#im so tired of being alone

[happy-radio]

I'm so fucking tired man. I'm tired of feeling like a joke. Like an outcast. Like I'm just a burden to make fun of. It doubly hurts bc I've been trying so hard to make friends with my cis male coworkers and I'm always just...othered. Like it's proof that I'll never be a real man. I'm just that weirdo who pretends to be one

[solacecent]

I hate being autistic, I don't know how other autistic people say they're proud of being autistic. like im happy for you but god I fucking hate it.

I can never unmask around strangers because I know how society will treat me. I just wish I could just be a happy allistic girlie who has friends.

[littlemisshaleybug]

I hate that I have the most toxic little asshole living in my brain. They're cruel and rude and insecure and possessive and so so so goddamn unhelpful whenever something emotionally upsetting happens, and I HATE that I can't always shut them up or squish them down.

Maybe it's just my inner teen wanting so badly to be heard, to hurt people the way I'm hurting. That teen who was used and mocked and absolutely never someone's first option. The one that was sexualized but never desired, was demanded time from but never appreciated when they were there, who gave everything and was stabbed in the back for it. Maybe they're protecting the little girl child thing that was also ignored or overlooked.

Or maybe I just want to be someone's first pick?

Why do I have to always come second or third best? Never anyone's priority? Ask intimacy of me, ask understanding and patience and passion and attention and desire from me, but never commit to me, never look me in the eye and say you want me and only me.

Is it so wrong to want someone to just stand up and say they want me and only me? To not be just the backup, or the spare?

Why am I not good enough?!

[maryreadings]

i can take a hint i'm just going to take my sleep cough meds and hopefully pass out soon so i don't have to think or feel anything

[thefanatic-10]

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[girlsexbattle2]

guys. guys. guys giys guys guys guys guys giys giys guys guys

[espytalks]

I think i really need a cat

[bolontiku]

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[asphodelpoetry]

cacti in my stomach

whispers of something greater, more

in the oppressive night air

talking back and forth,

do you think we could make it?

[deadtotheworld597]

I be checking my phone like I mean something to someone

😂silly fucking me 😂

[mildlytired]

*goes to college to make friends*

*does not make friends*

*transfers colleges*

*all classes for summer semester are online*

*hello isolation*

[bloodied-and-alone]

"oh just wait youll find someone one day"

ya no. im 24. im not gonna find anyone ever. im lucky if i can get a fucking friend. ill just stay alone forever.

"jUsT wAiT yOuLl FiNd SoMeOnE oNe DaY"

fuuuuuckkkkk youuuuuuuuu

nobody wants me so whos supposed to find me?????????? EVEN MY FUCKING DOG COULD FIND A BETTER RELATIONSHIP THAN ME!!

im sorry idk what this is...

i think we're just a little angry at the world and want to have an actual loving relationship just ONCE in our life and irl (fuck the internet)

[greattideflow]

im such a helpless romantic.

[starry-bi-sky]

realizing i have. a lot of untapped trauma potential for clone^2 danny because i just Fully Processed Four Months Late the fact that his parents were capturing and torturing ghosts in the basement before he became Phantom. and the fact that he was on house rest for 2 weeks. during that time period. and he wasn't really leaving the house. he could hear their screaming through the floorboards

*points at clone danny* i can give you suuuuuuch a bad time babe ahaha. i've got two untouched years before you meet damian what fucks you up before then

[maryreadings]

do people in happy relationships realize how lucky they are

[australet789]

Gosh, i hate that post going around that's is so fucking USA centrist that says "you MUST move out and stop living with your parents or you will never get character development" or something like that

And im just

Fuck you? I LOVE living with my parents (with my mom specifically). If i EVER lived alone i would have killed myself at this point. Even if i wasnt as sick as i am now i would have never EVER wanted to leave their side

Saying "you must live on your own or else" it's so fucking USA bullshit. Im sorry you have learned that in your culture and i pity you and that you have to have that mindset. Or that you have to make posts with reasons as to why "living with your parents is a boss fight" kinda thing.