#it doesn't feel like christmas at all
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
69% of Tumblr users are millennials.
Text
Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!
#cats#holiday#OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few#days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart#rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart#so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag#and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day#last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few#hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent#ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect#because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make#me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these#'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a#few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is#getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better#and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo#I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c#Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after#like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was#doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally#ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully#whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos#ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely#though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart#stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive#things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***
71 notes
·
View notes
Text
Quick doodle
Bonus
#Boyd deserves all the families#also there is like zero fanart of the Drakes being relevant in any way and i had to fix that#doofus grumpy that he can't have all the attention anymore#but boyd loves him too and wants to make sure he doesn't feel left out#dt17#ducktales boyd#doofus drake#boyd drake#christmas themed art
54 notes
·
View notes
Text
irt the lrb what would you say if i said liam & noel spent new years 2023 together in paris
what would you say if i said liam bought the house in france (the one with noel's name carved into the walls) in march 2023 and that month noel talked about wanting to spend several months in paris
which could mean nothing
#just making guesses chatting shit talking bollocks you know how it is#if anyone can debunk that first thing pls tell me!#feel like i'm wearing a tinfoil hat and it doesn't vibe with my outfits if y'know what i mean#feel like i should do a timeline but every time i try it gets out of hand#ok have some very messy puzzle piecing:#liam & noel texting/calling from time to time since jan 2020#noel splits w sara spring 2022 starts spending more time in manchester#maybe march mothers day something happened?? possibly liam & noel met up in april??? that's pure speculation though#pretty boy released oct 31 2022 noel stops wearing wedding ring#noel spends christmas in england for the first time in ages#liam listens to the smiths all christmas eve. on christmas he has a party for close friends and family (including bod)#liam and debbie go to france for the new year to house hunt#liam claims on twitter (no one believes him) that noel is with him on new years day#(((he posts a selfie that i uhhh got very tinhatty about.. don't worry about it)))#noel goes to a football game on jan 5 and he is in a very good mood#divorce news jan 14. liam's divorce playlist jan 15. allegedly out drinking together jan 16. noel does promo for new single jan 17#jan 18th liam claims on twitter noel wants to meet up#peggy's 80th birthday end of jan#liam's hip surgery beginning of feb#feb 6th he claims noel's “coming over later to wipe my arse and change the bedding he's a good lad really”#starts slagging noel off for real again in early march (he'd been “nice” since november's pretty boy promo)#news that he bought a house in france#noel does a bunch of promo at the end of march (when the 3rd single came out) some of which didnt air until june when the album came out#there's one interview where he seems very tired and hungover and he blabs about paris for ages#end of march is the 1st time he tells liam to call him. 2 months later he asks (goads) liam again a bunch of times#anyway i probably forgot some liam tweets from jan/feb and i really haven't looked into 2022 or 2021 yet#but yeah it's pretty clear they were hanging out 👁️👁️ jan 2023 and then things soured by march after liam's surgery#(((kinda wonder if noel ghosted him and then was too scared to call))) ←wondering that bc it's exactly what i would've done :/#the christmas eve/day stuff probably means nothing btw but well i'm feeling insane about the new years stuff don't even worry about it
9 notes
·
View notes
Note
honestly they were disrespectful to themselves. they let it get completely out of hand for a MONTH. the palace did this to themselves
yeah... look nobody will get me to agree with people being like 'conspiracy theorists have gone too far' 'you've all been disrespectful towards catherine' 'there was never a reason for any of this' 'you should be ashamed for what you said' etc etc etc. because like... first of all, again, i hold zero respect for these people. why the fuck should i. but even if i did... it's their own fucking fault???? the fuck?????? lmao?????????? literally only a handful of people gave a fuck until that doctored photo. and then they just kept making it worse. and i'm sorry but i actually don't think they're entitled to their privacy when their entire job is pr and they're blatantly lying in all their pr shit like ? what else are you good for lol. but then that also makes me angry because as much as i don't like kate for several reasons i'm still a bit genuinely offended at her behalf for how they've handled all this shit.. like making her take the blame for the photoshop (i hope for her sake it was her own idea, because otherwise........), having her appear alone in the video announcing her cancer (why tf isn't william there when she's talking about how he's by her side lmao), the general just lack of giving a fuck about anything whilst the world went wild theorising about her.... i can't tell whether she's taking the fall to cover for something else or if they're just all absolute assholes ?? again like. i don't like kate middleton. for many reasons. but i like william and charles a whole lot less and it's infuriating that they're making me feel like she's been wronged lmao
#im not even SUPER anti royalty#i mean i think its fucking stupid and serves no purpose#but a lot of countries have royals who really are Just figureheads#and if that was all the british royal family was then whatever#i mean theyre still a horrible symbol of colonialism and general racism#but like it doesn't really matter that they're there#EXCEPT it kinda does because they still have way too much social power#like idgaf about the norwegian royal family but at least they're like. normal. hell they even fly commercial#which im sure is a pr thing but i do appreciate it#like nobody cares about them in norway but i don't think anyone dislikes them either?#because they just do Nothing#theres a speech at christmas/new years and a wave at constitution day and thats literally it#they show up to events but its so casual#i feel like the british royal family could do this so easily but they insist on doing things like a coronation that costs millions of pound#like?????????#oh my god#again. dont give a fuck about royals in any country. but come on.#if youre gonna exist at least just be like. a figurehead. and stop being fucking weird.#answered
46 notes
·
View notes
Text
Okay for me it's like
Stan: dog
Kenny: dog
Kyle: cat
Cartman: cat
Or it's like
Kenny: fox
Kyle: redder fox
That's all.
#rimble ramble#south park#kenny mccormick#kyle broflovski#stan marsh#cartman#my headcanons#no explanations#christmas will prob be shit so present for myself is#just have fun and dont bother explaining#unless someone asks. which is rare so all the more reason to just have fun!!#why hide!! even if my brain feels like no one cares doesn't mean#I shouldn't have fun on my own!!#:'D ....crickets
30 notes
·
View notes
Text
a sneak peek for an upcoming (timeline tbd) update 😊
#holocene.txt#hlcn: story extras#consider this a thanks for the kind words on gratitude day :)#i wanna respond to everyone individually when i have time and also wax poetic about how much every comment means to me#it really does mean a lot#it's been a rough year and a very lonely year like i'm genuinely just so :/#i lost both of my grandmothers this year very suddenly and the holidays feel empty now and i'm dealing with scary health issues#i finally had a brain mri after waiting for it to get scheduled since JUNE and now i have to wait on results and undergo some other testing#and i'm losing my mind a little because i planned a nice christmas gift for my mom and it feels ruined because the post office lost it#and my dad ruined the whole surprise of it by calling customer support on speaker phone with her in the room...and she ofc heard everything#i just wanted something nice for my mom :( she deserves it and although i have other gifts for her still it's not all what i planned#i don't mean to rant but i just wanted to add context when i say it means a lot that anyone even remotely likes my pixels#i may not know most of you very well *yet* (trying to fix that!!) but it's nice to feel a little support from somewhere :) beyond nice#and sorry for being absent a lot this year but i swear i have so much appreciation for y'all and i love you and your pixels dearly#i always feel bad like maybe it doesn't seem like i care in return bc i'm offline a lot now but i really do!! i care a lot!! love y'all xox
25 notes
·
View notes
Text
youtube
i swear this song awakens shrimp emotions not before described by man
#genuinely can't put into words how this song makes me feel#it's such an incredibly specific feeling#it's like if you mixed the memories of a dead loved one on a summer night with a calm and comfy christmas song#and even that doesn't decribe all the wisps of feeling and the aftertaste#going insane#gaeilge#Youtube
46 notes
·
View notes
Text
#this is the only plot i care about tbh#acgas 2020#all creatures great and small#tristan farnon#siegfried farnon#i do hate how much they (the writers) force these conversations but this portion of it does feel natural#THIS is showing and not telling#idk#it would feel better to me if more of their arguments were dancing around the subject#instead of directly saying it#like they are here when siegfried doesn't say what he would have done differently with tristan#but we all obviously know#if they had built up to the argument in the S3 christmas special it would have hit better#not that it doesn't hit#just#it would have been a release of tension#a real good catharsis#instead of just one fight among many#as it is there's nothing that really sets it apart other than siegfried telling tristan that he loves him and would die for him#the rest of it just feels like old hat#but this moment (since i'm getting off track) is really good#part of why the rest doesn't ring true i think is because tristan is like 30#like that shit should be properly internalized by now#'you like that kid better than me :(' shut up!! you should be getting pissy with him for unrelated reasons#and so repressed about it that you have no clue of the true cause!#until you reach this moment and it comes pouring out!#anyways i do have to go to work now#ignore literally everything i've said here
34 notes
·
View notes
Text
just wrapped the first christmas present of the year ❤️
#for my friend who hates presents of course 😂#its the stupid teddy bear onesie he has magically instantly putgrown BOTH the previous times i got him one it fit him for like a week 😤#so i got it in the next two sizes up and that's that!!!!#babies grow so fast wtf never buy clothes as a present for a baby that's all i can say#but i can't accept defeat so here we go#his mom will appreciate it even tho she doesn't like getting presents tho lol#and its insane to give christmas presents before thanksgiving but for all i know this baby is gonna outgrow them both by then#i literally bought the size 9-12 months like last month#i ordered it immediately after his mom told me she THOUGHT HE WOULD BE IN THAT SIZE SOON#and it was already too toght on him when it arrived a week later 😭#so now i got size 12-18 and size 18-24 this baby's gonna be cozy this winter or else!!!#i cannot afford this btw#the original onesie was pretty cheap it was o. sale for like $17 but then i bought it twice#and the size maxed out at 9-12 months#so i had to upgrade to a toddler one and it was $22 and i got two of them again plus shipping#and i only make 14 dollars an hour and i'm lucky to work even two days a week at my new job lol#im putting off getting a second job until after i cover a coworkers maternity keave in feb tho bc then i def would be full time#for at least 6 weeks#and its possible she might decide not to come back or another aide would leave by then#so i might have an opportunity to be full time by then ir at least close to that#anyway#no money november fr 😔#just realized my tags are confusing my friend is the mom not the baby 😂#she's the one who gates receiving gifts bc she feels awkward lol#but she's broke af and can't afford clothes for her baby let alone cute ones and she loved the onesie when she fot it at her baby shower#but then the baby came a week and a half late#he was supposed to be a march baby he was born in april#and all of a sudden it was too warm for the onesie and he inly got to wear it once#so i was like ok i will get another one in the fall/winter then#but alas
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
i wanted to be done writing fanfiction for a while after LATBG, just leisurely working on the sequel miniseries, but now i have Ideas about a S3 St/eddie AU that doesn't take away much from any platonic St/obin scenes...
#i think the best approach would be to have eddie completely uninvolved in the russia plot#he's just a customer who comes by to flirt with steve who is trying to be oblivious#and maybe this leads to steve catching onto what robin is saying in the bathroom a few seconds quicker at most#but he doesn't have his own revelation until later that night#i'd definitely want eddie to run into them when they're all bloodied up at the mall#maybe he's concerned because he was told they were both no-shows for work yet steve's car was in the lot#so he's just been loitering around the mall#anyway i read a lot of great S3 AUs but i just REALLY love st/obin and it feels Wrong to me when robin's scenes get intruded upon by eddie#like i love you eddie but go away#but also st/eddie is great so#man idk i'm just rambling it's christmas eve i think it's time for wine and movies#lukapost
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
flashbacks to dialogue that happened less than a minute ago are annoying and a little insulting for obvious reasons, unless it's in bad buddy episode 5 [2/4] and pat is having entirely serious sepia toned flashbacks to fifty seconds ago while almost shoving a set of drumsticks he hasn't even paid for yet up his nose. then it's brilliant and world changing
#don't mind me i'm just chewing glass today#when the architecture band starts playing at freshy day and ink says to pat hey isn't that the song you two played that christmas?#it's like yeah... but that's a maddeningly casual way to refer to an event that in the context of the series wide metaphor#is really more like their parents caught them making out in a closet. and then pran got sent to boarding school over it#and NOW pran is up there on stage playing that same song again. looking right at pat when he announces it. but plaYING IT with WAI#and not intentionally. not in a mean sort of way. because pran doesn't know#he doesn't KNOW that pat's been shoving drumsticks up his nose while being struck cold by Love Signs#because how could he. all he knows is that very recently pat was sighing in relief that pran isn't his rival for ink. because pat likes ink#pran does NOT know that in the (very short. more than fifty seconds but still very short) meantime#pat has tried to figure out if ink might like him back. pat has in the process accidentally figured out that HE might like pran#AND pat has tried to confess his feelings to ink only for her to go. very kindly. are you sure you like me that way? i don't think you do#(because he's the wrONG SIBLING. she likes the OTHER SIBLING. which is hilarious but a different thing to go insane over)#and it's like. pran doesn't know!!! pran is just having a day like any other. pran has Known forever#he doesn't KNOW that when they're standing there surrounded by guitars (it's essentially a gay bar. don't even get me started)#(because that's a joke but it's also not. not really. it is but it's not. you know)#!! that when they're standing there surrounded by guitars. pat is suddenly going OH. in sepia toned flashbacks to fifty seconds ago#when they were ALSO standing there surrounded by guitars btw. which is the point. nothing has changed but maybe everything has#it's the same thing it was fifty seconds ago but maybe it's not. maybe pat suddenly hears the music that's been playing forever#and maybe this is way too many fucking tags. i don't even think this is the glass i was chewing originally#*#bad buddy#bad buddy the series
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
My parents r atheists with christian parents which means that me and my sibling r atheists with atheist parents. One side effect of this is that christmas is a Big Deal to my parents but I'm atheist enough that christmas has basically no meaning to me outside of "the time of year I get free stuff"
#sep talks#like it's nice to get presents and see family or whatever but there's nothing fundamentally special abt christmas day#as opposed to every other day#we could do christmas early or late and I probably wouldn't notice#idk. It just came up the other day when I was talking to my parents#bc my aunt is hosting and she doesn't have much room so I said oh well I could stay home#and my parents were like oh but it feels wrong for u to be all alone on christmas#and it's like well. To u maybe. To me it is just another day#it feels so weird. U atheist-ed too close to the sun and now ur kids don't believe in christmas as a special time#I have the same kind of feelings abt halloween like it's whatever. Doesn't rlly mean anything to me#but it feels weirder abt christmas. Bc I WAS brought up celebrating it. But its like none of it stuck ahdunfidndj
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sometimes I can't believe that some people think christmas is the best and most joyous time of the year. The way they automatically almost loathe others for not celebrating it is so ridiculous. I don't celebrate any holidays, like at all. I've been struggling with christmas for many years, it makes me feel depressed, overwhelmed and only reminds me of childhood trauma.
#it all feels so obligatory#at least i dont have to spend this time with my abusive father but that doesn't help either! bc i hate my entire family!#I liked holidays when i was like 7-9yo but only because of the gifts and other shit#I would love to disappear for a few days because my anxiety is fucking me up#my family isnt even that religious but they think everyone should celebrate christmas because of some stupid *tradition*#i hate christmas films i hate christmas music i hate christmas commercials and literally everyhting else#celebrating the birth of some fictional character seems foolish and naive#also my goth/punk/herectic ass hates christmas#yeah maybe i am the fucking grinch but i dont even care anymore#so go shove a christmas tree up your ass and shut up#but im sending a virtual hug for all people who are also struggling during this difficult time of the year 🫂🫂#THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK!#rambles
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
I was having fun with that, until a minor thing went slightly wrong and the whole thing cascaded to ruin my night.
#A thing I bought a while back had loose hinge screws#So I tried to fix it#But somehow I did something and now the door doesn't close right at all anymore#And I can't figure out what is wrong because it should be fine#And trying to fix the new problem just damaged it more#So maybe I should just get a replacement#But I can't get a replacement#Because the place I bought it from is practically ransacked#It could be Christmas hangover but I think it's closing#Which sucks because it's a place I like to go every so often#But anyway they don't have a replacement#And it feels like everything I like is going away#That store#Physical media#Democracy#And I feel like everything is just an endless grind#And even the few fun things turn against me#And I don't want to try new things#Because they'll turn against me too
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
The good news: I will have Chinese food tomorrow
The bad news: I have to see my mom as part of it :[
#speculation nation#negative/#i guess. i Am complaining.#i did agree to this. better to rip the bandaid off ahead of the family christmas.#but i havent talked to her since like... jeeze. i really think it's been over 2 years by this point now.#ignored all her calls and texts and Letters even#like what am i supposed to say? heyyy ma nice to see you (i guess). why havent i called? well uhhhhh#even in her letter she sent me it was essentially a nearly illegible journal she kept during a depressing as fuck time#something that really shouldve stayed as a journal. but no she wrapped it up stuck a sticker on it and drew some nail polish on the envelope#i am her child and yet she was using me as a therapist. venting things and In The Letter saying she didnt know why she said them#like. mom. you know you dont have to send me everything you write right? you know you can start over right?#but no she just writes with no filter. no consideration for me.#because she's a sad sad woman who sees her children as the only things worth living for#and i do say things. she doesn't fucking care about me as a person.#she just misses the experience of being these little impressionable people's Everything.#no one puts up with her bullshit these days and how sad is that?#so. well. that's the kind of reason why i havent talked to her. bc she's a fucking drain just to be around.#but shes my mother yada yada and something in me still feels maybe even slightly socially obligated to see her#really though i just want to see her Side of the family. i miss them. i haven't seen them in too long.#and in order to see them i have to see her. and i decided itd be best to see her ahead of time#so that family xmas is. at least slightly less awkward. hopefully.#what am i supposed to do if she tries to hug me or something? i dont want to hug her.#either she'll be all weepy that i havent been talking to her or she'll try to act like nothing's changed at all.#or maybe both. who knows. either way itll be entirely about her. as it always is.#i just need to make sure i dont end up alone with her#so long as my sister or grandma are there too she wont be As insufferable. hopefully.
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
Idk if it's because I'm stressed at work or something, but my fragile gi system never quite acts up at work. It's always the day after I get off of work. Wtf
I just want to enjoy my goddamn weekend
#i thought maybe i got food poisoning?? but it doesn't seem like food poisoning#maybe it's a stomach flu#but goddamn this never happens at work.#maybe they are right and i am a 天选打工人 😂#after all i never even got sick with covid since 2020#i suspect that really bad cold i got right around christmas 2019 was covid?#but nobody knew about the cov at the time so i didn't get tested#i thought maybe im just asymptomatic but#people around me never got covid from me so#maybe i just never got it?#anyway i feel terrible right now#:P
3 notes
·
View notes