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every bad thing that ever happened is actually my fault because of the twisted darkness inside of me. you see it all began when I absorbed my twin in the womb
#either that or it’s the catholic guilt#or cptsd#impossible to say for certain#it’s probably the twin thing#ro speaks#i feel like this is really funny but ive also been awake since 4am so#my judgment may be a little off#i’ve been on this site for over a decade and i still don’t know how to tag posts to get them seen#because i refuse to use spam tags like haha lol funny meme joke xd#anyway im so tired it feels like my eyes are melting inside my head#sleep deprived humor#rowan originals#<-I like that i might switch my ro speaks tag to that#if i remember
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thinking about how Humans Are Space Orcs stories always talk about how indestructible humans are, our endurance, our ability to withstand common poisons, etc. and thats all well and good, its really fun to read, but it gets repetitive after a while because we aren't all like that.
And that got me thinking about why this trope is so common in the first place, and the conclusion I came to is actually kind of obvious if you think about it. Not everyone is allowed to go into space. This is true now, with the number of physical restrictions placed on astronauts (including height limits), but I imagine it's just as strict in some imaginary future where humans are first coming into contact with alien species. Because in that case there will definitely be military personnel alongside any possible diplomatic parties.
And I imagine that all interactions aliens have ever had up until this point have been with trained personnel. Even basic military troops conform to this standard, to some degree. So aliens meet us and they're shocked and horrified to discover that we have no obvious weaknesses, we're all either crazy smart or crazy strong (still always a little crazy, academia and war will do that to you), and not only that but we like, literally all the same height so there's no way to tell any of us apart.
And Humans Are Death Worlders stories spread throughout the galaxy. Years or decades or centuries of interspecies suspicion and hostilities preventing any alien from setting foot/claw/limb/appendage/etc. on Earth until slowly more beings are allowed to come through. And not just diplomats who keep to government buildings, but tourists. Exchange students. Temporary visitors granted permission to go wherever they please, so they go out in search of 'real terran culture' and what do they find?
Humans with innate heart defects that prevent them from drinking caffeine. Humans with chronic pain and chronic fatigue who lack the boundless endurance humans are supposedly famous for. Humans too tall or too short or too fat to be allowed into space. Humans who are so scared of the world they need to take pills just to function. Humans with IBS who can't stand spicy foods, capsaicin really is poison to them. Lactose intolerance and celiac disease, my god all the autoimmune disorders out there, humans who struggle to function because their own bodies fight them. Humans who bruise easily and take too long to heal. Humans who sustained one too many concussions and now struggle to talk and read and write. Humans who've had strokes. Humans who were born unable to talk or hear or speak, and humans who through some accident lost that ability later.
Aliens visit Earth, and do you know what they find? Humanity, in all its wholeness.
#humans are space orcs#humans in space#earth is a deathworld#earth is space australia#tagging this so that ppl can find it even though the space shit i write about always feels like its in direct opposition to all the pop tag#also my biggest pet peeve in all of writing - all writing. everywhere. not just in fanfic but books and tv and movies too - is when people#write off an injury by saying something like 'oh nothing bad just a couple of scratches some bruising and a minor concussion' like girl WHA#MiNOr ConCuSSioN is such an oxymoron and I hate it so fucking much. like i dont care how minor it was thats still brain damage.#especially when the same character does this more than once. like im sorry ms. but uh. you can no longer read. or talk eloquently. sorry#evidence: my brother has had two 'minor' concussions and now cannot read write or speak without tremendous effort. And like its totally#ruined my ability to watch action shows/movies because now i just sit there and count how many concussions there characters are getting#after a certain point it becomes totally impossible to believe that these guys are able to function. (still fun to watch tho im not a hater
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I have to shed cool guy posting brain. whenever my beautiful Mutuals post about youtube drama between guys who review bidets or write cutthroat kitchen rpf I think the world is so beautiful and full of wonder. But I’m too shy to talk about what I’ve been doing (reading mission impossible fanfiction)
#I think Ilsa/Ethan is the sweet spot for me personally. Like in terms of people engaging with#the things I care about in those movies emotionally/character-wise#I do have the normie streak of mostly reading hetfic. I could rationalise it by saying it attracts a certain subset of people#who want to explore the same things I want to do re: fandom. however the truth is much more personal & petty#which is that I am fake bisexual and enjoy m/f more than other configurations#and I guess like. roving slash fandom is kind of an unfortunate trend that tends to attract THE most mainstream interpretations#and so sorting through m/m on ao3 is a lot more daunting/annoying/difficult. So like that rationality is true to an extent#idk. feeling very meta about my own (checks calendar) now 13 year participation in fandom. reflecting and so on#mission impossible#< sorry I know I’m bothering you guys hanging out in this tag like this probably shouldn’t be tagged this#Hope you’re all having a good time in there I’m just an interloper for now
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i found this post and had to make it with them immediately
#mine#dr stone#drst#sengen#senku#gen#hyoga#senku is that motherfucker who cant say i love you back. but he finds other ways#i spent too long thinking about who should be the third guy here#i felt like a lot of characters could potentially play that role in certain circumstances but it still didnt really fit them#i made a first draft where the third guy was kohaku bc its super easy to find an angry screencap of her#but then got so offended at myself for making that bc she is NOT like that she loves love#then i thought it would be funny if it was ukyo but its impossible to find an angry pic of him#then i looked back at the original image and saw it was darth vader and was like.#oh yeah no duh i should be using hyoga GSHSBSFNA#anyway if anyone here knows about..... sigh. lego star wars i guess#id love some help to find the source of this bc it would be funny as a video too gdhgfj#anyway i love the 5th panel. how chewbacca is just there
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darkraiiiiii
#art#i was brewing up a complicated picture in my head too many factors intermingling and i put a requirement on myself that i would need to#feel a certain mood to create said picture cuz only then would it feel good and true but it was an impossible to achieve mood#and it made me miserable for a week i went to bed as soon as possible everyday to skip to the next one but today i woke up at 2am#and thought well maybe i should just draw something simple that i like it doesnt have to be high concept#so its just darkrai!!!! cuz its such a cooly! and its made out of shapes ive enjoyed drawing recently#smoking fire plumelike stuff u kno...#and i got to try out the spraypaint thing again cuz there was stuff i realized i coulda done better after the red 3 head hybrid pic#so i wanted to do it again. do u like these- with the spraypaint rendering? i will make more of them no matter what u say#but im about to go to bed now. i started the pic at 11am and finished at 8pm so 9hrs spent?! well the stenciling takes a long while in pain#i did the spraying in ms paint again and then composited it in paint net like usually.#also im typing much because the combination of coffee (which i try to make special and rare for me so it hits more cutely)#+ the euphoria that drawing gives me makes me talkative. but now.- ! im tired !! goodnight#pokemon#darkrai
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You know what's insane about the Hunger AU. the fact that Grian is trying to die because he does not want to inflict pain upon his friends, but that's exactly the thing that's tormenting them. he's become so determined to stop himself that he's hurting them anyway, and it only gets worse the harder he tries. he doesn't want to be cruel but leading the Hermits on like this about the potions is cruel. he doesn't want to hurt them but seeing him half dead is hurting them. i am shaking like a dog
hunger au really is all about how suicidal ideation and mental illness can just twist your entire perspective into a knot.... like the objective reality is that he IS hurting his friends with this and he IS going to hurt them 10x more when it comes to the potions!!! but grian is so caught up in his own head and his hurt and his guilt that he cant see that or accept the cognitive dissonance that comes with acknowledging it. Its a genuinely tragic set of circumstances and being able to showcase the rapid spiral down followed by the slow crawl back up through recovery is so so so rewarding for me as a writer-- not least bc of reactions like these >:]
#shouting speaks#asks#hunger au#compliments#i could say a lot abt how mental illness and ptsd in particular just plays a crazy part in how hunger!grian functions#but i feel like it kinda speaks for itself#theres a certain point where all logic and objective fact goes out the window and youre just running on pure amygdalian emotion#and thats really just where grian is at rn#and the only possible way for him to come back from that is THROUGH his friends' support#ig thats sorta the thesis statement of this fic if it had one-- recovery is a community effort#at the end of the day yes you have to do it yourself but also#i think it is nigh impossible to pull yourself out of the dark without a helping hand of SOME kind#we were made to be communal etc etc etc#IDK IM JUST RAMBLING NOW I HAVE THOUGHTS SOMETIMES#txt
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Btw if you come on holidays and stay at an AirBnb instead of an actual registered hotel I hate you personally. Not "I hate the gentrification and touristic massification and the way we can't live in our homes and are forced to move away because of tourism" in an abstract way- No, not just that. I hate you.
#I'm from a seaside town that has become popular with tourists who come for the beach and the mediterranean climate#and the typical whitewashed walls of mediterranean coastal towns#in just a few years the average rent has gone up so much that now the average rent id#*is over 1000€ per month#one thousand!#that's a whole salary!#in the past 2 years they've been building a new neighbourhood. they've destroyed the vinyeards to make a new neighbourhood that will make#the town 1/3 bigger than it is. that's a lot. but all those houses are luxury houses with private swimming pools for rich foreigners (we#already have 2 private British schools high schools and college(in the british sense)/baccalaureate where their kids go and never have to#interact with locals. I teach some of those kids and they're very prejudiced against locals and very bigoted against the catalan language#(which ofc they never bother to learn)#there's a law in catalonia that says that for every certain amount of houses you build you are obligated to build a certain percentage of#affordable housing. so in this new neighborhood they built the bare minumum affordable housing which is still too expensive for us#and since there's so few of them everyone is competing to get them. the city hall and the bank have had to make an official competition for#them but you only classify if the renr would not be more than 1/3rd of your salary which is impossible. my cousins who are in their mid 30s#and have been working a good qualified job for 15 years (and their partners too) are considered too poor to be considered for the#affordable housing#everyone is having to move out to other cities away from their friends and family and current jobs. the only jobs left here soon will be#mostly directed at tourists#and the only way to continue living here if you're a normal person and not rich is if you're an only child who one day might inherit the#parents' house#but we look around at what's happening in nearby cities and we see the next step which will be airbnb taking the houses that are left#in many places (I've posted about thia before) there aren't any flats for rent or sell anymore that isn't an airbnb#I'm still lucky in my town when compared to other places like Barcelona which are already full of the airbnb plague#actualitat#airbnb#tourism#touristic massification#gentrification
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violently forcing myself to have better days
#everyone’s different and this isn’t true for everybody of course:#but a lot of the time we have more control over things than we can see in a difficult moment#like for example#a negative thought is inevitable and not something you can just stop. however you CAN decide from there how you let it effect you#it’s way easier said than done but you genuinely can be like hey I’m going to have a good day today#I like to set my intentions for the day and not allow my trauma nightmares to dictate how my whole day goes#but in order to do that I have to consciously decide that I deserve better and then create that for myself#does this make sense?#do things you know you enjoy/ things that make you feel better. take care of yourself. create little healthy routines to do each day#even if it’s just for 5 or 10 minutes#you have to act to make a genuine positive change in your life and circumstances#tried to say this as well as I could but I struggle w articulating exactly what I mean#like my thoughts are too complex to translate into words#anyways though I just wanted to add this- this post is not to make anybody feel bad whatsoever.#if you struggle with certain disorders and such it genuinely might be close to impossible for you to actually be able to have that control#and that’s okay. it doesn’t make you any less of a person and it is not your fault that you experience those difficulties#I just wanted to remind people that it is possible to control certain aspects of your life and it is possible to snap yourself out of it#I know I need to remember this as often as I can#that’s why I shared it#I hope this makes sense I do not know if it does lmao#(the tags)#my thoughts are so jumbled up. idk what other word to use lmao
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Over the years I've read a lot of fics where it's after the final battle with AFO and the characters are pro heroes.
And now that I've finally read the last chapter of My Hero Academia, I feel weird.
Like something is wrong (with me)
#a certain stage of my life has just ended and I can't cope#I'll say this: addicted to reading tododeku fics for a long time didn't prepare me for such an ending lmao#I'm not that delulu but still#there simply could be no perfect ending#it's impossible to please everyone completely#so there will always be some dissatisfaction#I'm just... sad that's over#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#mha chapter 430
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Honestly the worst thing about being raised by and around professors is that I can't really do the whole students bitching about professors thing even when I mostly agree with it, because my whole life I have been hearing the professor's side of the story. Every time someone talks about how ridiculous mandatory attendance or participation is there's a part of me that starts loudly protesting about how actually being in class is really important for learning, and it must be so hugely frustrating for the professor when students just don't show up to your class half the time and then when they do show up they're playing sudoku on their computer.
#dylan says things#and I say this as someone who historically has not been great about attendance due to things both in and outside of my control#and I know disabilities are a factor for a lot of people and I'm not saying they shouldn't be accommodated.#but I've had professors who have done truly so much to make it possible to attend their class. like you can go in person and on zoom#and a lotta wiggle room for making up missed classes#and people will still complain about it#and most of the time these things are only like 5-10% of your grade#and at a certain point it's like dude you're literally paying to go to school#and now you're complaining that you have to go to school and do school things#if you stop giving them all your money they will stop asking you do the thing you're paying to do#and again I am not exempt from this getting to my morning class is fucking impossible a lot of the time#and that sudoku thing in the main post was absolutely a self-callout#but like. idk. Professors are not evil they are people who are trying to do their jobs#anyways. I think I often find that my attitude towards academia is not aligned with my friends#like sometimes people will tell me that it doesn't really matter that much as long as i graduate#and I understand the sentiment and largely agree with it but also at the end of the day I want to like. Learn stuff and do good work#anyways. sorry for my weird rambling i just have a lot of thoughts about university that i never really share with anyone
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Was thinking while watching that scene where Pol tells Ada about her abortion.
Polly really doesn't take on the mum role in the family to my mind, or even the matriarch/aunt tbh. And I think, there was some summary somewhere that referred to her as the consigliere and while she does perform a certain bouncing-board, plan formation role with Tommy (and only with Tommy, and only with insight into certain parts of his plans; I'm struggling to think of times the others listen to her without Tommy backing her up, S3 as example of when they don't), her other behaviours in the family also mean this isn't her role at all.
She's the wild older sister who is loving and explosive and hurtful, and incredibly, incredibly fragile, afraid and she feels so very scared, vulnerable and alone, most of the time. She just wants all her loved ones to be happy and safe and in achieving that, Tommy is frequently as much of an obstacle as he is the vehicle to get her that. I do headcanon that Polly lives 99% of her life in fear and on that edge of breakdown, it's just that she's lived with it so long she probably doesn't even acknowledge it any more. Her reactivity is so high.
So yeah, it's no wonder Tommy sort of plays that joint patriarch-matriarch role (arranging marriages etc), because Polly is *not* playing the matriarch.
#her stories to ada about that feminine/mother trauma are all sort of--#--with this tone of 'please forgive me please say you understand please say my decisions made sense'#because polly isn't certain in herself#she *acts* certain#idk#wild older sister that everyone including the youngest all have to sort of take care of#some of the way she says things about tommy that help *not at all*#like “he used to sleep out as a kid” pretending he's not out there having a complete fucking breakdown and she doesn't know what to dooooo#(though she *wants* to help she does)#every time she explains his traumas as impossible to avoid because they're gypsy and that's their lot in life#...let me get out my postcolonial lens again#->noting this is also a belief set tommy's mother also had#my headcanon polly absolutely idolised tommy's mother because she lost her mother young; following t's mum around like *her* mum#imagining tommy's mum could 'do no wrong' in pol's eyes
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Look, dominox preys on insecurity. He's not omniscient. Even if the worst was true, even if Chetney DID kill kids when he was feral, dominox does not have magical access to memories Chetney doesn't. His whole thing is playing out the worst case what-if scenario. Dorian's has already partially happened. The only thing that would make it worse is his fear that Cyrus would hate him for what happened on top of being murdered. Respectfully, that himbo is not developed enough as a person to be making insights about his trouble VS Dorian's trouble or ruminating on Dorian never letting him make his own mistakes. That's the specific way DORIAN fears he fucked up.
Dominox's power is limited only by his prey's imagination, but imagination is all it is.
#I'm not saying it's impossible that Chetney ate someone and doesn't remember#But also I am kind of saying it because if so I don't think the claret order would've let him live#Either way. Dominox doesn't know either.#He just knows Chetney is horrified by the very idea and the not being able to account for certain times#cr spoilers#chetney pock o'pea
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#bds is calling for boycott of google and amazon?#babes thats not possible they own everything#pretty sure they own certain processes like payment processing#there was someone who tried to not use google for a month that kind of challenge and it was almost impossible to do anything at all#thats just not realistoc as a goal. what impact do they hope to make. amazon and google will not notice.#am i gonna regret this maybe but im in the tags for a reason im whispering here#i shouldnt even be commenting my general rule is to not get openly involved#i dont like amazon or google but boycotting them is a ludicrous proposition idk how it could even be possible nevermind effective#and disney+ bad bc of a couple characters and actors? cmon on now there are bigger fish to fry.#they might take down those shows but it wont change material conditions for anyone itll just make activists feel important#like the boycott of sodastream that just lead to Palestinians losing their jobs.#take that energy and put it somewhere useful#not dissimilar from this anti dropout thing going on instead of just saying hey sam reich we wanna see more trans women on screen#its gotta be a whole us v them global discussion of oppression rather than hey could you improve on this#and im not trying to tone police im just talking about effectiveness of strategy and allocation of energy#anywaaayyy i think done bitching#mine
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My headcanons for the deadly alliance before being recruited by Damashi
cw suicide mention
some of these r inspired by my friends' hcs ily cicada and leonarnd!!! <33
SHANG TSUNG
born in an impoverished village near the seaside
his mother had him at a pretty young age
she wasn't the best nor the most loving but she did care about him, she tried to be the best for him even though it was really difficult to do so on her own
mama shang had to teach him basic survival skills
however she committed suicide when he was around 16-17
shang wasn't left with much but in his late teenage years he had gained an interest in alchemy along with some biology
sold what he had to get his caravan, he knew he wouldn't be able to survive if he stayed in one place
at first he did try to plan out an honest living but he realized that he could just. cheat and lie? so he came up with the whole hack salesman thing
"a living? it is barely survival" so what if it doesn't work. so what if he kills a few people. as long as he's getting by
he stays in his caravan a lot and doesn't go outside unless he absolutely has to (eg to gather ingredients n stuff). the inside is a complete mess, it's not like he doesn't want to clean it he just doesn't see the point if everything is just going to revert to a mess once again
he does not care if he's gonna die tomorrow and doesn't care for any consequences
and of course he longs for more but in the conditions he's in right now? don't even think about it
until damashi steps in and offers him a chance
QUAN CHI
born in the mines to parents who didn't want him, was a complete accident
his father died in a mining accident shortly after he turned 5
grew up to resent the world since his mother almost didn't care at all and barely treated him like her son
started working w/ the rest of the miners around 13
autistic + really awkward + no confidence at all
barely interacted with anyone else, not like he wanted to anyways
always just went about doing his job everyday even though it fucking sucks
the others always thought he was an odd one since he almost never talks and just stares and observes a lot
resulted in him always being picked on and nobody really put a stop to it until it gets out of hand
outside of work he would rather spend his time alone
killed his mom when he was around 17. He thought about taking the easy way out and just bash her head in or smth at first but he didn't want to raise any suspicion since ppl knew about the mutual disdain him and his mother had for each other
eventually ended up poisoning her
that was when he first piqued damashi's interest, he doesn't approach him yet though as he wants to observe him more
around the same time he discovered he had an aptitude for magic and had been practicing it in his own time in secret, he couldn't do any crazy stuff yet though
possibly inherited from his father? maybe he was some kind of mage who was thrown into the mines because of some hard labor sentence
and liu kang let him keep this power as he wished for him to use it to aid the slave revolt
when he first heard about his fellow miners planning a revolt he didn't think much of it. he didn't want to have anything to do with them anyways
had he actually had a good relationship with the others he might've had considered helping, but as time passed he decided to snitch. not only to raise his station but also out of spite for how he was treated
late at night the same group of ppl tried to kill him a few days after he ratted them out, although he was strong and had a bit of magic to defend himself he was overpowered until damashi intervened and saved him
he made a complete mess out of the others, blood everywhere
it terrified quan chi at first. he had never seen such power before and he was almost certain he was next before damashi offered him his aid and power
he was hesitant to trust this stranger at first but having seen what he could do it was impossible to refuse
and that's how the alliance came to be :) tysm for reading!
#additional thoughts here#to me damashi only decided to intervene when they were on the verge of death#im almost certain shang was about to commit suicide#damashi timed it so that he could perfectly manipulate them#it's a simple question. do you want to live or die?#and provided what their lives were like it was almost impossible to say no to what damashi was offering them#mk1#mortal kombat#mortal kombat 1#shang tsung#mk1 shang tsung#quan chi#mk1 quan chi#deadly alliance#mk headcanons#mortal kombat headcanons#mk1 headcanons
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i've hit the end of the bell curve of the tiktok experience which is literally "be appalled at how awful ppl can be on the app" -> "get used to it (and maybe even start to combat it)" -> "once more become appalled at how awful ppl can be" because one would think in more elevated places that people were past being so blatantly ableist, racist, queerphobic, misogynistic, and overall cruel to others online, and making genuine progress but nope, or at the very least, definitely not on tiktok.
because why am i seeing QUEER PEOPLE in QUEER SPACES reigniting discourse that we squashed long ago, or people doing the whole "acoustic"/"restarted" thing, or making fun of people's appearances or artwork the MINUTE they disagree with them, even if it's minor. is doing the right thing or being kind just a trend or a passing fancy to this crowd?? like you can tell they've built up the foundation of decency that a lot of us have on the internet but it goes completely out the window because being mean is just A Thing, it's a commonplace activity on that app.
#talkies#there's curating your online experience and then there's the chaotic mash of toxicity and cruelty that IS being on tiktok#it is IMPOSSIBLE to escape the bullshit there#the tagging system sucks and when you want to see LESS of something the app will show it to you anyway#don't even get me started on how overly comfortable ppl are with saying certain things to artists#it's like all issues that the internet has are amplified exponentially on tt
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WHAT THE FUCK??? MOJANG IS RESTRICTING WHAT ENCHANTING BOOKS YOU GET FROM VILLAGER IN WHAT BIOME????
NOOO WHAT?!
#I know villagers are op#But this will just make it impossible for ppl to get certain books if they can't find a certain biom#Which makes playing the game slightly more annoying#I think im just being autistic about minecraft again actually#Im grumpy cause i got up at 6 am#I know i keep saying this but getting up early fr fucks up sth in my brain#minecraft
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