#incomprehensible post I'm sure.

[satanfemme]

can I make another monday evening confession before starting my work week again in the morning?

people need to stop talking about all the gaytrans furry polycules in seattle. please. do you know how hard it is for me not to restructure my life around this fantasy? this Stereotype? I'm not even polyamorous. I don't even know how to make electronic music. but I'm a chronic running away-er, and after a hard day at work? girl I'm ready to pack my bags and start a new life anywhere but here. give me some semblance of public transport in an accepting city on the other side of the continent and you're basically begging for me to say "fuck you" to my boss and hop on the next train I see. I'm talking about a Fresh Fucking Start. new name. nothing but me and my dog and a fursuit. fuck. I'd be gone so fast no one would even know what just happened. and my disappearance would be registered as a cold case after 5 months til a decade later you're in an anarchist bookstore and pick up some independently made furry comic about the spiritual connections between nudity and therianthropy and queerness and right there on page 3 will be a fursona that looks... strangely familiar... but no - it can't be. but it is. you frantically check the back of the zine for contact information, heart racing, but the only address given leads you to a forest or perhaps a parking lot. you speak to a few locals and learn this parking lot hosts a sparkledog rave bimonthly. so you attend a few of these raves, standing on the outskirts, politely nodding along to the alternating gabber samples from marxist speeches and bluey. scanning the crowd anxiously. but no. I never show. I'm fucking gone. ok? do you understand my struggle now?? I'm fucking GONE. I'm mooching in some commune basement high off my ass, ok?!?!?! I'm full fucking puppy mode and have so many furry boyfriend-girlfriends I don't even know all their names but my collection of leftist stickers grows strong. fuck. goddamn. ok? THIS is my toxic trait. glorify the furry scene somewhere else instead. glorify taxes. anything else.

📝I'm sorry seattle residents for misrepresenting you're beautiful city as I'm sure I have. this is not my heart

[franky-y]

finally managed to finish this

[prettymediocrewizard]

I have some sketches I'm slowly picking away at but I am so tired so I probably won't finish them for a little while so here is my offering of a really cropped wip ;u;

[moongothic]

...I... I do not know what on earth compelled me to make this nor why, but I will not be taking criticism at this time

[idliketobeatree]

anyways if the 1941 almost-kiss, almost-something never happened and we are all being led astray then...... what even is THE POINT

[fredoesque]

ok so yesterday i saw this post about the wedding imagery in hickey's trial scene and left a tag about iphigenia at aulis. and in the time since that comparison has spiraled entirely out of control

i was initially just referring to the way the play draws parallels between the rituals of a wedding and those of sacrifice/death and the way the two start to overlap throughout

but then i started thinking about how iphigenia's sacrifice serves both as an illustration of the violence of war turned inwards and simultaneously as the catalyst for said violence turned outwards. killing iphigenia highlights the actual human cost of war by exacting it on a familiar insider, not just a nameless enemy. but her death is also the only reason the war can take place at all--the chorus even calls her the destroyer of troy near the end

and that reminded me of hickey and his unique relationship with the violence of the british navy; of the british characters he is undeniably the one that suffers most at its hands, yet he is also a driving force in perpetuating violence--in general, but also specifically towards the inuit

and i know i'm not the first person to point out that hickey is both a victim and a perpetrator of the violence of the empire, but i find it fascinating to approach that dichotomy through the lens of (ritual) sacrifice. it adds a new dimension to not just the trial, but basically all his scenes that are concerned with said violence. his own death (during a botched ritual no less) is actually a great example; it doubles as the final nail in tuunbaq's coffin. he dies not just for or because of the empire's interests; it's the very act of him dying that causes said interests to be furthered

anyway all that to say hickey thinks he's christ and he's wrong but that doesn't mean he's not a lamb on the altar

[brittlebutch]

a lot of people seem to use Entry #61 as 'proof' for the crux of the "Brian didn't care about Tim, he was Taking Advantage of Tim's conditions and Forcing him to work as part of totheark" thing, but honestly when you think about it there's no possible way Brian could have possibly orchestrated that series of events, like you almost have to interpret that as a baffling group of coincidences

[fitzrove]

Not to simplify a complex historical issue in a tumblr post but I think the reason Conspiracy (Elisabeth Essen/Hungarian prods) and fandom discussions/headcanons/fanwork deriving from it (ie. advancing the interpretation that the cause of Rudolf's anguish & the thing Tod is trying to manipulate him to do is the pursuit of Hungarian independence/seizing the Hungarian throne) tend to set me off is that it ignores the thing that's, like, the historical and the musical Rudolf's actual main deal, which is anti-conservative thought and the emotional pain and feelings of powerlessness brought about by living in a world full of state-sanctioned prejudice, hatred and anti-intellectualism (among other things)

Which I, for, like, personal reasons, find more compelling to reflect upon and have portrayed on stage in our 21st century world (= "oppressive politics on state level bad" seems. Relevant somehow) than stuff like a privileged person's private quest for power (throne) or a vaguely positive portrayal of nationalism (especially since Hungarian nationalism in the 21st century isn't super cuddly or feel-good ajdkdldl, so I think having those foundation myths repeated actually borders on irresponsible - depending on the framing, that is)

Plus its not historically accurate, like the conspiracy plot has not been conclusively proven to have happened. Unlike todolf [redacted] which is indisputable historical fact

[orcelito]

i do love how i Can read the sound effects in trigun. bc even tho theyre untranslated, i can read katakana & hiragana lol. but also my eyes tend to just glaze over them bc theyre very japanese sound effects, so the sound transcriptions arent exactly what i'd attribute the sounds to (just by virtue of being an english speaker)

but like. here, from right to left, we have "don-don-don", "ga-gigi", and "ba-kan". which i can infer what those sounds are... but also it's simpler to just fill in myself based on what i See what sounds would be here. the only real reason the sound effects are useful (to me) are for knowing how many shots Vash fires (like the "don-don-don" showing that vash shoots 3 times)

other examples of sound effects:

"go go go go", "kyuru kyuru kyuru kyuru" (kyuru being the sound of wheels turning i guess, tho i got No Idea what the go go go go is)

"GAN", "do do do do" (a clang, then four shots fired by Vash)

"BA-BA-TSU", "ni-pa", "ba-tan!!" (sound of rolling??, sound of smile?? then a door shut)

see what i mean lol about the sounds being very Japanese? i can read them, but what they read to is still not very useful if you're not familiar with most Japanese depictions of sound effects (like me)

still nice to be able to supplement my reading with my katakana & hiragana knowledge tho

[r0semultiverse]

Adventure Time: Fionna and Cake finale spoilers without context

[is-this-really--life]

Some people don't have the same point of reference for understanding something as a problem and get really defensive over defending their own demographic like maybe I do the same to some extent, I try to understand where bi women are coming from, when I think some of their behavior is fucked up I might still have a better idea where it's coming from even though I don't mean to excuse it, and yeah the expectation that some demographic be perfect is fucked up but it's the denial that the pattern is even real… like you don't get to say the brash way that a group of blackpilled lesbians on here talk about het-partnered women as being stupid or having it coming for choosing to be with men isn't real… even if you haven't seen the worst of it, you can see the attitude as well even if it's not said openly and cruelly. And yeah it's not only lesbians who act this way, but I understand why (it at least seems like) it's mostly lesbians in that group doing that on here, because not having the frame of reference of being attracted to men might make you not empathize with the situation as easily. You can't put yourself in her shoes.

I'm just saying I get it, I get what she's saying and I think the lack of empathy is frustrating. I don't expect lesbians to be perfect and I know that expectation exists... I just think having solidarity with each other is important if you're gonna be commenting on the situation at all, like if you're focusing constantly on the problem of men victimizing women the least you could do is stop acting like it's her action of partnering with a man to begin with that is causing it.

[capricorndevil15]

Hello this is a public service announcement for the Our Wonderland community. Drive It Through Your Heart by Billy Cobb is a Genzou/Orlam song.

[steakout-05]

something that had always been really frustrating for me when i was still in math classes in school was trying to watch the teacher actually work the problem out on the board and still not understanding wtf was happening. for some context, i heavily suspect that i have some form of dyscalculia because math and numbers literally do not compute properly in my brain. it'd be too long to explain the full extent of my possible dyscalculia here but math literally does the mental equivalent of maxing out the CPU power and memory of a computer to the point where it freezes and lags to my brain.

math class was always stressful for me because no matter what i did and how much progress i made, there was always a lack of understanding i had when it came to trying to work any math problem out long term and remembering anything. it felt like there was always something i was missing, so when the time came for the teacher to explain and go through a math problem step-by-step on the whiteboard, i made sure i paid as much attention to it as humanly possible as child-to-teenager me could muster and even then i still did not understand how the fuck they solved it, all because of one thing: the teacher pulling a random number completely out of their ass that happened to be the key to solving the problem.

like. i don't think i can illustrate how frustrating and isolating this was to experience with words alone. here i was, paying as much attention as i physically could, trying my damned hardest to memorise each individual step and calculation in order to understand how to get from point A to point B. everything made perfect sense up until the teacher suddenly stops for a second and writes a seemingly completely unrelated number there with no context as to why it's there in the first place, and then, in that singular moment, everything immediately comes crumbling down and i'm left completely confused. and somehow, everyone else around me perfectly understands it except me. like. imagine sitting there, giving the teacher all the attention you possibly could, literally watching and studying their hand movements just to understand every single step, only to be even more confused than your classmates, who you're pretty sure were half-asleep during the explanation, who also say they understand how the teacher came to that conclusion. what. the actual fuck.

when i try to explain how infinitely confusing and irritating this was for me, i'm reminded of a quote from that video Patricia Taxxon made about DHMIS: "The rug is pulled again ... There was never any hope of following the thread, understanding is impossible.". even when i was literally trying my best to possibly follow anything that was happening, the rug still gets pulled out from under my feet and i'm sent all the way back to square one of not understanding a single thing and being confused again. all because the teacher didn't explicitly explain how they got that random number that was apparently singlehandedly necessary for solving the equation and where they got it from, apart from that place being from literally fucking nowhere.

it's really no wonder that i eventually stopped giving a shit about paying attention in math class, because even when i was, it was still daunting and incomprehensible as always. why bother trying anymore when trying still gets you nowhere? trying to ask the teacher where they got that number from was an impossible to understand task as well, as their either snapped back with a "well you should have been paying attention" (even though i WAS but whatever) or they do explain that they added the first two numbers from the equation together or something, but now i'm wondering why they didn't just explain that in the first place like they did with everything else instead of seemingly just assuming everyone would know to do that.

by the way, if i had to give an estimate, my math ability is probably still at like. a 5th grader's level at best. so uh. yeah it's not good. still, it is kinda funny to me though, not only because i do find a bit of humour in the situation, but also because some people are often so quick to judge someone's intelligence purely based on their mathematical abilities alone. like. the idea of someone calling me dumb for still needing to do addition with my fingers despite the fact that my reading and language levels are considered above average is really funny to me lmaooo

[babygirlbdubs]

i hate!!! labels!!!!! i hate society's need to put every bit of the human experience into arbitrary, meaningless little boxes!!! i hate taking beautifully unique experiences and shoving them into categories that will never truly fit them!!! i hate taking people's identities and comforts and using them to invalidate their personhood and experiences!!! every single human being is impossibly unique and there will never be a single other person exactly like them and that's beautiful!!! why!!! do we have to break everything down and put it into boxes that are never perfectly the right shape!!!! we are all unique and that makes us all the same!!! let people express their personhood and define their experiences in ways that are unique to them!!!

[dravidious]

You're more amazing than cuts

I opened the mountain door in Tunic! And now I'm decoding the instruction manual's text! One thing that's disappointing but also a huge relief is that

the secret text is actually English, not a special made-up language. I was pacing back and forth wondering how I could possibly figure anything out, and I finally checked an online guide for hints and the hints were. really weird?? Like, "this is the word for sword, but why does it only have 2 characters?" Like what? Why SHOULDN'T it have only 2 characters? That's just the word for sword in this made-up language right? Then one of the hints made it clear that it was supposed to represent the English word "sword", just written in a weird gimmicky way. Once I realized it was all just English, it was smooth sailing.

Still, that's pretty mean to anyone playing the game in a different language. I was even like "well it can't possibly just be English because the text stays the same when you change the language setting" but uh. Nope. I guess just fuck you if you don't know English.

[porblematic]

/satire/

I am not okay with existence of minors on any level and in any form. Human recreation should be organized as atom-to-atom replication of a live snap of Susan, 28, child-free, from Los Angeles at 11:43 at the morning in local bakery, enjoying her un-iced frappuccino and a bagel.

/end satire/