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will ospreay called me luv btw :)
#it put me in a state for a moment lmao#he was offering me the belt to hold for photos. and he was like 'would you like to hold the belt luv'#still internally screaming#his voice is so nice tho god. what a lovely chap he is#also as established earlier he really liked my hair and did see my inspiration for it when he saw my kip shirt#he also laughed at me when i told him i even painted my nails to match. but he was so kind about it#(i also did show him my tattoo. will was very impressed and he was like 'has he seen it' and im like 'OH HE KNOWS. trust me he knows#and he wont stop talking about it' and will just laughed at me again like 'yeah i get that hes like that' and yeah)#what a good fella 💜#anyways theres the long and shorts of that meet and greet lmao#slowly getting through yelling about everything at yall when my brain can process more things lol#night is an absolute mess on main
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Pentagon fan concert day 2 highlights
Hui and Yeo One entangled in a hug for like a good 10 seconds off to the side (I don't think the camera caught it)
Shinwon spinning in his chair frequently during the talking portion
Kino slapping Shinwon's butt when he went up to get water
Yuto making fun of Jinho's choreo mistakes during Happiness
Everyone was just really upbeat and joking tonight!!
Kino faking us out by saying there was only going to be one final song this time instead of two because of going over time, which thankfully was a lie
The stage manager telling us that they were going to cut out the last "love you" lines during Spring Snow, so that way it would just be Unis singing to ptg as a surprise
Hongseok's Phoenix line with his sunglasses
OMG CHANGGU KILLED IT DURING HIS SOLO TONIGHT HOLY SHIT (I think he was better than Jinho's solo tonight tbh) please find a recording of you didn't see it
Hui seemed more alert tonight haha
Also Hui crying? Hongseok managed to hold it together by reading his lines, and then both Jinho and Yeo One pulled out papers with their speeches, and Yeo One apologized saying that his was really long
Then Yuto faking us out like he was going to pull out a speech
Kino flinging water into the audience, and then the members emptying their water on his head at the end
WOOSEOK
CAME
TO
THE
BALCONY
HE WAS LIKE 6-8 FEET AWAY FROM ME
I should have jumped into the empty row in front of me just so I could touch his hand
I actually screamed in surprise because I was *not* expecting any of the members to trek up 3 floors to the balcony
Wooseok is a lot paler than I expected
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CHARON CONFIRMED SHOPKEEPER IN HADES 2 BUT ALSO
Hermes is missing?
AND CHARON NEEDS COMFORTED OVER IT???
im already out of my mind about it
#hades game#hades 2#hades 2 spoilers#Charon hades#charmes#melinoe#AAAHHHHHH#I'm screaming and crying (internally)#I can wait for early access oh MY GOD#I'm breaking out the conspiracy board now#yay theyre still professional associates#also the game looks good cant forget that
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Don't mind me, just slacking on a big Billford comic by making other far more ridiculous Billford comics and also some AU art (please excuse my slapdash human!Bill thank you please, also before anyone asks the art style is messy and all over the place because idgaf LOL)
This started out as an excuse to design a Bill Cipher-inspired "wedding" dress, but then spiraled wildly out of control. Various rambles and a bunch more human!Bill arts under the cut, including another silly little comic at the end! (Feel free to skip the rambles, I won't be offended. I know I'm bad at shutting up. XD)
I may or may not write some comedy stuff for this AU, which I'm calling 'For Better Or Worse (But Mostly Worse)'. While Ford DOES remember getting sloshed enough for one thing to lead to making out with another after karaoke, neither he nor Bill remember this wedding, At All. The Love God did nothing to dissuade them from going hog wild on their marriage spending, either, so it got...uh. Exorbitantly Expensive. As in, the grand total could probably buy the entire fucking MOON sort of expensive. (It's fine, don't worry, Bill's good enough at crime to be able to afford it.) Also, because the logic of this AU is mostly dictated by Rule of Funny, the Love God's powers are close to unlimited when it comes to matters of romance, but ONLY when it comes to matters of romance. (Like weddings!)
Want an empty human vessel to smash the soul of a triangle into for date nights or when it's convenient, or perhaps even when it's NOT convenient? Easy peasy! Want the marriage to be recognized in every corner of the multiverse from now until the end of time, thus making any potential future divorce nigh-on impossible? Can do! Want to buy an entire beach for the ceremony and honeymoon and in general, and totally not at all because it would be Super Hilarious to prevent any specific movies from being made on that very same beach in the future? Fine, whatever, it's not his finances he's ruining!
Does the Love God also provide special rings that just so happen to turn incorporeal as long as the "happy couple" doesn't remember that they barged into his dreams to bully him into presiding over their marriage? ...No comment!
He spends the next thirty years trying and failing to get in touch with either of them for payment. This is why you should always demand half the money up front, my guy!
Also it's absolutely a traditional Jewish wedding, because I like the idea of Bill demanding all the keepsakes from the marriage that he paid for, and being completely confused when one of the things he's handed is a fancy container full of broken glass. He gets it later, but in the moment, he thinks the Love God is just fucking with him some more.
Ramble over! Here's the full dress that caused the comic to happen, along with what Ford wound up wearing at the wedding (and begrudgingly agreeing to put on again later for Reasons), aaaaand also a close-up of Bill's ring:
I may have forgotten to draw Bill's hair floofier when drawing the back of the dress, lmao
Since double ring ceremonies have been leaking over into Jewish wedding customs for a while now, Ford also has a ring, but his is the much more traditional plain gold band. There's definitely a message engraved on the inside - embarrassing, cringe, or incriminating somehow - but I haven't decided what it is yet, so use your imagination for now. XD Bill, on the other hand, saw the phrase 'traditional plain gold band' and said "No Thank You" before proceeding to embellish his ring to his liking. And because he's a secret sap who adores Ford's extra fingers, the triangle points add up to twelve, as do the engraved stars. Yes, they're stars, not dots, I just got lazy. There's also six lashes on the eye gem, and probably an eye engraving on the inside with another six lashes. (Bill's got it BAD, okay? We all know this.)
Here are the initial scribbles of Bill's custom vessel in more casual attire, please ignore the wonky anatomy and the fact that I flat out refuse to ever draw him with a proper top hat:
He does actually need a cane in this vessel; since Bill tends to possess men and especially Ford more often than not, he's used to having a higher center of gravity when in a human body, so his ability to balance is pretty garbage. (He may or may not topple over with concerning regularity.) As for his empty eye socket, his bangs don't do much to hide it since he's so high-energy (dude is constantly on the move), and he also refuses to wear a patch over it, because 1.) why bother, and 2.) it's more fun to freak people out.
To better align with Ford's attraction towards the strange, the vessel was designed with super minor shapeshifting ability - Bill can look like a perfectly normal human, but he can also make the teeth and fingers sharper whenever he likes (which is mostly just when he's angry or being more of a menace than usual), as well as slit down the pupils or outright ditch the irises altogether. He can also have whatever he wants in the downstairs department, just because I'm an indecisive bitch on that front, lmao. Maybe he can have boobs if he wants them, too, but I ain't drawin' tits on no triangle, nuh-uh, no sir. His powers are otherwise limited down to what humans can do, because for some reason, the Love God doesn't trust Bill to not snap into Immediate Apocalypse Mode if he's given a physical form that's actually all his and no one else's.
Due to the body being all his and no one else's, it's also not really a standard possession so much as it is just...Bill being temporarily human. He's a lot more aware of and in tune with his human body's senses than he ever was with his "puppets", which makes things like pain a lot more intense. (He is mostly fine with this, because he's a fukken masochist.)
A bit more fashion stuff, including beach and party attire~
The beach outfit was mostly me trying and failing to nail down his body shape, which is still not bottom-heavy enough. I then decided to slap a bikini on it, before making it supremely unsexy with a pair of fugly shorts, because Bill's fashion choices are not allowed to be conventionally attractive. Meanwhile, the party outfit was mostly me looking at the casual attire I designed, asking 'how would Bill make this Worse', and then drawing the result. The mismatched thigh-highs are killing me inside! :D
No, his vessel can't actually summon fire, I just drew it for funzies before I decided on said vessel's limitations. Yes, the gold brick tattoos are absolutely a reference to the fic 'Knowing Me, Knowing You' - I simply could not resist.
I also HAD to draw Bill in one of his canonical(?) shirts, just made tank-top'd:
He is absolutely about to over-correct and fall backwards after this. USE YOUR CANE, GOOFBALL!!! (I meant to draw Bill closer to this degree of bottom-heavy in the other images, but. Alas. I am bad at anatomy, LOL)
And, last but not least before More Comic Time, I attempted to draw him closer to Gravity Falls style:
Jury's out on whether or not I succeeded, but - hey. I tried. Now have some Handyman Bill AU, but with my goofy human design, instead:
Hey, it's a 'mystery snack', and the guy wanted A BITE to eat - the joke was right there, guys!!! (Based on this post, because it just screamed BILL CIPHER to me.)
whoops i forgor bills ring and cracks ahaha too late now
I WILL SHUT UP AND STOP RAMBLING NOW K THX BYYYYYE
#fanart#gravity falls#billford#bill cipher#stanford pines#stanley pines#the love god#human bill cipher#human bill design#fashion design#comics#poor stan gets to find out his twin boinked a triangle when the love god shows up at the mystery shack demanding payment LMAO#cue internal panic for stan as dipper and mabel lose their collective shit over the fact that they now have a surprise new grunkle bill#the love god helps himself get paid by teaching the kids how to trap bill in his human vessel for the foreseeable future#bill is bewildered and pissed but also very much 'holy shit i have a FAMILY again??? neat but terrifying??????? what the F*CK do i do now'#he then proceeds to attempt to lovebomb his new family into being okay with the impending apocalypse#all while the three of them attempt to lovebomb HIM into giving up his plans for said impending apocalypse#then two days later ford shows up and is just like. what the ACTUAL F*CK IS HAPPENING???#cue stan immediately screaming 'I HAD TO PRETEND TO BE THAT THING'S HUSBAND FOR TWO DAYS STRAIGHT SO F*CK YOU AND YOUR BAD TASTE FOR THAT!'#stan spends those two days straight dropping very sour hints that he's being punished for someone else's terrible mistakes#bill finds this absolutely hilarious and thus plays along - but not without dropping his own hints that ford is the FAR superior twin#dipper and mabel have ZERO idea of what is actually going on because the love god did NOTHING to clarify the situation#dipper is convinced that stan and bill are speaking in some kind of bizarre code that only adults can understand#mabel is convinced that the code is flirting - which means stan and bill are going to live happily ever after and have tons of kids + pets#NEITHER of them are prepared for ford showing up. not that they were in canon. but still. now it's even MORE crazy#'what do you mean we get TWO NEW GRUNKLES???' 'two grunkles in two days - gotta be some kinda record'#ford then has to decide if he wants to remain justifiably furious at bill or join the other pines in lovebombing him into submission#he then gets to learn that lovebombing bill works surprisingly well because that triangle is just The Biggest Attention Wh*re#the entire AU would just be ridiculous antics with a splash of billford#these tags are an abomination lmao
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Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.
Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.
Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.
Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.
#pjo#percy jackson#nico di angelo#Percy shows up at CJ and squints at Nico like ''hm. why do i feel like i hate you? like i just wanna punch you in the face?''#and Nico just immediately goes ''huh no idea anyways i have to go-'' and jumps into Tartarus#but not before he gives Hazel essentially a detailed explanation of ''this is Percy i cant say much but please dont let him die <3''#and Nico's whole Tartarus trip was basically a whole ''im doing this so no one else has to''#only for Percy and Annabeth to fall in like one book later and Nico proceeds to spend the next book internally screaming about it#and then Cupid calls him out on it and the next book#Nico's just like ''at this point im hoping i keel over within the next week just so i can force this dumb crush to chill the fuck out''#Nico staring pointedly at Will: ''For my own sake i need to form another crush RIGHT NOW so i can finally get over Percy.''#''this has been so bad for my health''#Nico's crush on Percy is just too funny to me. horrible pick my guy. terrible job. love that for you. he could not be less interested.#Percy LITERALLY TRIES TO KILL NICO and ditch him in the underworld and Nico is somehow STILL like ''but i love him''#Percy basically chokes him. beats up his dad. tells him ''go get smited by your dad for me.'' and ditches him.#and Nico's opinions/crush on him DO NOT CHANGE#though also Nico's reaction to Percy beating up his dad + skeletons is SO funny. his jaw is on the floor. he's flustered about it.#he just witnessed Percy be incredibly hot and proceeded to go ''yea i'll do anything for this man. collect reinforcements of 3 gods? sure''#nico you absolute DISASTER with HORRIBLE TASTE. you can do better. raise your standards.#which tbh is funnier when you factor in sun and the star. Nico just wont stop crushing on guys who dislike him and everything he stands for
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legolas and gimli are those friends who go “idk i’m fine with whatever you choose” when you try to ask them where they want to eat while aragorn is internally screaming
“I said that it was a hard choice,” said Aragorn. “How shall we end this debate?”
“You are our guide,” said Gimli, “and you are skilled in the chase. You shall choose.”
“My heart bids me go on,” said Legolas. “But we must hold together. I will follow your council.”
“You give the choice to an ill chooser,” said Aragorn.
The Two Towers, J. R. R. Tolkien
#the last few chapters have been aragorn offering a question and everyone else going “idk man ur in charge’’#and aragorn internally screaming and cursing gandalf for putting him in charge#ik he’s more i gotta fulfill my destiny in the books but he still has such whyyyyyyy why meeeeee energy lmao#reading lotr#the two towers#the three hunters#tolkien#lotr#lord of the rings#aragorn#legolas#gimli#jrr tolkien#lotr quotes
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Billy: Huh, there's a rainbow in the sky
Stu: I didn't know you could fly
Billy:
Stu:
Billy, about to strangle him: The fuck is that supposed to mean??
#billy has a spice of internalized homophobia#mind you theyre already fucking by now but billy is still totally straight right guys?#stuilly#stu x billy#billy x stu#stu macher#billy loomis#scream movie#scream#scream 1996#stu macher x billy loomis#billy loomis x stu macher#internalized homophobia#gotta love a sip of that every now and then
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THAT FUCKING DEER
#IF YOU KNOW ME PERSONALLY (YOU PROBABLY STILL WON'T KNOW THIS) BUT YOU'LL KNOW I'VE BEEN OBSESSED OVER THAT DEER SCENE IN ISSUE 2 EVER#SINCE IT FIRST CAME OUT. 'THAT FUCKING DEER' IS MY INTERNAL CATCHPHRASE AT THIS POINT EVERY TIME I START FEELING THINGS#AND THE FUCKING DEER CAME BACK IN A BEAUTIFUL CIRCLE OF HOW LIFE PERSISTS DESPITE LOSS#DANIEL WARREN JOHNSON IF I EVER MEET YOU I'M GOING TO SCREAM AT YOU (I WILL NOT ACTUALLY BECAUSE I WANT TO BE POLITE BUT STILL)#transformers#transformers skybound#transformers 2023#transformers spoilers#spike witwicky#optimus prime#my post
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GRAB LITERALLY EVERYTHING AND THROW IT ALL OUT THE WINDOW LET’S TRY THINK ABOUT THIS
THEY FINALLY DID IT
THEY FINALLY CONFIRMED THAT ALL THE WEIRDLY ALIGNED FACTS JUST DIDN’T ALIGN NEATLY ENOUGH FOR ALL THE HINTS TO BE REAL
CARDCAPTOR SAKURA IS NOT LAVA LAMP’S MOTHER
DESPITE EVERYTHING
BUT THEY MET ONCE
And I’m just going to lie down and have to force all my thoughts to be back in line with reality for a while how do I do that.
SO.
Confirmed: Here is Cardcaptor Sakura
Cardcaptor Sakura HAS MET Lava Lamp’s mother, in the dream realm
It is a little difficult to gauge exactly how old she is from here but it’d definitely have to be after the Cardcaptor Sakura manga. And most likely after Clear Card in the timeline, even though that didn't exist yet. She looks a lot older - and Clear Card is only a few months after the original manga, rather than years.
Anyway. What a way to find out that I have to make even more charts than I was already doing.
#I’m sorry I’m still internally screaming#My head is just ringing with the appearance of Cardcaptor Sakura#This is everything to me#AND THEY JUST DROP IT CASUALLY IN CONVERSATION#Liveblogging the reservoir chronicle#Vol 217#Tsubasa#Sakura Sakura Sakura Sakura#Cardcaptor Sakura Sakura#AND THAT’s NOT EVEN TAKING INTO ACCOUNT#THAT THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SHE’S TALKING TO HER CHILDREN#IN YEARS#LIKE OVER 14 YEARS FOR LAVA LAMP#PROBABLY MORE THAN THAT FOR BOTH OF THEM#How touching that she starts by trying to comfort them#With the most powerful comforting phrase she knows of#IE THE ONE DIRECTLY FROM CARDCAPTOR SAKURA#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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…What’s this?? WWX not being a self-sacrificial idiot??
It’s almost like… that isn’t a personality trait…
#and what?? he’s directly asking for help?? :oo#refinement 7#mdzs chapter 17#i can mostly deal with other takes in the fandom i don���t agree with#like yeah i may not agree with them personally but i can pretty much ignore them#and i know that would ideally be the case for all takes#but this one…#*screams into pillow*#idk why exactly but it’s just such a big pet peeve#ofc i won’t harrass anyone or (mean spiritedly) hijack posts bc. why do that it just harms people#so it’s mostly internal (and also means i write and rb a lot of posts about the contrary)#but if it isn’t my biggest irk in the fandom…#skye rereads mdzs#<- i am still doing chapter by chapter analyses but i’ve decided to reread without stopping first#since that gives me a more coherent picture of the book i think#so those will come but later — this is just something that stood out to me
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THIS IS SO SWEET AFGSKJSN
Probably a bad idea posting my face… but do u like my Halloween costume
#I literally asked all my friends how I should respond to this#none of them knew#still internally screaming#of course you can be my frank
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finally played the Touchstarved demo by @/redspringstudio, fully expecting to be obsessed with Mhin but then Leander appeared, procured a flower out of magic, held my hand and flashed a charming smile so here we are
#touchstarved#leander#touchstarved leander#touchstarved mc#doodle#i need to draw him properly but i'm still screaming internally over the touch his face scene#20230418
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OBSESSING over Kekkai Sensen again like it’s 2015 and I just found the show all over again
I am OBSESSED with Klaus and Leo’s relationship because it is fundamentally a man who is as intimidating as possible and a man who is as unintimidating as possible forming a bond of trust that begins with the very first meeting and only strengthens over time. Leonardo is the tiniest little guy and Klaus is so big and when you put the pair of them right beside each other, it is the funniest visual contrast.
And they both have the primary colour of red, the colour of passion and pain and suffering and obsession because they are both passionate and pained and suffering and obsessed and they fit together so well, with Leonardo seeing exactly what Klaus needs, they are a functionally perfect duo.
And they trust each other so much, SO MUCH. Leo trusts Klaus more than anyone else in the office (he SAYS SO in the manga) and Klaus trusts what Leo says without a second thought (partially because he is just that type of guy) and Leo is constantly and consistently thinking about making Klaus proud of him and Klaus’ words are what give him the courage to keep moving forward and Klaus gets questioned on hiring Leo so many times but always says it’s Very Necessary and-
The mach monkey is so fucking cute I can barely even stand it. He has a little face and those big old eyes and he is the cutest little fucker ever drawn and I just want to cuddle and snuggle him for forever because Leo could have killed him and chose to look beneath the surface level of the situation and saved him and he is just a little itty bitty monkey who is perfect in every way and I love him with my whole heart and then some because how did someone draw such a perfect creature-
Anyway. I’ve been a tad into Blood Blockade Battlefront recently.
#the inane ramblings of a madman#blood blockade battlefront#kekkai sensen#leonardo watch#klaus von reinherz#mach monkey#sonic my lil baby buddy i love you#‘i recently got into kekkai sensen’ is a lie#i have been into this series for nearly a decade now#and i still go crazy every time i think about the Them#klausleo#leoklaus#you know#the Them#i love this ship it fills my heart with joy they are so cute#have you SEEN the panels?????#have you SEEN klaus’ lil chibi form???#i love this man i want him to have a boyfriend who trusts him more than gravity#and i love leo i want him to have a boyfriend who can tuck him in his coat and carry him away#i am foaming at the mouth#i need five weeks to sit completely still and internally scream#so#the usual
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great shearwaters (ardenna gravis), ireland
#procellariiformes#procellariidae#ardenna#great shearwater#tubenose#seabirds#birds#birdwatching#bird photography#display flight#still screaming internally over this#they're my fave tubenose ever
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I just need to read one fic in which people actually apologize to Dick. Somehow it's only Bruce that I've seen giving a genuine apology in fanfics and that feels wrong (but also, props to B for that).
Everytime a member of the family is mad at him for a misunderstanding or something he didn't even do, after they find out the truth, they just don't apologize.
It's always Dick apologizing and then everything being okay because 'Hey! We felt hurt first even though it wasn't really your fault, but it's only fair we get away with this now that we started treating you well!' and Dick just... Accepts it. Because of course he will, right? Can't push it, who knows how long it'll last.
They're all being nice to him now, he should be grateful they're attempting to reciprocate his kindness! Look at them hugging when just a few hours prior they were making Dick feel like shit about himself, aren't they lovely?
And listen, I'm all here for Dick acknowledging his mistakes and apologizing for anything he might've done wrong in the fic, but would it hurt for Dick to receive those apologies instead? Why is he always the first one to say sorry? Why can't the others take the initiative for once?
Anyhow, I better end the ramble there.
Point is, Dick deserves apologies. Hugs won't cut it forever.
#thank you for coming to my ted talk#had to rant bout this after I read a fic in which everyone was excluding dick from the family and at the end he forgives them like nothing#they literally were rubbing in his face the fact that they had fun together while he had no idea about it#*after describing all the fun activities dick was never part of* “but now you can join us! so we're all good right?”#dick: yay! wonderful#(I do not believe for a second he wasn't screaming internally during that conversation)#since it was a bit ooc I shouldn't expect much when not even the events followed canon but still#it hurt reading that last part to end it with the 'and they lived happily ever after!' when nothing was actually resolved#dick grayson#nightwing#dc fanfic#dc#dc comics#batfamily#batfam
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I'm being very normal about this chapter.
#how writing is written#INTERNALLY SCREAMING#will anyone still read this#Is it good#me thinking it's good doesn't mean anyone else will#EVERYTHING IS FINE#LOOK AT HOW NORMAL I'M BEING
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