#im sorry if this doesn't help u

[sabh0]

Little rant and probably a controversial opinion, please don't burn me at the stake for that If i asked you to guess how many dazai anon accounts have i blocked here till now, what number would u think of? Bc i just checked - i currently have 9 of their accounts blocked. 2 from this week alone. And it's not like i go around hunting for them. I just randomly open tumblr to check what silly things did ppl say about my art, and then i see 50 different reblogs, comments or asks from dazai anon alone, being no longer only mean to Chuuya or skk, but bashing my art or telling me to off myself!!! Yay!! And u know, it wasn't a problem in the beginning. The stuff they write is comedic with how stupid it is. I could also interact with em smh (ngl, they left me for a good while after i drew them and chuuya making out that one time). And as i said, before they didn't attack me personally. But then i started getting comments that i shouldn't interact with dazai anon bc something something they're mentally unstable? Like im sorry, but how is this my problem. They come to me and regularly tell me to hurt myself, but i can't even reply to them bc "sab, it's no use, they're sick smth smth smth, just block them"?? Like bruh aight, it's just that sitting silently actually starts to affect me. Bc no matter how many accounts i block, they come back with a new one the moment they realize they're blocked. And the whole carousel of "block, dont interact" starts again. I just think it's not really alright to tell ppl that they can't in any way stand up for themselves? Why do i have to care about personal wellbeing or a sad backstory of someone who doesn't respect mine? Why should i even know about their problems? They're a complete stranger to me and i don't really go around reading random people's biographies on the internet. Like aughhh it's seriously starting to annoy me now,,,, i'm not saying ppl ACCEPT what dazai anon does, but using the excuse that they're not okay mentally just doesn't sit right with me, idk. Mental health problems should never be an excuse for hurting others, imo.

[bacchuschucklefuck]

love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest

[dandyshucks]

blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

i could draw anything but i decided to draw this. carlo and rocco in 1932 aka my headache

[return2zero]

At first I saw some people posting about this game a little before launch date and thought. huh. I'm too old for this. I'll just enjoy people talking and posting about it. I'll intake 2nd hand delulu instead.

And then curiosity got me when I saw character customization. I looked up the official website after the day of release.

This was the point of no return...

I saw there was battle gameplay and it immediately piqued my interest. (Being the action and rpg gamer that I am, of course that was the thing that got me interested aside from the customization)

And now...

(。_。)... (⁠゜-゜⁠;) ... (*´･~･)... (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

I'm digging down this rabbit hole so fast I might as well find myself appearing in Linkon City...

[fellhellion]

tunes talking about the same shit again etc etc but something i find really compelling about the 90s run, that you can feel sitting under the narrative even if Miguel the character (understandably) doesn't dig into it, is this awareness about the unsaid and deeply complicated relationship Miguel must have with physical retaliation given the fact he suffered a household with domestic violence, and he's a character terrified of becoming his father.

how he never fought back as a child because yes, he was a kid, but also he lived in the actively instilled fear that retaliation or rebellion would incur his father's abuse down upon Gabriel and Conchata.

how miguel doesn't strike his father as an adult because he thought he might accidentally kill him yes, and he didn't want an easy end for george o'hara, but just. the fact that miguel refuses to linger on any connection between his refusal to hit george, and the fact miguel's also so scared of becoming his father. he never connects those two concepts in his own introspection but given how deep that fear runs, i can't help but think on the connection between them.

vs again physical retaliation as spiderman but solely as a means to protect and defend. finally hitting back but it's against the oppressive forces that seek to grind you down to dust.

[instantpansies]

formal literary analysis is just fanfic for nerds

[b4kuch1n]

Hey Baku!! I'm considering beefing up my redbubble or selling art elsewhere and wanted to ask, how is it working for you? Do you like it, and do you have experience with other art selling sites?

ah I might not be the best person to ask about that... I don't like redbubble and I don't enjoy the thing they just did with their margin and payout, but also that's just kinda how platforms are? if it's not this then it's something else. any of the print stuff I offer is fully on request now anyway (except for when I really like a piece and think it'd make a great print lol) - I don't really treat redbubble stuff like how merch artists do it, there's very little calculation involved in upkeeping the store, and it's absolutely not where any significant amount of my income comes from. at most I get enough to reach the payout margin every two months, otherwise it's definitely not uncommon for it to lie around at no movement for months on end. I'm not even involved enough to figure out how to tag my stuff on there without getting it lasered off the face of the earth by IP holders lmao. quality-wise their stuff's about fine, nothing exceptional to 'em, it's a good spot if you want to offer a variety of products at about the same level of effort and aren't too fussed about the margin. and that's as far as my use of the site extends

[izzy-b-hands]

Putting on last year's trans rigs stream from Drawfee before i have to get ready to go out with my mum and her bf today (bc i have the worst feeling in my gut he's gonna make that An Thing for me if given the chance today, aka whenever i eventually need the restroom while we're at Mystic)

[robotpussy]

when you express your feelings to one of your parents and they take it as a personal attack..................

[wiredsmi1e]

hi yes ive got sm to do today istg i just wanna

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[cruelsister-moved2]

not telling anyone what to do but I kinda miss when the understanding abt multiple pronouns used to be that any are fine or different ones apply in different contexts whereas now the default assumption is you need to be constantly switching between them per sentence like that is really inaccessible for a lot of people + difficult in a second language + just genuinely defeats the linguistic object of a pronoun 😭

but I think it came from being a tme she/they who no one ever uses they for which I understand the frustration but i wish we could approach the root causes of that rather than the way I've seen ppl claim not alternating pronouns for someone midsentence is literally misgendering & honestly at the end of the day if you don't want someone to use she pronouns for you, tell them not to use she pronouns! we were all pronouns=/=gender until its "they to show I don't identify with the institution of womanhood, she to show my connection with femininity" but honestly how do you actually like being referred to, worry abt that. if u actually don't like ppl using she to refer to u then tell them that & if the discomfort is bc it shows their perception of u doesn't align w ur gender then like performative language doesnt actually change that anyway so mb if we stopped worrying about this we could actually have way more worthwhile conversations about gender.

[emotional-support-demoman]

Hi demoman I haven't sent you an anon ask in a while but shit had to happen so here we go! So I have experienced a lot of bullying in school, be it from older kids after school, classmates or even my homeroom teacher. I've been bullied basically since grade 1-4 and thankfully I managed to transfer classes for grade 5 and haven't been bullied since but the experiences stuck with me. Those four years felt like an eternity and by the middle of 3rd grade I was considering suicide or murder, either worked. Thankfully I managed to get a psychiatrist by 6th grade I think? and have been going there once every full moon for a few years now but sadly my psychiatrist would rather focus on my gender identity (I'm transmasc) rather than the bullshit I went through. Even worse is that my dad doesn't believe in therapy and thinks only clinically insane people get therapy! Yippee! So only my mom is willing to make appointments and drive me there since I'm 14 at the moment and unable to do that myself. Now after that long ass exposition, to the incident at hand. So my mom is visiting her family in a different country and currently in a fight with my dad over stupid shit which they are both treating like toddlers by not talking it out, my mom wanted to make an appointment for me with a psychologist which can only be done on Monday and she isn't here to make that call on Monday so she asked me to ask my dad to make said call on Monday and gave me the contact info on a paper. Sadly a few minutes ago my dad found said paper on my desk, told me that I'm not insane and don't need therapy and attempted to do the job of a therapist for me when he himself needs therapy. I tried do explain that I've been suicidal and he gave me the advice of "you no longer have that teacher so just forget it and move on" and left, which is easier said than done. Doesn't help that he thinks anyone who works in psychology is a scammer and that he knows me better than anyone (he doesn't) since he raised me and was there when I went through the trauma. Hell he doesn't know the amount of times I had breakdowns alone in my room because of the memories from when I was still younger, I'm not even allowed to cry really. It's just a really really stupid situation and I'm probably gonna call my mom about the appointment tomorrow since it's already late here.

Thanks for reading this great wall of china length post

It's ok lad I'm sorry to hear that ya had to deal with this.

Therapy is a tool used to help people it's not something reserved for who meet a certain standard to use so it's odd that he has that way of thinking. I'm glad ya getting the help ya need bullying no matter how severe or by who is awful and no one should have to go through it, it's sometimes hard to let go of what happened for some it's easy for some it's the hardest thing to do it shouldn't be held to the same standard for everyone. He shouldn't keep you from getting help when he thinks he knows better it's selfish if ya ask me.

You deserve to feel happy and have access to the resources to do so he shouldn't keep that from you so I'm sorry it's happening lad.

I hope ya can get there soon and sort this I believe you can!

[the-innefable-idiot]

the way lestat knows Something happened to claudia when she comes back makes me believe he was also assaulted by other vampires in europe

[mechawolfie]

i can not begin to explain how much it hurts knowing i am barred from so many things ppl consider "normal" because of my upbringing