking high school. And his older brother turned his baby brother onto coke.

And Jeremy was desperate enough to believe him. That line breaks my heart. He doesn’t want to live like this. The outcast in the family, the disappointment of a child, hated and hated and hated, and he had no “Laila’s house” to go to as a teenager. Maybe he had Leo, or someone else, but for all we know he spent a LOT more time at home miserable. And cocaine makes people paranoid, and angry, and the “positive” high of it doesn’t last very long either.

(and is it why he drinks so much coffee? why he falls asleep on long drives? because he doesn’t have the coke to keep him awake?)

And STILL he downplays his “privileged” trauma, and compares it to Jean’s. Proving he’s a soft spined failure? That’s heartbreaking, man.

The mood swings and unpredictability. They didn’t trust him. People didn’t want to be his friend, they kept their distance. He had a temper, right? He was an angry, sad, lonely person. And the thing that was supposed to make him feel better was only making him worse. Was he sniffing before games? Sneaking baggies into the bathrooms at away games, was he panicking when USC called for random drug tests? How far did he go to hide it, or did everyone know? Was he known for tiny pupils and being high on the court? Was he ever as unpredictable as Andrew?

i can’t stop focusing on him saying “I was recklessly indiscreet in high school”. Was he happy, unbothered, proud? Or was he purposefully reckless, and unsafe, rebellion in the way of sexual self harm, with a reputation for being a slut? Did it start there?

“It was a big hit” too. He shared. Not only did he leave his brother alone to get high and get off, he supplied a room of his peers with cocaine that’d show up in their blood tests for a while afterwards, in an unsafe environment made unsafer because of him, and the cops that came looking for him.

That first line breaks my heart. It hurts him so much to bare his heart.

I don’t know what to say. It’s just fucking insanity. His heart was probably racing, all these people in danger now because of him. Dexter’s life ruined because of him, oh and even though it wasn’t his fault, it was none of their fault, how could you tell Jeremy otherwise? He hates himself for his past. He tries so, so hard to distance himself from it.

And he was still lucky. Nobody knows Jeremy was high out of his mind when he made the decisions that led to him being known for what he’s known for. His stepdad worked his magic and made it all disappear.

A boot on his spine to keep him down.Rough carpet, too tight handcuffs. His identity so much of a scandal that the cops fucking forgot to tell him his baby brother was dead.

Again how he blames himself. It’s 2003. The world is not an accepting place. and look at what he did, and how he got away with it because of who he refuses to be known as being related to. Jean tells him it’s not his fault and he says no, it is, it has to be. Because he made the decision to be there.

and then. and Then. Noah. Did you know he would?

he knew, and he left him, and how could it possibly be anyone else’s fault?

I just see so much pain in him in this moment. Jean is asking all the right-wrong questions, the ones that hurt but get to the truth without speculation or pity or shame. Did you know? Maybe the answer isn’t as simple as a yes or no, but it’s a yes, and he left him, and who the fuck else could possibly be to blame, then? He made the decision to bring his brother with him, and he made the decision to leave him alone.

And its not that simple, it’s never that simple, there’s no way he could’ve known that leaving him alone would have ended up the way that it did. But when his mom says it, and his sibling say it, who else or what else is he supposed to believe?

[prettyboypistol]

How the Mercs Like to be Topped || TF2 x M!Reader +18

You see that 18+ and read more tab so minors fuck off

Scout

If you can actually convince him to bottom, he LOVES to be babied

"Good boy, Jeremy." "Oh come on darling, breathe for me?" are his FAVORITE

Caress him, kiss him, love on him!!! Scout loves the gentle touches and reassurances. You know he's always a little worried about bottoming, so you alwasy being there for him greatly eases his worries.

Yeah he'd like you to be a little rough and manhandle him, but you know he's far too flighty to handle a rougher touch. The most you'll do is pull his hair and push him deep into the mattress.

Soldier

Same hesitantcy as Scout, sees it as "unmanly" to bottom. (brother you are dating another MAN). But unlike Scout, Soldier loves to be ordered around in roleplay.

His favorite is commander/private with you acting as a drill sergent. Replace spanking with pushups!

Prefers no penetration but is open to blowing you/touching you/grinding

Isn't opposed to being hit with his crop but y'all haven't gotten there yet.

Pyro

Pyro likes to be on the bottom most of the time, but the dynamic you two have is that you must be blindfolded to not see them without their suit.

You two are actually really conversational about your sex life and open about each other's boundaries. Pyro likes to be topped and cared for, but they are massively uncomfortable being seen.

They love to be praised and gently guided as they worship your body. Pyro guides your hands to their hips as they ride you, from the noises they make, you know they're wearing the mask.

Bro this mf gives the most IMMACULATE head you're convinced under the mask is a tentacle mouth.

Demoman

Y'all do a coin flip to determine who tops lmao

The dynamic doesn't really change much between topping/bottoming unless you guys plan it beforehand to be kinky and even then the kink is just like, mild bdsm

He loves how playful and nonserious you are during sex, it puts him at ease. Tavish doesn't think sex should be all that serious, it should be fun!

Doesn't mind a bit of roughness around the edges, especially when you grab him by his face and demand he looks at you when you two are kinky. Instant bust.

Engie

Just a matter of personal preference- he likes to top more than bottom, but he isn't completely opposed to bottoming once in a blue moon.

He'll never admit it, but Dell loves when you "seduce" him in his workshop when he's working, especially since nobody comes around to hear how loud he gets.

Dell likes when you tease him a bit for being so loud! Call that cowboy a whore!!!

Secretly enjoys the shame of being filled up with cum and having made a mess of himself.

Heavy

He didn't think he'd like it at first, but the feeling of you spreading his legs and filling him up was fucking amazing.

Mikhail loves when you bite/mark him up! He can take the roughness of haphazard thrusting and god he loves it when you lose yourself inside him.

Watching you try to dominate him is adorably hot to him. That isn't to say that he thinks less of you, but the situational cuteness of a man smaller than him actual all macho-

Although, seeing you so serious and dominant is rather sexy. Heavy had always liked the serious types in bed.

Medic

Medic is so down to let you top, especially when he's feeling rather fiendish and coy. Sometimes he wants to be pushed against against a wall and taken as he playfully resists is just what he needs to destress.

Ludwig is so fucking down HORRENDOUS for you beating him the hell up during sex. Slap his face. Tie his hands up. Edge him and drive him insane.

If you're not feelings rough that night, Ludwig also enjoys the loving and languid sex that just takes joy in your company.

choke this bitch. do it.

Spy

Yeah he's a vers, but the vulnerability of letting you domtop would be too much for him. If he bottoms for you, you're the one begging for him.

Watching you hungerly look over him, seeing the lust in your eyes turns him on more than he can describe.

Handcuffs are a favorite of his, especially when you struggle against them to beg to touch his hips as he rides you.

Secretly fucks himself to fantasies of you ravaging him and ruining his pretty and put together facade.

Sniper

Whatever gets his rocks off the best is what he's down for.

When you fuck him, expect your back to be marred with scratches and your shoulders riddled with bite marks and hickeys.

Mundy is suprisingly whiny after a good while, eventually breaking to growl and whimper for you to "just get on with it, you fucking tease!"

Likes to go multiple rounds and has the biggest libido out of all the mercs. He's a self-aware needy man and will give every alleyway and storage room a once over when you two are walking together.

[you-know-i-get-itt]

hello it’s 1 am and i’ve been awake for about 43 hours so yall are going to have to deal with the shit i come up with rn

okay kevin day is the song i’m just ken from the barbie movie because why not

okay first of all. the name ken is just kevin without the vi. and vi can be interpreted as the number six. not sure what i’m trying to imply here so we move on

let’s start looking at the lyrics. first of all:

Doesn’t seem to matter what I do I’m always number two

no explanation needed. moving on

I have feelings that I can’t explain Driving me insane

hon those feelings are bisexuality and you can explain them you just don’t want to and honestly fair you were raised in the nest it’s not your fault ily. bisexuality is driving you insane because it drives all of us bisexuals insane next question

All my life been so polite

media training

’Cause I’m just Ken

hell yes you are

Anywhere else I’d be a ten

he’s neil josten in another universe because i said so. also the way neil’s a narrative foil to him. if his life had been different he could have been neil but it wasn’t so he isn’t

Where I see love she sees a friend

he’s talking about exy here

I wanna know what's like to love, to be the real thing

arospec kevin day

Put that manly hand in mine

he’d say that okay. he would

+ bonus:

Is it my destiny to live and die a life of blond fragility?

no. because you’re not blond. but you could be. you still can be. (and honestly i wouldn’t put it past kevin to dye his hair blond just because jeremy did)