#it draws me in and makes me want to stay

[petpluto]

Xander proposing at the end of season 5, and then not telling anyone for the summer and struggling in season 6 makes complete sense to me.

Forget that this is a 20/21 year old. This is a guy who has had a good year, in season 5. He’s gone from being listless and feeling left behind by his friends who have gone to college to having a good job. Not just a job, a career path. His skills have been *noticed*. He’s gotten a promotion, a pay bump, and the respect of his boss. He’s gotten out of his abusive parents’ basement. He is flying high and feeling good. And he proposes, because it’s not going to be the end of the world. He proposes to Anya because he doesn’t just have faith Buffy will save them all again - he knows it. Just like he knows the sun will rise tomorrow, he knows Buffy will save the world.

And then she does, but she dies doing it. One of the people Xander loves most, one of the only people I think he legitimately considers family, dies. Dies saving them. And they all just… stop. Willow, Xander, Giles, Dawn… they stop. They are existing but not living. And it’s grief and it’s guilt and it’s the promise that they’re going to get Buffy back that keeps them in stasis. And Xander doesn’t want to tell the gang he got engaged, not when it’s the gang minus Buffy, not when they plan to make the gang whole again soon. They get her back, and it’s not time now, either, because Buffy is back but she’s also not herself. She’s hurting and quiet and separate from them in a way that was never true before. They brought Buffy back, but the gang isn’t whole. Not yet. And then he feels compelled to tell them all that he’s engaged, when the Buffy who came back starts to feel like normalcy, when everyone is together and he sees this amazing woman he wants to spend the rest of his life with.

But then the rest of the year happens. He felt sure footed when he proposed; Xander knew who he was and where he was going. But since then, it’s been one blow after another. Buffy’s death, learning they ripped her from heaven, Tara and Willow breaking up, Willow struggling with magic… Everything is whispering to him the good times don’t last. He doesn’t get to keep the good things in his life. Not Buffy, not Willow. Not Anya. Xander came so far from being that abused kid hiding from his father in his basement, or camping out in the back yard on Christmas; but he starts feeling dragged back down in it. He is the screw up. He is the problem. He could be his father, might be like his father, is like his father. He could hurt the one person he wants to spend the rest of his life with - he is going to be the death of her. Anya starts planning their wedding, and every family member he has pushes this funhouse mirror closer and closer until it feels like it’s just a mirror. Like it’s reflecting his reality.

Xander wanted to be married to Anya, but he didn’t want Anya to be married to him. Not the him he feared he was or the man he worried about becoming. And I wish season 6 had done more with that, because the storyline runs deep through all of the preceding seasons and shines brightly in Hell’s Bells.

[chloesimaginationthings]

Man this scene in FNAF 2 movie is gonna be wild-

[lucabyte]

Taking pride in One's own appearance.

[swampybogg]

[honehonn3honey]

[potatobugz]

its like this, basically

[r-aindr0p]

T-shirt Rollo doodles were still haunting me so I mentally dragged him to pomefiore to have him get dressed better. (no way yuu has anything he'd deem as decent)

Don't mind the dagger he's just being silly

[bacchuschucklefuck]

okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is

[skitskatdacat63]

Happy birthday to my forty three shades of Fernando 🥳🎉

Let me know which is your fav variant!

Top from left to right: Matador, Nnadopoleon, Aston(obv), Boy King AU, Bond AU

Bottom from left to right: Ferrari, Post Retirement Vegas Magician Fernando, Renault

[imaybe5tupid]

Why bother? (Why bother?) It's gonna hurt me. (It's gonna hurt me.) It's gonna kill when- (Why bother!) -You desert me! (Gonna hurt me!)

Set after Nightmare. Laios is reminiscing and contemplating.

[dandelion-roots]

[Image description: a digital drawing of sklonda and pok gukgak from fantasy high, two goblins with shoulder length straight hair and short curly hair, respectively. they're touching foreheads and embracing, both of sklonda's hands in pok's hair, while one of pok's hands is moving sklonda's bangs off her foreheads and the other is clutching at her waist. we only see sklonda's face and the look of silent grief on it. in the background on pok's half is a stylized dragon's mouth with teeth digging into his shoulder, and on sklonda's side are sheets of paper. over the background on the left is text that reads, it's okay, and then on the right side in brackets it says, (it'll be ok). End image description]

[umblrspectrum]

got carried away practicing in preparation to make something else

[puppyeared]

i like him

[dykedvonte]

Something something perhaps the reason Curly lacks a truly undamaged ID where his face is visible is to represent how much damage Jimmy had already affected on him throughout their relationship and the way Curly obscured part of who he is and what he stood to unintentionally cater to this toxic influence in his life.

[harbingersecho]

finally played thru the infamous if demo and had an excuse to make a goth guy. with Facepaint and a coontail and everything. so here's Dane aka Lacuna of Dead Rat Society

[allistersatelier]

bit from kitchen i think is funny