#isolation lawlight

[craetor]

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[craetor]

13, holy shit. I can't believe you picked up a pencil because of them,,🙏🏻

They look so lovely.. thank you.. I really like that it's all stylized but still clean & giving that same dusky vibe♡

"You're very skilled. I feel safe watching you perform coordinated tasks so easily."

"I know.."

domestic fem!Lawlight inspired by @craetor's Hot Chocolate ♥♥

[corviiids]

If possible, could you talk about your favorite lines from either telltale or call me by? Or just about the little bits and pieces behind either in general? Because I'd love to hear about it! :D

[No pressure though! Feel free to ignore this ask if it bothers you ^^;]

you are VERY kind thank you so much. people taking the time to ask me about my words is never a bother i am very honoured!!!

from telltale - a few random ones:

The amount of agency he has during these dreams fluctuates, but the awareness is—more frustratingly—pretty stagnant: it's there, oh yes, but it's there in the way your keys are there when you've dropped them in the drain.

pretty straightforward line but i like finding fun ways to describe the unique weirdness of dreams. the idea of reality being very visible to you but frustratingly out of reach is just fun to me

“What normally happens when you're feeling guilty about something?” L finally swivels to eye him. “I already told you that you can have it,” he says. “If you're feeling guilty, just go buy me more right now.” “That's not what I meant,” says Light. Then: “Is that why you offered it to me? So I'd feel bad and buy you more?”

L and light's dream interactions were super fun to write, because of this need to balance light's ordinary sharpness and focus with the fact that he's in a dream and that your agency in dreams wavers. so he keeps buying into these misdirecting bits of dialogue from L even if he's not strictly falling for them. also, funawa propaganda (pastry shop in jp) it got mentioned in L change the world and rightly so because the youkan and sweet potato cheese puffs literally haunt me every day i miss them so fucking much

“I didn't think so,” says L, nodding with some solemnity. “Domestic life, it's more a matter of going through the motions, isn't it?”

me trying desperately to force my agenda that lawlight aren't really in love per se and that the domesticity is sort of a function of something else, no less intimate, but not traditionally romantic. i just think they're so interesting when they're not "dating" but they are, like, eternal soulmates obsessed with each other forever. in the same vein:

“Do I love you?” Light asks. “It doesn't really matter to me,” says L. “Do you love me?” “That doesn't really matter to me, either,” says L.

ok last one

Light knows the layout of the apartment he shares with L by heart. So well, in fact, that when he falls out of bed in the middle of the night to stumble gagging to the bathroom, he'll smack into the east wall feeling for a door that isn't there.

MAN i just really like playing with dreams that fuck you up so bad they bleed into reality. i have nothing deep to say about this i just like fucking with light yagami and ruining his life

ok heres some from call me by im putting them under the cut

i think my favourite recurring idea is light's thing about friendship and loneliness:

I don't mind talking to my classmates, but feeling lonely isn't just about having people around you. Well, how do I put it? I guess talking to them doesn't make me feel less lonely.

light is a very isolated character to me. this is a pretty simple line but it happens surprisingly early on for being a fairly vulnerable confession, given how guarded light is. i think the unique situation of the bodyswap makes L a more intimate confidant. anyway later in the fic L says he considers light a friend

at this point in time, i already consider asahi-kun a friend. . Really? Okay. Then I'm glad you're my friend. :)

after that, light repeats the point a couple more times

I can't let you die. You're my friend. [...] You’re my friend.

i know these aren't like poetic lines or anything lol but i am fond of them because i like the idea of light, like... getting permission to consider L a friend and then kinda labouring the point after that, worried about L but also just like "wow! i have a friend!"

[nearlymello]

Lawlight headcannons

Oddly enough, I am fairly uhm, isolated from tumblr sadly. It's shocking how this platform is one that's very alike with my interests and fun and I cannot find the courage to come on here.

But here are some gayass headcannons:

1)

L unironically reads poetry just to piss Light off. They'll be sleeping and L will have the lamp on and reciting poems from poets like Paul Verlaine while whispering almost, and Light would be furious.

L: "Before your light quite fail,

Already paling star,

The quail

Sings in the thym-"

Light: "Ryuzaki."

L: "Yes Light?"

Light: "May you please shut it."

Nightly occurrence, 100%.

2)

L has asked Light multiple times what his favourite cake is. Light assumes that it's some plot to find out if he is Kira, but in reality L just wants to know what Lights favourite cake is to assess their similarities.

3)

They used to share the same bed but then they realised that they would fight too much over blankets, pillows, which side to sleep, and more so they just gave up. (Light sleeps on the bed, L sleeps on a chair close to the bed if he even sleeps that night.)

4)

Oddly enough, Light before the death note disliked Dostovesky and then when he became a suspect for the Kira case and was chained to L he was obsessed with Dostovesky. But on the other side L hated Osamu Dazai until the Kira case. This happens as they both influenced each other to read each writers books.

This only happened due to L constantly quoting Dostovesky and Light reading No Longer Human before he sleeps which in L's eyes is "Odd."

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I'm too sleepy for more. Night, night.

[quicktimeeventfull]

hello here’s some quick and simple lawlight h/c. this goes with my canadian university in general and ‘you can make me cry on danforth avenue’ in particular but i feel it should work in isolation.

The day after Christmas is always difficult -- more so in some ways than Christmas itself, which is at least filled with activities. Boxing day is nothing. It's just a stretch of dead time in which his thoughts turn gangrenous.

He curls up on the sofa in the early morning to rest, and he's still there three hours later when Light comes back from the mysterious errands he’d left to run.

He looks up. Light pauses, bags in hand -- it looks like xie's gotten groceries and something from the pet store for their guinea pigs -- then dumps everything on the kitchen table and heads into their bedroom.

For a moment, irritation rising up through the murk in his head, L thinks Light is expecting him to get up and put the shopping away. Light had many excellent qualities, but a sense of consideration is frankly not one of them, so it isn't entirely outside the realm of possibility. But before long Light emerges with a soft blue blanket.

Xie pads close, then and drapes it over L's shoulders and tucks it in. Then xie sits beside him.

Xir weight tips L ever-so-slightly towards xim. Xie smells like the peppermint soap L bought last week to be festive.

L waits for Light to say something, perhaps some attempt at comfort, but instead, quietly, xie lays a hand across L's shoulder.

It is warm, and sturdy, and steady. L shuts his eyes and allows it to lull him back into the quiet. Soon he’ll have to get up and rejoin the world; for now he can rest here with Light.

[craetor]

IT'S BLIND!LIGHT. Oh no now I've got confirmation I'm not alone with this strange feeling that blindness needs to be explored more (by me. Nobody said that ever but the gremlin in my brain). New inspiration is multiplying at an exponential rate...

“It’s not a sob story,” L insisted, “As I said, I’m not most people’s type. They don’t generally go for the lanky, pale, look. I’m not looking for sympathy—in fact I don’t really care.” ( you’re a wasp nest by raisuki)

[justwantfanart]

Death note Hot take

Light and L both are terrible people, and while I love Lawlight, and ship it, it would realistically never work out, since L clearly holds a power imbalance during Yotsuba and Light is clearly so self destructive and uncaring for himself and others in the service of his end goal. They would be a pairing of someone who is someone not allowed to feel his emotions and to grow up normally, and someone who is so disassociated from himself and his existence that his only escape from his obvious disconnect from those around him is killing people, and even that loses its charm after L’s death. They just- they need to both go to extensive therapy since they both have CLEAR TRAUMA (im sorry but light has trauma. Both from the start you can infer and throughout the show he clearly goes through a lot, primiarily in Yotsuba arc….) so great ship as long as it’s completely isolated from canon. also hot take: light isn’t a pure sociopath who can’t feel things and react to trauma. Because ASPD if we say light has ASPD OFTEN IS BORN FROM TRAUMA. PEOPLE WITH ASPD CAN EXOERIENCE EMOTIONAL PAIN. Okay sorry I had to shade someone I know for having the worst light takes on planet earth. Okay crazy rambling about my favorite gay detectives is done for the hour.

[undergoing-mitosis]

i've been listening to sofia isella's entire discography today cause im insane and it's crazy how well some of the songs fit with death note characters. or maybe im just too i deep in and im slowly losing my mind. anyhow

Death Note Characters as SOFIA ISELLA Songs

Light: I Looked The Future in the Eyes, It's Mine. a song about being high on the power trip of believing the near future is yours for the taking hello???????? 'they ask us, "how's it feel to be god's favourite?" we say, "we don't know, we've never known different."'

L: Cacao and Cocaine. more specifically fanon L. more specifically lawlight L. plus L feeling unfufilled if his life isn't riddled with the danger of detective work. 'would you like your heart to get attacked? would that feel better than boredom in another beige and bland cul de sac?'

Mello: Hot Gum. a slutty song with fire imagery and religious metaphors. need i say more? 'i watch us burn and fall, the heat is ten feet tall... and the flicker flames weave in through my teeth.'

Matt: Rainbow Rocket Ride. literally the mellodramattic song we've all been waiting for. with video game metaphors n references??? could something be more perfect? 'i found my joy with a runaway boy, and the cosmos is so big it won't notice we went missing'

a few more under the cut:

these next ones im less sure about but i still think they fit the vibes of the character:

Near: All of Human Knowledge Made Us Dumb. technically this is a song about the internet rotting our brains, but the general vibes of disconnection from reality and numbness, and everything making more sense in fiction and theory than reality is very near-coded in my opinion. i have always headcanoned near as a hikikomori, though less because he just doesn't want to go out and more because he physically can't function in the world. high support needs autism who???? 'and i can know every answer that's ever been known, but when everyone's together everyone's alone'

Misa: Everybody Supports Women. again a bit of a stretch, im not completely sold on it. but there are moments that make me go ugh yes. it feels like the toxicity of the idol industry along with, well, everyone around her going against misa, or at least that's how it feels to her. i think it encapsulates the isolation of her character and how people don't see her suffering cause she has a pretty face perfectly. misa is such a tragic and ultimately lonely character who lost everything she has ever loved. and she does not get enough comfort and sympathy for that."she's probably self-centred, we hate her and she's nothing, if everybody leaves her then she had it coming"

[applestorms]

I’d talk to you, really talk to you, if I didn’t flop around like a dead fish trying to catch my tongue. Fuck sounds far too abrasive, Murder is caustic enough to be out the question. I suppose burgeoning, visceral fondness would align closer to Marry. my siblings and I have this bit going on where I yell “APPLE JUST FUCKING POSTED!!!” and it’s not that I’m useless the rest of the day, not any more lethargic than I usually am, but your pace and candor is like a block of concrete in the hale of my thoughts.

what I mean to say is, I’ve been on this delusional streak idolizing Death Note blogs I do follow and thinking of them as an inviolable concept to revere. I desperately need to sober up, but you’re an exception. Somehow, I can acknowledge that you’re beyond just awfully fucking witty and fun. It’s so much more charming that way, thinking of you as more than an account on Tumblr; someone behind the name.

ugh ugh ugh ok that’s all. I would marry you. Not worship you, not envy you overtly, not have bitter intercourse all of that’s reserved for lawlight >:3

but but,, what I would do, however, is slurp on a vein like a noodle, choke on it, and then get uncomfortable enough to talk to you. one day. wish me luck! [insert comical boom sound effects in rapid succession]

oh, nonnie... i assume this is in response to the fuck/marry/kill poll?

first off, i'm very touched that my writing and posts have connected with you so much!! i have a lot of fun writing stuff around here, and it means a lot that we can all bond over this story. this has been by far one of the better fandom experiences i've had on tumblr, and i'm very grateful for everyone around here that has made this such a pleasant part of the internet to hang around =3=

that being said, please don't think of me as an exception. i am not somebody to be idolized-- not because i'm exceptionally terrible or evil or anything like that, but because i can't be anything other than another human, and for that reason, can never live up to any heightened ideals you may set upon me. if there are ways in which you resonate with the feelings and experiences i put into my writing, i'm glad! perhaps we have enough similarities there that my stuff happens to stand out as particularly meaningful to you. but this does not make me somehow worthy of any special reverence, and, whether you establish them consciously or not, i will not be able to live up to every one of your expectations.

speaking from personal experience-- it can be very easy, when you're very isolated, to hold tightly to and cherish the few connections that you do manage to make. and there can be a hefty amount of fear associated with holding on to these connections, and ensuring that they stay as meaningful as you want them to. again, just speaking to my own life here since i know nothing about where you're coming from, but when it feels like everything around you is falling apart and your life is shit and you are terrible and nothing you do is ever going to be good enough, it is incredibly easy to look at the one place where you feel as though you've found something Good and decide, "This is it. This is going to be the Thing that fixes me. Nothing is ever going to be this meaningful to me ever again. I've found The Solution, and if I lose it, I'm done for."

very rarely is that feeling ever true. no single thing is ever going to fix you-- because an entire life and person is not something that can be fixed, only slowly but surely improved and cared for through agonizingly tiny steps that hardly ever feel like anything in the moment but mean Everything in the long run. i often ask that people speak kinder about themselves, not because i am somehow omniscient and capable of seeing every facet of their life and person to judge whether or not they are Worthy of the care, but because it is only through extending that care regardless of some presumed "worth" that we can make our lives better in the first place.

i suppose this is all to say that i would like to talk to you more too, anon. i quite like the verbosity of your writing style, how it forces me to slow down and consider each individual thing you say, the visceral nature of your metaphors and imagery. i'm also quite awkward, and anxious, and somewhat socially inept. i do not have a vast myriad of connections, and thus like to put special care in the ones i do manage to make, online and in real life.

but i'm afraid i can't do that if you approach me from the start by seeing me as something more than i am. i'm willing to tolerate quite a bit of awkwardness in social conversations-- somewhat of a necessity, i find, for talking to equally socially anxious people online. but please don't forget that, just as you say, i am a person behind the name and the screen over here, just as flawed and capable of mistakes and missteps as anyone else.

i appreciate your willingness to face the discomfort to try and talk to me, even if it's just through an anon this time. believe me, i know how difficult even that can be sometimes. and i do like hearing from you. please don't be embarrassed by my little speech here, it is far from my intention to shame you, but i just wanted this to be said.

let's all keep enjoying the lawlight antics together, yes? c: hopefully without making anybody any more or less special or untouchable than they actually are, for their sake and our own.

[craetor]

Also going down the more asexual route means they prefer heated arguments & suppressing the urge to sometimes clear a table or two to drain whatever's bottled up. If they smoked you could just imagine Light standing outside afterwards with a cigarette like "hell yeah, that was great. So refreshing"

"i ship lawlight because they have so much sexual tension!" — You don't get it!

That is such a small part of their relationship! The entire appeal is that they UNDERSTAND eachother like no one else has before! L has chased after so many physically and mentally attractive criminals— but none of them mattered before Light because Light understands L at a fundamental level! He doesn't care that Light is a murderer! Their tension comes from the fact that they are ultimately drawn to one another but they can't be together, they are the same but on opposite sides of a war even though their mentalities and morals are so similar!

Their love was fast but slow, an instant intrigue and attraction at their first meeting that only grew as they came to know eachother more.

It was the "dates" they went on together in public, the late working nights, solving bits of the case together and not alone like the norm, being chained and in eachothers space for months, learning the small quirks and ticks, body language, habits, eating preferences, peeves, negative reactions, morning routines, night and sleeping routines, all of the small stuff that only made them fall deeper.

They feel so romance heavy to me, tender touches, leaning against eachother, hair getting tangled while they sleep and thinking about how nice it feels and smells, their scents becoming similar because they use the same soap and detergent, just holding and cherishing eachother and every moment they have, soft kisses igniting passions that can lead to more.

It's also how monstrous they are. They are both so weird and strange, they don't feel all lovey dovey about one another all of the time, they can be violent and mean and downright hateful but they can take it. They love eachother for it because it's honest and exciting, they can't get bored together. The hits, scratches, kicks and punches, then licking eachothers wounds and patching eachother up with a peck.

So yeah, sex can definitely be a thing for them, but this is what they are for me. So much more than that.

(I also have an ace4ace hc tbh)

Made this because the top/bottom discourse was pissing me off like shut up please let people do what they want no one cares

[macni-art]

Tagged by @novaae thank u ☺️💕

Three ships: makoharu, eruri and idk… yumihisu

First ever ship: lawlight, but when I was little I looked for PhineasxIsabella content xd, idk if that counts.

Last song/album: Pablo honey by Radiohead

Last movie: the mario bross movie

Currently reading: pride and prejudice

Currently watching: attack on titan and the office

Currently consuming: coffee

Currently craving: not really hungry for anything these days so I’ll go with: sleep, isolation, be able to read and listens to music 24/7 with no responsibilities and swimming.

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Tagging: anyone who wants to do it consider yourself tagged by me. And have a good weekend :)

[craetor]

Snowed in.

Trying to set in scene the recent addition to Isolation!Lawlight's decor, which actually have an important practical use i.e. keeping the demons out.

[13eyond13]

Random ask, from all media that you've consumed until now (books, tv series, movies, manga, etc), have you ever met any couple (canon or non canon) that remind you of the dynamics of L/Light? Who are they?

Hello! I think I answered this exact question recently already actually, on this post: (X)

The true answer is that no, I haven't found another one that reminds me exactly of L and Light's relationship. What I find unique and interesting about Lawlight is stuff like how restrained and ambiguous and continuously tense and unspoken and mindreading-ish their relationship is, the insane level of hilarious morbid innuendo going on constantly, and the way Light continues to secretly revere L long after he's gone.

The closest thing I can think of is Will and Hannibal's relationship in NBC Hannibal, but it's not an exact parallel – the thing about Hannigram that reminds me most of Lawlight is the mutual obsession, the killer / investigator and frenemy dynamics, and especially the constant innuendo and the speaking on multiple levels at once to each other that they are doing – but from what I remember it stops feeling quite as similar of a parallel to me with the aspect of Will being sort of tempted into becoming a killer himself, Hannibal never really having an uneasy relationship with his own guilt or morality at any point the way that Light does in the beginning, L not really being a tortured empath type guy like Will so much as somebody looking to entertain himself and win at a hard challenge, and the power dynamics/imbalances between Hannigram not always being extremely comparable to Lawlight and such.

As for others, sometimes when I was reading Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky the interactions between Raskolnikov and the police officer Porfiry Petrovitch reminded me a bit of L and Light (Porfiry is good at being fake friendly and nonchalant at times and driving Raskolnikov a bit crazy with dread and paranoia while being secretly immensely tuned into his psychological state and knowing more than he's letting on as well). I distinctly remember some part of the book where they interacted made me lol while being on the edge of my seat at the same time, much in the same way Lawlight often does? And the way Crime and Punishment focuses so intently on Raskolnikov's mental state and guilt and isolation from everyone else due to becoming a murderer is definitely reminiscent of Death Note. But that story does not really hinge around that relationship very much in comparison to how much Death Note hinges around the Lawlight one.

Other than that nothing else is really coming to mind right now, but it's such a great tense and restrained interesting dynamic to me that it would definitely be fun to come across something else like it again.

Oh! I actually also just thought of another one: the movie Rope by Alfred Hitchcock. It's intentionally homoerotic and full of suspenseful and dark-humoured innuendo, and it features an arrogant young guy committing a murder basically to impress his professor; he then throws a dinner party where he's hidden the body and murder weapon in plain sight to prove he can get away with it / show off to this professor he admires. Definitely has a few Death Note vibes at times, and a big recommend from me!

[bella-n0va]

Exactly bruh 😭❤️!! L and Light are meant to be together, even if you may not ship them, L and Light are written to be two sides of the same coin. I like to think of their relationship as a pair of shoes. Sure one by itself is alright and could still work and in theory still function but it's not the same. The two have to be together in order to work and thrive. Take one of them out and it makes one feel off balance, like something is missing. Generally don't like the saying that being with someone completes you since like you should be your own person and all but I think in Lawlight's case they do have to be together to complete the other and feel like somebody. Because before Light had even met L, Light felt very isolated. Sure he had the love of his family and the camaraderie of friends but it was all pretty meaningless to Light. I definitely feel what Light craved was that intellectual stimulation, that challenge, that somebody to understand him, see him. With L he was able to find that missing link, to really come into his own.

And that's what makes Lawlight beautiful y'all lmaoo

even if L successfully solved the kira case and had Light executed, lets be real, he wouldn’t last that long. For the sheer fact that nothing would ever be an interesting as Light Yagami ever again. Even in s platonic angle, L is a detective first and foremost because it cures his boredom- once he’s had a taste of something that un-boring, do you really think he could go back to the same old cases? Even the most interesting of secret plots could never compare to Kira, to Light. He would spend the rest of his energy searching for someone on his level again, someone to make things interesting- always to no avail. He couldn’t go on after the Kira case.

[captainhysunstuff]

Light contrasts with his boyfriend a little. Trying to figure out how I wanna draw L's jacket. Also them being silly~.

It’s got a label but there’s really nothing crazy here. *shrug*

[hello-nichya-here]

Imo Light can't be called a hero, in fact in the end he was getting so fixated with the idea of becoming the god of the new perfect world that he wanted every human on Earth to agree with, to the point where he started killing innocent people and was almost ready to kill his family. Manga Light could definitely be counted as a villain, anime Light at least reflected on his actions, maybe even regretted picking up the death note before his death. Seriously Light with his memories erased and the Kira!Light are like two different people...

But at the same time I'm so sick of people deifying L, saying that he's a "hero" with always good intentions. Like, L's goal was to catch Kira, to beat him in a game because he was bored. I'm not even sure that L really cared about Kira's true intentions. And to win the game, he also did selfish things that affected other people. If L was heroic, he would have solved more crime cases to benefit humanity, not just those that he was solely interested in. This quote describes the truth the best:

"Kira is childish and hates losing. I'm also childish and hate losing." - L Lawlight

And yet these two have the audacity to call themselves justice. What do you think about this?

I mean, that IS the point. Light and L are two sides of the same coin. Both characters:

1 - Show a disconnect from the rest of the world (Light has really shallow, basically performatic relationships with others, L has isolated him almost completely).

2 - Show little to no real care, respect, or affection to other people, with some exceptions (his sister and father for Light, Watari and Naomi for L).

3 - Are absolutely brilliant, and that contributes to their isolation (both because they can't relate to others AND because they see themselves as superior).

4 - Are VERY obsessive.

5 - Found something that allows them to get away with basically anything (L had money and influence, Light had his reputation and the death note, both had the fact that their crimes couldn't be connected to them).

6 - Did a few good things for completely wrong reasons (Light killed some truly awful people who would have hurted others if he had not killed them, L tried to capture a literal serial killer with a God complex).

7 - Did HORRIBLE things to try assuring their own victory.

These two are pretty much one in the same, that's why they got so fixated on each other. All the times they made the same monologue at the same time in different places were deliberate attempts at showing that the only thing that makes them different is circumstance.

Now, regarding regret and Light being a "completely" different person without his memories, we need to keep in mind that:

1 - The death note did NOT create Light's bad traits, it only intensified them AND gave him the means to get away with almost anything.

2 - Light was possessed by a "demon" (Shinigami) and that messed with his sanity. Like I said, it didn't change him COMPLETELY, but it did make him worse, and we don't know how things would have played out if he had the death note, but wasn't possessed.

3 - Both in the manga and in the anime, Light demonstrated some kind of regret/guilt. In the manga it is shown that he struggled to come to terms with what he had done once he started killing people, while in the anime he had that moment when he was moments away from being killed.

4 - L "joined" humanity when he accepted the fact that he was going to die. Light (in the manga) kept trying to separate himself from it by convincing himself that death would not be the end for him/that he was beyond being killed like a mere human, despite overwhelming evidence to the contrary. He was STILL forced to join the rest of humanity, and to truly become one in the same with his rival because, in Ryuk's own words, DEATH IS EQUAL.

Fans might love to misinterpret the "I am justice" speech as making it about either Light or L being correct, or even about them being the "two extremes of justice" as I've seen people claim once or twice, but the real point of the story is in the name DEATH Note. Death makes everyone the same. It just so happened that Light and L were the same while they were alive too.

If you want to read me ramble about Light and why death was the ultimate fuck you to him, click the post bellow:

https://hello-nichya-here.tumblr.com/post/664420189770743808/why-was-light-yagami-wrong