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Aziraphale's smile at the end reminds me of Queen's 'The Show Must Go On'.
#inside my heart is breaking#my makeup maybe flaking#but my smile still stays on#good omens 2#good omens s2 spoilers#good omens
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the show (going out to get groceries. making myself a nice dinner. showering and opening the windows. being kind to myself in everything i do) Must go on
#moulin rouge#inside my heart is breaking#my makeup must be flaking#you have to find the will to carry on#poorly remembered lyrics
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Ain’t it the truth. But the show must go on. The show must go on.
Say it again.
The show must go on.
#quoting Wisp#from the end of Enough if you remember (i know this was you V)#and then Moulin Rouge#inside my heart is breaking#my makeup may be flaking#but my smile will stay on#THE SHOW MUST GO ON#I’m not allowed to break#even tho I’m very not okay#so this became one of those posts#i'm not okay#idk if i'm ever going to be okay again#but the show must go on
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Fangs of Fortune 𓆩𓆪 Zhuo Yichen & Zhao Yuanzhou
#in honor of me breaking my own heart i present you with the same#now to business: this show both is and isn't subtle about the relationship between these two#no matter what form it is in these two idiots love each other and would willingly die for one another no hesitation#i mean here when ZYZ is about to destroy the barrier with everyone inside ZYC basically just accepts it because it means that ZYZ can live#and this little inaudible scene has got me in a soggy meltdown lately because ZYC is saying something! But we can't hear it!#but what is it that he's saying!? AAhnnnnnng#i'll just leave it here for everyone to see#and go cry by myself#😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😖#fangs of fortune#zhuo yichen#zhao yuanzhou#tian jiarui#hou minghao#da meng gui li#大梦归离#mf fof#my:gif#cdrama#i am very unwell right now by the way
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"Old friend... I miss you so much. I'm so sorry."
#genesis rhapsodos#crisis core#final fantasy vii#ff7#dirge of cerberus#angeal hewley#buster sword#aerith's church#post doc Genesis#post doc#ff7doc#ff7dc#yes my heart was *breaking* the entire time I was working on this oh my GOD#if it wasn't clear a recently woken Genesis has stumbled across Aerith's church#and found good ol' buster inside#and he gets very very emotional about Angeal#many regrets#many laments#one day I'll write the damn fic that goes with this#but for now#enjoy the pain#(also crazy realisation but this is my FIRST TIME EVER drawing post-DoC Genesis)#what the hell#it's been like EIGHTEEN YEARS WHAT#also#banorawhite#I FINISHED IT DKFJASDJASK
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Like father uncle like son nephew
#they mean the world to me#so much can be said about why donald harnesses his anger issues into parental instincts#he was so afraid of anything happening to the boys after della disappeared that he took himself to therapy so they could be iminently safer#and huey being given that trait makes sm sense to me#yes dewey is the more donald coded nephew#but huey is so meticulous and masks everything about himself every waking minute#he’s bound to have donald level anger brewing inside him#they both channel their anger in order to be more responsible#huey developed a lot of donald’s traits because he respected him growing up#he learnt so much from him and remembered so many life lessons#idk man they break my heart#ducktales#dt17#ducktales 2017#ducktales gifs#donald duck#huey duck#gif set#disney#disney tva
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3 y/o Damian: Mama?
Talia: What?
3 y/o Damian, growling : Not you!
*awkward silence *
LoA's Jason: M-me?
3 y/o Damian: Duh?! Come here! Read me a bedtime tale! *takes Jason by the hand and leaves with him *
#If you look closely you can actually pinpoint the exact moment Talia's heart breaks in two#That day something changed inside Talia#damian wayne#damianwayne#damian robin#robin damian#robin dc#dc robin#robin#jason todd#jasontodd#redhood#red hood#talia al ghul#TaliaAlGhul#Jason took care of Damian in the LoA#mama jason#you know#me and my headcanons
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People keep claiming Chinese BL manhua really only have stories featuring toxic male leads, so I offered to give recommendations with green flags... Someone finally said yes, so here's what I typed up in response!:
I Ship My Rival x Me:
One of my personal favourites!
Based on the hilarious novel, commonly known as I Ship My Adversary x Me and also has an audio drama adaptation on MaoEr FM. Basically a story about two actors who are seen as complete rivals by everyone except the actors themselves, which annoys the main character (Wei Yanzi) enough that when he discovers there are actual fans who ship them instead of pit them against one another, he’s so excited he sort of starts shipping them too (in like, an abstract, theoretical manner lmao). This of course causes shenanigans as he actually gets to know the person who people ship him with/pit him against, Gu Yiliang.
Gu Yiliang is a true sweetheart and the greenest of green flags. He’s a complete puppy and I love him. And this means, naturally, the only misunderstandings in this story are of the hilarious kind (you’ll know what I mean if you read it lol). 😂
This one actually used to be available officially in English on the Bilibili manhua’s international app before it got shut down, but it recently got picked up by Seven Seas, the company behind a lot of official English translations of danmei (Chinese BL)!
Touch Your World:
A literally colour-blind boy (as in, he cannot see colour at all and only sees things in black and white) discovers someone who he can see colour on. This person is a designer who has suffered past betrayal and trauma that has caused him to shut himself up and grow much more on edge, but this chance meeting draws both parties out of their shells.
Pixiu’s Eatery, No Way Out:
Not a green flag top in the traditional sense, but here we meet the mythical Pixiu: an ancient Chinese mythical creature who now runs a restaurant. While he’s a penny-pincher with a temper and he doesn’t get along with his love interest at first (a ghost named Wen Xi who he finds suspicious due to Wen Xi’s ties to a past rival of his named Taotie), Pixiu and Wen Xi eventually grow, quite naturally—and hilariously!—into a found family.
The Wife Is First:
Based on a novel of pretty much the same name (and is written by the same author as the popular manhua and donghua, No Doubt in Us (a heterosexual body-swap romance, which also has a subtle gay side ship)). Here we meet Jing Shao just as he’s about to lose everything: once a royal and a powerful general, he has been betrayed by all those around him…except the husband he has never treated well.
As such, when we first meet him, we actually witness his—and his husband’s—deaths. But then he awakens and finds himself back in time to the night right after he was forced to wed this husband of his, and Jing Shao vows to treat him well from now on because he stuck with him through thick and thin despite everything.
Don’t Say You Love Me:
A high school romance with a supernatural twist: Lin Yutong was confessed to by his best friend, Qin Weiyun, at their graduation party. When he drunkenly freaked out and ran away, Qin Weiyun was hit by a car during the chase…
Devastated by his loss, Lin Yutong quickly wakes up to find himself back at the start of his high school journey, right before he meets Qin Weiyun… And this time, he wants to keep Qin Weiyun safe.
But his overly familiar attitude at first gets the wary Qin Weiyun a tad suspicious, because he’s actually quite an aloof person.
The author and artist of this one is also behind another popular manhua titled Your Dream Is Delicious, which is about a demon named Yi Kui who discovers he enjoys eating the nightmares of Lin You. This eventually leads to them—you guessed it—falling in love.
It’s Not That I Want to Wear Women’s Clothing:
Our main character is hired to crossdress to help this CEO get over his gynophobia (fear of touching women) without him knowing. Naturally, this leads to an awkward romantic journey of both identities of our main character getting close to this CEO…who at first glance seems like the typical cold and aloof CEO type, except he’s actually quite a sweetheart.
Salt Friend:
A slice-of-life high school story about the “school bully” named Tong Yang who’s actually a crybaby and the aloof person named Xiao Zhen who discovers him crying. While the two don’t seem like they’d get along at first glance, this quickly becomes a friends-to-lovers story that navigates family drama alongside the romance.
How’d I Get a Heroine’s Script?:
A transmigration story with a twist. Chao Yi is wheelchair-bound but finds himself eventually as a young lord in what is basically a palace drama (court politics, intrigue, family drama, all that good stuff). His System, Qin Que, tasks him with wooing the difficult 7th prince, Gu Yunheng, who smiles on the surface but is quite cold in actuality.
Despite the two getting off on the wrong foot—mostly because Gu Yunheng is really hard to get close to—they soon end up as unlikely allies…especially since there’s a lot of secrets, such as regarding the death of the body Chao Yi’s occupying, the scheming princes, and even Gu Yunheng himself.
See You My King:
Zhang Li, a student interested in what is basically ancient Egypt, goes on an expedition to the ruined civilization and nearly loses his life. Except at the same time, he discovers an ancient tomb with a statue that actually comes to life and saves him…
And this statue even follows him home. This statue is sweet and loving despite its inability to speak, and Zhang Li grows attached to it (or him)… But then the statue falls apart and Zhang Li is devastated.
In wishing for a miracle to bring them back together, the statue’s stone heart sends Zhang Li back in time…to when this ancient civilization is still present. And that’s how he discovers his stone statue is the “tyrant king” of this region, and as cruel as he seems at first glance, both this king and Zhang Li eventually grow close and unfold the different sides to one another that makes them inseparable in the face of all kinds of threats.
Trapping the Foxy Doctor:
A doctor and a psychiatrist meet…except it doesn’t seem like a perfect love story at first glance. Not because the doctor is traditionally foxy (seductive and/or cunning), but because he’s so silly and on-the-nose that he initially kind of rubs the psychiatrist the wrong way. Except, of course, with the kind of sunny sincerity displayed by our doctor Zhi Banyi, you can’t resist him for long…
And the psychiatrist, Lin Li, is himself quite a polite soul despite his complex upbringing. As such, the two end up together through a series of cases where they have to collaborate and help clients, with a lot of shenanigans sprinkled in between (including the fact Lin Li has a side-job live-streaming as a woman—and “she” just so happens to be Zhi Banyi’s favourite streamer lol).
Pirouette Into My Heart aka Salad Days:
You know the “he was a skater boy and she did ballet” kind of set-up? Well here we have a boxer and a ballet dancer…and hey, ���can I make it any more obvious”?
This one is basically a feel-good story of the century. It’s childhood friends to lovers, and it’s soft and cuddly and encouraging, as we follow the main character, Jiang Shen, in achieving his ballet dreams. And on every step of the way, he’s accompanied by the boxer Bai Jinyi, who’s also chasing his own dreams.
The draw of this one is that while there’s obviously conflict to drive the plot along, it’s ultimately a comforting story, so you get all warm and squishy inside reading it. Bai Jinyi and Jiang Shen are very supportive of one another, as is everyone around them.
There’s even extras at the very end that swap the classes of the two main characters, which makes for a similarly compelling AU. 🤭
Beryl and Sapphire:
Not always BL but often is. What do I mean by that? Well it’s a story that can switch to any universe even as the characters stay the same, and some worlds are just one-off gags while some are whole story arcs. The original manhua features stick figures, so if you really want to experience this one, I’d recommend the donghua. The first season also cleverly shows the main characters as actors in the OP, which explains all the world-switching pretty easily haha.
Don’t Pick Up Boyfriends from the Trash Bin:
Unfortunately I’m not sure the manhua for this one is still ongoing, but the original novel (all about transmigration and hopping multiple worlds) 100% features a green flag top.
The Guy Inside Me:
I know the title sounds sexual lol but it’s actually a joke about how it’s a body-swap story. 😆
The original Chinese title is “This Question Is Too Difficult”) and of course, the author also wrote Fake Slackers, which has two very smart students act like terrible ones due to not wanting trouble.
Falling to Where I Belong:
The thing about this one is that the top is 100% a total green flag... It's the main character that's more of a red flag, in the sense he at first only asks the top out to humiliate him due to a misunderstanding.
But it's still a heartfelt story filled with regret and growth, and I did really like the portrayal of Cheng Feichi. Personally I think the manhua humanizes him a bit more than the novel since we didn't really get his POV in the novel that often, but I did hope for even more emotion in the ending... Still, it was a satisfying read, and while I would like to comfort the main character, Zhen Yeming, over his regrets, I really want to just give all the good things to Cheng Feichi, who definitely deserves it after everything he went through.
More Than Brothers:
For the "non-freaks" out there, they're not actual brothers, don’t worry; not adopted brothers either. Just a guy who saw his younger friend as his bro…until this friend disappeared from his life and apparently got into a bad crowd… Except in reality he is being harassed and is struggling to leave his abusive family.
The Protagonist Just Wants to Fall in Love:
Kind of a classic in the transmigration genre, except now we get multiple worlds in multiple arcs. Our protagonists are Systems on their final mission, aiming to become human by the end of it, and their task is to guide their protagonists away from the path of "darkening" (essentially corruption).
And each and every one of these systems do so by getting their protagonist to fall in love with them lol.
Unsurprisingly, my favourite arc so far—in the manhua at least!—is the historical one between the advisor and the emperor, but the third—and currently ongoing as the time of me writing this—world between two university students who started getting close during military training and by playing games is also quite cute.
And okay, man I could really keep going, especially with the manhua that are based on novels, but this post is already really long asjakfl. It was, in fact, so fucking long YouTube wouldn't even let me post it at first until I cut it down AMFKGSJDFGS.
But I still want to at least give a shout out to some of the manhua with pretty healthy, green flag tops/gongs!:
Like Han Yuan, despite the characters not getting along at first and Yu Han being rather aloof to the spoiled Luo Linyuan, is still quite sweet at its core. Lovely Allergen is as well, even with their "brotherly" relationship being the forefront of the conflict between Song Yu and Yue Zishi.
Another kind I wanted to bring up is the ones where their worlds or stories are dark, but the characters aren't necessarily. Like The Film Emperor, He Insisted on Being My Patron has a very green flag gong (he's such a puppy!), but he and the main character are up against the reddest of red flags of a villain LMDFKGSJFD.
It's also not a manhua I think people who want green flag leads would necessarily enjoy, given that beyond being "darker," it also goes into the territory of fan service-y and "problematic" nsfw content, but again, the male lead is really quite sweet to the main character despite the shitty situation they're in.
And I thought of Bu Chonghua from Tunhai aka Swallowing the Seas (another one based on a novel), since the main character there, Wu Yu, comes to see Bu Chonghua as so good and just that he pushes him away because he feels like he can't dirty such a man with his own darkness, both in his past and personality. It's a trope I really enjoy.
I'll briefly mention some ⚠️ spoilers ⚠️but the reason I wanted to highlight it is because: the latest chapter of the manhua has Bu Chonghua overhear Wu Yu saying he likes Bu Chonghua, and this is after Wu Yu disappeared and Bu Chonghua is worried he skipped town for good. He follows Wu Yu, all while wondering if the like Wu Yu holds for him is the same as his liking of Wu Yu, and when Wu Yu is about to be gravely injured in an underground fighting ring, Bu Chonghua steps in to save him... The chapter ends with Wu Yu holding him back pleading with him to stop because it's not worth dirtying his hands with such a man as his opponent, and that's such a delicious flavour of angst because like...Wu Yu thinks it's fine for he himself to fight against such a person, but he doesn't want Bu Chonghua to. ;-;
Oops. I didn't mean for this to become a deeper ramble of Tunhai KMSGFKGHSJ. It's just interesting to me since Tunhai and its prequel, Poyun aka Breaking Through the Clouds, may not have what the people who prefer green flag tops want in terms of content, but its tops are technically not that much of a red flag either.
Which also get us to the kind of stories where plot can also sort of outweigh whether a top/gong is a green flag or not. Like No Arguing With Mr. Mo has two characters who struggle greatly in their relationship, with the question of "are they in love?" being an overarching issue for them, meaning it's not exactly healthy, and prevents them from being fully either green or red flags.
I also didn't bring up a lot of historical/xianxia manhua, which I'm sure some people may disagree with... Like the leads in Tianbao Fuyao Lu are arguably quite good, and while I haven't read Dinghai Fusheng Lu yet, I assume it's in a similar boat as something set in the same world.
And then there's the ones that develop into green flags... Like Mo Ran starts off awful, yes, but he does become much better later on!! But I don't think that's what those people after green flags want to hear lol. Plus I'd argue Erha is best experienced in novel (or audio drama) form over the manhua anyway—the manhua feels more like something made for established fans in my opinion.
Regardless, I hope this shows that with so many listed above, many manhua actually feature male leads who really do care for their love interests in a healthy, respectful way, whether they're 100% green flags or they develop into green flags or they're not even complete green flags. ^^
Edit: Oh I forgot to link my full list of danmei/baihe manhua recs HMSKFJSKS. I currently don’t have any summaries, tags, or content warnings in this list though, but there’s quite the range of stories!:
#manhua#danmei#kuku88#kuku rambles#I ship my adversary x me#I ship my rival x me#pixiu's eatery no way out#the wife is first#you own my all#tunhai#swallowing the seas#breaking through the clouds#poyun#see you my king#beryl and sapphire#it's not that i want to wear women's clothing#how'd I get a heroine's script#pirouette into my heart#salad days#salt friend#trapping the foxy doctor#don't say you love me#falling to where I belong#falling into the pond#the guy inside me#don't pick up boyfriends from the trash bin#the protagonist just wants to fall in love#more than brothers#touch your world#long post
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very good friends
#severance#severance fanart#mark scout#peter kilmer#i loveee petey so much.. s2 flashbacks of petey please please please please 🥺#guhh i want to know what theyre like soo much together in the office.. petey forever in my heart.. gone too soon </33#pn.art#i dont want to draw chairs or backgrounds so theyre sitting in the void dont worry about it#petey is just sososo tragic i love him it breaks my heart that his final moments were with his 'best friend' who doesnt Know Him because#his real best friend is inside lumon where he cant go back to anymore. him and this version of mark are strangers and he did nothing during#That Scene... he just up and left and tried to cover up his tracks because outie mark doesnt know him AUHHGG#does innie!mark ever find out that petey died ? and the other version of himself did nothing about it ? i actually cant remember if he#found out but guhhh.... :(((#*sniffs* i just care them alot..... aheem....
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"I won't mess with you anymore Izuku"
Boy how about you tell him that to his face
Like preferably in a whole talk about your relationship, where izuku can also tell you what the apology meant to him
Can you two please talk, is what I am saying
Please have a heart to hear convo is all I am asking
#bnha 409#bakudeku#bnha spoilers#bkdk#bakugou katsuki#izuku midoriya#yall are breaking my heart here#even now he is just TALKING TO IZUKU in his head#he may be shit talking AFO on the outside#but inside its all deku all the time
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uhhhh fart and mint i n, yea and soul cause. astrjum watned to draw. himsrlf i guess
#chonny jash#chonnys charming chaos compendium#cj mind#cj heart#cj soul#cccc#shitpost#i frogto who... wanted these#uh oh#uhhhh yeag'#i was going to do a fully rendered thing but i just. i couldnt'#maybe on. my spring break or something..........#the uh. the jerma thing is an inside joke or something#because. soul keeps getting compared to jerma#anywyas byee#disappears#— 🌗
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It was my birthday yesterday, can we get heartbroken Crowley?
Crowley Of The Day: As you wish. Happy late birthday 🥰🎉
#I Should Probably Get To Posting THAT Scene But I Keep Putting It Off#This Could’ve Been A Good Opportunity But I Thought The Scene Right Before Would Be More Fitting#Hear That? That’s My Heart Breaking Lol I’m Dead Inside Now.#Crowley#Aziraphale#Good Omens#David Tennant#Michael Sheen#Good Omens Prime#Neil Gaiman#Terry Pratchett#Ineffable Husbands#Crowley Of The Day#COTD#COTD New Post#New Crowley Of The Day#Daily Crowley#Daily Crowley Content#Good Omens Season 2#GOS2
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Rewatching a playthrough of FNAF Security Breach and yeah. Glamrock Freddy really IS the Dad Ever
#It really doesn’t help when Sean literally calls him dad from the get go either. LMAOOO#HE IS SO DAD!!!!!!!#Freddy finds a tiny human hiding inside his chest and decides yes. My kid now.#Freddy: Way to go superstar!! 😊#Me: I love you#They really gave us the ‘AI breaking its programming to become more human than the humans around it’ trope huh#NO!! I’M WEAK TO THAT TROPE!! STOP MY HEART CAN’T TAKE IT#Robots: *Gain sentience and protect the things they care about*#Me: BFNSJFJDJ. NDKSKFKKF. AAAAAAAAAA I LOVE YOUUUUUU 😭😭😭#FNAF#Shima speaks#FNAF Security Breach#FNAF SB#Five Nights at Freddy’s
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I'm about to cry picturing this poor, emaciated man who's just been thrown into another Awful Fucking Pit containing a Murderous Creature holding hands with himself because he's so happy to have the (correct) voice in his head back. This is just so asdkljfaeirut--
... yeah ok I should've expected that.
#malevolent#malevolent podcast#malevolent spoilers#ep 24-25#my heart is breaking inside#arthur's projecting onto larson so hard right now#that boy needs therapy#and a sandwich#the emotional whiplash snapped my spine
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#not dislike. its hate#it made me cry several times today#thinking of how my classmates manipulate our teachers#and chatgpt AIs can EVERYTHING#its so painful to think of it#today I broke down in the bus and cried#idc what people think. hiding my feelings any longer would destroy me from the inside#maybe youve also seen how people use freakin AIs in their exams#the thing is that:#we wrote an exam for which Ive studies for like 2 whole days#this week we finally got the exams back (w the grades ofc)#and ok Ive got a 3 (C in America syste#*m)#my friends who used chatgpt throughout the exam got way better grades (I didnt expect it otherwise)#PLUS#the most provocating messages from the teacher:#“10/10 POINTS :)” “YOURE ROCKING THIS” “YEAH”#💔#seriously#this breaks my heart#dont the teacher see something suspect in the exam?!#why cant they open their eyes and get modernized to reality.#& they KNOW- the students Im talking of. they usally have bad results.#once our teacher came to a chatgpt student and said the most miserable thing:#“youve been using duolingo a lot lately hm? thats where your nice grades come from 😉🥰”#you get it?#no- this peoson didnt learn.#no- this person isnt even interested in the stuff we learn in lessons#AWFUL feeling to hear the praisings of da teachers when *I* gotta sit among the gpt-students and look like Im a worse student than *them*#[writing this at almost 1 at night] still have some tears. this topic really has the power to destroy someones day. 💔💔
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with the pjo show's season 1 over and everyone having mostly positive reviews... im scared, really fucking scared.
ok lemme be clear, im not against the show, but with its success, the heroes of olympus series will also be most probably adapted, and i don't want it to be!!
ik it a stupid selfish notion, but you don't realise how sacred the HOO series is to me, and i don't want anyone to touch it.
there might be a possibility that the adaptation improves upon it but i so fucking love the imperfectly perfect book series it already is that i don't want it to change.
it's great that the stories are finding a new medium and reaching a newer audience but, what if, with the changes, it doesn't feel the same, HOO is such an integral part of my teen years that idk if i can bear seeing it change.
And if the adaptation is worse....oh god the horror!?!?THE AGONYYY!!!
i won't get through it okay.
ik it's irrational but it's how i feel. ffs leave it be, PLEASE.
(it might break my heart)
((and and also also, if i do end up liking the show better, it feels like betraying the books that formed my childhood))
#correction it will break my heart#the thought itself is terrorising#its my childhood we're talking abt pls#im crying no bawling inside#i love them so fucking much god#percy jackson#pjo#rick riordan#heroes of olympus#pjo fandom#pjo series#annabeth chase#leo valdez#piper mclean#frank zhang#jason grace#hazel levesque#nico di angelo#reyna avila ramirez arellano#greek gods
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