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candyskiez · 10 months ago

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Man the grief is a hole thing really helps. But unfortunately now I am realizing my own patterns. Fuck.

#i am trying to shove other things into the hole #i am making the hole wider because I'm shoving too many things into the hole #I'm scared everyone else doesn't have a hole and is going to leave me behind because theyre sick of me being like this #and thus making the hole worse by trying to force them to like me #the hole won't get smaller but i cant stop trying to fill it #i just. fuck #i feel so goddamn empty #and I'm making it worse! i know I'm making it worsen #if i stay i rip myself apart if i leave i get replaced #i dont know what to do #and maybe im overdramatic. maybe they actually care and me going would hurt them #but i just #im trying to force them to fill the void in my life and it's going to kill me #it almost killed me actually #genuinely it almost killed me #but if i leave i get a bigger hole #i know I'll grow bigger than it if i stick it out.#but the thing is. i dont know if I can #i don't know if Id live if i lost anyone else #genuinely #so.#candyskiez vent #tw suicide #if you make a sex joke i will eat your organs

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morningstarwrites · 28 days ago

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Ch. 37 "Of Saints and Sinners" is out! Read here

#my art #radioapple #chaggie #hazbin hotel fanart #of saints and sinners #osas #outfit refs but as per usual you can draw/imagine it however you want lol #actually this is my first time drawing four people in one go LOL #it almost killed me tbh

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dirtgrubber · 4 months ago

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behold! the closet scene from @morningstarwrites “Of Saints and Sinners”

#are you happy now??#this almost killed me #osas #radioapple #alastor #my art #duckiedeer #lucifer #of saints and sinners #no lie i actually had so much fun drawing luci’s closet #put that thing back in the closet or so help me

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goblins-riddles-or-frocks · 1 year ago

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forever obsessed with dynamics between vampires, specifically that of a maker and fledgling, as a way to explore abuse. the creation of a vampire itself can so easily be a literalization of the lasting impacts of trauma and also much more simply the ways a perpetrator might shape their victim’s very identity. the extremes of isolation in the way that the new vampire, in most narratives, must cut all ties to their mortal life, or else go through an elaborate charade to maintain the facade of humanity, while forever still being removed from it. and the sheer dependence and vulnerability of being in an entirely new state of being, wholly uncertain of what it entails, and relying on another person to define… everything.

#or just the moral dilemmas #rewatching amc interview is kind of making me insane #that moment in episode two when louis is looking for a sort of assurance in the fact that lestat may actually have some good in him #look at how he cares about music look at the simple wondrous things that can bring him joy #and then the immediate dread when the opera performance turns out to be imperfect because he knows how lestat will react to *that*#I think there’s also something really interesting in the highlighting of lestat upbraids the less skilled singer before killing him #(slowly)#but also I will wait to watch more before I articulate my thoughts #vampires #interview with the vampire #amc interview with the vampire #i ramble sometimes #I do still find the lestat and claudia film and novel dynamic by far the most compelling for how she tries to usurp him but almost to be him #but I’m enjoying this #I’m very curious if I will like show claudia more on rewatch #the movie always resonated most with me (sue me lol) because there seemed to be more simultaneous fondness and attachment even at the end

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micamone · 14 days ago

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#stargate sg1 #stargate atlantis #neko atsume #almost cried drawing that cute little fucking tac vest on jack btw. look at him.#not in love with all of the atlantis team especially rodney and weir and tela i fuckim struggled with them #like i'm happy with how they look it's fine but short of sticking a maple leaf on rodney or something you know #it's the props #i couldn't figure out how to make who they were obvious. idk man they're cute and i know who they are I guess. felt the same with sam tbh #giving her a little math sheet felt a lil cheap but you know what it's done i'm not gonna keep workin on these the gateroom killed me dead.#also i woulda done the other sg1 members that show up later but I haven't gotten there yet in my watch-thru.#like i saw them as a kid when it was airing on tv but not yet while actually paying attention to things like the plot #my posts #my art #stargate #the sg1 one was done first so that's why i didn't end up putting a lot of detail into the planet they landed on vs how much detail #i had to keep leaving out of the fucking got dam gateroom why is there so much detail in that room hey guys what the hell is up with that r

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canon-gabriel-quotes · 10 months ago

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Whoa.. Uh. Right. *laughs* The Bible.

Let's see what we have here. Ah yes. Reve-lations. Wow.

Whoa. There's a lot. Uh, in the Bible I mean!

Um. Hang on I-I need to go take a shower.

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#gabriel ultrakill #ultrakill #gabv1el #this one actually killed me #this was my first time drawing V1 i almost died.

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wildflowercryptid · 9 months ago

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the kalosian worms are quickly eating away at my brain, folks.

#enjoy my shitpost doodles i'll do more serious ones later #mjv!calem is so funny to me i want to study him in a lab #the most fucked up lil dude in all of kalos he's so god damn haunted #just girly things : when an evil ecofascist ceo tricks you into almost killing your friends by brainwashing you <3 #i actually need to talk about what happens in mjv!xy instead of just dropping wild out of context jokes about plot points aksflj #pokemon #pokemon xy #pkmn xy #pokemon serena #trainer serena #pokemon az #trainer az #pokemon calem #trainer calem #rival calem #pokemon shauna #rival shauna #pokemon emma #trainer emma #hc : (pkmn) mjverse #chara : serena vidal #chara : zephyrathes '' az '' vidal #<- fucked up in that hc post and forgot to write out his full first name oops #chara : calem durant #chara : shauna bellamy #chara : emma khalil #🎨 : mj draws #tw explosion

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forgetful-nerd · 5 months ago

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After rewatching TMNT 2012 I had an epiphany

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milkbreadtoast · 11 months ago

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DETECTIVES MAC AND CHEESE.... DRAWING THIS ALMOST KILLED ME 🫡🧡💛 *dies*

#macaroni cookie #cheddar cheese cookie #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #cookie run fanart #crk fanart #my art #im too exhausted to even leave commentary but this almost killed me fr #IM GLAD I DIDNT GIVE UP AND FINISHED IT #mac and cheese #mac n cheese #mac & cheese #watch this show up when ppl r actually trying to search for mac n cheese recipes #im sorry

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peacockrulz · 11 days ago

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N tries to tell another joke (gone wrong)

Sequel to This

#if you see any mistakes uhh no you don't #yknow i am a huge multishipper and i love almost every ship in this fandom #but id be lying if i said i didnt find envy to be like one of the most romantic relationships in MD #like??#"Loving you is so fundemental to who I am that even when my brain is digitally lobotomized and I can't even remember why #like hello Liam Vickers yeah its me again why the FUCK would you DO THAT #I think even if envuzi wasn't actually canon. I entirely believe that you can't actually seperate them anyway #like it kills me that the entirety of Murder Drones. N and V are in love with eachother. like mutually #and they still are. and thats just how things are.#I'd go further but this is literally a shitpost and I don't wanna make the tags a mile again #I'm just a yapper ok. I yap abt the robots #anyway uhhhh this comic isnt even super envuzi but since its a sequel to the last one ill tag it. why not #murder drones #serial designation n #serial designation v #uzi doorman #murder drones lizzy #md lizzy #nuvi #violentbitingbiscuits #envuzi #vuzin #nvuzi #thank you to the person that made we aware of all the different varients of these threes ship name sdlkfjsdf #kinda in love w/ nvuzi cuz it doesnt look good as a word but it funnier to me cuz of that dslkfjsdf

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mrmeepsmadmind · 27 days ago

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his horns (finials) (idk)(ears)(whatever) shaking... the jumping ??? the struggling 😭 the off center twitching ..he is PISSED. AWF !!!!!!

#his defeat being planned makes this either hes playing up his rage bcs he definitely played up his defeat #or a mixture of playing up his rage and actually being a little pissed bcs he wanted to get more licks in but couldnt #anyways i cant take him sersiouly with those big ass ears #like an angry kitten trying to escape the burrito calm down blanket of doom #his helmet shape is so cute to me inearth spark it almost looks like a 80s mom hairstyle with the hair #cropping a symmetrical curve around her face or smthing #tbh if u are delusional enough all soundwaves are hot moms #i mean come on it's a given #except the animated one. he was freshly birthed. a little baby #megatron and optimus watching him freak like : 😦#optimus: so he served under you #megatron : oh Yes 😼..#meg: iMEAN yeah 😦#meg: i mean .. yes 😞..#need somebody to clip all soundwave appearances pls all seasons need it. NOWW!!!!!!!#at first i wasnt a big fan of his voice bcs i think when ppl try to harden that demonic voice underneath the autotune factor #which is rlly cool #they can kinda go too hard and it sounds almost too cartoony like a cartoon monster villain whos not calculated but vry primal #which goes against soundwaves whole cool calculated spy techno soundguy thing #but im warmed up to it now bcs it's a cute contrast like. u see this beautiful mech with magnificent curves & ure like omg hey hot mama #and then a voice from the 9th circle of hell growls at you like thats lowkey hilarious #dont mess with a bad bitch !!!!!! who just had a bad break up!!!!#he WILL kill u !!!!!!!!#soundwave #transformers #maccadam #tf #tf es #tf earthspark #arcee

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akirakirxaa-ooc · 10 months ago

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Is Palworld just ARK but with Pokemon? Pokemon but with guns? Yes.

Are half the pals pokemon ripoffs? Yes.

Am I having an absolute blast? You bet.

Legends Arceus wishes it had this kind of base building.

#palworld #someone said 'let's make meganium a dragon and actually good' and i love that actually #also it almost murdered me if it weren't for the 5% catchrate sphere that worked #i love everything about this #is it going to kill pokemon? of course not #but dammit there's room in my library for more monster collectors

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emdotcom · 5 months ago

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Yeah, so while I was on my "I'm going to read into Vanny/Vanessa as much as possible" journey, I noticed an odd quirk in her animations in how she moves. At first, I thought it reminded me of a ballerina, 'cause she's kinda tip-toeing, & she has this way of keeping her head & chest in one place as she moves, but I looked again & realized --

That's not ballet! She's doing a tight-rope act. Like, look at this one:

This is like standing up on the wooden boards before you do the actual tight-rope walking, & the ring leader is hyping you up as you do some fun movement for the crowds. &, then, these:

These are all instances where she walks with one foot directly in front of the other. In that third, she's doing the "woaaah" wiggly-ass balance movements & everything, as if she's swaying up at the top of the tent, even though she's down on solid ground.

Idk, I feel like the way her feet are placed isn't accurate (pretty sure they should be pointed left & right, not both forwards...) doesn't make this 100% correct, but I like it. It also connects back with her first SB teaser, wherein she's up in the rafters.