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transfaghenchgoon · 1 year ago
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Reincarnated soulmates but its less the strings of the universe pulling them together and more a conscious choice. Their souls will always find a way. Even if only for a day, blooming once as a flower in the other's garden, a butterfly on their windowsill. Even if it takes centuries of trying, missed chances and ill-fated premature endings. Souls that are desperate to be together. Friends from a past life who never stop looking over their shoulders, who know something is missing and cannot find it. Parents and their children who come back again and again and again just to see one another if only for the briefest moment. A lover cycling through decades of short lives as the tiniest of creatures just to remain by their heart's side until the very end. A man and his dog who will never stop being just that even after hundreds of lives lived. Souls that come back to the same spot in every life, centuries spent longing for a place they know like their own skin.
Y'know?
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sparring-spirals · 2 years ago
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no this is fine actually this is so fine. you're so tired. you're so tired. you're given images of a beautiful world, visions of a better future, of things peaceful and idyllic and everything you could have, if you're just willing to- stop. step away. be normal again. if. if. if. (the devil is in the details. the devil is in the details of the moon and- whatever. the devil is in the if). you're tired and you've been fighting with what feels like yourself and the world for so long. theres a beautiful vision, theres beautiful promises, theres a promise of peace, of a sure answer. it sounds so appealing. you're so tired.
(your friends are tired too, you know. he looks at you and his arm is tattoed red and heavy, with grief and with the way he fights so hard to protect you all. He has every reason to regret, everything to hate. He has something on his skin that has such different meanings, now.
He says: no, it didnt taint it, not really. its still them. its still him, and will.
its okay that its different than what he thought. everything about his life is different.
it can mean whatever, the red and the white and the moons. people have been making meaning and crying and weeping under them for ages.
its not tainted. its still his.
she looks at you and says. shes worried about you. that she understands the appeal. she understands considering. but theres more unknown unknowns.
she tells you. you have the choice. thats your superpower, more than the other ones you have. you can make whatever choice you make, and ill support you, you understand? you can have peace without making this trade. you can have peace on your own terms, a quiet life. you can have it. you have that choice. you have it. its yours.)
you are so tired. if you could just be normal- if thats what you want. if it could give you what you want. if.
"Our weirdness makes us right."
"the better halves make a better whole. you have to love all of it."
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purin-gambler · 7 days ago
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there was nothing more suna loved than to take photos of his chubby love. with photography as his full time profession, you would be the main subject captured first in his heart, then captured to his lense. his vision of his love for you reflected in the imagery he takes of you.
never once had he pressured you. always understanding whether or not you felt picture ready in the moment. though he wants nothing more than to show the world your beauty, in your most rawest form to your most dolled up. and the times you do agree, his choices of composition, his use of following and breaking all dynamics in the principles of photography, as well as the incredible way he executes your perfection is not just derived from skill, but his wholehearted love for you.
the way hed take time, shifting in all sorts of silly and uncomfortable positions just to find the lighting that best highlights the doughy goodness of your body. shuffling around more to get an angle that doesnt shadow away your supple parts he loves so much. he looks ridiculous, especially in public. but he’ll take the light humiliation if it means you get to shine in return. the results always awed you both, so of course— it was worth it.
though his own guilty pleasure? gifting you outfits hed love for you to do mini photoshoots in, taking perspective pov shots— just to get close to you while posed and dressed up, and making sets for you in his personal studio or just in your shared home. because to his eyes, you are every lovely definition and more. not just as his muse, but as his girlfriend, his most cherished love, and his other half.
he could gush for hours over the way you stole his heart, and how he greedily gate keeps yours. every time he saw your smile as you laughed and chatted his ears off, every time you groggily woke up beside him, every time he saw you in ways you trusted no one else besides him to.
it almost frustrates him that your beautiful expressions cant be fully grasped by the digital pixels created by a photo. no matter how good the camera or his skills are. your smile on film would never live up to the radiant way you shine in person. but hes a greedy man, so he feels a sense of pride knowing he could see your smile youve given him in its truest form. with you right beside him, and its all for himself.
through his eyes alone, he had been entranced since day one. and he feels so damn luckily he can be the one to show you off to the world through his loving gaze.
hence the number of photos of you, the reason a photo of you and him are front and center on his booking website, and why his portfolio is full of his best work— a large percentage of it involving you.
and when it comes back to the individual photos hes taken— each capture, even if accidentally blurred from an unmatched shutter speed, or caught too off guard— still meant so much to him. back to the times youve agreed to take part in his more professional work, suna would always make it a point not to bother with heavily editing the photos. wanting highlight what makes you so one of a kind. with your blemishes and your so called ‘imperfections’ that only made so much more real to him, unlike the images seen in magazines or online.
he treasures you, and has seen you in so many different ways unlike no other. through each moment outside of still imagery, he will always highly regard you as a person he so dearly loves. shined in his work and through his own two orbs— you as a whole became his muse and center of his world.
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kat-of-seventy-seven-roses · 8 months ago
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Homestuck Mythical Creature au / Cryptid Au
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Very tempted to make an ask blop :p need to see if anyones inch rested
thought processes under the cut (bc some choices are wild)
Johns a pooka, an irish fae trickster who shapeshifts into animals. his favorite form is the bunny. john and jane are both fae, so their pranks range from harmless to mentally scaring to life altering. absolute chaos grimlins. dirk is also an irish myth, so he knows them well and is often trying to get them to not ruin the local population of humans. so they do pranks on him insted. john loves to steal dirks head and hide it places.
rose speaks to the eldritch horrors and is slowly becoming one herself. she wants to become a litch.
Dave is a harpy! a very chill one who doesn't tend to sing with his full chest, so people dont start crashing into his doorstep. dave dies in some magic accident that caused davesprite to rise up from the ashes. but dave harpy is ALSO fine no ones really sure how. may have been roses doing.
Jade is a werewolf obv. but shes also a witch and has formed a coven with rose and roxy.
Jane is ur avrage fae faerie/sprite. her favorite fae rule to get people to break is "dont eat their food."
Roxy is both a cat who is also a wizard i need not elaborate
Dirk is a headless horseman. not to be confused with THE headless horse man. thats another dullhan with a well paying halloween gig. dirk is often subject to losing his head, so he made a magic pumpkin to pilot the body when this happens. he does have a very large and scary but beautiful horse.
Jake is the bigfoot. and one of the most well hunted (and well travled) cryptids. thus, his friends often make jokes of not ever seeing him except in blurry images. its not his fault hes very large and loves to travel! and is also not very photogenic...
Aradia is a monthra!!! however she made a deal with a devil and became a ghost... not sure WHY yet or why it kills her. but it does. its all in her plan or smth, but that doesnt stop sollux from being very upset that hes the one that has to take and keep her soul. she is reserected later by the coven, still soulless but it doesnt matter bc her soul is in good hands and thus she still feels it. shes much happier now.
Tavros is a minotar self explanatory he is a small minotar, tho. a mini minotar if u will.
Sollux is ur run of the mill soul for potato chip demon. an excuse to give him twin tails and horns. him an kitkat gave me the most trouble! but then i went with a solkat devil angel motifi and im kinda attached t9 it now. even if its sorta a cop out. i simply couldnt find twin creatures that werent gods or children of gods. nor any crab creatures...
Karkat is an angel. he WAS human notably he was human for awhile even good friends with kanaya before he died. he never found love but helped so many with theres that he became an angel that was a lot like cupid. thus he was a small angel incharge of match making and also likened to a baby and hes very much NOT happy about this. it pisses him off, solluxs often gives him a hard time. about it. (extra angst is that kitkats also really fucked up about never knowing what love felt like but having to give it to others. and he has it in his head that that means he never will know, bc no ones matchmaking the matchmaker. but theres a song he hears everyonece anwhile by a stray harpy that makes him feel a lot lighter.)
Nepeta is my go to cat creature a nekomata. a two tailed cat yokai.
Kanaya is a vampire. obviously.
Terezi is a dragon! still blind! still licks. but can now transform and has wings, very scary. shes basiclly just her lusus lmao.
Vriska is a spider lady. i have arachne here bc its similar, but shes not arachne the myth proper. shes just a spider with the top part of a woman at the head. A Jorogumo a spider lady yokai and is basically actually what im picturing.
Equius is a centar and fuck if i ever have to draw him....
Gamzee is a clowwwn, just a clown, just a silly lil guy. What do you MEAN clowns arnt mythical creatures??? what do u mean u saw him under ur bed when you were a child? u must be mistaken. as a nod to ICPs boogieman. when gamzee is not high as a kite and is just a clown, he is one of the most terrifying and unkillable creatures known to children kind.
Eridan is a selkie. basiclly a mermaid but part seal. personally, I'd like to make him part seahorse. but not in the hippocampus way. i chose this bc he can shapeshift, thus he pretends to be a high elf sorcerer, yes he does get dunked on about this.
And finally, Feferi is a siren! who happens to be able to become very VERY **VERY** BIG. she doesnt lure people to drown them but she DOES love to keep live captives in cages :)
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mako-neexu · 8 months ago
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GODDDDDDDDDDD. mahoyo collab on the guda lore also possessed me because if you think about it. the wording and the text makes it heart breaking.
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"My wish is to open a bakery with the one I love." "My wish is to reach Antarctica."
this is the translation for those two dialogue choices. but in english, its not noticeable as it doesnt have that nuance it can have in jp. because in jp, the first wish above doesn't have the same 'stress' as it does with the second wish. its the difference in kana and hiragana that makes it that the second wish is far stronger than the first one, making it that even though the bakery is a personal one (a special one that they hold close to their heart), however, their duty as Master of Chaldea hold precedence first and foremost.
because thats the one they've been set on for a long time after all. its a clear goal for the current journey but what lies beyond is a different matter altogether.
connecting mahoyo collab to the recent main story chapter makes sense though. as in mahoyo collab, they are able to express how peaceful their nights are in their sleep after so long, and now with a clear head, they're able to think about the future. (the flames - Avengers - that represent the past pushed them forward and towards the star they aspire to reach). however, the end is near for this story and even though they are aiming for a 'game complete', they didnt have enough time to fully be acclimated to it (didnt have time to strengthen their resolve for the first wish) as it is only 'recently' that they are able to look forward again.
moreover, there is still the constant mention of the sealing designation and pursuers that would come after them should the world return normal. goredolf is still there and occasionally reminds the players of guda's inevitable and highly possible fate of a life unrewarded, sealed, and used as a goal to reach what every mage aspires to have in their grasp.
so the first wish is still made despite knowing what lies at the end of their descent down to hell... dazzling, tiny, precious, and 'one of a kind'. so much like a star as it can only remain in the distance. a guiding light in the darkness, a comfort to those with a bleeding heart... a wish as beautiful, but as near unattainable as a dream...
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jonahmagnus · 5 months ago
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I make them transgender. Okay?
Headcannons below the cut ✂️!
Isabeau (he/him): Isabeau wanted to name himself Isaboy because he thought that would be funny (it is) but his mom wouldn't let him legally change his name to that so he chose Isabeau, which is exactly two letters off from Isabel. People still call him Isaboy as a joke, though.
The first person he told was Max, both because xe (Max) is ambiguously transgender in every universe, and because xir dad cracked his egg by showing him that masculinity can be whimsy and joy and not just the hardened role hes been forced to play until now. This realization would probably come after a short but very intense femme phase after whatever happens to his grandpa happens (exorcism hopefully) where he tried to embrace traditional "girly" things and while the freedom was nice he hated it so bad and eventually realized he was just forcing himself into another box. Him and Max are the Buzzcut Brothers during highschool.
Anna (she/they): Anna wanted to name herself Miku, and then remembered that she was white. She decided to name herself after the titular Anna from Fr/ozen, which is lame but its a "fucking Mildred?" situation where her friends are begrudgingly supportive. You can't really see it well, but her hairties are the same magenta as Miku's!!
The realization would come after like... years of repression and thinking that feeling Wrong is a problem unique to her and that Nobody Else Has Ever Felt This Way. The catalyst is an argument with Max over it which xe says "just google it, stupid". She does and then stares haunted at her computer screen and the posters of pretty anime girls up on her walls. How her favorite stories all feature transformation. She probably tells Doorman first, at like midnight, and then frets over her contact list before she calls up Max. Xe comes over grumbling the whole time but still supportive has she sobs her eyes out over this realization and gets snot into xir sweater. Xe makes fun of her name but nicely. And then xe asks if she wants to hear any other diagnosises that Max thinks she has. She says "no thank you I've realized enough for tonight ♡" and she is later diagnosed with autism, ocd, bipolar personality disorder and depression.
Crash (they/them): Crash names themself both after the titiular bandicoot and in honor or Crush, the guy who strangled them the day they realized they where nonbinary. This name is awesome and literally the perfect choice for them, its the perfect amount of absurd to suit them and also a normal enough sounding word that people would do a double take when they introduce themselves.
The first person they tell is honestly? Probably Rj. After a few weeks of Knowing that their... not cis, they track down Rj when their alone and explain the situation to them. Their super supportive, obviously, and extremely excited to have cracked Crash's egg. They are delighted by the name and in honor of the choice Rj takes Crash out to egg some houses with the jang. Crash tells the rest of the jang next, with Johnny being deeply enthused by the same they chose and concinved them to try and let Ollie roll them like a bowling ball. Ollie does so and another beautiful friendship is formed. Stephen solemnly tells them "Im proud a' you Crash, gender is a scam made up by the goverment to track our bathroom usage and its pretty cool that you're sticking it to the man like that". Crash nods equally solemnly in response, appreciating how thats fully just a fucking insane thing to say. They nervously tell Isabeau (who at that point is probably still Isabel) over text the next day, who then hunts them down to squeeze them in a hug.
Max (-/-): Max, of course, looks the same in every timeline. No matter what, they have a buzzcut and their name is Max. Cis girl? Buzzcut. Trans girl? Buzzcut. Trans guy? Buzzcut. Cis guy? Buzzcut. Nonbinary? You're never gonna belive it, but, they have a buzzcut. It/its situation in every timeline too. Doesnt matter the combo. She? She/it. Makes 'shit' puns about it. He/it? He is gonna "he/it" you with his car. They/it? Theres no pun for this one but it'll find a way to make one. It/its classic? Also no pun but it gets a boost to its attack speed so it doesnt really need one.
Max doesnt really come out to anyone. Xe doesnt feel the need to. You dont know its alphabet and you will never learn. If it feels like sharing xe will. If it doesn't, it wont. If you try and make it join a pronoun circle against its will, it will pull the god danm fire alarm. It will tell you its not cis but will not tell you in which way.
"Max, why dont you come join the pronoun circl-" "Spender, if you dont stop trying to get me to share my alphabet, Ill take a "she/it" on your work computer and pull the fire alarm"
[Plain text: "Max, why dont you come join the pronoun circl-"]
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retrospective-d3c-a--y · 7 months ago
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Just like him.
cw: kid whumpee, immortal whump, kidnapping, rape mentions, lab whump, religious undertones (sacrifice/angel/sin talk), suicidal whumpee (no attempts bcz he doesnt think its possible but is happy to die)
It feels like all Orion's ever known was the pain of living. He had been captured at 18, memories before then long gone... Orion was used for sex, tortured till he couldn't breathe. He was called an "angel". They were sure he must've been sent to them to sacrifice for the sin they created. To free them. Their savior..
They thought they had killed the avian-human the first time they finished using him. They shot him in the head as mercy. To thank him for saving them. Blessing them.
Orion woke the next day groaning from the healing pain, every stab and gash slowly closing itself up.. Still in blood curdling pain, but every wound nearly gone, reduced to thin scars and scratches... He must've really looked like an angel to them then; one they couldn't help but see dollar signs in.
Years or maybe centuries later, Orion has been sold, sold, and sold.. and sold again. The prices only got higher, the pain fluctuating but still so horrible. Tested on for "science". For fun. If they thought him to be a savior, why were they treating him like a beast-! Damn the gods they prayed to...
He'd lost himself to it all, giving in. Nothing mattered to him with this quality of life. Even his regeneration was slowing down, as if it was finally giving into his wish to die... for it to all just end...
Until instead of healing himself from the gash on his fore, his disemboweled guts, or even the scratches on his chest, his regeneration seemed to stop. Hours went by.. days... his owners began to think it was broken- that the legendary item had finally given out... Taking DNA samples and leaving it to die...
Orion figured he must be dying, too. Maybe god was real, after all... saving him from this hell. Please, let me die. Its been enough... please, he'd beg to the empty room, pleading to it. He showed all the signs... so much blood loss he couldn't think... his breath shallow and labored.. his mind finally allowing himself to feel oh so tired... his body giving into rest...
But it wasn't his time. Not yet. As Orion blacked out and was so happy he was finally free... out came a small child from his stomach; what would've been a premie baby, if it had been born more regularly. He woke up to her little cooes only an hour later.
She was... beautiful.
Orion couldn't help but feel and instant bond with her... feel a need to protect her. Just like him, she had bronze feathery wings.. little claws for feet.. light brunette hair... her eyes were blue, however. Unlike him, hers reflected the sky she'd never get to see... the ocean so far and so free...
But she cried, as every baby does and would... and he didn't have a choice. He had to hide her, protect her from these people's evils.. If there was even a chance to keep her hidden, even at the expense of more pain... he would. He had to.
So he held her still in his lap... with his talons, he slowly traced the vibrating cords...
Just like him, all she would know was suffering.
He would have to do it again. And again. And again...
He pulled back, tearing up a blanket instead.. gagging her best he could. Wrapping her up. Trying to make his baby go silent. He just had to pray they'd get out of here one day *soon*.... he'd have to be brave.. present. Look for an escape. please world, soon... if not us, her, please...
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lovemyromance · 8 months ago
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The way I see it between elain and lucien is that its not personal. Elain doesnt want a mate at all. But, Lucien just so happens to be her mate and I feel as if its not him shes opposed to, its more of the mating bond which in her eyes doesnt give her much of a choice. She also had a lot taken from her, so I think of her avoiding the bond is because she wants to feel some element of control. Which is why I think shes going for Az. I know az and elain have a connection, but, I really think it's rebellious of her going for az. Correct me if I'm wrong, I really ship elriel. 😭
I also don't think it's personal. But Lucien & "mate" are synonymous terms to Elain. Whether she does not like Lucien because he's her mate or because her mate is him specifically.... doesn't really matter?
Elain doesn't want a mating bond. She doesn't want a mate. She made that clear. You can't separate the idea of Lucien as a partner from the idea of Lucien as a mate at this point because their bond has already been revealed. They are one and the same.
If their bond hadn't been revealed already and Elain had grown to like Lucien naturally somehow, that would've made sense.
If their bond had been revealed and Elain continued to talk to Lucien (not desperately avoid him) and eventually fell for him, that would've also made sense.
But it was not written that way. Their bond came first, and Elain did not even know who Lucien was when it snapped for him. He essentially made a claim on her and she probably did have some degree of resentment. Especially because that event was associated with her also losing her mortality and fiancée.
But to say Elain is only going for Azriel because she wants to rebel and avoid her bond ... is not a logical or accurate statement. If she wanted to avoid the bond, she could've continued to just avoid Lucien without pursuing another. She could've continued to pine over Graysen.
But SJM specifically wrote Elriel scenes. Why bring Azriel into this if Elain was just feeling a little rebellious?
Why not write Elain's "rebellion" as having her sleep around like Nesta did? She is the most beautiful sister, she could have anyone she wanted. Why have her specifically focus on one person, have her buy presents for him, have her give her permission for him to kiss her?
To say Elain is just feeling "rebellious" is likening her to an errant child, once again. She is a perfectly grown woman, capable of making her own decisions. She is out here getting aroused when Azriel touches her neck, and people are still acting like we don't know what she wants.
When the fact is - we do know what Elain wants. People just don't respect that she wants Azriel, or think they know "what's best for her" because they revere a "mating bond" and baby a 300 year old grown man over anything else.
We've always known what Elain wants. And that's love, not a mate.
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violetwitch12087 · 2 years ago
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Could you do the evans reacting to finding out that your pregnant with their child 🤭🤭
UH OF COURSE I CAN THIS IS ACTUALLY A REALLY GOOD IDEA I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS I DID MY BEST
The evans reaction to finding out you're pregnant and its theres
Evan Peters
*you tell him*
IMMEDIATE happiness
Hes shocked and then when you tell him fr a big smile comes across his face and he engulfs you into a hug
Would prob shed some tears or a lot
Kisses you so passionately
Holds you in his arms for HOURS
Tells his parents how happy he is
"evan uhm im pregnant" "wait youre serious?" *Nod* "OMG baby im so happy"
Tate Langdon
Straight panic
Scared he made the anti christ again
Sad because it killed you
You have to comfort him but he just cries and tells you how sorry he is
Honestly maybe would avoid you for a bit bc he hates himself and when he sees you he remembers what he did
After a while when you die and stuff he'll be there for you while you die holding your hand crying and kissing your knuckles
Yall would be fine after but until the apocalypse happens👍
"tate im- im pregnant" "w-what? I- im so sorry its all my fault"
Kit Walka (ik its walker i jst love the way he says it)
Would look down at the test and smile and hug you
"we're gonna have a third little baby here?"
Honestly really, really happy
Kisses you and hugs you swaying side to side
Later on would listen to his favorite music and dance with you before kissing you and putting his hands on your belly
"kit im pregnant" "what?" *Sees test* *big ole smile* "we're gonna have a third little one running around here?" *Nod*
Kyle Spencer (pre death)
Honestly a little concerned/considering it because hes in college and still lives with his mom
Would make it your choice if you want to keep it but if you do we would be there every single step and moment of the way
Honestly after a while of thinking would be so happy to have a little you guys running around
After thinking and accepting it and loving it he would apologize for even considering it and would kiss you and hold you
"kyle i know we're young but i- im pregnant" "wait really?" *Sees test* "i- i dont know what to say i mean i love you i really do and you know that but we're young but if you want to keep it ill be here no matter what baby"
*later on after thinking* "baby im so sorry for everything i said i wanna have a baby with you ive never been happier please forgive me, im so excited to have this journey with you"
How could you say no
Jimmy Darlin (yes ik its darling)
Very very happy
Then his smile starts to fade
Sad because he doesnt want your guy's kid to have his condition
Also sad because his kid is gonna grow up the way he did
You comfort him and tell him its all okay and that you guys wont let anything happen to the kid
Apologies for how he couldnt take you guys out of the freak show and all that jazz
You comfort him and lets jst say like at the end of freak show you and Jimmy live a normal life with your big ole belly and jimmy by your side all the steps of the way
"jimmy omg im pregnant" "really?" *His beautiful smile*
After a bit "im so sorry i couldnt give you and our only kid a normal life i really am" "jimmy i love you we will figure it out and you know we will"
James Patrick March
Genuinely shocked
Didnt even know you and him could have kids since well hes a ghost
But 'miracles' happen
Honestly surprisingly happy to have a little you guy's running around the hotel
"if you need anything i will have someone get it for you my love" he says that and also means that he will have someone that can go outside get you stuff as well
"james im pregnant" "i can procreate?" *Nods* "well, i could never be happier dear"
Kai Anderson
Honestly would probably be nice to you for once like with ally
Happy because there is now a 'messiah'
Wants the kid to lead the cult when he dies
Would be so happy i mean did you see him with ally and their damn kid?
He would start being more gently like he would look at your belly and smile putting his big hand on top of it
I mean he would probably even kiss your head and give you cuddles here and there
I mean how could he not? You're holding the next most precious and important thing in his life or probably the kid is his most precious and important thing
"kai dont get mad but im pregnant, and its yours" *a small smile would come across his face* "really? I honor you as the most loyal in this cult you're holding the next messiah"
Peter Maximoff (wanda vision age)
Honestly shocked
Would be so happy tbh
Would be happy because he would have another probably immature kid that was fast like him
Would probably pull you into a hug and kiss you and would hold you like forever while you guys slept every night
Would go into a frenzy about you needing rest and him stealing your favorite snacks a stuff just to make you happy i mean hes a kleptomaniac
"peter im pregnant" "YES omg were gonna have another speedster here"
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unhingedscreaming · 6 months ago
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Just finished I Saw the TV Glow, and I must say it has quickly become my favorite movie I've ever had the honor to watch.
There's so much beauty in it in so many different ways. It is a compassionate and raw perspective on transness and mental illness and feeling empty and nostalgia and isolation. Not only was the writing excellent my god the acting and the cinematography had me in tears. Some things I loved about the movie.
1. The writing (obviously)
The way this movie is a metaphor for so many different things that seem separate but are all intertwined is breathtaking. Something I found fascinating is at the end I didn't even really sit there trying to decide if it was all a psychotic break or it they really were from a tv show because it didn't matter. Because at the end of the day, it was still about being too afraid to be yourself. About holding it all in until you break. About life moving too fast but being too slow and monotonous. It was about fearing who you are and never taking the dive because it sounds crazy and you can't. It's about regret. It's about soulmates, about that on person who you never have to lie to. In the end, it would still be about those things whether or not there really was a tv show or not.
2. Cinematic Decisions
The filming decisions in this film made it what it was. One of the things I found fascinating was the lack of a true soundtrack. There wasnt particularly a lot of background noise excpet for chatter on the TV. All of the conversations and days are smothered in this thick heavy silence. The silence is so prominent it feels like its own character. The graininess and static making it feel like an actual tv show. The colors, the sickening neon glow from everywhere all the time. The unsteady camera and wide shots.
3. The relationships
While Maddy and Owen are amazing on their own, their relationship is the most compelling part of the story. Both feel alone and broken and like theres something wrong with themselves but not as much around each other. We see Owen isn't really talkative or open with his mom, that he barely says anything at all to her, but with Maddy almost immediately, he feels a connection to her. He seeks her out again and again. Owen doesn't have anything resembling a relationship with anyone else. He barely has dialogue with other characters. In the scene where his dad is holding him under the shower, he doesn't say a word, doesn't even look at him honestly. He says near the end he has a family, but we don't even see them. But with Maddy, he is close to her. They're intertwined, and around each other, they admit truths and secrets it doesnt feel like they've ever said outloud before. Even when Owen is freaked out by Maddy, even when he pushes her away and runs, there's till love there. It's not rejection as much as fear, and maddy doesn't blame him.
4. Parallels and Callbacks
One of the main cinematic choices I found myself noticing over and over again was the colors surrounding Maddy and Owen. in the first scene they sit across from each other as Owen leans against a oink vending machine and maddy a black. Owen has a pink sleeping bag and a pink shirt and a pink dress. Maddy is more often seen in black and white. Some great callbacks are the scene where we find out Owen doesn't have a heart, and Maddy reminds him of the bleavhers where he said he was afraid someone would dig up his insides and find there is nothing there. Seeing the chalk on the road clearly for the first time and it being the ghosts and "there's still time".
My personal favorite scene is the scene where Owen watches the finale, and then his dad comes in to find him with his head on the TV, screaming and crying. To me, this scene is very reminiscent of an attempt. He's finally been pushed to the edge and flung off of it. he's been holding everything in for so long and he can't take it anymore. Its heartbreaking in every way.
All in all this is a fantastic movie I highly recommend. All my love to the writers producers and directors.
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weirdcornerofthemultiverse · 4 months ago
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"i think its quite beautiful how consistent my "frogspawn" is, like it was meticulously designed, but still so much chaos. something kinda funny i thought about is for everyone else making any impactful choice in a way doesnt even matter since you will create a universe where you will do the opposite of whatever you decided to do. But since im the only one of me in my multiverse i actually can do things that will actually effect things, since i cant spawn new branches no matter what i do. -spiral
Clover: maybe it was meticulously designed! It would make sense, with how specifically you’re describing it works, and your unique-ness inside of it. Maybe I’ll run across your writer one day. Maybe I already have
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liveorganism · 7 months ago
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timeloop but there is no definite way out or correct choice. the universe is impartial and not some sentient thing; whether it be error or some random twist of time you end up stuck.
maybe you stay there forever. there is no breaking out; you will die when time itself ceases to be, or at least until your mind does. it just keeps going with new choices and eventually it doesnt really matter anymore and neither do you
or maybe you stay long enough to think it will be forever and do something you thought would have no consequence but that is where the time loop breaks, cruel in the randomness that has thrown your life once on pause careening to pieces
or maybe one day you find the world begins to turn again. you can step forward tentatively, but still you drag with you the weight of a lifetime in what to everyone else was just yesterday
timeloop where it really is just how life is, isnt it? there's no controlling it or winning the game or appealing to some cosmic will, you just have to take it as it comes in all of its contrasting horror and beauty
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adidegmez · 6 months ago
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spn s6 spoilers
I know there are many spelling mistakes in the text. but I wanted to share anyways. If I don't forget, I'll make arrangements tomorrow.
s6 ep1(exile on main st.)
hi dean😁. dean is happy. he is living a normal life. we entered with a happy music. everything will go bad, right? his old habits won't leave him. he is still running into danger. sam and samuel is back that is a good thing but i think bad guys are behind this.
s6 ep2(two and a half men)
i love soft dean. i love him no matter what. he would've made a great father. i still can't trust campbells and sam(a little). lisa understands dean and i love her for this.
s6 ep3(the third man)
btw what happened to the father shapeshifter. I thought they would catch him in this ep. I love teleportation. Dean's reactions to the teleportation are very funny.
s6 ep4(weekend at bobby's)
i love seeing bobby. i missed seeing dean but i really loved this ep. i am glad bobby got out.
s6 ep5(live free or twihard)
sam let the vampire turn dean into a vampire. why sam? he litterally watched it. sam isn't sam. he is different. he let his brother turn into a monster. idc if there is a cure what if he drank blood dean wouldn't drink i know he would rather die than drink. which he did. but how could sam do that. dean could never be a monster. even if no one stops him he'll stop himself. i am glad dean learned what sam did. he doesnt know why he did it neither do we but its good that he knows he cant trust him. no dean you can't trust sammy. he isn not the sam we know and love. either he changed or he is not the real sam. either way he is not the person he used to be and we cannot trust him. and sam and samuels deals are different. samuel hid djin from winchesters. and samuel doesnt know whats up with sam. It may have been the same person who brought them back, but I think something different must've happened afterwards.
s6 ep6(you can't handle the truth)
dean couldn't handle the truth. did sam deserved the beating i dont know. he is different but even if he cant feel anything i think he must know what is wrong and what is right. he really let dean be a monster. i dont know how he can redeem himself. i hope he can, really. but i dont know how he can after all af this. and what is sam if he is not human? the goddess of truth couldn't have lied.
s6 ep7(family matters)
what do you mean his soul is gone cas? Sam is lying, again. i know he cant feel but he must know the difference in right and wrong. i love crowley some times but most of the time i want him dead.
s6 ep8(all dogs go to heaven)
sam really doesn't has a soul. he makes logical choices. but they need emotions sometimes.🤷🏻‍♀
s6 ep9(clap your hands if you believe…)
aliens, huh? is gabriel back? funny ep. i love dean's reactions. and i love sam trying to understand emotions. at least he is trying.
s6 ep10(caged heat)
when i learned about cas on the internet i thought we'd see him often in the show. but he is rarely on the show. i hope we'll see him more he is so funny. i am not sure if sam should have his soul back either. i dont think crowley is really dead. he'll come back.
s6 ep11(appointment in samarra)
sam's gone too far. he tried to kill bobby. i hope this sam will be gone for good and we can have old sam back.
s6 ep12(like a virgin)
sam might be back. it's nice to see sam care. i missed him. soulless sam wasn't sam. and i can see itin his face. the way he looked. i love jared padalecki. mother? is she Echidna from greek myth(percy jackson😁). might be🤷🏻‍♀.
s6 ep13(unforgiven)
i really missed caring sam.
s6 ep14(mannequin:3 the reckoning)
i really liked lisa and dean. and ben of course their little family was beautiful. i think dean was genuinly happy with them. i now believe sammy when he says he's got dean's back and so does dean.
s6 ep15(the french mistake)
i love balthazar. omg i didnt know this would be the ep where they go to the real world or something like that. i thought that was in later seasons. im so excited. this ep is amazing. what is wrong with the angels? they have no difference from the demons.
s6 ep16(…and then there were none)
rufus and bobby might be my favorite hunter duo after winchesters. i was really angry with sam and i didnt know if i could love him the way i did before all the bad things happened but after soulless sam i really missed old sam and i love how he cares about dean i love how he would kill anyone for dean and i love he is back. he did some bad thing but he always tried to save the world and dean. and i love him. and i really hated soulless sam. but i am glad we got soulless sam for a little while thanks to him i still love him the way i did before all the demon thing. rip rufus.
s6 ep17(my heart will go on)
ellen and jo are alive. ellen and bobby are married! they don't know about titanic. this must be a parellel universe. and i liked this universe already. [KAZ 2Y5] is back. impala is gone.
s6 ep18(frontierland)
somethings are really wrong with angels. dean can pull off any look. cas is scaring me, little bit.
s6 ep19(mommy dearest)
Jefferson starships i love dean's face when he says that. dean, you are a genious. i hope eve is really dead(probably not). cas and crowley, huh? they make a good team i guess. but this will make dean mad.
s6 ep20(the man who would be king)
cas looked at us, right? castiel brought back sam and he lied. dean will be devastaded. dean really trusts him. i would've trusted him too. dean has a point. but i saw what he did. cas lied to their faces. crowley manipulated cas. every bad thing ha ppining in spn is because of manipulative demons. first ruby then crowley. And yet a father abandons his child.
s6 ep21(let it bleed)
i knew balthazar would help. dean sad again. i wish he could just live with lisa and ben.
s6 ep22(the man who knew too much)
how could cas do that to sam? balthazar was right. he didnt have to help but he did anyways, is a good angel. cas is really changed. he broke the deal. even demons wouldnt break deals. cas why did you kill balthazar? he was just trying to help dean. you've got to be kidding me. angels and demons they always ruin everything. i really thought cas wouldnt go this far. but he did. i know some spoilers but i am not sure what they mean but cas must go back to normal. I know he will make peace with the Winchesters. hopefully soon.
i would watch new season now but i just slept 4 hours this morning so i have to sleep. I'll watch new season in the morning.
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local-magpie · 20 hours ago
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idk man i just think theres something beautiful about a game being written to focus on exploring a specific theme even if it means pissing off players. the moment i realized veilguard was about grief was the moment everything came together for me, including things that had frustrated me. if anything, i almost feel they should have committed to certain things being bigger choices; tho i get why they didn't, i get the vibe that they really wanted this to be a game you could play through once without feeling like you missed out on anything significant (esp since you can 100% the achievements in one run)
heavy spoilers for everything except the companion questlines (bc i didnt know how to fit them in, though theyre also all extremely thematic) under the cut bc i like to yammer
- your very first mission, and you have to choose which of your only two companions gets injured. every time you see their face for the rest of the first act, you will be reminded of what you've done. you are not allowed to be indifferent.
- your first introduction to the blight is by accident. this shouldn't be here, or like this. it is here and it is like this anyways. you can't save anyone, except for the one who let it happen. you can kill him - but that doesn't fix anything. did it make you feel better to lash out? more in control? you can save him - but does that help anything? does it change all of the blood left in the town square? does it matter what you do, if they're still dead?
- you need an assassin. you return a dead man to his life, only for his mother, who sent you to save him, to be dead when you return. your assassin is no longer the same man as before; even a false death changes you irreparably. something is always lost, whether he's willing to admit it to himself or not.
- you try to gather allies. you find a monster hunter. he loses everything he has except for his home (he'll lose that later) and a hatchling with the hopes of thedas on its feathered shoulders. he doesnt have time to grieve his friends, he has too many people and hatchlings he can't let down.
- you are given an impossible choice with no warning. it is unfair - but how often do tragedies warn you before arriving? if they were fair, would they still be tragedies? you try to save them both, but you're too late. one city has been saved, while the other slowly dies before your eyes. it isn't dead yet, but you can't save it. you search for your allies, but you failed them the moment you chose wrong - you're too late. always too late. death chases your heels these days.
- you cannot stop here. you carry on, gathering your allies; a man who speaks to the dead and a woman trapped by expectations. you travel the fade, and spirits wear the memories and wares of the allies you failed. the friend you failed returns to you, permanently changed because of your choice. you understand you will have to do better - be better.
- you meet the inquisitor. once powerful enough to threaten two of the largest countries in thedas, they are powerless to help you in your time of need, unable to offer you any assistance cleaning up the mess their former companion has left behind. it is all they can do to keep the south from collapsing; you keep in touch, for the bad news.
- you learn of the dread wolf's past and hunt for his regrets. you speak to him in your dreams. you are uncomfortably alike - trapped within roles and expectations, unable to set down your burdens with no one willing to accept them in your stead. he is reviled, fueled by regret; trying to atone for old mistakes with new ones. will you be any different, when this story ends? does it matter, when there is still work to be done?
- you find mythal; the ghost of a ghost of the dread wolf's lover, the fragment leftover from her first death (before he killed her again). you must convince a dead woman to die again for you. you either succeed, or you kill her again and take it anyways. this is the only way to make things right in the end.
- the first warden cannot be reasoned with; he recalls all wardens to weisshaupt, blinded to his folly by the taint in his blood. you were only trying to help - you tried so hard to help. it wasn't enough. weisshaupt is gone. the wardens are dead; thedas will never be the same. what few are left will have to be good enough.
- an archdemon is dead. your warden should have died for the victory - any warden should have died. too many are dead, and none for the right reason. why is he alive? what should he live for, when his life was meant to be burned up for this moment? how do you find a new life purpose when your first is no longer needed?
- the impossible choice you made has returned to haunt you, but this time in a form that can be killed. you gather your allies and kill not one, but two dragons - and then your foes appear and turn your victory into a slaughter. they say you won the day, and perhaps you did... but when do you stop counting the dead?
- the elves of arlathan are in danger. you have to save them - you need to be able to save someone. this time you manage to make it in time - this time you save them all. maybe there is more to your story than sorrow. all you need to do is stop the ritual - you have time.
- you're too late to stop the ritual; you never had time. no more preparations - you must work with what you have now. life does not wait for you to be ready for it.
- you must choose someone to die for you. you may not know it when you choose - but that doesn't matter. they die anyways to grant you your first victory. you don't know yet if you've killed one or two of your friends today.
- your mentor and friend is dead. he's been dead this whole time, you simply could not admit your deepest regret to yourself - that you couldn't stop him when it mattered. the one person you needed to save the most, and he's nothing but a memory. you couldn't save him.
- you remember why you're doing this. you remember that you're doing your best with what you have, and that there is more work to be done. no matter what it feels like now - this is not the end. your friends pull you out of your prison of grief and regret.
- it is time to set everything to rest. you must put your trust in your friends to take care of themselves, and push onwards to confront your last enemy and the dread wolf. together, you put the last nightmare to rest.
- it is time to decide. one of you must die to save everything - you can do this the hard way, or the easy way, or with trickery. only you can decide how this story ends - but it will end. there is always an ending.
- every ending is a new beginning - your friends begin to write their own futures, new stories yet to be told. no matter how dark the night, the morning always comes.
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gay-david-tennant · 1 year ago
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No don't apologize for the Stucky stuff! I only watched Endgame once in the cinema because it pissed me off so much.
And I just did it again expecting to maybe be a little more forgiving. But NO I am still pissed off mainly because of this part...
same for me! watched endgame once and it pissed me off sooo much. im not sure whether i watched it ever again but im sure that in the future i definitely wont! and y'know for me its not even about shipping them (tho i do somewhat in the sense of i love their dynamic and want to see more of it no matter whether platonic, queerplatonic (or romantic)). but in the movies it is shown that there is no one more important to steve than bucky (man didnt want to fight against him although he was brainwashed and ready to kill him) and bucky literally broke 70 years of mind control for steve (and you dont just establish such a beautiful line as 'til the end of the line' in one movie and then betray that sentiment). they literally love each other! but for some reason people cant fathom platonic love (which it is in canon) greater than romantic love so they think if given the choice steve would go back to peggy. which is the direct opposite of what the three captain america movies showed us! he moves on! he learns she had a happy life, he goes to her funeral for fs sake! he kisses her niece (also dumb ass move of the directors guess they thought it would make people stop shipping stucky or whatever, hate that they basically just included sharon for love interest reasons). and in endgame hes been in the present for about 11 years! thats double the time he knew peggy in the 40s. and he. moves. on. (sorry it annoys me that they just ignored the whole character development). also the same goes for peggy. while she still was pretty one-dimensional love interest like in the movies, the series about her finally did something with her besides being the woman captain america likes. and she also. moved. on! and then they just erased all that, booted the series out of canon and just made her a cardboard-cut love interest again! ugh. also someone please tell me how it makes sense that Steve Rogers, the man that searched 2 years for Bucky without knowing whether hed find him and who fought out a civil war (at least partially) for him, would just sit around in the 50s while knowing that bucky was being tortured by hydra right now. he just wouldnt. thats so completely out of character i wanna scream! oh god this is long. anyway once again:
STEVE AND BUCKY'S LOVE FOR EACH OTHER IS CANON! AND JUST BECAUSE STEVE LOVED (yes ill say loved see 'he moved on') PEGGY ROMANTICALLY THAT DOESNT MEAN ITS MORE IMPORTANT OR GREATER THAN HIS LOVE FOR BUCKY. SAME GOES FOR IF HE STILL LOVED HER! THIS IS TRUE IN REAL LIFE TOO! PLATONIC LOVE IS NOT AUTOMATICALLY LESSER THAN ROMANTIC LOVE! THIS ALSO MEANS THAT 'THERES NO OTHER EXPLANATION THAN ROMANCE FOR STUCKY IS ALSO WRONG'. YES YOU CAN HEADCANON THEM AS ROMANTIC BUT IT IS NOT THE ONLY EXPLANATION.
and yes im aware that even with steve staying in the present, steve and bucky's relationship would still have been sidelined in favour of a romantic, straight (its marvel what are we expecting) one. i guess thats what i mean when i say im shipping them. they are made for each other ('its difficult to find someone with shared life experience' -> bucky shows up, god i love this) and their relationship is one of the most important in their lifes (if not the most) and relationships with other people (romantic, platonic, queerplatonic or other) would not change anything about that. but marvel (and lets be real the people watching) dont see this. so i have something to rant about for days :)
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morastfrck · 1 year ago
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Imagine if infamous delsin and corrupt Reggie
Reggie being a corrupt cop
And delsin a bio-terrorist
In the infamous route, and both of them are vicious
omfg anon
that would be sick af
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but i mean, reg is already not doing half of his job by letting delsin run around and do literally everything he does
and i suppose since they have good relationship between each other, reggie never gave him any real punishment. even for graffiti before the whole conduit thing, bc i doubt that they would still be good bros after 1 year in jail, a massive fine, or whatever else punishments could apply to delsin
(trespassing, vandalism, possibly some other small crimes before the main story)
(well and straight up murder and terrorism later on)
also like, wouldnt it ruin regs career as well? delsin once mentions that reggie “pays the bills” and i suppose supporting a brother, who commited graffiti related crimes multiple times (even after the hypotetical legal punishment) would count as being associated with him (guess who pays for spraypaint if delsin is unemployed)
i dont really know about the law implications of such cases in the us but i doubt that reg would be able to move up the career ladder and become a sheriff without covering up majority of delsin’s crimes
+reg is legit worried about delsin and cares for him, so that might have stopped him from taking legal actions (that would result in del getting a crime record that could wrong him in that beautiful imaginary future of a lawful sitizen that reg wants for his brother)
so what i suppose happens is that he arrests delsin, scolds him, maybe makes him sit in the police station cell for a few days and thats it. No official records or anything.
also the fact that reg says that he is proud of delsin before his death in any karma route is remarkable, and i feel like he really means it.
The thing about his morals is how ready he was to leave and quit everything throughout the story just for delsin’s safety. In the beginning, when he was doubtful of the whole idea of going against augustine and taking her power (in his mind he apparently already buried their tribe and wasnt going to let his brother die too)
and later on, when delsin thought that he lost his powers. Reg was immideately happy for him and ready to go home. And i feel like the way he is ready to basically sacrifice their only chance for saving their family for delsin connects well with him loving and supporting delsin no matter what he does.
They are the only really close ones left for each other, and this fact really seems to impact reggie’s morals and choices.
and what i mean by all of that is that if reggie lived, he would probably stay beside delsin anyway, even in bad karma. He would find new and new excuses to forgive him anything he would do. (up to some breaking point probably, but still)
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and, if we are talking [your] corrupt cop reggie, he wouldnt even have to make excuses. I imagine he doesnt even care, as long as its delsin. His bro can do whatever he wants and reg will use his legal power to make sure he wont get into trouble.
I suppose that in this scenario none of them would give much fuck about other conduits (similarly to how bad karma delsin puts himself above eugene and fetch, and how he only sees other conduits as free powers)
imagine delsin and fetch terrorising another group of anti-conduit protestants, and they call the police only for reggie to accuse them of uncoordinated rally or smth
also i feel like this is one of those scenarios where rowecest could work (if anyone is into that). Since they both would totally lack any morals (and i guess respect for other people lmao)
In canon, reggie was against conduits at first, but made an exception for delsin (the same way he did it with any other crime, like being agains all vandals, except for delsin, who got a free pass as his brother)
Corrupt cop reggie could behave similarly in the sense that he would make an excuse for himself and del. While all other criminals deserve the punishment, they are fine. How beautifully hypocritical of him would that be.
oh and yk this trope in mafia movies and such, where one of the family members is in the law enforcement, and half of the story we think that he hates the family (and vice versa) but then its revealed that he is still the same part of it all, and all the hate is no more then public facade. I believe that something similar could happen (as delsin’s actions would have to impact reggie’s reputation)
corrupt reggie would definetely make public statements about how he rejects his bioterrorist brother (and uh huh coincedentally would never fulfill his promices of doing at least something about the problem) to keep said reputation.
Also i feel like they would still talk in banter, but instead of bringing up the moral aspects, reggie would scold delsin for the way he is not careful enough, that reg cannot save him from everything and that he needs to be less reckless. (still insufferable lmao)
all of this could happen, if from the very beginning reggie had around the same morals as delsin. Either he became a cop to protect his brother and the tribe, or any other reason, seeing the structure from the inside would make him believe, that yeah, his mindset is completely normal
(maybe as a more responsible one he decided that work in the police would be beneficial for them as he would be able to keep delsin out of trouble)
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