#internal brain states

[likesdoodling]

Been the victim of morbid inspiration yet again ~ this is a representation of Annatar's mental state/his ties to all the past preconceptions that are... Very messed up. from The Harrowing by Chthonion :D

(I was originally gonna do this with a vague image of Melkor in the background and have it be pre-redemption Sauron, but then decided I didn't want to go quite that dark- so this is the toned down version :D)

@chthonion

>:)

[communistkenobi]

Re: ep3 in Andor, I very recently watched The Ascent and I feel like that film does a better job of demonstrating how fascists move through villages looking for partisans/undocumented people and also how partisan fighters themselves often engage in similar behaviour when they move through villages, asking for food and shelter and taking resources from already precarious populations, something that stokes local resentments and can encourage locals to help the enemy/rat people out/etc in exchange for money or exemptions from the occupation’s brutality. Like often colonial and occupying governments use locals to enforce their will because it’s easier and they need someone knowledgeable of the area. like Andor does engage with this a little bit but idk I do feel like history is much messier than this. but also this is star war

[elviraaxen]

I'm probably not the first to admit this but goddamn was I a narcissistic prick when I wasn't on stimulants

[itspileofgoodthings]

had a very nice realization about peace, especially spiritual peace, the other day. (Been brewing for a while.) and it’s just: peace is for the non-peaceful.

[dosesofcommonsense]

Nothing has changed. A compromised pollster puts out a fake poll. Kalshi bets dropped Trump lower. Kamala surged because the internal polling is that bad.

Vote like your life depends on it because it does.

TOO BIG TO RIG.

100M and growing.

The Unity Ticket is set to oust the Globalist tyrants.

Don’t give into the Psyop. Go vote, and we win.

[gibbearish]

btw similar to the whole "if you try adderall at a party and it calms you down, get an adhd test" thing, if at some point in your life you try microdosing shrooms with a friend and end up feeling like a functional person for the first time in your life, get tested for depression. like yeah hallucinogens come with elation so youre probably gonna have some "this is the best ive ever felt in my life" vibes regardless, but like. if that in and of itself feels like finally breathing in for the first time in years, thats for sure a sign that something is up with your ability to process serotonin most of the time. feeling better than ever before should be a nice bonus, not a crushing weight off your chest

[smile-files]

do you ever wish you could use a memory-erasing gun on yourself so you forget about all of the characters and stories you've come up with but which you know you'll never bring to life and thus have become more of an existential burden than anything

[themoderatespeaks]

Okay, this is exactly what I was afraid of the first time Trump was in office. His ultimatum to Iran last night and his mysterious "much bigger" agenda that is "better than a ceasefire" makes it crystal clear that he has already committed the US to war.

Because going to war was always the trump card he was willing to play if public opinion started to really go against him. He will absolutely do this for the sole purpose of being a wartime president—a time-honored way for any wannabe dictator to swing more public opinion and grant himself more emergency powers and really crack down on dissent. And Trump is a man who runs headfirst into gambles like this. And I hate it say this, but it's a smart play.

To be clear, Netanyahu has stated that the bombings have already set Iran's nuclear program back by years. A declaration of war is not necessary at this time.

So yeah, this scares me more than anything else he's done so far.

God have mercy on us, and on the people of Iran.

[bare1ythere]

GOD University makes me so depressed

[its-your-mind]

The way you write Tim's dissociation from himself and his masks is so delicious and personal to me I adore it so much. Thank you for your writing. 🙏

ahhh ty! I'm glad it reads well!! it's based pretty heavily on my own experience with DID, actually. every time a writer Really Nails Tim (i.e. the multiple thought patterns going through his head all at once) I'm like "he's just like me fr fr"

tbqh that's one of the things that made me want to write fanfic about him. I wanted to really really drill down into the fact that he's constantly compartmentalizing and molding himself into the correct form for the situation, and take the commonly used trope of "TDW and Robin are Very Distinct from just Regular Tim" to its logical (to me) extreme.

not to get Too deep into it but I don't have alters like the kind most people think of when they think of DID. there is a whole squad running things up there, but everyone in my head is Me - just separated out and scattered to fulfill distinct functions and play different roles.

Usually therapists will say people like me (and my Tim) have "parts," rather than "alters." "Alters" is the term usually used for the type of DID that most people think of when they think of DID - one person with lots of distinct identities that can "front" as needed. For people with "parts" (me) there's a lot of internal separation of roles (ex: the way there's a part of Tim's mind that's constantly aware of and passing judgement on how he's presenting himself to the people around him) but very few parts are actually built to take full control in the way that alters tend to. In fact, if they do take over, it can cause the system to kinda fall into chaos (at least for the way my system works).

My type of brain is actually the reason they changed the diagnosis from "multiple personality disorder" to "dissociative identity disorder." I only have the one core identity, it's just dispersed for my convenience :D

That's not necessarily how everyone's parts work, but it is how mine do! And that is kinda-sorta-mostly how I'm writing Tim. He's almost always still aware of the world around him (concussions notwithstanding) when he's presenting as one of his parts. He'll pull out the TDW part or the Robin part to take control of external interaction as needed. They're not playing a part - they are versions of him that exist - but he's still Tim within his own mind. TDW and Robin (and civilian-Tim, or any other face Tim puts on) are all built from a Tim-based foundation. They just pull forward or tuck away whatever specific Tim-bits are required for the role they perform.

From an external perspective, it looks like compartmentalization and masking and code-switching dialed up to eleven. From an internal perspective, it's like... Well, it's like how I've written Tim :D

[rotzaprachim]

I think people getting their politics from animated movies for children is so annoying. That being said I think Nimona was Unironically one of the most ideologically complex and serious treatments of modern antisemitism I’ve ever seen.

[fluviusevos]

i don't have a continuous/relentless internal monologue in the way people usually describe it but i am always thinking about something

[moafleco]

i hate that duality that your mind can be your safe heaven that helps you get through some difficult things, keeps you going and brings you happiness at the worst of times. and at the very same time it could be your worst tormentor that won't let you rest and won't let you breathe, literally for no particular reason at all. and you can't leave or silence it. can't get it to stop when it gets dark in there. can't get the light in when you desperately need to feel a respite instead of suffocation.

[lieutenantselnia]

I currently have to write a thesis, work on the biggest project in my entire study programme and will have to start preparing for my bachelor's exam at some point, and my brain thinks now it's a good time to get back into Red Dead Redemption 2👍

[blacknidstang]

Every damn time it drives me insane how soulless sam reminds me of dissociative episodes after some very very emotionally taxing period. Like there are times i wake up and i feel like a clone of myself, i know my past self, i know i had emotions, i know i felt things but at that moment all of these feel so so far away and so alien. That complete drainage, the way your brain just shuts all sorts of feelings down. It was so scary when i became aware of that at one point bc how do you go from feeling so intensely to this? It's almost like you really are no longer the real you.

I know sam's soul is practically still in hell & soulless is simultaneously wondering the earth but to me this will always be a metaphor for post traumatic experience/emotionally intense dissociation. Like even not considering hell itself, s5 sam was the most miserable broken state already. Boy i sure would stop feeling anything at all anymore after that. Anyway i am no professional in that field but that's how i see it based on very personal experiences

[the-kipsabian]

will ospreay called me luv btw :)