#im sorry for venting

[promiseland-larp]

i dont even know why im writing here but .. yeah

kitku here - just wanted to tell you all that i think everyone is loosing it and no one is answering me

do you all think olek will be back in demon form, just as canis? would that be better than just... not being here anymore?

god damnit

do we wait for Canis to send us the message that olek did not pass his tests?? in that case hes probably not coming back at all

i just wonder if anyone else would be interested in HELPING canis now... cus the rest that is left never looked to eeger to even believe it is him... so... just stopping slenderman? but theres not stopping it??? and... oh god, canis what do i do now

[xalatath]

I was 16 when I got "put away" for nearly 2 years and I had absolutely no contact with anyone outside for the majority of that. My (now ex) bf assumed I had killed myself and started dating someone else within like. A few weeks. And I spent 2 yrs trying everything within my power to contact him, and as soon as I FINALLY succeeded he broke up with me. And it's not really that I mourn that relationship, and I can't really even say I blame him, but just. Being so insignificant that someone Can just forget about your whole existence so quick. Meanwhile I was being psychologically tortured and abused 24/7 with genuinely nothing to live for besides the people I left behind,and then going thru all of that only to find out I didn't mean nearly as much to them as they did to me. Can't even describe how badly that fucked me up. How do u even come back from that. And whatever, I know it was 4 years ago at this point but I still live every day knowing that I'm just that inconsequential. I feel like a complete asshole for being upset about it rn

[pizza-feverdream]

I swear I'm so fucking tired of forgetting things all the time. People take personal offense to it and I feel like an awful person and I can't fix it. I can't fix it. There's nothing I can do to improve

[christ-in-all]

Hey, if you feel inclined, if you could pray for me and my mental health I'd be really thankful. Lots of personal things are happening in my life right now and I'm really considering ending it all at this point and am completely alone with no support. I'm really suffering right now and don't know what to do.

[inactivecam]

i dont understand. i dont understand most things,, i loved you and trusted you and you guys just leave. why does everyone leave. i hope my mum notices the signs and takes me to the hospital again,,

it will only get worse.

[calamari-minecraft-corner]

AGH.

[catsingbad]

tw: talk of s/h and suicide

I relapsed a bit ago.

tbh I have this sick feeling that makes me want to bleed again. I want to see myself bleed. I want to see myself fucking bleed. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. It's not like my family going to give a shit or notice.

Will they even care or notice if I die right now?

Maybe? No? Yes?

I don't know anymore.

How long will it take for people to notice if I am fucking dead?

One min? Two hours? Five days?

I don't fucking know. It's not like anyone will care. Does anyone really care about me? Or are they just saying that because they want to use me?

I. Don't. Fucking. Know.

And it scares me.

[icelectricspyro]

repent

[rotting-bitch]

Guilt follows me like a stray dog

[majestydeerakuma]

I still feel like I’m hated by people for shit I never even did

I might just be paranoid as hell right now but still

I never wanna hurt people on purpose and if people really see me as a hurtful person then I really don’t know what I’d do with myself

I’m starting to think maybe I deserve the worst

[kazzikkiii]

having bpd is actual hell on earth cause no one tries to fucking understand you and they write you off as being difficult and too much and they leave and we’re left with this fucking personality disorder that consumes my entire fucking existence and they act like its THEIR inconvenience that IM ill.

[bloodyrosesnthorns]

I'm sorry mom.

[chatlote]

If you wish to go, Do I have the right to ask you to stay? Guess not.

[boopicide]

i don't wanna die, i just wanna never have existed in the first place.

[destroyedbitxh]

I just want to stop suffering

[depressiv]

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