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these two make me SICK
(i have not stopped thinking about my rook and lucanis for 3 days)
#oops i authored#dragon age veilguard#rookanis#rook x lucanis#im working on something LEAVE ME ALONE#it wont see the light of day for probably three more weeks BUT YOU KNOW WHAT#IT'S JUST LIKE THAT SOMETIME
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i like to imagine a possibility that if Jayce and Viktor really do get sent into a different timeline/universe by the rune at the end, that Viktor gets to keep a little bit of his connection to the Arcane . as a treat
#as a treat to ME lmao i have a weakness for mage characters leave me alone#it seems to be consensus in fics that if they live viktor goes back to the way he used to be prior to the hexcore#but LoL lore tentatively supports the idea that mages can gain their abilities through knowledge rather than something innate/genetic#so im taking that and running. i mean nothing will expand your mind more to the inner workings of magic like ascending to a higher being 👍#plus i cant stop thinking about a Viktor who realises his connection to the arcane survived but doesnt ever want to use it in front of Jayc#lest he worry him about going off the deep end about it again . but its like a constant itch that Vik is desperate to scratch y'know ?#anyway . ignore this#arcane#arcane spoilers#viktor arcane
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Me when projecting on my faves: 👍
I won’t change my mind, they are all little neurodivergent gremlins in my head and I love them
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#inspired by something I had on my feed some time ago I think it was critical role fanart#anyway the three coolest losers ever y’all#i love them so much#it’s been what three years?#leave me alone already firebrands#(pls dont this is my only source of serotonin and dopamine)#Help what am I doing with my life#anyway stellan is a little acoustic elzar is the a list of adhd type one symptoms and avar is both because I say so#ive been gone for so long and this is what I post#im actually working on super cool angsty firebrand stuff#also shortest firebrand Elzar again#and yes I know the outfits kinda suck I got tired midway through#the high republic#stellan gios#avar kriss#elzar mann#star wars the high republic
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it’s just me and my best friends (people i’ve seen in the g/t tags for multiple years and have never spoken to)
#such is mutuals#im so bad with talking i do not like to speak but i like being spoken to#most of my friendships start when i find someone whos okay with me being borderline nonverbal#then something Clicks in my head and i never leave them alone after#my current friend group? i worked with them daily for like a year before they knew anything about me#spaci: the cryptid#sorry im a lil sick and rambly tn
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Drawing the messiest sketches is actually so good for my brain
#my art#fate grand order#minamoto no tametomo#baobhan sith#barghest#i am in fact adding tametomo to lb6 thats what the first image is about#adding to or replacing tristan tbh#im sorry to tristan fans btw but tametomo would 100% survive against barghest#i love tristan btw but tametomo's literally stronger#i imagine he's summoned human (because of the lack of technology and the way it just stopped working while in lb6#so i decided to make him human because 1. i like to draw people and 2. i didnt want to find an explanation as to why he functioned HOWEVER#i do have one as to why he Would function even tho any other technology doesnt. kind of.#anyway#unimportant#he WILL be trying to snipe morgan from the other side of britain because just as ushiwaka has an obsession with decapitation#tametomo has an obsession with sniping individuals#he will also try and probably hit Melusine at least Once in the middle of the air. fucking shoots her down like a fcking. soemthing#he Will be dying because thats what characters who are in lb6 do#i just dont know when#i havent actually thought a lot about this apart from how much sniping they will make him do#PLUS LIKE#he requires a lot of mana to spam his NP but like isnt faerie britain FULL of mana? tametomo would be a BEAST#so i need to find limitations#also need to find moments on when he would be interacting with baobhan and be ga- wait he's a man and baobhan a woman that aint gay....#so anyway they're gay--#straight yuri ive said#im a lesbian LEAVE ME ALONE!!!#i can DO THIS im ALLOWED im GAY#i LOVE WOMEN!!!!#i think i need to mix the humanness with the robotness. either always or eventually or something up
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I've had this theory for a while now, and me n my friend (@nightshadetq ) have talked about it a bit as The Magnus Protocol continues, but I really don't think Alice's indifference to the paranormal/statements/cases ect ect is proof that she like. Has no idea what's going on, or will be in for a rude awakening.
[Note: this post is not free from spoilers up to episode 18]
I think she knows a decent amount of what's actually going on, and is trying to protect Sam (or her uninformed coworkers in general) from getting in too deep.
Other than Lena, who I assume has been the boss since Alice arrived, Alice has worked at the OIAR the longest, "nearly a decade" and has consistently told Sam not to look into anything, to not be curious, and to just do his job, and those moments are when she is the most serious, an odd departure from her typical attitude, very likely a coping or defense mechanism (or survival tactic) on her part.
We also have how she and Colin interact, and her conversation with Teddy in the most recent episode (18 as of writing). While yes, her and Colin's unlikely duo could be in part simply a fun dynamic, grumpy/sunshine, whatever, but we also don't really know what has happened within the last near decade of Alice working at the OIAR. The only person Colin likes is Alice, perhaps because she's the only one he trusts, or maybe they went through something together, that's mostly speculation on my part I'll admit.
What's more interesting is Alice and Teddy's conversation, the weight of Alice calling Teddy a liar, her saying to herself for Teddy to "watch himself" because she's worried. I would point out we have no idea how long Teddy worked at the OIAR, though in episode one there's a mention of "another four years" which implies he's worked there about that amount of time, and so Alice had still worked there the longest.
Honestly it would be weird if Alice hadn't seen weird shit pre-canon given how long she's been there, and that despite the jobs turnover rate hasn't quit despite everything, almost like she's obligated, to the job perhaps not, but maybe to the other people working, given we know that people can and have quit. Of course it could also just be the getting a new job is difficult and she has a younger brother to help out occasionally, but truthfully I find it a bit difficult to believe that being the only reason she wouldn't have quit by now.
Also interesting that the only thing Alice said in response to Gwen talking about Mr. Bonzo, where Sam laughs and thinks she's joking, is after she leaves saying "Curiosity will get you killed, best try and ignore it" wherein Alice clowning on Gwen is what I, at the least, would expect in response. Yes, she questions Gwen interacting with monsters, but she doesn't push her to talk about it, and in fact, gave her an out on what the Externals are.
Considering both Gwen and Sam didn't know about them until 1. Gwen asking Lena to let her "in" and getting work about/for the Externals, and 2. Sam just now being informed. Meanwhile Alice has a fake explanation on what they are, providing Sam with said explanation, therefore shielding him from the truth of the matter, and letting Gwen not have to talk about it, only for Gwen to then say what they actually are. So either Alice already knew what an External was, and lives by the "if you don't know about the real goings on nothing will happen to you" deal and tries to act the part herself, or someone who no longer works at the OIAR AND worked with Externals told her that that was what they were, which I'll admit is also a possibility.
There is also her seeing the drowning victim and her reaction to them. Her primary issue as I remember it was the dead body, given how she implies she hadn't seen a dead body since her parents passed. However, her having a negative reaction to a dead body doesn't mean she hasn't seen other freak shit. There is also the option that she lied about not having seen a dead body since her parents, and she (rightfully) still has an averse reaction to them, though I don't necessarily believe this myself, I am presenting it as an option.
Maybe I'm talking out my ass, but I really don't think Alice has completely avoided everything up until now, especially given how weirdly cagey she is about anyone (mainly Sam, but they have a history so maybe she feels responsible for him in some way) getting curious about what they do, or wanting to look into the cases they receive. If she didn't know anything at all, I don't know why she'd care about someone getting curious about their cases, or at least care as much as she seems to.
#the magnus protocol#tmp#the magnus protocol spoilers#tmp spoilers#tmp theory#the magnus protocol theory#alice dyer#sam khalid#gwen bouchard#lena kelley#colin becher#teddy vaughn#ghost listens to horror podcasts#dude i really think alice knows SOMETHING#i gen cant believe shes just been in the dark the whole time#and i dont wanna bring up tma and how things worked in it#but i think it is a bit important to note that while yes most of then worked at the archives for a while#i dont think any of them worked there for nearly a decade pre canon#to me at least they all read as mid 20s#whereas alice herself is in her mid 30s#ik bc i did the math#so i dont think comparing jon to alice in this instance as mcs really works#i dont think comparing any of them really works bc theyre their own characters but thats whatever#also wayyyy too much of how alice acts is more defense mechanism and i want me and my friends to live#rather than jons i refuse to believe in the supernatural until its thrust in my face#alice is much more 'best leave well enough alone' as a survival tactic#likely because shes seen what happens when you dont leave well enough alone#anywayyyy thats enough of me rambling teehee#im so sorry this post is so long#its comedic
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Emm... Expect a small animation to come out today
#Dwww im still working on the hank animation... It's just taking FOREVER#Whole would've guessed that frame by frame + shading takes a while#Sonim animating something small just for funsies#Im obsessed with them rn ok leave me alone /j#Image#Wip
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being autistic in fandom spaces is like really miserable because iiiiiii miss social cues a lot. and text cues i either miss frequently or interpret differently than intended. which makes me analyze characters different and need things explained of what was like. Actually meant. but sometimes people are assholes and that always sticks with me a lot more than anybody calmly explainging it to me ever will
#it's not something that's super often but it's gotten worse since rejoining danganronpa and i feel so upset#tw vent#but like its happened more often like 3 and ive only been back in here since like july guys.#and ive thought abt these instances for months.#im beinf talked down to because of a fictional character bc my disability makes me inept isnt thay insane?#isnt that insane how people think that its fine to do that? to be incredibly mean spirited over this?#and i get complaining damn it i complain all tje time but it. makes me feel like theres something inherently Wrong with me#i cant understand like everyone else and need some things explained to me#which must mean i have no place here right#this is wjy im so scared to share my works because somehow everything i do is a carnal evil for. whatever reason.#gahh just . maybe if people were nicer but thay wont happen i know that#i feel childish for beinf so uspet im 22 and cant handle how the internet is but.#fandom is my safe space#im being othered in a place i want to feel safe.#it makesme wanna fall off the grid and just leave it all alone amd enjoy in private#and id still see stuff so im not going to do thag since itd be the same scenario just now im talking to me exclusively#but ah it makes me really wanna just Leave . sucks 2 suck i guess#i dont know. ive jus been thinking this for a few months now and ughhh i so g lnow im sick and spilling my guts#micetalk#not tagging my organizational bc i fear this might start something and ugh i dont want that
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fellas
#technology is the one thing that can get me Mad mad i need to take a breather this isn't me#okay it is but. technology should not be this complicated#i just need decent and compact headphones that isn't over like 150 and will let me plug into my laptop which has#a basic headphone jack as EVERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY FUCKING INDIVIDUAL PIECE OF TECHNOLOGY HAS HAD FOR THE LAST 80 YEARS#but whatever#apple i hate you so fucking bad#karolina this is my f1 except i don't love the sport i just need it to WORK FOREVER AND LEAVE ME ALONE AS IT USED TO#word of mouth used to Mean Something#okay im done#;p
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#i keep having little things in my life that make me go god i want to leave#but like. it wld take too long.#it wouldnt be an immediate change#i would still need to relearn to drive which would take forever bc i hate it#and i would need to look into certs that wld get me employed#or anything that wld get me employed#i know the time will pass anyway but that doesnt work for my brain that has trouble Startin especially when theres no light#at the end of the tunnel. like doing those things wont guarantee me a job so why bother#i get lulled back into well living here isnt so bad i can take it. moving out would be worse. id be alone and i wouldnt#feed myself and id have a job i hated#but then Something Happens and the cycle repeats and im miserable#and i want to leave but how can i. and it would take forever. so ill stay. but it sucks. and i want to leave. but how can i. and it w#talkys#i can take it. but not for much longer. but i can. but i cant. but i have to. but i dont want to. i can. i cant#idk how people Live#my issue is i want to leave Now i want to leave Yesterday.
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not being able to mentally detach myself from work while on a break is my biggest flaw
#people are literally texting me about work bc i wasn't answering emails#YEAH THERE'S A REASON#IM ON BREAK#LEAVE ME ALONE#i went into the office bc someone from another organization needed something and i was the only one “available”#quotations bc i feel like people just lie and say theyre busy#which good for them#protect your peace#i need to start doing that
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God I wish I didnt get ostrasised by all but like 4 of my peers because holyfucking shit am I overworked and need a hug
#why cant everyone just be nice like for fucking real!!!!#so sick and tired of looking like Mother Theresa compared to my coworkers bc i do the bare minimum of making the residents feel cared for#like girl we are working with the same cast and crew#will never forget the time a cna came in and after telling them 'hey that guy will get seizures if you give em that' and they replied with#'well they get seizures regardless' AND LEFT#EVIL!!!!!!#andlike#i understand that not everyone has the same memory capacity/ability but oh my motherfucking god#if everyone around me is at baseline then i must be either God or the absolute perfect person#which is saying something bc ive genuinely killed quite a few braincells with my former [redacted] addiction but here i am#knowing the smallest things about everyone that makes em happy#and the thing is is that I WORK IN THE KITCHEN!!!#IM NOT A CNA/RN WHO AT ALL HOURS OF THEIR SHIFT WILL BE INTERACTING WITH THE RESIDENTS!!!#idk man if i were generally mentally n physically well in my 30+s AND gettin outshined by a 21 year old for the past 2 yrs id be embarrasse#cannot fucking wait for my mom to get a job so i can leave mine and take a break#tony speaks#and before anyone says 'the CNAs are overworked and some of the residents can be overwhelming!'#the residents know im nice so they come to me for fucking EVERYTHING!!!!#ESPECIALLY the overbearing ones!!!#AND ON TOP OF THAT I HAVE LITERALLY EVERYONE. STAFF AND RESIDENTS.#ASKING ME WHATS GOING ON WHEN IM BALLS DEEP IN THE AM AIDES BULLSHIT ON TOP OF THE MORNING COOKS#not only do i ghostrun the kitchen but im the guy everyone goes to for everything. regardless of department#im literally a kitchen aide with no further qualifications leave me the fuck alone and ask your superiors/managament FUCK!!!!!!!!
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Just Like Me
summary:
From the convenient timing to his inability to stop talking about Paris, talk of their relationship is inevitable. Still, the chasm between them remains. While Napoleon hopes to cross it, he knows he’s only good for making things worse.
Or, the ending events of Amor Magnus Doctor Est - Chapter Five, but from Napoleon’s perspective.
notes:
After reading Amor Magnus Doctor Est for the umpteenth time, I started thinking about how Napoleon would react to the events towards the end of chapter 5.
If you haven’t read the fic, PLEASE DO SO!! I PROMISE you will not regret it (although it may take over your entire life and influence your trip to Chicago, but that’s probably something that only happens to yours truly). However, you don’t have to read the original fic to understand this standalone.
excerpt:
The bitter cold runs its sharp tendrils up his spine and he can’t hold back a slight shiver. Even faced with Illya’s so-called inhuman warmth, it’s a force to be reckoned with. He knows he should move; that they either need to continue this walk or he needs to duck out. At the same time, nothing could convince him to move from this moment.
As if to root him to said moment, Illya’s arm wraps gently around his shoulders, pulling him minutely closer. He blames it on instinct, the way he immediately slides his arm behind Illya’s waist and leans closer. Illya is warm, he notes, his presence soothing and achingly familiar even if they’ve never shared a moment quite like this. He finds himself hoping it will last forever. A voice in his head is quick to retort that he doesn’t deserve it, though it sounds close enough to Victoria’s voice that he steadfastly ignores it.
“You really are warm, Peril,” he murmurs, blaming the sudden looseness of his tongue on the pitch blackness of the night sky and the way it seems to absorb his words, or perhaps the alcohol that really had no impact on him. He’s terrified, though, of the real reason: he feels safe here.
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inspired by Amor Magnus Doctor Est by @cha-melodius
#OK ACTUALLY IM SO PROUD OF THIS ONE LOWKEY#every time I read it I’m impressed by how good it is lol#also there is something about just like me that will not leave me alone#and everytime Illya leaves Napoleon in one of Sara’s fics my brain goes like#HEY YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD WORK SO WELL HERE#I’m over here like oh I never could have guessed how absolutely insane#truly revolutionary#just like me leave me alone challenge failed impossible#currently assigning napoleon this song cuz well#surely my brain seems deadset on the idea that IT'S LITERALLY HIM LUCIA#the descriptions here are SO GOOD and I just love everything about this fic im so happy I wrote it#and Sara omg thank you so so so so much for writing amor magnus doctor est#a masterpiece I still can’t get over it#catch me months from now if I’m still in the fandom rereading this fic like a madman#AKFHJDBAJDJ I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH#also btw the dialogue here is NOT MINE#it all belongs to the wonderful and lovely Sara my beloved fic writer#napollya#tmfu#napoleon solo#illya kuryakin#the man from uncle#tmfu fic#inspired by another fic#my fic#my writing#lucia writes#napollya fic#amor magnus doctor est
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I drew incredibros jacko ONCE and told myself "okay this is the last time I'll bother miles with this"
Then boom incredibros fixation
I hate being AUTISTIC
#incredibox#incredibros#hyperfixation#Ugh#BRAINROT ON A COMIC WITH ONLY TWO PARTS AND UPDATES EVERY 5 BUSINESS DAYS UGH#THIS IS TERRIBLE#NOT INCREDIBROS ITSELF OR LIKING IT BUT HYPERFIXATING ON SOMETHING SO SMALL#AND ALSO FEELIMG LIKE THE CREATOR IS ANMOYED WITH YOU#SCREAMS AND CRIS#CRIES#im gonna work on my centaurworld sparklecare au out of sadness#oh yeah i kinda like centaurwkrld now#and sparklecare#shut yp#LEAVE ME ALONE#STOP RAMBKING CHERRY
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Guess Who's Moving!!
It's me, I'm moving multiple states away with my cat in like 1 month! (That's still so crazy to me!)
I'm very excited none the less for the future! There will probably be more sketchy posts in the future before then. Whatever I can manage to squeeze in! Thank you guys for staying with me through this crazy time and thank you for (almost) 60 followers! :]
#I am very exhausted but I am doing my best to make all of this work!!#But the plus side is that i get to move in with our partner and their wonderful family until we both have a place of our own#but still#whole new state like 5 states away or something so big move!#having to drive through the mountains and shit again.... that part i am not excited for!!#not to MENTION the family shit going on#just when i thought my family couldnt be crazier i learn 3 new things back to back and im on the floor from the impact of shock#its still SUCH a crazy move to me but its definitely needed#not only to get the chapter of my life with our partner going#but to leave my hometown where just absolutely ALL my family is#mostly the side that actively stalks me and wont leave me alone so i can live a little more freely without being stressed#Its kind of an unexpected move but hey. Things happen for a reason sometimes!! and im excited#nervous of course but more excited more than absolutely everything#dolly's art#dolly doe#our art#artists on tumblr#artists of tumblr#dolly's rambles#original art
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I'm a damn leech. That's all I am
#audrey/kellie's rambles#audrey/kellie vents#dont mind me#im a leech. im a bug. disgusting. im too much to bare. others in the community talk to each other and yet rarely me#i try to talk witj them. maybe im just not that ... good with my ocs. maybe thats why they never ask. maybe-#im too fucking clingy. im too obsessive. im too moody. im fucking crazy.....#I'll just be here tho. i wonder why no one really talks to me. outside of the internet and in of the internet too#but maybe that means im too fucking annoying for something. bjt then again they have a life and its not sll about me. and my long ass asks#they should be sble to live their life. and yet here i am. getting jealous fucking jealous that my friends are talking to each other#its stupid. i shouldn't be like this. its fucking stupid to he jealous of my friends talking to each other. but it seems like i only#see them as my friends or maybe its because i said smth about my school. and then they leave me alone. but theyve.. always left me alone#always. always a shadow. always actually reminding me that im a bad fucking person. always to be there because...#honestly it has to be me. right? im the damn problem. thay dont talk to me. yet i talk to them endlessly. like they are already gone or smth#i suck at being friends. because this is who i am. some possessive fucking freak. i really should. choked myself with some wires.......#this is just reminding me that my twin is more better and more interesting then who i wanted to be hack then when i was on Amino.#even back then they didn't care for me. now its like its the same but much worse. because-#i hate it. i hate feeling lonely. what the fuck. give me fucking validation. give me attention. give me love.#give me any fucking kind of attention. hate on me. spit on me. kick my legs. i dont. i just want attention. i want to be the center of it#all. but im not and it fucking kills me. i want it so bad. and honestly? i did. for a fraction. because of Flor and my other past ideas#and Flor was a bit of a self insert. she was a sona. in a way. and now Yume will be one too. but-#fucking. don't fucking talk to me. i need to work on his draft
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