#im too much of a coward to kill myself
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chilipepperconverse · 2 months ago
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god im so tired of this shit
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spookythesillyfella · 14 days ago
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get me out get me out get me out get me OUT GET ME OUT IM BEGGING YOU LET ME GO I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I NEED A LOBOTOMY PLEEEEASE
ahem anywayz
i didn't feel like making two different drawings for the songs that i used as inspo . so here's interchangeable lyric versions
★ translated second image version / version without text under cut :
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★ song lyrics from : "New Flesh" – Current Joys ; "Fata din Roman" – Patron
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felignis · 2 months ago
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im sorry im sorry im sorry im so sorry
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canni-killer · 8 months ago
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finish drawing. feel proud! see three pieces of art. i want to kill myself.
#ive been drawing for years why am i so bad#inconsistent also#bad AND inconsistent#anyways did anyone see the pic i drew haha its good right#who am i fucking kidding its awful#everything i make art writing knitting sewing etc its all terrible#no matter how much i practice i never improve#i cant write either my writing is terrible#and ive p much abandoned knitting#i occasionally sew holes in clothes but im bad at it#i have no fuckng skills#i should be good at this stuff its all stuff ive been doing sonce i was a fucking child#why is my baby cousin better at knitting than mr#why is my cousin so much better at art when were the same age and ive been drawing longer#i cant act either. or sing. i used to want to do musical theater but yknow#i cant bring myself to pick up my guitar cuz i know ill never be good at it. it frirates me to practice.#i played trombone for 2 ½ years and never got any better#i couldn't even read a single scale and my playing was quiet and bad#fuck#fuck fuck fuck#ill mever be good at anything#im a hack. talentless. unskilled. in every way possible.#can i find one fucking thing that im good at#“do it for yourself!” I CANT I FUCKING CANT if no one else likes it then its not good#and if its not good theres no point to it#becuz its just another way in which ive failed#i hate myself. im a disgusting failure#and im too cowardly to even kill myself#“im living for so and so :3” LIES LIES ITS ALL LIES IM ALIVE BECUZ IM A COWARD#everyone else will be fine without me. maybe happier even. i just cant do it cuz im fucking scared. another gd thing im a failure at.
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saddlepunk · 1 year ago
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can literally only swing an apartment w another person and my bf is on the brink of backing out so i have to figure out what the hell is goin on there but god... god!!! i just want to escape!!! i was so goddamn close and now im being knocked all the way back!!! i dont even know where to /start/ looking for a new place to live or people to live with i just. what the fuck is wrong with me and why does this keep happening.
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red-velvet-0w0 · 20 hours ago
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im a coward and an idiot and a monster and yall are right to hate me
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in-zwielicht · 2 months ago
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I really don’t know how long I’ll be able to live like this
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ambiguousfiction · 2 months ago
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:)
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a-fandom-trashdump · 2 months ago
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bbqhooligan · 4 months ago
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oh my god im full on crying in my deadly silent dorm im really not meant to survive this. "what did he have to look forward to? what was there to like? there was nothing good about his life" <- about him not making it. echoes like a gunshot in my ribcage
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deepseaphantom · 5 months ago
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i fucking hate myself i fucking hate that im violent i fucking hate that my body does this this happens everysingle fucking month without fail i fucking hate it
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nexttothelamp · 5 months ago
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#the legal battle will take so long#this is going to be the hardest thing ive ever done and maybe will ever do#life has and will change forever. for the better? i hope but i dont know#is this the right thing to do? yes#does that make it easier? ....only slightly. and itll have to be enough. and i realize now that it is#but oh god does it hurt. im a victim too maybe the oldest one? oldest one alive anyway. that i know of#i cant. believe it#hindsight is 40/20 in this case but fuck#a part of me wants to tell him#to pull him aside and say#i know what you did. i know what you did and its going to come out.#and if it was only in the past i might choose to let the dead rest#but i cant let you near those kids. i can only pray to a god i dont believe in that its not already too late#but baby axel still has a chance#i know with this shit system i wont be able to take the kids from derek#but i can put you away and maybe thatll be enough#i wanna tell him that im going to the police and they WILL be coming to his mothers house#and i wanna tell him that because i loved him. So MUCH once#that im giving him the chance to kill himself and take the cowards way out before its too late#i... mean that a little too and that hurts the most#i cant kill him even though id like to choke the life out of him myself#i cant ruin my life for the man that tried to already#but it would save us all so much trouble if he did us all a favor and shot himself in the fucking skull#theres always going to be more kids and hes gotten to 4 over 2 decades at least. and those are only the ones i know for certain#hes just a pedophile. it makes so much sense now#fuck. fuck.#maybe in a few days ill be able to think about something else#can barely focus on trump getting convicted lol#id say delete later but i wont
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boymodeordie · 9 months ago
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i am filled with immeasurable self-hatred. i dont want to exist i wish i were dead i hate myself more profoundly and deeply than im capable of hating anyone
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melodyoftheewe · 9 months ago
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Mmmm I love that I probably wouldn’t be a good mother so I couldn’t even like be a good housewife that doesn’t make me feel useless at all nooooo
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ambiguousfiction · 1 year ago
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:)
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rotting-blog · 1 year ago
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I'm not even particularly suicidal but I need to kill myself
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