#is this the autism?

[vroomvroomwee]

Does anyone else feel lonesome?

Not lonely. Not alone. Just... lonesome. Like you don't feel connected to anyone. Like you never feel that you will find anyone that understands you, that will see you truly, let alone someone who will even like you. You see friends everywhere, but you don't see yourself in their place, like that is not for you, like you're not made for that and that's not made for you. You see people having fun and laughing and dancing and getting drunk and falling in love and you just... don't feel that for yourself. Like you're not supposed to have that, like you can't because it's not for you and you're not for it.

Like you're supposed to be seeing all these beautiful things in the world but not experience them yourself. Like you want to experience so much, experience everything, but be overwhelmed by it so you don't do any of it.

Like you want to be everywhere and do everything, but you don't belong anywhere and can't do anything. Like you're not supposed to be here. Not in a self-deprecating way but in an incongruous way. You want to live you want to be alive, but you feel you're not supposed to be. Not here at least, not like this. Just a presence in the world, not an active member of it. Even your body doesn't feel like home, your face isn't a face you recognise, like you're not supposed to have either. Like you're just supposed to be.

Like you're supposed to observe, but not experience.

[taterthepotato]

OKAY NEURODIVERGENT SIDE OF TUMBLR. IS IT JUST ME OR IS BEING ABLE TO FEEL THE AMOUNT OF GREASE ON MY FRIES A THING?! like i can feel the grease in my soul. Like it makes my skin feel icky and it wasn't even touching my skin. I can feel the grease. Id this normal???? SAME WITH MOST CHIPS! belgh.

[aqu-a-zul]

Doea anyone else taste what they pull out from their teeth when flossing? Or am I just disgusting?

Also.....it's not meant to bleed rjgjt? Am I doing the flossing thing wrong?

[dappersautismcreature]

like of course bad's gonna say vegas was better?? they were both cool,, literally shut up imma kill ,, i dont get the joke

[imaginarylungfish]

god sometimes i feel in love with my favorite anime/tv character. like just very innocently in love. nothing sexual. and usually unconditionally. like the mangaka/writer was so good at fleshing out and developing this character that they seem like a real human. you understand them. you know how they would act. part of them lives in your mind. like forever. but they're not real. UGGHHH

[chavisory]

[suffering-and-misery]

adhd executive dysfunction sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

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[small-bambi]

Harrison Wood Hsiang

[chessb0r3d]

What I mean when I do not control the hyperfixation.

[taka-again]

Autism Speaks Canada is "concluding its operations" on January 31st 2025!

[fourofdaggers]

Feelings tonight

[bipolarmango]

My doctor and therapist: now with this autism + ADHD diagnosis you need to learn to unmask because masking all the time will make you burn out again and feel like shit

Other people: well it's just interesting how after getting the diagnosis you suddenly start behaving like that I mean I'm not saying you're faking it's just funny how you suddenly cannot be normal like you were before

[carrionhearted]

Sorry for infodumping about my special interest out of nowhere, you said a keyword and it activated my unskippable dialogue

[macdenlover]

it came to my realization that 99% of my fandom related headaches would be cured if everyone understood this

[2003-playground]

Can we stop using "still lives with their parents" or "unemployed" or "doesn't have a drivers license" or "didn't graduate high school" as an insult or evidence that someone is a bad person? Struggling with independence or meeting milestones is not a moral failing.