#im too adhd for this

[coconewtdoodles]

I have no one that's into half the things I like and it's awful, Jarchie fics slap so I started watching Riverdale, knowing they get no romantic stuff so I've doomed myself to be disappointed I just hope the show is good, I need something cheesy and dramatic beyond reason I NEED FRIENDS

[direredd]

I'm the worst fangirl. "Oh you're obsessed with this actor, are you watching their current show?" No, it's boring. "Oh but you've seen x other works?" No. "but you're obsessed?" Look I saw them in one thing and they looked smoochable so I followed them on Instagram and fell in love, leave me alone.

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[fettiowi]

The funny thing about figuring out youre neurodivergent is looking through your family and starting to notice youre definitely not the only one

[ronkeyroo]

ECHO VN

[psie-smutki]

Deinocheirus and its 5 out of 6 ducklings🦆

[deep-space-lines]

in case anyone was wondering where I disappeared to for the past few days, i've been going insane again. fun fact staring at stained glass windows for hours on end will not turn you catholic (source: i stared at so many stained glass windows to make this bc i really wanted to go for a realistic church window sort of vibe)

tumblr is a coward and won't let me upload the full size images so you can look at them and zoom in to your heart's content (please look at them. please) [1] [2]

Prints of this are available on my Society6 (both versions cuz I'm indecisive) (it may take a little while for them to actually appear on the site)

Details:

Timelapse under the cut!

my favorite part of this is when I'm trying to get the pose down and I keep flipping the canvas and it looks like they're doing a silly little dance :)

[arthurcantsleep]

Thinking about how Fiddleford's and Bill's love for Ford are both rooted in absolute devotion. But Bill needed devotion from Ford, while Fiddleford was wholly devoted to Ford without any expectations. Idk.

[enashun]

silly stuff I did cause kept thinking too hard and then being sad about cloud

[chaosinplural]

i feel like the tragedy of being aroace is that i’m never going to be anyone’s favorite person. like at some point everyone’s favorite person is going to be whoever they have sex with and kiss and i’m never going to want that. hell i don’t even have a best friend now but even if i do i’ll still be second to their boyfriend or girlfriend or husband because that’s how the world works

[huniipum]

[opikiquu]

ARTS AND CRAFTS CLUB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[angelellipsis-devilofdots]

since autism often involves strict planning and routine whereas adhd often cannot function under such plans and routines, do audhd people have two wolves inside them who are constantly fighting like. "we NEED a plan" and "there will be NO PLAN or there will be NO MOTIVATION"

[5-pp-man]

my new favourite genre of guys is when they're cute but only in deeply neurodivergent ways.

[nat-20s]

Can't stop thinking about The Doctor and Donna still engaging with telepathy together but they cannot stop it from being two way. 14 tries to show her their memories of a hot air balloon called the Tardis and suddenly he's on a first date with Shaun. Donna tries to give 14 the shopping list for tonight and she has a Gallifreyan cover of Mambo No 5 stuck in her head for the rest of the day. It takes them a good five times of this happening before they realize it's not just ADHD.

[oifaaa]

People who are able to just sit down and start drawing good art scare me like what do you mean you don't have to spend at least an hour staring at a blank canvas/ doodling what can only be described as the worst art you've ever drawn in your life before you can actually focus on drawing something properly shut up