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sparrowlucero · 2 days ago

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i enjoy ur bird abode thoughts! I was a genuine enjoyer of the show when it was airing, I’m no die hard fan though and love to see ppls personal takes on the overall story/plot. Im curious if you also would agree or have any thoughts on the impacts The Mouse’s cancellation had on the shows ability to be more than it was? srry im not super eloquent with my words, but basically ur response to that ask got me wondering if part of the reason the show like genuinely wasnt all that ground breaking or unique in the end plot wise (other than the villain faces consequences in the end ig) as far as YA/Teen animation goes, was because of The Mouse’s inability to let the writers flesh out the show before gutting it? i have a negative bias toward The Mouse franchise and obviously dont know anything about how writing a show under the eyes of a franchise that big would work, its just smth that rattles around in my head and wanna know what u think!

Well to an extent, but I think it's much more the effect the studio had on how the owl house started out as rather than it not getting a full season at the end - It didn't escape my noticed that the show was initially announced as being a "horror comedy" when it doesn't really seem like either, especially by the second season, and yeah, the original pitch bible is obviously aiming for that much more than the show proper is as it goes along (and is honestly seems quite a bit more funny, weird, and dark, with an overarching plotline about a giant bug being used to religiously suppress people, eda able to cure her curse by killing luz, and one of the major characters being a teen boy awoken from a sleeping curse who ends up being a weird little bigot because he's from the 13th century, among other things)

(side note, i just noticed they actually specifically describe the thing i assumed the show was gonna be about here. huh.) but ultimately the bulk of the show that was actually made seems very influenced by a writing team that was genuinely interested in making a tropey YA fantasy story rather than just being mandated to. I mean even in what aired you can see the show sort of settle in ways that feel less like studio interference and more like, you know, art students creating their ideal fantasy show, like how King is clearly Eda's roommate who's funny because he looks like and sounds like a little dog despite being an adult man at the beginning but by the end they've made him her adopted sad backstory son who's explicitly a child. While I think a third season would have made the show as it existed better, because they clearly didn't get to finish the plot they wanted to (frankly to the point where some major aspects of the show are a bit confusing, I'm still not sure what a grimwalker is), I don't really fault the show for that but also don't think that hypothetical season (which pretty clearly would have been mostly about the magic school teens going to normal school) would suddenly flip around into something that I personally found interesting and subversive. Nor should it, really; again, it being Queernorm Harry Potter thing is clearly the intended appeal of the show, it's not really a flaw but just not a genre I'm personally interested in when compared to what I initially expected the show to be.

HOWEVER I will say they robbed little weird girls of their representation and that can't be forgiven

#does this not make sense or sound mean. I'm not trying to sound mean. it's fine. you'll like it if queernorm magic school sounds appealing #which it will to many many people #I think what happened is that they were studio mandated to make some changes that weakened the initial idea #but then the writers #all again tumblr art students #were just as interested if not more in making their own played entirely straight YA magic school thing #probably more than i even grasp as according to a friend who loves the show there's like.#cassandra claire harry potter fanfic references I'm not picking up on

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skrunksthatwunk · 5 months ago

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this could be kuwameshi if you guys would like. take my hand and trust me

#yyh spoilers in tags #like major spoilers ok #which ig i dont usually tag but whatever #the if i had to choose between the world and you it's you thing happened. and it was KUWABARA like hhhhgghh #yusuke makes him forget his honor code sometimes and i need you guys to see that with me #bc it makes me wanna fling myself into the ocean over and over again #kuwabara literally is like you need to be alive bc otherwise im nothing idek who i am. please let me punch you #and he wails this multiple times #and yusuke would burn down the world himself if he thought it'd help his friends we all know that #and doomed by the narrative? mmm with the ever escalating world ending nature of being a spirit detective thats kinda there #throw in the sudden demon-human age gap post yusuke death 2 and you've got some narrative dooming in a way #but not enough for me to well and truly call them doomed by the narrative #yyh #yu yu hakusho #kuwameshi #kazuma kuwabara #yusuke urameshi #ofc i can handle you at your worst thats basically you all the time is Very kuwa to yusuke #and maybe we can figure out what the hell ur problem is over dinner sometime is Very yusuke to kuwa #actually i should draw that. or make it a textpost or something #but like turning up the protectiveness/possessiveness thats already there with them in line with the whole #'ive watched you die' trauma they Both have means that like. i think they would Need to have each other around for a period of time #in the wake of sensui's bs perhaps. and then yusuke cuts it all off and they start to get a bit healthier about it. hm #i think about them all the time it's like if typicsl shonen rival/bestie homo-ness was kind of scary and painful #like they love each other but the ways they hurt each other and hurt over each other drive me fucking insane

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celestialecho · 4 months ago

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🌦️&💤

on childhood best friends.

via ill give you the sun by jandy nelson // via the art of ponyo by hayao miyazaki // jack johnson, we're going to be friends // a message from my childhood best friend // mitski, i guess // via a little life by hanya yanagihara // adventure time, island song (come along with me) // via unknown // abba, chiquitita

#do you ever think about how momo was taught to weaponize her anger while mikan was taught to swallow his back. both as a means of survival #how momo probably admires mikans ability to hold it in. how mikan probably admires momos ability to release it all.#because i do. i think about it a lot #(BTW. IF YOU KNOW WHERE THE “let's go to the garden. let's be kids again. i'll chase you if you chase me.” IS FROM PLEEEASE LMK.)#the message is from the friend that inspired momo and mikan. btw she messaged me out of the blue and we chatted about our earliest memories #the whole “ohhh he came up to me offered me his hand and said you wanna go play with me because i was all alone” seems really unrealistic #BUT THATS. WHAT HAPPENED WITH US. WITH ME AND HER. i dont remember it very well which is funny and poetic in a sense. but SHE does... gugh #its because i was the one that went up to her... of course she remembers me offering her my hand because that meant the entire world to her #← OR SOMETHING. NEVER RUMINATE ON UR CHILDHOOD WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE its because my birthdays coming up im getting all weird. ugh #okay actual tags instead of my rambles...#web weaving #my wws #oc tag #momo tenki #mikan javier #on childhood friends #id in alt #nova noise #also hai sunny. (halo freak) one of these for kinzoku and gensou when. i will NEVER RECOVER #← silly slash lighthearted. i am just crazy over them you absolutely do not have to ^_^ i hope it doesnt come across that way

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moeblob · 10 months ago

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So uh. Eventually I'll stop drawing these guys so obsessively but not today I guess.

(DND AU where it's just these two, Brent, and Paul on a life mission to annoy Chris the GM by having the pact of "we're only here for Karen's benefit")

Karen is a warlock, Right is a cleric, Paul is a paladin, and Brent is a bard (so he can use bardic inspiration on Karen).

#my characters #fun fact i was watching a trio of streamers do tier lists and i saw them do a tier list about their streamer friends #and they all voted on how the person would die in dnd and the funniest thing to come out of it imo #was the difference of SELF SACRIFICE and under it FORCIBLY SACRIFICED #like who would take one for the team willingly and who would be disposed of with majority vote #then they added an executed for their crimes spot under that so while they were debating some guy they settled on #he was the one that initiated most of the forcibly sacrificed ideas and that means he was eventually executed for his crimes #which ... was really funny to distinguish #the point is thats karen in this non existent campaign #she is here to mess people up and then use her allies as scape goats and they all just go well that sucks peace out im on the chopping bloc #and chris is getting more and more distressed over the fact YOU GUYS CAN LITERALLY TALK YOUR WAY OUT OF IT #but they really dont talk their way out of it like he wants #they instead are like ok cool so im gonna pretend like i didnt see karen kill that guy #and shes like i mean it was an accident i didnt MEAN to kill THAT guy #which is why they all vote to not see it and not bring it up RIP that guy #i saved this canvas as A WARLOCK AND HER CLERIC #which is honestly fitting #anyway i wanna draw fanart again at some point but my joy is stored in the ocs rn #i dont play dnd i just listen to one person talk to me about dnd and thats enough #oops i fell in love

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kaiserkisser · 2 months ago

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can someone nice (!!) please please please adopt me im begging you im requesting you (huge word vomit and vent in tags, pls dont read if u dont want to!! and if you don't want this stuff on this blog PLS lmk!! i dont wanna make anyone uncomfy! )

#tw vent #yes ik i have a vent blog #but idk why i dont wanna go there #ill prolly delete this in a while + if i vent here (which ill try not to) ill always tag it #but if any of yall aren't fine with it pls do lmk!!! ill stop <3 #Anyways.#fucking hell i hate this.#dude #i very specifically told them to hurry the fuck up THEY were the ones making us late #i have told them a hundred times the minimum time i jeed to get ready #i told them this morning too that you guys make us late then put it all on me #nad she went like oh no dear dont worry that wont happen #WELL GUESS WHAT BITCH #and like the lecture and huge ass scolding and then cold shouldet ive been getting from BOTH of them before i left for coachinh #im just tired atp #idk its not even that big a deal this happens everyday #i dont know how to feel #idk if im even rly feeling anything atp #its just that i really fucking hate being here #I wanna get the fuck out #but thing is this makes me feel kinda guilty occasionally #for eg a few days ago i was rly sick and she took care of me kinda #and then that made me feel bad for hating her #but then things like this happen and i cant help it and i feel so conflicted #i dont want to stay here i know that for sure but i feel guilty for it #if i speak im being rude and backtalking #if i dont speak im being rude and ignoring #the fuck am i supposed to do????#she always tells me to 'stay silent and just hear it'#and when i do that she keeps shouting again and again and finally i say smth bc although its extremely fucking dumb of me to open my mouth

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triglycercule · 1 month ago

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alright!!!! kitchen CLEANED ‼️ carry on PACKED ‼️ now i just need to do my homework and then maybe take a really really really quick (4 hour long) nap before dinner/online class. then i will grind on the silly silly why did i decide to do this animation meme/animatic until 3 am hits and i've gotta hit the port. the AIRport :3

in exchange for my incredible unprecedented productiveness i made this little doodle just now. i'm actually a liar i did this in school but still

#honestly killer could be doing fuck knows and i wouldn't even know. still love him though #at this point???? at this point i dont even keep up with his characterization i will not lie #horror and dust are my favorite children im sorry killer. you'll get your time to shine when the seasons change #which is probably soon idk man whatever i love them all ewually :333 #anyways killer's just not sleeping in that one. bro's had the longest streak of no sleep he aint breaking it now #erm ACTUALLY he's looking at the viewer and therefore breaking the fourth wall and thats soooooo cool #triglycercule what are you on #why are they all sleeping in the same bed #well obviously because they didn't wanna deal with multiple #but also they cannot be bothered to cuddle close together #dust kicks too much. horror steals too much space. killer sometimes just sits up for several periods of time #worlds craziest sleep #killer actually could be sleeping in that one but i just dont know #but triglycercule didnt you draw this and therefore should know what he's doing?????#idk man killer's an enigma i cant control him 💀💀💀 he does his own shit whatever #i lov making killer so crazily abnormal its so silly #who cares about canon (i do) ok well still im having FUN doodling #shut up and get back to rereading askdusttale and horrortale and something new #alright........ (pitifully limps away)#i tag some things rants when its actually art but i just dont want my art tsg 2 be littered with doodles #maybe thats bad. maybe i should start tagging properly #ok rant tag removed........ iGUESS this is art #euaghhhhhh but its just a DOODLS!!!! IT DOESNT DESERVE TO BE CONSIDERED GOOD ART WORTHY OF THE TAG #but triglycercule art is art no matter if doodle or not. stop belittling yourself for naught!#i hate when i get inspirational and supportive on myself man can i just suffer without some knowitall up my ass #i sound insane rn what am i doing. the bit is not funny #and i changed my mind this is a rant again not art #tricule rant #see it WOULD be both if i wanted to do dual tags. but i dont

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claitea · 2 months ago

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progress pt 2!! base all sketched out :)

#clai speaks #clai's art #doing very well if i do say so myself #it gets rough at the end with the footwork and everything but considering i dont animate a lot #like what i've done before is small movements not. a full 8 second dance #this is great!! i'm enjoying myself and i'm proud of it #we'll see how i feel once i start. having to put n and alto over this HJDBFIFH #which reminds me i need to make an outfit for alto..... i'm using n's anni suit but for alto. uh #i did that one twt doodle a while ago but thats not my design and i dont wanna animate those frills #orz anyway. see you guys again when i finish this in two years NSJDBJFHF

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motherforthefamicom · 4 months ago

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redownloaded an old art program

#specifically its tayasui memopad…#sketches was like borderline unusable last i redownloaded it #which was like.. oct last year #maybe its gotten better but i dont feel like bothering with it anymore haha #memopad i never used much aside from little scribble doodles (id make a scribble and try to turn it into something)#but its changed a lot since i last used it.. which was like four years ago so i cant be too surprised i guess XD #its still pretty jank but in a more manageable way . i missed rhe sketches brushes theyre very lovely #sorry for all the rambling haha #ive been feeling really shitty lately and have barely been able to draw it feels like #a lot of what i have made ive had to really.. force myself to get out. and i havent been as satisfied with it as id like to br #this is kind of janky still but i like it and i had fun making it #everytime i draw these two its exactly the same cuz i have to remind myself what their designs even were everytime >_<‘’#hopefully i do some more stuff today. its already getting late but im feeling a little better #getting back into the swing of things or whatever #i thought someone on af was ghosting me or whatever but turns out they were just . busy. ( <- figures i need to stop assuming haha) and #they also made this amazing revenge im absolutely in love with its so cute #really made my day =)#scribbles #furry tag #good god i write way too much in these #sorry #anyways #queueing this to post again (its the 14th as im writing this) i feel like that worked alright for me last time #im kinda making this post impulsively i am. constantly going back nd forth on whether i even like posting my art nowadays #oh well #yeah queue i wanna know #mother series #<- i forgot to tag that . for blog organization mostly these r just #nothing burger npcs barely anyone cares abt (nintens sisters lol)

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widevibratobitch · 6 months ago

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something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.

#im playing it all cool and funny now but atm i legit burst into tears lol #like he said i have a 'good voice too of course' but i know realistically that is not my strongest asset #and even if i were technically perfect. which im NOT lol. the voice itself is just nothing special. it's there ig but that's about it #but its nice to know i may not be 100% useless after all #(just 90%)#also apparently the most feared and respected professor who came to the concert said. again. that he likes me the most.#which again. crying real actual tears about this all rn this means literally the world to me this is everything i have #and i have no one to share this with because im not gonna say it to my uni friend cause i dont want her to feel like im boasting or sth #(even tho she has no such qualms herself but probably because i know how. not great. it feels when someone keeps talking about themselves #and about how great they are and how easy everything is for them. i dont wanna do it back at her.#well there's also the fact that i dont think im great and this is not fucking easy to me at all lol #but idk i think the difference between us is that she actually admitted she sees no point in singing if she cant show off (thus she hates #the duet we're singing because she sings the lower part and cant show off her high notes or coloratura.#which is like. an insane take to me. i mean it i get it. kinda. if i had a voice like hers maybe id be like that too fuck knows.#but that just feels so. idk. sad to me. so self obsessed and empty. like you dont care about the music itself? about you being a part of it?#also immediately made singing with her not fun anymore. i thought we were creating something TOGETHER. but thanks for the confirmation #that you only really care about being 'better than'. yikes.#like idk this behaviour is funny and iconic in old school opera legends like yes go bite each others dicks off.#but it hits completely different when it's your own colleague let alone your friend. like damn girl. damn)#) anyway. the husband is kinda hot too now that i think of it. i really should seduce them both.#except its realistically not possible since they've both seen me cry now (she saw it like a hundred times lol)#so ive lost the hot and mysterious card alas. no uni professors romance for me

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get-more-bald · 3 months ago

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the biggest thing about X6 is not that he doesn't think of himself as human (though he doesn't, and according to some it's correct) BUT that he doesn't see himself as a Person

#searching through the X6-88 tag on tumblr has not brought me joy #also. 1 thing about is that i hate hate hate the (i think) canon blue eyes he has. like. for fucking what #1st i saw them on tumblr and thought 'well thats stupid. whyd you give him blue eyes? so hed look special? thats weird. at least its uncanon #also. on god. i saw some post headcanoning the companions' appearances and it was p cool UNTIL they got to x6 #and they gave him grey 'almost white' eyes for literally no reason. like if you want to go with the scary factor theres so many ways for it #but no. some people think that blue/grey eyes are sooo special. and for what #<- i have brown eyes but im not just being salty. it really sucks. i dont wanna be the one to call fandom racism but it does smell like it!#also like. i didnt want to go on a stupid tirade about racism in the tags again but the way fandom treats x6 AND preston is just upsetting #other people have made some very good points about it and im not going to repeat them here (also noones gonna read this)#but like... theres 3 'main' black characters that i remember: preston garvey (whom the stron majority of the fandom hates/disliked)#x6-88 (basically the players slave? also hated for being mean and unfeeling (which is justified imo). no quest no freedom no nothing)#and gloria (who i havent met in game but ive heard some actual criticisms of (like. the way shes treated ingame) and noone else talks about)#if theres any other Named and Important characters. sorry but i literally do not remember them #coming back to x6 being justified in being unemotional/mean. he was literally raised this way. he doesnt consider himself to be a person #being he was made that way. he is a Thing and hes meant for one job and hes made to inspire fear #and hes not supposed to have emotions so he just. doesnt. if he does he cant express them anyways #1 if fallout4 was a better written game (or 2 if x6 was white) i think thered be SO much fanfiction about him. the possibilities are endless #i have something brewing in the back of my head. i might start writing even though i suck and its going to be bad #ANYWAYS. general fandom thought on x6 are WRONG and im being a HATER. fuck everyone who doesn't like x6. if you dont like x6 get off tumblr #especially if you like gage but not x6. leave fr #i just woke up wtf am i doingggg

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago

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the desire to do comms vs my inability to remember that i got a message FIGHT-

#its like 'oh a message! i will respond later'#and then later never comes cause i have no damn object permanence Or working memory #then its like... what do i even say #'hi sorry i ghosted your simple question for two days i forgot you messaged me' AGH #or especially lately #i mean to do things and then i get a New piece of distressing information about the way my life is going #which then consumes my thoughts and leaves no room for anything else #ahaha thanks! ill claw my eyes out now!! wow!!! FUCK!#trying to keep up the things i enjoy is. so tough rn #but ill flounder w/o em so! hard work that i am mostly failing at but i Keep Trying #yes i wanna do comms. yes i wanna draw. yes i wanna talk to people. can i? mmmmm......#can't wait for this chapter in my life to be over. goddamn.#ive been in a perpetual state of intense stress since early childhood #but my fucking duck things lately have been taking the cake #absolutely unprompted #oh no this is turning into a vent post Look Away #well my mother called again last night and was all 'im getting you a car'#and uh. i started physically shaking while profusely thanking her (lying through me teeth)#GIRL!!! I DONT NEED A CAR THATS TOO MUCH RN!!!#she's always mentioning how the collective We are tight on money #and that rn i need to focus on making decisions and getting a job ill hold for like. a month #and then she slams this down outta left field??? thats so much extra stress i dont need right now???#now i gotta worry about parking and maintaining it and gas money i dont have And And And-#i cant exactly tell her Dont Fucking Do That bc then she'll blow up in my face and call me inconsiderate & ungrateful again #me and my stepdad dont have the fucking TIME to get one! and then she was like 'oh i can always come down to help'#please dont. do not do that. i cant deal with you in person right now that sounds hellish #anyway. case in point #cant even think about messages and stuff i Want to think about bc all this bullshit is taking up my entire mind #metaphorically slamming my face into a brick wall till theres nothing left. aaaghhahsbkjadadj #its too much its Too Much everything is so much and its too much and can i be let be for two fuckin seconds please

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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RGG FINALLY MAKES THE SMARTEST BUSINESS DECISION OF THEIR LIVES

#snap chats #SHUT UUUUUPP FINALLY #me and every mother fucker like 'id KILL for a bunchan plush' and it only took like. 18 fucking years #WHOLE ASS ADULT #shitting and crying shitting and cying #i love how the second rgg started to acknowledge their audience they started producing plushes #like it feels like the days after that initial clip went out we been seein these bitches come out in the works and im a Big Fan #like you get it team..... im so proud of you.... please take my money im beggin....#i dont even know which one id want theyre all so cute and im too poor to get all of them #cause i know damn well im gonna have to talk to a contact in japan again to get one shipped to me #ts ok its a living...#anyway persoal tag ramble time get out #yesterday was asctually fine :) i went to the mall and decided to get my bro. A Bunch Of Shit as an apology #but then i texted my sister bout the sitch and grew up a bit so i went to dinner with the fam #then i talked to my sis after dinner and she said she was gonna help me Deal With Things so. good day i guess :)#ok thats all from me i wanna shower BYE

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ieatwormsandtheytasteverygood · 2 days ago

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Guess which bitch now has room on its phone for instagram for the first time in like 3 years. This is only good bc now we can post art there again.

Not that instagram is nice to artists or anything. Just that our art tumblr is so very tiny and unused. Gonna probably have to clear it out somewhat when I finally get around to posting art.

#thank fuck for our silm special interest tho #we can finally get like traction on posts #which'll mean that when our fibro flare-up finally dies down (lmao it'll be ages bc our dad is Stressing The Fuck Outta Us)#we can get commissions done again #and through those. well.#money both for clothes to make us comfortable #(which will also last for years & be the right kinda clothing for when we move overseas)#and also for savings for WHEN we move overseas #like our grandma is nice & all &'ll probably help pay for us getting housing or whatever #but i dont want to have to Rely on her inheritance from her aunt(?)#and disability benifits are dodgy at best. and we'll have to survive somehow *before* we get them through #and i kinda dont want to have to rely on the generosity of an old school friend's mum. or a 10th cousin 4 times removed (or whatever)#who might well be dead before we move to ireland #bc he's like 95 rn #and idk if he'd even let us stay at his (scarily enormous) house At All #also. idk if we'd have the money without some kinda work to get HRT when we move out. dont wanna have to be reliant on parents or the gov.#for our HRT. i doubt we could get public healthcare to cover it. not immediately at least.#and i kinda dont want to have to go back on birth control. cause progesterone or w/ever its called has feminising effects iirc #and we're not sure if we want a hysterectomy yet. so.#it'd be a choice between periods (hell) and HRT (expensive)#fuck i hate being disabled sometimes #like actually if anyone calls chronically fatigued ppl “lazy”. i fucking WISH i was lazy.#like bitch please this flare-up is making it so that NONE of my meds get rid of the pain anywhere NEAR fully #and im low-key on the Good Shit™#also so annoyed that ireland hasnt legalised weed. bc. we're almost certainly gonna be doing it for pain #and getting an *illegal* product is so much more difficult #lmao i worked out commas #—Roquén #my fingies hurt so much rn lmao #anyway gonna go draw my source drowning in blood & despair. then im gonna work out what the fuck kinda pigments caranthir would use

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alpinelogy · 3 days ago

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#i hate the fact that i have so much burnout that i cannot do shit right now :///#wanted to get up early today play some games for a bit go do some necessary moving stuff i need to do today and then go to my #1pm language class i am taking voluntarily. instead its almost 11.30 am and ive done nothing. not even the fun play games bit :///#idk if can skip the class again but i have no energy to go there. like im genuinely filled with so much dread at the idea of going there #and its been on and off raining and i dont really wanna go out into the rain as well :///#delete later #idk what happened it was okay i was supposed to go visit a friend this weekend which fell through but i have rescheduled that already #and i dont really mind + it will be a way more chill and less hectic trip then so idk what :///

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moeblob · 8 months ago

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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

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merevide · 9 months ago

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hiiiii i have returned from the depths of the underworld (self imposed hiatus) (3 week break that felt like 3 years)

#posting this then going 2 bed so i actually have incentive to start posting again i’ve been meaning to for like. two days now LOL #i’ve just been genuinely stressed LMAO but i started reading a new book n getting into new media so things mightttt be okay.#u know its been a wild time if smth convinced me to take a break from tumblr for like a month #n it was lmao. first it was the fatigue then it was the health issues which the fatigue stemmed from #then it was doing work n then it was literally nobody cares am i alive yes am i doing well sure(?)#am i gonna be active WE'LL SEE #genuinely missed my mutuals which is why i was bad at this i still checked in from time 2 time just did not post #im like 5 days off of this being an actual month long break but i was like waittt lemme post smth before #the month ends i dont wanna skip february so yeah #tldr most chronically online person ever thinks that like 3 weeks away from her blog is like 3 years. iam right #my text #🍅🍅🍅 this was a long rant boooooo get off the stage #i probs sound like a hectic mess bc i am anyway goodnight happy bhm happy valentines happy february hope it has been kind

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