#is it just me or anyone else feel like theyre running out of time lately?

[xiaojaan]

its 25 degrees at the end of october if i take a deep breath my lungs feel heavy my eyes have been itching from the pollution even inside my house people are firing crackers non stop and nobody can do anything about it because nothing happens in india without fighting over religion first. you can barely fucking breath in delhi ncr but sure lets compare diwali and eid sure lets figure which is more harmful cutting meat or firing crackers

[neteyamkink]

cold neteyam meeting the clan’s sweetheart and having a soft spot for her but tries not to be obvi with it (everyone can lowkey tell though through the little gestures he does) that ends in smut when theyre alone and he wants to corrupt her innocence and reputation👀👀

OMG I LOVE THIS IDEA SO MUCHHHH THANK YOU FOR REQUESTING!! sorry this took me so long i’m so slow 😭

paring: aged up!neteyam x metkayina reader

warnings: mean neteyam :( (he’s in love though), my first time writing smut in veryyyy long >.<, degrading, use of “slut”, “princess”, “sweetheart, lil corruption kink?, swearing ofc, disgusting smut idfk

At first, you thought it was the new environment making him so distant and rude. Eventually, you started to think it might've been just you, he had no problem talking with anyone else in the clan. Just you. Little did you know the reasoning behind that was that he was in deep denial about his feelings towards you. He hated the way you made him feel so vulnerable and helpless. So he had to hate you, right?

You'd try to reach out to him and try to start a conversation, but he would always turn you down with a, "I'm busy," or, "leave me alone." You couldn't lie it kind of hurt your feelings. everyone loved you, how could he not?

One afternoon most of the young adults and teenagers were hanging around a fire, the sullys and all of your friends included. You sat there crushing up herbs to make spices and listening in on the conversation everyone was having.

"Y/n stop being so quiet," Kumi spoke, you didn't like Kumi very much only because he was a part of ao'nung’s little bully crew.

"I'm busy, I'm listening though," You smiled still trying to be nice to him even though you really just wanted to tell him to fuck off. What can you say though? You were minding your business obviously focused on something else.

"Oh come on since when were you anti-social," Kumi laughs, now he has interrupted the group's conversation and everyone's attention was on you two.

"I'm not, sorry I'll chime in," you quickly said realizing this whole thing was interrupting the group. You hated yourself for apologizing for being busy, but you didn't want to disturb the group and make a big deal out of the whole situation.

"Why are you making her apologize? She's obviously busy dumb ass," Neteyam suddenly chimed in. Your eyes shot up to him, but he was already looking at you. He scrunched up his face and looked away crossing his arms.

"oh no it's okay, neteyam," you scrambled to find the correct words and suddenly your heart was running miles a minute.

"Whatever," he scoffed not bothering to look in your direction. Suddenly your heart felt like it was dropping into your stomach and the frown that was on your face was inescapable.

Later in the day after the fire, you decided you would figure this out. No one is allowed to not like you. Neteyam usually would go into the trees to practice archery late after dinner. Even though he had to learn the ways of these new people he was determined to not forget the ways of his own. How did you know this? Kiri is your new best friend.

Determined to befriend the forest boy you set out into the forest to find him, and of course, he was exactly where Kiri said he would be. You decided to sit back and watch before going up to him. He set up a practice station with a bunch of fruits hanging from trees. You watched him draw back his bow and arrow, His back and arm muscles flexed and his blue skin looked so glossy and smooth under the moonlight. fuck y/n, focus. He released his arrow and it went straight through the fruit and into the tree behind it.

"Impressive," you spoke up slowly walking out of the tree and bushes you were behind. His head snapped in your direction and once he saw who it was he rolled his eyes and took a breath.

"I didn't mean to scare you," you smiled sweetly, attempting to use the charm that had worked on others on him.

"You didn't," he scoffs grabbing an arrow from the group and pulling it through his bow. You thought archery was so cool... and he looked so hot doing it. focus, y/n.

"what are you doing here? how did you find me?" he asks releasing his arrow and landing it perfectly in the middle of the fruit. damn, he's good.

"I came to talk to you about something. Kiri told me where you might be," You spoke stepping a little closer towards him. He didn't look away from his targets.

"I hope you know earlier today was not me defending you. I just don't like kumi," though his tone was even and calm his words were harsh and hurtful. Does he really not like you that much?

"Why are you so mean to me?" You randomly blurted out with a pout formed on your face. Your mouth moved before you could think about what was coming out of it and as soon as the words came out you wanted to shove them right back in. You usually were never this straightforward or harsh with anyone. He turned to you and quirked his brow like he was shocked.

shit was he being too harsh? he thought. He just couldn't stand the way you made him feel. The way the innocent look in your eyes made his insides all tingly. The way that one look made him want to get on top of you and ruin those innocent eyes. fuck those eyes that you're giving him right now. Why do you have to torture him like this?

"Am I really?" he said dropping his bow and taking steps closer and closer toward you. Suddenly your throat was dry and you swallowed the lump in your throat. You took steps back as he got closer, too scared of what you might do if he got any closer. Too scared of what those yellow eyes burning through you might do to you.

"mhm," you hummed, heart racing as if you had just run to the moon and back.

"I can show you mean," he smirked. a gasp left your mouth when your back suddenly bumped into the bark of a tree, he had you cornered. And fuck you don't know what he meant by that but whatever he did you wanted it so badly. He looked as if he was going to eat you alive and my eywa you were begging he would.

"teyam..." you stuttered, putting your hands up to rest on his chest. "Teyam, please," you wrapped your arms around his neck. You were practically begging him to ruin you. your eyes looked up at him through your eyelashes, bottom lip slightly jutted out in a pout. Fuck you drove him crazy.

"Say it," the smirk plastered on his lips makes your knees grow weak and you almost buckle over.

You can speak so you just push his neck down and smash your lips onto his. He wastes no time responding and kissing back. His sweet lips were rough against yours and the only thing you both could think about is why you didn't do this sooner. Everyone saw the tension between you two except for you. In the back of your mind, you knew you had been waiting for this moment.

"jump," he mumbles against your lips. You're quick to follow his instructions and jump, his strong arms catch you his hands have a firm grip cupping your ass. The tree you are pushed up against rubs against your porcelain skin.

"All you do is act so sweet and innocent around the others. I know what you really are," he speaks in between sloppy kisses. His words go straight to your brain and suddenly your head is all fuzzy and wonky. He moves from Your lips down to your neck, and your neck down to your collar bone, and your collar bone down to a little above your breast. then he repeats kissing, sucking, licking.

Your hands tangled in the back of his hair, and his braids felt rough in your hands. Your lips parted slightly to make way for the small hums and moans falling from them.

"need you right now, mk?" neteyam backs away from your neck to speak. you nod without hesitation, fuck you are so ready. The pool between your legs had been forming ever since he backed you into the tree.

"use your words, princess," The nickname darted straight to your pussy.

"yes, I need you," you spoke trying to pull him closer to you. He let out a low groan and reached one hand down to your loincloth, His big hand dragging across your wet slit.

"fuck," you gasped and bit your lip.

"All this for me?" he questions his lips curving into the stupidest grin. You simply nodded and tugged his hair tighter. He circled his finger around your clit a couple of times, making sure to get you nice and wet. small moans escaped from your mouth as you pawed at his loin cloth ready for more. You could feel him painfully hard against your palm.

“need you teyam,” you choked out, practically begging him to fuck you. He stopped his movements around your clit and looked you in the eyes. He was ready too. You looked up at him and batted your eyes, your eyes begged him for something- no… anything more.

“fuck, okay,” he quickly gave in undoing the knot of his loincloth with his free hand and letting it drop to his feet. He grabs his cock and lines it up with your entrance rubbing it up and down your slit. His hands practically shook with excitement.

“you sure?” he asks pausing before he goes any further. Without hesitation, you aggressively nod your head.

“words, ma ‘evenge (my girl),” the nickname drove you crazy causing the pool between your legs to get bigger and bigger.

“yes, teyam please,” you pleaded hands gripping the hair on his neck tighter. Immediately he was bullying his cock through your walls. When he entered you, you both gasped out of pleasure. The feeling of you being filled up makes your head go spinning, and the feeling of your warm walls around Neteyam makes him dizzy.

“oh, my eywa,” you whimper as he slowly pulls out and quickly snaps his hips back into yours. Your head swings back into the tree behind you and he uses both of his hands to cup for ass to support you. Back aching from being forced onto the rough bark behind you.

“Fuck baby,” he groans increasing his pace with every thrust. His nails dug into the plush of your ass and he couldn’t help but bury his head in the crook of your neck. Kissing, sucking, licking, and sometimes sinking his sharp fangs into your collarbone.

“You feel so good,” you whine bucking your hips up at him to meet him halfway, your body was begging for more.

“I need more,” you pleaded pushing his neck closer to you and shoving his body against yours, leaving sloppy kisses all over his shoulder. You needed to be closer to him, you needed to feel every movement he made, hear every breath he took, and kiss every inch you could.

“I know you want it so bad, huh baby?” his voice sounds sympathetic but he’s just being a meanie. His thrusts grow faster and faster, harder and harder. Your eyes roll into the back of your head due to the amount of pure bliss you were in.

“Fuck I been waiting to fuck you for so long. Ruin that pretty little innocent act you put on,” he practically growls into your neck. Your nails dig into his back.

“Please ruin me,” You begged, he scoffed at how needy and pathetic you were for him. He knew you weren’t as innocent as everyone made you out to be, so he was gonna fuck you like you weren’t.

“You’re all mine now,” he smirks against your collarbone as he sucked and bit marking you up so everyone would know he was yours and you were his.

“Say it ma ‘evenge,” he demanded.

“‘m all yours teytey,” you choked out through your moans. The knot in your stomach was growing tighter by the second and any second now you would cum.

“Please can I cum tey?” you begged, scratching up his back and marking him in your own way.

“Admit it, admit you’re a fucking slut,” His stern voice pulsated throughout your whole body sending shivers down your spine.

“I’m a slut,” you manage to choke out through your pants. His thrusts are becoming sloppy but his pace is still quick. You know he’s close.

“who’s slut are you?” He questions biting into your neck, his fangs so deep they feel like they’re going to draw blood.

“yours, teyam. All yours,” you breathe, his breaths quicken with yours and he throws his head back unable to take the pleasure anymore. You have to cum before him.

“cum, princess,” As soon as the word leaves his mouth, your a mess crumbling underneath him. Pleasure takes over your body and causes your head to throw back and your back to arch off the tree. The way your walls tighten around him sent him over. His thrusts became sloppy as his white ropes shot into you.

“I know, baby. I know,” He shushed you as you both came down from your high caressing your face with one of his hands and holding you up with the other.

“everyone’s gonna know you’re mine,” he smirked admiring the attacks he left on your neck.

[veevei]

DAWN IN THE ADAN

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ch 41: herro?

timeskip to tomorrow becus im lazy (again…)

should she drive or walk? shes already running late she should probably drive. maybe she could get a seat next to her real friends this time.

should she get a book? the cafe is connected to a library so maybe she should bring some extra money. $20 for food $20 for a book, what book should she get?

its a relatively short drive to get there. stepping out of the car she feels a rush of cool air. maybe she shouldve worn something warmer, she keeps underestimating how cold it would be.

when she gets into the cafe, she doesnt see anyone. maybe everyone else is running late also?

she strolls in the aisles of books looking for something that would catch her eye. megumis here, is yuji and nobara here also?

maybe hes just a stalker or something. this is like the second time shes seen him while in a cafe.

she’ll wait until he says something first. maybe theyre waiting in the cafe now?

she goes to check— quite fast, she doesnt want nobara taking her seat— if theyre here yet

no.

why is megumi here but not yuji and nobara?

fine. she’ll text them.

not proof read

its in the tags or something sooo

manifesting colder weather (its 70 f.)

my birthdays soon guys!!!!

i have an idea next chapter.

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[ottosbigtop]

if you have any crumbs to share... about aac raz/lili/bobby dynamic pleeeez ramble to me i want info i'm so into this concept T_T

oh my guy I have so many crumbs for you. These guys have resided in the back of my brain forever but I was usually too embarrassed to say anything about it outside of a couple joke posts. But this is my house so I’m choosing to thrive and frolic.

Also a doodle of the aforementioned three before I enter my tangent :) rambling under the cut

the initial dynamic of these three goes something like

-Lili & Bobby - can’t stand his fake ass. She remembers having to deal with him at whispering rock and clearly is not very good at letting go of grudges from when she was ten. This is, in fact, Bobby’s worst nightmare. He was terrified of working for the psychonauts partially because he didn’t want to run into people he used to know. Surprise! They don’t like each other.

-Raz & Bobby. Raz has the complete opposite problem he literally barely remembers this guy. They interacted for maybe a collective hour one day when he was 10 years old, he only recalls him because Lili clocks him and reminds Raz. Bobby mostly hadn’t thought about him since camp, but did build a little (lot) bit of a resentment after seeing that weird little freak from camp pop up on different True Psychic Tales covers. That on top of Bobby now having to intern under this guy makes their relationship kind of spotty to start, for sure.

-Raz & Lili. Theyre having fun :) After having fun “dating” as real young kids they fall out of touch during their teen years when Raz goes to travel with then circus again to try and reconnect with his family (whole other can of worms for him.) They meet back up during the late teen years and sort of pick up right where they left off, dating off and on for a bit and “officially” dating long term for a little over a year now.

Both their relationships with Bobby evolve over time, naturally. Bobby and Raz have a whooole fucking thing that isn’t fully conceptualized and Is way too long a concept for me to share but their intern/mentor relationship does help them learn to get along with each other. And of course them getting along means Lili having to deal with being around Bobby more often and so it begins.

The whole ~ feelings ~ aspect mostly starts with her and Bobby I think, funnily enough. They hate each other, they want each other dead so bad, but eventually they have to learn to get along for Raz’s sake if nothing else. So they learn! Try to, at least. They’re both really bad at it.

but the “i hate you i want you dead” manages to evolve into that more friendly insulting banter some people have. “I hate you i want you dead” (complimentary.) It gives Raz a headache because it takes him a while to process that they’re usually joking when they’re arguing with each other now.

Lili doesn’t like when she starts to have Feelings about that shitty little freak (tm.) I think she’s somewhere on the Aro spectrum and when Raz wasn’t around she really never. Felt any sort of desire for romance with anyone else. Girl just kind of forgot about it for a bit until he showed up again. Which caused a lot of emotions. And then got used to that until Bobby is introduced into the equation and slowly she starts to feel things toward him that aren’t Rage and Disgust. Which causes a lot of emotions.

Raz I think is entirely oblivious of having any feelings toward him for the longest time. While Lili is a slow “oh god oh fuck” buildup, he’s just really happy he and Bobby are getting along at all that any sort of progress in affection toward him just feels like another big win for friendship. I think it hits him all at once late at night on a random Tuesday and he just sits up in bed and stares at a wall about it.

The whole Raz and Lili communicating abt the concept of polyamory would make this insane post already twice as long and it’s not a part of it all I’ve thought about anyways so we’re going to shelve it for now. But once they do reach the conclusion that they saw this guy from across the bar and they liked his vibe, they both proceed to trip over their own feet for the next however many weeks.

You see, “woman who does not process her emotions” and “guy who needs a twelve step plan for everything” is a prime combination for two people who are pulling some mad scientist shit to try and talk to this guy rather than just inviting him out to eat sometimes. And Bobby is convinced for a little bit that they’re planning to dissect his brain or something because they keep doing that ^

On Bobby’s side of this whole equation the evolution is just his own little torment nexus for a few months.

he initially discovers he’s got a thing for Lili after they start getting along more and it sucks for him. He enjoys their flirty little threats of violence but he’s also close with Raz at this point so I think it just kind of makes him feel . Gross . Like man am I flirting with my friend’s girlfriend I think I am. Oh he’s probably going to hate me. Help.

and that concern for Raz is also a guy in the back of his brain knocking on a door very loudly trying to tell him he’s bisexual but he’s not quite arrived at that conclusion. Give him a few more missions where Raz grabs him while he’s falling to his death and he’ll get there probably.

there’s so many words. These are so many words. I’ll be honest the wacky schenanigans of the “before relationship” era are so funny to me that I’ve not really had any conceptual ideas for them getting into + Being In a Relationship yet. But I hope that you like this at least! This insanely long ass post goes out to you and the one other guy who’s a fan of these three (hi)

[likeysoob]

HEART ATTACK — guided by angels…or not

TW: shooting/suicide mentioned down below

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I enter the classroom the same times other students were coming in too

At least im not late

I take a seat in the second row to the back and instantly feel bored

All of a sudden, some girl sits next to me

I look over to see who it is and woah

Shes very pretty…

…

Why is everyone pretty on this campus?!

I look like a fucking rat and then here comes these queens

Seulgi

Joohyun

And now this girl

As the professor finally comes into the room

I dont really pay attention

First day soo i bet there isnt gonna be much shit to do

“So whats your name?” The girl next to me ask

I turn to look at her, “um Y/N…whats yours?”

She smiled and said “Im Sooyoung! Just wanted to ask if we could be friends since i don’t recognize anyone else here”

Before i could answer she starts saying something else

“Um maybe i could be like…um��a guide? I see that your a new student here” Sooyoung finally finishes talking

A guide?

I think shes expecting a reply back but at the moment my face says it all…

It was performing arts right now and Sooyoung literally just ran to another girl and left me like what.

Whatever ig

i decided to post on twitter when they were testing the lights

When looking for where to sit, i hear someone call out my name

I turn and it was Sooyoung waving at me so i begin making my way over to her

“Hey! sorry i left you back there, i was just excited to see my friend..” She explains to me

“No worries” i tell her

The other friend looks at me and WOAH SHE TOO?

Why are there so many pretty girls…

Before the girl was about to say something, the professor announced for us to pay attention to the stage in front of us

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“I noticed youre really quiet” the girl (whos name is Yerim) said to me which caused to me to look up from my phone

“Oh um sorry..” y/n you sound stupid as fuck.

Yerim giggles “don’t apologize silly”

“I noticed that she seems like a very introverted person, so earlier i said that i will be her ‘guide’ for around the campus and to be more outgoing” Sooyoung spoke and Yerim gasps

“omg! Yes! Like…like..well be her guides! Hmmm boring title though..” Yerim thinks for a while

“We can be like her guardian angels! Protecting you from danger and teaching you to be more open!” She explains will doing hand motions

It makes me giggle which ends up being pointed out by Sooyoung

Suddenly a hand slams down at our table which startles all of us

Whos fucking gross hand just did that?? I look up and see some girl

“Hey…new person..girl, whatever” well clearly this person is talking to me

“You might want to watch out from these…weirdos, theyre-”

“cut the bullshit” Yerim shuts them up right away

“Who the fuck do you think you are hoe” then she starts going off on this poor person (not really poor, fuck them)

I see Sooyoung trying to shut Yerims mouth up but nothing works

“How about you fuck off and shoot yourself”

…

WHAT THE FUCK GIRL?

That alone makes everyone silent

Soon the “bully” (or whatever) runs off maybe crying or whatever

…

“Can’t you get in trouble for saying that?” I asked Yerim, “Eh whatever” is all she says

So…i dont know about being guided by these two anymore..

Nor do i wanna mess with Yerim

Ugh…

Hoe

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[rearranging-deck-chairs]

was thinking abt how my ideal doctor/yaz is when they love each other only sliiiightly more than they hate themselves, but then i was like, you know what might be better actually? if they dont love each other at all

i mean think about it. it's easy. they cant. they havent, like, build a life together. they never had to. love is a promise they didnt make

what passes for romantic feelings for companions in the doctor i think generally is idolisation. yaz has definitely been idolising. depending on your take the doctor might also have been the object of her first queer feelings ever. shes unattainable in like every way for yaz. theres no future to imagine here. there never was. i dont think either of them ever assumed there would be either. theyve had their eyes on the finish line since the beginning

so imagine a reunion. yaz and 14. every barrier now lifted. the doctor no longer lives a life of running from one place to the next; no more being with the doctor means neglecting home. hes suddenly emotionally available too. and they both know,,,Everything. they both know everything theyve never talked about. they reach the finish line and crash over it, into each other, no one had plans for this. a mess

so time to build, right? this is everything they wanted, right? except, is it? they only know each other in extremis. two adrenaline junkies in shared search of a fix. two people unable to stop running, forcibly grounded. yaz has five years of unspoken grievances to air. the doctor about five thousand of unspeakable memories. this is two peas in a powder keg

the doctor attaches in extremes, with abandon, yaz only cautiously, with reservation. neither of them know how to do friendship very well. theyve spent years afraid of losing each other, do you think theyre gonna be able to tolerate being apart now? even if being around each other is pressing every wrong button like a novice pilot or one who never read the manual, and inevitably leads to arguments they both know are years out of date but cant stop themselves from having anyway?

their coping mechanisms might have been malformed but now theyre taken away. dont you think theyre gonna come up with something to replace picking fights with daleks? we've got ptsd à deux and nowhere to go. if they cant be helpful at least they can keep busy. picking fights with each other. having sex with each other, because hey we got this newfound queer sexuality we should try it out, right? none of this is quite right but we're not gonna stop to think now, are we? 

should we talk about the gender thing? oh but youre a timelord, billions of years beyond this petty human obsession. but, youre not. so why not obsess a little. rather this than the other stuff. and yaz likes you as a woman. and rose gets all this trans stuff. keep weaving them in because if you stop they might just fall out. of your orbit, the world, the universe, the story. you'll never see them again and you'll be all alone. again. better keep tying knots

how long until they realise this is worse than it was? how long before they can admit it to themselves? how many people to suggest, to one or the other, that hey maybe you guys should spend some time apart? go on vacation, find a hobby, get a job, talk to other people, give yourself a break. how many people to get snapped and yelled at because what do they know? what does anyone know? nobody does, nobody gets it. ryan and graham left, dan came in too late. nobody else lived their days. nobody could possibly understand whats between them. including them

it's yaz who tries breaking up, of course. takes too long to get there, but she would get there. eventually. the doctor gets mean, all "glad to be home?", all tooth and nail and you cant leave me i leave you, all scoffs and snarls, "we're not together, yaz"

"sure, whatever you say"

but if people stop watching doctor who kills himself. the doctor doesnt say this, of course. but yaz is very proficient in all the ways the doctor does not say things

"yeah well, survived it last time, so"

she doesnt clarify who. doesnt need to. the game of chicken never ended, only changed shape. who falls first, who realises first, who admits first, who stays alive longest after the universe ends. and now, perhaps, whos gonna reach for desperate measures first

place your bets

[the-s1lly-corner]

jeff x reader platonic headcannons?

Jeff the killer x reader (platonic!)

WOOOOOOO honestly i love getting platonic stuff for creepypasta!! dont get me wrong i love writing romantic stuff for the fandom but i feel that platonic is rare.... but i think thats the case for other fandoms too shrugs)

oh hes an asshole and hes full of himself, so either youre going to need to be able to handle his personality or youre going to need to match his energy

but even through that i like the idea that hes still a big brother at heart; even after everything... i dont know, jeff having moments of downtime and clarity between everything hits me a certain way

also it leaves room for guilt

snorts

but thats not what this post is about!

got someone harassing you at work/school? depending on the time of day hes either going to hype you up or... fix the problem himelf

honestly youre probably going to have to beg him not to do anything in case it cycles back to you

despite what his literal catchphrase is, expect a lot of late nights where the two of you hang out and do loads of stuff; from binging movies to video games to wandering the streets after everyone else has gone to sleep

can see jeff being the type to have roast battles with his friends, or whatever theyre called; probably the only time hes going to let you freely say anything about him in a mocking way... usually

you know how in "night in the woods" mae and gregg had that running joke where they would meet and say something like "too bad you didnt (terrible event)" and they try to one up each other?

congrats i think you and jeff would do that too, definitely fits the bill for jeffs humor i think

one of those "i dont like showing that i care," so he will never admit anything but hes going to be hanging back and making sure you get to your destinations safely; hes going to get you what you need if youre sick; hes going to spook the shit out of anyone who makes you upset

just dont say anything because he might actually hold back or outright stop these small actions because hed rather die than be seen as caring

[zapsoda]

it didnt even occur to me that ninah is another one of those "spot the doppelganger/human imitation" type games that have been trending lately until i saw someone else point it out. because i like it i think its a good game and its really unique. especially with the portrayal. ideologically i think the concept of this sort of game is.... interesting.

Obviously it is not the same but i cant help but be reminded of those scary accounts run by paranoid transphobes trying to 'spot' or 'clock' trans people. because they think trans people are dangerous and scary and evil. thats just a thought i have i dont think the games are inherently morally bad. anyways back to my point ninah puts a really interesting spin on it.

i adoreeeee the art and the coloring especially i just find it beautiful. but something i noticed. and a few other games do this too but i think it works particularly well here. is that the doppelgangers look Just like everyone else. and the way you spot them is by looking for really minor details like having "perfect" teeth (this can be genetic but it is often cosmetic). or temporary traits like having dirty fingernails or bloodshot eyes or showing up blurry in photos. this stands in opposition to games which make the doppelgangers Inherently physically different from real humans. which would imply that Otherness is something they are born with (potentially questionable implications, of course these sort of ethical issues are common in the horror genre)

anyways i like that and i like that you are kind of forced to empathize with the doppelgangers (theyre called visitors im gonna use that word from now on because its fewer letters). because you are supposed to help people and largely you have no way of knowing which people are visitors and which ones arent until you let them in. and every single character has a story they had family and friends and reasons they want to live and they tell you this to convince you to let them in. sometimes they dont even know theyre visitors.

one character in particular doesnt know shes a visitor and she finds out at the same time as the protagonist. and she feels bad about it but she doesnt know what to do because she still doesnt want to die. but visitors are "dangerous." and she has no memories of ever killing anyone. she doesnt know when she became a visitor. i think her story is really fucked yknow i love her.

another character is a human. but because of the apocalyptic situation going on he is kind of aggressive and paranoid and according to the wiki he might kill the other people in the home as a result. he isnt a visitor but it was dangerous to let him in.

because of their portrayal some people theorize that visitors dont even exist. thats fucking fascinating. i think its a strong theory too.

this is a level of emotional depth i havent yet seen in other games of this type (Albeit most of them dont interest me so its not like im seeking them out aldjshd)

[constellation-skirmishes]

I see you’ve been on a Crane Wives kick lately and hear me out. I raise you, The Moon Will Sing as Anidala. It’s not a perfect match, but I think it could be the two of them.

ITS IN MY REXANIDALA PLAYLIST !!!!!!!! its not perfect but its still sooo gooodddddd. i just love being angsty about them

Tell me once again I could have been anyone, anyone else Before you made the choice for me

SO PADM�� !!!!!

My feet knew the path We walked in the dark, in the dark I never gave a single thought to where it might lead

padmé......ouuughhh.....

All those empty rooms We could have been anywhere, anywhere else Instead I made a bed with apathy My heart knew the weight Ten years worth of dust and neglect We made our peace with weariness and let it be

TELL ME this isnt ROTS

The moon will sing a song for me I loved you like the sun Bore the shadows that you made With no light of my own

N OBECAUEUHSEU BECAUE BECUSE BECAUSE i can and WILL make everything about padmé

'i loved you like the sun'.......oughhh once again everything centers around tatooine

'bore the shadows that you made with no light of my own.'

i only contest the 'no light of my own' part because its padmé and shes awesome but. i get it. for the context of canon (and not my fucked up version where theyre happy and communicate well) it works.

anakin is very, very controlling. and we know this. and with him not talking to anyone to idk, fix himself, nothing gets better. padmé is the one who ultimately pays w her life for his mistakes.

I shine only with the light you gave me I shine only with the light you gave me

head in hands sobbing wailing screaming throwing up

Name your courage now We could have had anything, anything else Instead you hoarded all that's left of me

BECAUSEEEE ITS SO. confrontation on mustafar.

Swallowing your doubt Like swords to the pit of my belly I want to feel the fire that you kept from me

hi sorry not sane about them ever.

The moon will sing a song for me I loved you like the sun Bore the shadows that you made With no light of my own I shine only with the light you gave me I shine only with the light you gave me I shine only with the light you gave me (I could have been anyone, anyone) I shine only with the light you gave me (I could have been anyone, anyone)

LIIKEEEEEEE sorry i have multiple versions of my favorite ships running around in my mind at the same time. i keep canon anidala in my mind but i have my anidala in my mind also. this is more canon than mine, but its so good.

but you know what's even more anidala? Steady, Steady

LIKE

Steady, steady, you know when you're ready It's a long road walking into the sun The heat can make you lose your head Your sense of direction Oh steady, steady I am ready to be the one I can take for better, but for worse I can't condone Most of our "for good" just makes me ache to be alone How long is forever? I'm swimming in this dress, a child in her mother's clothes This ring around my finger's like a chain around my throat Are you so sure you've tamed me? Steady, steady, you know when you're ready It's a long road walking into the sun The heat can make you lose your head Your sense of direction Oh steady, steady I am ready to run We talked about the west, 'bout packing up our lives and hopes Ain't it a shame with time our dreams turned into jokes I won't let that be us Nostalgic for the good times like our dreams walked out on us Like we woke up in an empty bed here, and now we're stuck I'll chase them down alone Don't just watch me go, you fool Run with me, keep up, keep up, keep up It's not you I'm leaving Are you listening? I just can't take the rut, the rut I won't say I do, 'til you promise me That though we're gray, we can stay young, and wild, and free Young and wild and free And if you can't, don't blame me And if you can't, don't blame me And if you can't, don't blame me Steady, steady, you know when you're ready It's a long road walking into the sun The heat can make you lose your head Your sense of direction Oh steady, steady We weren't ready

its so padme. to me. if you even care.

i love 'the fool in her wedding gown' god its such a good album

[confessions-official]

i feel bad for wanting a different life then i do now because my appartment is stable

i do have a bed to sleep on but i cant help but feel like i never truely had my own space because i never had my own bedroom and i always slept with someone else either next to me or anything, my sister has to take calls and lectures and i have to stay quiet, i want my own desk so badly because only laying on a bed has made me drastically lazy and such, i cant even cry in peace and i have to stop stimming when my sisters friends are over when i dont want to see them

i have a full fridge but its packed TOO much, we have abunch of meat in there that gets forgotten quickly, alot of food that only my parents eat, hell the kitchen itself it so horrid by other families standards, the moment you walk in you already see a overfilled bag of trash and counters that have not been cleaned in months, me and my sister had emptied and cleaned the fridge this easter break and the moment mom and dad got home it got cluttered again, the table we use to just place food is also a mess and we leave fruits and vaggies on it causing them to spoil more quickly

my mom keeps alot of soaps, papers, bags - she doesnt even go shoping, she doesnt want us to use the special soaps she gives away (which is a full closet to clarify) and got mad at my sister when she cleaned the bathroom and used one of those, there isnt enough space to walk, and we use only 6 bags at maximum

i dont know HOW to clean, at most we vacume but thats it, with all the stuff we have laying around its hard and i dont know which spray bottle to use for which products, i dont even know how to use a washing machine or how to mop a floor, theyre both very lazy (and i dont blame them both, theyre really tired all the time and my mom sleeps most of the day) and my mom would freak out if we shower more then 2 people a day because of this really musty dirty plastic bathtub we have that she collects water with so i shower once a week, i know how gross it is i feel bad but its not as bad as my grandmas house which is very moldy and its atleast bareable to invite people in

i never got to dress myself in the morning, my parents always wake me up and brush my hair (my mom always tells me my hair is oily or not brushed well even though everyone else tells me i do a great job) and they just argue about mundane stuff and i just want peace and quiet at 6 am - they always nag me about homework and studying and due to complicated neurodivergent stuff in my head i freeze and i cant seem to find anything i want to do untill its really late and im tried by that time i wish i could just do everything at the same time but i cant, and i cant talk about it to them, but aside from being boring to listen to they care about me unlike alotof other parents who probably wouldnt have bothered despite me not needing alot of support

i wish i had a small house and not an apartment, my stimming usually involves running around and with a small apartment 1) there will be always someone in a room and i dont like anyone else seeing me 2) the neighbors below, by some luck who havent sued us yet, probably dont apprechiate it, btu i have a place to live in

i already have a stable apartment and i shouldnt be complaining at all, i dont know why but i sometimes wonder how it would be like to live in the average family american TV seems to show

maybe my life will turn around once i have my own apartment / house, hopefully by then i will have learnt a thing about cleaning or two

 

[kiniism]

okay heres a really long post about my onions on scarlet (and violet but ive only played scarlet so far). i will NOT be spoiling any of the story or pokemon that havent been revealed in official media, HOWEVER! i will be talking about certain mechanics in the game in more detail, most specifically how you physically move about in the world (ie the upgrades you get for your mount). while im going to try not to compare scarvi to other games in every single aspect, its not feasible to leave it in the vacuum considering What It Is (a mainline series game from one of the highest-grossing franchises in the world). developer crunch aside, this is what they gave us, so thats what im talking about. SO!! preface done. lets get into this, breaking it up by section with each getting an overall Section Score, and then a final Overall Game Score. points i like begin with ++ and points i dont begin with -- to try and make it easier. THIS IS LONG AND CONTAINS SALT (some deserved, some personal).

THE POKEMON THEMSELVES

section score: 8/10 i like a lot of them! its just the ones i Dont like, i...Really Dont Like

++wooper’s new evo is the singular best pokemon of all time ++the names this gen are top-tier ++most of the designs are really cool! --there are some who have interesting ideas behind their base design/abilities but it really doesn’t feel like it fits with the mon itself and wouldve been better off as a separate entity/pokemon (there is a sea-based creature and a coin critter who bring this to mind most keenly) --while its nice theyre supposedly all to-scale, many are way too small to be seen on the switch screen. conversely i guess i understand why people are always tripping over bug-types in forests

YOUR LEGENDARY RIDE BUDDY

section score: 5/10 their personality is the absolute saving grace here, the novelty of riding them is fun, though a lot of the mechanics fall flat for me but are still required to explore the world

++having the box legendary with you from the tutorial is a cool idea i didnt know i wanted before! ++this lizard is so personality. god bless --the camera cannot keep up when you dash for long distances --i dont hate the fact that there is only a single pokemon you ride on since that cuts down on total animations needed, its just sad we cant use anyone else --i also dont hate that your movement abilities are locked behind one of the story lines, BUT there are hard-locked areas of the game you cannot get to without more progress, which stifles the whole “open world, do whatever you want whenever you want” feel --you unlock gliding late, and after roughly ten seconds of gliding, you begin falling rapidly to the ground. whats the point of this? also no free flight is always depressing, if understandable at a technical level --climbing walls is your last upgrade. the small hop you do at the top of the cliff to make it to the flat ground is often TOO small and you may fall. and if there is a pokemon at the edge where you’re about to be, you will bounce off it and be sent likely back down to the bottom of the cliff. not to mention if the wall is not completely vertical, you might lose your climbing grip and begin to slide down anyway --they take up so much of your screen you often cant see whats in your path and will run over or into obstacles like smaller pokemon or npcs

THE ANIMATIONS, GRAPHICS, AND VISUALS

section score: 5/10 the pokemon textures and chara designs alone save this part from being rated a 3/10

++the pokemon themselves look AMAZING, they have visible scales/fur/metallic sheen and are generally a delight to see walking about ++the npcs and characters are all really cool and i enjoyed meeting them ++pokemon have several different animations you can see with the picnic feature ++pokemon having sleeping animations in the picnic and when idle too long with lets go mode is adorable ++pokemon roaring/crying after they defeat an opponent in battle and are waiting for the next to come out is a nice touch --the environment textures look like 144p stock photos --the landscapes themselves look like a middle schooler’s first blender project, they arent natural and they arent pretty --there feels like there isnt a cohesive stylistic choice, like in legends arceus or breath of the wild, where they have a consistent vibe for the whole game --pokemon dont stand correctly on slopes, ie one of their feet will be clipped into the ground and the other will be floating --most of the move animations are pretty to look at, but we still have “slide forward and jiggle around a bit in your t-pose” and thats IF its a physical contact move. arceus’s dynamic battle movements are completely forsaken here --the idle animations in battle have a lot of dead space between them so we’re back to just two of them t-posing at each other --pokemon dont even close their eyes when theyre asleep. they have a whole animation for it outside of battle, and inside of battle there isnt any sleepy signs. they dont Freezeframe when frozen either. --koraidon specifically does a really cute animation when you’re just sitting on his back BUT. his neck wheel clips into his throat horribly and i just cant unsee it --the pokedex has a cute aesthetic but you cant SEARCH it and trying to read the sideways names is unsatisfying --the CONSTANT jumpcuts/fadeins both in the open world and in cutscenes looks Awful. give the editor a break, you dont need ten small movies to do the job of one

THE UI ELEMENTS AND CONTROLS

section score: 3/10 for every step forward there seems to be several dozen going back

++taking a selfie for your trainer card is nice ++the map has a pleasing aesthetic overall --the map does not show cave layers --while you can lock the large map from rotating, you cant lock the minimap from spinning which disorients me to no end. also the main map doesnt keep your zoom level saved when you close and open it --trainer card is removed from the x menu and instead locked behind opening the large map and then a smaller menu, which is pointless --you cant take a photo of yourself for the profile Icon. why? --the pokemon menu icons do not have special shiny variants, and also they clip horribly within the party screen. all of my pokemon are beheaded and/or have no feet --in the pc why is multiselect bound to the - key and not something way more accessible. why make Y ONLY swap and not toggle between modes like sword and shield had? --in the pc you cant pick up a pokemon and go to the ‘all boxes’ screen and drop them in a new box. you have to manually scroll through all your boxes --in the pc you cant hit Up on your first party member to end up tabbed over the Last Slot --health bars in battle. where do i start. its awful and i hate it? if you have a status effect or take damage from an ability, the bar will display for a moment while the damage animation goes off, and then DISAPPEAR WHEN THE TEXT BOX TELLING YOU THE DAMAGE WENT OFF SHOWS UP. its stressful when you/your opponent is at low hp and you dont know HOW much until the turn resolves entirely. in worst case scenarios (ie tera raids), you may only get a few frames. just display the health bars all the time, along with the pokemons level.

THE NEW FEATURES

section score: 5/10 if these features worked as im sure they were intended or had a few tweaks, they would be 10/10. but they Dont, and its super sad that the bad vastly outweighs the good

++finding rare items on the ground (nature mints, vitamins) is really nice ++being able to BUY nature mints is amazing ++picnicing is fun and handy when you dont want to make a long trek to/from a center ++terastralizing is fun to both do and plan around ++the raids are an improvement over sword and shield ++coop is kind of pointless but still really fun to Exist in the same space as your friends! so it stays as a positive ++accessing your pc boxes from anywhere is a godsend! ++nicknaming pokemon anywhere is nice! ++being able to relearn any past known move at any time is amazing! ++shiny pokemon are seen in the overworld! ++the lets go feature is a fun concept --HOWEVER the lets go feature is implemented Terribly. the mon doesnt stray far from you and immediately returns to the ball if you do get too far. you often send them forward and they dont target what you want them to, or they defeat one pokemon and then give up. 90% of pokemon are also TOO SLOW to keep up with you, which means you cant even reliably have a buddy walking with you for fun. it also makes evolving certain pokemon a hellish nightmare of forcing yourself to walk slowly so they dont get stuck --shiny pokemon DO NOT SPARKLE OR MAKE A SOUND in the overworld. they will ONLY alert you to their shininess when you enter a battle. the only way to identify a pokemon is with the lets go feature (your mons will not attack a shiny) BUT. with all the problems the lets go feature has i just listed, the only other recourse for people who dont use it is to squint at their screen. what do you do with a shiny who flees if you dont notice it in time before getting too close? you lose. good day sir. i will not be giving the game a pass on this at ALL because of the many visually impaired players being shafted on all fronts --speaking of shiny pokemon, shiny dittos and shiny zoruas can be disguised as Normal Pokemon and you wont know until you engage them and they de-transform. and again, the only way to know for sure before you manually battle is the lets go feature. so thats just dumb --we did not need crouching and sneaking in this game if there isnt any out-of-battle catches or need to hide period --the tera raids being timed really doesnt feel good when you need to watch SO many animations and none of them are shortened or skippable. the boss tera’s, sometimes you have to tera, and while the throwing-ball at the end was clearly made with love...its long, and ive seen it a lot now --the difficulty spike from 4* raids to 5* raids (i havent done a 6*) was pretty insane without building an endgame pokemon specifically to take them on. also the fact that i cant invite my friends first and then open it up to strangers means you’re likely stuck with dumb npcs padding out your team --sandwich making is kinda clunky and the fact that the buffs are separated by type feels super arbitrary and just to pad out the system of “wow look at all these ingredients!!”

THE STORY AND WORLD

section score: 9/10 its a pokemon game so some cliche is expected, but this has been my favorite one since black and white. the only thing really dragging it down is that the world is not as open as it seems

++all three paths have solid foundations and i enjoyed experiencing them! ++all of the important npcs felt like real characters who had their own motivations and quirks ++i actually learned stuff in class and got to flunk my math midterm three times because i cant fucking read just like in real life! +7 points --the world is not as open as it wants to be. areas are hard-locked behind certain mount abilities (swimming, climbing) but you can. sort of get up cliffs by jumping backwards which is fucking hilarious --the OVERworld doesnt necessarily need to scale with player progression (its normal to have low level starter areas and high level endgame areas) BUT! the BOSSES should. i was reasonably leveled for my first few fights but then took on a boss 10+ levels higher than my team, which was a fun struggle! BUT. after that. i was ENOURMOUSLY over leveled for the REST OF THE GAME, and none of the fights were interesting or fun --the terastralizing gimmick was only used in an interesting way a handful of times (one earlier-level gym leader surprised me but that was about it) and could’ve had a lot more potential if the types weren’t so predictable. a fight you have after beating the league had me cautious of something that wouldve been amazing to see but never happened --almost none of the npc pokemon had held items...? or if they did, they didnt make a valuable contribution to the fight, which made most of them feel easy to steamroll --i also found very few useful held items in the wild, which isnt the biggest deal since you can buy them, but it was always nice to pick up something and be like oh hey yea i can use this! without specifically going to the store. maybe ive explored the wrong areas tho idk --there are too many shops. have a clothing store in each city, yes, but do not put every piece of your outfit into a different store. no fucking store sells ONLY socks and NOTHING ELSE. same goes for the sandwich shops --there are too many buildings. you dont even go inside any of them, not even the fashion shops, so why have a loading screen just to pop up a menu? have an npc outside show you a ‘catalogue’ and pick from there --there isnt a way to mark npcs you want to revisit on your map, ex the friendship checker or that one guy you trade pokemon parts to so you can get amarouge or ceruledge. i have to look them up every time --the pokemon dropping materials is nice and adds immersion that each line drops a specific item, but it just adds to unnecessary bag bloat. ive made maybe seven tms in my 80 hours of playtime and havent sold any materials because i dont want to scroll through them all

and the kicker... THE PERFORMANCE

section score: 1/10 this is abysmal. it makes me physically ill.

++the coop bugs are kind of funny thats the only reason this has a Single Point and isnt a 0 --the lag. THE LAG BRO. everything lags. the game, every menu, the pokedex, starting a battle, EVERYTHING --it cant keep a steady 30fps at the best of times --the frame drops and slowdowns are frequent, distracting, and honestly nauseating at times. i can only play in handheld mode --the camera clips through EVERYTHING how did this get through playtesting --my game has crashed three times. once while i was walking away from a pokecenter, a second when trying to connect to a friends world, and the third while eating a sandwich. this is the only switch game in my recent memory to have ever crashed completely --the memory leak when the game runs for more than a few hours. --people are FALLING THROUGH THE FLOOR. --the world fucking deloads itself sometimes when i throw a pokeball. yea that video of the psyduck by the bridge is real, its happened to me several times

so now.......here we are at the end of things. first, heres stuff i would fix to make it a perfect 10/10 mainline pokemon game

add shiny sound/sparkle back

make health bars display 100% of the time in battle

move the profile/trainer card and pokedex options back to the main menu

let players lock the minimap rotation

bosses have proper level scaling

make the names in the pokedex not sideways

tweaks to the movement of your ride mon

animation upgrades, both in the overworld and for cutscenes

minor adjustments to the animation timings in tera raids, making shorter versions of them to combat the timer anxiety

complete overhaul of the lets go feature

performance upgrades. god let this game cook for another year at least

and i think thats everything. this game is clearly unfinished and the product of the ruthless development cycle, and ultimately it was way too ambitious for the time and manpower they had. its extremely sad that theres such promise under all of the glaringly unpolished features. if this game had at least some of the fixes i specified above, i would feel confident rating this as my favorite pokemon game since black and white or legends arceus

however. as of right now, with the game the way it is, this is my final score

                       POKEMON SCARLET AND VIOLET                                   FINAL RATING: 6/10

[nicegaai]

21. the next day is more meeting stuff. norway wakes up first, showers, and goes out to pick them up coffee and pastries or whateverrr.. iceland wakes up in sticky gross underwear in his brothers hotel room. alone. :| he shuffles the clothes on the floor around until he finds his phone and sees hes not running late to anything. thank god. he decides to shower (and steal some of nors clothes until he figures out where his keycard went. and where his brother went ...) and leaves the shower, is greeted by the smell of coffee exactly how he likes it. theres a balcony maybe and nor waves him over to join him at the little table and chairs. ice is wearing nors shirt and underwear but literally isnt thinking ab that Like That bcz hes a chronic olderbrother's clothes stealer already. i WISH i could say "they talk about it" but they would literally never. but sitting together having breakfast, its like nothing's wrong,, BECAUSE, nothing's wrong. theyre literally fine, iceland can hardly be anxious.......... they finish up and are like so ill see u at the meeting later. ill give you back your shirt soon. when are you going back home? and ice really wants to ask "when can we do this again?" but its not that easy, nor has plans tonight .... and hes not really sure where they stand yet. but the relationship definitely isnt all platonic/asexual. so thats neat. ice hopes theyll do this again soon. they kiss a few times before iceland leaves. (and nors plans that night might be sex with someone else, or multiple other people, but iceland doesnt need to know that)

22. people are noticing that nor and ice are closer lately. people at his office will ask what hes up to, and hes like im taking a weekend trip to visit my brother... and its like oh again? you two seem close lately! ^^ thats so sweet! but honestly its just ice who keeps messaging nor about once a month trying to seem super casual like 'heyy ... doing anything this weekend lol ..' and norway actually would drop any tentative plans he had and tell anyone else 'sorry something came up' so he can message ice back like 'nothing lol why' because this is part of the reconnecting process with his little bro and hes getting such a good grade in this, normal to want, possible to achieve, n all that. what im saying is everyone is noticing theyre closer lately. in the wake of the dna test. sure alright makes sense. i think denmark is getting lonely feeling left out tho. unrelated to anything, i just feel for him

23. time jump. theyre having sex fairly regularly. they get away to see each other every few months, all their vacation time is going towards this to the detriment of every other relationship in their lives. AND they're not telling anyone for several reasons. 1) they would need a label to describe their relationship for that 2) among humans this kind of relationship getting out is social suicide; not to other nations tho, god knows whats happening between all the other freaks 3) this isnt a "relationship" what are u talking about 🙄 hes literally my brother lol he drives me insane i couldnt live with him in my house <- both of them say this and mean it

I MAXED OUT ON READMORES for my first nor/ice thoughts post so im starting a new one lol

19. nor will never let the brother thing go SPECIFICALLY because it makes iceland uncomfortable. hes amazed that ice didnt think they were related at all,, think is a strong word. it was denial, 0 logic. iceland doesnt really want to kiss him again now tbh ......... not that hes less into him. hes just confused. is this still a good idea? psych, it was always a bad idea, idiot. but he does have the okay to try again............. but he cant !! its too soon!!!!!! uwahh ..!!!

20. next time they see each other (world meeting?) nor has a lot of teasing material and it is unbearableeeeee. he doesnt even have to say anything he just has to look at ice. he is riding the dna test victory high for at least a year. even better though, he has a trump card to really freak him out. all he has to do is kiss him and it would be so so so so funny for real. he waits for a good private moment bc hes not crazy enough to do that with witnesses. people are still talking about their dna test being in the news they'll approach nor or ice with that as a small talk opener at the nation function so much. after the first few times nor is sick of it (but he hates social events anyway). iceland is somewhat better at surface level smalltalk schmoozing but he DOESN'T want to think about that test at all. its so unfortunate for him. they both leave early, theyre like wow everyone's after us ab the test, wanna get out of here? and end up walking back together. theyre in the conference hotel elevator together and its silent and nor leans over and gives him a big ol kiss on the lips. the first time since new years. catches ice way off guard, and they bicker about it, norway thinks it was comedy gold, and iceland is mad. he gets so mad that hes gonna kiss him again but harder. thatll show him. theyre already on the way to empty hotel rooms umm 😳 iceland isnt prepared to go all the way but they kiss and grind like idiots and dont talk a lot. iceland has more riding on this than nor and hes veryy nervous so nor goes at his pace. afterwards. umm. hmmmm. its late but not that late but neither wants to move. or talk about it. they curl up together and sleep

[myarmstickles]

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[bones-of-a-rabbit]

WORLDS ANGSTIEST FNAF SUN/MOON X READER AU BREAKDOWN:

Welcome to the synopsis of, the pawn au, OR,

the house always wins

(WARNING FOR ANGST, MANIPULATION, DEATH)

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So in this AU the reader is actually just. A really ordinary person. They work as a florist. They spend weekends watching movies mostly on their own bc they don’t have a lot of friends. They’re pretty lonely overall but they try rlly hard to be a nice person. They don’t even know that their Uncle- the man who raised them- is like. The Head Dude of a huge infamous criminal organization

So one day it slips out to police that Uncle Mafia Guy has this one person he’s closer to than anyone else, and he’s been heard on multiple occasions calling them ‘the closest thing he has to an heir’

So the cops are all like 👁👁👀👀👁👀👁👁👀👀👁👀👁👀👁👁👁 at reader bc Oh My God they must know so much but they’re young and inexperienced so maybe they can catch THEM slipping up in the way the Uncle never has

So Sun and Moon are sent first to see if they can see them doing anything they can arrest them for, but the worst thing Reader does is leave food out for the stray cats of the area but instead they attract raccoons

So the cops are like. Maybe they don’t show it on their PUBLIC LIFE. mAybe,, we gotta get up in their PERSONAL life

So Sun and Moon are sent in AGAIN but this time to try n get close enough to Reader to maybe catch them slipping up enough to get valuable info

(Sun and Moon are extremely bothered and morally object to this idea, but the longer Uncle Guy is out there running his Business, the more horrible things are happening in the world, and this is the CLOSEST THING they’ve gotten to a lead in like MONTHS)

At the same time,,,,,,

Eclipse is out there. Doing OTHER Crime Boss stuff. And his biggest threat/rival is Uncle Guy and HIS business

And HE ALSO hears abt Reader and their relationship w Uncle Guy

And he’s like 👁〰️👁

So. He first tries to spy on them, gets impatient, then says “fuck it I’ll do it myself” and waltzes into Reader’s life all uwo well hello there style

So. All THREE of these idiots. Are trying to fool the reader into being comfortable enough to tell them Everything

I But Reader is just like??? Wow so many cool ppl are hanging out around me lately! WOW THEY WANNA BE MY FRIENDS!! WOWOWOOW THEYRE ARE ALL SO NICE AND THEY LIKE KNOWING ABT MY INTERESTS AND HOBBIES AND *ME*

And idiot trips and falls hard for these idiots

And the OTHER idiots fucking. CRASH LAND into love for this moron

And at FIRST THEYRE ALL LIKE “OH NO”

“THIS COMPROMISES EVERYTHING” think Sun and Moon

But then Eclipse is like “oh yes ;3” and starts swooning Reader even HARDER

And sun and moon are like >>>:00000000

So reader is like DIZZY AND CONFUSED AND FULL OF BUTTERFLIES BC OF ALL THIS ATTENTION FROM THESE THREE HIMBOS

And then. The truth slips :)

And Reader takes it fuckign HORRIBLY. Like they TRUSTED THEM. They told them about their WORST MOMENTS and the things they’ll NEVER FORGET. They told them about all their favorite things, about their dreams and their fears and their wishes. And they wanted to maybe make a future WITH these guys. Did they ever even like them at all???

So they feel broken, distraught, and extremely betrayed.

And then. :) Uncle Crimeboss shows up

the Uncle is William Afton mcfuckface. And Reader isn’t even related to him. He killed their family in a house fire and they were the only one to escape.

Reader’s Dad worked for Afton and Afton was cleaning up a mess that he wasn’t going to let happen.

He knew he couldn’t just snuff Reader, who had escaped the fire, without it looking extremely sketchy. So he adopted them! As the best friend of their dad, he felt it only right

And this whole thing with Sun and Moon and Eclipse?? AFTON was the one that leaked the information about Reader being his ‘heir’. Then he sat back and waited for everyone else to make their move

It went wonderfully! Even better than planned! Bc now he can use this Huge Fucking Mess to manipulate Reader hardcore. Bc now he can use this Huge Fucking Mess to manipulate Reader hardcore, and sculpt them into being the perfect successor

And Reader is stuck in the middle. An unknowing pawn in a game they didn’t even realize was happening.

On one hand. Afton is like. The only person that’s ever been consistent in their life. They’ve been raised by him. He’s only ever played the ‘kind father’ part. So when he comes to their rescue RIGHT AS EVERYTHING IS FALLING APART, and says “see? The world only wants to control you and twist what you know is true into fiction. But I won’t let anyone hurt you here”

Of course they WANT to believe him

But. When you have been really and truly betrayed and made such a fool of. You start to really notice the Signs.

They know the truth now. And there’s nothing they can do to forgive and forget.

[sabo-has-my-heart]

Hiiiiii Astra!! First of all, THANK YOU FOR THAT FILTHY STORY. I didn't expect bondage bUT DAMN  👀 Since you said I could return for another request.... Could I ask for a continuation about the fem! graduate student and TA Sabo fluff/smut? Like since they decided they'd go out on a date after the semester..... THEY ARE SO awkward when theyre out in public OH MY GOD... and they're flustered literally despite having wild, primal intercourse multiple times a week... and feelings bloom and SOMETIMES Sabo just looks at her a second too long when theyre intimate AND SOMETIMES reader feels jealousy which never happened before. ya know stuff like that.... it's just the hot and cold dynamic of their physical and emotional experiences as a couple that started purely as a "one-time thing." THANK YOU SO MUCH I HOPE THIS MADE SENSE.

Pretty sure Sabo is exclusively FERAL in bed but SO SOFT when it comes to anywhere else even aftercare like a complete 180. i'm crying I wanna see it come to life. Thanks again Astra!!!!!!!!! *Usopp kissses* I may or may not have printed the story and put it in my clear folder.

Warnings: suggestive but sfw, Sabo and reader being awkward, 

Word Count: 1460

Hey, good to see you back, glad you liked the story, I was happy to write it. I’ve been struggling with wondering if I shouldn’t write more romantic sex or if I should just let my perverted mind run wild and writing that, I’m just like “You know what, why do I have to do one or the other? I can write good, hard sex, or loving sex!” You can always return for more if you want, I’m always saying I accept return requesters, give me all you got. I agree with the whole Sabo thing, absolutely feral in bed, but so much aftercare and cuddling and loving. Just like, are you really the same Sabo who just did all those dirty things to me? So this won’t have any smut, a little suggestive, maybe, but not smut. 

Holding his hand as the two of you headed for the coffee shop, you couldn’t stop the raging blush that had spread over your cheeks, across your entire face, and at this point, probably down your hickey covered neck. Not that anyone would see the hickies with the shirts you’d been wearing lately. You swore, it was like he couldn’t stop himself from marking you up, your neck, your thighs, anywhere really, though you’d asked him to keep it to places you could cover. It was strange, the sudden shift between when you were in bed vs. when you were out in public. The both of you going from ‘sex starved animals’ to ‘innocent virgins on a date’. All you were doing was holding hands, not even fingers interlaced holding hands, but just your hand enveloped by his, yet you were both blushing and trying not to look at each other. It wasn’t that you didn’t want to, just that you were both too flushed to do so, afraid of what might happen, of how red you might turn if you actually looked at each other. The blond let go of your hand, taking a couple of quick steps so he could open the door of the coffee shop for you, the picture of a perfect gentleman, nothing like the feral beast that had ravaged you just last night. Sabo took a deep breath as he gestured to a young man waving excitedly towards the two of you. You’d only been dating for a short while, but he wanted to introduce you to his brothers, the ones he’d told you about, the ones who seemed to be the other most important people in his life.

“So I take it, you’re Y/n.” the older looking black-haired boy asked, grinning as you nodded.

“From what he’s told me, you’re Ace, and you,” you turned to the one who’d been waving a second ago, “Are Luffy.” you said, the boy giving a small laugh. Talking about his brothers was the one time when you two were together in public that he wasn’t nervous or flustered, talking on and on about how amazing they were. 

“How much have you been talking about us to her, man? Shouldn’t you be busy, I don’t know, getting to know more about her?” Ace teased, laughing when Sabo flushed bright red.

“Sh-she asked! I mentioned you and she asked!” Sabo said defensively, only making Ace laugh more.

“So you just happened to go on about us to your new girlfriend? And you just happened to tell her everything, I’m sure.” Ace said, rolling his eyes as the both of you blushed at the word ‘girlfriend’. 

“Hey Sabo, why are you guys all red? Are you okay?” Luffy asked, never quite seeing his brother like this. Sabo and Ace had had girlfriends, sure, but never like this, this connection the two of you had, even as awkward as it was, was different. He had you feeling butterflies, you had his heart pounding, and neither of you could control it. Ace nearly fell out of his chair, dying from laughter as Sabo glared. You smiled at him before ‘casually and innocently’ walking away to get some coffee, knowing that the moment you turned your back, Sabo was probably smacking the hell out of Ace. Blushing, you looked at the cup that had Sabo written on it. You knew what he liked, so you’d gotten him one, but actually getting him coffee, giving it to him… no! It was coffee! You weren’t some blushing, naive child, you were a grown woman going to college, you’d seen this man naked! Grabbing the coffee cup you took a deep breath, walking back over, hoping that you weren’t as flushed as you felt. Looking at Ace, you couldn’t help but laugh slightly as he groaned, leaning back in his chair.

“Y/n, you should know something about the man you’re dating. He’s a violent ass!” Ace whined. Not that you didn’t already somewhat know that. No one who was that rough in bed was a pacifist. You glanced over at Sabo, cheeks flaring as you held out the cup, eyes looking back at the floor.

“Hey Sabo, why don’t you two look at each other much, you said that you really, really loved her and that she was super-”

“Luffy, shut up! Ahahaha, my little brother doesn’t know what he’s talking about, not that I don’t talk about you at home or anything, that would be weird if I didn’t mention you.” Sabo blurted out after growling at his brother. Fuck, what was he saying! Why did it matter what he’d told his brothers? Because he hadn’t come out and said ‘I love you’ yet, it mattered because he hadn’t told you how absolutely breathtaking you were. You, however, didn’t look like you registered a word after ‘loved her’, the words still echoing in your head, your face so hot that you were surprised you hadn’t combusted yet. 

“C-can… I think… maybe another time.” you squeaked out, eyes glued to the floor. What else would you learn if you stayed here? Could your reddened cheeks take more? 

“Y-yeah, I uh, why don’t I walk you home.” Sabo agreed, leading you out as Ace started laughing again.

Yawning, you stretched your sore muscles, groaning at the popping sound that escaped them. Glancing over, Sabo slumbered away, the weekend allowing him to sleep in. You couldn’t help the soft smile that spread across your lips as you brushed some hair out of his face, a fond look on your face. You remembered the look in his eyes last night, a brief flash of something other than just lust before he was spanking you and pounding you into the mattress. Part of you was admittedly afraid of that look, you’d never felt so strongly about someone before. The sounds Sabo made as he opened his eyes almost had you giggling at how adorable he was, sleepy eyes glancing up at you.

“Morning beautiful.” Sabo mumbled groggily, smiling up at you. You bit back the girlish, lovestruck giggle, opting to continue smiling at him.

“Morning. I uh, you want breakfast or anything?” you asked, head tilting to the side when he began to chuckle.

“Are you sure I shouldn't be the one making you breakfast? Figured you might not be able to walk straight after last night.” Sabo said, his smile turning into a smirk.

“Gonna have to try a lot harder than that if you don’t want me going anywhere the next morning.” you teased, a small cry leaving your lips when he suddenly had you pinned to the bed.

“Then I guess it’s a good thing that it’s the weekend, should give me plenty of time to see just how much harder I’ll have to work.” Sabo said, eyes staring into yours, that flash from last night reappearing for a moment before he pulled you into a kiss. You were starting to recognize that look, it was the same look that you were sure was starting to show in your own eyes. 

It was a few hours later, the two of you enjoying the hot water from your bath that you sighed in contentment, you let your head rest back against Sabo’s shoulder, his arms wrapped around you as the two of you just soaked. He was always so soft once you were both coherent enough to think about cleaning up and aftercare, it was funny, really, the three different sides of him. The feral creature that had your mind crumbling, the shy, flustered young man who acted like he’d never even touched a female, and the sweet, soft lover that tended to your every need in the privacy of your apartment. 

“Sabo.” you mumbled, drawing a small hum from him as he snuggled closer to you. You took a deep breath, “I love you.” you said after a moment. The two of you had only been dating for a short while, even if you’d been fucking throughout the entire semester, you hadn’t officially started dating until after it had ended, but you already knew how you felt about him. The blond nuzzled his head into the crook of your neck, arms holding you tighter.

“I love you too.” Sabo whispered into the skin of your neck, taking his own deep breath. How was it that he was already so crazy about you? A passionate one-night-stand turning into some strange love story. Then again, did it matter? Did it matter that he was already this crazy about you, or that this had all started with sex? He had you, he had someone he loved, who cared about how it started or how he already felt about you.

[fandom-blackhole]

What is that I hear? Episode 3 thoughtssss! + update on how my bingo card is going

First off im like 30 minutes late and I really wish I wasn't....anyway

Hes making a lil stack for tess 🥲

He gave ellie his jacket 😭😭😭

Ellie continually asking for a gun 👌👌👌

You ask alot of goddamn questions. -yes I do 🙂

THE ARCADE GAMEEEEE

Is there anything bad in here? -Just you. -Oh getting funnier (keep this joke going pleaseee)

Ellie what the fuck?!!! Do not go in there!

Id count ellie moving a dumpster, but honestly it wasn't joel

Tampons!

Get the fuck outta therrreeeeee

Ellie you fucking sadist, just kill it wtffffff

Joel you really should keep a better eye on her Jesus fucking christ

It the screen grab from the first reveal!!!

Flour! Flour! Flour! Flour! (PANCAKE MIX)

Outbreak Day! (Sep 26, happy bday joel)

Joel trying to protect ellie by trying to go around the mass grave so she wouldn't see it 🥲

Im not surprised at all, fuck fedra (dead people can't be infected...smh)

Ohhhh flashback!

Honestly reminds me, I hope we get to see Ish's story line

Ope! There's my paranoid Bill <3

Bills got a nice house damn, what do you think he did before the outbreak?

Im laughing so hard, this is 100% cannon Bill

I love that we are getting a montages of bill building up his town and its defenses lmao

Ooo do you think he's gonna teach Joel how to make a nail bomb like in the game?

I spy with my little eye a churchhhh

Me and Bill are kinda the same frfr alone and prepared 😌

And there's his traps

Not the "Dont Tread on Me" Flag, he's gay, not homophobic

Frank! My boy!!!I love him already (he better wear an ugly ass hawian shirt or im gonna riot!)

I love the hinting to the falling if the QZs

I already love them, im gonna read so much fanfic about these two <3

Bills gay lil stance with the hand gun lmao

Literally love at first sight for bill I will not hear otherwise

Hes giving frank a cute lil dinner date <3 <3

I cannot handle them, they better fuck this episode and im gonna cry when frank dies

Franks lil smile im screamingggggg

Theyre gayyyyyy istggggg

Bill is literally so fucking smitten

He can play piano 🥺🥺🥺...kinda lol

Bill made him stop bc he realizes he's getting too attached

Omg bills playing and singing nowww 🥲

The song is perfect foreshadowing omfg

Girl? Haha thats a queer frank

Literally screamingggggggg omfggg

Frank crying i cannot omfg

He didn't not just tell Bill to go take a shower 💀

Frank waiting in bed for bill these bitches are fuckingggggg

I literally told you it was love at first sight

Omg baby virgin bill is 👌👌👌

Squabbling like a true married couple

We are going to have friends. - Excuse me. (I love my recluse paranoid Bill)

Frank and Tess chatting too while Joel and Bill glower at each other 💀💀💀

Joel really speaks Bill's language lol

I love Joel trying to help Bill by warning him 🥺

Bill running just like me frfr

Bill really does love Frank omg

The strawberries omg

Older means we're still here. 🥺🥺🥺

Oh this episode is gonna rip my heart out, im not ready

Oh no! OH NO!

The dude on fire spinning i can't stop laughing and I shouldn't be

Bill talking like he's gonna die

Call Joel, he'll take care of you. 🥲

Theyre old men 🥲

He paints! And it looks like the concept art from the game!

Theyre so cute my heart is breaking

Cause this is my last day?! Wtf do you mean, frank???

But I've had more good days with you than anyone else. So just give me one more good day (sobbing)

We'll get married (nnoooo, I cant take this)

Frank has thought about this too much istg 🥲🥲🥲🥲

Igh i can't stop thinking about the radio in the first episode, what goes wrong?!

Im already sobbing

Theyre exchanging rings 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Bill made frank the same meal he made him the first time, im sobbbiiinnngggg

Of course Bill did it too

You were my purpose. I cannttttttt

Why do I get the feeling its only gonna work for Frank, that Bill is gonna live?

The music 🥲🥲🥲 (this is, or is similar to the one from the game right? The giraffe area?? I'm probably wrong, but ik its from the game)

I never liked you. Thats 100% bill 🥲

Im sobbing, you're sobbing, everyone's sobbing

Lol no battery

Ok nm Joel made one

Tommy!

The Rules!!!!!!!!!!

What you say goes.

Ughhhhh

He didn't reset the radio thats why the radio played 🥲

Ellie grabbing toilet paper lol

THE SHIRTTTTTTTT

Ellie leave the grandfather clock alone

Ope she found a gun

I have a flannel like the one Joel puts on 🙂🙂🙂 (he looks so fine <3)

Hey Ellie knew how to drive in the game!

The cassette :)

That ending shot 👌💗💗💗

WHERES THE GAY PORN?! Literally all I could mark on my bingo card this episode smh

I do like having literally all of Bill's section of the game different from the game, but I do miss Bill talking to himself, all his little notes to himself, and literally all of the highschool. Idk I just love how they handled Bill and Frank's relationship and we got to see Frank at all versus in the game we just find his body covered in bites.

Ok ok trailer for ep4:

Joel has coffee!

Hunters!!!!!!!

Who's that girl hunting Joel 👀

Anyway, updated bingo card-

Edit: forgot to mention red is ep1, yellow ep2. Music got crossed off twice bc I can and I love the music :)

As always if you wanna talk about the episode or have something you want written for Joel, my askbox is open!

Ok ok ok The Last of Us episode 1 thoughts below!

• CLIMATE CHANGE?! (Love that honestly)

• Not me sobbing at the intro (I HOPED they'd do something like the games intro so this was a perfect surprise)

• Joels shirt is inside out 😭 (ok noticed this before it was mentioned)

• Let the man have his coffee Sarah

• Gabriel as tommy?! Sounds almost identical omggg

• The neighbors 😭 (oh I understand now.....)(I like how they changed the changing/infected neighbor scene)

• Desert Storm???? 👀

• Sarah fixing the watch instead of getting him a new one 🥺

• Sarah's backpack is so cute omg

• The dog 🥲

• "Drugs. I sell hard-core drugs." Happy screams

• Joel and his shitty movies smh (hope this is ref later with ellie and joels movie nights)

�� Dammit Tommy, jail, really??

• Yo wtf grandma. No joke the cordyceps out of her mouth?!?!?

• The truck scene was done so welllllllllll

• Jimmy's place!!!

• The planes (OMFG THE PLANE)

• Ooo the car crash separating them, I approve

• These bitches CREEPY (Love that they have no fine motor control)

• Joel begging 🥲🥲🥲

• That is infact a small child (😭😭😭)(🥲🥲🥲)

• DONT YOU TWENTY YEARS LATER ME YOU BITCHES (both 2014 Hannah and 2023 Hannah)

Sarah's death was sadder here and I stand by that

• The amount of time it takes to change depending on where your bit poster is 👌👌👌

• Joel doing actual work in the QZ is kinda really funny to me (sewer maintenance) (now this is more like it....wait drug dealing??)

• MUSICCCCCCCC

• HANGING?????? IN THE QZ??? BY FEDRA???

• Tess 🥰🥰🥰

• Ooo truck battery and not guns (what about your guy?- He answers to me FUCK YEAH HE DOES....WAIT oh fuck explosion! Well fuck you anyway Robert)

•  ELLIE!! (SHE HAS HER EYEBROW SCAR! And her sense if humor) (veronica?) (unchain my child please)

• Oooo message operator! (TOMMY!) (Slavers 🤔)

• Joel planning a trip already is genius (wtf you doing drinking and doing pills?!)

• The watch 🥲

• Those walls are THIN or that baby is LOUD

• Marleneeeeeee

• I love all the yellow wires, ik in the game it was an obvious way to show you where to go, but u like that its been added to the show

• Oh damn, rip unnamed firefly Marlene talked too, you're dying in the capital (kim) (ope her ear)

• Tell me to look for the light and ill break your jaw 🥰🥰🥰

• Ellie getting water on her face lmao

• The knife 🥺

• Atleast the wrapped the handcuff so it wouldn't hurt her

• Don't talk about Riley bitch, I will fight you

• I like all the water dripping, good touch

• Joel talking construction 🥰🥰🥰

• Ok but that wallpaper in the hallway with the dead Robert, I want

• Well ellie you tried, but Joel is better

• Ellie is in fact feral, love her

• Give ellie her knife dammit (yes ellie I agree that was an asshole move)

• Ope don't mention Tommy

• What are they capable of?- alot ellie, alot

• You all talk it out but please remember I am bleeding out 😭😭😭

• God I love my husband

• Ellies shoes squishing 🤢

• Bill and Frank 🥺

• Your watch us broken 🥲

• Ok but why is all the wallpaper cute in this episode?!

• Ellie figuring out the radio code shes so smart i love her

• That door (or whatever you wanna call it) was hidden perfectly omg

• Worst time to take a piss (hahahahaha honestly fuck that guy)

• Pedro's eyes 😩 (oh fuck wait hes fucking that guy upppp)

• PTSD!!!

• THE RADIOOOOOOOOO

• THE RADIO AS IT PANS OVER THE CITY AND WE HEAR INFECTED?!? so good

• The trailer!

• The city landscapes 😩😩😩

• Frank!!!!

• There's no halfway with this, we finish what we started *indistinct screeching*

If you read all this PLEASE send me Joel thoughts, I wanna talk about my husband! Also if you want me to explain any of these ASK MEEEE!! Also, Also, I'll be doing this for every episode so if wanna be tagged in these just if be down 👉👈