#im working on it ok. its getting there. we will get there when we get there hope this helps

[pwnyta]

OK... So I know I said I wasnt gonna do anything with my EVO AU (https://pwnyta.tumblr.com/post/778204178228068352/the-other-day-i-was-trying-to-sleep-but-instead-i) but.... IM A LIAR!

Cuz I just thought of something...

Like when Ivo is making his announcement to Stone I thought about Stone using his ability to connect to all the tech he could to show Ivo how much he cared in his last moment.

Honestly my initial idea was that Ivo blows up and Stone dies from forcing himself to connect to an ungodly amount of tech to reach the mini-Nik recording and for once controlling one of Ivos babies just this once.

BUT.

Im not a bully. Sometimes.

Shadow hanging out with Stone for a bit was probably the most normal his life was for a long time. I feel like he'd appreciate it.

Stones genial nature inadvertently saves Ivo, Ivo has feelings about it.

While I was doing this I thought itd be neat if Shadow was the test subject for the bio-augmenting GUN does to its soldiers. Shadow doesnt know if the teleporting is his real power or one that GUN gave him but they dont always work the way theyre supposed to.

Shadow didnt even think he should have been able to save himself and Ivo but luckily Ivo had his AMP on to give him the extra boost.

Stone manages to get back to the states with the help of his powers and the fact that even though he LOOKS like a wanted AWOL soldier that is a wanted criminal... clearly this person is an EVO and that soldier IS NOT.

Stone is ambivalent to his marks fading... on one hand he'd like to hide his powers again but on the other hand... its kind of his last connection to Ivo. Self preservation wins out in the end... cuz his life was actually the last gift Ivo gave him. He'd do anything for Ivo. Even live on without him.

Im Ivo and Im Shadow and we are THE EMOTIONALLY STUNTED COUSINS.

They go on a space road trip to get back to earth.

Once they get back Ivo will get his loving family and Shadow will get a new home.

Home is where the heart of Stone is... or something.

[muwapsturniolo]

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH STURNIOLO TUMBLR, AND HOW DO WE FIX IT?

im actually sick and tired of all the bs on this app and I'm being fr.

there has been sm drama, and trust, I've had my fair share of it and this seems hypocritical but it gets to a point where you get tired of the shit.

im tired of getting into drama, ive told my close friends on here that, I've said it to myself so many times and I've been actively avoiding getting into shit that could get me into drama.

it's fucking draining.

im sure you guys are tired of seeing the drama, and i can understand why. you come on this app to get away from drama, you come on this app to kick your feet and giggle with your friends.

it seems like tumblr has become a cesspool of copying, hate, expose acct, and wild ass anons.

i wanna give my thoughts on all of those.

copying:

i really don't get it. like actually. you have writers on here who work hard, spending days trying to work out a fic/new au, only for someone to copy the idea with no credit, or they flat out copy and paste. its so frustrating and im being fr when i ask, what do you get out of copying like that? do you get off on upsetting people or getting them riled up? do you enjoy when you get attention even though it's negative? it doesn't make sense and i can't wrap my head around it. writing may come easier to some people and for others it doesn't, that does not give you an excuse to act like that. if you like an idea sm, ask the OG writer if its ok for you to write your own version. if you don't want to ask for reasons idk, at least tag our user or just put the link to the fic to give credit. its really not that hard! most of the drama on this app does come from people copying and not giving credit, it gets the writers in a tizzy, the anons get wild, and suddenly the OG writer is the bad guy.

expose accts:

we have all seen these expose accts and had run-ins with them. i truly don't know why they exist because usually they are made to hate on one person. you don't have to like that person, you arent obligated to like anyone. but making a hate acct for her or simply sending in hate to these accts about her and others is actually insane. these accts are so fucking draining and its like a constant back and forth because most of the shit they post about, its shit that has been addressed A LONG TIME AGO or hold no weight for the convo they are attempting to have. with that being said, its also people you will get into with on here, that will make posts about it and suddenly they allow all the hate in the world to be sent to them and they answer it. am i projecting? yeah i am, because this shit makes no sense. you want tumblr to be fun but you're making posts actively hating on me and others? you want tumblr to be fun but you're shading people and threatening to expose these people as if this is middle school? and let me just throw this in here, i really do hate when i have a bad interaction with someone and they post about it and suddenly ALLLLL of tumblr has been scorned by me when in reality idk half of you bitches nor know you by username nor have i had a convo with you. so how have i scorned you? the answer is most of yall havent been scored by me or others, you may just not like us and it's fine. but learn to hate in silence, otherwise drama is all we are going to see.

hate/wild ass anons:

CHILLEEEEEEEE, let me tell yall something. i truly do believe the wild ass anons are the main people starting shit and let me tell you why. anons have the ability to hide behind a damn screen, the drama hungry ones literally get off on going into peoples inbox and sending hate about that person, or other people. they know who will react and who wont. ive had anons come in my inbox saying someone copied me, and then i go check and there is literally nothing there. I've had people come in my inbox saying wild shit to me because they feel like they can cuz they arent saying it with their chest off anon. its crazy because truly, what makes them think they could act that way? it's not ok and it's draining seeing so many people hide behind a screen and hate just because they think its funny. ALSO, THE TYPE OF HATE PEOPLE GET IS CRAZY!!! TWWWWW!!! why are we getting death threats and being told we should slit our wrists and get raped? why are you saying you hope we get tortured and our whole family dies? like fuck, I'm not above telling someone to die, that's something i gotta fix with myself, but I'm never going to outright say disgusting shit like that and wish sexual assault/abuse on you. do fucking better.

BIG BLOG AND MEAN GIRL ENERGY

something that has always annoyed me was when people talk about big blogs is , yall have certain ppl in mind but you don't say who you are talking about when talking shit, but yall make it so obvious and that leads to people going in your inbox talking shit, and then the big blogs get upset and either act out or block, AND THEN YALL GET UPSET FOR GETTING BLOCKED!!! LIKE THIS SHIT IS INSANE!!! ITS ONE BIG LOOP OF STRAIGHT SHIT FROM THE BUTT AND ITS ANNOYING. a block is not that serious and i hate when a big blog blocks somebody, its like fucking presidents day and suddenly its a big deal and everyone HAS TO KNOW, when in reality, no one does! the same way yall block people on insta, twitter, snap, fucking Pinterest, WE CAN DO THAT ON TUMBLR AND IT SHOULDNT BE A FUCKING ISSUE!!! ALSO, im so tired of the clique talk and big blogs being mean shit. i can't speak for other people, but ik I'm not cliqued up and I'm not a mean person. i have made so many friends as of recent on here that i love and hype up constantly, I've always followed ppl back even to the point where i hit the fucking following limit which is 5K PEOPLE!!! i reblog fics all the time, i ask for more parts, i even help people with writing! ik others who do the same so it baffles me when they say we mean girls and cliqued up. we mean cuz we calling ppl out for copying and their bs? we clicked up cuz we're big blogs and talk to each other? im not saying this to be a bitch but it does seem like yall wanna be big blogs as well and you're upset we don't interact with your fics as much as others. and I'm sorry for that and I'm not trying to make excuses but we cant see everything! now to yall points, yeah alot of people stick to the writers they know and hype up the same ones. i will be the first to admit that's not ok and they should branch out and read smaller writers works, ill even be the first say more big blogs should do the same!!! now the big question is,

HOW DO WE FIX IT???

truth be told, there is no perfect solution to anything but this is what i came up with. for copying i want to say, just be original. even if you feel like your writing isn't good which makes you want to copy, KEEP WRITING ORIGINAL SHIT!!! there will be someone out there who fucks with it and will beg for more. if you truly do wanna do your version of someone else's fic, just ask. ik for a fact i will say yes and reblog and hype you up! for expose accts, block them and move on. lets stop entertaining them. they don't deserve our time and they feed off the attention. less attention they get, less of them will pop up. of course ppl will still interact and send them stuff about people, but we gotta learn to just ignore. for hate and anons, same with exposing accts. block and move on. i would tell everyone to turn off anons forever but that wouldn't be fair to the anons that actually act right and they don't deserve to have that taken from them. for big blogs what i can say in regards to big blogs is, lets do better for the other writers on this app. if you don't already, start interacting with smaller writers and hyping them up!!! ik when i was just starting out that their words of encouragement would have helped me a lot! as for the people who dont like the bigger blogs or wish we would do more, you don't have to like us, but don't send hate about us to others. truth be told it makes us not want to interact with anyone but our close friends and that's when drama starts and the community starts dividing.

i want better for this community, and again, i have had my fair share of drama. i can own up to that, but i can understand and see when change needs to happen and I'm ready for that change and I'm ready to get back to being a fun community.

you dont have to like me at all but i do hope what i said in this long ass post can at least be something we mutually agree on.

[presidentkamala]

More cancellable thoughts incoming while we wait for our turn at this SSA office

Ok so the AOC/Bernie online gas machine is starting up in a big way

Bernie has repeatedly demonstrated that he will chase after what we all have decided is the "white working class" demo (thor voice but is it though dot gif) like ok at least its white. And male! Largely.

I can't wait to be lectured to about how we need to tone down the "idpol" (read: civil rights) and i just need to suck it up in order to defeat the fascists FROM THE SAME PEOPLE WHO CALLED ME ZIONIST SCUM AND REFUSED TO LOOK OUT FOR ANY PART OF THE COALITION for daring to point out that Kamala Harris is the best choice for president. lol.

That being said, do I want to see where this goes? Yes.

Do I want Dems to fall for the same mistakes (thinking that Bernie can lead these guys into the greater democratic tent without immediately pushing out black women and jewish voters) NO!!!! when will we learn!!!!

If Bernie and AOC for that matter want to make meaningful strides in the next few months they NEED to start making a powerful case for not just class war but also anti corruption, pro-democracy measures by strengthening our badly damaged institutions and reaffirming the centrality of civil rights to our society. Which is an anathema to the people most responsive to Bernie's Current Thing. Lol.

Hasan Piker needs to go away. I would love to go to his big beautiful 3.6 million dollar LA house and make him answer for literaly ANYTHING he's said for the past 8 years.

I DO THINK THAT we have to move past idpol in the sense of like. What factors largely define voting blocks like ~racial depolarization~ Its just that when THESE guys talk abt idpol it means Civil Rights specifically. Like wow silly me im just a hysterical identity politics pilled SJW for not wanting to bleed to death on the operating table while medical professionals twiddle their thumbs next to my body. For Instance.

BOOMERS and GEN X are coming thru rn in a way that GenZ just isnt capable of so i like stand by what i said earlier in terms of making sure they get catered to messaging wise first.

GenZ men......i would LOVE to test some messaging on them like im so fascinated. They are so hyper reactionary i think we can outcrazy them back to normal. What if i paid some creatine addicted gym rats to start waxing poetic about how Real Men need to think long term and be Strong In Silence and also social media is for beta cucks etc.

GenZ women on the other hand. I am slapping your face and then clutching your shoulders. You DO in fact. Want your own income. And your own bank account.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

They got divorced again

[cradle-of-darkness]

What have you done?

based on an idea @username8746489 had where sylvie discovered nightmare fuel for the first time on accident while getting bullied by some older kids (and pushing him further into social isolation now that he's known as "that scary kid who could summon someone's worst fear")

[shroomerr]

Oh, help me God, this hellboy got me coming back for more

reblogs super appreciated !!! close-ups under the cut !

[spacedlexi]

"sounds nice... having a partner"

[mutagensys]

getting into the mix with you LOL

""groomed" me into believing that I'm a traumaendo system." Nobody said that! Sorry! the io collective wasn't saying they were fucking grooming, but endogenic systems do push a narrative as to where alters have come from, if in a Traumagenic system, have to be from trauma specifically.

"I completely made up by our host at the time, and then she spent a lot of time intricately creating my personality and identity until I became a full fledged alter." There is.. a lot of ways I can say this isn't how it would work, but i'll try and assume you are a system in this conversation. You can.. create oc's.. and as a traumatized brain can do... decide that this oc is perfect for your brain.

Yknow what, for the sake of the argument, I'll just ignore that aspect in general. Let's go back to what the arguement started as.

"Whether you like it or not, there is an overlap between the CDD's system side and endogenic system side."

There is not.

Sure, we have a lot of similar terms and shit, but that is because endogenic systems have stolen terms from CDD systems. Majority of us who are CDD would of been totally fine with endos existing, if not for the fact that they have forced their way into the CDD community.

In others definition, Endogenic systems occur when they have "the state of being more than one identity in a body in a way that was not caused by traumatic experiences.", which is completely opposite to CDD being a Disorder that was forced onto us and developed due to trauma.

A large example of this difference is "Tulpagenic", which by a multiplicity wiki, states that "Tulpamancy is the westernized adaptation of a spiritual practice within Tibetan and Indian Buddhism.", that that these beings are "entities intentionally created in the mind parallel to your own consciousness.", and are developed through "visualization and meditative techniques" Again, this is entirely different to CDD experience. This seems like what you described most in your experience, as being "molded" by your host.

Soulbounding is another version. This is described as "a spiritual occurrence where a character from fiction essentially bonds to a person." It specifies that these souls of characters are from other universes, meaning not formed inside one's head. And again, specifies that "A soulbond functionally can be seemingly sentient from the start and autonomous unlike a tulpa", and that "Not all soulbonds will live with the host"- Again, more of a spiritual practice. Gateway systems are slightly similar, in a way where "gateway systems have at least a partially metaphysical or spiritual origin", as It descripes their entities as seperate souls, or ones that have passed on.

And then Willowgenic is LITERALLY JUST TUPLA but you didn't want to steal an actual religious thing so you made a new label to describe it. But AGAIN! "A willogenic system is a system that was purposely created, or willed into existence, through psychological or spiritual means". It is just saying "entities intentionally created in the mind parallel to your own consciousness." in new words. WHICH, IM 100% SURE MOST OF US WOULD BE OK WITH IF NOT THE FACT YOURE LUMPING IT IN WITH CDD. BECAUSE CDD IS ENTIRELY DIFFERENT.

Now, you're probably wondering, What the FUCK is the difference then? How is this so entirely different?

CDD is described as "When any one or more of the five types of dissociative experiences – depersonalisation, derealisation, amnesia, identity confusion, identity alteration – occur as continuing and/or repeated episodes, i.e. becomes chronic". This is different to Willogenic, Soul bounding, etc etc, because despite everything its not that new people are FORMING in our head. CDD is when a shit ton of amnesia gets put up in one singular head that it chronically affects our lives. And once again, "episodes of dissociation must be interfering with your work, social, home, family or student life and for many people this is the case". Which, let me tell you, HAS NEVER BEEN DESCRIBED IN ANY EXPERIENCE ENDOGENICS HAVE TALKED ABOUT.

This is the problem we are trying to tell you. CDD is a disorder that develops due to trauma, and experiences the above symptoms- but never because we want to. By even YOUR GUY'S DEFINITIONS, CDD SYSTEMS AND ENDOGENIC SYSTEMS ARE NOTHING THE SAME.

Hell, lets really get specific. I know there's a lot of taboo around talking about alters in very very scientific and specific terms here, but I'm going to and its gonna be so that you can really understand the differences

In Endogenics, you describe it as like having actual people in your head, right? Well we don't have people in our head. Sure, its a lot easier to describe it that way, but that isn't exactly how it works fundamentally.

Systems are built around fragments. When you are a child, you don't have a formed personality. You have hunger, happiness, anger, fear, basic emotions that slowly get correlated with specific things. If you don't experience all that shitty repetitive trauma, eventually this individual sections of yourself come together. They begin to make a whole individual instead of staying these fragments.

What happens in systems is instead of these basic parts of your personality coming together, due to repetitive trauma, the brain is unable to close itself together and mix with each other. Instead, there's walls put up with amnesia between these parts, parts that once made up a whole are now issolated from eachother. Each part builds upon itself, but is unable to mix with the other parts of the brain due to the amnesia walls the brain has put up. The reason people don't call these parts "seperate personalities" is because of the amnesia walls, these walls are built around each individual one- Seperating them from eachother. The reason we develop more alters, even as we get older, is more that each alter's personality GROWS, and an alter's personality might be cut into a smaller fragment, thus making it MORE and MORE fragmented

Endos' brains isn't split up into these parts, they just get more. They experience plurality COMPLETELY differently to Systems, and shouldn't use terms SYSTEMS have to describe a completely different experience. It isn't being Fragmented, in your guy's words its literally just adding onto an existing, whole brain.

We want endos to understand that. We aren't saying, well, I'm not saying that you are not experiencing what you are. You could be an Endo for fucks sake, I don't care, but the problem is that "system" is Our Term. Being a System inherently means Traumagenic. You could use plural all you want but when i say "You are not a system" I mean "You do not have the same experience as CDD Systems do, and please find your own terms to describe your shit because it isn't the same as ours".

God that was a ramble. If I don't make any fucking sense or see anything in my writing that was stupid just tell me and i'll try an edit it. I know I sound mad, partly because I am, but its more that I feel like people don't have all the information, and I just want an actual educated conversation.

"antis invade OUR plural tags all the time" WHY ARE YOU IN THE OSDDID TAG???? WHY???

you can't even argue that it's just a "plural" tag??? ITS THE TAG WITH THE NAME OF THE CDDS IN IT???

i don't wanna see anyone ever say "endos don't invade CDD spaces" bc tell me why yall are in the tag specifically for the disorders (don't actually. i don't care about your opinions 💕)

(🐇 and 🍓 but mostly 🐇)

[puppppppppy]

learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

[daily-hanamura]

[deoidesign]

ok I've been teasing about this comic a long time if you're interested you can save the page!

[moeblob]

i have no idea where the compulsion to giver her a pokemon came from ??? but her and her minccino gotta go make sure her husband stays safe.

[ganondoodle]

kind of expected that the ability breakdown wouldnt get that much traction (especially on twitter bc if it doesnt do well in the first few hours it might as well be dead) but what i didnt need to wake up to was looking at my twitter notifications and thinking there was a long comment on it at first but then i read it and it turned out to be some guy having dug up one of my old totk tweets where i talked about how zelda was treated-

and if a quote retweet with a thread attached already starts with "this entitled brat didnt understand that zelda was being a history nerd by being in the past and getting to experience it herself" with two screenshots attached of the end of totk with zelda staring at the cam all uwu (which has ??? to do with their point??) i dont even want to know what else was in that thread

if thats how the majority of the fandom is then im even less surprised that nintendy doesnt even have to try to write anything good :I

ah yes, i am a game nerd, and by putting me in a game where i stand around doing puppy dog eyes while being shoved around by NPCs is me being a game nerd OBVIOSULY

[dawnthefluffyduck]

New game interest unlocked

(crow in bottom right belongs to @patchwork-crow-writes)

[xxplastic-cubexx]

his fuckass loafers im losing it

[krash-and-co]

friendly reminder this fandom isnt a job and you don't have to actively work to 'save the show' all the time, you can just have fun