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Aro culture is debating for YEARS if trauma made you aro or if you always were. Then you get informed about Avoidant Personality Disorder and now you’re sitting here like.. I’m aro and have a personality disorder?????????????? Because that makes a lot more sense. I do yearn for connection because of the disorder but I do not feel consistent romantic attraction 😳😳 it’s like bearly there at all like an incense that keeps going out.
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#aro culture is#aro#aromantic#actually aro#actually aromantic#ask#mod axel#at this point i've accepted that whatever's going on in our head is symptom soup#like there's genetics for a number of things and trauma so whatever the result is#i can at least say with certainty that therapy alone was Not E-Fucking-Nough for reducing depression symptoms#and neither therapy nor anxiety meds reduced our anxiety to any noticable degree#and i mean like. therapy through my university required us to fill out the PHQ9 and GAD7 every single appointment. i generally had 3 weeks#in between appointments.#2 years of pure therapy mildly reduced the depression numbers - from the 96th percentile in students - to something more like...#still major depression but not *that*#and anti-depressants got me to like... just ever so barely below the threshold between severe and moderate depression at its best#but! as we noticed while talking about this#i had one (1!) single score over three years of therapy that was not IDENTICAL for anxiety including when trying antidepressants with#anti-anxiety capabilities and when trying a specific anti-anxiety med#the single difference was by one point down and honestly it was mostly a little blip of nice life events#brain sure goes brr in here
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Assorted doodles across time
#homestuck#dirk strider#jake english#dirkjake#jakedirk#hom3stuck#home24uck#home2t4ck#admin draws#fanart#scraped across my gallery for things i haven't posted#theres an even and neat split between those i drew on my Wacom#and those i fingerdoodled on my mobile app bc i had no other thing#old strawpage doodle too for a twt moot that i kept deliberating whether to post but like why not.#anyways. sleepy. this time next week ill be back at home. oorah#maybe going to some doctors appointments. hopefully studyinf and drawing a lot more
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Lan Wanyin, from a Zhancheng role swap cooked up with @limitbreaker23 💕
#I. have. soooooooo many thoughts abt this au#primarily the effed up dynamics between jc and lxc/lqr and between lwj and the whole jiang family#jc’s not the primary heir this time but he’s got the same need for positive parental support (that he still doesn’t get) that motivates him#yzy hates her kids no matter what and she just sees lwj’s quietness as cowardice#made even worse by wwx being his self-appointed mouthpiece throughout their childhood which she HATES#i just#SO MANY THOUGHTS#mdzs#zhancheng#chengzhan#jiang cheng#mdzs art#my art#and yes#he plays an erhu because I say so
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DP x DC
not me thinking about imaginary scenarios of ten year old Tim Drake in the ghost zone (pariah’s castle)
where Tim thinks it’s strangely soothing that despite being the only one whose steps connect to the ground, there’s not that eerie silence that befell drake manor
strange blob creatures chitter softly and nip at his hair and swooshes and wisps of wind betray the presence of an invisible ghost
which after following he realizes it’s almost like he’s trailing after the black dark shadow that is batman again
which gives him the idea that, maybe, just this one time, he can play the part of robin
that in mind Tim makes out a game of sneaking to the side of ghosts that look like they’re brooding and if they can spot him he loses
most just grunt in response (very in character) while others fuss over him and ask questions which Tim uses to infodump
he also politely asks the ghost that always asks him how he’s doing to instead say the word “report”
(the ghost looks at him weirdly but humors him and besides the answer would be the same anyways)
Tim also(!!)
gets on the case of why the walls lack tangibility when he is the one leaning on them (he doesn’t live down the time he wanted to look cool only to fall through the wall)
hyperfixates on how gravity works in the ghost zone because he couldn’t do a skateboard trick he has pulled off many many times and he’s salty about it
tries to figure out where they are getting human food from (cause it’s hot enough to be homemade but also there’s no kitchen —so how could it be) (also he wants coffee)
finds out the dude that often gives him a side eye when he finds that Tim knows how to do something (math homework), is next in line for the throne and yet doesn’t have a single “mingle and talk people up” bone in his body. (despite it his networking is a solid 7/10)
gets a ghost horse to adopt him what
discovers pretty quickly that there are rooms to which he can’t phase through (a.k.a. he’s not allowed entry) to which he begrudgingly backs off even though that stands in his way of doing a very thorough layout™ of the place (robin would)
sulks over the lack of extreme sports in the place
(Danny takes him to the Far Frozen where they go tire sliding in the snow and where tim learns how to use a skateboard skate and also that ghost ice cream is just as good as normal ice cream)
sulks again cuz he caught a common cold
also because there’s no sun or moon poor Timmy’s already screwed sleep schedule gets more messed up to the point no one knows when or where he will fall asleep
(ghosts find him in the most unhinged of places with a signature purple cloak draped over him every. single. time.)
overall, be a menace
see-> the time he threatened to build ghost weapons he’d somehow memorized the blueprints of cause Danny wouldn’t let him visit the radium girls factory but yes the renaissance period
see-> that time he went through the whole ghost energy and how to work with it book section in the library and half an hour later had a prototype of a star wars laser beam made
(note: bribing only works for hot chocolate, not for letting him keep cool-looking guns)
just tim having the time of his life
clockwork being no help at all (the ghost loves being a cryptid)
and danny trying not to get attached while he progressively gets more concerned over this chaos child he emotionally adopted as his little brother
(to fit canon cause i want it to this would just be until Danny finds the dimension little Timmy is from, then they can safely yeet the child back to the moment he first went missing)
anyways before anyone knows it’s been three months
#tim drake#danny phantom#dp x dc au#batman#dc#dp x dc#danny fenton#like this little guy practiced with ghosts#which don’t breathe#tim comes back to gotham and can sneak up to batman better than an assassin#don’t make sound on the floor if they don’t want#and have heightened senses#you are gonna tell me that in all the bats career they never saw the little tiny child that followed them around with a camara??#whelp now you got an explanation as to why#also upon realizing Danny didn’t know anything about how to mingle Tim who has been going to galas for years self appoints himself#to teach him don’t frett#little headcannons in my own au#this in my head is fic#it’s more extensive but it was getting long#i was going through some mental hoops to find the correlation between his hobby and tim this time deciding to be robin#instead of the shadow chasing AFTER Batman#but basically it’s because this time tim had someone to make of Batman#he’s not alone#and he’s a kid#he wants to play#and now that he can play With someone of course Timmy is gonna chose his hero
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Today I learned that the Pope has the right to appoint secret cardinals, and even the cardinals themselves may not realize that they now have a new position. Popes have the right to make the name public at any time, but if the Pope dies before the Cardinal's name is made public, the individual ceases to be a Cardinal.
Yes, Catholicism is weird.
But more importantly, there is only one person in the world who can prove that I am not a cardinal.
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#I've heard of those#stuff is complicated as is and the rules and canon have varied a lot throughout history#don't quote me on this but I believe in order to be eligible to become a cardinal these days you have to be an unmarried catholic man#between the ages of 30 and 75#and an ordained priest at minimum even though in practice all cardinals are bishops or archbishops#but I also think the pope as the sovereign leader has the power to appoint anyone at least in theory#and historically the requirements have been a lot looser popes would create cardinals pretty haphazardly#nepotism was exceedingly common every pope would want to surround himself with relatives friends and allies#at least a few popes allegedly made their lovers into (largely incompetent) cardinals back in the day#answered#anonymous#not that I know anything but everything I've read about the renaissance holy see has immense chaotic energy
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Maybe I'll make a post on this at some point but like, something deeply fucked up about TNP and Po3 that people have totally forgotten about is how badly they try to whine that "Tigerstar Had Good Traits :("
Firestar does it, Brambleclaw does it, and they keep doing this after it becomes this GRAND irony that Firestar almost gets Tiger'd to death in a fox trap because he was too trusting. Bramble gets his pity award of keeping deputyship and then cries to his son about how No One Saw The Good In Tigerstar :(
And it's wiiiiild that no one else in this fandom has done anything with the fact that Leopardstar broke the Warrior Code to appoint Hawkfrost, who had no apprentice, an extremely aggressive and warmongering Tigerclone who says things like "Tigerstar wasn't the worst cat to look up to." ONLY qualifying trait was being kinda like Tigerstar.
And she practically did that the SECOND Mistyfoot went missing. And then Leopardstar continued to be one of the most violent and xenophobic leaders through Po3, joining with WindClan to attack ThunderClan.
What I'm getting at is that like, a few years ago, with books like "Blackfoot's Reckoning" and "Shadow in RiverClan" it's like they suddenly decided to retcon in a bunch of "redemption arcs" in hindsight. They just pretended like there was this grand high reckoning with TigerClan, when there literally wasn't, and if anything that caused SERIOUS problems for the cast that the authors didn't fully acknowledge as such.
And now ppl haven't actually read the main series and are just working with their recent memory of all these retcon books.
But TNP and PO3 are still there, and you can go and see the ACTUAL timeline where Leopardstar is really not apologetic at all, and Blackstar is a useful stooge for the very next wannabe dictator that strolls in, in spite of the new side content that COMPLETELY mischaracterized them for their plots to work.
#I just wish people could be more critical of this#And im not entirely anti-retcon. Mind you#But I am here because i think these retcons make them WORSE characters. It's BAD for a character to GET a book with a redemption arc and--#Then they don't change at all and act like totally different people later in the timeline#And Leopardstar is the worse one between her and Blackstar BECAUSE she has sooo many active choices here#Im confident in my choice for BB the more I think about it. Leopardstar's dismantling of the bonehill was good#But it works better as a tragedy imo with the rest of the series in mind#That for a brief moment. A fleeting whim. She could have changed.#But she never did.#And Blackstar who was FAR less repentant at the time DID eventually turn around.#At the end of the day one of them appointed Hawkfrost as codebreaking deputy.#And the other did not.#And I think it's fucking bullshit the way that Leopardstar's retcondemption implies that Hawkfrost was just so tricky he mislead her#The old and experienced leader who had been fooled by a tiger before and was soso sorry for it. Just got tricked.#Like fuck off. She never had a redemption. Stop trying to tell me she did 15 years later#She's a girlboss who empires too close to the sun in pursuit of power and drags everyone down with her#Not a sad weepy smolbean#Bone babble#Warrior cats analysis
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lmfao canada is just destroying the covid vaccines available for the XBB variant now while we wait UNTIL OCTOBER to get updated vaccines.
i guess it just would've been too hard to destroy them one or two days before the others becomes available huh? /s
they told us to wait until fall and then destroyed all available vaccines we have as fast as they could
#fucking canada#they're trying to see how many people they can kill or disable between now and october i guess#they must be getting close to not being the top country for euthanizing disabled people for organ donations and they're starting to panic/s#canada practices eugenics#covid#disability#eugenics#masking is community care#once again having to push all my medical appointments to the middle of winter and flu season#so fucking fun
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Hey Heronpaw, I think you're wearing that feather a little... Wrong, you know? -v-"
#jcooc#jcasks#clangen#warrior cats#this was drawn between tattoo appointments lol#why must I work when I can draw cats all day
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#my art#sketchbook page#sketches#fighter jets#planes#stars#moon#sketching#top gun fandom#jets#did some traditional sketches between appointments today
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transgenderifies your lonely old man
#the magnus archives#tma#peter lukas#he acts like he keeps forgetting his haircut appointments but really he just doesn't want to have to sit there with another human person.#plus it pisses off elias which is always a bonus. can you guess who keeps making the appointments.#A0 (artist) lore: i finish and queue all of my art between the hours of 2-4am. or else ill never post ever. hi. im so tired.
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Ink October day 3: Sophistry
An argument that seems plausible, but is fallacious or misleading, especially one devised deliberately to be so.
#khux#khux player#kh player#kingdom hearts#kh#kingdom hearts union x#kingdom hearts player#player my beloved#blue boi draws#ink october#ink October 2024#ink October 2024 day 3#watched a bunch of Player cutscenes for this one and Aug AUHG I love them. I always forget how much of a character Player is#but they are truly their own guy. more then even some non-renameable/customisable game protagonists#the utter guts on this kid to challenge multiple foretellers multiple times,fight both Ephemer and Skuld at the same time-#(both very powerful in their own right),AND attempt and succeeded in tricking four of the personifications of darkness themselves is… wow#they’re such a powerful fighter too. like they kick both Skuld and Ephemer’s asses,and sure they were both not aiming to kill and exhausted#from fighting Ven’s darkness BUT SO WAS PLAYER (as well as having just come from the arcade and those fights)#them fooling the darknesses too… along side their two closest friends… I wonder if there was any noticeable change between their normal#fighting style and the one they used there. Skuld and Ephemer didn’t necessarily see them fighting during the war#(only heartless or against one appoint) so I wonder if they fought like that.#the ‘argument that is plausible but misleading’ here is Player being possessed. with all the information available to them it is plausible#but we know for a fact that player is just straight up lying. making shit up. mimicking how darkness spoke before to pretend. which is ki#kinda hilarious to me like you go girl gaslight gatekeep girlboss. gaslight them into believing you’re possessed gatekeep them from dying to#trap darkness and girlboss by winning. amazing beautiful 10/10#I like to think Ephemer never realised、at least while he was alive. something in the tragedy of him never knowing.#of not recogising his dear friend through their deception. of dying thinking he failed them. that it wasn’t their choice.#and he did fail them in a way. there’s this recurring theme in Kingdom Hearts where the hurt lingers despite the memories being gone.#Player is very much effected by this with their memories of the war being gone but still suffering. Ephemer stands by the decision to hide#it thinking it spares them from the burden but it doesn’t it just takes away the context and they deserve to know what happened to them
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the stark difference between this october and last october has my head spinning 360 degrees tbh.
like last october was so joyful and so rich and so beautiful and i would give anything to do it all again, whereas this october is like back to back to back horrors l m a o
#AND IT SEEMS TO BE THAT WAY FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE#NOT JUST ME#but man like#i’m dealing with an unknown health issue that’s really sending me ✨spiraling✨ lmao#and has been kicking my ass since the beginning of the month#and I thankfully have an appointment with a specialist#but couldn’t get in until november soooowjfjsjdjqdn#i am just so so worried it’s a chronic autoimmune condition#and am REALLY praying it’s not but#who knows#it’s just crazy skdjwjd the contrast between now and a year ago#guess it goes to show that SO much can change in a year#also HELLO i have seen yalls asks and appreciate yall so so much#and will be replying once I have ✨the spoons✨
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I think the most baffling thing about the Tulpar as a vessel to me is the fact that the ship really did only have a one way communication system.
I know it was cheap but even the most basic of vessels regarding major transport would have some way, shape or form for outside communication. Not only that but there was absolutely no form of innate emergency signal to show they may have been offline or in trouble despite clearly having a system to dock credits if they went off course. It's another factor that really shows that bad situations are made to get worse by design. One person who is required to relay all information to the crew and make all the choices without feedback. No way to update or call for help in case of a dire situation. No way to inform of inner personal conflicts and acquire procedures accordingly.
It really is like they are all in some sort of fucked up solitary confinement. They have their own world with strict roles that are meaningless in the end, as long as the cargo makes it, it doesn't matter what happens on that ship to the company. They don't want to hear anything and will come to conclusions on what happened based on how much pay they can withhold from the workers. Even what they do send is short, sterile and corporate to the extent it was likely written and sent out with a command by some random unmanned computer in an office.
There's something to be said about how unfair it is to force absolute power and control onto one person when you as an entity could do so much more to offload it but I've said it many times before so I won't again.
#its just like idk i dont think Curly was a bad captain because we only have this scenerio and I certainly dont think a man like Swansea#would like him or have very little issues with him specifically if he was incompentent or too lienent in the past but I do think the stress#was making him worse and worse as being a present leader as it dawned on him how much he actually had to handle like I really think he#just wanted to do yknow normal captain pilot stuff and fly the ship and yknow the little stuff like make sure things run right and over tim#the constant stress and strain of having to make every major choice started to grate on him and freak him out cause they cant even fucking#eat unless he pulls out the scanner and starts cooking like he has to choose the meal likely or have a vote and i make that part of the#reason he seems so indecisive and inactive is the fact he has to make the choice all the time and he's hoping he can at least make the crew#feel a little more in control of themselves as people by staying out of affairs like the game or disputes because god he literally has to#choose for them all the time like thats a lot of responsibility monitering their sleep their breaks food consumption thats all on him like#it really should be another persons job entirely as thats almost like absoulte contrl over the lives of everyone else that PE forces onto#that title and its also crazy how everyone accepts it even if they dont like it like they broke the food machine open rather than get the#scanner they all waited two months before Jimmy appointed himself leader its so scary how conditioned they all are to the environemnt#cause that sort of mindset is sadly real where people just wait everyone just waited until it was getting real dire and then they still#followed Jimmy without too many complaints like i saw a fic or post where Anya acknowledges they all kinda just let Jimmy do what they want#because he became the captain and it was stupid on all their parts cause they could clearly see how bad he was and yet he was captain so#they just fell in line to their roles and thats a bigger point towards how PE treated them and the complacency capitalism brings to you#just like something that irks me because idk I know Curly is slow to act but he's not as like unopinionated as people make him out to be#like he does try to find solutions but they are still restricted at the end of the day by what PE provides them and I think his biggest c#crime is being in his own head too much and not giving Anya that emotional stability cause like idk man was he supposed to go to Home Depot#himself and install like padlocks? even if the let Anya sleep in medical after she pointed it out she was already pregnant at that point#like we arent seeing the inherent issue that no one not even Anya herself was thinking of the preventative measures because a)there was a#point nothing was happening that necessitated them b) it would've been the responsibility of PE to address them pre and post incident and c#there is only one person on the entire ship given the authority to do anything. You can not make multiple important choices in one instance#in such little time and Curly should not have had that total power like i think the most interesting thing in takes that really blame Curly#is that level of control they give him over the company. Like again i think about the three days we miss between the eval/party and the#convo/crash like i think people switch them around as if those scenes happen in succession when they are broken up and its heavily implied#Curly and Jimmy just havent been talking vs the depiction that she told him and for like three days Curly was just chummy despite the fact#Jimmy and him just had a blow out fight like the next time we assume they talk is during the crash sequence cause he honestly hangs#around Anya more which i think is really important because she trust Curly to defend her himself but not his judgement to give her somethin#to defend herself as she knows he believes her but also knows she's not seeing the danger the same and its heartbreaking and more
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Tonight I read that Dr. Oz was appointed to be in charge of medicare and medicaid only days after I read about tesla X bro being in charge of some random new department thats goal is dismantling parts of the government. I have less reproductive rights today than I did when I was born. It's time for an emergency kdrama watch!
I am rewatching Shopping King Louie for the 3rd time.
#if he could appoint cartoon characters he would#it was between#shopping king louie healer and the best hit#random thoughts
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spto coming out has been such a surreal experience bc before it came out i was like. the one roxie kinnie (at least as far as i was aware, i’m not doubting that there were more out there) & now she has like a million stans and half of me is like “FINALLY other people who understand her the way i do” and the other half is like “i liked her before it was cool. my blorbo. mine.”
#this isn’t meant to be taken that seriously ofc#i hope this doesn’t come off as like. pretentious or gatekeepy or anything#it’s just weird when you have a character you identify with so strongly that suddenly becomes popular after years of being underrated#and you’re torn between enjoying their newfound popularity w others & missing having them all to yourself#i’m so unbelievably happy that the show gave her the character development she deserved#and that she’s becoming more people’s favorite#and that we’re getting more fan content of her bc i was STARVED#and i’ll give my more detailed thoughts in a separate post#but also never forget I WAS THE FIRST#i am the self-appointed CEO for a reason#some details i actually predicted in my own HCs#(many of which i haven’t even posted here yet)#& i’m SHOCKED that so many of my own thoughts on her ended up coming true#scott pilgrim#scott pilgrim takes off#scott pilgrim vs the world#roxie richter#roxy richter#audrey thoughts
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But I am really excited for tomorrow evening. You guys know I'm excited to see Tommy and some proper Buck and Tommy content. And Halloween stuff!!! 911 Halloween episodes are always a good time.
I'm definitely on the Buck-touches-the-mummy-and-gets-a-skin-infection(Or worse)-and-Tommy-is-weirded-out-and-calls-Eddie-in team. Because why would you NOT call in your friendly neighborhood former army medic and unofficial paramedic in that case. Like what's the point of having one if you don't use it.
But I also love love love seeing Buck and Tommy in comfy/cozy clothes together. Tank tops/large hoodies/sweats. It feels so domestic to know they're comfy with each other like that, but of course they are after almost six months. But it's good to see.
I just cannot wait for tomorrow.
#bucktommy#I missed all the fun yesterday between my doctors appointment and grocery shopping#and then when I finally got on the computer I threw on sykkuno's stream and played some tcg card shop sim
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