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clown-college-honor-roll · 2 years ago
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For MTF Reddit Refugees
Unlike Reddit, Tumblr has a majority transmasc trans user base as opposed to Reddit's MTF majority. So PLEASE don't leave negative or hateful messages on transmasc posts, this isn't Reddit so you will be called out. Just block transmasc tags and move on.
As someone who deleted Reddit because of the lack of transmasc content and positivity towards what content we had, do not shit in the hallways of our one house. Yes, I know that not all transfem Redditors do this I'm just talking about the ones that do.
JUST BLOCK TRANSMASC TAGS IF YOU DON'T WANT TO SEE IT
thank you.
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bitchliteraria1906 · 5 months ago
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Trying to write about how Kyoko and Homura being religious affects their characters but I'm not smart enough to make it coherent.
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kunoiashifts · 17 days ago
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i love when i get into embarrassing situations and i just either revise or say nothing matters bc im gonna shift anyways BECAUSE I CANNOTTT LET MYSELF DWELL ON ITTTTTTTT AAAAAAA
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little-red-fool · 2 years ago
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Currently thinking about Raphael’s potential to love. Considering how self-obsessed and conceited he is, it seems very clear that he loves himself a lot, or that it at least seems that way, and whilst Haarlep tells you that Raphael only wants to sleep with himself and when you cast Speak With Dead on them that “Raphael loves only Raphael”, I’ve mentioned before that it’s possible that one of the reasons Raphael seems so narcissistic is due to his species and backstory, with Cambions being completely disregarded and thought of as a lesser species in the Hells and often killed when they’re young due to other fiends bullying them, and with him being Mephistopheles’s son he’d have to live up to such great expectations whilst his father keeps him at arm’s length and is untrusting of him (such as “gifting” him Haarlep to keep him under control), he probably feels very unloved and inadequate and he’s trying to fill that emptiness, but I think that if he realises that someone else actually loves him unconditionally then he’d be a lot more open and loving in return because for once he would be able to let someone else love himself instead, and in turn he’d be able to love them back since he’s not focusing on himself.
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bogkeep · 8 months ago
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out of curiosity more than anything is there any specificity in the fish Norway wants you to eat, freshwater fish, seafood fish, is it an industry thing, or is it just a Norwegians are all heading towards rickets thing
the norwegian fish industry is largely sea based, which makes sense considering this country is 90% coast, and salmon is one of our big exports (and also the reason salmon sushi is a thing! salmon on sushi is not traditionally japanese). the fish youre encouraged to eat are fish with healthy fats and omega 3, and i think salmon and cod are like. the two main fish you can get. fish has always been a Big Thing in norway culturally, seeing as it's probably one of the most reliable local food sources in a place that's this much coast this far north. one of the traditional christmas meals in norway is halibut.
my impression that it's always been a Health thing because norwegians are chronically low on vitamin D and other consequences of living this far north haha. we're also encouraged to drink fish oil (tran) or take omega 3 supplements. i'm actually not sure if there's vitamin D in fish? (i know they add vitamin D to low fat milk - norwegians also drink So Much Milk. there's not a lot of milk propaganda though. you don't need to propagandize milk here. edit: there's milk propaganda too)
i also want to say that the most entitled and unpleasant people i've met have been fish industry people. when i worked at the hotel i had so many unpleasant interactions - drunk fisherman on the phone telling me he was super rich and trying to bribe me for sex workers, fisherman telling the receptionists he's serving his country and working a real job unlike us (and then leaving a box of fish in the reception, demanding that we put it in the breakfast fridge even though it would go against health and safety regulations), and of course the dreaded Annual Fishery Convention or whatever it is when all the hotels in town are full of chauvinists getting drunk every night. what the fuck is going on on those boats
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lokh · 1 month ago
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if you tell me we have to do some kind of chore or errand and then near the end of it suddenly drop that we have to do even more of course im going to be pissed off
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ef-1 · 1 year ago
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#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day#like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again#and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her#I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her#and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again#“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her#growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain#and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when#people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it#but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one#and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her#lol!!!!!!!!!
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clumsypuppy · 2 years ago
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if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified
#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing#i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though#at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself#as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed#escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date#although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL#ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting#workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety#i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back#AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO#im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts#i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem#in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material#and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school#maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess#only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard#hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms#i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work#not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall#anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh#yapping
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jun1ebu6 · 1 year ago
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Ryoji Hc time!! 💥💥💥
What if Ryoji has a REALLY hard time falling asleep? Like specifically alone. Like any time he tries to sleep, he gets a pit in his stomach when he realizes the fact that theres just. Nobody present with/around him atm.
So during sleepovers with SEES at the dorm maybe, if he’s so unfortunate that he doesn’t go to sleep before everyone else does, if he’s the last one awake. He gets really anxious. He knows that there are people all around him. But they aren’t present, and (for the most part) don’t acknowledge his existence. The remedy for this is that he ends up just cuddling with Makoto/Kotone (or anyone else) if they allow him. Just so he knows that, even if he feels alone in the dark, there is someone right by his side.
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inkats · 1 day ago
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my boy-coded behaviour for most my life makes my exploration of gender due to newfound freedom era lean more into feminine things but my anti-capitalist feminist value system makes this feel like a betrayal of my moral code.
#like. i wanna try makeup . but the money the beauty industry will funnel from me to possibly give me new insecurities ? ewww#and do i want to try makeup for fun or is it the patriarchy ? is it the i need to start maintaining a reputation. working to employment#and the prettier the better ☝️ or am i just like hehe i like sparkly cutesy im cutesy patootsie <3#or am i unfortunately falling victim to i like a boy.. a vain boy.. so im getting. vain 😔 as well.#also possible that the absorption into highschool popular friendgroup has turned me 😔 into a loser. they stole my thinking skills#or even . ive fallen victim to the capitalist society i live in due to finally hitting Exhaustion Threshold due to uni and social commitmen#like i think ive gotten ok w shit i shouldnt be ok w#why are yall saying the shit yall saying actually. dont say sped or skid in front of me why am i letting u do that.#also why the fuck do u think its ok for u to call ppl autistic insultingly and then also call me autistic like i cant . see the fucking lin#hm? the fuck ? like maybe the reason i rebut the autism accusations from u isnt cuz i dont think im autistic its cuz through experience#u seem to think that makes one lesser. i dont want to be lesser ! fuck u ?#i know it is not meant this way but god. some ppl. like think just a little bf u speak babe.#sry this started one way then went another i feel my moral compass weakening and im scareddddd#its hard being kind and loving when no one is kind and loving. and then they make fun of ppl who are trying to be kind and loving.#and u r just a guy. ur just a guy in the world and u want to fit in and be loved so. what do u do 😔😔#be firmer in my moral beliefs bro has consistently said he realized other ppl could be smart and interesting after meeting me#and has sat and listened when i gave my sociological perspective on shit whenever i felt i could#and has changed behaviour bc of it#girl. girl. smtimes literally just say what u think.#though sometimes i hear ppl say shit#and i realize i have only been in progressive spaces and ppl my age say that shit !? am just kind of stunlocked for a minute. like.#ew. anyway. ppl keep telling me i just need to tell him that when he says that shit it makes me uncomfortable (pisses me off tbh.)#cuz he. clearly fuckin. likes me and cares about my opinions on such matters. ill get around to it GOD let me be cowardly for once.#also i need to get an idea on why men who Love women and Hate men piss me off.#cuz he has said shit and i have told him that feels Wrong but i dont know why. my intuition hates it#and its just him going like wow its so awesome when women are like. >= men ? isnt that. great <3#and like. i guess. nothing ur saying is wrong and i know u and u have. good intent here u just hate ur dad core but. hm.#i feel it stems from a feeling of gender essentialism in it ?#like its an exception. for a women to be. better than a man at something.#why do women exist in comparison to men ? why is it impressive when a women does a 'traditionally male' thing ?
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gay-artificer · 1 year ago
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I've seen people be like downpour ruined how people see five pebbles and im gonna be honest if you were here for any number of years pre-downpour the fandom was always god-awful with the nuance in his character. thats not a downpour thing thats a fandom thing
#niche comparison but if any of you know angela from lobotomy corporation/library of ruina#in the years prior to LOR angela was probably one of the most demonized characters ive ever seen in my goddamn LIFE#NO ONE was going to bat for this girl as anything other than a absolute villain and bitch#i was and im sure some others were too but the vast vast majority fucking hated her#because she spends most of the game being mean to you and then betrays you at the end#and you had to read between the lines to get to “wait a minute whats happening to her is kinda immensely fucked up”#and this is someone betraying you at the end of a very /very/ hard game to 100% and beat proper#then LOR came out and fully explored the depths of her trauma and anger at the situation she was put into#how desperate she was too take something for herself and how little she cared about how the effected others because she was not given that#and suddenly it clicked for everyone!#suddenly she wasnt a heartless bitch anymore! but of course now you had the#'literal infant' crowd because it also explored some ideas of parental trauma/lack of experience with the world#but god it was way more refreshing to see people actually move on from 'theyre an evil bitch' even if it came with 'so shes like a kid?'#and i feel that way about pebbles tbh#i dont get super super into the iterator lore so i cant speak much for the quality across downpour#and its higher focus on them and their stuff#im sure it carries plenty of issues as many things will#but god people sucking at reading the room on the iterators is not new lmao#actually five pebbles and angela are shockingly similar....#huh?
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definitelynotshouting · 1 year ago
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Can I ask, since you mentioned agreeing 'even if under duress' - how did the Watchers convince Player Grian to join them in hunger au?
So take this with the specific grain of salt that ive never watched Evo directly (but have friends who have ((thank you wren)), so i know tidbits via osmosis from them), but my thought has always been that the riddles the Watchers gave the Evo Players were all tests used to measure cleverness and intelligence-- the whole point of them attempting to copy the mind of a Player into a Watcher larva in the first place was to try and avoid the insanely high infant mortality rate their typical juveniles go through, bc they dont understand their own limits enough to even know they have them yet. So they needed a Player they knew they could instruct and who would listen to them, and, well. Grian, for all he was rebellious and outright defiant of the Watchers, still solved their puzzles and only had to be punished once before he stopped trying to mess with them
What ive always pictured is after the dragon fight the two main elders of the Watcher colony finally revealed themselves to Grian properly-- i have this crystal clear image of the two of them hovering above and next to the central end island, looming over Grian, and like, these guys are big. HUGE. A good 5x bigger than the ender dragon itself, at LEAST. It would be hard not to feel insanely intimidated by that, honestly, especially when there are two of them side by side, blocking your entire view of the End from that direction.
Anyway picture that with the context of these two giant floating winged worms youve never seen before, who have demonstrated their powerful ability to manipulate code in a way you cant.... telling you that they have chosen you to become one of them. Thats an immense amount of pressure, both from flattery and fear, especially considering theyve punished you before for defying them. I like to think even then, Grian balked a bit, and while i dont have exact dialogue beats here, i know the Watchers continued putting that pressure on him (likely while leveraging his friendships too-- like ive always said, if Grian hadnt been chosen, BigB wouldve been, and i can absolutely see the Watchers offering to take him in Grian's stead) until he finally caved and accepted their "offer" of joining them.
Unfortunately, he didnt find out exactly what that entailed until it was far too late.
#shouting speaks#asks#hunger au#evo watchers#watcher!grian#grian#evo smp#tldr they pressured tf out of him to do it#through both flattery and also leveraging his own fear against him#he was a Player after all. they were likely bumping his mood post-dragon fight to make him more suggestible#the most painful thing abt this to me is that the Watchers still werent being deliberately malicious here like#with the way they viewed Players this was NORMAL to them#they just. didnt rlly consider them as much more than food/hosts for their young. in their eyes the Watcher that emerged was different#than the Player it had hatched from#even though it had Grian's mind memories personality and stats#every day i feel shrimp emotions abt this#the horror he went through..... and they never once thought of it as torture#they never once regarded Player!Grian as something that needed to know what was going to happen to him#bc it was normalized to them. yeah sure Watcher juveniles hatch from Player hosts thats NORMAL thats part of their life cycle!!!#the only new thing is this one would still retain the Player's mind#it was a fucked up science experiment basically and grian wasnt told ANYTHING before it actually happened to him#sobs and cries ohhh grian i fucked you up SO BAD huh#also huge shoutout to my friend wren for giving me a little context while i wrote this and confirming my ideas slotted in#rlly well with existing canon. character understander status continues to stay intact im winning#txt
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inkybinkyboink · 1 year ago
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'are they gay?' but it's lockstock and barrel
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storytellering · 8 months ago
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I have a friend who isnt like... super outspoken anti but defin holds their beliefs. DMC is their FAVORITE game series and it's consistently SO weird to me how they are able to ignore/deny the incestuousness of it all. Quote "It's WEIRD how incest is so common in this fandom, it's GROSS, nobody understands their relationship (talking abt d and v) like i do lmao". Like???? What are you gettiing at? Them saying they "understand" the brother's relationship honestly makes me kind of worried abt what they consider normal...
Yeaahhh, honestly sounds like either good old fashioned delusion or like they're making up a different canon in their head to support their interpretation/beliefs. And while that's not necessarily bad on its own, when you lose sight of what you've made up as your own hc and what's actually there and start attacking others for interacting with the source material as is, well, obviously that's not ok lol. Hope you can distance yourself from them anon, trying to keep "friends" like that is often way more trouble than it's worth.
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eruukat · 9 months ago
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feeling many things rn. terrified abt a lot of life changes like switching majors and needing a new job and transportation changes and even stupid little stuff like fixing my hair or avoiding the roach thats hiding out under my bed. and then below all that is this simmering pot of butterflies about my partner. i knew our prev date was going to stir up a lot of feelings but im so. !!!!!!! idk if t4t love is just that insane and intense or if im just really really clicking with him but he might have the most beautiful smile ive ever seen. hes literally radiant and i think hes the first person to ever give me butterflies and after last date somethings *changed* and theyre like. still butterflies but different somehow. i dont know what im ready for but i think about him and his smile and i can imagine myself actually truly falling in love even though its just infatuation rn. but in the past imagining that felt more distant and i guess i didnt know what it would look like for me, but now i feel like i have an inkling or a possibility. i cant wait to see him again and hold him in my arms
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shepcdr · 22 days ago
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thinks about men like john shepard and kaidan alenko and gibraltar apex legends. thinks about how yishai is always at first wary and then jumps to being absolutely entranced by them. by men who exude goodness and kindness and non-judgement. the large majority of the men in his life (esp those of authority) were concerned with control and power and with moulding him into a tool and a weapon of mass destruction (and they succeeded).
to be looked at by a man who doesn't see a project, a thing, a means to an end, or something to ultimately destroy. to be looked at as a human being that isn't undeserving of compassion. it drives him insane. he looks at them and is like. i am just a candle with the barest of living flame and i am in the presence of the Sun
(yes i hc'd c.rypt.o when I wrote him as having a huge crush on gibraltar. and why shouldn't I do the same with sheps apex verse... why shouldn't gibraltar's kindness work under sheps tough skin and begin making him feel like maybe he Is capable of feeling things that aren't distrust and bitterness and anger again)
(and yes in other words I'm once again thinking about Yishai in a squadmate context serving under commander john shepard [paragon edition] and becoming thoroughly enamoured)
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