#im tired of internet people

[chronic-creation]

Stay away from r/fakedisordercringe and similar reddits, I have a habit of scrolling them to make sure I haven't been posted to them out of anxiety about it, but when I am posted there I have panic attacks and it makes my mental health spiral. It's best to just stay away entirely and never look. It's best to completely avoid interacting with anyone who spends the time to speculate whether or not someone is faking based on a meme they posted with a 15 second trending sound.

You can't tell whether or not someone is faking their disorders based on their internet history, and dredging up old posts from years ago just to harass someone about what they've posted in the past is quite frankly disgusting.

It's for that reason that I'm no longer going to be making system content of any kind online. I'll talk about my personal experiences on tumblr from time to time, and I'll make art about it, but the internet is not a safe place to be yourself or try to spread awareness about DID and other stigmatized disorders. I'm constantly being fakeclaimed and bullied on all platforms that I post on and it's something that my mental health just can't handle anymore. I really need to just focus on my mental and physical health, healing, art, and school.

Trying to prove to a bunch of people that I'm not faking my disorders that I've been diagnosed with has just driven me insane because even if you post your medical records, even if you have witnesses and countless pages and years of evidence in your favor, they will say you're making it all up and will harass you constantly anyways.

I'm exhausted from fighting and trying to prove myself to people who don't want to take the time to acknowledge they're wrong. they just want to hurt people. they don't care if they're wrong or right, they just want to cause despair and doubt to someone else.

and frankly, I'm fucking over it.

[greghatecrimes]

for the love of god

[beekneebabey]

I don't know how to say this intelligently but something is really bothering me about the reviews for the barbie movie complaining that she didn't go deeply enough into feminist critique? Like,,, it's the Barbie movie. It's not Feminist Theory 402. Also, it's a movie about how women are expected to be spectacular at everything they do and how exhausting it can be to be the representative for all women when you're just one of them and people really watched that and turned around to tell Greta Gerwig that the movie wasn't enough because it wasn't perfect?

It was heartfelt and funny and silly and hot pink and that is enough!! Where is the media literacy!! You all are legitimately hurting my heart with this trash take!! It's fine to not like the movie but how come movies about the "male experience" can be about SOME men but movies about women have to be the balm AND rage AND catharsis AND call to action for every woman ever??? It's the Barbie movie!!! Not Gloria Steinem's latest manifesto!!! Let it fucking be!!!

[ghostespresso]

staff logging on to tumblr dot com today

[orphetoon]

legend of zelda fans making it real hard to be a legend of zelda fan

[hindahoney]

I refuse to sell out my own people just because the conversation makes people upset and uncomfortable. I don't care if my opinions are palatable to non-Jews. I'm here for Jews and nobody else.

[mandiemegatron]

For the people who keep sending asks or leaving comments like "why do you self ship with a fictional character" or "stop being fucking weird and fall for real life people" -

First of all, there is literally no harm being done by self shipping with a fictional character. It's literally just for funzies, bc I am incredibly aware that they will NEVER exist.

Second, It's a comfort thing. Feeling like this character would care for me and love me, when this world has been nothing but cruel to me my entire life, it makes me feel like I can handle what the world throws at me. It gives me strength to keep going, knowing that this character I love would be cheering me on, even just a little.

Thirdly, it fills me with a huge ICK trying to be attracted to real life people. Sure, there's some super hot dudes/women out there but those are real people, and shipping yourself with real people has real impact. People don't deserve to be treated like a piece of media, people are PEOPLE, and they deserve a shred of respect, and it's disrespectful (TO ME, MY OPINION ONLY) to be so horny for a real person that you ship yourself with them. Like sorry, but you won't catch me shipping myself with like, Tom Hiddleston. I like him, I find him super hot, but I'm not gunna ship myself with him, ya know ? He's a real dude with real feelings.

This is literally just for fun, but some of you are taking the fun out of it by being awful and cruel human beings. Don't like what you see? Then block me. Let me be in my little bubble with my mutuals who understand and you go be with yours. The answer is in YOUR hands, and it's called the block button.

I'm not hurting anyone 😞 just stop.

[serenedash]

leans into microphone.

I don't listen to people that haven't played a new Kingdom Hearts game since 2006. Yes yes kh2 we all love it yes kh2fm is amazing yeah yeah we've all see kh2. Play more kh games, that is literally game number 3 in a series that's like 15 games ongoing. "It's confusing" it's just long as fuck so its a lot of information to take in and that's okay. People literally take so much time and care to explain the series and lore to people who are lost. Like just say you enjoy kh2's gameplay and move on, if you really cared about the series AS A SERIES you'd be paying attention to it as a whole. "Dream drop distance what a stupid title!!!" that is the LEAST stupid thing that has happened in this series. "It's on too many consoles" watch a cutscene movie. Read a wiki page! I own a Playstation TWO!!!!!!!!!! like I have nothing more recent other than my switch. Do you think I've played every game lmao??

Anyway stan kh mobile games I don't care if you don't like them its not a hot take by any stretch of the imagination to not like them. You should read my khux/dr plot summary actually <3

[spider-man-2o99]

“why are you always only ever talking about, like, spider-man 2099’s childhood and mental health issues instead of posting panels of him Biting People” uh. because... spider-man 2099 the comic book... also does this.?

[beemovieerotica]

here's a take you can cancel me for: it's exhausting when transmasc spaces require censoring of any mentions / discussion of pregnancy or periods under the premise of not wanting to trigger people. because I'm sorry but if you are specifically in a space that exists for the discussion of the unique issues facing trans men / afab people then you cannot prioritize your own discomfort to shut down normal everyday conversations. you cannot hold your inability to regulate your own social media consumption over someone discussing their own body, not yours, because you have framed dysphoria as the universal hallmark of the trans experience and cannot fathom when a trans masc person would be glad or excited about the prospect of getting to have their own child, and other people are sharing in that joy. there are servers and chatrooms for people who are not comfortable discussing any aspects of what the vast majority of adults experience where you would be welcome to talk about sanitized topics.

[lattebatiswatching]

I think people should go after SaiScribbles more. SaiScribbles is a Racist. She called a bunch of black people the R slur for saying she can't say Wigga {white nigga}. It doesn't matter if she keeps using it, what does it say about people who make calling out Lily almost a community if we end up making a space where someone can be such a bigot and openly a cruel person who has media analysis skills just slightly higher than the person everyone is ripping to shreds. Rightfully mind you.

Sai could have a critical community made around them with the shit she says.

Sai is racist? Can I get a source on that? That's an insane claim to be dropping without any context.

Also you just used both of those words,can you say them?

She is not openly cruel,she is just a bit meaner than you'd like it. You fuckers make death threats and try to ruin someone's career over a Twitter post, but oh. She used retard to insult someone, we have to go after her.

Yes,she has media analysis skills,she has the ability to criticize someone, why shouldn't she do that? Yall are jumping on the lily hate bandwagon too.

Unless I get actual proof of the claims you make I will keep supporting Sai until I fucking perish. Fuck you, from what *I* have seen she's pretty respectful of people and she just uses that word as an insult and that's the only thing you can go after her for,shut up. You don't have shit against her,she just uses the word she should even be allowed to use based on the rules you fuckers have created. Gay people use fag as insult very often, why doesn't the same work for her?

(Sidenote ,be decisive on the pronouns you use for people.)

Also @saiscribbles ,would be very cool if you could comment on this,I'm so very confused, is this shit real???

[rapidhighway]

hmmm..... so tired of this thought I see constantly that neurodivergent people are all introverts

[lightbulb-warning]

i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself

[donnabenevientosimpingzone]

Hey! Now that you’re back I wanted to ask about Resident Lover? I remember you were on the team- but then the game came out and your name wasn’t on the dev list... what happened?

I can’t escape this question can I- and for those of you who messaged me, I did delete them in hopes of avoiding this- but I don’t want rumours to spread so lemme be transparent.

Also pls read this for how I’m handling coming back to this blog: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/741337986608873472/complex-feelings-and-absolute-pandemonium-about-my

No, I wasn’t kicked off the team, nor was I invited back when I left- and they made the right choice doing that. I was not mentally stable. I didn’t take the project seriously, I had jealousy issues, and didn’t take criticism well- I self destructed badly- blew up and burned that bridge to ashes, not to mention what sorta hurt I caused the team.

It did hurt a lot when I saw the game release. I was so upset, and spent so many weeks thinking about “what if I didn’t fuck up”. But there are no “what ifs” in history, we are meant to go through what we do in order to become the best versions of ourselves. The whole ordeal was part of the last push I needed to finally seek professional help. And the fact it still hurts whenever I see it around means I still care and carry guilt about everything that happened.

I’m practicing exposure therapy to try and heal that gaping wound. RE8 has turned my life completely on its head and I don’t want to abandon it- the best outcome will be the day I can download and play the game and find it within myself to genuinely love it with no more wounds to lick- but for now I’m content with seeing it float around every once in a while on my dash.

Out of respect- I hope none of you will pester the devs about this either. They did something amazing, and I’m so proud of what they’ve accomplished. Out of all of them I really miss MJ. They were the best, most hilarious friend- I always thought they were super attractive- and the whole reason the game was possible. Show them some love- idk message them “you’re cool!” for me or something. Anon ask if you have to. Don’t tell them I’m the one who sent you- I think it’ll be funny to just have a whole buncha people messaging them outta nowhere bahaha

And with that I hope this clears it up and stops people from messaging anymore about it. It’s still a sensitive wound I’m working to heal and I’d like to do it at my own pace<3 I don’t regret the experience, I’m in such a better place now because of it. I would love to make peace with my past self and accept the pain as a part of growing.

Until then enjoy me going back to my usual shenanigans before all the shit hit the fan. I’m very excited to draw more Spider Donna and Beneviento Sisters, I hope y’all enjoy it too<3

Update edit: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/737803172475781120/stupid-lil-update-i-wanna-do-as-per-my-pinned

Update! https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/737980137572892672/people-who-knowknew-me-personally-probably-arent

Update that shows old sprite: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/738487941680316416/want-me-as-a-professor-okay-damn-ignore-the

Update where I rant about Angie and Daniela with a cat: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/740499151828156416/can-we-see-the-png-of-the-angie-sprite-holding-a

Update about the dangie ask on the RL blog: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/742312364040454144/hey-just-a-heads-up-that-the-rl-team-recently

[corviiids]

man i know it's all in jest and/or affectionate but actually when i open my notes and it's all random strangers responding to my posts (mostly homerstuck) with shit like "op i want to flay you alive" "this is disgusting and cursed" etc it simply does not encourage me to post any more of it as people have been demanding i do, as i simply do not enjoy being engaged with in this way. playful rudeness from strangers just isn't pleasant to me. no hate genuinely i know y'all mean well and i appreciate that but damn people really do just say shit to total strangers on the internet

[sciderman]

Hi, I would love to ask more in the "ask blog", I just need to know, what are the current events that are going on?

Are they still on the plot on St Valentin, or is the theme with Harry the main conflict?

the main theme in the blog is whatever you ask about ! that do be how it works