#in overthinking the interaction bit lol but! anyways!

[steampunkedparm]

reasons vash (and nai/knives too i guesss /lh) is trans (reminder its just a silly headcannon ok cool):

-refers to plants as sister/siblings (depends on your translation. either translation is still is like. they both chose or are at least perceived as he, which is a divergence from the idea of 'gender' in regards to other plants (which! probably definitely don't even fall under the construct of gender)

-i dunno man just look at him (both versions)

-in the og anime i think its more plants dont. have a gender (or even really a sex in the way humans do) and vash just kinda rolls with being perceived as masc but doesn't Really Care? (whatever makes him seem more friendly and appealing yk?) (i feel like this could apply as well too trimax but i haven't read far enough to really say :P but i feel its. similar enough in regards to vash?), as well as knives just kinda. did the same? or maybe went yeah okay if vash is a dude i am too just to fuck with him (or! alternatively! vash went yeah okay imma guy cus knives is to?)

-in tristamp i think he deliberately chose and knives as well chose to follow to be a mix of messing with vash but also trying to appeal more to get his brother back? (but also thats silly why would nai adhere to human ideologies and structures i dunno genders silly so let's fuck around with silly story parallels and shit ;))

-also consider the idea that them both diverging from the perceived gender of plants also being a reflection of how their different as independent plants

[bunnihearted]

🪿

[halfdeadwallfly]

my dad just tried to explain sexism to me and then got mad when i told him not to lol

[astrxealis]

sometimes (often) i think about the characters i kin or relate to and then the realization comes in again and again that i need therapy (/lh?)

[yougavemeyourheartyouknow]

On thin ice (Hockey player! Miguel O’Hara x Figure skater! Fem! Reader)

Y’all… this word count… I’m was almost gonna slept it up but decided not too. Anyways hehe. Also the last chapter is gonna be posted on Halloween at the witching hour in PST, cause Halloween chapter! so I’m excited about that lol. The usual, not proofread, Miguel might be ooc.

(Y/F/N)- Your full name.

Not much Miguel and reader interaction but what is there is worth it. Me attempting to write about sports stuff I don’t know anything about even though I promise I did attempt research. Cursing (I think tbh I can’t even remember but probably), fluff (if you squint?????), I’m giving up on these tags lmao.

Word count: 2.8k

Series Masterlist

Chapter 14: Ever thought of callin’ when you’ve had a few? ‘Cause I always do.

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It wasn’t entirely surprising how quickly you got everyone in your group to agree to go to the game later, although you were expecting Logan to be against the idea since he hates the sport, but apparently his want to see you and Miguel get together was stronger than his hate for hockey since he immediately agreed.

You were currently in your 4-way shared Airbnb getting ready for the hockey game, having already been kicked out of the dorms by the university despite there being a game tonight, which didn’t make sense in your opinion, but that’s neither here nor there. Usually you would usually travel back home during the breaks, but due to you and Logan participating in regionals this year, you had to stay in Nueva York, you had both decided to stay in one rather than a regular hotel since it would be cheaper, Kate and Xavier tagged along for emotional support.

“I’ve never actually attended a hockey game, what do you wear? Probably a crew neck or a hoodie right? It’s still an ice rink. Maybe I should wear school merch, ugh but the only school related jacket I have is our skating team varsity jackets.” Kate, Logan and Xavier just stayed silent as they watched you rambled on, their faces full of amusement (and from Logan just the slightest bit of annoyance) as they watched you freak out , glancing at you every once and a while as you kept pacing between the hallway bathroom and your room as you attempted to get ready for the game despite it not starting for another 3 and a half hours.

“You should have asked Miguel for one of his spare jerseys.” Logan teased as he wandered towards your doorframe and leaned against it as he watched you dump your suitcase over your bed. How the hell do you not have a red or blue jacket??

“Shut up Logan.”

“You’re overthinking this, you know.”

“What? No I’m not.” Oh, you totally overthinking this.

“He’s got you whipped.” Logan snickered, shaking his head as he crossed his arms over his chest. You in response threw a pillow in his direction, which he hit to dodge.

“You’re not funny Logan. Do you have a school sweatshirt I can borrow?” You said, releasing a deep exhale through your nose as you turn to look at him.

“I think I think I have a spear.” He replied as he picked up the pillow off the floor and tossed it on your bed. “I just don’t want Miguel trying to beat me up over you wearing my jacket.” He added as he walked over to where you were standing, stopping once he was right next to you.

“He wouldn’t, I promise. I won’t let him.”

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“This is actually kinda fun to watch.” Xavier said to Kate, as she glanced over to you before back at the rink. The spiders were currently in the lead 2 to 1 and it was about to be the end of the first period, a little less than 6 minutes before the timer reaches zero.

“It’s totally scary though.” Kate said as she took a sip of her soda, you nodding in agreement.

“So glad I went into figure skating…” Logan muttered as his eyes widened, an almost horrified look spreading on his face, but he couldn’t look away. You would have giggled at his reaction if you didn’t feel the same way. Both sports are dangerous just in their own ways.

You turned your head as you saw Peter pass the punk to Miguel, who you believed was playing center, (you watched one of those 10 minute crash course videos on how hockey works before you came to the show because whether if you were aware of it or not, Logan was right about you being whipped already) as he was making his way closer to the goal, when one of the players on the opposite team came crashing into him back first. The other player’s elbow “accidentally” hit Miguel’s face, and Miguel was knocked back, landing against the wall as the player on the opposite side took the puck.

“What the fuck-.” You muttered under your breath in shock, cringing slightly as you watched Miguel’s hand going up to cover his mouth, his face wincing in pain, your hands going up to mirror his actions. As soon as Miguel’s hand made contact with his mouth, a timeout was called. The spider's couch went up to Miguel first, talked to him for a bit before walking over to where the referee was. You couldn’t hear anything from either interaction, so you just watched silently, ignoring your friends glances towards you, keeping your eyes on Miguel, worried written on your face. Miguel’s eyes shift around the arena, before finding yours, you can tell he’s trying not to cringe as much as soon as your eyes meet, as if he didn’t want you to see him in pain.

Once you two were looking at each other, you took your hand off your face and mouthed an “are you okay?” to which Miguel took his hand off his mouth and gave you a thumbs up and a smile, but his smile didn’t free you of your worries, in fact, it made it worse, before you could stop your body, you let out a gasp as your eyes widened. His mouth was bleeding, and it was bleeding a lot.

His expression seemed to falter a bit upon seeing your reaction, to what though you couldn’t really tell. Panic? Worry? You don’t know. Other then the initial pain he felt when the elbow made contact with his face, Miguel wasn’t really worried about his injury despite the metallic taste filling his mouth, he didn’t feel anything break or a tooth fall out, sure he’ll probably be sore from a few hours and will have to clean his mouth guard, maybe think about getting a cage instead (this wasn’t the first time someone has elbowed him in the face during a game) but he knows it’s a part of the sport, that’s what he signed up for when he started playing. So why was it that seeing the concern on your face made his chest tighten with guilt? Miguel didn’t have another time to dwell on his thoughts before his coach sent him to the locker room to clean up.

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Miguel felt like he was going to go insane if he didn’t get the taste of blood out of his mouth. He’s already gone through 4 sticks of gum and had to refill his water bottle twice in an attempt to flesh out the coppery taste from his senses. He let out a frustrated huff of annoyance as he spat out another piece of gum and brought his water up to his mouth and took a big swig, gargling it a bit before spitting it out in a sink and finally started to make his way out, his bag with his gear slung over his shoulder as he exited the locker room. They had won the game luckily, but Miguel wasn’t as happy as he wanted to be about the victory, maybe it was because he was still mad about getting elbowed in the mouth, maybe it was because he had to be benched due to him getting injured so early in the game or maybe it’s because out of all the games he played this season, of course he got injured at the one you were attending.

Most of the team has gone home already, some stragglers were left, two of those being Miguel and Peter, and Miguel wouldn’t be surprised if you had left already, he probably would have if he was in your shoes. Maybe you got the ick from him now after watching him get hit in the face, and he would be back in square one all over again, the thought was more painful then the hit to his mouth. His mind was running a mile a minute as we made his way down the hall and towards the main exit to head to his car where Peter was most likely already waiting for him. As he walked, he was trying to keep his thoughts on his sore jaw and about the game, trying to to not think about how you saw him get hit, or how your face twisted in disgust at the sight of his bloody smile after you asked him if he alright, the embarrassment and angry he felt when after he came back from the locker room Coach Turner benched him, how-

Is that you talking to Peter in the parking lot???

“I should turn around and wait till she leaves…” he told himself under his breath, but his feet continued to move him closer to where both of you stood near Miguel’s car. Once he was a big closer Peter noticed him first, since your back was facing him, talking to him about something he couldn’t quite pick up on.

“Ah speak of the devil.” Peter said with a smirk, one you would haven’t thought much of, but Miguel knew that there was a smug undertone to it, as if he was right about something. “Sup Mig, we were just talking about you.” He continued as you turned to face him, your eyes widened for a split second as they scanned Miguel’s face, as if checking for more injuries, before you took a step closer to him, you hand instantly going to rest gently on his arm.

“Hey! Oh my god, are you okay? That hit looked brutal, god that jerk.” Miguel didn’t know if it was the way your tone and face went from concerned to annoyed as you spoke, or the way you hand went traveled from his arm to his chin, lightly gripping it and moving his face from side to side gently, mirroring his actions earlier in the day when he did the same to you after he bumped into you at lunch, but god did you make his heart burst with warmth.

“I’m okay ice princess, calm down.” Miguel assured you with a small smile, a chuckle escaping his swollen lips as he took your hand and brought it down away from his face, giving it a light squeeze as he did so. Neither of you have realized that Peter had slipped away into Miguel's car.

“Okay, okay good.” You sighed and nodded, glad to know he was relatively okay.

“Didn’t mean to get you all worried Princesa.”

You scoff, taking your hand away from him and lightly hit his chest.

“God, you always gonna say something stupid, huh?” You rolled your eyes, but your tone couldn’t hide the smile forming on your face.

“Of course I do, ice princess, how else am I supposed to annoy you?”

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To say you were nervous was a complete understatement, you have never been more terrified for a skating performance in your life. It was your first time performing for regionals after all.

You had barely gotten a wink of sleep, a few hours at most, but you mostly spent the night twisting and turning, glancing at your phone to look at the time, before letting out a frustrated groan and pulling your sheets up a bit higher in an attempt to get yourself to finally sleep. But your attempts were mostly futile, finally throwing in the towel around 5:00 in the morning, deciding it would be better to spend your time Getting ready for the day you’ve been anticipating rather then attempting to get another hour of sleep you know you won’t get.

By the time the clock had struck 5:30, you'd already packed your equipment in your bag, and had loaded it in Logan’s car, not surprised when you saw his back already packed, before making your way to the kitchen to make yourself breakfast, something light but enough to keep you full till lunch.

“You couldn’t sleep either?” Logan asked when you saw him enter the kitchen, two Starbucks cups hand, passing you one as he took a sip of his, his voice low as to not wake up Kate or Xavier. You let out a hum and nodded your head as you took the one he handed you and took a sip, the caffeine making you wince as you feel it try to wake your body up a bit.

“We should hit the road soon, coach Kavinsky said we should be at the rink by 6 so we can make it in time for check in and make it for our off ice warm up.” You said as you stood up from your seat, putting your dishes in the sink.

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“God, I didn't know our short program would take so long…” Logan huffed as you both threw your figure skating jackets over your performance outfits for the first half of the competition, as you both rushed down the arenas long hallway being careful to avoid running into some of the other pairs as you made your way back to the locker rooms to change.

“Did you see Kate and her boyfriend?”

“No. Did you see Miguel and his friend?”

“No. I didn’t get enough time to look around the seats to find them.”

“Same.”

You both dropped the conversation once you both reached your respective locker rooms. Quickly changing out of the first dress and slipped the second one on, it was a full black dress with long mesh sleeves and smoke black mesh on your sides, being sure to be careful with the gemstones that were placed around the waistline and the chest, and the black feathers that accented the back in order to look like a pair of small wings as you slip your jacket back on, before going to change your lip color and eye makeup.

You were stressing hard, hell, you were surprised you were able to apply your eyeliner with a steady hand. You didn’t need to rush, since you and Logan weren’t going back on the ice for a while since they still had a few short programs to go through before you were supposed to go back on, but you tended to rush when you were nervous. Once you finished fixing your makeup you went to touch up your hair, placing two feathered wing hair clips that pinned flat against your head to match the ones of your costume, one of each side of your head. As you were placing some more bobby pins in your hair to help keep the small wings in place you heard your phone ding next to where you had placed it next to all your supplies. Once placing the last bobby pin in your hair, you grabbed your phone to open it and look at the notification.

Hey, you did amazing, can’t wait to watch your other dance. -unknown number

Fuck how your heart skipped a beat.

You didn’t even need to ask who it was to know it was Miguel, although you never gave him your phone number, so you were a bit curious as to who he had asked for it, but for now you’d have to push that to the back of your mind and focus at the more important upcoming task at hand.

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“Next skaters going for the free skate, (Y/F/N) and Logan Martinez.”

A pause as the two go into their starting positions before Swan Lake by Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky begins to fill the arena, the two skaters cladded in black, the gemstones on their costumes, despite their small size, shimmered brightly from the lights. No sounds other than the music filling the rink and the occasional swish from the skates slashing the ice.

You might be representing the black swan but you’ve never looked more like an angel in Miguel’s eyes. Despite the tragic atmosphere that the performance was depicting, you looked absolutely heavenly to him, he shouldn’t be surprised, this is what you love to do, what you wanted to do for a living. But he’s never got the chance, no starch that, the privilege of watching you do a routine in all of your full glory. He’s caught glimpses of you and Logan doing both routines during practices, but that was different, you wouldn’t portraying the emotions like you were right now, you wouldn’t wear the performance outfit like you were now, and the energy you were putting into the routine was far more grand than when you would practice back on the uni’s arena. He could already see himself watching from home as you and Logan were representing the country in the Olympics, but then again, maybe it was just his heart talking,being overzealous. He didn’t know if it was the performance or just your presence that he couldn’t tear his gaze from, but he wasn’t even sure if he wanted to look away in the first place.

You and Logan were selected to advance to sectionals.

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[bloggingboutburgers]

Reading your blog, I'm starting to see my relationship with my bf differently (we've been together for over a decade). Like, I've been questioning my romantic orientation for some time, suspecting I might be somewhere on the aromantic spectrum. But I realise I don't really have a clear image of what romance actually is and if it's something I have in my relationship. Like, he's my best friend. But what makes it different that a very close friendship? Apart, you know, the fact we live together and see each other every day. I'm also asexual so we don't really have sex, but for the very rare time I feel like doing something for him, but it's not really something we do, though I know sex and romance are to different things, straight people tend to say that the difference between friendship and dating is sex. I've heard allos saying "if I don't have sex with my s/o, what are we? Friends?" Anyway, I'm just more and more confused by what those criterias are for defining what is and what is not a romantic relationship. Love? I mean, love can have so many forms, how am I to regognise which one I feel? I just care about my bf. I like spending time together. We help each other on a daily basis. And when one of us need alone time we give as much time as the other needs. We do our things each in our corners and meet in the middle when we want company. We're happy this way. And that's great! I just can't comprehend what this all means. Sometimes I'm confused about the feelings I get for other people. Am I attracted to them or do I just want to smother them with my intense friendship? Which is hard. I sometimes feel like I love my friend to hard and I shy away during our interactions for fear to overwhelm them with my love. What's the difference between the two? Between my relationship with my bf and the friendship with those people I have to keep away sometime for fear to be "too much"? I'm sorry for these ramblings. You probably don't have the answers to this, but I needed to tell all this to someone that might understand at least some of it. I love your blog btw.

Sorry I'm replying so late – but thank you so much for all of this input, it's actually so interesting to hear your take on your own experience.

You're right, I don't have the answers, because every experience is very personal and I don't wanna project onto others, but there's a lot of points I actually relate to very much – like, I don't have a clear idea of what romance even is either, I just feel in my gut that it's not what I have with my queerplatonic partner. I guess in my own case I've also always had a bit of trouble with the idea of a "best friend" (like, I HAVE entertained the idea that this or that person might be my "best friend" at some points in my life, but I always end up coming back to the thought that I don't feel OK putting one person above others in my head – I work more in tiers made out of several people at once).

I might also be overthinking things but I often hear in the long-term-relationship discourse that romantic partnerships often wind up turning into friendship over time and that's OK – no idea how that works but it's interesting to think about, and I wonder if there's any truth to that on an aromantic spectrum basis? Like maybe... If both of us are on the aromantic spectrum, then maybe we just didn't get the "romantic high" part because we don't feel romantic attraction or feel it less than most people, and we're straight to that "friendship" part people talk about? ...Either way, what you describe with your bf sounds like a vibe, a healthy vibe to me. Sounds like you guys have it figured out and I wish you the best, honestly.

Also lol it really IS a useful and sobering reminder that to most allo people, the "sex = romance" idea is probably very prevalent still... Makes it even harder to figure ourselves out

Either way sorry for rambling and thank you SO MUCH for sharing your self-reflection, honestly, whatever conclusion you come to I hope life is good for you^^

[pseudophan]

idk if this is confirmed or if im insane but i feel like dan in his why i quit youtube video was talking about how he felt like there was Dan content and Dan And Phil content and how he felt like he was split between them....i wonder if hes trying both to see what he still likes to do. he had his internet show and now danandphilgamws is back like. i have a feeling he's trying to figure things out rn

i think dan ultimately wants to do his own thing and has a lot of ideas and aspirations, specifically he wants to be a stage comedian like his passion is clearly for live performances and while the comedy bit is still being fine tuned (i'm not saying he's bad, in fact he's kinda good ngl, but he definitely has a way to go if he wants to be Great) the performance part he's got DOWN like say what you want about that man but he ooowwwnnnsss a stage. also he's weirdly great at audience interaction lmao? that was my main takeaway from we're all doomed, both the pre show and the show itself, he deals with heckling like.. AMAZINGLY well. he's genuinely hilarious responding to an audience like i never thought i'd say this a few years ago but i think he might actually have a future in live comedy lmao????

but i also think he.. needs money LOL like he's said many a time he doesn't really love being a full time youtuber, but also he does enjoy making youtube videos! just, you know.. not full time. but while on his own channel making Daniel Howell(tm) videos he puts a lot of pressure on himself, and then if he does a slightly less high pressure series or whatever (dystopia daily) it's relatively well received and the videos are good enough but like.. it's not the traction he wants, nor the traction he needs

ultimately dan knows that if he wants to keep and potentially build an audience online that lies in Dan And Phil. it always has and it always will. and i think for a long time he struggled with that, and as much as people gave him shit for it i completely get it. like, lmao, of COURSE he wants to be recognised for his own abilities and not just the dynamic and chemistry he's got going with... his literal partner. honestly it would be one thing if dnp were just comedy partners because there are a lot of comedy duos on the world who've made it big, but i think there's something about it being him and his full time actual real life boyfriend/life partner that kinda makes it weird. and as much as i love the dnp dynamic i still do get that feeling so much like honestly who can blame him ?? if your entire professional life is just.. your personal life but on camera ? that's weird. it's gotta feel weird and it's definitely unfulfilling for someone as aspirational as dan and i can't blame him at all for it

that being said, dan clearly does really enjoy making videos with phil. which yeah of course he does, he gets to just turn on a camera and talk shit with the guy he talks shit with all day long anyway. and i think what he's now realised is 1. if he wants to keep/build an audience, the dan and phil branding is where it's at and 2. he needs an income while he works on whatever solo projects he's got going on, and dnp makes a loooot of money

basically my point is - dan seems to really enjoy making videos with phil but he knows that's not really a life long career choice. as much as i'd love them to, it's not really an option for them to be playing sims when they're like, sixty. and while phil is relatively chill and seems to just take things as they come, which tbh is probably the healthiest way of doing things, dan is very overthinking and wants to get ahead of everything and also in general just like.. he wants to build a career! he wants to build something on his own and i can't fault him for that at all. dan knows that one day he's gonna need something more than just Dan And Phil if he wants to keep working, and he's laying the groundwork right now to be able to do that

again, though, i don't want anyone to take this as like 'dan is only doing dapg to make money and rebuild a fanbase' because as much as that is definitely a big part of it... just look at the man. in these videos. he's having a great time. and also, as annoying as we are, he does kinda love us. sometimes. maybe. <3

[williamaltman]

Life is Strange 2 thoughts/feelings/review

So, Life is Strange 2. I finished the game yesterday and watched the other endings today. Things are not as fresh in my mind as if I had just finished and I talked a bit about it in other places so this feels a bit hard, but I'll try to lay down all my thoughts...

First of all... All my homies love LIS2, fuck you if you don't like LIS2! Seriously though, for years I've seen people say that the game wasn't good, that the characters weren't as good as the ones from the first one, that the Sean/Daniel relationship wasn't that interesting... I kinda did suspect it was just nostalgia goggles or whatever, but now I know for sure. I don't think there's anything wrong with connecting more with LIS1 and having a deeper relationship with it, but in this case I think you shouldn't even be comparing them and expecting the game to live up to that to you in the first place.

Now, onto the actual game. God, this was so fucking heartbreaking. I think I cried in every single episode. The very core premise of the story is just so sad, so unfair, and despite the powers so rooted in reality that it left me legit feeling uncomfortable with how fucked up their whole situation was. There are good moments, sure, but honestly every single thing that happens from the moment their dad is shot is just... Not how their life should've had to be.

Sure, LIS1 and BTS had dark themes too. But here, it's like, they lose everything from the beginning. Sean doesn't get to go to his party, to hang out with Lyla, to continue his normal life in any way. Daniel loses a part of his childhood. They're both forced to grow up so much faster than they should. There's a line Sean says in episode 3, and it's just a little idle VO, but it fucking crushed me, "Stop overthinking. You're not a teenager anymore". Even though he's fucking 16... He's 16 and he has to essentially become a parent. I knew what the game was about and lowkey followed it a bit when it was releasing, knew a few spoilers, but that didn't make anything any less heartbreaking.

I thought it was beautiful how the game took the opportunity to showcase and celebrate alternate lifestyles. The "family", Away, their freedom and how they interacted with society brings so much into perspective. I'm still a bit conflicted about Karen tbh, but I'm glad that at least they did show something beautiful through her story.

My biggest problem overall is probably how they handled the Finn romance route... I knew back when the game was releasing that despite adding a male LI, they pushed the female one more onto you and gave her more content, while locking the option to kiss him with a "bad choice" (I didn't know what exactly it was). And yeah, that is still true. I still think it was a mistake to lock the kiss with accepting the heist, and while I kinda understand the writer's explanation for that, I still think it could've been handled in another way, or they could've just let him kiss you and "betray" you by doing the heist anyway, since he still does that when you're friends lol.

I see people complaining that because they moved from place to place each episode, there wasn't enough time to connect with the characters... Idk if I'd say I disagree, but it just wasn't really the case for me. I was very invested in all the relationships, in Finn, Cassidy, Jacob, Chris, Karen. Everyone at the farm was cool and everyone in Away too. Lyla. You get so many tidbits about the characters even when they're not there on screen. The only thing I have to say which is kinda related to that, is that I think the time jumps were maybe a bit too big, and that the way they handled Mushroom was... weird.

I got the Parting Ways ending, and I'm satisfied with it. I kinda planned to get it, but only in the sense that I was spoiled that you get with Finn there. I didn't know that the whole morality thing had anything to do with it, and I played the first two episodes without even knowing that there was a points system about that and about brotherhood. I just made all the choices that were high morality (besides killing the cougar and the heist) because it was what I would do, and tried to be a good brother for Daniel. I figured that choosing to cross the border would most likely give me that one, but I just couldn't accept Sean having to go to prison for 15 years for something he didn't even do. If we were able to choose between Parting Ways and Blood Brothers, then I would actually be conflicted about which I wanted.

With the way the game's system works though, where you need to have low morality to get Blood Brothers, I couldn't really do it. I can't imagine myself teaching Daniel to be selfish and not care about killing people. I actually think it's super cool to watch Daniel use his power offensively and fuck shit up, but it just wouldn't be my version of the story. It's funny because, if we just played as Daniel, I wouldn't mind going that route. But since we play as Sean, with it being our job to raise Daniel, I feel a different kind of responsability towards leading him to become a good person. I also think it's beautiful that he gets to have the rest of his childhood, teenagehood, and live a "normal" healthy life with his grandparents. He does it in the redemption one too, but as I said, that just screws up Sean too much.

So, I'm a little disappointed that they're separated (and maybe can't ever see each other again? I'm a bit confused about Daniel's situation and whether he could visit), and that it's a bit shorter than the others (at least than the redemption one), but it IS the ending my playthrough led to and in that I'm satisfied.

I think this story is just incredible. It touched me so much, and the fact that some people can't see it genuinely frustrates me. The people complaining it's too political in particular can just go fuck themselves. It might not be perfect, but like with all things I appreciate, I'm just so glad it exists.

[h5eavenly]

ofc i’m extremely happy ppl are reading and enjoying Fallen Star so i hope they don’t take this the wrong way…but it lowkey seems like a lot of ppl don’t care about character/plot development. they just want to cut straight to jake falling in love with yn immediately just bc he rooted her lol. give my guy a chance to at least get to know yn first pls, like he didn’t even know she had a sick brother until her coworkers told him lmao.

ofc i can definitely understand ppl getting excited and maybe overthinking jake’s behaviour towards yn. it’s a jake fic, so ofc he’s going to develop feelings for her as the series progresses. however, so far there’s been so many important details that ppl have glossed over or haven’t questioned about jake and yn’s characters. for example, why yn immediately assumes jake only paid for niki’s hospital fees bc he wants her body, and her inner monologue about believing she’s just a body to be used. or why jake even wanted to pay niki’s hospital fees. or what relevance niki’s chronic illness and backstory even has to the series. or what jake meant when he promised jay that “it’s not like before” when they talked about his hands. or why jay and jennie never told yn about jake’s ocd symptoms. or even wondering about jake’s past in the band and why he told soojin he can’t pick up a guitar without thinking of “her”. or how all of these examples are even relevant to jake and yn’s relationship yk.

i know i’m probs getting too in my head about it, but there’s just so much more to the series than purely: blunt boss jake roots assistant yn, they bicker, he gets jealous and realised he’s in love, they confess, the end. also tbh in what world do ppl immediately become whipped for their annoying assistant/root, without getting to know them a bit first lmao??? especially when they’re closed off and logical like jake or emotionally all over the place like yn imo.

again i hope ppl don’t take this the wrong way, as i’m so grateful ppl are reading the series bc Angie is such a talented writer. but i think that’s exactly my point, that it just gets a bit disheartening sometimes seeing the interactions be solely either 1. jake’s supposed feelings for yn that so far haven’t actually been shown or 2. him supposedly being an asshole just bc he’s blunt and logical, when realistically yn has actually lowkey been the asshole for not respecting his boundaries and her tendency to assume the worst of him.

i know i sound like i have a stick up my ass but i just wish more ppl paid attention to how much time and effort Angie spends bringing this series to life and that if she wanted to create just a typical boss roots assistant then gets jealous and falls in love fic, then she wouldn’t have gone to all the trouble of including so much detail about the characters and storylines. she’s also way too nice of a person to say any of this and i know i can come off as blunt or rude without meaning to sometimes, so again pls don’t take this the wrong way. i just wanted to be the sacrificial lamb, share what we’ve been thinking lately and some perspective of Angie’s incredibly detailed efforts. ofc we’re also open to constructive feedback or if you just feel like telling me to stfu and get over it then that’s fine too lmao. anyways love you all sm regardless and thank you for enjoying Fallen Star🖤

p.s. 🤺 yes angie i used ‘root’ to remind you that term exists in jake’s vocabulary bc i love giving you the ick and bc i’m still petty that he stole my childhood dreams

i do appreciate you speaking out you said everything that ive been thinking and going through internally better than i ever could, i’ve been struggling with speaking out without being misunderstood or sounding ungrateful yet thats not how i feel at all. i am grateful for every single person that reads a word from me however it’s unmotivating and disheartening when i work so hard on smth (like fallen star) and work so hard on details and building characters yet none of it seem to be acknowledged let alone appreciated.

i understand that not everyone wants a deep story with a lot of details and build up and i understand just because i’m a person who likes analyzing everything when i read doesn’t mean ppl are gonna be the same but at this poinnt everyone that is reading doesn’t feel like they’re actually reading and so its so unmotivating idk what else to say i even told laces (you!) how i feel like idek if anyone is enjoying fallen star for what’s it actually is.

[torchickentacos]

3, 6, & 21 for Drew, our beloved

THANK YOU ANON! Love the usage of 'our' here. We all have joint custody of this weirdo.

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character?

OOOOOOH. Okay. This is going to sound like an early April Fool's joke coming from me specifically, but STAY WITH ME. My least favorite thing is that he literally only ever talks to May. Which, okay, kind of my favorite thing too, but he just has such INTERESTING interactions with others when pokeani lets him, but they just never really do. On one hand, I seriously love the tunnel-vision. He literally will ignore a room full of people if she's in it. Like. Canonically. It's all he ever does. But when he DOES interact with others, it's FUN! We get so much about him from those interactions but they just happen so rarely.

Anyways, incomplete list of characters that Drew should TOTALLY have gotten to interact with: Gary. Tracey. Misty. Brock (Brock has HILARIOUS one-sided beef with Drew by the way lmao, calls him nails on a chalkboard). Paul. I know Paul came after Drew but IMAGINE. What would that even look like?????

6. What's something you have in common with this character?

Honestly, not much. At all. I'm extroverted, heart-on-my-sleeve, nonconfrontational, spontaneous, unorganized, forgetful- things he is absolutely not. But I am a hopeless romantic who will get stuck pining for years on end, so that's something lol??? But honestly, veeeery little lol.

Rest under cut bc this is getting long.

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

this is also under cut because I'm incredibly touchy/quiet about my fic stuff here, but anyone who actually wants to read this and clicks the read more is someone who I'm fine with reading this answer lol. Mostly just don't want non-mutuals skimming my fic thoughts. I wish there were tumblr circles like twitter had- it would stir some bullshit, yeah, but there's... kind of a lot of you guys here and only a select few are pokeani, lol, and it's intimidating. I wish I could post for a smaller audience but alas. If you're bothering to read this then you're probably fine. I've had bad experiences with judgmental people, so fic stuff is something I only talk about to a really tiny group, but I think I can answer this. Feeling brave.

Okay. Something I like to do is lean into his overthinking. So, technically we have no idea if he overthinks or not in canon, but it seems to be a pretty unanimous fandom decision that he's someone who gets stuck in his own head a bit. He thinks too much for his own good, and I try to play into that. Not that most of it ever leaves google docs, but lol. So it goes. I think, in stark contrast to specific other characters lol, he's someone who has the next ten steps planned if he can help it, and that's fun to mess with.

Something I dislike doing... hmm. I usually leave his backstory pretty up to interpretation. I'll add details where I see fit, but overall I just leave it blank. It's not that I don't have headcanons! But I really can't settle on just one, so I never write much of any at all. I love reading other people's ideas so much! I just can't commit to my own and I leave it as-is, pretty barebones. I also don't really lean into his arrogance as hard as other writers. Not that I dislike it! I just think, for me, I tend to enjoy writing other aspects of his personality more. Him being kind of a jackass is an undeniable part of him kjdfhskdjfhbdkj but there's different ways to go about it and I leave the brunt of it to people who can write it better than I can.

[frikatilhi]

Re: Bojan's tone with the Käärijä question, I was also kinda caught off guard by it. I first saw the interaction only in a text post which didn't convey the tone, but I just saw the video. I'm sure he is not annoyed by Jere (considering that he just a few days ago posted about the Emma gaala and everything), but I was still a bit taken aback (but I'm also an anxious bojere bitch so it might just be me). Hopefully everything is okay. It's not the first time he's been a bit annoyed by the constant Käärijä related questions, of course, it's just that lately he has seemed more fine with them (like you said, in that recent podcast, for example) and even bringing up Jere himself, even when he didn't have to. So yeah, the sudden annoyance seemed to kinda come out of nowhere.

And one thing I've kinda been silently side-eyeing is the way Bojan and the other JO boys have publicly congratulated Jere for the new single and now for the Emma wins. And Jere has said nothing about their new single. I mean, he is obviously not obligated to do so, and I guess he mostly uses his social media to promote his work and other personal shenanigans (as he should). Because unlike the boys, who have their personal accounts as well as the band's official account for just the band promo, he just the one account for everything. Still, I was a bit surprised he didn't acknowledge it at all. (But of course, may have done so privately.) And actually, did he acknowledge SSOL either? The whole Nordic Tour is a complete blur to me lol.

Anyway, sorry for the rant. I'm just overthinking everything as usual. And needed to say it "out loud" to someone. So thank you for "listening", I guess. 😅🩷

Hey, it's okay to vent!

But I wouldn't read too deeply into it, he probably didn't mean much by it? He wasn't his happiest self since he is sick, and honestly it doesn't sound annoyed to me?

And I didn't think it was weird at all that Jere didn't post about EW, I don't think he uses IG that way nowadays, it's just for promoting his own stuff. I don't think we should put too much stock on what we see publicly anyway, it's only a very small part of their relationship and can be totally random. I enjoy it when they acknoledge each other, but it's not the be all end all of their thing.

[etoilesbienne]

could you elaborate a bit more? (on the dteam spreen post)

Yeah it's like Spreen and DTeam have a decent working relationship (which is fine! I can't control every cc interaction as much as I hate the group) - they met, to my knowledge, during Squidcraft (large event hosted by Ibai and Rubius with Eng and Esp communities combined) - Which like, if they just met and played Minecraft together sometimes as a funny "haha we struggle with each other's languages and make content together regardless" bit, that's cool! I wouldn't think it was that weird!

What I find odd is the way he's brought up outside of Minecraft. Like it's never just "Yeah we're going to play Minecraft with more hispanic streamers!" it's like... only ever him mentioned. Which like wouldn't be weird if the contexts it was brought up in weren't just completely odd. Like they mentioned they were going to Spain right before La Velada but don't mention La Velada, Dream just says "to hang out with Spreen" which like. Cool! Okay! And then they like only took photos with him at the event? It was just odd to do as your primary motivation & like most of what you do at the literal Twitch Record Breaking Annual Stream.

Anyway the most recent moment in the string of just kinda odd treatment of Spreen by DTeam was Sapnap wearing Spreen's cubito's skin to Shadoune's big Minecraft event. Like I could be very well overthinking it, but it was a bit strange?

Like to their own credit Spreen does mention Dream & co from time to time too when English streamers are brought up, with like much less frequency.

I guess what bothers me about it is like, and like to be explicitly clear I do not think Spreen is really like being manipulated or isn't aware of things, Spreen is definitely like ratio wise the biggest Minecraft CC who speaks the least amount of English. Just the whole behavior from DTeam about learning Spanish and their weird treatment of Hispanic streamers sets me on edge to begin with LOL. I don't know if any of this is like damning evidence anywhere it just strikes me as a bit peculiar.

[silly-sirenz]

Hii!!

Just saw your match-ups are opened,and I was looking for one for Hazbin hotel,So I guess I was really lucky!!

Your blog seems really silly (the Rosie aesthetic is just EVERYTHING OMG <33)

Anyways,my name is Nina,but you can call me N,Weewoo and other names :3

I use she/they pronouns,I'm a bisexual (I feel like a have a slighttttt male preference,but omg women <33)

I have a very crazy attitude lol ToT

Overall,I'm very energetic and happy person- I love colors (i only dress in bright flashy colors and if you see me in black something is wrong/j),my favorite is pink! I'm a bit loud (even obnoxious sometimes help) and I feel like i act like a golden retriever on sugar- but I (hope I) can be comforting and calm when needed. I'm also a bit of a nerd in things I like (aren't we all sometimes?).

I like to call people some endearing names platonically (dearie,darling,dear,love,lovely...)

But,I can get frustrated easily and sometimes snap at people when I'm without people close to me or have too much work,get into fights and start to overthink and stress about it :(

I like people,but crowds get overwhelming because I don't know those people,they might be judging me and ajfenwvsbee. I like a group of people I know,you get me?

I love to draw and write (i love writing personal stories of my ocs interacting with canon). Again,I love colors <33. I like to make covers with my friends,too!

And I am a Libra ENFP :3

I hope that isn't too much info ^^''

Anyways,I hope you have a very nice day,dearie,and stay proud!!

-Nina ⭐️

Hellooooo. Thank you, I'm glad you like ny aesthetic 🖤

I'm terms of matchups, I'm going to match you with...

🎉MIMZY🎉

●Mimzy needs someone who can keep up and match her energy. And whilst she flirts alot, she's quite picky when it comes to partners.

● However, your bubbly personality sets you apart from the crowd in her eyes.

● You go to her club, looking for a fun night on the town.

● The dancing is old fashioned and looks a bit odd, but everyone seems to be partying like there's no tomorrow. You just have to get involved!!

● Mimzy notices you in the crowd. It looks like you could do with some help on your swivel, so she comes over and gives you some pointers.

● She wasn't expecting you to pick things up so quickly. Before she knows it, you're the only one with enough energy to keep up with her on the dancefloor.

●The two of you grow very close from that point. You're practically inseperable, always partying together.

● She picks out matching outfits for the two of you for parties. There's a lot of pink and a LOT of sparkles.

● Then one night, after a couple of drinks bossting your confidence, you kiss her on the dancefloor.

● Your heart stops when she pulls back. You start profusely apologising, claiming that you don't know what came over you.

● But instead of the rage or disgust you had expected, she starts laughing.

"How long have you wanted to do that?"

"...A long time." You barely utter over the music.

● Suddenly, she dips you down to the floor in her arms.

"Well then dearie, we have a lot to catch up on~"

[justagalwhowrites]

OMG! Bestie! Joel and Bambi's interactions are sooooo much!!!!! 😱😍I loved the chapter so much that I'm not even annoyed at the cliffhanger at the end! Is it your intention to overstuff us with so much fluff and sweetness we won't get too mad when all the angst comes? I don't care if it's or not. I take it all anyway! LOL.🤣

Joel opening Bambi's gift reminded me of the first episode when Sarah gave him his birthday present. Reading your words, I pictured him having a similar expression, surprised but all happy and elated, and feeling all the thought and work Bambi has put into the guitar strap. They care so much for each other! Seeing her so comfortable with Joel, craving his touch and company, and being able to tease him and Tommy makes me so happy for her. I could keep going like this for hours, so I should better not start talking about the forehead kiss… I will only say my smile couldn't have been bigger as I read it, and the whole moment bantering about the movie and the movie itself! This chapter was a pleasure to read.

What surprised me was the feeling I got after reading the chapter. Usually, I tend to overthink what'll happen next, especially when I feel we're getting into the thick of the plot, but not this time. Don't get me wrong, I still have lots of questions, and I'm still dying a little bit wanting to read the next chapter, but this time, I felt peaceful, like I was happy just waiting and being here for the ride with fellow readers and being surprised with each update. I don't know if I'm explaining myself or just rambling, soo…. I'll just say thank you for this chapter and this beautiful story that has craved a sweet place in my heart.♥️♥️♥️

AHHHH BESTIE!

Before I dive into this can I just say? I love your asks so much, they always make me happy.

ANYWAY IN WE GOOOO

LMFAO not my CONSCIOUS intention but... You're going to need a reason to want these two to work their shit out when the time comes. I'm trying to make sure those reasons are VERY VERY CLEAR so y'all want these idiots to figure it out as much as I do lol

And OMG Joel was trying SO HARD to be chill when opening Bambi's gift. He was so touched and excited but also like "NOPE SHE'LL FREAK OUT IF YOU FREAK OUT GOTTA BE CALM ABOUT THIS DON'T. SPOOK. THE. PRETTY. GIRL. STAY. CALM." They're just so closely bonded now that I can't, I can't with them I love them so much and just... yeah. I know I wrote it but it really doesn't feel like I did much? I feel like I watched these two fall in love with each other and then just wrote down what they did, I'm nothing but an observer and I just adore them.

Next chapter is going to be big. Very very big. Lots is going to happen. So much. I'm not sure how long it's going to take me to write honestly because I'm debating about breaking up this chunk into multiple chapters so it's not too much? I'm not sure what the answer is yet but it will be out within the next few days. It's what I'm writing next (after this one shot that I'm working on right now) and I might write this whole chunk and then decide about a chapter break if I think it needs one and put things up close together... anyway, I gotta figure it out.

Thank you so much for reading and for writing me!! I love that you're here and I love you, too!

[tired-sapphic]

Serial Experiments Lain, ep.2

(ep.1 thoughts here )

Alright so in the 2nd ep:

1) there's a "drug"(not actually a drug though) called "Accela" which...accelerates (lol) a person's consciousness and alters their sense of time.

2)There's someone(!) who strongly resembles Lain that hangs out at that club, Cyberia, has a bit of a temper and in general seems the opposite of Lain.

Ok, now random thoughts:

The red light motif continues..I'm not going to place too much emphasis on that right now but whether it actually means anything or not..it's a thing! Like I said in my last post if you see a red light somebody (likely) dies (red usually symbolizes warning, danger etc) and also this is the 2nd time Lain stands near a red light (first being her standing near a red light in the tracks when that girl dies).

Speaking of the girl in the tracks, Lain sees her again so there's another interaction with the seemingly(?) dead and I say "seemingly" cuz I can't be sure of what's going on in that show lol.

The theme of spectatorship/surveillance continues. Second time we see an "eye" (1st: eye on the wires, 1st ep.) but this time it's more prominent imo. Also it's interesting how the person seems to blend in with the shadows, almost as if he's not there.

Episode concludes with Lain in the club saying "No matter where you are humans are all connected." I think it's safe to say that connectedness is a major theme of the show (though i could be wrong). The boundary between life and death is blurred as well as the boundary between real life and digital life. Maybeee there's a 'physical vs spiritual death' theme..like I could say that the dead girl with the emails is physically dead but spiritually alive since she still exists in a way that is not physical but then it's like...she exists on the Wired..so is that really...existing in a spiritual(?) way? yeah idk

Ah! This could be the animators wanting a cool shot of an eye but I'm in overthinking mode rn so bare with me: eye spectating Lain (see previous pic) vs Lain being the spectator(pic below)...active vs passive Lain (like a sign of Lain having a more active role)...maybe? lol

Anyway this is just me making surface level observations, I'm not that far into the show to analyse it further and I'm sure it's been analysed so many times before so i doubt I'll bring anything new to the table but still, this is just for my own enjoyment and it's also a way for me to not give up the show too early..yet again lol. Stay tuned stay wired for ep 3 thoughts hehe

[cuntstable]

I'm sorry if this is a strange question to ask but what are your thoughts on the fat Yuyuko headcanon? I personally like it (as I do with any hc that gives more body diversity to the touhou cast) but I know its origins are questionable/fatphobic. I'm sorry if this is unwelcome or if I'm overthinking things or if it turns out this headcanon is only a thing in the part of the fanbase that i interact with (<-my biggest fear in writing this)

On a similar note would it be bad to draw Urumi as plus sized? I personally hc her to be bc of the people she reminds me of but im scared of the connotations that some parts of her design have (Her species, the cowprint) (But yeah I'm sorry for the long ask I tried googling this and instead i got some gross reddit threads)

no dw ive thought about this too over the years!! like ive been into touhou since i was about 11 and the hc about yuyuko being fat was around online even back then! but like u also said it did originate mostly through jokes about her eating all the time and being a glutton, so there was often an element of fatphobia to it. but that being said i always felt attached to the headcanon anyway since you know. as a kid i liked the idea of my favourite touhou character being similar to me in some way. and i actually often used the fact that she IS a glutton and lazy to justify the idea when people made fun of it, even if i had to rely on fatphobic stereotypes.

so like its a bit complicated right, because while the hc is more widely accepted it still plays into negative stereotypes. but that being said i did always like the idea that even while being a fat woman yuyuko was widely held as incredibly beautiful in story, and ethereal and a princess and a tragic complex character and whatever else. like her being those things while fat always overpowerd the negatives in my mind.

so like im not the authority on fat headcanons lol and certainly not fatphobia but i think that generally you can headcanon any character as fat, as long as they have positive traits too that the hc would further highlight (ie yuyuko being a serious character and also being considered insanely pretty even while fat!), AND maybe even more crucially, you dont only hc gluttonous and lazy and comedic characters as fat. same with urumi in my opinion, like its completely fine to hc her as fat as long as she and yuyuko arent the only characters you do that with. then it would feel a bit stereotypical in my opinion, but otherwise i think its not really an issue! :)