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deva-arts · 2 years ago

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Making a model is fun and nice but I've jumpscared myself so many times with my creation.

Is this how Viktor Frankenstein felt, gazing at the horrors of his own making?

#Is this how God feels sometimes #devarambles #posts i'll save in my drafts for a bit just in case they only seem funny at the time I write it #Never post things too late. Sleepy-you should be given the amount of clearance one gives to a milk-drunk toddler.#Same applies for Amazon purchases

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variksel · 2 years ago

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i hate you ai art i hate you "unalive" i hate you youtube premium i hate you twitter 8$ checkmark i hate you nfts i hate you therapy app advertisements i hate you non-chronological timelines i hate you instagram reels i hate you subtle tiktok filters that cant be turned off i hate you family bloggers i hate you ads on true crime episodes i hate you facebook i hate you vr glasses on chickens i hate you dystopian social media

#sorry but genuinely sometimes i feel like we live in a fucking dystopia #i get ads of chat bots designed to look like cute girls who will listen to your problems and it. god #its so unbelievably strange in some indescribable way #how am i supposed to explain that the word unalive makes me want to tear my hair out #vent #rant #idk

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titlishu · 11 months ago

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my only wish in life is to be a fictional character

#its kinda insane but like. i already dont feel real. like i havent felt real since a long time and LISTEN #if i was a fictional character. it would make so much sense. ykwim.#like im not Sad im nust. not anything atp. im nothing BUT if i was a fictional character. it would make so much sense #also like??? imagine being percieved by people you have never met. imagine being written. imagine art being made of you.#like nit just the ego boost but ive been thinking about how like. if these characters were real it would defest the whole purpose of them #and all of this love we have for them will always be unknown to them #but like the thought of wanting to be a fictional character in someones story is so. like i #deep DEEP yearning to be a character. just not real. im not even kidding the whole of december and now january this is all #ive wanted #like at first i was like. i dont feel real then it pipelined to i wish i wasnt real to i wish i was a fictional character who's story has #been written already. ykwim?#i may sound crazy rn but i dont CARE i had to get this out #like im sick of being. an author and not the character. im sick of being the creator and not the creation. yk?#is this how god feels sometimes #man...#i also have Noticed that sometimes i talk about human beings as if I'm not one #like i think abiut how interesting humans are and i say it like im an alien that has just made contact w earth #LIKE most times i feel like im not real and it really is like. what the fuck. where am i supposed to be then. yk?#like i dont feel. misplaced but i also dont have a place here. i dont belong anywhere tbh #like. an unwritten future. author unknown. a letter without an address or purpose #this is so. like i dont know how else to say it and get it out there but i just had to cause i #cant just keep Thinking About it by myself ik noones gonna read this but atleast #like if its. written or typed out then it would be more real. more of a record of this. even though my existence (or lack thereof) is #already proif enough #sigh #titli tag #ishworry

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otiksimr · 3 months ago

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Some Yveltal sketches (curated from my main blog, there's some lore in the tags if you're interested.)

#Feel like my pokemon followers here would enjoy some good eats.#Yveltal are very dedicated parents. They sometimes care for the chicks even long after they've fledged.#But they have some god awful sight and don't have the best of scent receptors.#Adult Yveltal don't eat in the traditional sense. They don't need to hunt or scavenge. They passively consume the life force of the well. L #So over time those senses have just degraded.#Which leads them very vulnerable to brood parasitism.#A pokemon whose chick is black and red can easily be passed off as a Yveltal chick.#Due to this their population is horrifically low.#Legendary as they are. They aren't that well off considering how things are going.#my art #pokemon #Yveltal #Pokémon but worse!#Pkmn #Pkmn fanart #pokemon fanart #pokemon art #pokemon XY #pokemon yveltal #all the tags buster.

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months ago

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Have you seen my little lad?

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jin zixun #Everytime I have to write his name I feel like I'm running outside in a blood rain trying not to get wet. Misspelling it feels so inevitabl #But so far so good! He doesn't have too many more appearances before he gets Cheesed.#Dear god I love it when characters go on the war path for someone they care about.#And I love it even more when you have an ambiguity between personal debt and genuine act of selflessness.#WWX saving WN is purposefully messy! Like a lot of our real life reasons for how we act - there isn't a clear single cause or answer.#Sometimes we forget that we are a collection of experiences and learnt reactions.#Sometimes we forget that what we see on the surface is not the point to address. Everyone is more complex than we think. Even yourself.#And yet...it always comes back to love doesn't it? Attachment styles and self-esteem and bonds and relationships to others.#Everything comes back to love and our perceptions of it.#WWX is on a self-destructive war path and he will absorb as much damage as he can for those he feels obligated and attached to.#Does it make him feel needed? Does it give him purpose? Does it ease anxieties of the past? I do not think there is an answer.

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time-woods · 1 year ago

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later:

teach your local invasive species what emotions are !

i feel like scarab is more into the main plotline of the medieval drama but prismo on the side writes these oneshots between the characters and theyre usually just exploring the characters emotions/ personalities in a free form way. anyways kiss ur local invasive species at dusk

#how tf do you explain what other emotions are to a bug thats only ever known 2 #prohibitedwish #this isnt inherently romantic #just trying to show them what hes feeling is different #being this close to someone in a non combative sense ? never heard of it #emotions are difficult n sometimes those wires get crossed #ouuugh the closeness of another person #prismo the wishmaster #scarab the god auditor #the carmine cavalier #sīdus the fallen star #adventure time au #fionna and cake #adventure time

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yuri-for-businesswomen · 1 year ago

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#how im feeling. i know thats why its important to focus on small changes you can make but god.#its so overwhelming sometimes #not a day has gone by since i exited prostitution where i didnt think of the millions of vulnerable people still in it #mine

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xpupslxtx · 2 months ago

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transgender pup play sex is the best thing humans have invented and it is such a shame there are bigots and conservatives out there who will never experience this

#like fr tho i feel bad sometimes #like god how do you live so blandly #it is so much fun over here girl get it together #go put on some ears and a tail and suck a girl off #maybe you’ll calm down #mine #ftm bottom #ftm ns/fw #ftm nsft #ftm puppy #ftm sub #ftm t4t #t4t kink #t4t nsft #t4t sub

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doodledrawsthings · 8 days ago

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dude it literally means so much to see you drawing seb art and using the ref me and zerum made, i’ve been a huge, huge fan of yours for a long time and the AHIT aus you did still mean so much to me!!! I sometimes come back here and read through them now and then LOL

please continue the seb brainrot it’s literally amazing and we love to see it

#this is crazy thank you so so genuinely #im just here to have fun and play with him like a barbie doll #its crazy to hear that some of yall have been following me for that long #great job on the game congrats on him being this year's hit tumblr sexyman i find him very entertaining and silly #sorry for what im gonna do to him (im gonna blend him in the blender)#perhaps nature IS healing #god it really warms my heart to know people think so fondly of those old aus #sometimes i feel a little self conscious about how hard i lock in during a hyperfixation #but it makes so happy that other people still enjoy them after all this time #play 9 sols

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doomedclockworkdotmp3 · 2 months ago

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heeyyy gaaanggg

the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.

#my art #digital art #digital painting #fanart #resident evil 7 #ethan winters #goddd PLEAAASEEEE #i havent known if i was gonna post this or not multiple times in the process of drawin this. but ultimately i spent too much time on it to #NOT post it. embarrassment be damned #but at the same time what am i even doin yknow. what is this what is goin on pleaaseee PLEASEEEEE #I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT RESIDENT EVIL!!! I DONT KNOW N O T H I NG I KNOW LESS THAN NOTHING #HOW?? HOW DID I GET HERE??? WHY DID THIS HAPPEN???? i know exactly the answer to all those questions but it still boggles me how fast this #happened. usually it takes WEEKS if not MONTHS for me to start makin fanart. this was faaasttttt TOO FAST and im like. genuinely constantly #thinkin about this game. im ALWAYS thinkin about this game. part of why this took me so long to do is cause i always wanna play re7 or thin #about re7 in a strange and deranged way. ive actually genuinely been SICK WHAT HAPPENEDDDDDD #im losing it!! anyways this took me a looonggg ass time and i redrew it soo many timmmessss #i did like. 3 lineart passes. the album version i did 3 shading passes. i really struggled!! and ultimately i dont know how i feel about it #like i kinda resent it. for takin so long and makin me suffer so much #never again. never again will i spend that much time on a drawing. i HATE when drawins take a long time. i HATE that. it makes me madddd #ive been insane. ive been so insane. and im not gettin better like i cant sleep sometimes cause im thinkin about this game and this guy and #that gal like i think about them!! so! so much!! oh my god!!#in the time it took me to finish this ive done like 10 sketches for other pieces like. and ive had like 3 ideas ive written down.#and like 50 that i havent written or sketched.#IVE WRITTEN POETRY!! P O E T R Y !!!#i write the occasional poem when im feelin some kinda profound emotion but i NEVER write poetry about media SOBBING #anyways thats the post i think this is the beginnin of the end so lets hold hands and pray. ugh sorry if i get sick. im shakin.

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moongothic · 4 months ago

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Madoka is the promise you won't turn from a child, full of hopes and dreams and the wish to save the world, into a bitter adult who just wants to hurt others and ruin people's lives

Madoka promised to be there for you to remind you of the person you wanted to be and to stop you from becoming what you sought to destroy

Madoka made that promise and became the very embodiment of it

#Moon posting #Feeling emotional about Madoka Magica all out of the blue and I'm making it your problem #IDK I saw a video in my YT reccs ranking Doremi toys and I really enjoyed it (sadly can't remember who it was)#So I went to check what other content the person had made and they had recently-ish done a blind reaction to Madoka #Didn't watch the whole thing just The Good Shit at like double speed (it was completely uncut and I wasn't in the mood for a full rewatch)#And god. The way the fucking ending to this series still makes me fucking sob like a baby EVEN WHEN WATCHING AT DOUBLE SPEED #I dunno what to tell you I really like that series. Like I just do. Madoka is Good Actually #IDK I feel like everyone has a lot of Opinions about the series and all I can say is that y'all are wrong and don't understand it #MADOKA ISN'T ABOUT BEING EDGY GRIMDARK TORTURE PORN!!! IT'S ABOUT HOPE!! AND DREAMS!! AND NOT GIVING UP!!#Y'all remember that post about how sometimes if you need to imagine Naruto encouraging you to help you get out of bed and brush your teeth #Then you imagine that dattebayo #And that is literally what Madoka is.#Except instead of self-care Madoka is there to stop you from being a toxic little dickweed and be nice to others #Sometimes you need to stop and ask: Would Madoka do that? Would Madoka say that? Would she be proud of me right now?#Don't ask me why I'm posting this it is 5 am I should be in bed man

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cerealmonster15 · 5 months ago

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i want jamiazu + idikei to go on a double date so badly i think the vibes would be So Very Turbulent

#twisted wonderland #twst #jamiazu #idikei #idicay #cereal tries to draw #i love any fanart of board game club and their bitch ass crushes jdslhffkjg teeheehee #cater and jamil can get along fine but board game club is incapable of behaving #they have to drop everything to bully the shit out of each other given the chance!!!#jamil does this with azul also. tbh i think it would be a war immediately and caters like HaHa Oh My GOd. ??!!?#cater actually it's hard to say bc sometimes hes like HUH!!!! CHILL OUT!! but other times hes a shady little freak of a guy and enables #things so like whose to say. maybe if hes in a silly mood he would join idia and jamil and it would be 3v1 rip azul it was nice knowing u #the rng of if they get peacekeeping caycay or mischievous caycay #it feels like it has been a While since ive really sat and drawn them...#i have had a lot going on <///3 and then all draw time is spent on art fight rn but. small break For Them #do u even understand me. do u see my vision. i want to put all four of them in an escape room #bundle them together and observe them under a microscope #god i just LOVE how any time someone in twst talks about another character it's always either like #yes this is a good respectable classmate of mine who i admire. or I HATE THAT BITCH HE FUCKING SUCKS ASS ACTUALLY!!!!#and then the haters are like best friends who hang out always jfdksljflkshg #but theyd rather DIE than ADMIT IT!!!#bitch boys who only respect each other when they dont know each other too well ig fjldksfh #board game club being god tier haters nonstop of each other is so fucking funny im literally obsessed with whatever they have going on #anyway!!! I WANT THEM TO HANG OUT MORE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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critical-rolewithit · 4 months ago

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#feels good to have a representation of how i am watching critical role sometimes #i am just so bad at names and complex lore i forget so much i do fear #anyway literal perfect seating choice no!!!!! notes!!!! god i love them #robbie stay forever #critical role #critical role memes #bells hells #robbie daymond #sam reigel

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ratatatastic · 24 days ago

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cats: in bath robes

the nhl: well i guess we have to put provactive "lively" music over it

2024 nhl global series finland game 1 | 11.1.24 (x)

#niko mikkola #eetu luostarinen #nate schmidt #matthew tkachuk #anton lundell #gustav forsling #aaron ekblad #carter verhaeghe #sam reinhart #aleksander barkov #mackie samoskevich #florida panthers #2425 #swaggy shirtless jumpscare?#sometimes i do forget he opened up the robe as he walked into the hall and i got duly reminded of it (i screamed)#the music choice...#i feel like im waiting for my coffee order in a mundane coffeeshop and notice the stairs leading down into the basement level.#the entrance is cover by a beaded curtain and im curious about the muffled music.#i pull back the beaded curtain and the muffled music is brassy. theres a stage.#and oh my god i just walked into a speakeasy racy burlesque show and the girls on stage just- oh jesus christ oh fuck oh fuck #and i skedaddle back up the stairs like hell is nipping at my heels AND I HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE #does that make sense #alternatively you know that suite life on deck episode its exactly like how that cabaret episode made me feel #IM SORRY THE MUSIC CHOICE WHAT 😭😭😭😭#ENDING WITH SWAGGY IS DEVIOUS #STARTING WITH MIKKSY IS EVEN WORSE #IM JUST A POOR PATHETIC THING PLEASE DONT DO THIS TO MEEEE

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gayspock · 2 years ago

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i love it when a tv show has lows that are so low you're so ashamed to ever show it to anyone ever but then highs that melt your brain a bit, like, "good fucking god, this is genuinely such an astounding piece of craftmanship... my perception of the medium, and perhaps of myself, has been challenged/changed in 40 minutes" but you cant even express that to ppl without feeling like youre fucking deranged bc my god the lows .....

#Egg.txt #sorry i saw gar watched Hush recently and like #my god thats such a good episode of television . like sincerely fucking solid. like damn man.#and theres other eps of buffy i'd rank among that i.e a certain s5 episode that just still gives me chills to think about #but this also goes for trek + doctor who + farscape + and any and every lame little campy show out there #that just needs to fuck your head wide open sometimes #maybe that why i have enjoyed bsg but i havent like fucking Melded with it yet because its highs and its lows are both there but it doesnt #ever touch the extremes of either #i need something so so bad and so so good at once that makes mefeel like im insane #god i might go rewatch some tos soon #but yeah ok abt bsg maybe its alsojust #laccking a sincerity to it sometimes #and not just in how its a darker/grittier #but just in general i feel like .........hm. idk..#let me ponder

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casualavocados · 1 month ago

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You said you would always look at me.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 9

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #nat chen #chen bowen #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #userspring #uservid #pdribs #userrain #userjjessi #userspicy #*cajedit #*gif #im fine i say (im a puddle on the floor) sometimes u gotta gif something already giffed to color it your way...& for all the little details #the deep relaxed breath chen yi takes in the first gif Before he recgonizes ai di...yet is still soaking up the sight of him...#vs the third gif where chen yi pulls back just the tiniest increment to get a better glimpse like...wait...ai di.#and the fourth where his eyes flick over ai di's face like... oh. *ai di.* EVERY MINUTE SHIFT IN HIS GAZE MEANS SOOOO MUCH #and ai di too the way he cant meet chen yi's eyes & the tear falling like theres something so poignant abt chen yi having this realization #and ai di not seeing it. but he's still stroking chen yi's arm? the heartbreak in that. the love in that. & then ofc chen yi reaching up #to meet ai di where he is before bringing him back down to him....his eyes opening a fraction when he feels another tear. checking in...#telling him its okay with his kisses. chen yi's hand sliding around ai di's chest to the back of his neck instead. ai di's fingers brushing #chen yi's neck as his tear slides down chen yi's face...how we dont SEE their hands clasp but we see the way they move to make it happen.#we watch as it becomes more and more mutual.... and finally the thing that makes me the most insane:#ai di's tear sliding down chen yi's nose & back to his own face in the last gif. i cant even. talk about that. just... GOD.

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