#im still deciding what to choose

[alive-but-dead-ah]

Im not going to tag this with the normal titles that i do since this is a personal post/vent.

Im actually kinda disappointed that the only way of moving in, for example, proship, system or pro para spaces are via discourse. I had two previous accounts (dayjoyarts and purdunsys) where i used to do LOTS of discourse, and what did that get me? So many follows!

Oh but the moment I try to move on from drama and focus on my projects not many people check on me for not having takes.

Like. Hello???? Aren't we supposed to support other's works? Cancel culture and antis are the ones that do the most fandom movement, and you know why? Because they overtook the fandom spaces with their "tragic little morals" and agendas that, quite frankly, are applicable even in CHRISTIANITY (go on tell me im wrong im a christian and i have actual proof to back up this).

A post i made earlier a few days ago had the following analogy: "no need to explain your stance on everything, just enjoy life!" I still stand by that, but when Im constantly blocking people so they dont interact with me it becomes tiring.

I am a proshipper. I am pro para. Hell, im still debating if im anti, pro, or endo neutral! But do you actually see me saying anything about it and making the whole acc about that? No!

Oh btw, no one has said it. But if someone says im pro contact, i will literally just block you. Means nothing, but i am ANTI C. I WILL ALWAYS BE.

Final words on this matter is that please, make this place better. I want to publish my comic and be happy. Dont make this harder.

Sincerely, Fumei (host) and Dakota (protector)

[rotyolk]

cape time

[wisteriawizard]

I'm a couple of glasses of wine deep and I need to yell for a minute

Let disabled people give up. Please.

If something they used to enjoy now causes them massive pain, don't try and force them to do it cause they used to like it.

If they try something once and its too much, don't make them do it over and over to test if it was just a bad pain day.

And on the other hand, if someone knows something will cause them pain and still chooses to do it, don't admonish them for it. Don't be a cunt and act like they're an idiot for doing it.

Or act like they're not really disabled because they chose to do it.

Please. Just give us the dignity of choosing.

[ruuinxs]

uhhh something something saiki kissing akechi to shut him up without thinking and when he pulls back he tries to brush it off but akechi is just a little lad and is blushing and dumbfounded and it’s the one time he’s ever been quiet and saiki kinda feels smug about it and who’s to stop him from kissing him again? something something

[bucketspammer4life]

looking through my old messages is so traumatizing i want to go back in time and kick myself in the stomach like what possessed you...

[yaldabaoth]

nothing like seeing people paint themself as completely innocent and that you're that bad guy for finally putting your foot down

[lucabyte]

uploading stuff to tonic water's toyhouse page and I saw my stupid creepypasta photoshops in his gallery again. i for sure never posted these here and thats a crime. so im rectifying that now

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

blows everything up w my mind i hate school i hate careers i just wanna draw pictures and play sudoku

[eebie]

played DTI with the boss and i]t was really fun

[orcelito]

Hm

Something that kinda bothers me with trimax vs tristamp is the framing of Choice

In tristamp, it's framed as this whole big thing where he has to choose between humans and plants. "Who's side are you on?" Repeated over and over again, & he continues to not give an answer because he doesn't WANT to choose. Which in and of itself, I think this is narratively interesting, but like...

Then I think about what the big Choice is in trimax, & it feels kinda cheap in comparison.

Bc see, the Choice in trimax is over whether he should ever take a life. Wolfwood says it, Legato forces it, even fucking Nebraska Dad says it. Someday, Vash is going to have to make that choice whether he wants to or not. He spends over a hundred chapters running from this, REFUSING to choose one life over another, citing that all life is sacred... he really, truly believes this, and he really, truly wants to live by this.

But sometimes in this hell of a world, you really do have to make a choice. And in the end, he's forced to make that choice. One Time, he chooses to kill in order to save someone else's life. It happens only when his hand is really truly forced, but it Happens. He kills someone, and it nearly destroys him.

And we see this during the time where the earth forces have gotten the order to bomb Gunsmoke to combat Knives, Despite people telling them that they've got plans in motion to combat him without killing a great many people. Bc the people on earth many many miles away are more concerned with risk avoidance, so they're willing to accept killing a Lot of people in order to remove the uncertainty & risk to a great many more.

Zoom back in on Vash. He literally passes out from the mental agony of it & goes into a fever dream of all the people he knows that has died. The man he killed was an awful person, caused so much harm to both Vash and many many more people. Objectively, it should not have been a hard decision.

But for Vash, it was.

And that's what really gets me about it all. Vash is a staunch pacifist. He sticks to this despite people telling him over and over again to give up, to just accept that he has to kill people sometimes... And he eventually learns that they were kinda right in the end, but Even Still, after all is said and done, he STILL refuses to give up on any life he could possibly save.

This framing of the Choice is really, truly moving to me. It's a key part of what really made trimax Hit for me.

So tying it back in with tristamp's framing of choice... idk, it just feels kinda cheap in comparison. In trimax, Vash never really has any doubts about the plant vs human thing (aside from when he was a kid, post-tesla). He knows he's a plant. He knows a lot of humans wouldn't accept him for that. He knows a lot of humans would Fear him for that. But he still loves them and never once wavers in his pursuit for love & peace.

Overall, I just really enjoy the framing of moral questions in trimax more, I guess.

[chirpsythismorning]

Just realized reading the piggyback script that the Jonathan and Nancy scene at the cabin, with them covering the window with the wood, parallels to the Steve and Nancy scene at the end of s2 where they’re hanging up the blanket to make the shed look indiscernible for possessed Will… both conversations involve her saying she was impressed with them caring for the kids… and both give the vibe that they’re not exactly not not together with it sort of being up in the air 👀

[singsweetmelodies]

*charles wtf discord react*

[dreamedfyre-a]

i don't like the ali.cole at the end of b&c and personally would rather not but I love the idea of hel finding out and the tension ensuing but ultimately her being okay with it

[transfaghenchgoon]

Reincarnated soulmates but its less the strings of the universe pulling them together and more a conscious choice. Their souls will always find a way. Even if only for a day, blooming once as a flower in the other's garden, a butterfly on their windowsill. Even if it takes centuries of trying, missed chances and ill-fated premature endings. Souls that are desperate to be together. Friends from a past life who never stop looking over their shoulders, who know something is missing and cannot find it. Parents and their children who come back again and again and again just to see one another if only for the briefest moment. A lover cycling through decades of short lives as the tiniest of creatures just to remain by their heart's side until the very end. A man and his dog who will never stop being just that even after hundreds of lives lived. Souls that come back to the same spot in every life, centuries spent longing for a place they know like their own skin.

Y'know?

[bidokja]

saw some post epilogue extras spoilers. i hate being right.

[skrrt16]

Another episode of 🌟skrrt thoughts 🌟

Today my classes started. I couldnt sleep because my mind decided to make me have a full on crisis attack. And i had a online class at 8am. Its like a concept of creating videogames. And literally i was regreting existing. But literally my first homework is about making the concept of a videogame. Literally that caught me off guard but i guess its a good start?

Also shoutout to "i spent my whole month of vacations rotting in bed instead of doing something useful" *sighs*

Still even if i know and people have told me to stop comparing myself. Thats what all my lufe has been like "be the best" "why arent you on top" "shes like the teachers pet" "your cousin knows this" "your sister is like this" "youre different" and i know that we all grow in different conditions and life styles but somehow everything caught up and its like my mind is repeating every single thing that people have told me like a disc on loop.