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[bugwolfsstuff]

I think converting to paganism was the best thing to happen to me because like

I never felt God or Jesus and only prayed when I slept at my grandparents house and they made me pray for 'mammy and daddy' or at lunch during school when we had to sing that 'bless the hands that made the food' song (I cannot remember the lyrics)

But i've felt Dionysus at my best and worst moments, dancing with me at my crazy messed up sugar high moments and holding me at my worst suicidal moments telling me i'm okay.

and i've felt Apollo when the sun shines brightly as I listen to music or write.

and i've felt Artemis, Áine, The Morrigan, Nemesis and Arawn be angry for me when i've prayed for some form of revenge/justice against some creepy old boy/man

and i've felt Hekate in some form as I pray for protection when things go bump in the night and i'm a little too paranoid.

And I know i'm not the best pagan because i'm primarily a riordanverse blog and I like to read comics based off the pantheons I worship but I really feel like the gods don't care about who I am here

[seancamerons]

[ddysgirl6]

Oldie but a goodie 🌸

[lorelune]

get ready!!!!!

[hammill-goes-fogwalking]

when you're again listening to a plague of lighthouse keepers and only 3 minutes left. Then someone calls you to visit a real lighthouse NOW SPONTANEOUS but. GIVE THESE 3 MINUTES. ONLY. 3. YOU GET ME?

[nerdwithabrush2]

the state of J

This is more of a word womit and a vent than anything else I guess. Maybe I'll typ it out and get it out of my brain and it'll be better.

I just sort of realized what's been bringing me so down lately, I mean other than a few other things that are constant.

Today is my mom's birthday, but it's also my only close uncle's birthday. I have 2 uncles-one we don't really talk to at all. This one unfortunately was tasked with picking up the slack because my father wasn't there. And it's his first birthday since he passed away last summer.

It just hit me today. And it's dawning on my just how very very low I am.

And I knew April/May was going to be rough anyway because gram passed away last april 29.

This is affecting everything in my life apparently. And coincidentally JJ has a bunch of trauma anniversaries happening this month.

I feel like I'm in an angst cycle here and it's not fun. She should be happy. She's got a wonderful family, friends, a wedding coming up.

But she's frustrating the ever-living hell out of me. I hate that I've dumped my trauma on her and I feel like I'm pushing EVERYONE away on here, on discord and irl. Part of me knows it's not true-that everyone's busy and dealing with their own stuff. I just am feeling needy and I also hate that.

So I don't know what I'm going to do, but at this very moment I just want to cry on someone's shoulder, but I'm alone. And I feel like I'm constantly talking into a void.

@agentjjkelly

[muttmoxley]

sometimes im like "wow holy shit im being really fucking annoying. i should stop talking" and then i pull out my magic 8 ball and it says "youve always been annoying and your friends chose to talk you anyways. youll be fine" and im like wow thanks magic 8 ball. and then the ogre attacks me

[mag200]

astonishing how good it can feel to get some chores done sometimes. you’ll be sitting there like damn i am some type of horrid little smeagol like creature who should be crushed to death. but then you do some laundry and you’re like wrow. im actually gods most fuckable soldier.

[whereisthesun]

I HATE MORAL OCD. well i shouldnt say hate thats a strong word. and i dont want to sound like i hate people WITH moral ocd because i dont of course. i just hate having it. but i shouldnt think that, i do like having morals, its just stressful to be thinking about them so constantly and scrutinizing every little thing i do or think. but really thats the least i could do so i should at least try, right? just because i suffer from— no, struggle with moral ocd doesn’t mean i should just stop thinking about things all together, thats not what im saying and i should make that clear, but i

[sushiisiu]

im not gay greg.jpg

[haootia]

the xbox is a Machine. the playstation is a Device. the switch is a Toy. the personal computer is also a Machine. what the world needs, is a way to play video games on a Contraption

[seancamerons]

i wish i was a skilled gif maker that made pretty gifs instead of stationery designs that aren't well received :/

[katabasiss]

do you guys think jesus, the son of a carpenter, smelt the wood of the cross & temporarily thought of home

[syn4k]

would he fucking say that? let's investigate.

[thedisablednaturalist]

Kinda fucked up that we all coo and sympathize with "former gifted kids" but never talk about the students who had to stay late after school or over the summer for remedial classes/clubs, who struggled to get above a C, who were given up on or punished. Who tried so hard to understand or just couldn't. Who were grouped with the "stupid kids" (a classmate called us that in remedial math btw)

Autistic kids and adhders who can't relate to their gifted peers and are constantly alienated by them. Kids who struggled in school due to dealing with a chronic or mental illness or physical/learning/developmental disability. Those of us who have had to drop out of highschool or college. Kids who worked so hard and wanted to be seen as smart, but never were. Who watched as their peers seem to fly by them in school, while they were left behind. Who were bullied and put down by those in the gifted and honors classes. Whose confidence was absolutely destroyed by education.

I love you all and I'm so sorry the school system failed you. I'm sorry you weren't properly accommodated and given the education you deserved. I'm sorry people put you down for something that they never had to fight for.