#im sorry that was kinda out of nowhere

[awriternamedart]

tldr i want to strangle sampo koski

there will never be a character that will be more infuriating for me to write then Sampo Koski because we know fucking nothing about him outside of him being a masked fool.

His character stories are almost entirely unhelpful for direct motive. His dialog feels oily and to at ease to be genuine. every fucking interaction you have with him screams DO NOT TRUST A WORD THIS MAN SAYS to the point it SAYS THAT DIRECTLY.

Every detail weve seen of him is superficial. A facet of his personality that seems interesting but yields nothing. Everything we know is gleened from the Masked Fools and how they act as a whole, and most of that is from Sim Uni.

his name might not even be sampo fo0r all we know !!

Hes shrouded in a mist of mystery that feels so perfect, to perfect to be real. Hes a walking deflection who runs and hides and prods and watches and manipulates the dominos to fall just right.

We dont even know why hes in belobog for gods sake we know NOTHING

WE DONT EVEN GET CHARACTER INTERACTIONS TO INFER FROM EITHER

At most we get dialog ABOUT him , but the most we seem him interact with other playables in game is literally once when he asks if Gepards around (and he doesnt even stick around to talk to him), when hes leading the gang to svarogs , and another where he summons natasha to aide in the fight againsr svarog and from that alone we only ever see him interaft with 1. us , 2. the trailblazers, and 3, seele. Everything else? off screen or indirect

I absolutely love him as a character but GOD do i struggle to write him. Motivation is a key part in writing and plot development so to not know what sampos is outside of superficial inferences is frustating beyond belief because I have to make one up and i dont wanna be disingeniunous to the character. Literally the only thing guiding me rn is that hes on the path of Nihility

so much personality and quirks for me to work with and so little motivation to attatch it to

i should probably also note that this is entirely positive i love the challenge BANDNSR i just wanted to rant about the difficulty of gauging his reactions to events

[gunstellations]

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[dukeofthomas]

I can't find it now but there's a post about suspension of disbelief and how it's broken when the story starts trying to excuse it. "character gets knocked unconscious for hours but there's no further issues from this" okay 👍 "and actually this makes perfect sense because of this and that" um no it doesn't why are you lying to me. like i am willing to ignore the holes and the discrepancies!! all you need to do is let me and not bring unnecessary attention to it!!!

and all that is my issue with the whole robin child soldier argument. like i am willing to ignore it i am willing to engage with the fantasy literally all you need to do is NOT try to convince me that Actually It's Fine Because They Want To Do It or whatever. like literally just shut up about it and i can engage with the fantasy!!

[eeveekitti]

ok i gave in

[solplease]

groggy

[soobvape]

i need brownies so fucking bad rn

[berrysquared]

May I ask for lore from your superhero au?

Love your art style btw! *^-^*

AHH THANK YOU SO MUCH !! This means so much to me truly ahhhh 💕

A lot of lore for the au is still in bits and pieces beacuse uni decided to kinda hit me like a truck this semester :’) im sorry about that

With my hotguy au the only rule I set for myself is that I’m fully following the guidelines for characters set by Scar on that one stream he did. So each role is (kinda) exactly what he wanted it to be (even if it meant making jellie an actual mayor and trying to make that work) and Im just trying my best to actually pull it together into one big au that is 90% just very silly and 10% angst backstories. I will be adding some characters which weren’t in the list tho! Like Scott (who for now is a starlord alien pirate who travels with Cleo on her space piracy adventures) and Joel (idk what he will do yet but hes gonna be there)

As for specific lore that hasn’t been out in the world yet, i can give you some of grians backstory I came up with help from the one, the only @1captainjordan4 my beloved 💕

(As I was writing this i kinda realised that this got really long im sorry, i will put it under keep reading ;-; also im not the best at writing stuff out so excuse that)

In this au Grian and Pearl are siblings who have been orphaned and have been living as street rats all their childhood. They have become accustomed to stealing and fighting (and got kinda good at it) from a very early age and steadily have been falling more and more into criminal circles.

During that time Grian got approached by the Watchers organisation who promised to provide for both him and Pearl in exchange of him spying on their behalf, being a messenger etc. Desperate, he accepts their offer but hides it from Pearl and just says he got a legit job or smth, knowing she would not approve of it as it is too dangerous and would try to discourage him and look for another way.

The missions grew more and more dangerous and with each one Grian distanced himself from Pearl further and further. (Which in turn pushed her to seek the truth and become an investigative journalist)

As time goes on Grian gets a job as a scientist and actually tries to live a normal life as a “retired villain” but still is unable to fully escape the Watchers who force him to take jobs every so often. This pattern continues until he gets indebted to Scar who saves him and in true Grian fashion just Has To stick around and help him until the debt is repaid and thus becoming cuteguy!

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[perenlop]

pokeani moments that exist purely to make Me miserable:

the line where they call ash's oshawott a throwaway pokemon in the unova league so they're just flat out saying they think it's a worthless pokemon

to thine own pokemon be true (extra angst points for me bc ambipom was my second favorite on the team at the time)

the granddaughter of the guy who trains gliscor calling gliscor pathetic and weak to her face despite gliscor being an extremely sensitive pokemon

pretty much everything about that gible

blue episode (favorite color but they made it a fetish somehow and also dewott and brionne and meowstic are all there and its so bad)

boxing heracross immediately. also that battle frontier episode where it's literally the only returning ash mon (barring torkoal i think but i dont count it bc its native to AG) to get humiliated onscreen

pidgeot returning but gliscor didn't even show up in the miniseries despite being an Actual Character

[ganondoodle]

something thats been driving me crazy is the constant worry that i am somehow using harmful stereotypes for the characters i write

like i am unfortunately white tm and me also being autistic and queer does not erase that obviously, im always trying to educate myself as best as i can, yet i feel like im always doing something wrong

its less of a problem when im working with the normal forms of hylia and demise since they are not really human, and though their humanoid disguises technically are still not human they do represent what they might have looked like if they grew up as one; i didnt want to make demises form too dark since i felt like it would perpetuate that stereotype of dark skin = evil which is already not great about ganondorfs character design, but didnt want to make him too light since i felt it would erase that part of his connection to ganondorf altogether and make it all the worse, but then again my demise isnt actually that evil, hes good at heart, so making him too light then would be even worse bc it would imply that light = good thing again

for hylia im even more anxious about it bc i intentionally gave her very dark skin to kinda subvert that light = good thing with zelda (tho in my AU the gods are not good and hylia isnt actually as loyal to them as it may seem bc she knows that.. which i feel complicates things just further; and also light an dark is just a very good contrast aesthetically?) but then i also like to intentionally make characters rather ?gender? but then i worry her being somewhat masculine would also be sth harmful bc i know black women are often treated as inherently less feminine .. which isnt my intention at all (tho my hylia .. doesnt rly have a gender? idk many characters i like to write/design dont have anything specific, like what more do you need than knwoing the right pronouns to call them?? qnq) her being rather cold and ruthless also feels like im doing something bad somehow

then theres the whole sexualization worry, i dont know if im doing that in a bad way bc honestly i just like .. drawing ...bodies? aesthetically? like yes they are very sexy but also wheres the line, am i somehow overstepping it without knowing?? how can i recognize what is normal 'finding certain things pretty or sexy' and what isnt??

so far i dont remeber anyone pointing anythign out as bad which im taking as a sign that i cant be doing that badly .. hopefully, maybe all this is a very stupid thing to worry about and its obvious to everyone else but i am so god damn afraid of doing something even slightly questionable and being hunted down for it (probably bc similar happened to me when i was a teen and it was about an absolut non issue, literally, so even the thought of doing something actually bad is mind boggling to me bc that other thing nearly cost me my life and i literally dont know how i survived and i would 100% not if it happened again..)

this is probably a very chronically online thing too but hoenstly i needed to get it out of my head for once

[gu6chan]

maybe its sample bias but i think it's kinda funny how most people I've seen who've played drakengard because of nier are making ending e THE endgoal and more often than not the main if not only reason they're playing the game at all and when they finally get it they're like "this is it the single most impactful, greatest moment of all gaming. im wiping tears from my eyes this is it" and then you see the drakengard fans who've played drakengard because they like drakengard and you ask them about ending e and they're like "eh. it was okay, i guess"

[pawsometoons]

What a great day for starting to feel bad about liking specific pieces of media again

Can I have one fucking day without seeing certain people ruining shit for others I swear to god

This is getting so tiring and distressing I don't know how much more of this I can take

Why can't people just be fucking normal and not ruin the enjoyment of a piece of media for others I CANT FUCKING STAND IT

It's starting to make me feel scared and unsafe here but I literally have nowhere else to go so I'm just stuck in an environment where I feel like I can barely be myself anymore. And all around, I'm seeing more people being hurt in worse ways by those who hurt me too

It's getting so stressful and I'm trying so hard to just push through it but now it's just starting to eat away at me and idk what the fuck to do

[rubiesintherough]

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[ji-lixie]

heartbreak so bad i will fix my sleep schedule over it-

[lonelychicago]

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[iamrizaka]

Are you all right? It's just that you've been away for so long.

IM ALIVE!! its just there's been a lot going on with moving out and exams. i was studying whole january for my exams that were like 4 or 5 days apart from each other and barely slept. my first (english) exam was on jan, 8, and my last (cytology and histology) was on jan, 31.

since my last exam i was only sleeping. uni starts again this friday and im really not ready to spend like an hour and a half to ride there and stay awake during a physics lecture (and then have two more periods) 😭 i hope i'll be able to ramble to my friend at least.

i've been drawing whenever i could so i hope i'll be able to post of them! but i will check the inbox first.

[gale--dekarios]

finding out a person i’ve known since 2020 deactivated all their socials bc ppl found out they were grooming someone is. crazy