canni-killer

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so glad i could introduce you to him

I don't go to One Piece but I appreciate Yamato. Hell yeah fem transmasc dogboy with big tits me too bro

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he looks like he's moving for sone reason wha

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having sanji thoughts. will hopefully be acting normally enough to pretend people like me soon.

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i am so well adjusted

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i fucking forgot hearth follows me here becuz it doesnt show up in the followers list 💀 ummm hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ill be normal and likable soon. probably. or ill just freak out forever idk.

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can't be abandoned if you don't give a fuck 🙏 unfortunately i give so much of a fuck that i let people hurt me for years just to feel wanted and still didnt get that even now. oops.

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why did i try to start engaging with people again lol...

hi i forgot i have this. ive fucking given up on engaging or expecting to be engaged with no one gives a fuck im better off just suffering in solitude until its over anyways. im questioning everything also, like.. its just been me for so long what the fuck am i supposed to do. i feel sick. i dont want to be here anymore. im so fucking tired of existing.

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ok nvm somehow still empty and yet violently suicidal

[canni-killer]

its funny how quickly u can get over shit when you realize emotions are worthless lol

[canni-killer]

where the fuck did you come from

i meant to watch a playthru of mouthwashing but now multiple of my friends are into it and i feel weirdly resentful of it. like if i try to get into it i'll just be following the crowd or swagever. ugh so fucking stupid to feel this way but i cant help it.

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why do i have to always get into other peoples things, why can't someone get into my thing for once. i literally cannot think of anytime someone actually got into something for me and yet i keep fucking watching shit for them. like even in the rare chance someone watches something for me they dont get into it. no one cares about my interests if they werent into it when we met and i didnt get into it for them. no one fucking cares and yet i keep trying so so so fucking hard. what's the point. im so scared. im so fucking scared. i cant be alone i cant let people get tired of me i would rather them be sick of me than be tired of me but id rather neither why cant anyone like me why why why why why do i have to change just for anyone to want me why cant i ever change enough for them to want me the expectations are all too much and i just want to be wanted i just want someone to care at all why does no one care about me i try so hard to be someone worth caring for how many times do i have to break and rebuild myself for someone to want me

[canni-killer]

i meant to watch a playthru of mouthwashing but now multiple of my friends are into it and i feel weirdly resentful of it. like if i try to get into it i'll just be following the crowd or swagever. ugh so fucking stupid to feel this way but i cant help it.

[canni-killer]

i feel like this is the type of reaction i get when i say anything anywhere to anyone

[canni-killer]

tumblr is ableist for nerfing hearth and all its sideblogs tbh😔

[canni-killer]

ohhhh i see i see. good luck w that

sometimes hearth will comment on my/our posts and say stuff or ask questions and i greatly enjoy that actually but if i do it back im breaking an awful boundary and being terrible (not actually true most likely)

[canni-killer]

remembering my breakdown last night. i need to kill myself more than before.

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sometimes hearth will comment on my/our posts and say stuff or ask questions and i greatly enjoy that actually but if i do it back im breaking an awful boundary and being terrible (not actually true most likely)